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Sorry about the wait.

Oh, it's no problem.

No one came with you?

No, no, I'm, uh, here by myself.

Okay.

So...

you work at Macy's.

Yeah, I'm an associate buyer.

My wife would love your job.

If the news is bad, you can, um, just tell me.

It's AML.

Acute myelogenous leukemia.

I'm sorry.

I know this comes as a shock,

but we have to move quickly-- this type

of cancer is aggressive,

but we can effectively treat it.

Our oncologist here,

Dr. Treadway, is one of the best in the country.

She can fit you in on Thursday morning.

I'll send over your results,

but I'm sure she'll want to run some tests

of her own.

I know this is a lot to take in.

Mmm.

Do you understand what I'm telling you here?

Mm-hmm.

Do you want me to call someone for you?

Uh, no I'll call them. Thanks.

Hello?

Hi, Mom, it's me.

Hey! Hi!

How are you?

Um, you know, busy.

Uh...

Listen, I was thinking of coming home tonight.

Great!

Really. Great, great, great!

Yeah, well, I have all those, uh,

those vacation days, you know, and, um,

just kind of wanted to use them up.

So would that be okay?

Of course it's okay.

We'll wait up. No, no, don't worry about it.

It'll be a, a late start,

so I'll probably not get in till the morning.

All right, then, honey. Well, drive safely, okay?

We'll see you then.

Okay, bye.

Hey!

Hi.

Where are you? - I'm out here.

Hey, you.

Guess who that was. - Who?

Sarah.

Really?

Yeah. - How is she?

She's coming home tonight.

Tonight? Why? - Mm-hmm.

Does she need a reason? - No, but you know what I mean.

I mean, Sarah doesn't come home out of the blue.

You remember last time she was home for Christmas?

She works retail. That's her busiest time.

I know, just doesn't sound like her.

I'm gonna have a shower and change the sheets on her bed.

And, oh, oh, oh, oh...

get that exercise bike out of her room.

Yes, I will. - Okay, great.

# It's a dark road #

# And a dark way that leads to my house #

# And the word says #

# You're never gonna find me there, oh, no #

# I've got an open door #

# It didn't get there by itself #

# It didn't get there by itself #

# There's a feelin' #

# But you're not feelin' it at all #

# There's a meaning #

# But you're not listening any more #

# I look at that open road #

# I'm gonna walk there by myself... #

# Ooh... #

# 'Cause I'm not lost #

# Just looking for the ways #

# I'm taking it #

# A step at a time #

# And I'm getting by #

# By the way #

# It's you on my mind #

# It's you on my mind... #

Can I help you?

Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa. - Oh, sorry.

Sarah?

Evan.

Hi.

Hi.

Uh, I was, uh...

wasn't sure that... - You weren't sure

about what? That...

that I'd still be in Staunton?

Well...

Yeah.

No, I just, uh...

I heard what happened

to your father.

Um, how's he, how's...

how's he doing?

Uh, he's, he's better.

Yeah, thanks.

Yeah, his, um...

You know, he's still using the,

the walker, but his left side

is gaining mobility, so...

Um, and his, his speech therapy went all too well.

Can't keep Ray quiet, huh?

No, no.

I should probably, uh...

So, I heard you're a "big shot" investment banker now.

In Houston, right? - Dallas.

Yeah, I'm a, I'm a, I'm a real big shot.

No, I'm just kind of playing it by ear.

I heard you were, uh, going to medical school.

Yeah, I didn't get a spot.

So, I'm just still...

shopping for a living.

Well, you look great.

Uh...

$25 even.

Thanks.

You know, I was actually, um,

in your neck of the woods last month

for the Cubs home opener.

I thought about giving you a call 'cause...

I had a, an extra ticket.

But, I, I... - Oh.

Yeah, well, I just, you know, I figured

you were probably, uh, seeing somebody.

No. No.

I'm, uh, are you?

Uh, no, I mean, you know,

there were some possibilities back in Texas.

But, uh, I've been here four months now,

so I probably burned those bridges.

Well, you never know.

So I noticed the, uh,

the big scrape on your car.

If you're gonna be here for a few days,

I could, uh, fix that for you.

Yeah, I just did that.

Parking garage

incident? - You know,

it's really weird, actually.

Someone just moved the guardrail

to the middle of the road.

The nerve of some people.

It's good to see you.

It's good to see you.

It is gorgeous out there.

Hey, did you say that you were going to Alton today?

Yeah, Brad tipped me off about a wonderful estate sale.

I hear there are some beautiful pieces.

Uh-huh.

Hey, did you like

that thing I made with chicken and mushrooms?

Oh, yeah, that'd be great, thank you.

Uh, you asked me to remind you about the roses.

Thank you-- yes, I do

still have time.

She'll be upset.

But we should know. - Hello?

Shh-shh-shh-shh...

Hi, honey. Hi, Sarah.

Hey.

What?

We just got a call that you...

you might not have wanted us to intercept.

We know why you came home.

I can explain.

It was Amy,

and she tried-- she didn't know if you were going

to be checking the messages on your machine

and she tried you on your cell,

but she couldn't reach you.

We're so proud

of you.

Proud?

What? - Oh, sweetheart.

It was admissions from Northwestern Med.

You got in. - I got in?

You got in. - You got in.

You did it.

You got in,

kiddo.

I got in? - Yes.

And you thought it would be a waste of time to re-apply.

I... Northwestern?

Yes, yes!

Congratulations, doctor.

Come on, now, sit down.

Come on, come on, come on. - Uh...

So, Chuck called, cancelled our meeting for tonight,

so maybe we can go to a movie after dinner.

Lorraine?

The Russell girl is home.

Hi, Mom. - Hi, Mom.

Jon.

Rick...

Jon's driving.

Dad, I have my permit.

How am I supposed to learn if I never drive?

That's a nice try, but let your brother do it.

I'll take you out to Reservoir Road tomorrow night

and we'll do some practice runs.

See you at Jon's game.

Jon has a game?

Sectionals, Mom.

Sectionals, Mom.

You okay?

Mm-hmm.

Yeah, I'll meet you after school.

Okay, yeah. I've got to go. Bye.

That's one!

One more!

Look alive out there! - Two outs.

Nice job!

Good work, bud!

Good work, bud!

Come on, Bulldogs!

Sorry. - There you are.

I lost track of the time. - That's all right.

How's he doing? - Hi, Mom.

He's not bad.

Go, go!

Yes, yes! Take two!

Go!

Hey, you okay? You want something to drink?

Mm-mm I think I'm getting a migraine.

Lorraine?

Tell Jon I'm sorry.

Let's go, Jon!

You can do it!

Out of the park, Jon!

Yeah, that's it! That's it!

Yeah! Go, go, go, go!

Lorraine?

Yeah? - Hey, Mom, got a minute?

Hi, sweetheart, yeah, come on in.

How's Macy's?

Do you still have to go to San Diego

for the accessories expo?

Uh, no, I think Brenda

is actually going to go for me, so, um...

Mom, do you believe in karma?

Hmm? Karma?

Yeah.

Of course I do.

I believe good things happen to good people.

Daddy and I are so excited for you.

I wasn't talking about medical school.

Is it about a guy?

Hey, whatever happened to that young fellow

who used to work for the Art Institute?

Oh, well, we, uh, went to coffee that one time,

but that was over a year ago.

So...

Look at you; you are so beautiful.

But who cuts that hair, honey?

Come on, I bet you pay good money for that. $20?

$25? More?

Mom, it's not about my hair.

Tuition? Are you worried about tuition?

Don't do that.

Daddy and I have already discussed it.

We're prepared to help.

I just think this might be a little too much

for me right now, you know, to take on.

Oh, come on, no...

This is the only thing you've wanted to take on

since graduation.

I just think you're nervous is all.

It must be weird.

You know, first you resign yourself to not going

and now you are going, and so it just must be weird, huh?

Stop worrying.

Okay.

Is that her car?

Yeah, I think so.

Come and eat.

Tom and Harriet Banks are the lucky winners

of this past weekend's super lottery draw.

The pair came forward

to claim their $11 million prize this morning and face the media.

Tom Banks is an electrician and says for the time being

his plans are to keep working

but only after a three-month vacation.

Harriet Banks says she and her husband plan

to donate a sizable amount to charity.

Doctors at Mount Sinai Hospital say

they may have uncovered a link to the cause of impotence.

With the discovery, Hmm.

the doctors say they are now isolating bacteria

and may be able to come up with...

Hi.

Hey.

You feeling better?

Yeah, a little bit.

Good. Good.

What did you guys do for supper?

Pizza.

Sorry.

Don't be. Loved it.

Lorraine...

It's just a migraine.

I'll let you rest.

Sarah?

Daniel!

Hey. - You're home!

Hey, how are you?

It's good to see you.

You, too. What are you doing here?

Well, I was checking the mail

and I was just looking across the street.

Um, I hadn't noticed the roses before.

They're really nice.

Okay.

Do you ever talk to them

much or...? - Mom does.

She tries to, anyways. I mean, you know Mom.

She takes over a couple fresh tomatoes from the garden,

thinks she's fixed the world. - Right.

What about you? - Oh, no, I'm probably

the last person that they want to talk to.

Hey.

Perfect timing. You can help me unload.

Hi. - Hey.

How'd you know Daniel was home?

Uh, maybe I'm here for you.

Oh...

The estimate on your car.

Oh! Duh, yes.

Um, I'm going to take the mail in

and I'll come back.

How's it going? - Good, how'd your finals go?

You know, they're over, so that's a good thing.

Yeah, you need help with this?

Yeah, grab that bag.

So what's Sarah doing home?

I don't know.

Don't have to guess

why you're here, though.

Me and Sarah? That ship has sailed.

Uh-huh.

All right, well, I can fix it for about...

a hundred bucks.

A hundred bucks? - Mm-hmm.

Yeah, well, that's just for the...

the parts, the paint.

I mean, I wouldn't charge you for the labor.

You know, Evan,

um, that's very sweet of you,

but it's not very smart business.

Well, you forget where you are.

Customer relations are what matter. - Really?

What, uh, what kind of relations?

Have a beer at the Salty Dawg

with me.

Come on.

It's been...

five years?

I don't drink beer.

Good, even better.

I love a cheap date.

Mm-hmm.

Oh...

Okay.

Okay. All right, good. I'll pick you up

at 8:00. - Mm-hmm.

You've reached Dr. Treadway's office.

Please leave a message.

In an emergency, you can page her

at 312-555-0178.

Hi, this is Sarah Russell.

I was referred by Dr. Gordon, and I was actually, um...

Uh, I'm not going to be able to make my appointment tomorrow

with Dr. Treadway, so I was hoping to, um,

call back and reschedule it when I can.

Thank you, bye.

Who was that?

Work. Did you tell anyone?

Nope, I haven't told anyone yet.

Sarah, don't you think

you should warn them that you're leaving?

Yeah, I'll do it at the end of the summer.

Honey, getting in is a big step,

but there's still plenty to do.

Yeah, I know.

So Larry asked

if we wanted to go to a movie with him and Sue tonight.

Oh, I don't think so.

I'm exhausted.

Did you play tennis today?

No, I worked all afternoon.

Did you get out at all?

I get lost in my work, Howard.

Hi.

I'm home for a few days, if maybe you...

wanted to talk.

Talk?

Yeah.

We're getting ready for dinner.

Well, I could come back another time.

Why would you want to do that?

What's going on?

Wait a minute, what... is that all you're taking?

Yes. - Well, at least

have a little pasta. - No.

I'm okay.

That's why you're so skinny.

I'm not skinny.

I look like every other girl in Chicago.

What, malnourished and anemic? Eat.

So Sarah, are you, uh, going out

with Evan tonight?

Mm... - Are you?

Evan from high school Evan? You're such a jerk.

I cannot believe you, Daniel.

He abandoned her 'cause she's so skinny.

He didn't abandon me, okay? We broke up.

Let's get the story straight.

She dumped Evan. - Ooh. Okay.

Oh, speak of the devil.

Hey. - Hi.

Hey, Evan. - Hi, Evan.

Wow, how's your dad?

Uh, he's better. He's better, thanks. - Bye.

Okay, bye. - Oh, see ya.

# Oh, Daddy Dear, you know you're still number one #

# But girls, they want to have fun #

# Oh, girls just want to have #

# That's all they really want... #

All right, that's it. I'm putting your name down.

No! Don't, don't. - Come on.

I want to see you tap into your

inner Celine Dion. - No.

That's not gonna happen.

Besides, everyone's

already staring as it is.

Well, we're a good-looking couple.

Oh, so we're a couple now, are we?

Careful. I'll sing "Sara" by Jefferson Airplane.

Parent rock?

Nice.

All right, we're going to take a break

and we'll be right back with our next singer.

So now that your dad's

doing better, are you going to go back?

Well, I just, um...

I want to make sure he's okay.

Mm-hmm. - You know, long term.

I'm not about to let him lose the business.

And what about your job in Dallas?

Well, I'm still an analyst in training,

so they gave me some leeway.

You know, I do the work I can by e-mail.

But if it doesn't pan out, then...

Isn't that, like, a really good opportunity?

Yeah, but I mean, there's always opportunities.

You know, we're young.

My mom's gone, I'm don't want to leave my dad on his own.

Is that why

you stay in Chicago?

Opportunities?

# Show the world the warmth of your smile #

# But more than anything #

# More than anything #

You know why. You were there.

# My wish for you #

I wanted to be.

# Is that this life becomes all that you want it to #

I knew we couldn't just have a good time.

Sarah... - If you brought me

out here to dredge up ancient history

and make me feel bad, then I'm not in the mood.

You've never needed my help to feel bad.

Sarah, why didn't...

why didn't you just talk to me after it happened?

I wanted to, okay?

But every time someone

would look at me or tell me that it was okay, it wasn't.

It only made things worse.

So you just ran away?

Just take me home.

I'll call you tomorrow. - Evan, I just don't think

I can do this right now.

I meant about the car.

Oh. Yeah. I, uh...

Okay.

I didn't mean about the car.

Do you remember when you were a sophomore

and we took Ms. Strong's drama class together?

You were the only reason that I took that dumb class.

And no matter who I date

or how far I try to move away...

I still think about you.

Honey,

are you going to keep rooming with Amy

or are you going to get a place closer to campus?

Um... I don't know yet, Mom.

Hey, uh, are you...

are you still going to ask Ms. Morrisey

to refinish

Grandma's old rocker?

You know, honey,

I asked her about that at church that one day,

and she said that she was

really pretty busy.

It doesn't matter anyway,

because I sold that rocker as is at a yard sale.

You didn't want it, did you?

No. No, I, um...

I should actually get going.

You know, Sarah, I could come to the city for a few days

and we could look for a place if you like.

No, Mom. It's okay, I'm, I'm taking care of things.

Oh.

I think med school is the best thing

in the world for her right now.

The challenge will really do her good.

She's ready.

She's putting the past behind her,

it's about time, too.

I hope.

She's stronger than you think, Phil.

You've been saying that for six years.

Oh... Oh!

No, no, no, no. I'm just saying,

if we'd realized and gotten her some help back then,

maybe we wouldn't have a stranger for a daughter today.

Here we go again.

You going to blame this all on me?

Because I didn't want to send her to a shrink

and medicate her problems away?

Because I thought we could deal this on our own?

I was so naive?

It's not too late, you know.

We could all go talk to someone.

Now?

Yes.

Let it go.

Okay.

Hi.

Uh, it's me again.

Uh...

Can I come in for a minute?

Wow, you've got a really nice studio.

It's very...

homey.

It is my home.

Wow, this is beautiful.

The... box.

Is that why you're here?

You want something restored?

Maybe, I'm not really sure what.

Maybe something like this box, or...

Maybe go to Malloy's

with me or something to pick something out.

Malloy's?

I don't think so. But I'll keep a lookout for you

if you want.

Okay, thanks.

Was there something else?

Uh...

No. Sorry to bother you.

Can you guys get your own lunches today?

Your mother's not feeling very well.

Big surprise.

Hey! - Hey, yourself.

Lorraine?

I'm leaving. All right?

Um...

Call me if you need me.

Okay?

Stay in line.

It's your teddy bear, hmm?

What is this?

This is Mr. Bear.

It's my turn. Give me that.

I'm going to go sit with your brothers.

Hey, give me that, you creep!

Stop it!

Hey, it's my turn! - Stop it, both of you.

Hey, stop!

You can't watch TV...

He started it first.

It doesn't matter. Stop!

Jennifer! Stop it!

You can't watch TV, either one of you, okay?

But he started it. - Jennifer?

I'm telling Mom. - I don't care. It's my turn.

All right, what's so funny, Dad?

It says here they did a survey of 100 attractive young women

in Los Angeles, Denver and Chicago, asking 'em

what profession their ideal man would have to be.

And guess what they said?

I don't know. Doctor?

Uh-uh.

Lawyer?

All right, I give up.

Body shop mechanic.

Body shop mechanic-- I suspect

Bodyworks over here is a little biased.

Oh, it says

they figured they'd be in enough fender benders

throughout their life

that it must be worth it.

Oh.

Lookey here.

It's Sarah.

Good to see you. Good to see you, too.

It's been a long time.

Cinnamon roll?

Oh, no, I'm good. Um, but thanks.

Ah. Sweet enough already, huh?

What can we do

for you, kiddo?

Um...

Actually, Evan is going to fix the scrape

that's on the side of my car.

Yeah. All right, um, let me just give you a ride home.

Yeah. - Yeah.

I was just making lunch.

I looked out and saw her.

I wasn't sure what to do.

That's all right, Fran.

Thanks for calling.

Lorraine?

I'm almost finished.

Why don't we, uh... Why don't we just plant

some new ones on the weekend, okay?

I just want them gone!

I'm going to go home now, Lorraine.

I'll call you later.

Okay?

Thanks, Fran.

Lorraine?

Look, I know it-it's hard.

I know.

Let's just go inside, all right?

It's so green.

I can't believe I forgot

how beautiful it is in the summer.

Where you taking me?

Little detour.

I love it here.

Yeah.

Got a lot of rain this spring.

Oh. Now you're really going Mayberry on me.

What?

Too sophisticated for fishing now?

Uh...

No. I just, um...

I didn't want to have to show you up.

Really? Catch.

You okay?

Mm-hmm.

Why do you stay?

Do you think people get what they deserve in life?

Uh, I don't... I don't know.

Do you?

Ever since Jennifer died,

it's like I've been waiting for the other shoe to drop.

What do you mean?

I don't know. Punishment, you know.

Cosmic justice or something.

Yeah, I don't think the world works that way.

Especially when there's...

no one to blame,

so why torture yourself with that kind of guilt?

Maybe I'd feel better

if someone would just yell at me, you know?

Tell me I'm a bad person.

Is that all it would take?

Cause I'd be happy to do that for you.

But I bet you're already doing

a pretty good job of that yourself.

I should probably get home soon, huh?

No. Wait, please.

Lorraine, I know it's hard, but it's been long enough, okay?

Somebody could still get some good use out of this stuff.

I know. I'm sorry. I know

I got overwhelmed today, but maybe we...

Look, ever-ever since Sarah came home,

you've been slipping back.

I don't know what else to do.

You can let go.

Hi, Gayle.

Hello, Howard.

Can I speak with your daughter?

Phil?

Yeah. Yeah, I'll go get her.

Sarah, honey? So, how's the family?

Uh, family's fine, thanks, Gayle.

How's yours?

Uh, very well, thank you. - Good.

Very well. - Someone's here to see you.

Sarah.

Hi.

Can I have

a word with you?

Howard, if there's a problem...

No, Dad, it's... it's fine.

Um, Mom, please.

Have you been talking to my wife?

Um...

I asked her to help me find a box.

Thought maybe she could, um, refinish it or something.

Did you think that was wise?

I didn't...

I didn't mean to... cause any... harm.

That's not what I...

Well, unfortunately,

you are, uh, causing harm.

I mean, you just bring up,

um... a lot of memories

we've been working very hard to put to rest.

I'm sorry.

Look, I'm very glad

that you've, uh... you've put it all behind you,

but for Lorraine--

I mean, just seeing you

makes it worse, so...

I'm going to ask you to stay away from her

while you're home, okay?

Okay, but, you know, we do live across the street, so...

Yeah. Well...

just let her be, okay?

So...

What was that all about? - Nothing.

Oh, nothing.

Okay.

I like the way you guys redid the decks.

Looks good.

You're, you're almost as bad as your mom

when it comes to changing the subject.

Look, Dad, I just don't want to talk about it, okay?

Sarah...

Howard Morrisey hasn't crossed that street in years.

I don't understand why you can't just be happy

that I'm here, like mom.

I am happy that you're home.

It just, what, do you expect me

to act as if this is all normal?

Pretend that you're just hanging out here?

No questions asked?

Okay, listen.

I...

asked Mrs. Morrisey if she would be interested

in helping me find an antique box at Malloy's.

Mr. Morrisey thinks it's a bad idea.

Besides, it doesn't even matter

because she's not interested.

Okay.

You all right?

Yeah, fine.

You seeing a therapist in Chicago?

Dad. - Well,

you promised me you'd talk to someone

if it all got to be too much.

I think you should just leave it alone.

Hey, Mom.

Hi.

Um, can you write me a check

for my cap and gown rental? - Certainly.

It'll be a pleasure.

It was, uh...

$16?

Yeah.

Are Grandma and Grandpa Shea coming?

Of course.

They wouldn't miss it for the world.

Are you coming?

Or are you planning a migraine already?

Jon...

Uh, Jon, come on, we're late.

Okay, sweetheart.

It's 102.

It's probably just a summer bug,

but I could, uh, give Dr. Murray a call,

see if he could fit you in today.

No, Mom, I'm okay. I'm okay.

Or I could stay home.

Play hooky.

Stay in bed.

We could play Scrabble

like we used to when you were sick.

No, I'll be okay by myself.

You sure?

Mm-hmm.

Daddy seems to think

something's going on with you.

What do you think?

Well, I think you're just someone

whose life is about to change big time,

and you just need

a little time to adjust.

Yeah, that's probably about right.

Hey.

I'm glad you're home.

Gotta go, honey.

Okay, sweetie?

Drink lots of water, yeah?

And I'll call you later.

Mom...

Yeah?

Have a good day at work.

Oh.

Thank you, sweetheart.

Sarah, this is Dr. Gordon.

I just spoke with Dr. Treadway.

I'm not sure if you understand the severity of your condition.

This can't wait.

Excuse me.

Are you okay?

Hi.

Yeah, I'm fine.

I'm just...

a little... light-headed.

That's all. - Whoa.

No. - Maybe you should get out of the street.

You don't seem all right.

No, I'm, really I'm fine.

I'm fine.

Are you here alone?

Is your mother here?

No, she's at work.

Maybe we should call her so she can come...

No, no, no.

She'll just get upset.

This is so stupid.

Would you like me to...

maybe some water?

No, no I...

...I just think that I need to eat something maybe.

All right.

Well, if you're sure you're okay...

Uh-huh.

I think maybe I'll go over to Malloy's.

Do you have any advice?

I really don't know where to start.

I'm not your friend, Sarah.

We're not going to hang out.

If you find something,

maybe I'll look at it.

Take care.

Uh, hi.

I was curious about the, um,

the-the box in the front of the window.

The rectangular one. - Oh, yeah.

That's a real nice piece.

Made in the '20s.

You're Phil Russell's girl,

aren't you?

Yeah. I am.

Ah, I thought so.

So, uh...

about the box.

Is now a good time?

Let's see what you got.

It's in pretty bad shape.

Yeah, it is.

So you think you can restore it then?

I'll get back to you.

Mmm.

Well, uh, thanks for, um...

for saying that you'll try to fix this.

Don't make it into something it's not.

Okay.

What happened to you today?

In the street.

I forgot to eat.

Bye.

Hey.

Hey.

Hey...

you've got paint on your nose.

How's that?

Not so good.

That's better.

That's nice. Who's it for?

Sarah Russell.

You know, that's the first time I think

I've heard you call her "Sarah"

in the last six years?

Well...

it's her name.

Mm.

I thought you didn't want anything to do with her.

I didn't say that.

No, you didn't.

It's 10:30.

Boy, that's really looking great.

I'm glad you're pleased.

Did you make this?

No.

My great-great-great grandmother started that in 1845.

Three generations of Shea women worked on that.

It actually won a blue ribbon at the World's Fair in 1904.

Wow.

It's even hand-stitched.

I'd never have the patience.

It was northern Wisconsin in the winter.

There wasn't a lot else to do.

If I was stuck with my mother the whole winter

in a house, I think I'd probably freak out.

Let me help you.

Just leave it!

Why did you come here?

Why did you come back?

When you first started showing up,

I thought maybe you were coming to apologize.

I thought maybe if she apologizes

everything will be okay.

But... but you didn't,

and it's just making it worse.

I-I wanted to apologize.

I'm... I-I'm sorry.

Why weren't you watching her?

Why couldn't you stop her?

I tried.

She wandered off.

She was-was...

She was a baby! You have to watch them!

We left you in charge!

We trusted you!

I know, I know, it was my fault.

But why?! - Lorraine.

I-I just want to know why.

Lorraine, stop it.

If I just understood why... Then what?

None of this would-would have happened?

We'd all be okay?

Come on, now, for six years, you've been blaming everybody.

Me for not fixing the latch on the basement door.

The boys for distracting Sarah right at that moment.

No, I never... - Sarah for not being

in two places at one time.

We've all been hurting, Lorraine, all of us.

We all lost Jennifer.

And I don't think Sarah here

has the answers to your "why's."

Bad things happen to good people all the time.

Sometimes it's nobody's fault.

I never meant to hurt the boys.

I know, I know you didn't.

But they want their mother back.

They miss her.

So do I.

Sarah?

Sarah?

Sarah, wait.

I didn't know. I was just...

I saw her in town. I didn't mean...

I-I...

Sarah, did you think I was coming out here to yell at you?

I know it's not your fault.

It is my fault. Sarah...

It is my fault. It's my fault.

Sarah, listen to me.

It was not your fault.

Okay?

It's okay.

It's all right.

It's all right.

Okay.

You even fixed that old dent.

Yeah, it wasn't a big deal.

I have the... the check, so...

It's all right. Keep your money.

No, I-I can't...

I mean, I wo... I wouldn't feel right.

I think you should... you should take it.

It's because I tried to force the karaoke on you, isn't it?

I don't think this is going to work out, Evan.

You don't think what's not going to work out?

I'm seeing somebody back in Chicago,

and I just don't want to mess it up, you know?

Well, that's funny.

'Cause when you first got into town,

I thought you said you weren't seeing anybody.

All right, well...

you take care, Sarah.

Thanks.

Hey, Dad?

Is it okay if Lizzy comes to dinner with us after graduation?

Lizzy?

Whatever happened to Kristen?

Very funny, Dad.

You know it's been Lizzy since Christmas.

Night, Mom.

Good night.

89 cents.

Sorry?

89 cents-- that's what the screws cost

to fix the latch on the basement door.

I bought the wrong screws.

You couldn't fix the latch.

What you said the other night was right.

I'm sorry.

You do know I love you, don't you?

Yes.

Yes, I do.

Derek Baxter.

Megan Calhoun.

Jennifer Cameron.

And Dahlia Renee Martin.

Good job.

He's next.

Jonathan Keith Morrisey.

Yeah, Jon!

Congratulations.

Jon! - Whoo!

Good job. There you go.

Katherine Gayle Nelson.

Joseph Paul Norris.

Jessica Lynn O'Brien.

Can we take another, please?

Oh, of course.

Hey, Mom, can I just meet you guys at Giovanni's?

Oh, there I was hoping you would drive me.

Yeah, I mean, how are you going to learn

if you don't drive, right?

Let's go.

All right.

Bye, Dad. - All right.

Sarah?

Hi.

What are you doing here?

We're having a special brunch

for Jon's graduation at Giovanni's.

I saw you when we were driving up.

I don't want to drive you away.

Oh, no, no, no.

I actually have to get home anyway.

I wanting to talk to you about the other day.

Well, I think, uh...

I think what you said actually made sense,

um, and I don't want to make you feel bad,

so I'm just going to, um, I'm just going...

have my brother come over, maybe when the...

when the box is done.

So why are we having

this Memorial Day barbecue again?

Beats me.

Mom's getting a bunch of her clients over.

I think Dad's just looking for an excuse

to burn a bunch of meat to a crisp.

Ha, ha, ha.

Oh, I'm giddy with anticipation.

So... I hear you have a steady boyfriend.

Oh.

So you've been talking to Evan.

I knew it.

There's no guy in Chicago.

You're just messing with Evan's head again.

You know what?

Evan and I dated in high school.

I'm going back to Chicago, and he's going back to Dallas--

it would never work.

Ever the optimist.

Opti... Just shut up.

Surprise!

Surprise, honey.

Mom, you really should've talked to me about this first.

Well, that would've ruined the surprise, wouldn't it?

Hey, come on, Sarah. Relax, have a good time.

Oh, Lisa.

How are you? - Hey.

Did you and Evan have a fight?

I practically had to drag him here. - Mom, shh...

Hi, Sarah.

Hey.

Uh, your mom insisted.

I did.

I'm glad you're here.

Um, actually, I got to head back to the station now.

No.

You just got here. Come on.

Yeah, I know. There's a lot of boaters

heading up to the lake for the long weekend.

Okay. Well...

Danny says you're going back to Dallas next week.

You're... going home?

Yeah. Well, um...

my boss has been really patient,

but, you know, there's only so much

you can do via e-mail and telecom.

So, um...

Well...

congratulations again.

It was good seeing you.

Take care.

Love to your dad.

All right, could I have...

Could I have everyone's attention

just for a minute please?

First of all, thanks to everyone for coming by

and helping us celebrate.

Thank you very much.

Um, since Sarah's mother and I believe

that nothing but the best

will do for her, we're sending her to Northwestern.

Now, there will be sacrifices.

We'll be moving in to her our son Daniel's dorm room

and selling the house, so if anybody

wants to make a bid today,

just, uh, talk to Gayle.

Okay. We, uh, we can't hide the fact

that we are incredibly proud of our daughter.

So... to Sarah.

To Sarah. - To Sarah.

To Sarah.

We're sending Northwestern our first and our best.

Hey!

Oh, sorry.

You're sick, aren't you?

What is it?

Hodgkin's?

I'm fine, okay? Just leave me alone.

Sarah, don't lie to me.

It's leukemia.

You haven't told anyone, have you?

How could you possibly want to go through this alone?

You know, I really don't want to go into this right now.

You have to tell your parents.

I'm going in.

If you don't tell your mother, I will.

You have no right to do that.

But I will.

Fine, I'll tell her right now.

Or property val...

values will go up.

Sarah?

What are you doing?

I just, I'm...

I have to go home. You're going home now?

Yeah. - Can you not wait?

Just wait for a minute!

Just... - Stop it! Don't touch me!

Dad?!

Excuse me.

Lorraine.

Hello, Phil.

Howard came by a couple days ago.

He already talked to Sarah.

Sarah! Sarah, where are you going?

There's a house full of people.

I told you, I would take care of it.

Take care of what?

Lorraine, what are you doing here?

Please...

Please, there's no way to express how sorry we are

for what happened, but please, Lorraine, this is Sarah's day...

I'm sorry. I just can't stand by

and watch you go through what I did.

What is she talking about?

What-What is going on here?

Just listen to your daughter.

Sarah?

Sarah.

I'm sick.

What were you waiting for?

You were so excited about Northwestern.

I just, I couldn't...

Well, I just got off the phone with Dr. Gordon.

He seems a very nice... nice, nice man.

Good.

And he said you have a great chance of beating

this thing, sweetheart, but we have to get

to Chicago and start treatment,

so, as soon as possible.

I'll get us on an early train.

I need to go outside and get some air.

Okay, sweetie, but don't go too far.

Don't go too far, because we, I need to...

Mom, please, stop. - Sarah, what's your problem?!

Dan, please. - It's all right, love.

No, we want you to get better.

Isn't that what you want?!

Well, we do.

Come on, now.

You're the one who came home, Sarah.

You're the one who came home.

And maybe you didn't know why at the time,

but I think you wanted our help.

People want a lot of things, Mom.

It doesn't mean they deserve them.

Oh, sweetheart...

Oh, sweetheart, how have we gotten here?

I thought things were getting better.

They weren't.

Sweetheart, this is my fault.

I-I didn't want to see how badly you've been hurting.

It's not...

Don't feel guilty, okay? It's not your fault.

I ignored it and I'm sorry.

I'm so sorry. And tomorrow,

we're going to Chicago, all of us.

Yes.

Okay, we'll see, all right?

We'll see. - Sarah...

Sarah.

You deserve to be well!

Are you okay?

No.

Jennifer would have been seven last week.

I keep trying to picture what she would look like now.

When you look at someone's baby picture,

it's so easy to see the person they became.

But if you don't have the older point of reference...

She was beautiful.

She's stuck in my mind as a baby.

And then I try

to see myself at seven-- tall, skinny...

missing teeth.

In summer,

Mom couldn't get shoes on me, except on Sundays.

And I imagine her growing up--

high school, college,

her wedding.

Please, don't...

Oh, no.

No. It's okay.

It's not so sad anymore.

I've been picturing her as you.

How you were that night--

so young...

and trying to be

so grown up.

You're not to blame, Sarah.

You never were.

Wow, it's beautiful.

How much do I owe you?

Oh, nothing.

Really? - Really.

It's a gift; I want you to have it.

I know it's none of my business,

but I hope you'll find a way to forgive yourself.

Thank you. - Mm.

So I should probably tell you something.

Let me guess.

There's no guy in Chicago.

No, there's no guy in Chicago.

But you're still going to Northwestern

and I'll be over in Dallas, so...

Well, actually, I'm not going to, uh,

to Northwestern, not anytime soon.

I have leukemia.

Sarah...

Tell me what I can do.

Anything you need.

I have no right to ask you for anything.

You have every right.

I just wouldn't want this to be a big fuss, you know?

I just... - Sarah, listen to me.

People care about you.

Whether you want them to or not.

Okay?

I care about you.

The question is, how do you feel?

Just a minute.

Hi.

Hi.

You okay?

Sure.

Well, I don't know.

I was just remembering that, uh,

radio message they used to play.

"It's 8:00 p.m.

Do you know where your children are?"

Sarah's gone.

She left, on her own.

I don't know...

She'll be back.

I'm very sorry about... today, Lorraine.

Very sorry.

It's okay.

I just don't understand

how she could not want to be better.

I didn't want to for a long time.

I pushed my own family away.

But I was so glad they were still there

when I came to my senses.

But what if she's gone....

What if she's gone for good?

What if she doesn't come...

This is her home.

She will always come back.

Mom?

# A breath, a hush #

# A memory #

# They call out a name #

# I know this place #

# 'Cause it feels the same #

# The same #

Ready?

No.

Come on.

# I breathe, let go of the past #

# I hold so still #

# I have to make this moment last #

# I have to make this moment last #

# To last... #

# Today I start all over #

# Just breathe, let go of the past #

# I know my way #

# Coming home at last #

# At last #

# A breath, a hush #

# A memory #

# I breathe, remember your touch #

# I hold so still #

# Now I know what I can trust #

# Can trust. #