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SUNDAYS

- Who brought this? - I did.

You? How much was it?

- Like 8 euros or something. - 8 euros?

We'll pay you later.

Do you know what's back in the school? The...

- Not so loud. - Sorry.

The "I'm going to kill your grandma" notes to the little kids.

- What? - Shit.

I promise you.

- They did that to us a lot. - They were really cruel with us.

I came home crying one day

because they wrote something like:

"If you're not in the yard at 3, your mother will die..." or something.

- What did your mother say? - Just that I shouldn't believe it.

What else would she say?

I really believed it... I mean, because, like,

a girl told me she got a note...

- The music. - You spilled it all on me.

- The look on your faces! - That was scary!

Where were you?

With Carlota and those girls, but they were going to sleep.

My heart stopped, I thought you were Sister Pilar.

Can you imagine? She'd kill us.

If she came in now, we'd get detention and be expelled.

Be careful.

Well... did you hear?

- About what? - She's involved with the P.E. teacher.

- What? - What?

I think so, because the other day Sister Pilar came...

and told her she had a message for her.

A message to go to the bathroom!

That woman's bitter, she needs love, some touching...

God, come to my aid.

Lord, make haste to help me.

Glory to the Father, the Son, and to the Holy Spirit.

As it was in the beginning, now and forever. Amen.

Thank you, Lord, for the dawn

Thank you for the...

Ainara!

- Hello. - Hello.

- How did you sleep? - Very well.

We've barely had a chance to speak. How are you?

A little nervous now.

Relax. I'm sure the Lord will help, He always helps.

That's true.

- Write to me when you can or call me. - Okay.

We pray for one another.

- You want to listen? - What is it?

She's quiet, but sexually bold...

Marijuana and booze, enjoying life as it is...

She's quiet, but sexually bold...

Bye.

Ainara!

Hi, honey, how are you? Give me that.

- Izaskun. - How are you?

Good. Your dad's busy at the restaurant.

- Let's go, I'm double-parked. - Bye!

- Your parents? - No, I'll walk.

- I'll adopt you as a niece too. - Thanks.

Come on.

In spiritual exercises, right?

No, in the spiritual retreat.

Okay, much more modern, sure.

We ducked out a lot, especially at the start of the year.

Then the nuns got super-strict and there was no way out of it.

- Yeah... - Well, it's the same now.

First it was all: "We'll have a great time, we'll do super nice things,"

then all day we'd do nothing, absolutely nothing.

Yeah...

Just like back then.

But the place is nice.

Yes, true, it is nice. If the weather's nice, right?

Yes, it's true.

Well, I liked the nights too.

Chit-chatting there, hiding from the nuns.

- Get some rest, okay? - You too.

Bye.

Ainara! Tell Grandma I'll pick her up tomorrow at 10:30, okay?

- Okay, bye. - Good night, honey.

- Hello! - Hello.

Nerea, stay still, I'll prick you!

Grandma, will you fix my dress too?

Hello!

Yes, when I'm done here.

- Hello! - Hello...

- How was your excursion? - Good. Good.

Give me a kiss.

I brought you some pastries, made by the convent sisters.

- That looks good! Thanks. - Did you bring me something?

Auntie says she's picking you up tomorrow at 10:30.

Obey your big sister, okay?

And have dinner when she says.

Your dad says he won't make it to dinner.

Okay, thanks.

I brought meatballs for the three of you!

What? I mean, to whom?

I don't know yet.

But when I get married, the wedding will be in a beautiful, romantic tavern.

You'll be invited, Dad, Ainara...

- A ponytail? - Braid.

- What are you giving me? - A braid?

- Hi. - Hi.

Hi, Dad.

Dad, can you help me with the ribbon, please?

Come here, or I can't see. We have to be quick.

My goodness...

- Have you had breakfast? - No.

Well, go have breakfast, I'll tell your sister.

- Dad... It's almost 10. - Good morning.

- I know, I know. - Dad...

Ainara, help me with the girls, I'll shower and we'll go, okay?

Can I have it?

- No. - Why not?

- No. - You have to, it's my Communion.

What's wrong?

Nothing, I wanted to ask you for something.

I need your permission

to go to the convent of the Betinas for a few days.

Didn't you just come back from there?

Dad!

Nerea!

Girls, enough, no more. Will you settle down?

Look, I don't know.

It's fine to go there now and then, but you can't spend all your time in there.

Actually, in two weeks half the year is going on an exchange.

And Sister Pilar, my tutor in 5th grade...

I know who Pilar is.

She said we're not doing any major subjects

so I can take the opportunity to go back to the convent.

I can live with the nuns and spend time with them, you know?

Okay. Let me think it over, okay?

I won't be counted as absent or anything.

Fine by me, but must we decide right now? Precisely today?

No, but the sooner I tell them, the better.

I don't get your urge to shut yourself in there with some old ladies.

There are girls like me too.

Not like you, honey, they're nuns.

But will you let me have the "experience?"

Mother Isabel told me it's enough for her...

Ainara!

We'll talk later.

Okay? We'll talk.

Nerea, Eider! Come on, let's go.

- The traffic's terrible today! - Right...

Be more organized, how about that?

Hello, son.

- Where's the protagonist? - She's inside.

- Hello! - Uncle, why are you in jeans?

Why aren't you?

Girls, hi!

Pablo! Let's go. It's about to start.

Did you do her hair?

Hello...

"Dear parents, you love us dearly.

May there be no quarrels in our house."

May our family be united.

Why is he kissing them?

- I'll explain it all later, okay? - Okay.

But don't trust the priests, okay?

Dear families,

we wish you peace and happiness On this special day.

May the peace of Jesus fill our hearts,

reign in every home...

I'm going out for a smoke.

Go on.

And now, go, and wish for peace.

Come on.

Peace be with you.

- Peace be with you. - And also with you.

- The body of Christ. - Amen.

- The body of Christ. - Amen.

May your eyes be only on Him

May your eyes be only on Him

May your eyes be only on Him...

- The body of Christ. - Amen.

Worship no one but Him.

Worship no one but Him.

Worship no one but...

Worship no one but...

We have a gift for you... Pablo and Maite have gifts as well.

It's a more open, modern concept. Cleaner, I'd say.

We removed the bar at the entrance, maybe you noticed.

Yes.

We put it all in Nordic wood.

Hello.

Well, in the end we're all a bit Nordic here.

Did you notice? It's beveled to let in all the light,

but the sun doesn't hit it, it's not hot. It's fantastic!

- The wood was the only issue. - Guys, slowly.

The wood was assembled here, but the sanding, the varnishing...

And sure, sawdust everywhere...

And the varnish stank. The smell took three days to go away.

And if you look, the wood is very light.

When you changed the tone, it didn't match.

Maite, why not tell your brother to do the renovation?

Maybe...

You've become an engineer.

Well, it was six months of renovations, Pablo.

- And the loan covered it all? - Yeah, sure. It had to.

How much was it?

The cake is delicious.

It's from Urrestarazu, Mom. They do a great job, don't they?

The loan?

300,000.310.

My God! I've got a quarter of the mortgage left to pay and I can't sleep.

But there's two of you. I'm alone with three girls.

No, I don't get involved in your sister's apartment.

No, it's all hers.

I sleep badly too, but for other reasons.

Well, Pablo, these things don't work out on the first try.

I mean, these things are hard, right?

What things?

The government exams. Your public service exams.

- Another coffee? - Thanks.

- Maite, take it easy. - I don't mind.

- Short white? - No, I just had some.

A lot of people sit for them.

In this country everyone wants to work for the government.

Long-distance runner mentality.

I hadn't thought about it. Do you run much, Iñaki?

What are you doing?

Just answering a message.

I sent you a WhatsApp with some university options. Didn't you see it?

Yes, yes... thanks, I'll look at it later. Okay?

Have you started the meetings with the guidance counselor?

No, not yet.

My brother-in-law and Eneko, his son.

- And my sister Maite. - Hello.

Excuse me.

Estíbaliz.

- Hello, nice to meet you. - You too.

You already know the little ones.

- Nerea, you look so pretty! - Thank you.

- Cool! - More presents!

- Say "thank you." - Mom, you didn't know each other.

- By hearsay. - Nice to meet you.

Well, well!

- Do her classmates have cell phones? - Yeah, sure, lots of them.

Jeez!

Sit down, Esti.

Love, shift up, make room for Estíbaliz.

Don't worry, I just came to say hello.

Sit down.

- Look, I'll pick up Eneko. - I can move too...

- We'll move further this way. - Move, move.

Do you want a drink?

Whatever you're having.

- Come on, Eneko. - A glass of wine.

How did the ceremony go?

- Good. Good. - Very nice, actually.

Very nice, but you left half way through.

Well...

I had enough with my own Communion.

You made your Communion?

Yeah, sure. My grandma was very excited about it.

- I only did it for the gifts. - Me too.

But in the end, I didn't get any. Right, Mom?

- Why not? - I didn't get any.

No, because instead of gifts,

we made a donation to a needy family in the parish.

We had a kind of leftie priest.

My mother gave me this medal.

It's very nice. I really like it.

She told me that...

if I wore it,

the Virgin Mary would always be with me.

- Lila, you remember, don't you? - Of course I remember.

She said the Virgin Mary would take care of you when she wasn't there.

Honey, it's very normal that you want to remember her.

Your mother was special and she passed away very young.

Whenever I think of her dead mother, I get goose bumps.

- Her ears must be burning. - We said only good things today.

The only things we could say.

Just as well the girls barely remember half of it.

What a crazy mother they had. They're well rid of her.

- Mom... - Don't mind me.

It must be the cortisone that's got me racing.

Would they have divorced if she hadn't died?

Who knows?

There are couples who hate each other their whole lives.

And you?

- 80 over 77... - Well, we'll work it out.

You need to.

- Where will you find a better man? - Mom!

Look, the father of your children is for life.

With others you can get it wrong, but not with the father of your child.

Do you miss Dad?

No. I talk to him every day.

You guys always looked happy.

- Well, I don't know about always... - Pretty much always, yes.

See you tomorrow, love.

That's very good.

OK, kiddo, bathtime.

- No. - What do you mean, no?

Don't be grubby. Let's see how this Beethoven smells.

Filthy! Let's see what your cousin says.

No. Shower now, now!

- God! - No!

Yes, of course.

Are you staying for dinner?

No, thanks. I'm going home.

Are you all right, honey?

What's wrong?

- Nothing. - Tell me. Come on.

I don't know. I'm distracted by exams, but I'm fine.

Come here, come here.

Come, sit down, honey.

What's wrong? Tell me.

I asked my dad's permission for something, but he won't let me.

What won't he let you do?

I want to go back the convent of the Betinas,

and he said he has to think about it.

Because it's expensive?

I'll talk to him, okay?

Okay.

And if he gets stubborn, I'll pay for it.

The thing is, it's not a normal excursion.

Then...?

I'm doing a religious discernment,

that's why I want to go back.

To live with the sisters and...

And spend time in the convent.

It's serious, right? A vocation.

How do you do the discernment?

I've been talking for some months to my spiritual director.

- Where's the lice shampoo? - Not now, Pablo.

- I can't find it. - I don't know, I'll look later.

- Later no, I've got the boy there. - I'll look for it later. Please.

- Dad! - I'm coming.

A spiritual director?

Yes, a priest at school.

Okay.

And apart from this priest...

Are you talking to anyone else about all this?

Yes, with Sister Pilar.

And with Mother Isabel.

Mother Isabel?

She's the Prioress of the Convent of the Betinas.

- I need it now. - I don't know, I'll find it later.

Later, when? I have to use it now.

- It was in the kitchen. - Okay, sorry.

I know you're not a believer,

that's why I didn't tell you, I didn't want to worry you.

Honey, I love that you tell me everything.

I want you to always tell me everything.

And I'm not a believer, but I respect your faith.

Another thing is you telling me you want to be a nun.

And...

Is this discernment thing your idea?

Or was it suggested to you...?

Auntie, Jesus puts desires in people's hearts.

And with those desires,

he guides you and takes you to places little by little.

All I'm doing now is going with it.

Aren't you scared of that feeling?

At first, sure, I was really scared.

I said: "Please, don't call me,

- take another girl, but don't call me." - And why is that?

Fear. How could I be a nun? It's like...

And you're not still afraid?

No.

No, not anymore.

Because I feel... loved by Him.

It's such... a beautiful love that...

it's very easy to surrender.

It's hard for you to understand because you don't feel like I do, but...

Honey, give me your hand.

I think this feeling that you're describing,

the intensity may be spiritual,

but it may be other things too, you're confusing them.

- No, no, no. - It's easy to get confused.

I'm not confused, Auntie.

It's complicated, I don't know what to compare it to.

How do you explain the love you feel for Uncle Pablo or Eneko?

You can't. It's very hard to explain that.

It's something you feel inside.

Real and beautiful love, and it makes you feel so good.

How can you confuse that?

It's true that love is a powerful feeling.

But that's precisely why...

If it's real, it shouldn't disappear overnight.

It could wait.

You're 17, Ainara.

I think it's great that you've fallen in love.

But you have to go to college.

You have to meet a lot of people... You have to travel,

explore things, experience a lot of things.

Everything.

And then, if you still want to "marry," then do it.

What if that life doesn't fulfill me?

Honey, that's also life.

No one is happy all the time,

nor feels fulfilled all the time.

Not here, not in the convent, nor anywhere else.

No, it's not like that.

Because in the convent I don't feel like that, I don't feel bad.

I'm very happy in the convent, that's why I want to go back.

And I want to... spend time with the sisters.

It's also good to try things.

You might find that you don't...

What about dinner?

Are you staying for dinner?

Yes, you're staying.

Yeah?

- Hey! How was the movie? - Good.

- How did they behave? - Very well, better than my brothers.

Cool.

- The bathroom? - Yes.

- Thank you. - Let's all go upstairs.

I'm thirsty!

- Hello! - I'll get you water now.

- Did you bring the whole family? - What do you think?

What did you see?

We saw a monster with horns. It puffed smoke and froze everything...

- Then a girl tied him up with a net... - Great! It sounds good.

It's what she should do, talk to people, ask herself questions...

Okay. Should I talk to her, ask her something?

No, don't stress out.

I stress out because I'm her aunt and I'm like that. You relax.

No, we have to try to...

make spaces where she has other viewpoints, other experiences.

Okay, how do we do that?

For example, don't you girls go partying on the weekends?

Okay, that's good.

Sure, you need to go out, even weekend getaways...

You get to know other places, other people...

Maybe she'll meet someone and fall madly in love.

Or take up surfing, whatever.

Well, she liked Mikel Elizalde.

She did?

- Who's Mikel Elizalde? - He's in the choir.

- Did anything happen between them? - Well, not much.

Last year, at the choir party, they had a couple of silly kisses.

But then Mikel, the same night, hit on Itxaso Fernández,

another girl in the choir.

Then Ainara moved on from Mikel

because the same night he hit on her, then another girl...

It's true, she's not a child anymore, but...

Isn't she too young to consider such a commitment?

There's no age for a vocation.

There are very early vocations. I joined when I was 21.

God has planted a seed. Now we'll see how it grows.

Come in.

Forgive me. The theater group held me up. I couldn't say no.

Iñaki.

- A pleasure. - Likewise.

This is Father Txema.

He helps us with the catechesis in the school

and now, it seems, with the theater group.

- Well, I'll tell you later. - And he's my spiritual director.

- I like "companion" better. - Well, yes.

Because I'm by your side in your spiritual experience.

Good.

We meet now and then and chat.

- About the discernment... - Of course.

Well, about many things.

You know her, Ainara is an intelligent girl,

with an ability to understand herself extremely clearly.

This ability helps her to do a very honest discernment,

a very beautiful one, too.

I limit myself to listening to her and learning.

Occasionally, I give some advice.

We're like city guides.

We already know the city,

but Ainara must discover it with her own eyes.

The "experience" is part of that city, I understand.

Well...

it's an opportunity to be closer to God and to the Order.

Because it is important for Ainara to know the Order,

but the sisters must get to know you too.

If Ainara decides to enter the order of the Betinas as a postulant,

the Prioress would have the final decision.

The Betinas are a wonderful order, I know them well.

Especially Mother Isabel, she's an exceptional woman.

Forgive my ignorance, but when does the discernment process end?

When one understands what God wants of them.

But that can be now or a year from now...

Of course, God's timing is different from ours.

And is there a cost involved?

No.

- No financial cost. - No.

The sisters must enter free of burdens, with no debts.

Well, then...

that's it for me.

Pablo.

What?

What's wrong? Dinner ran on?

I kissed some idiot in a bar.

Nothing to say? Don't you feel anything?

You'll wake him up.

- Don't you feel anything? - I feel, I feel things, yes.

I feel.

I'm telling you because I don't want you to not care.

I don't want us to not care.

I do care, but now I want to go to sleep, please.

- Hi, Mom. - Hi. How are you?

Good.

Hello.

- Hi, Auntie. - Hi, honey.

- How are you? - Fine.

- Your dad? - In the kitchen, I think.

- Hi, Ainara. - Hi.

How did it go?

Who did you speak to?

Sister Pilar and Father Txema.

Sister Pilar is the tutor, right?

- When she was little. - Yes.

Mom, I just spoke with Estíbaliz, she's coming to lunch after all.

That's good, son. What were you talking about?

- About Ainara. - Yes.

What did she tell you?

That it's not up to them.

That Ainara is thinking it over... She's discerning, as they say.

She's not thinking it over.

She's waiting for God to tell her. That's what she's doing.

She has no interest in college,

but she wants to spend two weeks with those nuns.

And you told her to do it.

- I didn't want to scare her off - Well, it's fine with me too.

I don't know, Iñaki, I'm surprised by your calmness.

They're cloistered nuns, you know that?

What do I do? Make a fuss? Forbid her to leave the house?

No, you talk to her, because she's only talking to these people...

She hasn't even told Izaskun. And she only told me because I insisted.

I talked to her, Maite.

She's almost 18. Do you think she cares what we all tell her?

I don't know.

She doesn't.

Did you encourage her to go to college?

Did you tell her why you think it's crazy for her to be locked up in a convent?

What if it makes her happy, even if you don't like it?

How does she know what makes her happy

if she's been talking to those people since she was 11 or 12?

You just found out she has a spiritual director.

They're intimate processes. That's why they're done discreetly.

You don't talk about them all the time to everybody.

- Is that priest bad? - Why would he be bad, Mom?

He's a young, modern priest.

Well, an adult male

meeting a minor without her father's permission, on the sly.

It's a religious school, Maite. They do it all the time.

Communions, catechesis, confessions.

You went to catechism classes too...

But this is more personal

because they chose her over other girls and meet her alone.

It's not a sect. However much you insist, it's not a sect.

Lila, when are we going to eat?

Honey, we're coming. We'll be there in a minute.

- Okay. - Go sit. Hurry, hurry!

Great, let's eat!

Why not take her to the psychologist?

She's not crazy.

- But something's up with her. - Son, we're worried.

Don't worry so much.

Why don't you send her to study abroad?

Manuela's granddaughters spent all last year in Ireland.

That's a good idea, Mom.

Not Ireland, they're super-Catholic, but London...

She can have fun, meet people.

Do you want me to take her partying?

No, I want to motivate her in another direction.

In the middle of the school year.

Well, we wait until the next semester.

Maite, do you know how much these courses cost?

Besides, we don't know where all this will end.

- Then we ask for a loan. - That's it.

- No one's asking for more loans, okay? - Okay.

It's a religious vocation..

She won't get over it because you offer her a better plan.

- How will she get over it? - I don't know.

But I'm the father and I decide what to do.

And now we're going to wait and respect, okay?

Please stop stirring things up.

Mom, can't he pay for a course abroad for the girl?

He got 300,000 euros. 310! That's easy to say!

Darling, if the numbers don't add up, they don't.

Mom, don't defend him.

You guarantee his loan with this house and I keep quiet.

Now he can't afford to send her abroad?

Look, Maite,

I guaranteed his loan because he promised that, whatever happened,

you'd inherit half of this apartment.

He promised me on his daughters.

And you didn't say no.

Well, Mom, because I saw that you wanted to do it.

No, I don't want to see him on the street with three daughters.

Yes, fine.

Didn't your cousin Naiara

get a position in the town hall?

- I can ask her. - Yes, ask her.

A town hall is nothing like a high school.

Mom, it's a government exam. It's more or less the same.

More or less, no.

Imagine if you want a position as a doctor,

it's not the same as as a schoolteacher.

Right.

Well, ask her anyway.

In case she has some advice.

It always comes in handy.

This is terrific.

Three and a half hours in the kitchen. No one does that anymore.

It's delicious, Mom.

And what about Basque?

- Basque... well... Very good. - Look at that!

You don't remember,

but I told you I was going to the Basque school

and it looks like you don't understand me.

But what's it like? Do you start praying any time

you feel the need to communicate?

Or are there specific times when you always do it?

In the evenings and when I go to Mass.

Do you ask him for things there or ask him...?

Yes.

But what's it like, specifically?

No, I'm really interested.

What's it like talking to Him?

Just talking.

- But talking in your head? - Yes.

And he answers you?

Sometimes.

Great.

That's nice.

I'd like to talk to Him too.

Well, try it.

Should I?

All right.

Lord.

Lord?

- I'm a failure. - No.

It doesn't seem to work with me.

You must do it from the heart.

From the heart?

I don't know, from the heart, you have to feel what you say.

Lord God Almighty...

I'd like to ask you for something.

It's just one thing.

Don't call Ainara.

Leave her here with us.

We really want her here, we need her.

Really, we need her.

Look,

she's got two sisters, yeah?

You know them, you know everyone.

They're two future criminals.

You tell me who'll look after those two lunatics

if this girl becomes a nun?

And there's her grandma, Lila. What do we do with her?

You and I both know that Ainara is her favorite granddaughter.

Well, and Maite, right? Auntie Maite.

You haven't been in touch with her for a long time, but...

Maite will go crazy if she loses this girl.

She may start burning churches.

And I can tell you, Lord, that won't be good for you.

Because she is very, very stubborn.

Very.

Well, maybe, sorry. I didn't plan it, it just came out that way.

- It came out that way? It came out... - Just one more minute.

Don't you think it's serious enough?

Maite, I tried to do what you asked: talk to her, support her...

It wasn't the right tone? Maybe, I'm sorry.

It wasn't the tone.

I don't know what you thought was going to happen.

I thought you'd take it seriously, at least.

Please, Ainara believes in God!

She believes in the same way that you believe in climate change.

She believes in God.

Let her believe what she likes, but she should go to college.

She'll go, she'll go, she's a great girl,

but right now she's a religious fanatic. I don't know what to do about it.

- Eneko, son, come on, hands. - You talk like my brother.

- Great. - No, not like your brother.

Don't dump that shit on me.

We don't insist.

We pack her bag and lock her in there,

with a gang of loonies who keep brainwashing her.

Is that what we do?

By attacking her you'll only push her even further away.

You really don't see that?

- Attacking her? - You have to give her some air.

Let her breathe.

Pablo, are you talking about Ainara or yourself?

I'm here.

You come and go.

I'm here.

I'm always here.

No one is forcing you.

Great.

Then next time someone else can go to your mom's house

and put up with your dickhead brother.

Today was important for Ainara. I don't know if you still don't get it.

Why did you tell them about the government exam?

No, why did you tell them? The only thing I asked you is not to tell them.

- To please not say anything. - They asked me.

What do I say? I don't know. I don't know, I look like a fool!

No, not a fool.

You sure don't look like a fool.

You're no fool at all.

You're so smart, you make me feel like crap

without even opening your mouth.

I don't do that.

Yes, you do.

- I don't do that. - You do, all the time.

You do it because it's what you think of me.

Is that what I think of you?

What I think of you I'd better shut up about.

Shut up about what, Maite?

Shut up about what?

What is it?

Do you want us to separate?

Is that what you want?

Maybe it is.

I think that's fine.

I think that's just fine.

You decide then.

But don't threaten me with doing it anymore.

- Bottles and such, here, please. - We were all looking forward to it.

Naturally.

- I love it, I swear I'll buy it. - Shall we leave it over here?

Yes, on the table.

And the view?

- What a nice house. - Have you seen it?

Izaskun, I'm not sleeping on the floor, I only see one bed.

One bed there, then we'll put mattresses in the living room.

But we'll organize that later.

Wait, I have a better one.

- Let's see. - You'll see.

I've never jerked off more than four times in one day.

Fucking gross!

Just once.

- That's dirty. You degenerate! - Never in your life?

That's dirty.

- He must have calluses on his hand. - Gross!

Next, go on.

I've never sucked...

Let's hear it.

I've never sucked anyone's feet.

- What do you mean, "ah"? - I expected something else.

He drinks just because he wants to.

Hello?

- Right, I'll go. - Go on, next.

Let's see.

I've never hooked up with anyone here.

There you go!

You two drink, right?

Obviously.

- Ainara,... - I'm not drinking alone.

Ainara!

Sure, he gets on with himself.

Right, I've never...

I've never had a hot dream about any female teacher.

Well, a male one counts too, eh?

Oh, Father Txema...!

What about Father Txema?

- What's your thing with him? - Gosh, Javier, you give him the eye.

- Who's that? - The priest.

You have to drink, it's OK..

Go on, three slugs.

Shit, Father Txema.

- Down your neck, down your neck. - C'mon, go.

Well, I've never...

I've never wanted to become a nun.

What do you mean, a nun? A convent nun?

Cloistered convent, I don't know.

Pope Gregory XVII.

The one who baptized that baby...

Me, when I was five.

What are you saying?

At five?

At school they'd tell us about God and I said: "Well, I'll marry him."

At five?

They talked to me about Mother Earth and I never...

It was my dream. Anyway, leave me alone, it's fine.

- Sister Izaskun. - God bless you.

- Thanks. - Right, let's see...

I've never seen my parents fucking.

I never have, right, lovebirds?

What are you doing?

I don't know.

Then let's go inside, it's freezing here.

Well, go then.

I'll stay.

But don't talk to me.

Really, don't, and if you have something to tell me, tell me later.

- Okay. - You're already talking to me.

- No, I said "okay." - And you're still talking to me...

You're the one talking to me?

- Sorry, but no, you came along. - Yeah, yeah...

We're going to freeze here.

You'll freeze, I'm doing just great.

I sure am going to freeze, but...

But if we're going to freeze,

we should freeze together, right?

You're nuts.

- Hey, don't follow me! - I'm not following you.

So did you sleep together in the same bed?

Well, on the floor.

But we shared the mattress.

And he approached you.

Yes, but because he was asleep.

How do you know he was asleep, because he snored?

No, because his eyes were shut.

Have you seen each other alone?

To rehearse.

When you're alone with...

Mikel...

do you feel obliged to do anything you don't want to?

I was a teenager once, I know that boys

sometimes have an overwhelming will.

No, he doesn't do that.

When you consider sleeping with Mikel,

what do you think of first?

I don't know, I didn't want to.

But Izaskun insisted and in the end I said yes.

But you still decided to sleep with him.

You could've said no.

What if the Lord is speaking to you through Mikel?

How?

You're smart, the girl inside knows.

Sometimes you...

want to know what's going on when you're there,

near the other person.

You must listen to how you feel.

That'll help you distinguish between love and an appetite.

My love for Jesus is pure,

it's unconditional.

It's forever.

There are no words to express this love.

What's your love for Jesus like?

You can turn a bit faster.

Do you dare?

Turn...

Turn. Go on, once more.

Once more, last one.

And... stop!

Go on, we'll give directions.

Turn to your left.

- That's it. - There, move forward.

- To the right. - Right...

- Your right, Ainara. - Right.

- Turn your body. - No!

We're listening.

- Turn a bit to your right. - The right.

- More. - Right.

- Turn. - There.

You won't hit anything.

- Forward, forward. - Keep going.

- Go on, more. - Relax.

- Straight on. - With confidence.

That's it, that's it. You won't hit anything.

You've almost got it.

Go ahead, go ahead.

Very good!

You can take off the blindfold.

Ainara, thank you.

Trust involves courage.

We can have the courage to trust God.

Imagine you're a baby in your parents' arms.

Should you be afraid? No.

Because they're the ones who love you most.

And that trust is natural, right? It's intuitive.

No one's taught it to you.

We must unlearn fear.

- See you on Thursday. - Thank you.

- Be good. - We already are, goodbye.

What is it?

Are you OK?

- Have you got it? - Yes.

Good, let's go to the birthday party.

- Eider? - Where's your sister?

Fuck, Eider!

- Thank you. - You're welcome.

This hake is delicious.

It is nice, yes.

You're a great cook. It's delicious.

I get a lot of practice.

And thank you for the pastries, you needn't have bothered.

That was Esti. She always has good ideas.

Will you pass me the bread?

Ainara.

Thank you.

Are you deaf or what?

- Leave it, really. Never mind. - Is something wrong?

No.

- Are you sure? - I'm sure.

Yes, there is!

Ainara kissed a boy and she's got a boyfriend.

Ainara's got a boyfriend! Ainara's got a boyfriend!

Nerea!

- Really? - It's not true.

Nerea, enough.

- Nerea! - Iñaki, it's not a bad thing.

- It wasn't like that. - No?

Did Estíbaliz make it up?

I didn't really see anything.

Eider saw them.

- Were they at home? - Yes.

How did it happen then?

It all happened very quickly.

We found them, the boy was very shy and he left.

Have you seen him again, dear?

- No. - Why not?

Enough, Maite, enough.

Well, Iñaki, since you've never been 17...

You don't know what you're talking about.

Maybe I do. Are we talking about sex?

We could act more natural, right? Please...

- There are kids at the table. - Yes, one of them is my son.

I had my first boyfriend when I was 17. Remember, Mom?

Perfectly.

He's not my boyfriend.

Well, he's your friend.

They call them that now: friends. What's the problem?

Fine, you tell us what he is.

It's not what you think, Dad.

What do I think, Ainara? What am I supposed to think?

One day you wake up saying you want to be a nun

and the next you're in bed with the first boy to come along.

- Iñaki! - What am I meant to think?

I hope you at least used protection.

- Did you? - Iñaki, please.

Didn't you want us to be natural?

Answer!

Look, I don't know.

Are you kidding me?

Are you laughing at me?

Are you laughing at your beloved nuns too?

No.

And that "experience" thing... Is that another joke too?

Very well.

Very well, Ainara.

You'll have the experience and whatever.

But I want the same respect for my house, Estíbaliz and me!

Is that clear?

The world doesn't revolve around you.

To the right, up.

You may feel bad, but it's good what happened with that boy.

If you say so.

But if you shout at her, she won't dare see him again.

Maite, she was fucking in my house!

Saying she wants to be a nun and calling Estíbaliz a liar.

How do you want me to speak to her?

She feels awful, Iñaki. You needn't pressure her.

You keep taking notice of her.

Maybe that's the problem. Too much attention.

- What if we talk to the Prioress? - Yes, with the Pope too.

That woman decides whether Ainara enters or not.

If we tell her what we're seeing happen,

maybe she'll see it too, right?

And what's happening, Maite? What's happening?

That Ainara isn't ready for that life?

Iñaki?

If there's a discernment process, then they don't all end up as nuns.

You want to tell the Prioress that Ainara is having flings with boys.

Well, whatever it takes.

Clearly, Iñaki, if this lady

tells her to take all this calmly, then she will.

Why would she do that?

Because you're her father

and you're going to ask her.

I just want Ainara to be okay.

I want her to be happy.

OK.

Child.

How are you? Your father's a brute.

- Don't worry, I'm fine. - Are you sure?

You're a really strong girl.

That's not what worries me.

If you go, I'll miss you so much.

Lila...

Don't tell me that.

- What's the Prioress' name? - Isabel.

Mother Isabel.

Hello.

- Good morning. - Good morning.

- Come in. Welcome. - Thank you.

Hello.

Ainara, how are you? This is so nice.

- One moment. - Yes.

- Good morning. - Good morning.

- Welcome. - Thank you.

- I'm Mother Isabel. - Maite, her aunt.

I'm her father, Iñaki.

- Ainara, how was the trip? - Good. Very good.

Good.

Mother.

Yes, Alazne, come in.

Go with Ainara to her room and explain to her..

Well, all the best, okay?

See you next week.

- I love you. - Same here.

Isabel, I don't know if you remember

that we wrote that we wanted to talk to you if possible.

Yes, of course I remember.

Excuse me, I must answer it.

You take care of them.

Yes? Yes.

Leave it, leave it. I'll take it.

Will we talk here?

Yes, we used to stand behind bars for visitors,

but Mother Isabel decided it's better this way.

- Take the other chair, please. - Yes.

- You're from Bilbao? - Yes, born and bred.

- Well, our mother is Galician. - But she's been here for ages.

And what do you do?

I have a restaurant.

Do you work in the restaurant too?

No, I'm a cultural manager.

- What's that? - I organize cultural events.

Ah, well, I didn't know that.

When I don't know something, I ask.

Sure, I do the same.

Have you been in the order long?

I entered when I was 19 and I'm 85.

A whole life devoted to the Lord.

I'll be right back.

- I'll leave this for the cold, okay? - Okay.

Now, when the bells ring, we go down to the chapel.

Okay.

Thank you.

Some sisters run the pastry making,

- others, the kitchen. - Delicious!

Sister Encarnación makes handicrafts that we then sell in the store.

- Yes, we have a pottery kiln. - Do you?

- Ora et labora, no? - Ora et labora, that's right.

We also studied at the Heart of Mary too.

Yes.

Ainara told us.

- She loves talking to you. - And we like talking to her.

It's also easier with the cell phone, isn't it?

I'm not fond of cell phones, actually.

But it's cheaper to talk to Guinea and Peru.

Some sisters have family far away.

What about the vow of silence?

Our vows are of obedience, poverty, chastity and isolation.

Silence is a necessity of the contemplative life.

When you're being spoken to inside, you need silence.

You need to listen.

That's why I have the cell phone.

Otherwise the sisters would be talking all day.

- They love talking to their families. - Yes.

- They won't visit much. - The distance doesn't help.

But if their family is in Guinea...

And I believe that they can't get out to see them either.

Well, if a sister has a sick relative, she can leave to take care of them.

Right.

And does it happen sometimes that sisters decide to leave?

Sometimes.

Yes.

This isn't a prison.

You choose to be here and you can choose to leave.

Of course. Coffee?

Ainara is such a good girl.

- She is. - Yes.

She's a very good girl.

But she's also in the midst of adolescence and it shows.

When you're so young, everything inside is so alive.

One day you feel one thing, the next day another...

Isabel, we...

We have great respect for Ainara's religious feelings.

But we'd also like her to do a university degree

- and we know, madam, that... - Don't be so formal.

Sorry.

We know that what you tell her is very important to her.

Yes.

There are sisters here who are doing a degree.

Really?

Sister Alazne, for example, is studying Theology.

Well, that's good.

Yes, but of course...

I mean, we're not referring to the academic side.

What we'd like is for Ainara

to go to college so that she might have experience

of the outside world, a fuller experience, beyond school.

We're sure, Isabel, if you advise her...

to live a bit more,

to wait to make the major decisions,

we know she'll listen to you.

And she could visit here whenever she wants.

But while going to college.

Are you a believer, Maite?

No.

But I deeply respect everyone's faith.

Of course, respect above all.

Of course.

Well, I think we all need to believe in something and...

I do.

I think there's something spiritual we're unaware of.

There are many spiritualities.

But there's only one God.

That is so.

Maite,

as you well know,

faith is a gift from God.

You either have it or you don't.

And this is a matter of faith.

What you are asking of me,

is not in my hands.

I believe it is.

God calls whom He wants. He is the shepherd.

We, but his flock.

Isabel, you know Ainara lost her mother when she was a child.

Yes, I know.

My niece has a wound.

And that makes her special,

but it also makes her vulnerable.

She's looking for consolation, Isabel.

Her spiritual quest has nothing to do with the call.

Maite.

Only the Lord can know that. Only He.

Then the Lord will know that my niece had a relationship with a choirboy.

And that last week we found them in bed having sex.

I don't know what Ainara's thinking,

but it's not about the contemplative life.

My sister's trying to say that

we're afraid that Ainara is confusing...

Your sister expresses herself perfectly.

God is a judge who saves

The upright in heart

God is a judge

Who saves

The upright in heart

My shield is God,

Who saves the upright in heart

God is a righteous judge

God threatens every day

If they do not turn,

He will sharpen his sword

Wait.

That's it, Maite.

Come on, let's go.

Bless us, Lord...

...and also deign to bless this food we are about to receive

through Jesus Christ our Lord. Amen.

WELCOME

...that deserves the praise of the good at heart

Play the ten-stringed harp in His honor

Sing to Him a new song,

Accompanying the cheers of joy

The Lord deserves the praise...

Did you get the soap?

Yes, thank you.

Sometimes we have to wait for days

for Sister Encarnación to give us toothpaste.

They don't want us to be wasteful.

- Do you miss it? - Miss what?

Wasting things.

No.

God is like any other husband. He has his quirks.

Of course there are moments of doubt, of struggle.

Moments when you grab your bag and say: "I'm leaving."

But then it passes.

Sister, the Devil is very clever.

He knows how to tempt you.

What I miss is perfume.

One of those expensive perfumes.

Lord, light up our night.

And grant us a peaceful rest

so that tomorrow we may arise in your name

and contemplate with health and joy the dawn of the new day.

May the Lord Almighty grant us a peaceful night and a holy death.

And how long have you been here?

A year now.

A year already.

Honestly, the last thing on my mind was that the Lord would call me.

I studied Medicine, I was going to go on missions.

And you didn't go on missions?

No way.

I was in a group at university

and one day we had to bring boxes of food to the convent here.

I didn't know the place, I started talking to the sisters, I don't know...

I loved the whole thing.

I was thirsty for Jesus.

I needed to be here, near Him.

And one day the Lord changed all my plans.

All of them.

We were in the parish singing a beautiful psalm that said:

"My eyes are consumed with longing for your promises.

When will you comfort me?"

When will you comfort me, Lord?"

And then He told me.

He said:

"I want you for me."

And I started crying.

I couldn't speak.

I cried a lot.

I just cried.

So I left here saying:

"Look, Lord, if you want me to be a nun, here I am.

I'm here."

"This experience also purifies our love for our neighbor.

The awareness of our fragility leads us to no longer judge anyone,

to treat our neighbor with gentleness, humility and understanding.

There is great power in love,

the only true strength.

It's no longer about being content with oneself,

but about pleasing God."

Hello.

Hello.

How are you?

Did you get some rest today?

A little.

So, tell me, do you miss home?

Do you get homesick quickly?

No, I'm fine.

I'm sure they miss you.

Well, I don't know.

They're not much for saying those kind of things.

True, your dad doesn't talk much.

Not really.

Your aunt talks more. She has a temper.

Yes, she has a temper, but she's a good person.

Yes, you can see that.

She was worried because you'd been with a boy.

She told you that?

Yes, she did say it. Yes.

I wanted to tell you.

I'm glad you said that.

I'm very glad.

Because I thought: "Why hasn't she told me?

Ainara knows she can tell me anything."

You know it, don't you? You can tell me anything.

Do you want to tell me what happened?

Estíbaliz, my father's girlfriend,

came home and caught me kissing with a boy.

And how do you know this boy?

He's in the choir.

Have you talked to Father Txema about this boy?

Yes.

What's his name?

Mikel.

Didn't you like Mikel a while ago?

And you invited him to your house?

We had to rehearse a choir thing

and my place is closer to the conservatory.

And in the end, well...

we went home, rehearsed and kissed.

Where did you kiss?

In my room.

Did he insist?

No, no, no, no.

He started, but I didn't say anything or stop him.

Was it just kissing?

I ask because your aunt said you had a sexual relationship.

She said it was in bed and that the Lord would know, Ainara.

You know that sexual intercourse is reserved for marriage.

That's not true.

I don't know what she told you, but it's not true.

- Is your aunt lying? - Yes, she is.

Because it was just kissing.

We were in bed, but it was just kissing.

Have you seen this boy again?

He sent me some messages, but I haven't answered him.

When I joined,

I left a boyfriend outside.

And he was a nice guy.

But the Lord spoke to me loud and clear,

my heart was filled with God's love and I knew.

I didn't have to look for anything else.

I didn't need anything else.

The Lord loves us, but he also tests us.

If the Lord chooses you, you'll know.

Glory be to the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit

As it was in the beginning, is now and ever shall be

Forever and ever

Amen

On my life, Oracle of the Lord.

I do not want the death of the sinner

but may he be changed from his conduct and live.

Lord, we pray to you for the children of the school next door

may they grow up happy, healthy and strong.

We ask you, Lord.

We pray to you, hear us.

Lord, we pray to you for the tax inspectors,

may they do their work well.

We pray to you, Lord.

We pray, hear us.

Lord, I pray for our brethren in Equatorial Guinea.

We ask you, Lord.

We pray for each other.

- Hello. - Hello.

- My condolences. - Thank you.

Honey.

Goodbye.

Lord, our shelter and our strength.

Hear the prayers we offer for our deceased sister.

We pray to you for our relative's soul.

Lord,

we grieve for the death of Maria Dolores Freire.

We know you are a God of mercy

and forgive and welcome all into your bosom.

We know you do not look upon the sinner to condemn him,

but to forgive him and give him eternal life.

Wait, Nerea, Nerea...

Wait, it's cold. It's cold!

- We couldn't do anything. - We won't be able to fill this gap.

Do with me as you will.

Whatever you make of me, I am grateful to you.

I am ready for anything.

I accept everything.

May your will be done in me and in all creatures.

I desire nothing else, my God.

I place my life in your hands.

I give it to you, my God, with all the love of my heart.

Because I love you.

Because I love you.

Because for me to love you is to give myself.

To give myself without measure.

With absolute trust. Because you are my Father.

Father,

I abandon myself to you.

Do with me as you will.

Whatever you make of me, I am grateful to you.

I am ready for anything. I accept everything.

May your will be done in me and in all creatures.

I desire nothing else, my God.

I put my life in your hands.

I give it to you, my God, with all the love of my heart.

Because I love you.

Because I love you.

Because for me to love you is to give myself.

To give myself without measure,

with absolute trust. Because you are my Father.

Because you are my Father.

Because you are my Father.

Please, please.

You are my Father.

Please, I can't take any more. Please.

Please.

Please.

Please, tell me something, please.

If I pass, after the S.A.T.'s.

When you enter, are you a nun right away?

First you're a postulant for a year.

Then you take the novice's habit.

And to communicate, are you allowed to have a phone?

Do you want to take it with you?

No, thanks.

When can we come to see you?

Whenever you want, just let us know in advance...

So, when they want.

Keep it, for you.

- Can I keep it? - Where did you find that?

- In Grandma's jewelry box. - Do you want it?

- Give me that. - Where was it?

Give it to me, Nerea.

Dad, Lila promised me.

Look, promises aren't always kept.

Ask your father. He'll explain.

- Or will the bank take it too? - The bank won't take it. Here.

Ainara, take them out, please.

Maite, I know this is hard for you,

but try to keep the girls out of it, it's not their fault.

This is hard for me because this way it's easier for you.

I apologized to you.

What good does your apology do me?

Taking on that loan would've done me good.

I tried, Maite. If the numbers don't add up, they don't add up.

How did you try?

You could've mortgaged your house

or sold the restaurant.

My family lives off that restaurant. What do you want me to do?

Yeah.

You don't need this place to live in.

Who are you to decide what's done with my inheritance?

Maite, your brother's had a tough time.

Estíbaliz, my brother promised my mother that

whatever went on with that loan, I'd inherit half of this place.

- And here we are... - Maite, please.

- Ainara, what's going on? - You promised your mother.

You swore on your daughters.

I've been unlucky, Maite. Sometimes people are unlucky.

How can you not take responsibility for anything you do?

- Treat me with respect. - With respect?

Respect isn't inherited, Iñaki.

You want to put me on the street with two little girls?

Is that it?

You don't count the eldest one now?

What'll you do with the other two?

Send them away?

A boarding school?

No, shut up, that's expensive.

I tried to do the right thing.

Sometimes things don't work out.

You didn't ask your daughter to stay because it was the right thing?

- Because I respect her decision. - I never heard you tell her that.

I can respect people.

- I never heard you tell her that. - Girls, let's go. That's enough.

Why didn't you ask her, Iñaki?

Why didn't you ask her?

- This is the last straw. - Ask her.

Ask her to stay.

Why has he never asked you to stay, Ainara? Why?

Ask her.

Ask her!

Is it so hard?

Was it so hard to say "we love you"?

We're your family,

not that pack of lying, swindling, fucking nutcases!

Living in fear, hidden from the world in that shitty convent!

They don't leave because they have nowhere to go!

Ainara, they're lying to you!

They've been lying to you non-stop since you stepped through that school's gate.

They're lying to you,

like they've been lied to all their lives!

Honey,

no one's calling you.

God doesn't exist. That love doesn't exist.

Honey.

I'll pray for you.

- OK, that's it, it's done. - Yes.

- We have to face it. - But, still...

Attention, everyone.. We're starting right now.

We'll form two lines to go onstage, all right?

"Similarly, what you want is that after your death,

your husband, Pablo Bustos, has the legal use of all assets

and if any misfortune occurs whereby your husband is absent

while your son is a minor or disabled,

in no case will the administration of assets your son may inherit

pass to your brother Iñaki Alzaga or your niece Ainara Alzaga,

whom you wish to exclude from everything." Agreed?

"It is also recorded that,

in the case of the eventual death of Mrs. Maite Alzaga,

she wishes that the legal guardianship of her son Eneko does not fall

on her brother or her niece under any circumstances."

Do you agree?

I do.

Moved by the goodness of God and sustained by his grace,

I ask to experience your life as sisters.

Teach me to contemplate the incarnate and crucified Son of God

and to follow him by living in charity, poverty, obedience and chastity

and to imitate Christ in prayer,

offering to God, in the name of the Church and of all humanity,

a continual sacrifice of prayer.