All language subtitles for Jacqueline.And.Jilly.S01E06_English

(bright music)

I will sail the seven seas

Through every
storm and breeze

With tropic heat
and arctic cold

A precious cargo in the hold

This is the life,
the life for me

A sailor gay and
the roaring sea

(breathes heavily)

A we could go
anywhere, yeah yeah

A we could go anywhere
Yeah, yeah yeah, yeah

A we could go anywhere,
yeah, let's get it

Yeah, we could go
anywhere, we could go to LA

Miami, the Philippines,
conversation

Plus the way that
you fill them jeans

Got me head first
like guillotine

Know what, so
what I doze off

Plus single
mother on the sofa

Just being in her PJs

- What if something happened?

Are they gonna heal me with
roots and kale smoothies?

- Oh would you drop
the negativity.

- It blocks the
positive flow gran.

- I'm flowing all right,
it's called sweating,

down my back and I
don't like it one bit.

- You're supposed to be sweating

to get rid of all those
calcified toxins you built up

over the years.

- Oh god.

It is really, really hot,
I have to get out of here.

- Granny.
- Stay right here.

- Please calm down.

- Alright, but never again.

And I want my own water, I
aint drinking after no one.

- Okay, I will go
get you a water.

- It is clear where the
influence is coming from,

are you on drugs too?

- What?

- I smelled something earlier,
is that what they're doing?

- Sage mother, that was sage

to get rid of all
the bad energy.

Quite frankly I'm thrilled
that Jilly's introducing me

to new things and helping
me dust off old ones.

You forget,

we nearly lost Jilly and
not only to addiction.

- Shush.

- I am sick and tired
of pretending that
everything is fine

and keeping up appearances.

- What are you trying to prove?

- For the first time nothing.

- What do you mean by that?

Young lady what is
that supposed to mean?

- Mother I want to
try something new.

- Go shopping, what
will my friends think

of you looking like that?

- I don't give a damn.

- Well you make sure you take
that mess out of your hair

before you visit me in
Richmond because I don't want

you embarrassing me or
yourself at the Dominion Club.

- Mother can you not see that
for the first time in years

I'm happy?

Can you not see that
I've struggled to
hold onto some shred

of my offending self
after dealing with all

of your crazy rules
and you shaming me

when I was pregnant in
college, and I forgive you.

- You forgive me?

- And you can thank
Jilly for that.

- Look at your life.

What would you be if I
hadn't raised you to be

the strong woman
that you are today?

- You mean the strong
black woman I am?

- Why you have to bring
race into everything?

- Because it matters mother.

I'm not other, I'm not you,
I'm a strong black woman.

- You did not get where you
are by being black only,

you worked hard and you
inherited a lifestyle

and a breeding that your father

and I consistently provided you.

- Your lifestyle,

not what I needed.

Your love.

Yeah.

Your love.

- I knew what was best.

- Did you mother?

- Now you question me?

- Why do you loathe yourself?

- Excuse me ma'am?

- Yeah, you never talk
about your childhood

or that MacGruder plantation,

or the tobacco farm.

- I have no idea what
you're talking about.

- I bet you prayed that
I would have inherited

Daddy's blue eyes but
instead God blessed me

with yours and
your stubbornness.

- Enough.

I never prayed for
any such thing.

I prayed for your well being.

- Always the outsides,
never my insides.

So you sent Jilly to
Hampton instead of Radcliffe

for spite?

- It's what she wanted mother.

- And look what it got her.

- Jilly's addiction is
an accidental addiction

due to over prescribed
meds, you know that,

that was a low blow.

It could have happened
anywhere, in Hampton or Harvard

or Radcliffe, it
doesn't matter mother.

But we're trying to
get to the bottom of it

through family therapy
and peeling the onion.

- While we are peeling this
onion and getting to bottom

of things, and spilling the
tea, let me be brutally honest

with you, there is nothing
to say about growing up

on that wretched tobacco
farm, nobody cares

it was a million years
ago and for the record,

don't you ever question
about how I regard myself.

If I hadn't took care
of you out of college

you might have had
your own addiction,

or be on welfare by this time,

thanks to that no good radical.

- He's,

his name was Lewis
and I loved him.

- You only thought
you loved him.

He was taking you on a
quick road to nowhere.

- He was fighting for justice

and you never gave him a chance.

- What, a chance to further
ruin your reputation?

A chance to get gunned
down like he was?

No, I wasn't gonna
give him that chance.

- Mother let it go.

- Thank God Magnus stepped
up and married you,

and he's been taking
care of you and Jilly

from that day.

Although he was never
my first choice.

- Yes, we know mother.

Magnus has been living
a lie too all this time

but no more.

- What do you mean?

- It's time Jilly
knew the truth.

- It's foolish, she's
gonna resent you.

- No she's gonna
resent you mother

when I tell her how you
treated her real father.

- My real father?

Mom?

Gran?

Somebody say something.

- Your father has loved you
from the day you were born

like you were his,

- His what?

You can't even say it.

- Only did what
we knew was best.

- Oh my god.

- [Mom] Jilly.

- No, don't follow me.

- Jilly.

(birds chirp)

Jilly, I'm so sorry.

- [Jilly] How could you?

- Daddy begged me years
ago to tell you the truth

but I was

I was afraid.

- Of what?

- Afraid of

my mother and unraveling
everything she arranged.

- You mean unraveling a lie?

- I was pregnant honey.

Senior in college, I didn't
have anyone to confide in

nobody.

But your father.

- Which one?

- The only one
you've ever known.

- Where's my real dad?

- I loved him.

We loved each other.

His name was Lewis.

- Was?

- Honey,

he was a brilliant
community activist.

And they gunned him down.

(cries)

They murdered him.

Case is still unsolved.

We were so young.

And your grandmother,

she wanted me married
no matter what.

- [Gran] That's right.

I say we forgive and forget
and when in the future.

- No it's not that simple Gran.

It's not that simple.

(cries)

(soft music)

(owl hoots)

- I owe you an apology.

I know I can be a bitch
sometimes but honey,

it's worked for me.

I know I made a whole lot
of mistakes along the way

but honey, I have
tried to make up for it

by being the best
grandmother to Jilly.

- I know.

- Well,

honey,

would you please forgive me.

I never meant to hurt you.

- Me too mother.

- Oh daughter.

- Jilly, Jilly, we were
so worried about you.

- I, have something to say.

- Oh, oh.

Okay what is it?

- No more family secrets.

Or lies.

- No more, no, promise.

- Promise.

- No more.

- I'm

I'm pregnant.

- Oh my god.

- Are you sure?

- Yes.

And Paul and I are
keeping the baby.

And if you want to be a
part of our lives then fine.

But all of the hurt
and all of the lying,

all of that stops tonight.

If I fall,

then I'm going to fall forward.

Mom, I, I can't imagine how
you and daddy kept this secret

all these years.

My love for both of
you is unchanged.

And Gran, where would our
family be without you?

- A family that is
growing by the minute.

- [Mom] Come sit on mommy's lap.

- Darling, I want
my great grandchild

to be named Xyla or Alistair.

- I think my grandchild's
name should be,

- Paul.

And if it's a girl it will
be Faith Adanash-chewa.

- Adana?

- Adanash means
to rescue or save.

- Oh honey it's,

- If you insist dear.

(soft music)

- Daddy, it's mother's day.

- Yeah, why are we here Magnus?

- Yes, why are we here,
my feet are killing me?

- Well, it'll only
take a second,

remember what the
pastor said today,

love is patient, love is kind.

- Yes, but the pastor also said,

- Ta-da!

(laughs)

- Oh my-
- Daddy!

- When did you do this?

- This is amazing?

Daddy I'm sorry for
what I said earlier.

- Oh that's okay.

- This is great.

- [Gran] Oh my god,

- Look at your
pictures sweetheart,

Magnus how did you do
all this without us?

- Well I had a little help
from the man upstairs.

- Oh Magnus, there's
something I don't tell you

often enough, you are a
remarkable husband and father

and son in law.

And granny's gonna
take her shoes off now.

- Dr, Hashi, oh my goodness.

- Hi, good to see you.

- Hi, good to see you.

And I also wanted to come and
give you your diploma Jilly.

- Thank you Professor.

I'm so sorry for.

- Jilly, I'm so proud of
you, what you're doing

takes hard work and
a lot of courage.

- Thank you Professor.

- Whenever you're ready
maybe we can work together

and spread awareness
around our campus,

maybe even the community.

- yeah, I'd like that a lot.

Let me run it by a
few people first.

- Of course, of course,
well I don't want to keep

my husband waiting
so, I'm gonna run,

thank you for brunch
again, so good to see you.

- Thank you for everything.

- Very nice to see you.

- Good to see you.

(laughs)

- Look at this.

- So awesome,

- Amazing sweetheart.

(laughs)

- I cannot believe I
finally have my diploma.

- Yes you do.

- And you earned it.

- That's right.

- I have my diploma.

(laughs)

- She got it.

- Oh honey.

I knew you would.

- Oh wait and you
two had nothing

to do with this whole thing?

- Nothing.

- [Mom] Nothing right mother?

- No, no, it's true, it's true,

every email you sent
your busy dad I saved,

I wanted to do something
special to somehow

make up for my absence.

- [Jilly] You didn't have to.

- No I need to say this.

Your recovery has been
a wake up call for me.

For all of us.

Each one of these photos
has opened my eyes

to who you really are, not
who we wanted you to be.

And how gifted you are.

This whole process has made
me slow down and take a look

at myself, as a father
and a husband and ask

what I could do better.

I guess it was me who
couldn't let go of

who I thought you should be.

Put to much pressure
on you to live up

to our expectations.

- Hold on, some healthy
expectation are just fine.

(laughs)

the kids nowadays, they
don't have discipline,

zero consequences, I
think you can sit around

have quality family time
around a dinner table

without those
fandangled devices.

- Yes mother I think
they're called cell phones.

- That's, whatever,
those fandangled things.

- Well, I can't take
back the past Jilly,

but I can change the future.

And from now on
it's family first.

Again.

(laughs)

- [All] Group hug.

(kisses)

- Wow, I don't know what
happened up in those woods

but things changed
more than one way here.

(laughs)

- Well, you know maybe
you should come with us

next time daddy.

- Yes,
- I would like that.

- Next time, honey I'm
not going back out there

with those snakes
and that nasty goose

that kept chasing me around.

- Goose?

Well I aint scared.

- Well good, then I will
book the yurt for next July.

- Oh, okay.

Alright, let me show
you my favorite.

- Okay,
- okay.

- Now hurry up 'cause we.

(women gasp)

- [Mom] Jilly, oh Jilly,
that's the picture you put

on the timer honey,
it's gorgeous.

- You got me, I can't
believe that's me.

- And it is mother, look
at how beautiful you are.

- [Gran] Beautiful.

- [Dad] You're my
sunshine Jilly.

- Thank you dad.

(moans)

- Mine too.

- Paul.

What are you doing here?

(laughs)

Listen I know we have
a lot to talk about.

- We do but before all that,

I gotta do this,

(gasps)

(gasps)

Jilly would you be my wife?

- Yes, yes.

(laughs)

(cheers)

(laughs)

- I love you.

(soft music)

(waves crash)

So I've decided to write
about our journey as a family

and my accidental addiction.

And how we overcame it.

- Honey are you sure?

- Yeah, recovery is for life.

- You can say that again.

- But I can't write
my story alone,

so I was wondering if you
would write it with me mom.

- Me?

Honey I haven't written
anything in forever,

I couldn't possibly.

- Ah, ah, ah, oh come on,
we're trying new things right?

- It would mean a lot to me.

Come on.

- Oh come on Jackie.

Writing is like riding
a bike or braiding hair,

you never forget how.

- Okay, I guess I
can give it a whirl.

- Okay.

(laughs)

okay mom.

- Little, little, little.

- Little dap.

Oh.

(laughs)

That's the spirit.

Okay, now don't leave me out,

because back in the day
I was an expert typist

and I could type
65 words a minute.

Trying to take a nap.

- It's my girl.

(laughs)

So mother you're not
going to come in.

- Oh no, you know I can't
stand all that salt.

- Alright, well
try not to overheat

under all that fabulosity.

(laughs)

- You sweet, I'm
just gonna sit here

with my great grandbaby,
isn't that right Faith?

(laughs)

- Hi you guys, hey, you guys?

(waves crash)

- Oh I'm gonna get you,
there you go, here you are,

here you go,

you want another one?

That's orange.

Hey, don't throw it down
over there, put it inside.

(laughs)

(soft music)

Hmm.

(sighs)

(laughs)

Come on girl, come on baby
baby, let's go for a walk.

Gran, Gran's gonna teach
you all about life baby.

And then,

we gonna have a
discussion about glamping,

I can tell you everything you
need to know about glamping.

Yeah, you're gonna love it,

it's not as bad
as it sounds okay?

Well first of all let's
see what we can do here.

Yeah, there you go.

Oh, here comes a wave, here
it comes, here it comes.

Wee.

You got it.

(inspiring music)

I was afraid of
clanging my own dins

But now I'm willing to fly
my tears I filled fountains

Left me empty inside

Finally it came to me

I was being my worst enemy

And the battles I've been
fighting were against me

Positivity, shift
me, moved me

I rock this brand
new attitude

Dancing to this
rhythm of life

I'm a lady

So life better
treat me accordingly

Just like a queen
wearing my crown

I deserve it

I'm a lady

So life better
treat me accordingly

Just like a queen
wearing my crown

I deserve it

It's like I found
a little secret

and I can't keep
it to myself