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- You go south until you come to the place

where rainbows wait for rain.

The river is kept in a stone box, the water runs uphill

and the mountains float in the air.

Except at night when they go away

to play with other mountains.

It's a poem that I saw somewhere, I don't know,

I think the other day, maybe the day before.

This road, I think it's called 2266 County Road,

or maybe State Road.

Not sure.

When I get there, I'll know when I see you soon.

I will.

I will see you soon.

I love you.

Day 19, I think.

Not sure.

Not sure.

End of memo.

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- [Radio Host] Thank you for joining us

and listening to the cattle report.

This is me and I am grateful to y'all since, oh wait,

what year is this?

I don't even know anymore.

Now why does it matter, huh?

Getting old, moving on and on.

How's that song going?

Yeah. Anyway, let's get going.

I'd like to welcome Kyle Rutgers Jr.

with the Southern Report.

The market is the best it's been the last three weeks.

Easiest thing to move was a 600 to 800 pound cut steer.

So let's walk the pens, Kyle.

- [Kyle] Numbers are good.

We had 59 sellers, 149 buyers with 416 head on Wednesday.

Of that 176 were steers, 128 were cows,

68 heifers, 44 bulls.

Steer side, $3 down to 220.

Heifers are $3 to 265, 210 to 285 for packer cows,

bulls 190 to 240, and they put on about two

to 4 cents on the rail, by the way.

And all in all, it was a good start.

- [Radio Host] Well, thank you. Kyle.

See you this Saturday.

Yes, we will.

Wait. What day is it today?

I have no idea.

So now's caller time.

We're happy to answer any of your questions about

whatever it might be, cattle related or not.

Annie is on the line.

How are you doing, Annie?

- [Annie] Well, I'm doing pretty good.

Thank you for having me.

I just wanted to ask if, you know,

you saw anything in the sky last night or heard any noises?

- [Radio Host] Oh, why, Annie?

Did you see something?

- [Annie] Well, yes, I, I saw something

glowing up in the sky looking west and you know,

I just wondered if anybody else saw it.

- [Radio Host] What, what time was that?

- [Annie] Around 10:45 at night.

- [Radio Host] And was it moving?

- [Annie] No, it was just floating there.

I watched it for at least an hour

and it didn't move an inch.

- [Radio Host] Like a, what do they call 'em these days?

UAP, unidentified aerial phenomenon.

- [Annie] I don't know what you call it.

All I know is it was very strange

and it was just floating up there in the sky.

- [Radio Host] And you sure it wasn't a star or a planet?

- [Annie] No, it was way too big for that.

- [Radio Host] What about a drone, you know,

government surveillance kind of thing?

- [Annie] I don't think they can stay up there

for that long, can they?

- [Radio Host] I don't know.

Well, there's been a lot of sightings out that way.

I will say that.

- [Annie] It was a spaceship.

That's what I believe.

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♪ Bruising up my heart ♪

♪ Wasted in the cracks ♪

(phone rings)

♪ Spilling out my gargoyle eyes ♪

♪ Slimming up my tracks ♪

- Hey there.

- [Mom] Ella, how are you doing?

- I'm doing okay, mom.

How are you doing?

- [Mom] Fine.

Where are you?

- I, I don't really know, to be honest.

- [Mom] Well, alright, when are you coming back?

- I don't know.

- [Mom] That's what you told me yesterday.

- How's dad? Is he doing okay?

- [Mom] Oh, he's getting by.

He was asking about you this morning.

- I thought you said he doesn't remember who I am.

- [Mom] Well, you know how he is.

He's up and down.

I, I, I don't really know with him.

Did you find them yet?

- Find what?

- [Mom] What you said you were looking for?

- Oh no, not yet.

- [Mom] Okay.

When do you think you will?

- I don't know, mom.

You know, they come and they go.

We gotta be patient.

- [Mom] Well, you've been saying that

for a very long time, Ella.

Maybe it's not meant to be.

- I'm gonna see him tonight, okay?

- [Narrator] And so the question has naturally

and often been asked, if communication with those

who have passed into the unseen be possible,

why should be necessary to have a connecting link

in a so-called medium,

usually a perfect stranger and of another order of mind?

Surely our loved ones would try to communicate directly

with those dearest to them.

A father or mother would be more likely to be sensitive

to the spiritual presence

of their beloved child than a uncongenial strange-

(phone rings)

Than an uncongenial stranger.

The paramount importance of psychical research

is found in correcting the habit

of Western thought of the average men we meet.

That the physical plane is the whole of nature,

or at any rate, the only aspect of the universe,

which really concerns us.

Under this false and deadly assumption,

all wider views and spiritual conceptions

wither and die as soon as they are born.

This vast and devastating war

has however, brought certain spiritual tendencies

and aspirations into the lives of a multitude of men

and led many to the conviction, which Lowell expresses

that we see about half the causes of our deeds

seeking them wholly in the outer life

and heatless of the encircling spirit world,

which though unseen is felt and so and thus all

germs of pure and worldwide purposes.

Insistence of the demand for some explanation

of these phenomena, which we find within us

is only a special case of that continuous pressure

of the causal instinct, which characterizes our reason.

And it is because of the difficulty

of finding any adequate explanation of them in known

and familiar causes that science distrust the existence

of the phenomena themselves.

The reasoning faculty in rejecting every known cause

as inadequate satisfies its unrest

by rejecting the occurrences as improbable or unproved.

In truth, there is strictly speaking,

no scientific explanation of the higher phenomena

of spiritualism.

Secondary causes with which science deals

are only antecedents or previous states of a phenomenon

and have more remote antecedents or previous states,

which in turn need to be accounted for.

And so on in an endless chain

thus to the scientific materialist,

God necessarily becomes an infinite, et cetera.

God necessarily becomes an infinite, et cetera.

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- Infinite, et cetera.

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Voice memo.

So I heard something in this book

that I've been listening to, an infinite, et cetera,

and I just love that, don't you?

Et cetera, is a Latin and it means in the other things.

So just an infinity of other things,

because yeah, I've just been thinking about

other things like lots of things

such as what I'll say to you when I see you at last.

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After all this time.

I can't wait, sweetie.

Anyway, it's sunny today.

Everybody, every day is pretty much the same, to be honest.

♪ The road turns on and on ♪

♪ Just the way it's supposed to be ♪

♪ Road turns far away ♪

♪ Nobody here, just you and me ♪

That's a work in progress.

But maybe you can help me finish it.

End of memo.

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- [Nate] Hey, it's me again.

No idea if you're gonna listen to this or not,

but I hope you're doing okay.

I mean, I pray you are okay all the time

because I have no idea where you are.

Can you please call me?

I just wanna talk to you.

I just need to know that you're safe,

that you're alright, wherever you are.

I love you.

It's me.

It's Nate.

Please.

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- I turned down this road

and I think this is a good spot.

There's just something about it.

Like, I think this is the place.

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I think I'm gonna see the lights tonight.

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So I've been reading this book.

It's about time, the nature of time.

It's not really what we think it is.

At least this is.

It's what the scientist says.

- He says that it can move around

like bounce around in different directions.

But nothing tonight, sweetie.

Same as last night and the night before,

night before, night before last.

Maybe everybody's right.

Maybe I should just give up.

Just go home as if I know where that is anyway.

No, I love you.

I know that.

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Imagine you are in a movie.

In this movie you find yourself trapped in a strange place.

You're hungry and scared.

Now imagine there is someone coming for you, chasing you.

You are terrified.

And then imagine you open up your arms

and you can see that you have wings.

You can fly.

You can fly up into the beyond,

higher and higher, escaping the nightmare.

You are floating, drifting, sinking into nothingness,

into pure serenity.

You are falling asleep, asleep.

You feel nothing but peace.

You are safe.

Nothing can harm you.

Sleep.

Sleep.

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(Nina giggling)

- Mommy, wake up.

Mommy, wake up.

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(bird caws)

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Voice memo.

So no, I didn't see the lights last night.

I stayed up till like almost dawn,

and almost gave up.

I dunno, I was just starting to feel kinda lost.

But then this morning, first thing I saw a sign

like it was just sitting there waiting for me.

So yeah, I think I'm gonna see him tonight.

I think tonight's the night.

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So yeah, as I was saying the other day,

I've been reading this book about time

and about how it's not like a linear thing.

It doesn't go on a straight line.

It kind of swirls and jags

and it's like the tip of a blade,

or you know, like a sleepy bird at night. (chuckles)

There's holes in the canvas, you know,

like in the fabric of time,

just things kind of come and go in and out,

you know, like everything that happens or doesn't happen.

Do you remember that time at the beach

when we were painting with watercolors on that deck

and you painted a whale (chuckles)

and really kind of goofy, cool whale?

I think I was trying to paint a seagull,

and you named your whale Ursula.

And my seagull didn't have a name.

And you said it should be named Nina.

And I asked you why, and you said,

"Because that's my name."

And you said it's a pretty name.

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I didn't tell you at the time,

but it made me so happy to hear

that you thought you had a pretty name.

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End of memo.

- [Narrator] To entertain the simplest explanation

that occasionally a channel opens from the unseen world

to ours, and that some who have entered that world are able

to make their continued existence known to us.

Why some?

We cannot tell.

And why so poultry a manifestation?

But is anything poultry that manifests life.

In the dumb agony which seizes the soul

when some loved one is taken from us,

in the awful sense of separation, which paralyzes us

as we gaze upon the lifeless form,

there comes the unutterable yearning for some voice,

some sign from beyond.

And if in answer to our imploring cry for an assurance

that our faith is not in vain,

that our dear one is living still,

a smile were to overspread the features of the dead

or its lips to move, or even its finger to be lifted.

- [Narrator] Should we deem any action the poultry thing

that assures us death is not yet ended life.

And still more that death will not end all.

Though it be only a signal shown

and a voice from out of the darkness, it is not poultry.

Only the dead in spirit care not for the faintest,

the rudest sign that assures us who are slow of heart

to believe in all that the prophets have spoken,

that the soul lives freed from the flesh,

that the individual mind and memory remain,

though the clothing of the body and brain be gone.

And it is just this natural human longing

that renders a dispassionate consideration of the facts.

Some of the most remarkable automatic scripts

which have been discussed with critical acumen

by the research officer

of the society for cyclical research.

Her attention having been once casually drawn

to the subject of automatic writing.

She tried the experiment, and to her surprise,

found her hand wrote both verse

and prose without any volition on her part.

And the first messages were headed by the impromptu lines,

"Believe in what thou can not see

until the vision come to thee."

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- [Narrator] Believe in what thou can not see

until the vision come to thee.

- Believe in what thou can not see

until the vision come to thee.

Believe in what thou can not see.

Believe in what thou can not see

until the vision comes to thee.

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Believe in what thou can not see

until the vision comes to thee.

Ready, duck?

Scaled quail, tide build green, rock pigeon.

Yellow billed cuckoo. (chuckles)

Lesser nighthawk.

Lucifer hummingbird.

Whoa.

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Hey, mom.

- [Mom] Where are you, honey?

- [Ella] I'm just driving.

- [Mom] Okay, but where are you?

- What difference does it make, huh?

Where are you?

- [Mom] Home.

- Okay, good to know.

- [Mom] I care about you is all, Ella.

- I know.

Mom, I'm sorry.

How are you?

- [Mom] I'm doing fine.

We have some new neighbors across the street.

Her name is Saba, and I think she's from Egypt, I think.

Maybe one day you can meet them.

- Yeah, I have met them mom like a while ago.

They moved in when I was a kid.

How's dad?

Is he doing okay?

- [Mom] Dad, your father?

- Yeah. Yeah, is he doing okay?

Is he just same old?

- [Mom] I guess so.

He's not here.

He's gone, so.

- Okay, what do you mean

- [Mom] You father, he died.

- What? Today?

- [Mom] No, honey. Years ago.

You know that.

- Well, that's funny because you were just saying

that he doesn't remember who I am.

- [Mom] I said that?

- You did.

Yeah. - [Mom] Well, I don't know.

Some days he's here and some days he isn't.

- Mom, are you doing okay?

- [Mom] Everybody's gone, sweetie.

Me, you, dad, Nina, everybody.

You know that.

- Mom, now I'm really getting concerned.

- [Mom] Oh, it's just that I'm, I'm old and tired.

My memory is...

I don't know.

I don't know what to say.

Everything is so.

- [Ella] So what?

Mom?

- [Mom] We miss you as well, honey.

We want you to come home.

- I know.

- [Mom] And I spoke with Nate.

- I know.

- [Mom] He's very worried about you.

He wants to see you.

- I know.

- [Mom] So have you talked to him?

- No.

- [Mom] Well, I think you should

after everything that's happened.

- Okay.

- [Mom] Well, I'll tell him to call you then.

- No, no, no. Please don't do that.

I will call him back.

- [Mom] I know you won't, Ella.

I know how hard this is for you.

I get it.

And my heart, my heart just...

You know that, don't you?

- I know, mom.

- [Mom] And I just wanna say, can I just say one thing?

- Sure.

- [Mom] It wasn't your fault, honey.

- What wasn't?

- [Mom] No matter what anybody says, just remember that.

- Who?

What are you talking about?

- [Mom] I love you.

- I love you too.

- [Mom] Nate is very depressed, you know?

Why did you leave him?

- I didn't leave him, mom.

- [Mom] You what?

- Mom?

- [Mom] Yes, honey.

He's right there with you as always.

- Okay. I gotta go, mom.

I'm driving.

- [Mom] I know that, honey.

We can see you.

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- [Radio Host] Somebody's heartened out.

- [Radio Host] It's about time to take some calls

about cattle, weather conditions, crops,

anything you so desire, we answer all queries.

And oh, I see, we already got a caller.

Bernadette, how you doing today?

- [Bernadette] I'm good.

Oh, I've been listening to your show for a long, long time.

- [Radio Host] Oh, well, thank you so much.

- [Bernadette] But I realize

I don't really know much about you, do I?

So can I ask you a question about yourself?

- [Radio Host] About me?

Well, sure. Whatever you want.

- [Bernadette] Okay.

Well, I always ask people this question,

what is your favorite memory of all time?

- [Radio Host] You know, Bernadette,

(phone rings)

I think about that sometimes myself.

And I'm not so young anymore,

so I have tons and tons of memories.

But what I always say is this, my favorite memory

is one that hasn't even happened yet.

- [Bernadette] Well, how can it be a memory

if it hasn't happened?

- [Radio Host] Oh, but it has happened.

Just not yet.

You kidding me?

- [Bernadette] Oh no, not really.

- [Radio Host] Oh, listen to me now.

Maybe it's gonna be, I don't know.

The dinner I'm gonna have tonight with my wife

or my sister's birthday that's coming up in a few weeks

or that trip to Paris we're thinking of taking in the fall.

I could go on and on.

Maybe it's taking a walk at sunset later tonight

where our dog goes and the sun goes down

and it all just takes our breath away.

Maybe it's something I couldn't even imagine right now,

like maybe the exact moment when I die.

And when it happened, I'm just like, this is it.

This is what I've been waiting for my whole life.

- [Bernadette] I think maybe you are an angel,

you know that?

- [Radio Host] Oh, thank you.

And that's it for the cattle report.

It's been great talking to y'all and being with y'all.

No, not the you that you think is you,

but the other you, the you in between,

the you that droves, the you that sings,

the you that lost in the stars, the fire,

traveling to eternity asleep at the wheel.

I see you.

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- Call Nathan.

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- [Nathan] Ella. Wow.

How are you?

- Hey, Nate.

I'm, I'm good.

- [Nathan] It's good to hear your voice.

I mean, it's been a while.

Thanks for calling.

- Yeah, well, if I didn't,

mom would've just driven me crazy.

- [Nathan] And where are you?

- Why does everybody keep asking me that?

- [Nathan] Well, I, I mean, we haven't heard from you

and we're worried about you,

and we wanna be sure you're safe is all.

- Yeah, I'm safe.

I am.

- [Nathan] And you're driving?

Where are you going?

- I am not totally sure to be honest.

- [Nathan] Okay. What does that mean exactly?

- It means that I am driving

and I don't know where I'm gonna end up.

- [Nathan] You mean tonight or?

- Yeah, yeah.

- [Nathan] Can you at least tell me what part

of the universe you're in?

- I'm in the desert.

- [Nathan] Okay.

That makes sense.

You love it there.

You know, I'm, I'm worried about you.

- [Ella] I'm, I'm really fine, Nate.

I'm okay.

Like, totally okay.

I just don't understand why you keep calling me.

- [Nathan] Really?

- Yeah, because you know what I'm doing out here and why.

- [Nathan] You're hoping to see some lights

or something. - Yeah, that's not-

- [Nathan] Yeah. Your mom told me all about it.

- Yes. But that's not the point.

The point is that when I see them.

- [Nathan] Then what?

- Then I'll find her.

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- [Nathan] You'll find who?

- Can we talk about something else?

- [Nathan] Yeah, sure.

What do you wanna talk about?

- I don't know.

How are you doing?

How are things otherwise?

- [Nathan] You mean apart

from constantly worrying about you?

I guess things are okay.

The neighbor's dog died.

- Yeah, mom told me.

- [Nathan] And the wisteria is blooming.

The art is looking good.

Yeah. It blooms every day.

It's kind of weird.

- What do you mean?

- [Nathan] Like I'll see it

and there aren't any flowers on it.

And, and then by the afternoon it's, it's all flowers.

And then the next morning, nothing.

But by the afternoon it's, it's blooming.

- Huh.

- [Nathan] Yeah. Sometimes I cut them

and I give them to you.

- Okay.

- [Nathan] I can see you.

I'm looking at you.

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- Okay. You're being weird.

Mom said that you're depressed.

- [Nathan] Yeah.

Yeah, I mean, I, I don't know what to say.

Like, what can I even say to you.

- About what?

- [Nathan] Everything, what happened,

what we've been going through.

- Which is?

- [Nathan] Ella, you know.

You know exactly what I'm talking about.

- Do you know?

Do you know, Nate, about Nina?

Hmm?

- [Nathan] I do.

- And?

- [Nathan] Seriously?

- I'm listening.

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- [Nathan] Can you squeeze my hand?

- Nate, please. You're being fucking weird.

What I wanted to say is that I've had a lot of time, Nate,

to think about things.

A lot of things.

And I've been reading a lot of books,

like old books and new books.

There's just a lot out there that they're not telling us.

Like a lot.

- [Nathan] Like what?

- A lot of things.

- [Nathan] I'm listening.

- Okay. For one, I'm moving, right?

Like I'm moving right now.

- [Nathan] Yeah, you're driving.

- But how fast?

That's actually impossible to know.

How fast are you moving right now?

- [Nathan] I'm not moving.

I'm, I'm sitting here.

- Wrong. You are moving.

You wanna know why?

Because you are on earth and the earth is spinning

and it's also going in a giant circle.

And it's also moving in a spiral

along with the rest of the galaxy,

which is moving with the rest of the universe

at a rate that nobody even knows.

So yeah, to you, you're sitting perfectly still.

Only you're not at all.

And so what we think that we know,

like what we think is so obvious, that's not even true.

Not even a little bit.

Like, okay, am I going at 62 miles an hour

in a straight line?

No, not at all.

'Cause that's not even a thing.

That doesn't exist.

So I might as well just be sitting still like you are.

But I'm out here moving

and I keep moving and I'll keep looking.

And when I find the thing that I'm looking for,

then I'll know.

And you'll know too.

- [Nathan] Ella, you need to come home.

- Which is where?

- [Nathan] You have to listen to me.

I love you.

You need to wake up, please.

- No, Nate, you do.

You need to wake up.

That's what I'm saying.

That's what I'm saying.

A lot of things happen.

And, and although yes, they did happen.

They also didn't happen the way that we thought they did.

And that's why we have to keep looking.

And then we'll know the truth.

- [Nathan] Just, just-

- Just what?

See, you don't know.

And neither do I, and that's why I keep looking.

That's why I'm out here.

Because they could be an hour from here.

They could be two hours from here.

They could be where I was at tomorrow

or where I'll be yesterday.

- [Nathan] And if you don't see them?

If you don't see the lights,

if you don't find Nina? - Then I'll just die.

I don't know, Nate.

I'll fucking drive off a cliff out here.

- [Nathan] God, please, please don't say that.

- Well, you're pissing me off, Nate.

- [Nathan] Well, maybe I should be the one

who's angry, right?

- At me?

At me?

- [Nathan] You think this is easy?

Did you- - what are you talking about?

- [Nathan] You think it's easy?

- Fuck off.

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Voice memo.

So there's just, there's something about this place.

I've been here before.

Maybe I just think this is it.

I think I'm gonna see you.

I hope.

I think.

I'm gonna see you so soon.

(Ella whistles)

End of memo.

- [Nina] Mom. (chuckles)

Where are you?

- Hello?

Are you there?

It's, it's me. It's mama.

Are you there?

♪ Ah, ah, he ♪

♪ Oh, oh, he, oh ♪

♪ Oh, oh, he ♪

♪ Oh, oh, he, oh ♪

♪ Oh, oh, he, oh, oh ♪

♪ He, oh ♪

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In this movie, you find yourself trapped in a strange place.

You're hungry and scared.

Now imagine there is someone coming for you, chasing you.

You are terrified.

Now imagine that you open your arms.

Imagine you open up your arms.

and you can see that you have wings.

You can fly.

(ethereal music)

- [Nina] Mom.

Mommy, wake up.

Mommy, wake up.

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- [Narrator] To believe that the mere act of death

enables a spirit to understand the whole mystery of death

is as absurd as to imagine that the act of birth

enables an infant to understand the whole mystery of life.

The experience is different for each one of us.

One was here lately, could not believe he was dead.

He accepted the new conditions

as a certain stage in the treatment of his illness.

If it were possible for the soul

to die back into earth, life again,

I should die from sheer yearning to reach you

to tell you all that we imagined

is not half wonderful enough for the truth.

That immortality, instead of being a beautiful dream,

is the one, the only reality.

The strong golden thread.

- Dusty-capped flycatcher.

Black-crested titmouse.

Bushtit, rock wren, dark-eyed junco,

brown-headed cowbird, ovenbird, dickcissel.

(phone rings)

Hey.

- [Nathan] Hey, Ella, how are you?

You okay?

- Yeah. What is it?

- [Nathan] Are, are you driving?

- Funny.

Yes, I am.

- [Nathan] Okay. (chuckles)

- Take it you have a problem with that?

- [Nathan] No, no.

Ella, I'm just thankful that you picked up

and I'm sorry about everything.

- Is everything okay?

- [Nathan] Well, the reason I...

I was recently talking to someone about,

about what you're going through.

Well, not just someone, but a woman that Maria knows.

A, a friend of hers who it turns out is also a,

a psychologist, a therapist.

- Okay. - [Nathan] And a medium.

And she said she would like to chat with you.

Would you be willing to do that?

- Do what exactly?

- [Nathan] Talk, talk to her.

- [Ella] Who is she again?

- [Nathan] Her name is Diana.

She's a friend of Maria's.

And actually she's on the call with us right now

if you have a moment.

- Now?

- [Nathan] Yes. Is, is that alright?

Would, would you talk to her?

- Okay.

No, but sure.

- [Diana] Hello, Ella.

Thank you for talking to me.

My name is Diana.

I'm well, I'm a lot of things,

but let's just say I'm a channeler, a universal healer.

- Okay.

- [Diana] Are you able to talk while you drive?

Do you wanna pull over?

- No, I'm good.

- [Diana] Okay, as long as you feel safe.

I'm friends with your friend.

I think Nate told you that.

In fact, I helped her through her loss.

- Sorry.

What is it that you wanna talk to me about?

- [Diana] Just what you're going through.

I mean, how's your heart?

Can you tell me a little bit about

what you're experiencing right now?

- I'm talking to you while driving down a county road

or ranch road of some kind.

It's sunny.

I'm kind of hungry, so I'll probably pull off

and eat at some point.

Yeah. How are you?

What are you experiencing?

- [Diana] I'm hoping to help you is all.

- Okay.

Well, if you know anything about locating a high desert NOP,

I'd be happy to hear about that.

- [Diana] NOPA?

- A nocturnal optical phenomena.

- [Diana] Yes. Nate told me you were looking for the lights.

Can you tell me more about that?

- Sure.

Yeah. I mean, they exist.

They're hard to find just 'cause you never know

where they're gonna show up.

- [Diana] Interesting.

- Yeah.

Ghost lights, Fata Morgana.

They're called different things depending on where you are.

They're most visible in the darkest places,

so I usually look for like a dip in the terrain.

That's where you see 'em the most.

- [Diana] And have you seen them?

- Not yet, no.

But hopefully tonight.

- [Diana] How long have you been looking for them?

- I don't know.

- [Diana] Well, what you are going through, Ella,

there really isn't anything more difficult

in terms of human experience, which is why I wanted

to talk to you about all this.

- All of what?

- [Diana] About what happened.

- Which is what?

- [Diana] Your daughter.

- What about her?

- [Diana] I'm just trying to help you process her loss.

- Okay. You think I'm crazy?

- [Diana] No. No, not at all, Ella.

I'm just sensing your energy.

You are moving, moving through the wonder.

- Yeah, I'm driving in a car.

- [Diana] Moving through the wonder,

and I see you are surrounded by loved ones.

I see three people and one person who is,

she is surrounding you and really bathing you in light.

She is young and smiling.

- That's my daughter, yes.

- [Diana] Her name was Nina.

- Is Nina.

- [Diana] Nina.

Nina is here with us.

I see her, her heart.

And she is, she's speaking to me.

She is with me right now.

Nina.

Nina, is that you?

My name is Diana.

I'm speaking with your mother now.

Can you hear me?

Yes, Nina, yes, I can hear you.

I understand you.

Okay. Are you sure?

Alright, I'll tell her.

Ella, Nina is, she wants me to tell you something.

- Okay.

- [Diana] She wants you to see.

To see what lies ahead.

She says that she.

- She what?

- [Diana] Oh yes. Nina, I hear you.

Yes, yes, I see you.

Yes.

Okay.

Okay. I will.

Ella, that was her.

That was Nina.

She's gone now.

It's, it's hard.

I'm not sure I should say what she told me.

- No, tell me.

- [Diana] Alright. I will. (suspenseful music)

Well, Nina said...

She said that, that she wanted to be with you,

to stay with you, but she couldn't.

She had to let go after what happened.

After what you did.

- What did I do?

- [Diana] I'm sorry, Ella.

But she forgives you.

Listen to me.

She loves you and she has forgiven you.

And now she can protect you.

She is the light you seek, the light that is inside of you

and she is waiting for you.

- Where, where is she?

Where is she?

- [Diana] Nowhere.

She's nowhere.

- What?

Where is she waiting?

- [Diana] Only you can decide, Ella.

- No, no. Where is she?

Diane, tell me.

Hello, hello?

(suspenseful music)

- [Narrator] The soul lives freed from the flesh

that the individual mind and memory remain

though the clothing of the body and the brain be gone.

And it is just this natural human longing

that renders a dispassionate consideration of the facts.

A calm and critical weighing of the evidence.

So difficult and yet so imperative.

This is now being done as the following case illustrates

with a care that grows by experience

and with an honesty that none can dispute.

(suspenseful music)

- Hey, Nate, what in the actual fuck was that?

I don't even know what to say to you.

I don't know who that woman was.

Were you on the call?

That was so fucked up.

Maybe don't call me, okay?

Maybe don't call me anymore, but this is real.

I'm gonna see, I'm gonna see the lights tonight.

- [Radio Host] Up from last week, 416 steer to.

So that's it for the Southern report.

Doesn't look like we have any callers,

meaning I believe we can finally call it a day.

Oh, wait a minute. We do have a caller.

Hello?

With whom do I have the pleasure?

- Hi, my name's Ella.

- [Radio Host] Where are you calling from, Miss Ella?

- I don't, I don't know.

Actually I'm just driving.

- [Radio Host] Okay, well, you be safe out there.

What can we do for you?

- I have a question.

- [Radio Host] Absolutely. What is it?

- It's about the lights.

- [Radio Host] Okay, well, what do you want 'em know?

- I mean are they real?

Do they really exist?

- [Radio Host] Well, I will say

you aren't alone in this regard.

There's a lot of theories about the lights, you know?

A lot of people think various things about them.

- I mean, but are they real?

- [Radio Host] Well, there's a lot of opinions about-

- Have you seen them?

- [Radio Host] Me, have I seen the lights?

- Yeah. Have you?

- [Radio Host] Yes, yes, I have.

I have seen them.

- And?

- [Radio Host] Oh, what would you like to know?

- Where did you see 'em?

- [Radio Host] First time I saw 'em,

I was alone and nobody believed me.

A lot of people saw 'em back then.

Hundreds of people.

Then they wrote about it in the paper.

And some of the people who did, they disappeared.

One of 'em up and died. True story.

- But when you saw them, I mean, how did they seem?

Like did anything change for you?

- [Radio Host] How do you mean change?

- Like when you saw them,

did you realize like what was real and what wasn't?

- [Radio Host] Well, I've always known what was real, Ella.

- You have?

- [Radio Host] Indeed.

- Which is what?

- [Radio Host] Well, nothing.

Nothing is really real.

- How do you mean?

- [Radio Host] Well, that person who saw the lights

and died, you know who that was?

- No. - [Radio Host] It was me.

I'm the one who died.

- I don't understand.

You died when?

Are you joking?

- [Radio Host] No, I'm not.

I don't joke around. You know that.

- I don't know anything.

- [Radio Host] But you will.

You will know.

You will know everything.

- I will.

- [Radio Host] Ella?

Hello, Ella, are you there?

- Yeah, I'm here.

Can you hear me? - [Radio Host] Ella?

Well, we seem to have lost her.

Connection's not great in these parts, as y'all know.

And we're outta time, so that's it for the cattle report.

Till the right time, the next time, so long.

(pensive music)

- Least bittern and yellow-crowned night heron,

black vulture, willet, rough-legged hawk, flammulated owl.

(chuckles) Elf owl.

Dusty-capped flycatcher.

Black-crested titmouse.

(crickets chirping)

(suspenseful music)

(suspenseful music continues)

(suspenseful music continues)

What do you want?

What the fuck do you want?

- [Narrator] You are floating.

- [Ella] You are floating.

- [Narrator] Drifting.

- [Ella] Drifting, sinking into-

- [Narrator] Sinking into nothingness.

- [Ella] You are falling.

- [Narrator] You are falling asleep.

- You feel nothing.

- [Narrator] You feel nothing but peace.

You are safe.

- Nothing can harm you.

- [Narrator] Nothing can harm you.

Sleep.

Sleep.

(ethereal music)

- [Nina] Mom, where are you?

Are you here?

(pensive music)

- I thought I saw you last night.

I mean, it wasn't even a person.

It wasn't even a person.

I thought I felt you.

If I'm getting closer, please just tell me.

Closer.

Can you just let me know?

Just tell me, tell me.

It isn't even a person.

Please just tell me.

It isn't even a person.

I love you.

The immortality, instead of being a beautiful train,

is the one, the only reality.

The immortality instead of being

a beautiful dream, beautiful dream.

The immortality, instead of being a beautiful dream,

is the one, the only reality.

The strong golden thread.

- [Pastor] Because some souls, they wonder.

They're lost.

Some are lost for a long time, some forever,

because they won't accept their truth.

The truth that all of us must come to face.

These forever souls won't accept it

until the day that God anoints them with the power.

He wakes them and they stop their wondering

and find what it is they are truly looking for.

God awakes them as he did his own true Son,

our Lord Jesus Christ, Son of God, miracle of miracles.

He was crucified.

He died for our sins.

And then what happened to Him?

Did He go to heaven?

Did He go to hell?

No, He wandered.

Yes, He did.

He wandered lost for hundreds.

No, for thousands of years.

But for us here on this little planet,

it was a mere three days.

And then when He finally heard His Father's voice,

when He saw at last the light surrounding Him.

Hallelujah.

He Woke up.

(pensive music)

- [Ella] Can you show yourself to me?

(pensive music)

(singer singing in foreign language)

- Spotted they're called an hoodso, born egg.

- [Nina] Where are you?

- Nina, I'm so sorry.

- Hello?

- [Narrator] In an endless chain, thus to the scientific,

- I don't know what you're trying to do to me.

It's me. It's me.

Can you hear me?

(pensive music continues)

- [Voicemail] Recording.

You may hang up or press one for more options.

- Hey, Nate.

I am...

(pensive music)

I'm just...

I just...

I just wanted to say that I,

I know that you were just trying to help

and I don't really know where I'm anymore.

(pensive music continues)

I'm sorry.

I'm, I'm gonna go now.

(pensive music continues)

(crickets chirping)

(crickets continue chirping)

(wind howling)

(crickets continue chirping)

(wind howling)

- [Nina] Mommy?

Mom?

Mommy, wake up.

- Hello? (tires screech)

- [Nina] Mommy, wake up.

(pensive music)

(bright music)

(bright music continues)

- And then I saw them.

I saw the lights.

And now at last I know.

I know where I am.

And I know where you are too.

- [Radio Host] So we come to the place

where the rainbows wait for rain

and the river is kept in a stone box.

The water runs uphill and the mountains float in the air

except at night when they go away to play

with other mountains.

I say those words for a friend, a listener,

a wanderer of worlds.

Her name is Ella.

And as they say, the end of one journey

is the beginning of another and another, and another.

We live after all in an infinite et cetera.

So here's to you and yours, Ella.

Safe travels, peace and endless love.

- [Nina] Hey, mommy.

- Yeah, sweetie.

- [Nina] Where are we going?

- Where do you wanna go?

- [Nina] I don't know.

- Yeah, let's go home.

(gentle music)

(gentle music continues)

(gentle music)

♪ It was last summer ♪

♪ Dog days of August ♪

♪ I had to watch you let go ♪

♪ You untied the boat ♪

♪ You kicked off the shore ♪

♪ And you were a warm wind ♪

♪ You were starlight ♪

♪ And my love was all around you ♪

♪ Even when you're sleeping ♪

♪ It reaches through the darkness ♪

♪ From the place the hold me ♪

♪ My love is all around you ♪

♪ Even when I can't touch you ♪

♪ Because I know it hurts you ♪

♪ Buy my love is all around you ♪

(gentle music)

♪ You loved the winter ♪

♪ You loved the Tetons ♪

♪ You are the mountain ♪

♪ You are the sun ♪

♪ And I know where I'd go ♪

♪ Everywhere I go, you would follow ♪

♪ My love is all around you ♪

♪ Even when you're sleeping ♪

♪ It reaches through the darkness ♪

♪ From the place you hold me ♪

♪ My love is all around you ♪

♪ Even when I can't touch you ♪

♪ Because I know it hurts you ♪

♪ But my love is all around you ♪