Original subtitles

[ SCHOOL BELL RINGS ]

[ STUDENTS CONVERSING ]

[ BIRDS CHIRPING ]

[ MID-TEMPO POP MUSIC PLAYS ]

ASHLEY?

ASHLEY?

DID YOU HAVE A GOOD WEEKEND?

HOW ARE THINGS GOING AT HOME?

ME AND STACY WENT SHOPPING.

HOW ARE THINGS GOING WITH

YOUR MOM?

BOUGHT JEANS.

THAT SOUNDS FUN.

HOW'S EVERYTHING GOING IN CLASS?

ARE YOU LEARNING ANYTHING NEW?

ANYTHING THAT YOU LIKE?

READING "CATCHER IN THE RYE."

THAT WAS A GOOD BOOK.

DO YOU LIKE IT?

WHAT DO YOU LIKE ABOUT IT?

IS THERE ANYTHING YOU WANTED TO

TALK ABOUT?

ASHLEY?

NOTHING ON YOUR MIND WE CAN

DISCUSS?

WHAT HAPPENED TO YOUR HAND?

IS THAT A CIGARETTE BURN?

DID YOU DO THAT TO YOURSELF?

OR -- OR DID SOMEBODY DO THAT TO

YOU?

ASHLEY, DO YOU SMOKE?

DOES YOUR MOTHER SMOKE?

[ SCHOOL BELL RINGS ]

OKAY, GUYS, WE'RE GOING TO BE

TALKING ABOUT HOLDEN'S CHARACTER

BREAKDOWN TODAY, WHICH EVERYONE

WAS SUPPOSED TO DO LAST NIGHT

FOR THEIR HOMEWORK.

SO, HOPEFULLY, YOU ALL DID IT.

UM, LET'S ALL TURN TO PAGE 75,

PLEASE.

75 -- IF EVERYONE DOESN'T HAVE A

BOOK, JUST LOOK ON TO THE PERSON

NEXT TO YOU...

♪ NEVER FELL

LIKE THIS BEFORE ♪

♪ I CAN FEEL IT, HUMANOID

♪ LOOKING OUT ACROSS THE WAVES,

I ENVISION I AM STRONG ♪

♪ DEEP INSIDE A WAVE,

I STILL FEEL YOU IN MY BASE ♪

♪ OH-OH

♪ DON'T...

[ SCHOOL BELL RINGS ]

ALL RIGHT, GUYS.

MAKE SURE YOU FINISH CHAPTER 14

FOR TOMORROW.

WE'RE GONNA TALK ABOUT IT, SO

KNOW IT.

THANK YOU.

HAVE A GREAT AFTERNOON.

DON'T FORGET YOUR WORK TOMORROW.

HEY, ASH?

ASH?

HOW'S EVERYTHING?

GOOD.

UM...SEE YA AROUND?

SEE YOU LATER.

WHO ARE YOU?

SORRY.

I SEE YOU ALL THE TIME.

WHAT'S YOUR NAME?

ASH...

[ SCHOOL BELL RINGS ]

WHAT?

ASH...

[ SIGHS ]

HUH?

Ashley.

I SEE YOU LOOKING AT ME.

IT'S JUST KIND OF WEIRD.

I GOT TO GO.

[ SIGHS ]

[ SCHOOL BELL RINGS ]

ALL RIGHT, WELCOME TO

"COOKING WITH DAD."

I'M YOUR HOST, MANNY.

TODAY, WE'RE GONNA BE COOKING A

TRADITIONAL PORTUGUESE MEAL,

ALONG WITH MY DAUGHTER

JACQUELINE.

ASHLEY, GET IN HERE!

...PORTUGUESE RECIPES...

[ SHUTS TV OFF ]

GOING THROUGH MY SHIT AGAIN,

HUH?

HAVE YOU?

[ TURNS TV ON ]

YOU'RE 17 YEARS OLD.

JUST GET YOUR OWN SHIT!

YOU FUCKING LISTENING TO ME?

[ SHUTS TV OFF ]

THAT SHRINK OF YOURS CALLED FROM

SCHOOL.

WHAT DID YOU DO NOW, YOU LITTLE

BITCH, HUH?

WANTS ME TO TAKE YOU DOWNTOWN TO

SOME GROUP-THERAPY THING AT A

HOSPITAL.

[ TURNS TV ON ]

DO YOU HEAR ME?

[ SIGHS ]

[ SHUTS TV OFF ]

DOES HE THINK YOU'RE CRAZY?

[ TURNS TV ON ]

Oh! LOOK AT ME!

I CAN'T DO THIS.

I CAN'T TAKE THIS SHIT!

DO YOU WANT TO DO...

HE SAYS YOU GOT SOME BURN ON

YOUR ARM.

...A LITTLE PORT WINE HERE.

DID YOU DO THAT?

TOOK MY LIGHTER, DIDN'T YOU?

YOU KNOW WHO GAVE ME THAT?

YOU KNOW WHO GAVE ME THAT?!

[ GLASS SHATTERS ]

ASHLEY?

ASHLEY?

I ASKED YOU IF YOU WERE GONNA

PARTICIPATE?

YOU DON'T HAVE ANYTHING TO SAY.

NO.

YOU KNOW, IF YOU'RE NOT GONNA

PARTICIPATE, THERE'S REALLY NO

POINT IN YOU COMING.

DIDN'T CHOOSE TO BE HERE.

HOW DO YOU EXPECT TO WORK ON

YOUR PROBLEMS IF YOU'RE NOT

GONNA TALK ABOUT THEM?

HMM?

LAY OFF HER.

I MEAN, THAT'S ALL YOU DO.

YOU JUST PUSH US, PUSH US.

I MEAN, MAYBE SOME OF US AIN'T

GOT SHIT TO SAY.

I RECALL YOU HAVING PLENTY TO

SAY, JAMES.

[ CHUCKLES ]

THAT'S FUNNY.

YEAH, WELL, MAYBE SHE DOESN'T.

IT'S NOT YOUR TURN TO TALK.

IT'S ASHLEY'S TURN.

ASHLEY, WHY DON'T YOU JUST TELL

US SOMETHING ABOUT YOURSELF.

IT'S OKAY -- SAFE HERE.

COME ON.

ANYTHING.

SHE DOESN'T WANT TO FUCKING

TALK!

OKAY, CAN WE PLEASE CUT THE

SWEARING?

"WE"?

I'M THE ONLY ONE FUCKING

SWEARING!

SHIT, BALLS.

NO, IF YOU'RE NOT GONNA

COOPERATE --

THIS IS BULLSHIT!

THIS IS FUCKING BULLSHIT!

SIT BACK DOWN NOW.

FUCK YOU!

OKAY, THAT'S IT.

FUCK YOU, YOU FUCKING BITCH!

GET OFF ME!

DON'T FUCK -- OH!

YOU'RE OUT OF HERE.

OH, FUCK!

PLEASE STAY HERE.

[ LAUGHS ]

DO NOT LEAVE HERE.

DON'T WORRY.

IT HAPPENS ALL THE TIME.

WHY DON'T YOU TALK?

COME ON.

WHAT ARE YOU SCARED OF?

I WON'T BITE YOU...

[ Gruffly ] UNLESS YOU WANT ME

TO.

[ GROWLS ]

[ LAUGHS ]

[ Normal voice ] THAT'S BETTER.

[ NO AUDIO ]

THAT'S A NICE LIGHTER.

WHAT?

I SAID, THAT'S A NICE

LIGHTER.

DAD GAVE IT TO ME.

[ CHUCKLES ]

YOUR DAD GAVE YOU A LIGHTER?

CAN I SIT?

YEAH.

I'M VICKY.

ASHLEY.

CAN I GET A LIGHT, ASHLEY?

NICE.

IS IT REAL?

I DON'T KNOW.

SCRATCH IT.

WHAT?

YOU KNOW, LIKE THEY DO IN THE

MOVIES.

THEY SCRATCH GOLD TO SEE IF IT'S

REAL OR WHATEVER, WITH, LIKE, A

KNIFE.

[ GASPS ]

SO COOL.

YOUR DAD GIVE YOU THIS, TOO?

I BOUGHT IT.

KICK-ASS.

I LIKE IT.

YOU, UH, GO TO SCHOOL AROUND

HERE?

I'M HOME-SCHOOLED.

MY PARENTS ARE AWAY RIGHT NOW.

WANT TO COME OVER?

YOU WANT TO?

HUH?

COME ON.

COME ON!

COME ON!

[ CHUCKLES ]

♪ I'M MUCH BRIGHTER

THAN I USED TO BE ♪

♪ A SHINING STAR, BABY

♪ I FEEL THE AIR

UNDERNEATH MY FEET ♪

♪ I FEEL IT COMING OVER ME

♪ AND I'M ABOUT TO FACE MONDAY

♪ IT'S KINDA SCARY,

BUT I'M ALL RIGHT ♪

♪ I'M GONNA GIVE IT EVERYTHING

THIS TIME ♪

♪ I'M GONNA PUT MYSELF

ON THE LINE ♪

♪ AND WHOA, WHOA, WHOA

♪ I'M A SHINING STAR

♪ WHOA, WHOA, WHOA

♪ I'M A SHINING STAR

DO YOU HAVE A COMPUTER?

WE CAN TALK ONLINE.

MY SCREEN NAME'S

"SAPPHO GIRL 13."

SAPPHO...

GIRL 13, YEAH.

♪ I'M A LOT HAPPIER NOW

♪ THANK YOU FOR SHOWING ME HOW

♪ HOW TO BE ME

AND HOW TO STAY STRONG ♪

♪ HOW TO GET MYSELF

OFF THE GROUND ♪

♪ AND I DON'T KNOW...

SO...

YOU...

DID THIS TO YOURSELF?

KIND OF.

[ CHUCKLES NERVOUSLY ]

KIND OF?

♪ I'M A SHINING STAR

I MEAN, NO ONE DID THAT TO

YOU, RIGHT?

[ SIGHS ]

WOW.

♪ WHOA, WHOA, WHOA

WHO DID...

[ MOANS ]

ARE YOU OKAY?

YOU WANT ME TO DO IT AGAIN?

♪ I'M MUCH BRIGHTER

THAN I USED TO BE ♪

♪ A SHINING STAR, BABY

DOES IT...

♪ I FEEL THE AIR...

DOESN'T IT HURT?

♪ I FEEL IT COMING OVER ME

YEAH.

♪ AND WHOA, WHOA, WHOA

♪ I'M A SHINING STAR

♪ WHOA, WHOA, WHOA

♪ I'M A HERO

♪ WHOA, WHOA, WHOA

♪ WHOA, WHOA, WHOA

[ SIGHS ]

♪ AND I'M OKAY TO FADE AWAY

♪ AND I'M OKAY TO FADE AWAY

I-I CAN'T.

WHY NOT?

I'M SORRY.

YOU SHOULD GO.

PLEASE.

GO!

♪ WHO AM I, WHEN I THINK

I'M SOMETHING I'M NOT? ♪

♪ IS IT RIGHT THAT I GAVE IT ALL

BUT NOTHING GOT? ♪

♪ AND I'M SCARED,

BUT I'M SCARED OF GIVING UP ♪

♪ WELL, TIME SEEMS SO LONG

WITHOUT YOU ♪

♪ I PUT MYSELF WRAPPED UP

♪ AND EVERYTHING SEEMS SO

♪ BUT I GIVE IT ALL,

GIVE IT ALL TO YOU ♪

♪ I'M WAITING FOR SOMETHING

MORE THAN A SIP OF THE LIFE ♪

♪ I'M WAITING

FOR SOMETHING REAL ♪

♪ SO SWEEP ME OFF MY FEET

♪ TELL ME I'M ALIVE

♪ THROW ME UP HIGH

♪ CATCH ME

♪ I AM ALIVE

♪ HEY, HEY

♪ I AM ALIVE

♪ HEY, HEY

♪ I WANT IT MORE

THAN I'VE EVER WANTED BEFORE ♪

♪ AND I'M TIRED

OF GIVING UP, GIVING UP ♪

♪ AND I'M SICK AND TIRED

OF ALL THE NIGHTS

WHERE WE LAID IN BED

AND GAVE UP THE FIGHT ♪

♪ I'M THINKING ABOUT YOU,

WHERE WE WOULD BE ♪

♪ I'D GIVE NOTHING MORE

THAN TO BE ♪

♪ WAITING FOR SOMETHING MORE

THAN A SIP OF THE LIFE ♪

♪ I'M WAITING FOR

SOMETHING REAL ♪

♪ SOMETHING TO HOLD ONTO

♪ I'M WAITING FOR SOMETHING MORE

THAN A SIP OF THE LIFE ♪

♪ I'M WAITING FOR

SOMETHING REAL ♪

♪ SO SWEEP ME OFF MY FEET

♪ TELL ME I'M ALIVE

♪ THROW ME UP HIGH

♪ CATCH ME

♪ OH, I AM ALIVE

♪ I AM ALIVE

YES, BUT I DON'T SEE WHY

THAT'S NEEDED.

WELL, THAT'S WHAT I'M ASKING.

SO, SHE'LL BE COMING HERE.

FINE.

Asshole!

YOUR SCHOOL THERAPIST.

SO NOW, BECAUSE OF YOU AND THAT

BURN MARK ON YOUR ARM, WE'RE

GONNA BE VISITED BY A SOCIAL

WORKER.

FAN-FUCKING-TASTIC!

DO YOU UNDERSTAND WHAT THAT

MEANS?

God! You...

YOU DO NOTHING TO HELP ME!

NOTHING!

LISTEN TO ME, YOU LITTLE BITCH.

YOU DON'T START RESPONDING TO

ME, I'M GONNA TAKE YOUR PRECIOUS

COMPUTER OUT OF HERE.

AND THEN YOU GOT NOTHING!

PLEASE! DON'T TAKE IT!

I'M SORRY, MOM.

THAT'S MORE LIKE IT.

HAVE THIS ROOM CLEANED UP BY THE

TIME I GET BACK.

AND I DON'T WANT TO HEAR FROM

THE FUCKING COUNSELOR AGAIN.

[ PIANO PLAYING MID-TEMPO JAZZ ]

WHAT ARE YOU DOING?

I CAN'T SLEEP.

[ STRING INSTRUMENTS PLAYING

MID-TEMPO CLASSICAL MUSIC ]

[ CHOIR VOCALIZING ]

[ NO AUDIO ]

[ NO AUDIO ]

HEY, DRINK.

[ LAUGHS ]

ALL RIGHT.

HERE, I'LL HELP.

[ ROCK MUSIC PLAYS ON RADIO ]

HO-HO!

CRAZY BITCHES.

I LOVE IT.

OF COURSE YOU DO, RANDALL.

HEY.

NOW TRY IT ON YOUR OWN FROM THE

BOTTLE, GIRL, AND I'LL GIVE YOU

ANOTHER LITTLE KISS.

[ LAUGHS ]

[ CHOKING ]

OH, THERE YOU GO!

SMOOTH, HUH?

THIS IS GONNA BE GOOD.

WHO IS THIS GIRL, ANYWAY?

SHUT UP!

KEEP YOUR EYES ON THE ROAD.

YOU WANT ME.

I KNOW IT.

I SEE HOW YOU LOOK AT ME.

MM-HMM.

[ LAUGHS ]

OW! OW!

OW! YOU'RE -- YOU'RE HURTING ME!

OW!

FUCK!

YOU REALLY ARE SOME KIND OF

FREAK.

NO, NO, DON'T STOP.

WHY'D YOU STOP?

BECAUSE ASHLEY HERE IS A

FREAK WHO FUCKING PULLED MY

HAIR.

DRIVE HER BACK TO THE PARK!

WH--

I SAID, DO IT!

THIS IS GETTING GOOD!

JUST DO IT!

FINE, FINE.

JUST CHILL OUT.

Ow.

[ STRING INSTRUMENTS PLAY

MID-TEMPO CLASSICAL MUSIC ]

[ DOOR OPENS ]

[ WOMAN SINGING

IN FOREIGN LANGUAGE ]

ASHLEY?

ASHLEY?!

[ SINGING CONTINUES ]

HELP ME BRUSH MY HAIR?

[ SIGHS ]

DON'T LOOK AT ME LIKE THAT.

JUST HELP ME.

Gentle!

CAREFUL.

[ SINGING CONTINUES ]

THAT'S NICE.

THAT'S GOOD.

YOUR HAIR IS MESSY.

I USED TO BRUSH YOUR HAIR ALL

THE TIME WHEN YOU WERE LITTLE.

HERE. SEE?

YOU CAN GO NOW.

[ CHOIR SINGING IN FOREIGN

LANGUAGE ]

HI.

[ BIRDS CHIRPING ]

NAME'S CHICO.

YOU KNOW, LIKE THE

MARX BROTHERS?

YOU KNOW, LIKE GROUCHO AND HARPO

AND ZEPPO AND CHICO.

YOU KNOW GUMMO?

HE'S THE FIFTH MARX BROTHER.

HE LEFT BEFORE THEY HIT BIG.

I SEE YOU ON THE BUS A LOT.

AND I ALWAYS THOUGHT YOU LOOKED

COOL.

I WANTED TO TALK TO YOU.

...AGAINST PHILADELPHIA.

AND COLORADO, A VICTORY...

[ DOOR SLAMS ]

...WILL BE A GAME 7.

WE'LL SEE WHETHER OR NOT THAT

HOLDS UP HERE IN THIS GAME 7.

HELLO.

SAY HELLO TO BILL, ASHLEY.

HI.

HI.

HERE COMES SHANAHAN.

YOUR MOM DIDN'T TELL ME YOU

HAD HER GOOD LOOKS.

SAY THANK YOU, ASHLEY.

[ Softly ] THANK YOU.

SAY THANK YOU, ASHLEY.

[ Louder ] THANK YOU.

YOU'RE WELCOME.

GONNA HAVE DINNER WITH US?

[ CHUCKLES ]

LISTEN.

I HOPE WE'RE GONNA HAVE DINNER

SOON, 'CAUSE I'M STARVING.

IT'S ALMOST READY.

ALL RIGHT.

WHAT A BLAST DOWN THE CHUTE!

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF HIM?

PLEASE.

CAN WE JUST HAVE A NORMAL

CONVERSATION FOR ONCE IN OUR

LIVES?

YOU SAYING ANYTHING WOULD BE

GREAT.

I DON'T LIKE HIM.

OF COURSE YOU DON'T.

JUST DON'T SCREW THIS UP FOR ME

AGAIN WITH YOUR CHARMING

PERSONALITY.

JUST FUCKING FORGET IT.

LET'S GET DINNER ON THE TABLE.

I HOPE EVERYONE'S READY FOR A

DELICIOUS MEAL OF VEAL AND

ASPARAGUS.

I LIKE YOUR DREAM COME TRUE,

STACY.

YOU'RE GONNA MAKE ME BLUSH,

MISTER.

YEAH, WELL, IT'S MY JOB.

ASHLEY...

YOU KNOW WHAT VEAL IS?

IT'S BABY COW.

MM-HMM.

YEAH.

YOUNG, TENDER, JUICY.

[ CLEARS THROAT ]

I'M A LITTLE CONCERNED ABOUT HER

APPETITE, NOT EATING A DAMN

THING.

ASHLEY, EAT.

I'M NOT HUNGRY.

EAT YOUR FOOD.

YOU KNOW, I REALLY LOVE WHAT

YOU DID WITH THE PLACE.

IT'S REALLY NICE.

YOU THINK?

YEAH, YEAH.

I ESPECIALLY LIKE THIS WHOLE

INVERTED-WINE-GLASS THING.

VERY CLEVER.

[ LAUGHS ]

SURE.

YOU'VE DONE A REALLY NICE JOB.

THANK YOU.

YEAH.

[ STACY, BILL MOANING ]

[ ROCK MUSIC PLAYING ON LAPTOP ]

[ LAPTOP BEEPS ]

♪ DON'T GIVE IT AWAY NOW♪

♪ DON'T GIVE IT AWAY ♪

♪ CAN'T YOU SEE... ♪

♪ DON'T GIVE IT AWAY NOW♪

♪ DON'T GIVE IT AWAY

TO EVERYONE ♪

♪ DON'T GIVE IT AWAY NOW ♪

♪ CAN'T YOU SEE... ♪

[ CELLPHONE RINGING ]

[ MUSIC STOPS ]

HELLO?

HomeStarch?

YEAH.

Hi.

HI.

You have a name?

YEAH.

Are you gonna tell me it?

ASHLEY.

Hello, Ashley.

SO, YOU'RE CANDICE.

Yeah.

What's the matter, shy?

[ Chuckles ]

That's cute.

I'm usually the shy one.

YOU ARE?

Yeah.

HMM.

So, you sound like a nice

girl.

What are you doing talking to

strangers online and giving them

your number?

Oh, the horror.

I DON'T KNOW.

I was just kidding, Ashley.

SO, YOU TALK TO A LOT OF

GIRLS?

I do...

but not like this.

They don't have sweet voices.

God, that sounded cheeseball.

Crack a smile?

You did, didn't you?

MAYBE.

Hey, you may be shy, but you

got a lot of guts, letting a

complete stranger call you.

I'm glad you let me.

Gets lonely sometimes.

MM-HMM.

YOU DON'T HAVE A JOB?

Um, not really, no.

I inherited a ton of money when

my parents passed away.

So, I really don't have to worry

about anything.

Money-related, that is.

COOL.

SORRY ABOUT YOUR PARENTS.

Thanks, Ashley.

You know what?

You made my day.

You're different than the

others.

What usually happens in these

chat thingies is, half the time

they start talking dirty, get

off, and that's it.

The other half of the time,

they're men, as if they can fool

me.

Are you still there?

Yeah, I can hear you breathing.

I'm not boring you, am I?

NO.

So, what do you do, Ashley?

I'M A STUDENT, HIGH SCHOOL.

What do you do for fun?

Do you have any hobbies?

I LIKE TO PAINT.

Nice! Really?

I actually consider myself an

artist.

I paint, too.

KICK-ASS.

[ Chuckles ]

You're cute.

Would you mind if I called you

again?

Or I can give you my number, and

you can call me.

Either way, I'd love to talk

again.

OKAY.

Really? Got a pen?

THE NUMBER'S ON MY PHONE.

Oh, yeah, right.

You have to go?

NO. GUESS NOT.

Cool.

OKAY, LET'S BEGIN WITH YOUR

BACKGROUND, MS. COLLINS.

MY BACKGROUND?

YES.

I THINK THAT'S IRRELEVANT.

YOU DON'T WANT TO TELL ME

ABOUT IT?

OKAY, LET'S TRY SOMETHING ELSE.

WHAT DO YOU DO FOR A LIVING?

I'M A WAITRESS.

OKAY.

PAYS THE BILLS.

AND ARE YOU CURRENTLY IN ANY

RELATIONSHIPS?

NO, NOT REALLY.

NOT REALLY?

I JUST STARTED SEEING

SOMEONE, BUT IT'S EARLY.

WHAT DOES THIS HAVE TO DO WITH

ANYTHING?

AND ASHLEY IS 17, CORRECT?

YES.

AND SHE'S THE ONLY CHILD?

YES.

MAY I ASK WHY YOU NEED TO KNOW

ALL THIS?

I JUST WOULD LIKE TO

UNDERSTAND ALL ASPECTS OF

ASHLEY'S HOME LIFE SO I CAN

BETTER ASSESS THE SITUATION.

"ASSESS THE SITUATION"?

WHAT DOES THAT MEAN?

IF THIS ENVIRONMENT ISN'T

SAFE --

I PROVIDE FOR MY CHILD.

THERE'S MORE TO PROVIDING

THAN PAYING THE BILLS.

WHAT IF I TOLD YOU TO LEAVE

MY HOUSE?

THAT WOULDN'T BE THE BEST

COURSE OF ACTION.

GET OUT.

MS. COLLINS.

NOW.

IF MY REPORT SAYS THAT THIS

IS AN UNSAFE ENVIRONMENT FOR

ASHLEY, THE STATE WILL TAKE HER

FROM YOU.

DO YOU WANT THAT TO HAPPEN?

[ SIGHS ]

OKAY.

TALK ABOUT YOUR BACKGROUND.

[ BIRDS CHIRPING ]

♪ I WAKE UP AND YOU'RE GONE

♪ TV'S STILL ON

♪ AND I SIT,

AND I WATCH ANOTHER RERUN ♪

♪ SHE IS LEFT ALL ALONE

♪ HER LOVER'S GONE TO SEA

♪ AND I CAN'T HELP BUT FEEL

SHE IS JUST LIKE ME ♪

♪ AND I GAVE ALL I COULD,

BUT IT WASN'T... ♪

WHY?

WHY?!

I LIKE GIRLS.

WHAT?

I DON'T LIKE BOYS.

♪ I DON'T KNOW WHY...

YOU LI--

♪ MY HEART STILL BEATS

WHY DIDN'T YOU TELL --

♪ WHY I CAN'T FEEL

ANYTHING ♪

♪ BUT I GAVE ALL I COULD

♪ BUT IT WASN'T GOOD ENOUGH

♪ AND YOU SAY YOU WOULD BE HERE

BEFORE I WOKE UP ♪

I'D LIKE TO TRY AN EXERCISE

TODAY.

ASHLEY?

WOULD YOU TRY THIS FOR ME,

PLEASE?

OKAY.

I WANT YOU TO PICTURE YOURSELF

LYING ON A BEACH.

THE SUN IS PERFECTLY WARM, AND

YOU HEAR THE WAVES CRASHING INTO

THE SAND.

AND I WANT YOU TO TAKE A DEEP

BREATH IN AND HOLD IT.

NOW RELEASE IT.

GOOD.

AND I'D LIKE YOU TO DO THAT TWO

MORE TIMES, SLOWLY.

NOW PICTURE YOURSELF WALKING

INTO A BUILDING.

AND A STRONG-ARMED SECURITY

GUARD CONFRONTS YOU.

BUT HE SEES YOU, AND HE KNOWS

YOU.

HE SMILES.

HE PLACES HIS ARM AROUND YOU,

AND YOU FEEL SAFE, SECURE.

AS YOU MOVE ON FROM THERE...

ASHLEY?

IS EVERYTHING OKAY?

ASHLEY, WHAT'S WRONG?

[ WAILING ]

ASHLEY?

IS IT SOMETHING IN THE

MEDITATION?

WHICH PART?

[ Crying ] THE MAN!

THE MAN WHO PUT HIS ARM

AROUND YOU?

YOU THOUGHT OF YOUR FATHER,

PASSED AWAY.

SO SORRY.

WHEN HE WAS ALIVE, DID HE GIVE

YOU THIS FEELING OF SECURITY?

SOMETIMES.

ONLY SOMETIMES?

WHY DIDN'T HE MAKE YOU FEEL

SECURE ALL THE TIME?

DID HE HURT YOU?

HOW?

HE...

HE...

[ SCHOOL BELL RINGS ]

WAIT.

ASHLEY, LOOK.

YOUR FATHER BETRAYED YOUR TRUST

IN HIM, BUT YOU DON'T HAVE TO

FEEL ASHAMED.

THERE ARE GOOD PEOPLE OUT THERE

WHO WANT TO HELP YOU, OKAY?

OKAY, GUYS.

SO, WHAT DID WE LEARN ABOUT THIS

ONE?

YES.

HE WAS REALLY ANNOYING.

OKAY.

I GUESS I CAN GIVE YOU THAT ONE.

GUYS, HOLDEN REFLECTED ON HOW HE

FELT EVERYBODY WAS PHONY.

BUT WHAT DID WE LEARN ABOUT HIM

AT THE END OF THE BOOK?

ASHLEY?

ASHLEY?

WHAT DID WE LEARN AT THE END OF

THE BOOK ABOUT HOLDEN?

ASH?

I, UH, YOU KNOW ME, RIGHT?

NO.

NO?

NOT REALLY.

YOU KNOW MY NAME?

STEVE?

YEAH, THAT'S IT.

I WAS WONDERING, YOU WANT TO

KICK IT SOMETIME?

I DON'T KNOW.

YOU DON'T KNOW?

NO.

ALL RIGHT.

CATCH YOU LATER.

OH, SHIT.

LOSE SOMETHING?

I CAN'T FIND MY DEBIT CARD.

MAYBE YOU LEFT IT AT THE

MARKET.

I HAVE TO GO BACK.

I'LL GO BACK FOR YOU.

I'LL GET IT.

IT'S OKAY. I'LL GET IT.

YOU SURE?

YEAH, I'LL HANDLE IT.

OKAY.

SEE YOU LATER.

HEY.

WHAT'S NEW, PUSSYCAT?

YOUR MOM WENT BACK TO THE STORE.

I THINK SHE LEFT SOMETHING

THERE.

YOU MIND IF I WATCH TV?

HMM?

OH, THANKS.

[ TURNS TV ON ]

IF YOU'RE COOKING WITH US AT

HOME, AND YOU'RE USING

MEDIUM-HIGH HEAT, YOU, TOO, CAN

TURN THE PAN DOWN IF IT LOOKS

LIKE IT'S GETTING A LITTLE TOO

HOT...

IT'S YOUR MOM'S FAVORITE

SHOW.

...OVER MEDIUM-HIGH HEAT THE

WHOLE TEAM.

SHE'S CRAZY ABOUT THAT SHIT.

BY NOW YOU'D THINK SHE'D BE A

BETTER COOK.

[ CHUCKLES ]

INCIDENTALLY, WE WANTED TO

GIVE A HUGE SHOUT-OUT TO OUR

FRIEND...

[ AUDIENCE CHEERS ]

SO...

HOW'S EVERYTHING AT SCHOOL?

...LOTS OF GREAT STUFF AND

LOTS OF FABULOUS CLOTHES AND

LITTLE ACCESSORIES, BUT MANY OF

THE STORES ALSO HAVE...

I'M KIND OF WORRIED ABOUT

YOU, YOU KNOW?

YOU...

...AND THEY HOOKED US UP

TODAY...

NOT TOO MUCH TO SAY.

HUGE, BIG SHOUT-OUT TO

TARGET.

[ AUDIENCE CHEERS ]

ALL RIGHT.

DRAWING PICTURES, HUH?

WE'RE GONNA DO A COUPLE OF

Q&As.

I'D SAY YOU LIKE SKIN AND

BONES.

WE GOT A COUPLE OF MINUTES

HERE WHILE WE'RE...

WHAT HAPPENED TO YOUR HAND?

YOU KNOW, THAT BURN THERE.

"DO YOU HAVE ANY ADVICE FOR

ME?"

AH, IF THE CHICKEN IS STICKING

TO THE PAN IT'S BECAUSE THE PAN

IS NOT HOT ENOUGH, OR YOU

HAVEN'T ALLOWED IT...

LET ME SEE THAT.

SO, DON'T FORCE THE CHICKEN.

LET IT GET REALLY BROWN, AND AS

IT STARTS TO PULL AWAY...

WHAT IS ALL THAT?

MY GOODNESS.

DON'T FORCE IT AND MAKE SURE

THE PAN'S VERY HOT BEFORE YOU

ADD THE CHICKEN TO IT.

ARE YOU DOING THAT TO

YOURSELF?

WHAT HAPPENED THERE?

NICE, DRY MEAT BEFORE IT GOES

INTO THE HOT OIL, OKAY?

[ SIGHS ]

SURE. NO PROBLEM.

DO YOU HAVE A QUESTION FOR US

FROM OUT IN L.A.?

I GOT A WONDERFUL QUESTION

HERE FROM COREY.

FIRE AWAY, COREY.

HI, COREY.

JUST WONDERING ABOUT THE

SHALLOTS HERE ON THE TRAIN, AND

I WAS WONDERING WHY WE'RE USING

THOSE AND WHAT THE BENEFIT IS.

OKAY.

WHAT ARE YOU DOING?

NOTHING.

GET AWAY FROM HER!

I WASN'T DOING ANYTHING.

GET OUT OF MY HOUSE!

GET OUT OF MY HOUSE NOW.

STOP BEING UPSET.

I WASN'T DOING NOTHING.

WHAT WERE YOU DOING ON HER?

I WASN'T ON HER.

YOU WERE TOUCHING HER!

IT'S MY DAUGHTER!

OKAY!

GET OUT!

GET THE FUCK OUT!

WHAT WERE YOU DOING?!

WHAT WERE YOU THINKING?!

Fuck! ANSWER ME!

ANSWER ME!!

GO TO YOUR FUCKING ROOM!

[ CRYING ]

[ EXHALES DEEPLY ]

[ Ringing ]

Hello?

Is this Ashley?

HI.

HOW ARE YOU?

WELL, I'M GLAD YOU CALLED.

I'M LONELY.

YOU ARE?

I'VE THOUGHT ABOUT YOU.

REALLY?

Not in a weird way.

IT WAS FUN WHEN WE TALKED.

YEAH.

WHAT ARE YOU DOING?

I THINK IT'S REALLY COOL THAT

YOU'RE AN ARTIST, TOO.

[ CHUCKLES ]

I'M ALWAYS ATTRACTED TO ARTISTS,

FOR SOME REASON.

HEY, ASHLEY, CAN I ASK YOU A

QUESTION?

YES.

DID YOU COME ONLINE TO MEET

SOMEONE TO JUST...JUST CHAT?

CHAT.

OR HAVE YOU EVER...

I TOUCH MYSELF.

YOU DO?

DO YOU WANT TO NOW?

YES.

ARE YOU?

[ EXHALES SHARPLY ]

YES.

CAN I TOUCH MYSELF, TOO?

YES.

I want to touch you.

ME TOO.

[ BREATHING DEEPLY ]

YES.

Can we do it together?

[ Moans ]

Ashley?

Did you...

YES.

Yes.

HEY, ASHLEY.

WHAT'S UP?

MIND IF I SIT DOWN?

IT'S ME, CARLY.

CARLY, SAMMY, AND SUMMER.

REMEMBER?

REALLY?

I LIKE YOUR SHIRT.

OH, YEAH. NICE.

HOW ABOUT DITCHING NEXT CLASS

WITH US?

MEET YOU OUT BACK NEXT PERIOD.

[ BIRDS CHIRPING ]

SO, YOU LIKE GIRLS, HUH?

FUCKING FREAK.

[ GROANS ]

COME ON.

[ CHOIR SINGING CLASSICAL

MUSIC ]

[ NO AUDIO ]

I'M SORRY, YOU KNOW?

I DON'T MEAN TO DO THINGS.

YOU KNOW, MY BROTHER LIKES GUYS.

YOU KNOW, HOW YOU LIKE GIRLS?

HE TOLD MY MOM AND DAD ON HIS

BIRTHDAY.

MY MOM AND DAD KICKED HIM OUT.

HE CALLS ONCE IN A WHILE, AND

WE'RE NOT ALLOWED TO ANSWER.

NO ONE TALKS ABOUT HIM ANYMORE.

I REALLY MISS HIM, YOU KNOW, GAY

OR NOT.

YOUR MOM AND DAD KNOW YOU LIKE

GIRLS?

NO.

WELL, DON'T TELL THEM ON YOUR

BIRTHDAY.

[ SCHOOL BELL RINGS ]

HEY.

STAYING AFTER SCHOOL TODAY, I

SEE.

I'M IN DETENTION.

WHAT'S YOUR EXCUSE?

STUDYING.

COOL.

I WAS WONDERING IF WE COULD,

UH...

[ DOORBELL RINGS ]

Shit.

[ RINGING CONTINUES ]

SOMETHING WRONG?

God damn.

AAH!

I JUST NEED TO VALIDATE THAT

ASHLEY IS LIVING IN A SAFE

ENVIRONMENT AND DOESN'T REQUIRE

THE STATE'S INTERVENTION TO

PROTECT HER.

SHE'S THE ONE WITH THE

PROBLEMS, NOT ME.

[ WAILING ]

HOW LONG HAS ASHLEY BEEN

THIS WITHDRAWN?

SINCE MICHAEL PASSED AWAY,

HER FATHER...

MY HUSBAND.

AND HOW WAS ASHLEY'S

RELATIONSHIP WITH HER FATHER?

IT WAS VERY GOOD.

HE LOVED HER.

HE WAS A GOOD MAN.

AND THAT'S ALL?

MS. COLLINS?

He, uh...

[ CRYING ]

MS. COLLINS?

[ Voice breaking ] I THINK HE

WAS...

SEXUALLY...

YOU THINK THAT HE WAS OR...

I KNOW HE WAS.

[ HORN HONKS ]

AAH!

FUCKING BITCH! YOU CUT ME!

BITCH!

[ KNOCK ON DOOR ]

ASHLEY?

I CAN'T BELIEVE IT.

COME -- COME IN.

SORRY. COME IN.

GOT TO CLOSE THE DOOR, YEAH.

THANKS.

ACTUALLY, LET ME TAKE THAT FOR

YOU.

IT'S KIND OF HEAVY.

[ CHUCKLES ]

DID YOU WANT ME TO TAKE YOUR

JACKET?

OH, SORRY.

Got it.

I'LL JUST SET IT RIGHT HERE.

ARE YOU THIRSTY?

DID YOU WANT SOMETHING TO DRINK?

SORRY ABOUT THE MESS, TOO.

IT'S...

IT'S MY ROOMMATE'S ACTUALLY, MY

ROOMMATE.

[ CHUCKLES ]

AM I WHAT YOU EXPECTED?

YOU'RE A LOVELY, YOUNG LADY,

ASHLEY.

YEAH, SIT DOWN. SORRY.

HERE, LET ME TAKE THAT.

ARE YOU SURE YOU'RE NOT THIRSTY?

YEAH.

I MEAN, I HAVE LEMONADE,

DIET ROOT BEER, WATER.

NO? OKAY.

CRACK A SMILE?

[ CHUCKLES ]

THAT'S -- THAT'S CASSIDY.

SHE'S AN OLD FRIEND OF MINE.

SHE WAS SICK.

SHE PASSED AWAY.

YOU HAVE HER SMILE.

[ CHUCKLES ]

YOU ARE SO PRETTY.

DO YOU KNOW THAT?

[ CHUCKLES ]

DO YOU LIKE THAT?

YOU'RE SOFT.

I HAVE AN IDEA.

WHY DON'T I TAKE YOU OUT?

OKAY?

YOU DON'T HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT

MONEY OR ANYTHING LIKE THAT.

SOUND GOOD?

OKAY.

OKAY.

IT'S COOL.

OH, I WANTED TO SHOW YOU

SOMETHING.

IT'S IN MY ROOM.

BUT IT'LL JUST TAKE A SECOND.

DON'T BE SHY. SIT.

SO, DO YOU MIND IF I GIVE YOU

SOMETHING OF MINE TO WEAR FOR

DINNER?

OKAY.

AWESOME.

LET'S SEE WHAT I GOT.

HERE WE GO.

HERE'S A SHIRT.

IT'LL LOOK GREAT ON YOU.

I SHOULD PROBABLY CHANGE, TOO, I

GUESS.

BEAT YOU.

[ CHUCKLES ]

THAT LOOKS GREAT.

IT LOOKS GOOD.

HOW ABOUT MINE?

OKAY?

GOOD.

THANKS.

AND A JACKET.

[ CHUCKLES ]

GOT IT?

PERFECTION.

YOU READY? LET'S GO.

I LOVE THIS PLACE.

I USUALLY COME HERE ALONE TO

THINK, BUT I'VE NEVER ACTUALLY

BROUGHT ANYONE HERE, THOUGH.

I LIKE YOUR SMILE.

DO YOU LIKE MY SMILE?

[ LAUGHS ]

HOW ABOUT THIS ONE?

[ LAUGHS ]

ARE YOU GONNA LAUGH?

COME ON.

IT'S GOOD FOR THE SOUL.

[ MID-TEMPO POP MUSIC PLAYS

IN BACKGROUND ]

[ LAUGHS ]

[ BOTH LAUGH ]

SEE WHAT I'M SAYING?

♪ AND IF YOU LEAD HIM

TO THE VALLEY ♪

WHAT'S THE MATTER?

YOU DON'T LIKE SWEETS?

NO WORRIES.

♪ WHEN THE WEATHER VANE

IS MOVING ♪

IT'S SO GOOD, RIGHT?

I LOVE THIS PLACE.

WHAT?

DO I HAVE SOMETHING ON MY FACE?

OH, REALLY? HUH.

JUST GET THAT OFF HERE REAL

QUICK.

THERE. IS THAT BETTER?

[ CHUCKLES ]

IS THAT BETTER?

I DIDN'T GET IT ALL, DID I?

YEAH, YOU HAVE JUST A LITTLE BIT

OF STUFF ON YOUR FACE.

MAY I?

YOU LOOK DIVINE.

YOU TOO.

OKAY.

SO AWESOME.

[ MID-TEMPO DANCE MUSIC PLAYS ]

HEY, THERE YOU ARE.

OH, HEY.

GEE.

WHO'S THIS?

A FRIEND, ASHLEY.

WELL, HELLO, ASHLEY.

I'M CLAIR.

SHE'S CUTE.

WHERE'D YOU MEET HER?

MY LITTLE SECRET.

ROBING THE CRADLE?

SHUT UP.

[ LAUGHS ]

ASHLEY, IT'S WONDERFUL TO MEET

YOU.

HEY, LAURA, COME SAY HI TO

ASHLEY.

OH, HELLO.

LOVELY TO MEET YOU.

HI.

SORRY ABOUT THE PHOTO SHOOT.

YEAH, WHAT IS GOING ON OVER

HERE?

OH, MY GOD.

OH, THAT IS SO GROSS.

YOU'RE BLOCKING MY LIGHT.

I'M MAKING A STATEMENT.

WHICH IS?

I'M LEAVING IT UP TO THE

OBSERVER TO INTERPRET.

THERE'S TOO MANY MEANINGS.

[ CAMERA SHUTTER CLICKS ]

INTERESTING.

INTERESTING.

CAN I GET YOUR FRIEND

ANYTHING TO DRINK?

WE JUST CAME FROM SALVADOR'S.

OH.

YOU GUYS ARE SCREWING UP MY

LIGHT.

HEY, WHY DON'T YOU TAKE A

BREAK?

WE HAVE GUESTS.

YOU WANT TO STOP FOR A MINUTE?

LAURA, LAURA?

YEAH, OKAY.

ARE YOU SURE YOU DON'T WANT A

DRINK?

YOU HAVE A LOVELY FACE.

SHE HAS A LOVELY FACE.

I KNOW.

MAY I TAKE YOUR PHOTOGRAPH?

WOULD YOU MIND?

Go for it.

HOLD THIS, BABE.

CAN I GET YOU TO STAND OVER

HERE?

STAND RIGHT HERE.

[ CAMERA SHUTTER CLICKS ]

THAT'S BEAUTIFUL.

NO, HERE.

OH. OH, WHAT DID I DO?

IS THERE SOMETHING WRONG WITH

YOUR ARM?

HEY.

IT'S OKAY.

WE DON'T JUDGE HERE.

OKAY?

WOW.

IT'S BEAUTIFUL.

MAY I?

[ CAMERA SHUTTER CLICKS ]

IT'S AMAZING.

THANK YOU.

YOU OKAY?

DON'T WORRY, OKAY?

WE DON'T JUDGE.

ASHLEY?

I USED TO BE A CUTTER, TOO.

[ SIGHS ]

OH.

GOOD MORNING.

MORNING.

DID YOU SLEEP GOOD?

ME TOO.

OH, SHIT, YOU'RE PROBABLY GONNA

BE LATE FOR YOUR TRAIN.

HEY, HEY.

DON'T BE SAD.

HEY.

I DON'T WANT THIS TO BE A

ONE-NIGHT THING, OKAY?

I LIKE THIS.

BUT YOU SHOULD PROBABLY GO HOME.

OKAY?

Yeah.

SO, WHAT DO YOU THINK?

AM I GONNA SEE YOU AGAIN?

YEAH.

HEY, YOU SHOULD WEAR WHAT I

GAVE YOU.

IT LOOKS FANTASTIC ON YOU.

HERE.

TAKE THIS, TOO.

[ CHUCKLES ]

OKAY.

DO YOU LIKE IT?

Yeah.

PERFECTION.

[ LAUGHS ]

YOU'RE GETTING REALLY GOOD AT

THIS SMILING STUFF.

HEY?

WHAT'S THE MATTER?

What's wrong?

IT'S OKAY, ASHLEY.

ALL RIGHT?

It's okay.

I JUST DON'T WANT TO HURT

MYSELF AGAIN.

I KNOW.

I KNOW THAT.

I JUST REALLY DON'T.

I KNOW, SWEETIE.

Shh!

Shh-shh-shh.

YOU'RE GONNA BE OKAY.

[ DOOR OPENS ]

ASHLEY, WHAT...

You know what?

WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN?

WHAT ARE YOU DOING TO ME?

I WAS AT A FRIEND'S.

A-A FRIEND?

WHO?

CANDICE.

IS SHE NICE?

Yes.

SHE GIVE YOU THAT OUTFIT?

YES.

YOU LOOK REALLY PRETTY...

REALLY PRETTY.

I...

I JUST THOUGHT SOMETHING

HAPPENED.

[ SNIFFLES ]

I'M OKAY, MOM.

[ CHOIR SINGING ]

ASHLEY?

ASHLEY?

WAKE UP.

WE HAVE TO FIND MICHAEL.

[ CRYING ]

I TOLD HIM NOT TO LEAVE US.

IT'S OKAY.

MOM...

EVERYTHING'S OKAY.

[ CRYING ]

HELLO, ASHLEY.

HELLO, VINCENT.

WOW!

WELL, THAT WAS A FIRST.

OKAY.

[ CLEARS THROAT ]

HOW HAVE THINGS BEEN GOING IN

CLASS?

GOOD.

YEAH?

FINISHED

"THE CATCHER IN THE RYE."

OH, YEAH? WHAT DID YOU THINK?

THAT'S HOW I FELT -- "EH."

YOU KNOW, LIKE, WHAT'S THE BIG

DEAL?

I LIKE YOUR HAIR.

DID YOU -- DID YOU JUST SAY

YOU LIKE MY HAIR?

OH, MY, I CAN--I CAN'T BREATHE!

[ CHUCKLES ]

GEEK.

[ LAUGHS ]

THANK YOU, ASHLEY.

THANK YOU FOR THE COMPLIMENT.

[ LAUGHS ]

[ DOG BARKS ]

HEY.

HEY, CHICO.

HOW'S IT BEEN GOING?

THINGS ARE GOOD.

YEAH.

WELL, SOMETIMES THINGS ARE GOOD.

[ BARKING CONTINUES ]

I SAW A MARX BROTHERS' MOVIE

ONCE.

REALLY?

YEAH.

WHICH ONE?

UM...THEY WERE FIGHTING A

WAR.

"DUCK SOUP."

YEAH, THAT'S ONE OF MY

FAVORITES.

DID YOU SEE THE PART WHERE THE

BULLET GOES THROUGH THE WINDOW?

I DON'T REMEMBER.

OH, OKAY.

WELL, THAT'S OKAY.

DO YOU MAYBE WANT TO BE MY

FRIEND?

YEAH.

YEAH.

YEAH.

CLOSE FRIEND?

JUST FRIENDS.

OKAY.

OKAY, THAT'S -- THAT'S COOL.

THAT'S REALLY COOL.

♪ SO, YOU WAITED

A LONG TIME

AND NOW YOU ARE READY

TO FACE THE WORLD ♪

♪ BUT IT PASSED YOU BY

♪ DON'T WORRY ABOUT IT

♪ IT'S JUST A MISTAKE

YOU'VE MADE ♪

♪ YOU KNOW THERE'S MORE TO LIFE

THAN JUST SURVIVING ♪

♪ YOU HAVE WASTED

ALL THESE YEARS

BEING CONTROLLED BY OUR FEARS ♪

♪ THERE'S NO ONE

WHO CAN TAKE YOUR HAND

AND SHOW YOU HOW TO UNDERSTAND ♪

♪ SO, YOU WAITED A LONG TIME

AND NOW YOU ARE READY

TO FACE THE WORLD ♪

♪ BUT IT PASSED YOU BY

♪ DON'T WORRY ABOUT IT

♪ IT'S JUST A MISTAKE

YOU'VE MADE ♪

♪ YOU KNOW THERE'S MORE TO LIFE

THAN JUST SURVIVING ♪

♪ BUT YOU HAVE WASTED

ALL THESE YEARS ♪♪

[ MID-TEMPO INTRODUCTION PLAYS ]

♪ GIVE ME A REASON

TO FALL IN LOVE ♪

♪ TAKE MY HAND AND LET'S DANCE

♪ GIVE ME A REASON

TO MAKE ME SMILE,

'CAUSE I THINK I FORGOT HOW ♪

♪ I WANT TO FALL ASLEEP

WITH YOU TONIGHT ♪

♪ I WANT TO KNOW THAT I AM SAFE

WHEN YOU HOLD ME TIGHT ♪

♪ I WANT TO FEEL

HOW I WANT TO FEEL FOREVER ♪

♪ GIRLS NEED ATTENTION,

AND BOYS NEED US ♪

♪ SO LET'S MAKE EVERYBODY GLAD

♪ THEY HAD EACH OTHER, AND...