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[Alarm Beeping]

- [ Woman ]Janet? Janet? - Yes?.

[ Woman, Indistinct ]

- Okay. Can I just put this in the room?. - Yeah.

[ Nurse ] Okay, now.

- Okay. - [ All ] One, two, three.

- [ Indistinct ] - Huh?.

-[Janet] You're gonna have to go down beyond me. - Can you go this way?

- You want the bottom?. - I think -

Yeah, that's okay. We'll do the bottom.

- Okay. - [ Pulley Screeching ]

- Got enough room up there?. - Yeah.

- Got enough room?. - Uh-huh.

[Janet ] God bless ya. Good guy.

Okay. Light out.

[ TV Program Theme, Upbeat ]

[ TV: Woman Narrator] Labour-intensive projects seem to be the theme at the Grey house...

as Garth continues working on the bedroom furniture.

- [ TV Continues ] - [ Snoring Softly ]

[ Man ] We just matched the profile and drew it free-handed on one side.

- And traced it out, turned it over. - [ Woman ] You're good. You're good.

[ Cassette Rewinding ]

[ Stops, Runs ]

Hi. This is evening report for Team 1 for November the 19th.

I n 602, Bed 2, is Joyce Bone with ""C" of the bladder with mets to hip and C.O.P.D.

Joyce didn't have a very good evening tonight - continuation from days, I guess.

Quite a bit of discomfort, but she was really reluctant to take anything for that at first.

Her infuser is on time. The site is in her abdomen.

She has a breakthrough site in her right thigh.

At 1700, she does get a routine Haldol which I opted to give subcutaneously.

She was feeling a bit nauseated. She didn't have any emesis tonight.

She ate a poor supper. She was up in the lounge for a bit.

At 2020, I gave her Dilaudid, 10 milligrams subcu for complaints of right hip pain...

and she actually chose to go to bed at that time, which is quite different -

[ Footsteps Scrapi ng ]

[ Chattering ]

[ Cheerfully ] % Okay, Carmela %

[ Nurse ] Finished?

This one has a lot. Let's do this.

- Evening,Joyce. - I 'm gonna go to bed.

Are you?. Do you want to go to the bathroom with me first, or -

No. I want to, uh - I want a breakthrough.

- You do?. - Yeah.

I'm so happy.

Um,Joyce, can I find ifyou have anotherbutterfly?

I knowyou've got one onyour tummy.

Okay, Carmela,just move a little bit.

Okay, you're coming back to me now, Carmela.

[ Nurse ] So I'll giveyou a breakthrough. And doyou wantyour bedtime pills now?

- Okay, come, come, come. - Or doyou want to wait foryour sleeping pills?

- [ J oyce ] Oh, yes. - Okay, can I have this hand?

This has been here for a while, the Band-Aid?.

- Yeah. - We can probably take that off.

Are they still staying away from the right side?.

- Yes. - Are you still getting tingling or numbness?.

- It's numb there. - Okay.

[Nurse ] Carmela? You know,your catheterhere, the tube?

I have to irrigate it. Okay?.

Canyou feel that?

Carmela.

That doesn't feel bad?.

You can't feel that - what I'm doing?

Does it hurt? No?

[ Nurse On Tape ] 602- 1, Carmela Nardone -

""C" of the ovary and non-insulin-dependent diabetes.

She has continuous oxygen at three liters.

She denies pain, and her Foley was a hundred this morning.

And she's been turned andpositioned approximately three times.

And she was smiling, and support was given.

[ Labored Breathi ng ]

%% [ Singing Softly, Indistinct ]

- Ring Jodi and Phyllis?. - Sure.

For rounds, please.

Doctor is here. Showtime.

- Good morning. - Good morning.

- How areyou?. - Not too bad. How are you?.

Good. Good, good.

Uh, how was - how was your night?.

Not too bad. Not too bad.

Good.

Lot of pain in the evening. I took a breakthrough.

That helped?.

- Somewhat,yes. - Yeah?.

Would you take something a little stronger?.

'Cause it's there foryou ifyou -

- Yes, a little, I guess. - need it.

I just don't want to go to sleep.

Yeah, well, ifyou're having a lot of pain, then it's -

- I was last night, but - - Yeah. Yeah.

What, um -What about that pain shooting down your leg?.

- Is that anydifferent? - [ Coughs ] No.

Not at all? 'Cause we've increased the medication for that.

- Well, it seems to come and go. - Mm-hmm.

There was some discussion about a catheter foryou.

Somebody mentioned it last night.

Yeah. What do you think of that?.

Well, of course, nobody wants them.

No. Uh...

but are you finding being incontinent a big problem too?.

- Well, I can't get - - To the bathroom in time?.

- I can't get the clothes offand on. - Yeah. Yeah, yeah. Yeah.

So, it would be -

might beworth giving it some serious consideration, you know.

Might feel more comfortable and wouldn't have to worry about -

- Yeah. - that part ofit then.

Might be more comfortable at night too.

Hi. Come stai?

[ Speaking Italian ]

[ Continues In Italian ]

[ Italian ]

Nothing?.

- Nothing. - No?.

[Woman] Has your own priest come?

[Daughter] They told me that she receivedherlast rites.

That's what I was told.

She said - I asked her, like, if the priest had come, and she said yes.

So I really don't know.

I asked - You know, I asked for one when I was talking to the doctor.

And he says that's no problem.

And then I asked her ifthe priest had come, and she said yes, so presumably -

Maybe she'd like to see one now?.

Has she had the Sacrament, doyou think?.

Oh, she had Communion. Tuesday, she didn't have it.

She didn't have Communion this Tuesday when Sister Leoniewas here?.

No, because she had just come out ofthe shower, and she was really exhausted.

Yes, yes. Of course.

She didn't have it this Tuesday, but last week, I believe, she had it.

Let me ask her if she might like to see a priest.

- Because I would get him from Our Lady. - Yeah.

Carmela. Hi, sweetie.

Would you like me to get a priest to come visit you?.

- [DaughterSpeaking Italian ] - Your priest?.

[ Heavy Accent ] Yeah, okay.

[ Murmuring ] Is okay.

You think she'd rather not?. Is that what she's saying?.

- No, she says she doesn't mind. - It's okay.

- So it would be okay to call him?. - Mm-hmm.

But would he be Italian-speaking?

Um, I could ask for that.

Yes. Yes.

I will get a priest that speaks Italian foryou. Okay?.

You know that I praywith you.

Okay.

And, Carmela, you know that God is with you.

- Yes. - [ Whimpers ]

Okay, I will call the Italian priest, and he'll come and talk toyou.

God bless you.

[Phyllis ] How areyou doing?

[ Sighs Softly] I'm trying to cope.

What areyou gonna do?. Like, you know, sad.

- It's not very easy, I know. - No, it isn't easy.

- You know, just waiting - - Mm-hmm.

for the inevitable to come, like, you know?.

I'd rather it would have been a surprise. You know what I'm saying?.

- Yes. We don't have a choice though. - We don't have - No, there is no choice.

- We never have that choice. - As long as she's not in pain.

- No, I think she's quite comfortable. - Yeah.

And when she does leave us, she will leave in peace.

[ Daughter] Oh, she will leave in peace, because she's a good woman.

-Absolutely. - She never harmed anyone.

Just a quiet woman, always tending to the family.

She never complains. Even ifshe's in pain, she will not complain.

[ Phyllis ] No.

Hi. This is eveni ng report for November the 2 0th.

In 602, Bed 1, we have Carmela Nardone...

with ""C" of the ovary, non-insulin-dependent diabetes.

Carmela seemed to have a better evening tonight.

She had numerous family members in tonight.

She ate fairlythis evening, and Ijust gave her a routine H.S. sedation.

602, Bed 2, is Joyce Bone with ""C" ofthe bladder with mets to hip and C. O.P.D.

Joyce is actually having a better evening tonight.

She's in much better spirit. She's joking around quite a bit this evening.

- With regards to herpain - - Here you go, love.

The pad wasn't even wet.

So it must have not fit and ran down the sides.

- Was it urine?. - Yeah.

- It's the only thing I can think. - And you didn't feel anything?.

- No, not until I got up. - No?

-As soon as I stood up, I did. - Oh.

Well, don't let it shake you, okay?. 'Cause it's not -

It's not gonna change anything.

No, I know it's not gonna change anything.

But you should've called me, and I could've helped you.

'Causeyou use up a lot ofenergy by changing.

Well, I managed and got separate underdrawers and whatever on.

Yeah. I knowyou like to be independent.

Well, it isn't only that. It's embarrassing as well.

- Really? - Sure.

I don't even look at it that way.

[Joyce ] Yeah.

- Is there anything else I can do for you? - No. I'm fine.

So, I 'll see you in a little while.

-J ust holler ifyou need me. - I won't be anywhere. I'll be here.

Okay. Take it easy.

You're okay, Carmela?

Bon appetit.

-[ Phyllis ] You can be close to God and, uh - -[Joyce ]And not be in church.

Not necessarily all the time.

You can be close without - without -

And didyou feel close to God?

No. I must be honest and say no.

Fair enough.

And did some ofthe things that have happened inyourlife -

Is that a result ofthat?

I know that you lostyour husband and lostyour child.

I lost two kids, my family, my husband.

- Two kids? - Yes. My daughter too.

- My daughter and my son. - How old were they?

My daughter was a year old, and my son was 2 1.

Wow. That's a lot of loss.

My mother, my brother, my father - all in one year.

[ Murmurs ]

So I felt, at the time...

that there wasn't anything I had to thank God for.

I can imagine.

I can imagine.

My daughterfirst. She started- started the string.

That must have been overwhelming foryou and your husband.

- It was. - Butyou did get through it.

You're a strong person.

Well, fairly.

I thinkyou're a strong person.

And thenyou lost your son.

- Yes. He was killed with a drunk driver. - [ Sighs ]

I'm just -

I'm almost speechless.

- Well, I was at the time. - Yes.

Just -

Foryou and your husband.

You probably supported each other, I would think.

- He was still living then?. - At the time, yes.

- Well,you didn't totallygive up. - No.

'Cause you certainly survived and made a new life foryourself in some ways.

Well, I just went like before, day by day.

Yes.

And now to find thatyou have canceryourself.

I can't - I 'm not handling it very well, I don't think.

Canyou... enlarge on that a little bit?

Well, I'm - I'm letting it get to me, where I shouldn't.

You want to be strong right to the end.

Yes.

I do. I could go and sit in a corner and cross my legs...

and stay there till the end.

Is that becauseyou feel weak?.

No. I just feel... finished.

-[Phyllis ] It's really, reallynice to meetyou. -[ Woman ] Thankyou. You too.

I'm Phyllis. Yourname was -

- I'm Cathy. - Cathy.

- And you're a friend of - - I'm a neighbor.

- A neighbor. - Yeah. I'm a neighbor for the last 35 years.

- We grew up there. - Oh, wow.

- So you're pretty close to Carmela. - We're very close.

- Almost like a grandmother. - We went through all the deaths together.

My father died, and my father and her husband were best friends.

Her husband passed away.

My son was very attached to her husband and her...

'cause they took the grandparent figure when my father passed away.

- Isn't that lovely?. - Yeah, it's beautiful.

We're more like family.

And it probablywill draw all ofyou, as family, closer together.

- One more time. - One more time.

We take care of each other.

When my father died, Carmela and her husband would visit my mother-in-law...

- give herwords of courage. - Yes.

And my fatherwas a lotyounger than them.

And it was nice to see my mother -

Actually, she took to them well because they really understood.

They're all from the old country. They all settled here...

andall had to work reallyhard as immigrants.

We can't understand because, you know, we have everything.

- But they suffered, and I'm sure they did. - Oh, I know.

Maria was telling me that Carmela worked, worked hard.

[ Cathy] She did. She worked very hard. I remember.

- Ever since she came from Italy. - That's right.

And it's always to provide for the family.

[ Phyllis ] Right. Years ofpicking tomatoes and all kinds ofthings, she said -

- Oh, God, they did everything. - to make enough money to get by.

Right. She was a good person.

[ Nurse On Tape ] Uh, 602- 1, Carmela Nardone.

We have noticed quite a change with her.

Christina established a butterfly in her right deltoid...

and she had the alternate route at 1:05..

We also noted that she has weeping edema.

- We did not notice any diaphoresis. - [ Nurse ] That's new.

But the weeping edema was in her legs.

- She's verballyresponsive. - I didn't notice that last night.

- Soyou might want to call the family. -[ Tape Player Clicks Off]

- When we were doing our care?. - [ Nurse ] No. What I did notice...

when you lift her leg, her leg felt a little more...

pliable, like squishy.

- More edema. - Yeah, more -

There was more edema. My nails actually -

- My fingertips went. - Okay, so at night, she started weeping.

[ Tape Player Resumes ] 602, Bed 2, is Joyce Bone.

- [Nurse ] Okay. Now,Joyce Bone. - Yeah.

""C"ofthe bladder, bone mets hip.

We've moved herinto 604,, Bed 2.

She's okay. She continues to be reluctant to take those breakthroughs.

- Because ofher drowsiness? - Right.

So we started her on Ritalin.

When did we start her on Ritalin? Was it over the weekend?

- Yeah, looks like it. - We started her on 2.5..

- Well,just two days ago. - Twice - Twice -

- Was that 2.5.? - Three days ago.

And then yesterday, we increased it to -

This needs to come over.

Okay?.

Yeah.

Here we go. J oyce, you have the window.

[ Doctor] Now, how are the mornings?

[Joyce ] In the morning, I'm somebody else or something else.

- I can't seem to get it together. - Yeah.

Areyou waking up during the night?

- No. - Not at all?

Not usually. Not till around 6:00.

Yeah. You're taking a pill at night.

Maybe ifwe put - make that a half?

- No. - No?. Okay.

- Okay. It's up to you. - I want to sleep.

Yeah, sure. It may, um -

I think when you came in first, we - they offered you a half.

- Yes. - And then you graduated on to a whole pill.

I don't - It's one of the better ones, so I doubt ifit's, um -

if it's leaving much ofa hangover.

I think it's much more to do with the illness, you know...

that, uh...

you feel a little bit more - less alert in the morning.

Has that always been the case foryou?.

No. It's just been this last - this last two or three days...

that I've felt stupid.

No, I wouldn't use that, uh -

I wouldn't use that word foryou ever,Joyce.

- Well, that's what I felt like. - You feel,yeah. Yeah.

I felt like, uh -

Iike I didn't know what I was doing...

that I was... stupid.

- It's the onlyword I can think of. - [ Chuckles ] That's okay.

But thenyou feel okayaftera while?

Yes, later on in the day after the girls get working with me.

I don't hear them right, and I don't see them right.

I don't understand what they're saying.

Mm-hmm. Mm-hmm.

I just feel dense.

Hi. Maria?. Hi. My name is Allison.

I'm one ofthe nurses here at the Toronto Grace.

I'm looking afteryour mum this evening, and I just thought-

You were in yesterday during the day?.

You were in last night.

Afteryou left, and sort ofthroughout the day today...

we've noticed a little bit of change in her breathing.

She's not in any distress or anything, but she's starting to get a little bit congested.

Yeah, andshe's not really taking that much in.

But wejust wantedyou to be aware that there's been a slight - a slight change.

It doesn't mean that anything's imminent or something's happening right now...

butjust so thatyou're aware.

[ Woman ] How areyou doing?

These are - These are not our -

This isn't ours.

Get rid of this.

This belongs next door.

All this... paraphernalia.

And, uh -

What doyou want to do?.

Can I helpyou with anything?.

You want to get up, or doyou want to lay down for a while?.

Why don'tyou lay down for a while and rest, eh?.

And then maybeyou could get up after.

Get rid ofthis.

I spilt the coffee.

Well, they're gonna have to change it beforeyou get up.

I think this young ladywants to get up.

You do, eh?. Okay.

- I just came with some - - That's goin' out or comin' in?.

This is coming in.

All right,Joycey.

Okay,Joycey.

[Nurse] Good evening. This is the night report forSunday, November the 24,th.

602, Bed 1 - Carmela Nardone...

""C" ofthe ovary with diabetes, type 2.

Her Foley drained 5.0 c.c. 's.

Treatment ofthe C.B.I. was 4,00 and run-through is 5.00.

Her condition remains poor, and she is very diaphoretic...

a lot less responsive, and her condition is deteriorating.

[ Labored Breathi ng ]

[Allison ] Haldol works on nausea.

Ifyour brain is tellingyou thatyou're gonna feel sick...

it'll help sort of, hopefully, stop that.

Do you want a tablet?.

'Cause the doctor said not to eat - not to try and eat.

- Small portions. -Just little bits?

J ust little tiny bits, 'cause it's too much of a shock, I think, on your system.

Eat a little bit and let your stomach rest.

Eat a little bit more, but don't -

That's what she told me. Just eat little bits.

Yeah.

Joyce, doyou want it in the needle form, or doyou want it in the pill form?

I don't care.

- It works fasterin the needle form. - Yeah, okay.

[ Chattering I n Background ]

Okay, madam. Ready?. Ooh.

You okay?.

Done.

On your way.

- Okay. - Now you're set.

I hope.

I hope so too.

No, just for her tummy. Her stomach's been bothering her today.

Are you going back in bed now,Joyce, or not?.

- I don't wanna go back to bed. - Okay. Wait up for supper?.

[ Whispering ] Okay, Carmela.

All the girls have gone home now, Carmela.

Okay?. They're just waiting in the lounge to go home.

Just relax, okay?.

Okay.

[ Gasping Breaths ]

[ Man On TV] I'm gonna glue this foam on.

Then we're gonna trim the foam to size to match the frame.

And then we wrap the batten, and then we pull through with the fabric.

So let's tryandget this done.

[ Man #2 ] Then we can go home.

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- [ Liquid Bubbling ] - [ Murmuring Softly]

Okay. All right.

Okay.

[ Gasping Breaths ]

[ Footsteps Approaching]

We should get the family too.

[ Nurse ] Joan?

- Okay. - [ Motor Whirring]

Do you want to get the family?. Hmm?.

- Theywent home. - Oh, did they?.

- Yeah, theywent home at 4,:00. - Okay.

I'll just do that.

[ Bubbling Stops ]

Okay, Carmela.

- Take the catheter out too. - Yeah, I'll do that.

- I don't have much here. - Okay.

- Are they coming back in or - - I'll call them.

Okay.

- You lookvery peaceful. - Mm-hmm. She sure does.

I'll come back and take that catheter out.

Hi. Maria? It's Christina calling.

Ijust wantedyou andyour children to know that Carmela...

she passed away just about - within the last 20 minutes.

Very peacefully and quietly, just the wayyou left her.

There'sjust a couple papers to be signed...

and also herpersonal belongings.

Wouldyou be able to come in later on -

This is Christina and the night report for the 25.th ofNovember.

Carmela Nardone - ""C" ofthe ovary, abdominal mets, type 2 diabetes.

Her family was in and decided to go home at 4,:00 this morning.

And she passed awaypeacefully at 5.:5.0 this morning...

and she was pronounced at that time.

And postmortem care has been -

Carmela Nardone came in October 30 and died November 26.

- Al I of these are quite short. - [ Woman ] All ofthem.

Yeah.

- She was lovely. - That was very fast at the end.

- At the end, yes. - Yes.

What about her daughter?. Did she come?.

[ Phyllis ] Maria? Yeah, she came at least - pretty nearly every other day...

and then she was here a lot at the end and was here that evening.

Didn't Carmela make the choice, or decide with her family...

that she didn't want them at her bedside?.

[ Phyllis ] She did, right.

They went home around 2:00 in the morning or 3:00.

Yeah, 'cause she didn't want them there when it actually happened.

- [Nurse] 602, Bed2 -Joyce Bone. - [ Chattering ]

She was aware ofCarmela's deterioration in condition...

but she has notyet been notified that she's passed away.

Ifyou could do that on days.

She slept peacefully most ofthe night.

- [ Phyl I is ] There. How's that?. - That's good.

[Joyce ] I don't believe that there's an afterlife.

So, after here?.

- Yeah. - What doyou think?

Ifthere's no afterlife, this is just...

kind ofthe end ofeverything?

Yes, I think so.

The end is the end is the end.

Butyou'd like to believe otherwise.

I'd like to believe, but I don't.

What is ityou would like to believe?

That there's something besides just - just this -

This life that's been so full ofpain -

- That there's something else. - and suffering and loss foryou?

You lostyourmother andyour dad andyourbrother.

And thenyour dad's death wasn't -

He - He - He did that himself.

He committed suicide.

- Is that whatyou told me? - Yes. He shot himself.

So what a shock...

that was toyou.

I'm not surprised thatyou feel anger.

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% O come ye, O come ye %

% To Bethlehem %

% Come and behold Him %

% Born the King ofAngels %

% O come let us adore Him %

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[ Nurse ] Eda - the C. V. C. was done today.

Um, her left leg is bothersome.

She had some Tylenol plain at bedtime.

And, on nights, she had no voiced complaints...

but she has reiterated that she doesn't want any calls orvisits or flowers from anybody.

- [ Laughing ] - I hearwhatyou're saying.

Like, I hearwhatyou're - howyou feel about it, for sure.

When my brother-in-law received this, he says how did she ever get my address?.

And I said, ""Well, I'm gonna have to ask here...

but I know that no information is given out."

[ Laughing ]

Doyou wanna talk about it some more?. 'Cause I have questions.

Orwe can leave it ifyou want.

No. You have questions, you go ahead and you can ask me.

Well, Ijust -I mean, what does it -

What does it mean toyou when she writes that?

That she's invading my privacy.

Because I would've given her my address, see?.

If someone wouldn't have given me their address...

I wouldn't go calling the pension board and asking foryour address.

'Cause I would understand that she didn't have a return address where I could write to her.

She wanted to send me flowers.

Well, I don't receive any calls...

or any, um, visitors or flowers.

You see?. I just don't want that.

But she went ahead and -

Whyis it okayforyourbrother-in-law to care aboutyou...

but it's not okay foryour friends?.

- It's a big question. - Because - Well, yeah, it's a big question.

I've known my brother-in-law for, uh...

- 48, 49 years. - Yeah?.

He was taking my twin sister out for twoyears.

Then he got married, and he's been married to her for 47 years.

He's like a brother, you know?.

- Family's different?. - His family?.

Is - Is family different than friends?.

In this case, yeah. But not all family is - are friends, you know.

Yeah. Oh, he is definitely.

I can trust him, and I always trusted him.

- This is only an associate that I worked with. - Yeah.

It's not a person who has become a friend...

but I know she wants to become a friend.

- She's interested inyou? - Oh, yeah, but I have to -

- She care aboutyou? - Oh, I think she does, if she were like that.

- But she's not- - But I don't want to associate with her.

Otherwise, she would've been my friend long before now.

You know?.

- I hurt a bit. - What did you say?. You hurt a bit?.

You want some more - You want a little breakthrough?.

- Oh, no, no. I'll be sleeping. - Tiny. Tiny breakthrough.

-Just a little bit. - I'll sleep.

I don't wantyou to be in pain though.

Ifwejust giveyou a little amount?. Not enough -

Enough to take a little bit ofyour pain away, but not enough to makeyou too drowsy?.

You'll be more comfortable then,Joyce, soyou can sit up and maybe have a smoke.

- I'm for that. - Okay. Right.

- Did I sellyou on that? - Yes.

Excellent. Excellent. I'm gonna go getyou some pain medicine.

I shall return.

[ Nurse ] Okay. So, ifyou need anything, just let us know.

Yeah, I wi I l. Well, my brother-in-law's coming.

He says, ""Make a list ofwhat you want me to bring. "

- Oh, is he coming? - Yeah.

Yeah. He just comes for the one day though, you know?.

'Cause he's coming all the way from Windsor. He takes the train in.

Okay.

I don't want him to be hanging around here,you know.

It's too hard on him.

You know how men are sometimes.

You know, they can't cope as well.

He can cope, but he's been through so much with my family.

- Yeah. - [ Coughs ]

- He just lost my sister in January. - Yeah, your sister.

So,you know, he's still getting overthat.

And then now me.

But, you know, I don't want him to be coming down, you know?.

- Ifhe enjoys it. - Oh, it's too hard on him.

It's too hard on him.

Taking the needle out.

We're gonna take that one out, and I wanted to go here.

But we can't go here 'cause your medicine won't absorb there.

Where areyou going on Saturday? Rumorhas ityou're leaving.

- Pardon?. - Areyou going somewhere on Saturday?

- Yes. - What areyou doing?

- I 'm going to a Christmas banquet. - Is that atyourbuilding thatyou're in?

- Yes. - That is nice. Soyou'll be out overnight.

I'm not going till Saturday, and I'll be back Monday morning.

- Okay, all right. - So it's a weekend.

We always miss you when you're gone.

- My friend, you're finished here. - Yes.

So what we'll do, we stand you up, we'll pull your pants up...

and then I'll pin this toyou up here.

- Okay. - How's that sound?.

Doyou want me to do the hug stand?.

Come here. Hug. Thereyou go.

You hold on to me, okay?. ' Cause I'm gonna hold on toyour pants.

Give me a hug. That's it.

%% [ Humming ]

[ Chuckling ] You smell really good,Joyce.

[ Eda ] The rightwheel.

Go ahead. Good.

Good. Good.

Fine. Come over here.

That's good.

That's it. That's it. Now go -

Right. Way to go. Thereyou go.

[ Nurse ] Oryou can doyourleft - Yeah.

Just let go ofthe right wheel,Joyce, andjust turn the left wheel.

Way to go.

- Way to go,Joyce. - Way to go.

J ust like driving a car. Good for you.

Good. See how easy it is?.

I do it not too well, but I do it.

[ Eda ] Sure you are. Takes practice.

Well, it's interesting to be here...

back in beautiful downtown Toronto.

Go to Mellon's this afternoon...

- have a cocktail, say hello to my friends. - [ Laughing ]

- That's good. You'll need one bythen. - [ Laughs ]

- You sureyou don't want something? - No, dear.

- Seriously. - [ Chuckling ]

I was gonna, uh, mention something, and I can't remember everything.

Maybe I should've been writing things down.

- Elaine at work said to saya big hello. - Oh, well, you say hello to them.

And it was herhusband that did the fireplace.

Now, the mirror on the side of the fireplace -

Where did you put that mirror?. 'Cause it shouldn't be there.

Well, you want the mirror in the foyer.

- Yea. In the foyer. - Yeah. Yeah.

- When you come in oryou leave, you look at it. - Yes. Yes.

- So what'd you do with that painting?. - It's gone.

- Or is it a photo, uh, a picture?. - It's a real painting.

- It's a painting. - It's a painting.

- Oh, it's gone?. Okay. - Yeah.

So you've got a mirror there over the - Okay.

That all looks good.

- And my new little table. - Yeah.

And I got a stand-up lamp underneath the big mirror in the dinette.

[ Nurse ] 604,, Bed 1 - Eda Simac with C.A. ofthe breast and livermets.

She's to be reassessed at Mount Sinai...

and I don't have anything further on Eda.

But she had her usual day, and she took her meals well.

I s this your fi rst time out of the hospital?.

Yeah. First time on the streets since, uh -

since J une the, uh, 1 6th.

- Wow. So this is a big excursion, huh?. - Yeah, it is.

One ofthe staffsaid that I should go out for a ride...

and I thought, oh, I'll be bumping into all ofmy neighbors.

Well, what's wrong with that?.

- Now thatyou've gotyour hair back. - They might not recognize me.

Oh, no, theywouldn't recognize me. I can assureyou ofthat.

You look great.

- [ Woman ] Hi, Edwarda. - Hi.

- How areyou?. - Good.

- How lovely to see you. - Same here.

- Oh, that's wonderful. - You cut your hair shorter.

Oh, I guess so. Uh, this is a surprise.

- [ Eda ] Well, you're still here. - Yeah, I'm still here.

- I think aboutyou girls all the time. - And so areyou.

- That's what's so wonderful. - I'm thinking aboutyou all the time.

You are?. Well, Falita and I do.

Well, I sawyour name on the list, and I said to Falita -

I said, ""It's a mistake." [ Laughs ]

She said - I knewyou were doing okay, and I was laughing.

I guess I've gotta go back to see the other patients.

But it's lovely.

It's just beautiful to seeyou, Edwarda. Really lovely.

So I was surprised the other day whenyour doctor called me...

and said, ""Would you like to see an old friend again??"

- [ Laughing] - I said, ""Sure."

Yeah, he told me Saturday he was talking toyou.

So, canyou tell me now about howyou feel?

I have no pain.

I've lost quite a bit ofweight.

I think about, uh, 30 pounds since I was last here.

Uh, I'm eating well.

Uh, I started to walk about two weeks ago.

Um, I'm doing a bit of exercising for my legs.

Um, everything seems to be... normal.

You've seen thepatients aroundyou pass away.

- And in a lot ofpain. - Mm-hmm.

Has it been difficult foryou, um...

in the hospital at all from an emotional point ofview?.

No. No.

Because I think I'm prepared forall that.

What isyour expectation for the future?

- Doyou have any idea? - My expectations?.

My expectations are to get - is to get better...

- Mm-hmm. - and to get on with my life.

And if, um -

If I have any tests and it doesn't go that way...

then I can face...

what will be next.

Doyou seeyourself getting out ofhospital?

- Yeah. I got here. - Yeah.

Yeah. Yeah.

[ Chattering ]

- [ Allison ] Joyce is deteriorating. - Is she?.

Quite a bit. She's really hard to rouse. She's really drowsy.

Herambulating and hermobility is really, really decreased now.

She has to get going though.

- Says she's going home Saturday. - She's going home?

- Mm-hmm. Saturday. - Going home for the big dinner.

She said it's an open bar. She's very happy.

And she said, ""I know I can't dance, but I probably will wiggle. "

[ Laughter]

Still a great sense ofhumor.

You look fresh this morning.

Well, I 've been scrubbed from top to bottom.

This take a lot of effort maybe from you...

but, at the end, you know, be good.

Oops. Good.

[ Nurse On Tape ] 604,, Bed 2 -Joyce Bone, C.A. ofthe bladder with bone mets and C. O.P.D.

She's going out on pass after supper today.

- Can you just stop for a second?. - [ Tape PlayerStops ]

I n her room - I 've passed on to Dale - But in her room is a bag.

'Cause I had suggested last night that they put on a dressing for the weekend...

Iike a leave-in or something, and they said no.

So what they've done is put the Telfas...

some saline and some four-by-fours in a bag in her room...

showed herwhat to do.

- I don't know. - [Joyce ] So much fuss.

- Hmm?. - So much fuss.

She's got a brief in her purse, too, in case she needs to go to the washroom.

She's got all the information.

You're okay.

- Have a good time. - Thankyou.

Okay. Thankyou.

I hope to.

- Areyou okay now,Joyce?. - I'm fine.

- [ Elevator Bell Dings ] - Let's go.

Good-bye.

[ Woman ] Well, thenyou're gonna have to decide what to do next.

[ Eda ] Ifl come in for chemotherapy -

I live alone, so I 've gotta do a lot of thinking.

You know what I mean?.

That's the problem.

Well, you don't live alone anymore, kiddo.

[ Both Laughing ]

- Well - - You have lots of roommates.

I may not be at the hospital. I don't know, you see?.

- Oh, there's a chance that - - They may - I might be discharged, you see.

Wow. Where would you go?. You've given up your apartment.

- Oh, I would get myself a condominium or - - You'd rent a place.

- Rent a place. Oh, yeah. - Where's all your furniture now?.

Well, I've gotta find that out, because I thought he gave it all away.

But it doesn't sound like he gave it all away.

IfI'm going forweeklytherapy, then do I stayat the hospital?

I don't stay at the hospital. That's my concern.

Are we here already?

[ Siren Wailing In Distance ]

[ Elevator Bell Dings ]

Here it is.

[ Nurse ] Hi.

Where are we going to?.

[ Nurse ] To 604, here.

It's by the windows, soyou'll need to go in head first.

Go in head first. Okay,Joyce.

[ Paramedic ] Ma'am, we're gonna move you over.

Ready?. One, two, three.

- Thanks very much for - - Are you comfortable?. No problem.

We'll get her. Thankyou.

- Hi,Joyce. - Hi.

- Nice to seeyou. - Nice to seeyou too.

Okay,Joyce.

Hold on. Let me put the bed down so we can move it.

[Paramedic] Haveyou got that?

- [Paramedic] The familymemberthat we spoke to - - Daphne?.

Yeah. She said that herlevel ofconsciousness has decreased quite significantly.

She hasn't been able to - hasn't been able to eat anything or swallow anything today.

[ Nurse ] All right. Okay.

And she's having a lot ofdifficulty keeping her awake.

Apparently the last time she had her meds was last night.

- Thanks very much. - No problem. Take care.

- Hi,Joyce. - [ Weakly ] H i.

- Hmm? - Her head and foot.

[ Woman ] This is Motilium here. Two Motilium and a Haldol.

And the valproic acid, she gets at - between 1 1 :00 and 1 :00.

So that's what shewould get, but there isn't the Ritalin.

[ Doctor] Okay.

And see here?.

Let's see. For the H.S. sedation...

she took 7.5 and 3.75.

So she only took 7.5.

- Yeah, and nothing at all today. - Nothing.

Can you look in it and tell me how many are in it, please?. Thanks.

She told me quite clearly. She says, ""I was afraid at home."

I said, ""What wereyou afraid of??"

And she said, ""I was afraid that I would have pain and wouldn't be able to stand it."

Hi. So just two left. So she took three last night.

Okay, and just two left. Okay. Thanks a lot.

Okay. Thanks. Bye.

She took the three ofthem last night. She's had none today.

And Daphne says there's two left in the brown envelope.

And she's putting them in her bag, and she'll be here shortly, she said.

- Today? - Yeah.

But she says, no, it wasn't today. It was last night she took them.

So she's hadnothing today.

So she's been uncomfortable, she said.

[ Alarm Beeping ]

I'm just going to take a little listen here.

[ Even Breathing ]

All right. I don't want to disturb her.

- [ Woman ] Oh, I loveya, loveya. - You've been busy this morning.

- Yeah. - Good foryou.

- Well, thankyou. - Good foryou.

I thought I really should get to see people.

Some ofthem have been here forweeks, and I haven't been to see them at all.

- There's some that-A lot ofnew ones. - Yes.

- See the two ladies here?. - No, I don't know those folks. Don't know them.

So are you going at the end ofthe month?. Orwhat's -

- Who knows?. - Yeah.

I'm going for my CAT scan Monday.

- On Monday? - Yes.

So we'll work it from there. We'll see what happens.

Mm-hmm, mm-hmm.

- So, listen, hon. - So I'll seeyou later.

- I'm going. Oop. - We'll see you next week.

- Yeah, I'll see you next week. - Next Saturday.

- Next Saturday?. Merry Christmas. - Same toyou.

- Bye. Take care. - Okay, hon.

Take care. Bye-bye.

[ Even Breathing ]

[ Nurse ] 604,, Bed 2 -Joyce Bone, with ""C" ofthe bladder and bone mets.

When we first came on, she had indicated she needed something forpain and shortness ofbreath.

And she was able to verbalize that.

Her congestion and respiratory difficulty was obvious at that point.

AndJoyce's respiration ceased at 09.35..

In the end, it was a rapid decline with respiratory distress...

and then a peaceful last breath.

[ Nurse ] Good morning.

Okay. J oyce.

Be i n peace, J oyce. Be i n peace.

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[ Doctor] You've had quite a few weeks, haven'tyou?

How do you feel about it al l?.

You mean the changeover and -

Well -

We're here for a purpose, and, you know -

People are - are dying.

You just don't know when.

And you sort of expect it.

And, you know, it's just like... the nurses here, you know.

You just don't know when it's going to happen, but it's inevitable.

And when it's your roommate, you're ready to accept that, I think.

- I am anyway. - Mm-hmm, mm-hmm.

- Is it preoccupying you a lot?. - No.

- No?. - I'm sort of...

thinking of... doing it dayby day.

Ifl hearfrom them, that's fine. Ifl don't, I'll wait andjust, you know -

I t's not really occupying my mind...

or where I'm worried or too concerned at all.

No.

Is the outcome preoccupyingyou?

- No, 'cause I know that it's there. - Yeah. Yeah.

- You know?. - Yeah.

How doyou mean you know that it's there?

- Well, the cancer is still there. - Mm-hmm.

You know, I don't expect it to be gone, because it's an organ.

But whether it's gone further...

ofwhether it's gone not too far or more aggressive...

I don't think it really makes any difference.

Mm-hmm, mm-hmm.

Except that my oncologist wanted me to have some more chemotherapy...

but a smaller dosage on a weekly basis.

But, you know, I haven't made any decisions yet.

I think I know where I'm going, but I don't knowyet.

And I'd like to hear him and, you know, see what options there are.

Yeah.

[ Chattering ]

[ Chattering, Laughing ]

As I was telling the social worker the other day...

I think I gotta get out ofthis nut house.

I think it's driving me buggy.

[ Woman, Laughing] Oh, myGod.

Of course, I always was... a little buggy.

[ Chuckling ]

That was - That was priceless.

Have a nice day.

[ Nurse ] Hello. This is a report on Richard Pollard.

His diagnosis is squamous cell lung cancer.

He's hepatitis C from old I. V. drug use.

He's not had radiation. He declines that.

He says, ""Oh, I'm gonna die anyway. "

And chemotherapy - his last treatment was last week.

He's had a fascinating life actually.

From high school, he joined Satan's Choice. He was homeless for a bit.

He has been employed, but he says he's made a complete turnaround.

I think part of it was the folks from the islandjust taking him in.

- I brought your nice picture. - Yeah.

- You can stick that in the - - I n the window.

- In the window,yeah. - Okay.

- And, uh, what sort of papers are these?. - Yeah.

I brought you some, uh, Coffee Crisps to bribe the nurses.

Yeah.

And I found the, uh - the knife you mentioned. It looks very good.

That was my ""Hi, Kadiddle" knife.

Was ityour, uh -your roast beefknife oryou self-protection knife?.

- My social knife. - Yoursocial knife. [ Chuckles ]

To make the people become social.

Yes. Well, I'm glad I wasn't on the wrong end ofthat.

And I found - This looks like somebody returned a borrowed bottle from you.

- This was sitting on your landing. - I'll set that down here.

All right. Your favorite brand ofbeer.

Otherwise, they'll think I'm running a booze town here.

Think ofall thoseyears you spent outside, Rick.

You were in a lot oftough winters.

Yeah.

It felt kind ofsad to be in your house, I have to say.

I was sad to leave it.

I was sad to say, ""No, I don't think Rick's - Rick's not coming back to live here."

See, they'll be sad that I didn't pay the month's rent.

- But they'll probably get somebody in there pretty quick. - Oh, yeah.

- So,yourtwo housemates said theywould, uh, divvy upyourstuffand- - Yeah.

Theywouldn't fight overit, they said.

Well, as long as it don't get thrown out in the street, you know?

'Cause I got a lot of mileage on those sleeping bags.

[ Woman On P.A., Indistinct ]

[ Woman ] Chew it and swallow it.