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You're going to miss your first lesson.

I'm not. I'm going to miss assembly, and everyone misses assembly.

If everyone missed assembly...

Do you want jam on this? Yeah. If everyone missed assembly,

hey, it's not assembly.

Jam? Yeah. Please. You never told Callum to say it.

Right. You've got PE today, yeah? Yeah.

Your kit's in your bedroom. Do you think you can manage that? Yeah.

Go get it, then. Come on. We all need to go. Come on.

What about me toast? Bring it.

Right, come on. Out you go.

This programme contains strong language from the start,

some violent scenes, and scenes which some viewers may find upsetting

See you later, love.

Right...

DROPS KEYS

Right, come on.

Why are we rushing? We're not late. I know, sweetheart. Come on.

Callum, come on. Hurry up, love.

He said he'd sort something out and he did nothing.

Hey. He did nothing.

Me kids should've been picked up an hour ago.

So will you give me my phone, please?

Please. They don't know where I am. Nobody knows where I am.

Can't you see the situation I'm in?

They're 7, 9 and 13 and they don't know where I am.

So give me my phone. Will you just give me my phone?!

You'll get a phone call later, all right? When?

After reception.

When's that? I don't know.

How long's it take? Don't know!

Where they taking us? We've been in here hours.

Where they taking us? I don't know! Carlingford.

Where's that? Runcorn.

Oh, my God...

SHE SHOUTS

Will you stop it now!

I need my phone and I need a pee.

Name? Kelsey Morgan. Have you been inside before?

Yeah, twice. Are you on any drugs or medication?

Yeah. Can you make sure I'm down for 40ml of methadone in the morning, please?

Cos last time I was in, that didn't happen. I had to rattle for two days and I didn't have anything.

If that happens this time, I'll be dead. I'll be dead because my habit's bigger.

It's miles bigger than last time.

So can you please make a note of that, please? Much bigger heroin habit.

You'll need to speak to the nurse about that.

But... Religion? No.

We have a maximum of 30ml of methadone. You don't even give

40 in exceptional circumstances? You're not an exceptional circumstance. I am,

because my habit has grown since the last time I was in.

I'll make a note of that for the doctor. And he'll give me 40?

We'll see in the morning.

KELSEY SIGHS

Could you wee into that, please? I'm not pregnant.

Well, let's just make sure, eh?

SHE SIGHS

You've transferred from Birchway Prison? Yeah.

Any good?

For three and a half years it was a lot of shit,

then it got a little bit worse.

This your first time in prison? Yeah. Can I explain my situation?

Yeah. I fiddled the leccy, but everyone said you don't get sent to prison for that.

You don't.

Aggravating factors, they said.

So I didn't tell anyone I was in court and I dropped my kids off

at school as per normal, so I've no idea who's picked them up.

But I'm suspecting Maggie, so I just need to call her to tell her that

I'll sort it in the morning. And how will you sort it?

I'll get governor to tell that magistrate to let me go.

Look, I'm in here, yeah, but it's my kids who are doing the suffering.

Good luck with that. So can I call Maggie, please? Soon.

I'll need my phone.

You get your phone back when you're released.

It's got all my numbers in it.

Can you remember any?

Yeah. One.

Oh, God...

You're pregnant, Kelsey.

It's wrong.

It's got to be wrong because there's no way that I could be...

Oh, shit.

Cochrane and Morgan. Follow me this way.

Are those pregnancy tests ever wrong?

Did it say you're pregnant? Yeah.

Then you're pregnant.

This is the wing. You'll do your induction here.

Not pleasant, but you'll only be here for a week or so.

Unless you kick off, of course,

in which case you'll be here for a while longer.

LOUD HUBBUB

In you go.

DOOR SLAMS

I'll have the bottom. I'm pregnant.

Number? 01632 960 442.

LINE RINGS

Hello?

Hiya, Mam, it's me.

What do you say? Me. Orla.

How are you? I'm fine.

No, I'm not fine. I'm not fine at all. I'm in prison.

Y-y-you what? I'm in prison.

I got six months today for fiddling leccy.

I'm calling you from prison. Which prison?

Carlingford. Oh, my God.

Look, Mam, I didn't pick kids up from school, but I think Maggie

will have done it, so I need you to go round there, say I'm sorry,

and say can she keep the kids tonight, take them to school

in the morning and I'll definitely sort something tomorrow.

I'll be out or something, but I'll sort it.

I'll take 'em. No, you're not having 'em.

Why not? No.

Can I have two phone calls tomorrow?

No. One to call me mam to get the number, then the other to call

the woman who's got my kids. We'll see tomorrow.

No, I need to know now. This is my kids we're talking about, love,

and I need to know now.

Can I have two phone calls tomorrow?

Yes.

Oh, thank you.

Thank you.

You'll get the number, yeah? Yes.

Right, OK. Well, go now, Mam. For fuck's sake!

You need to leave now, cos you'll fall asleep or something.

You leave now? I'm doing it. Thanks.

You called me "love".

Did I? Yeah.

It's not "love". It's "Miss" or "Miss Martin".

OK?

OK, Miss.

In 'ere.

Goodnight. Night.

SHE BREATHES HEAVILY

What are you doing, you stupid bitch?

What do you think? You're pregnant.

Fuck off, Mother Teresa.

FROM NEXT CELL: You three new ones?

Yeah?

What yous in for?

Well?

Anyone? I fiddled the leccy.

LAUGHS

And yous two?

She's in for drugs. Yeah?

And you?

Life.

What for?

Killed my sister-in-law.

Why?

She annoyed me.

You're down to 15ml.

Cheers.

Next, please.

D5134C...

15ml. Right, ta.

AKJ Anthony.

Kelsey Morgan.

There's nothing down for you. There should be methadone for me.

You don't need it. You were observed last night sleeping like a baby.

They observed me?

Yeah. Nobody told me that.

How remiss of us.

Move away, please.

There's a reason I was sleeping last night.

Yeah? Yeah.

Brought stuff in with me.

Whoa.

You tell me you've taken drugs.

In a CSU.

And you'll do nothing in CSU but rattle.

Anything else?

No, Miss.

Move along then, please.

DOOR UNLOCKS

Orla O'Riordan? Yeah.

I'm guessing you're Catholic.

Yeah. I'm Marie-Louise.

I'm a nun with the chaplaincy team.

Right.

You need to make a phone call?

Yeah.

Want to come with me? Oh, thank you.

First time in prison.

Yeah.

It's getting to you.

Yeah.

You'll be OK.

Some of the nicest people you'll ever meet are in prison.

What do I tell my kids?

Do you want them to come and see you? Yeah.

The truth, then.

We're going to my office, Orla.

OK, what's the number?

01632... Yep.

..960.. Yep.

..442.

There you go, it's ringing.

Hello?

Hiya, Mum, it's me.

How are you? I'm fine. You?

Yeah, fine.

Did you sort it?

No. No?

I've brought the kids here. Why?

Well, what's the alternative? You can't keep them.

I told you not to do that. What's the alternative?

Because you can't cope.

You won't be able to cope with them, Mam. I'll tell you what the alternative is.

Because you drink, you get pissed, and you'll harm them.

I'll tell you what the alternative is.

The alternative is they'll get taken into care.

If they get taken into care, they'll get separated.

They'll split up. Is that what you want?

That's exactly what I am trying to avoid.

Because if you have them, they will go into care.

They will definitely go into care.

I didn't have a drink last night. Oh, yeah, we've heard that before.

And I won't have one till you're out. I promise you that.

You've promised before.

They'll end up minding you like I did.

They won't.

I promise.

Shall I bring 'em in to see you?

Erm...

How far's Huddersfield from here?

60 miles, something like that.

It's 60 mile, Mam.

We'll do it.

Well, you're not up to that.

For God's sake.

All you did was try to keep your kids warm.

Thank you.

SHE SNIFFS

She's an alcoholic.

OK.

SHOUTS AND CHATTER

Thanks. No worries.

You all right? Yeah. I'm so sorry.

Orla, yeah?

Yeah. You, OK?

Yeah.

Do you want to talk?

No.

Can I get another toilet roll?

Erm...

..one sec.

You can get plenty of these but you have to buy more of this.

I'm not even due on, it's cos me pills are at home.

Well, you'll not need them in here.

You going to be all right on your own?

Yeah.

Could share. No, I'm fine.

Take care. Yeah?

DOORS CLANG

FRANTIC BREATHING

RUSTLING

Where'd you get that? A friend.

Did they do a blood test as well as urine?

Yeah.

What did it say? Don't know, they sent it off to a lab or something.

SHE SNIFFS

And if it comes back pregnant?

Abortion. Abortion?

Yeah.

Why?

Well, you're on remand, aren't you?

Yeah.

Judges don't like handing out long sentences to pregnant women.

He's got to, though, a kilo of class A.

Yeah, but, he'll go easier if you're pregnant.

Oh. Where is it?

Oh. Where is it, you thieving bitch?

Where is my hair oil and the cream?

I don't know what you're talking about. You swapped it for that smack you had last night.

No. So who with?

Who did you swap it with? I didn't swap anything.

I'll tell everyone you're a thieving bitch who rats off her bed mate.

So who did you swap it with? No-one.

Fuck you, then!

Hey! I am padding-up with a thief.

A thief who's robbed my oil and my cream and swapped

it for a bit of brown.

So, who's she done that with?

Hmm?

Who's she swapped my oil and my cream with?

I don't know these things because I've only been here five

minutes, so someone please tell me,

who has she swapped my oil and my cream with?

Right.

Who'd you swap it with?

Who did you swap it with?

THUMP

Oh!

Who did you swap it with?

Tanya. Thank you.

I'm having them back, love, right?

Don't even think about stopping me.

And look, look what it says - Afro.

She's as white as the driven snow, so she's obviously robbed it off me.

But you didn't give a shit about that, did you? You bitch. Sod you!

I didn't know she robbed ya. ..Cos it has nothing to do with me.

Get out.

Get out right now! Get out!

I was in Birchway with you.

Yeah.

I know you who you killed.

And it wasn't your sister-in-law, was it?

What do you intend to do with that information?

Depends.

On how I look after you?

Yeah.

I'll think about it.

Yeah.

You do that.

It's nice that.

Have you ever tried to tell anyone why...

..why you did it?

Not even tried?

It's too difficult.

If you could do that.

You'd be in control, wouldn't you?

You'd be in control of that truth.

SHE SNIFFS

How long have you been here?

A year.

Before that?

A men's prison.

But nine out of ten men won't talk.

Nine out of ten women won't shut up.

So I thought I'd have a bit of that.

Are you gay?

That's enough about me, I think.

I've had four years of prison.

I've had prison chaplains fighting over me.

All of them have expected me to gush, but not one of them's divulged

a single thing about herself.

That's our job.

Am I here for the sexual excitement that this job provides?

Nah, you'll see. I'm here for the spiritual needs

of these women.

These beaten and abused and shat-upon women.

I tell them God loves them, you know?

Some laugh and some dismiss it.

But many...

..many weep.

And when they weep.

These shat-upon women.

It's so, so exhilarating.

Hey.

Hey.

Two minutes.

See you later.

I've had a think.

Yeah? Yeah.

You tell anyone...

..and I mean anyone about me.

And I THINK...

..I will kill ya.

Do you understand that?

I am doing life.

A few more years means nothing to me.

I will cheerfully...

..kill ya.

Do you fully understand? Yes.

Good.

I'll pay you it back.

I promise I'll pay you it back.

SHE WHIMPERS

SHE SCREAMS

SHE GASPS

8221...

It's just this today... Yeah.

Next, please.

6824 SQ Morgan.

SHE PANTS

Yeah.

Thank you.

Got everything? Yeah.

Follow me.

Right, your induction is over, so you're now

proper Carlingford residents.

Follow me.

Gather round, please.

OK. Cochrane. Morgan.

O'Riordan.

Helsby, you're with me, the rest of you, with PO James.

This way. Follow me, you'll be in block A...

You'll be in block B, otherwise known as Windsor.

There are five rooms, two or three women in each.

There's a phone in your room.

You need credits to use it.

The only door locked is the front door.

So you'll have 24-hour access to the kitchen, the bathrooms

and the TV lounge.

Unless you misbehave, of course.

In you go.

MUFFLED ANNOUNCEMENT OVER PA

Yes, T!

LAUGHTER

Whoa.

Welcome home.

What did you do this time? In you go.

INDISTINCT CONVERSATION

Right, you're in here, the three of you.

Any questions? No, Miss.

Right. I'll see you later.

If you rob from her, you rob from me. Right? Right.

I'll have that.

I'm pregnant.

Top or bottom?

I don't mind. Choose.

Bottom. Right.

You all right?

BACKGROUND CHATTER

Hiya.

What's wrong?

What's wrong? Dogs.

What? Dog searched us on the way in.

Dogs searched my kids?

Yeah. Dogs searching my kids.

What do you think you're playing at? Dogs sniffing my kids.

They're absolutely terrified of dogs. Go now.

Can't. They're not watching.

They don't need to be afraid. Calm down. Keep your voice down.

They're little children. Sit down. Now they're terrified.

How dare you do that? Calm down or it's over.

I'm calm. Sit down, sweetheart.

Why are dogs sniffing my kids? For drugs.

I've never touched drugs in my entire life.

I'm in here for fiddling the leccy.

Nowt to do with drugs.

Nothing whatsoever to do with drugs.

Will you stay calm?

Yes.

I'm pregnant.

What?

I'm pregnant.

What are you going to do about it? Keep it.

You know why? Judges go easy on pregnant women.

With a kee of brown? No, they'll send me down, yeah,

but I won't get six or anything like it. How long, then?

Three and a half, she reckons.

She?

Her.

She's doing life.

She knows.

OK, so you get three and a half.

Yeah? Uh-hm.

Who minds the baby? I do.

LAUGHING: What? There's a mother and baby unit here.

You can keep your baby up to 18 months old.

That's why they'll give me three and a half.

Cos if they give me three and a half, I'll do 21 months.

Which means I can have the baby. Mind it. And then leave with it.

HE SCOFFS

You're serious, aren't you?

Yeah.

You said you wanted to have kids with me.

Yeah, I know what I said.

It's just...

It's what?

What is it, Adam?

It just seems a bit sudden.

OK?

I'm, I'm selling the house.

And so I brought some papers for you to sign,

but I had to leave them.

But they'll pass them on to you, I think.

Right.

Yeah, they reckon we'll make about 40 grand on it, so I'll just put 20

in a separate account and it'll be waiting for you.

No, no need.

Oh, there is.

Right.

Thought you might have just come to see me.

No.

No.

School all right, sweetheart?

Yeah. You? Good.

Yeah.

Are you going? Yeah. Sure?

Yeah!

Still off the booze.

Yeah.

Is she? For God's sake, Orla.

What? Asking the kids if I'm lying or not.

You know why I'm doing that?

I haven't had a drink since the night you came in here.

Nor will I.

I know what's at stake.

OK. Hey, love.

Do you know who your kids are sitting by?

You what? They're sitting by a killer.

That's enough, please.

Not just any killer, sitting by a woman who killed her own baby.

Yeah, that's right. I've got to go.

That bitch there, that bitch leaving now.

That's enough. It's nowhere near enough.

Killed her own baby!

Yeah. Go on, you get off, you murdering bitch.

Call yourself a woman!

Call yourself a human being and you're murdering

an innocent little baby. Sit down, please.

Sit down. Dirty, stinking, lousy murdering bitch.

Sit down.

Yeah, fine.

Calm down. Don't listen.

It's all right, sweetheart. She's calm.

Shit.

You OK? Yeah.

We can move you back to the wing.

Why? Safer.

I'm fine. OK.

OK.

BELL RINGS

You be big and brave for Nan.

Yeah?

I'll be home soon.

Hey, I'll be home really soon.

Right.

Come here.

Go on. Bye, Mam, see ya.

Bye.

MOURNFUL MUSIC

Vests off, please. Collect your IDs from PO Reece.

It's true, yeah?

Yeah.

She's no different from anyone else in this prison, right?

Time to go home.

We touch you, we get nicked. Yeah.

Yeah.

We criticise ya, shout at ya,

do anything a normal woman would do to someone

like you, we'd get nicked.

Where are you going? To my room.

No, you're not. Why not?

Because I want what he gave you.

I mean, your life won't be worth living, but no-one's

going to touch ya. Are you finished?

Give.

Give what? That wrap that he give ya. I haven't got a wrap.

I saw him give it ya. I haven't got a wrap, I haven't got a wrap!

I haven't got anything! You owe me big time, you robbing bitch!

I'm pregnant.

SHE SCREAMS

Then stop your twisting, you stupid bitch.

SHE SCREAMS

Shut up. Stop, please! Please.

SCREAMS

The more you twist, the more

it's going to hurt.

Stop!

SCREAMS

Got it.

Fucking hell, Tan.

COUGHS

DOOR OPENS

You OK? WEAKLY: Yeah.

DOOR SLAMS

I want you both to listen to this.

Yeah? We lock this door overnight.

If you get up, for a pee, for anything, you wake me up

and you let me know, right?

Right?!

Look.

This is a prison.

They won't just smack my bum, love, they will cut my throat.

Do you understand?

Yeah.

So, if you need to leave overnight, you wake me up

and you let me know, right?

Right.

Right?

Right.

Shit! Orla, I need that phone.

Please don't sack me. ON PHONE: I've got to.

You don't. I got six months, but I'll be in for three.

That means I'll be out in a few more weeks. For God's sake!

You could get someone to cover me for a few weeks.

I can't. You can.

Look, just get someone to fill in for me.

You'll get another job. I won't!

And even if I do, it'll be minimum wage

and that's £40 a week less than you were paying me.

I couldn't survive on that, never mind £40 a week less.

Orla, please. I need to speak to Adam.

Abi, can you tell her? I ain't missed a day in yonks.

I know. I'm sorry, Orla.

You know something?

I did what I did to keep my kids warm because I couldn't afford to

on the wages you were paying, you tight bastard.

I'm going. You big, fat, tight bastard.

I'm going. Don't you dare hang up on me! Urgh!

Hey! Don't do that!

If you do that, we all suffer.

Can I have it, please? Yes, you selfish bitch. Thank you.

Don't talk to me, baby killer.

Don't you dare think you've got the right to talk to me.

Is everything OK in here? No. I fiddled my electricity, that's all.

I don't think I should even be in here. I certainly don't think

I should be sharing a room with someone who killed their baby!

Do you want to move? Yes! Right, you'll have to fill in an app.

LOUD CHATTER

THEY STOP TALKING

You lie.

INMATES MUTTER

Got my mate to Google you.

Husband's a surgeon.

Big house, posh car.

Minted, weren't you?

See, I raised all three of mine on fuck all, mate.

And I loved them.

Yeah.

See you later.

Ta-ra!

Fucking dead weight.

LAUGHS

ENGINE STARTS

Can I open the window, Miss? Yeah.

Could you please take these off?

No. I will take them off for your scan and I'll wait outside.

Could you come in with me, Miss?

Yeah.

Head to those seats there.

Thank you.

Here's your water.

Kelsey.

Amy Hughes, please.

Are you on any medication?

Yeah.

What is it?

30ml of methadone a day.

That's bad, isn't it?

It's not ideal.

Will you know if it's a boy or a girl?

No. That's next time. Should we tell you?

Yeah.

HEART BEATING

That's the baby's heartbeat there. See?

Nice and strong.

What's wrong?

Nothing.

Then, why are you upset?

I don't know.

8-6-8-24, SQ Morgan.

I want to reduce. Right.

Starting when?

Now. How far do you want to go?

I want to be off it altogether.

OK.

Wait here and I'll go and speak to the doctor, then.

Thanks.

SHE EXHALES

Where's the kids?

Have they not told you?

Tell me what?

Er...

They said they've written to you, explaining everything.

Explaining what?

The kids, they've, erm...

They're in foster care.

They were off school and social workers came round and, erm...

And you were drunk.

WHISPERS: I told you this would happen.

Didn't I tell you this would happen?!

Please don't go. Can I go, please?

PHONE RINGING

ON PHONE: Reception.

My kids have been taken into care and I knew nothing about it.

Well, that can't happen. Well, it has.

I need to talk to someone in charge because they've been taken away

and I knew nothing. Just a moment, Orla.

You'll have to raise it with the duty officer in the morning.

PHONE BEEPS

Took your kids into care, yeah?

No warning, no nothing?

Yeah.

See the governor. How do I do that?

You cut yourself. What?

You see, you want something round here, you kick off.

But even kicking off isn't enough to see the governor.

You need to cut yourself.

Your arm.

Across.

What do I use?

This.

ALARM BLARES

SHE GASPS

Oh, Orla.

I need to see the governor.

You can't.

I need to see the governor!

Just put the blade down, Orla, and then we can talk.

Through there, Sir.

Mrs O'Riordan.

You the governor?

Deputy governor.

You don't get to see the governor by cutting yourself, Mrs O'Riordan.

I'm here to apologise.

Social Services sent us two letters.

Neither got to you.

The prison would have opened them?

Yes. They'd have known I were losing my kids?

Yes. But they still never got to me.

No.

It's you who should be cutting yourself.

We've got two thirds of the staff we need to run this place properly.

That's why they got lost.

Well, can I use that, like, in an appeal or something?

No. Social Services say nothing would have affected

their initial decision.

They were always taking the kids.

How do I get them back?

You going to be living with your mother when you get out?

I ain't got anywhere else to go.

Well, you'll never get them back while you're there.

So move in with her, yes,

but get yourself a job, save some money,

rent a place of your own, and then ask for them back.

We're really sorry about this.

When I came in here...

..I had an house, a job

and a family.

Now I've got nothing.

SHE SOBS

WATER RUNNING

SOUND OF WATER FADES

BABY'S CRYING ECHOES

CRYING INTENSIFIES

CRYING STOPS

KNOCKS ON DOOR

Can I borrow your towel?

No.

I'll go to the room, get another one and bring this one straight back.

No. Well, who took mine?

I don't know.

WOLF WHISTLE

DOOR SLAMS

SHE CLAPS

Well done.

You're all wonderful mothers, aren't you?

I mean, you're stuck in here, never setting eyes on your fucking kids,

but never mind that, you all are wonderful mothers

and you can prove that by picking on a bad one.

Me.

But you know what you're really doing when you're doing that?

You're fighting what's in there, yeah? That devil that's in there.

That cold, wet Wednesday when you nearly strangled them.

I've talked about strangling the kids all the time, mate.

Never dreamt of doing it.

Argh!

Fucking this one.

Fucking having that?

Fuck off, you bitch!

THEY GROAN

Yeah? Yeah?

Bitch.

SHE WHIMPERS

RATTLING

HEAVY THUDS

DOOR SLAMS

Miss.

Miss!

Tanya's got a blade.

Tanya Helsby? Yeah.

Right. Thank you, Kelsey.

My dice.

Stop it. Where's the rest of my Love Hearts? You got them hidden, eh?

Under your pillow. Under me pillow, yeah.

Out. Out right now.

Why?

Out right now because we are spinning you.

Here we go. Don't touch my shit.

Is that your bed?

Yeah.

Move it, Mills. I need you out.

Not you!

Why? Not you. Miss, what you doing? Keep walking, Mills.

You lot are out of order, man. You've got nothing better to do.

Sort your shoes out outside, all right?

We'll write you up. Sort yourself out, out there.

You're going to find jack shit. Move it! Yeah? Yeah.

Sure about that? Fuck's sake, man. What you doing?

Wait here, please, Helsby. She's not going to find anything, are you?

Boring.

You'll find fuck all, I keep telling you that.

Wasting your time.

This yours, is it?

No.

Fuck off!

We're moving you, girl...

For what?! What are you doing?! ..200 miles away.

This way. What are you doing?!

What are you doing? You're hurting me!

I said you're hurting me!

Fucking hurting me! You're hurting her! She grassed on me!

I'm telling you now, she's grassed on me! Who? Was it you?!

You little fucking skank, grassing on me!

What you saying? Are you?! Me? Grassing on me, yeah!

I'm not a fucking grass, bitch! Fucking dickhead.

Mind what you're saying! I don't play them games!

What you doing? Miss! Oi, Tanya!

Tanya!

What?

Where the fuck did she get that from?

Listen, I'm no fucking grass, yeah?

Bitch.

You all set, then?

Yeah.

Ow! My boobs! Oh, sorry.

It's like someone comes in each night with a bike pump.

You'll stay off the drugs, yeah?

Yeah.

Bye.

Bye.

Don't take this the wrong way, but I hope I never see you again.

Either of you.

Charming.

BUZZING

Is it right you were a nurse?

No.

Or used to be.

Yeah.

Yeah, I've got a lump.

You want me to look at it?

Yeah.

Now OK? Yeah.

I'll need you to...

Left or right?

Can I touch?

Yeah.

Hmm. Can't feel anything.

No?

Put your arm up. Hmm.

When did you feel it?

Am I hurting you?

SCREAMS

For grassing on Tanya.

SCREAMS

Kelsey, get help!