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Oh, don't look.

Morgan, you okay?

-Cheers. -Ow.

Is this okay? The smoke, it's not bothering you?

No, you're fine.

-Do you smoke? -No. I'm okay.

Thank you.

You sure? I should have asked.

No, you're fine. Really, I've never.

It's not that I wouldn't. I just haven't...

You want to try? Here.

Here we go.

Just put this between.

Perfect.

You were doing so good.

Why'd you cough?

I got nervous.

And then I got the text

that I had been stress fully anticipating,

and I realized that I sent it to my mom.

No, you didn't. What did she say?

She said, "Morgan, why are you telling me this?"

Yeah. So, I think I win that one.

I think you definitely win that one.

-Do you need to go? -No.

-Why? -Just asking.

What? What are you smiling about?

What are you smiling about?

-You? -What about me?

I don't know.

I owe you two cigarettes.

-Oh? -Yeah,

because you had to put one out

and then I smoked one.

I guess we'll have to see each other again.

I guess so.

♪ Here I am saying the last thing ♪

♪ Hoping you feel the same way ♪

♪ It's not that you didn't ♪

♪ Maybe you hid it ♪

♪ Between the boyfriend that you had ♪

♪ And the cross above your bed ♪

♪ We were so happy ♪

♪ It must have been heavy ♪

♪ To feel the life you want ♪

♪ But you can't have it ♪

♪ Take all my love and money ♪

♪ Take all my kindness honey ♪

♪ It'll only leave you lonely ♪

♪ I'm enough for me ♪

♪ Here I am feeling the wrong thing ♪

♪ From the way that I love and the pain that you bring ♪

♪ Things I can't change ♪

♪ To feel the life that you want ♪

♪ But you can't have it ♪

♪ I loved you and I meant it ♪

♪ Even now I don't regret it ♪

♪ I can see you're not perfect ♪

♪ In fact pretty far from that ♪

Ow, fuck.

Can I get you another coffee?

Excuse me?

-Sorry. -No, you're fine.

Can I get you another coffee?

Oh. Yeah.

Sure. Thank you.

-See you, Cassidy. -See you next time.

Oh, wait. No, you guys are closing.

You should probably stay to finish your drink though.

Do you smoke?

The guy outside earlier, I saw you watching.

Oh. Yeah.

Well, like, I have, just once.

Didn't like it?

No, I did.

I just didn't get the chance to do it again.

Can I ask you a, a kind of weird question?

-My favorite kind. -Okay. Good.

So say you meet someone and you just,

you hit it off right away.

It's like perfect.

And it's just easy.

You know?

And you can't stop thinking about them.

But then you make plans and they don't show up.

No call, no text, anything.

You know, they don't even like give you a chance.

What do you, what would you do?

Well, I guess it depends on how cute he is.

-She. -Even better.

Well the universe is pretty good

at putting people in and taking people out of your life

at the right time.

So don't ignore it when it does.

Morgan. You look great.

Have you lost weight?

-Morgan. How are you? -Good.

Good? Can we go somewhere and talk in private?

Yeah.

I didn't know if you'd be here tonight,

but I figured you might be.

What have you been up to? It's been a minute since we...

-What are you doing? -I know,

I should have explained why I didn't.

It's fine. Really, it's been months, so...

I just have never met someone like you

and I was afraid I was going to fuck it up.

You really shouldn't think that way.

Most of the time my instincts are right on that one.

What?

I don't know why we're still talking about this.

It's not a big deal.

-No. -No, we can,

we could just move on.

You want that, 'cause I don't think I can do that.

Aren't you going to follow your instincts?

Yeah.

Hey. Yeah, it's here.

I'll be by all day if you want to come pick it up.

Sure. I can meet you there.

-But you guys just met? -Well, we met in October,

but we just ran into each other last night.

-Hey. Thank you. -Yeah. No problem.

-Okay. -You're not going to stay?

No. I just, I though I dropped that off.

How about I beat you in a game of pool first?

If I make this, you owe me a beer.

You okay?

Why'd you leave this morning?

I don't know. I never stay.

Okay well, I thought us seeing each other

at that party meant something.

But I'm, I'm not going to waste my time

if you don't feel the same way.

I do. I do.

I got, felt nervous, but I felt it too.

Please stay.

Plus, you owe me a beer,

so you can't get out of it that easy.

Okay. Here's that for you.

-And here's your receipt. -Thanks.

Can you make it two, actually?

-To go. -Yep.

Hey, it's Rea. Sorry I couldn't answer it.

Leave a message.

Happy birthday.

Let me know if you still want

to go out later, like we talked about a while back.

Okay. Bye.

-When are you smoking that? -Later.

-Why? -Because I like it.

-That's it? -I mean,

-it helps with stuff. -Like what?

I don't know. Like stress and thoughts.

What are you stressed about?

I don't know. I don't ever let it get that far.

It's what the weed's for.

You should let it out though.

I do. With this.

I mean by talking with me.

Is that what you want?

Okay, let's see here.

What am I stressed about?

For one, this is my ex's favorite movie,

so that was pretty stressful.

-Which one? -Ava.

How long were you two together?

Like on and off for two years.

It was toxic though.

We would just jump from one good moment to the next

and ignore each other when it got bad.

-When? -Right before I met you.

Do you two still talk?

She'll check in every once in a while.

Do you miss her?

I mean, the good parts, obviously.

But like I said,

it was toxic.

The fighting, the ghosting,

it was too much.

And I don't think I could be with her again.

When was the last time you saw her?

Before I met you.

Okay.

Do you still need that?

Not if we can change this movie.

Easy breezy. I can do that.

Good choice.

-Thank you. -Thank you.

Not another ex's favorite?

-We're good. -Not this one.

Sure.

Okay. I think she's the greatest one.

She's going on a long trip to Angel's house.

Rea says that she can't come anymore

because Cooper roped her

into some last minute theater thing.

What? What's with the face?

You'd think a couple weeks heads up

would be enough for her.

Cooper's like her best friend.

He, he always kind of comes first.

You should come first. That's how a relationship works.

It's fine. It really doesn't bother me.

You've been excited.

I've been excited to meet her and...

She's just got a lot going on.

She's, she's in high demand.

Has she ever been in a relationship this long?

What? Almost a year, you guys have been together?

Yeah.

It was like complicated and messed with her.

So you should cut her some slack.

I don't think she's ready for this, Morgan.

She is. She told me.

You've been giving her so many chances,

and now at this point,

it's like she's taking advantage of you.

She is not. You don't even know her, she's not.

Exactly.

I'm just trying to look out for you. I trust you.

-I... -Can we just have fun?

Just us? I'm sorry.

It'll be fine and you can meet her next time, I promise.

-My drink's empty. -You need a new one.

-Yes. -Even stronger?

Yes. Thank you.

Babe, I told you a million times to keep this door locked.

-Morgan? -Gotcha.

Goofy. What are you up to?

-Oh, nothing. -That seems like a lie.

Come here.

What is this? Is this a joke?

What?

Trying to U-Haul it?

We've been together for like a year.

I don't really think that's-

Less than a year.

You don't think that's quick?

-I thought we were ready. -You though we were ready.

Wait, you trying to keep better tabs on me?

What? No, I just want to be with you.

I don't mind you going out

with your friends and with Cooper.

I just, I want you to come home to me.

That sounds like you don't trust me.

Is there a reason I shouldn't?

No. I just don't get where this is coming from.

I need to know if you're ready for this.

Ready for what? To fuck up everything we have going?

What?

Moving in is the beginning of the end.

That's not true.

Yes, it is. That's always what happens.

What if we're better when we move in together?

We can like, we can grow together.

So you're ready for this to end?

No.

Moving in with someone is hard,

but moving their shit out is even harder.

-I'm not going anywhere. -How do you know that?

Because I know.

I believe in us.

And I love you and I want to be with you.

But then one day you won't, and you will leave.

You told me this was real.

I just need a minute, Morgan.

Hey, it's Rea, sorry I couldn't answer.

Leave a message.

Hi. Can I see you?

We don't have to, we don't have to talk or anything.

I just, I just really want to see you.

Okay. Call me back.

Bye.

Hey, it's Rea. Sorry I couldn't answer it.

Leave a message.

Hi. I thought maybe I should give it a week or two.

Maybe a couple months like last time,

but, but I can't do this again.

I just need you to tell me you don't want me

so that I can stop sitting up at night waiting for your call

or waiting for you to show up at my door.

I just, I need to know if you were ever feeling

what I was feeling this whole time.

I feel like, then what was it?

Because I can't stop thinking about us

and what we were supposed to be.

Just, I need you to just

tell me you never want to see me again

so I can move on.

Anyway I hope you're okay and I'm here always,

til you tell me otherwise.

Bye.

When will you be back?

I don't know.

You're going to be okay, Rea.

I just need to figure it all out.

Don't leave.

You'll understand one day.

People come and go. That's just the way it is.

You need to learn how to stand on your own two feet

because no one's going to be there to hold your hand.

I need to figure that out for myself

and you need to learn to handle things on your own.

It's time for us to be independent.

Hey. Watching you grow up reminding me that I didn't get to.

I don't know how to do any of this, but I will one day,

I'll come back and everything will be perfect, I promise.

I don't want you to leave again.

This is the last time. All right?

♪ I'm fading into the night ♪

♪ Thoughts of you consume my mind ♪

♪ I can't tell if you'll stay this time ♪

♪ Maybe I'll run away this time ♪

♪ I'll be running when I know ♪

♪ Who else is running ♪

♪ I'll try with my cigarette burning ♪

♪ Who knows where I'm headed ♪

♪ Oh yeah ♪

♪ So save me ♪

Hey, hope everything's okay.

But I'm gonna head to bed.

Let me know if something came up or if you just forgot.

Goodnight.

-You skipped it? -I missed it.

You got that high. Rea, that's fucked.

Don't laugh. You should call her.

And say what? Hey, sorry I missed our date.

I got so high. I saw my demons.

Yeah, exactly. Don't do that.

Do what?

The thing where you decide that this is just how shit goes

and you should just move on.

That's exactly what I'm doing.

You said she was perfect.

I was being dramatic. She's just a girl.

A girl you were head over heels for.

Do you know how many times you texted me last week?

Oh my gosh, I have butterflies. What's happening to me?

Oh, she's so cute. Oh my God.

-Mm-mm. Mm-mm. -For fucks sake,

don't pull that stunt where you tried

to strategically bump into her at a party

and pretend like it was fake.

Cooper, that's a really good idea.

Did you come up with that?

Rea? Don't.

You're cute when you're frustrated.

That's not my thing.

I know. Your thing is running away.

-What? -You're scared.

You think everyone's gonna leave like your mommy did.

How do you know about that? I never told you.

You didn't have to tell me anything.

You've got mommy issues written all over you.

It's okay. I like it.

Is my wallet by chance there?

I have a better idea. Meet me at Classics?

Right.

Can I tell you something?

Last night at the party, I felt like,

like I was gonna throw up or puke if I didn't kiss you.

-Hot. -These last few months,

I've been imagining what it would be like

to wake up next to you.

And then this morning when you were there,

kind of felt like I was dreaming again.

-Is that crazy? -No.

That after just like meeting you, I was imagining us.

Mm-mm. No. Kind of hard not to.

Hey, it's Rea. Sorry I couldn't answer it.

-Leave a message. -Happy birthday.

Let me know if you still want to go out later,

like we talked about a while back.

Okay. Bye.

Where's Morgan? Did you invite her?

Damn it Rea, don't fuck this up before it even starts.

It's too much, Coop.

She's got it all figured out. I'd just pull her backwards.

-That's not true. -Yes.

She'll see right through me

and before I know it,

she's going to realize that I'm not good enough.

So honestly, I should just cut it off. Probably now.

If you do that,

it will just end up the same way it did with her.

Well, at least with her, it was easier.

She and I never let it get that deep,

but with Morgan...

You have to work for the things that are good for you.

She's just a girl. Yeah.

Don't. Hold on.

Wait. But the, okay.

♪ House is ready ♪

♪ Come on, babe ♪

♪ Come on, babe ♪♪ House is ready ♪

♪ It takes so long to get back home ♪

♪ 'Cause I know we gonna fight ♪

♪ That's the way that I know that the love is gone ♪

♪ Oh, hey ♪

♪ Oh, oh, oh ♪

♪ Oh, hey ♪

♪ Oh, oh ♪

♪ Oh, hey, oh, oh ♪

♪ Oh hey, oh, oh ♪

♪ They said I'm lucky ♪

♪ But they don't live inside my head ♪

♪ It's where the demons at ♪

♪ They say I'm lucky ♪

♪ But they don't live inside my head ♪

♪ It's where the demons at ♪

-Do you want to talk? -Mm-mm.

Can I?

What's wrong with you?

We don't talk about that stuff.

I saw the letter from your mom on the counter.

Perfect. You are all caught up.

I didn't read it.

But when you're ready,

I would really like to know what it said.

Do not hold your breath.

I believe in us.

And I love you and I want to be with you.

But one day you won't. You will leave.

I'm not going anywhere.

How do you know that?

Because I know!

This is the last time.

Come back and everything will be perfect. I promise.

I don't you to leave again.

Fuck.

Hey. What's wrong?

Come on. What's wrong?

Come on.

What?

Come here.

It's okay. It's okay.

I'm here.

You promise?

Yeah. Yeah, I promise.

-Let's do this. -Do what?

Move in together.

-Can you say something? -Yes, yes, yes, of course.

Of course you can.

Did you get that box off my desk?

Where?

-Here. -Where?

-Here. -Okay.

My dad will be here soon with the desk.

He was probably in that corner

and that's probably him calling me right now

where is my, oh in my pocket.

Hello?

Hey, you're here?

Wait, she's where?

I don't even know what you're expecting me to say right now.

What are you doing?

Are you reading my journal?

-What did you do? -What are you talking about?

You slept with Ava on your birthday.

Oh my God. I don't have time for this.

You don't have time for this?

What could be more important than this?

A lot.

A lot of shit is more important than this right now.

We weren't even together.

Like what did you expect me to say?

The truth, you literally told me to my face

that you hadn't seen her since before we were together.

Oh my God.

What? You have nothing to say to fucking me.

Spit it out, Rea. What?

You think I'm like your mom and I'm going to leave?

This isn't even about her.

So what's your excuse now?

-Morgan. -Tell me.

I can't because you're going fucking psycho right now.

No, don't push me away. Quit hiding everything.

-You want to know? -Yes.

My mom is in town for the first time in 20 years

and wants to see me.

The woman who left me with all this shit.

And you, you're going through my personal items.

Like this is already out of my fucking comfort zone

for being here.

Don't do that.

-Hey, relax. -Don't do that.

-Don't leave. -I can't be here right now.

This is a lot.

Hi. Can I see you?

We don't have to, we don't have to talk or anything.

I just, I just really want to see you.

Rea, it's been weeks. Please just answer.

I don't want this to end.

Hi. I thought maybe I should give it a week or two.

Maybe a couple months like last time,

but I can't do this again.

I just need you to tell me you don't want me

so that I can stop sitting up at night waiting for your call

or waiting for you to show up at my door.

I just, I need to know if you were ever feeling

what I was feeling this whole time.

I feel like, then what was it?

Because I can't stop thinking about us

and what we were supposed to be.

Just, I need you to just tell me

you never want to see me again so I can move on.

Anyway I hope you're okay, um,

and I'm here, always.

Till you tell me otherwise. Bye.

Mom. Yeah, dad told me you were in town.

My God. You're beautiful.

So grown up.

You're staying at dad's?

Yeah. Just for a bit.

I'm looking for my own place in town.

Sorry, do you want some tea or?

How are you?

Don't do that.

Don't act like we can just pretend

that we're going to catch up

on what you've missed the past 20 years.

I'm sorry.

Doesn't fix anything.

Nothing will then.

I know I can't get back what I missed,

even though I though I could back then.

Every update your dad gave me, it was always good.

You're happy, independent.

I thought maybe you were better off without me

because I wasn't there.

That sounds a hell of a lot easier

than taking responsibility.

You're right. I did exactly that until now.

And now you expect me to forgive and forget?

No. Just maybe try to understand.

Your dad told me about Morgan.

I'm not going to talk about-

And how you two almost moved in together.

I just said I don't want to talk about that with you.

I don't want you to make the same mistake that I did.

You don't know me.

She's better off without me.

Just like you were better off without me?

Look, if I could go back and change one thing,

I wouldn't change the fact that I left you.

I needed that and I'd do it again,

but if I could change anything

I'd come back sooner

to grow with you instead of without you.

I used to think that I needed to push people away

so that I didn't hurt them.

I was afraid I was going to ruin your chances

of being better than I was.

I just wanted you to be there.

And that's exactly why you can't leave her.

She deserves so much.

So do you.

What are you doing?

I just want to talk.

I came to tell you everything.

Like last time?

I know I hurt you.

I've just had a lot going on.

I want to forget you, Rea.

You only show up when you have nowhere else to go.

I don't know how to do this.

What, care for someone besides yourself?

I've waited for you for months.

But I'm here now telling you.

I know, but this is what you do though.

You're going to just,

you're going to say everything I want to hear.

And then I'm going to look at you.

And I'm going to want to run back.

Because I'm a piece of shit.

I'm fucked up, and I fuck everything up,

just like I told you when I met you.

Yeah. Yeah, you did.

I guess I should have listened to you.

You know, all this time I've been,

I've been imagining this

and trying to figure out the magical thing

that you could say that would make everything just better.

But there's nothing you could say.

We're just not meant to be.

You believe that? I love you.

You don't get to say that to me!

Don't you dare say unto me.

You love me?

Please go. I never want to see you again.

Just go. Please go.

Fuck. Fuck.

-Hey, sorry I'm late. -Oh no, you're fine.

Oh, I checked them out like 15 times.

And I swear the restaurant is on this corner.

-Here, let me take a look. -Yeah, good luck.

Oh, don't look.

Morgan, you okay?

♪ Send it to you ♪

-You okay? -Yeah.

You still thinking about who we saw today?

I was not expecting that.

Quite the way to start a first date, I think.

She has impeccable timing.

I'm sorry.

Oh, don't be. I'm giving you a hard time.

Do you remember what I told you when we first met?

-About Rea? -Yeah.

So you remember how I said

the universe is pretty good at putting people in your life

for a reason.

Maybe two still have something to work out.

And I'm not going to stop you.

I think it was just one of those crazy coincidences.

Besides if, if I didn't want to. I'm blocked anyway, so.

And I have better things to do, like making today up to you.

-Right? -I agree.

Yes.

I guess we'll have to go out again.

I guess so.

-What was that? -Nothing.

-At least had to try. -Oh my God.

She didn't answer just like I thought.

Good. Probably for the best.

Probably doesn't have my number saved.

That or maybe the girlfriend killed her.

Are you almost done?

Yes. But I want two of those waiting for me.

And I expect your ass to be here.

I have nothing better to do.

Wow. You make me feel so special.

You should.

I just can't get rid of you

ever since you stopped getting blazing high.

Speaking of four months?

-Four months? -Keep it that way.

Can you hurry up a little?

My time. I just love working so much.

-Hello? -Hey. You called?

Yeah. How are you?

-Hi. -Hi.

-How are you? -Good. You?

Good. Sorry.

Thank you for agreeing to meet with me.

I'm sure you were busy,

but when I saw you.

I had to tell you I'm sorry.

I probably should have started with that last time.

It's okay.

No, but really I'm really sorry

for always disappearing.

You did not deserve that.

I - - Don't even have

to say anything.

I, I'm sorry too.

Last time we talked,

I didn't really let you say much.

I was just really hurt and really overwhelmed when...

Me too.

I hope I'm not crossing any boundaries being here.

No. Thank you for apologizing.

Of course.

I just didn't know what Cassidy would think of this.

Not that I should assume.

It just, it looks like you two have gotten closer.

No, we're, we're not dating.

Really? Okay, that's a surprise.

It, she's always...

That's bold of you.

She's always had her sights on you.

She's always been there.

I'm sure she's not fond of this thing.

I haven't told her.

There's nothing to worry about.

Just some catching up and getting closure.

I should probably go.

Rea. I still owe you the two cigarettes.

That's right. I guess we'll have to see each other again.

-Morgan. -Oh my God, Cooper. Hey.

-Hi. How are you? -Really good. You?

Good yeah, you waiting on someone?

Oh no, it's just for my coworker.

-Gotcha. What'd you get? -Chai latte.

Sounds like someone else's favorite.

-Coincidence. -Speaking of,

I heard you guys bumped into each other last week.

-Yeah, briefly. -Can I be honest with you?

Rea's doing a lot better since you guys split.

I don't mean that in a bad way,

just that I think what you guys went through

was really good for her.

-Yeah, yeah. I agree. -Knew you would.

What are you doing here?

I, I was in the neighborhood

and I thought you might want a coffee.

How do you know I worked here?

I just got my license a couple months ago.

Oh I saw the... Hey, Rea,

can you come back here and sign these for me?

-Oh, sorry. -That's okay.

Yeah, I'll be right back there.

Oh, yeah. Take your time.

-Hey, Morgan. -Hi, Ava.

She helped me get into the office. Got my license.

Yeah, I bet she did.

No, I'm sorry. Whatever works.

I mean, we've talked about everything.

We're on the same page. It's-

It doesn't matter.

I'm not your girlfriend.

I remember.

I'm really proud of you.

Anyway I saw the post on social media when you got hired.

Didn't know you still follow me.

I don't. Okay.

Well, thank you. For the coffee.

-Yeah. Yeah. -We still on for tonight?

That is the plan.

What? You don't want it?

Don't tell me you quit. You're lying.

-When? -Since that night.

Cigarettes, weed, you name it.

It was kind of my way of escaping.

I knew from that night I was done running.

That makes a lot of sense.

I think about that night a lot.

And I'm just like, you know, I wonder.

Don't do that.

We can't think of it that way.

Maybe it was meant to be.

Yeah. You're right.

Morgan.

You weren't responding to my text,

so I just wanted to come check on you.

-Oh. -Mom, this is Morgan.

-Now, I understand. Hi. -Hi.

Good to finally meet you. I've heard a lot.

I didn't mean to interrupt.

No, thank you, actually.

If we would have kept blabbering,

I would have missed the bus.

Which are you sure you don't want me to take you to work?

No, you have better things to take care of.

I hope to see you again soon, Morgan.

-It was nice to meet you. -Nice to meet you too.

-I am so sorry. -For what?

For showing up here out of nowhere.

I had no idea she was going to be here.

That's okay. Can I get you something to drink?

What is wrong?

I'm totally fucking this up for you.

You have this great relationship with your mom

and you stopped smoking.

You're like 10 times better since you left me.

I didn't leave you.

Look, I knew I had to do those things

because if I ever wanted to be good enough

for someone like you, I had to change.

So I mean, if anything, I should be thanking you.

-I should go. -You don't have to.

No, I'm, I'm sorry for just showing up.

I'll see you.

You ready?

Will you grab my bag?

-You coming? -Yeah.

Have you talked to Rea recently?

No.

-Why? -Just wondering.

Do you want to talk to her?

It's fine if you do.

I just sort of feel like we used to...

As in, I'm here for you while your focus is on her.

She's been checking in.

Yeah, I know.

Just wanted you to know that

you're allowed to go figure out what she is to you.

I just don't want to be back up.

Hey can you tell Cass I'm here?

She didn't come in today,

she said she wasn't feeling well.

Do you still want to order something?

Yeah, can I get a chai latte?

Yeah, absolutely.

What's wrong?

What if we were going to work it out?

What if you were gonna explain everything to me,

and, and I would have believed you

and then you would have stayed

and everything would have been fine?

Kind of just said like, I can't help

but think that I really messed everything up for us.

And I just feel like us seeing each other that was like,

I don't know, it was like fate or something.

So what if...

Good morning.

-How are you feeling? -I can't explain it.

-Me either. -Text me when you get home.

Awesome.

I'll see you later.

Okay.

It's coop, hey.

-Who'd you think it was? -You know what?

-I don't know. -Really?

Because Ava asked if Morgan and I

were taking turns delivering you gifts.

-No, everything's fine. -Did you smoke?

I just got a little overwhelmed

and a little nervous.

I don't know what came over me.

Morgan, that's what. It will always be her.

Give me the coffee. Thanks for the coffee.

Really?

We're, everything is fine.

I, we, I made her breakfast.

When have you ever seen me do that?

Right.

The relationship you two have is built on bad habits.

And when you try to move past these habits,

you just end up falling back on old ones.

I guarantee you she's doing the same thing right now.

-Can we talk? -Is that what you do, right?

Told you to figure out and let me know.

Not disappear and let me know when you're done.

Please don't leave.

I've been here from the start, Morgan.

-I've waited. -I know you have.

Yet you just keep me on a string

waiting to see if you can play with both of us?

I didn't know what I wanted. I thought-

You don't think. That's your problem.

You just feel.

You think with your heart and not your head.

And then you just get so blinded by the idea of her

that you don't realize how toxic you get.

I'm sorry.

I really hoped that you wouldn't become her,

but I have to do what you couldn't.

What are you doing here?

What are you doing here?

I smoked today when you left.

Cassidy left.

I though that you two weren't...

We weren't. But...

What now?

I don't know.

Right now I, I don't feel anything.

Did we just switch roles?

-What? -Seriously,

I'm feeling so much right now and you're numb.

I guess so.

I still remember the first time

I started feeling everything.

When I met you,

I felt an energy I had never felt before.

Fear, probably.

I though for a second I couldn't breathe.

Smoking didn't even help.

Only one thing ever truly did.

Being with you. Talking to you.

Close to you.

But then I'd see you

and that fucking fear that you would leave

and I would be left feeling nothing again.

When I said I loved you,

that was the first time I ever felt it.

You know? I was scared too.

The first time I met you,

I couldn't stop my hands from shaking.

You were so, so cool.

So confident.

I couldn't believe you were looking at me

the way I was looking at you.

I though about us all the time.

All day, all night,

I would just go over in my head

everything that I did wrong.

Everything I did to push you away

or to make you keep running.

I though about it all.

The good parts, hopefully.

I thought about all of it.

I wouldn't want to forget any part of it.

What do you think of now?

What do you think of us?

I don't know.

Me either.

Do you still have those cigarettes?

Yes.

-I got it. -Okay.

Is this what you imagined?

In a way. Yeah.

I love you.

I love you too.

♪ Say what you mean, or why don't you go home ♪

♪ It's getting old though, this talking backwards ♪

♪ And it's like I'm always on your own side ♪

♪ Always on your bad side ♪

♪ Got a twist to my back ♪

♪ Trying to get away from all the loving you ♪

I didn't know if you'd be here tonight,

but I figured you might be.

What have you been up to?

It's been a minute since we... What are you doing?

I know I should have explained why I didn't.

I still remember the first time

I started feeling everything when I met you.

Before I know it, she's going to realize

that I'm not good enough.

So honestly, I should just,

I had to do those things

because if I ever wanted to be good enough

for someone like you, I had to change.

-I need you. -People come and go.

That's just the way it is.

I'm here now telling you.

I never want to see you again just go, please go.

♪ Whenever I try to leave you ♪

♪ I feel you with a hand on your thighs ♪

I owe you two cigarettes. ♪ Watching the sunrise ♪

I thought I was seeing each other

at that party meant something.

-I'm not going anywhere. -How do you know that?

Because I know!

I need to know if you were ever feeling

what I was feeling this whole time.

♪ Someone else to get high with ♪

♪ When I'm leaving, you finally start to mean it ♪

♪ Say what you mean, or won't you go home ♪

What do you think of now?

What do you think of us?

♪ Talking backwards ♪

♪ And inside, I'm always on your own side ♪

♪ Always on your bad side ♪

♪ Gotta twist in my back ♪

♪ Tryna get a refund ♪

♪ For all that loving you has ♪

♪ Oh, eh, oh, oh ♪

♪ It takes so long to get back home ♪

♪ 'Cause I know we gonna fight ♪

♪ That's the way that I know that the love is gone ♪

♪ It takes so long to get back home ♪

♪ 'Cause I know we gonna fight ♪

♪ That's the way that I know that the love is gone ♪

♪ They said I'm lucky ♪

♪ But they don't live inside my head ♪

♪ It's where the demons at ♪

♪ They say I'm lucky ♪

♪ But they don't live inside my head ♪

♪ It's where the demons at ♪

♪ They said I'm lucky ♪

♪ But they don't live inside my head ♪

♪ It's where the demons at ♪

♪ They say I'm lucky ♪

♪ But they don't live inside my head ♪

♪ It's where the demons at ♪

♪ Oh, eh, oh, oh ♪

♪ It's where the demons at ♪

♪ Oh, eh, oh, oh ♪

♪ It's where the demons at ♪

♪ It takes so long to get back home ♪

♪ 'Cause I know we gonna fight ♪

♪ That's the way that I know that the love is gone ♪

♪ It takes so long to get back home ♪

♪ 'Cause I know we gonna fight ♪

♪ That's the way that I know that the love is gone ♪