Original subtitles

Studio kajino presents

once upon a time

returning to my hometown

the 1st day 30 days remain

do you sell cigarettes?

We don't carry them

i'm sorry

out of cigarettes?

Yeah

thanks

ritual

it's a ritual

oh, before? By the tracks?

Yes, i was performing a ritual

oh... sorry i intruded then

what's it for?

It's a secret!

Do you know what tomorrow is?

No

tomorrow is

my

birthday

ritual

the 2nd day 29 days remain

i'm still swirling

it's a dark, lonely place

i thought you could maybe rescue me

somehow, i still feel that way

unsure what to do

i m moved by the scent of rain

thanks for those smokes

and...

happy birthday

no!

Tomorrow s my birthday

the 3rd day 28 days remain

the simple act of pursuing her

was sufficient

having reached an impasse in my work and in myself,

i sought to acquaint myself

with everyday ennui, sired by apathy and restlessness

ever-fleeing the authenticity of my own experience,

i was entirely spent by a life,

composed of accumulated fictions

um...

are you always alone?

Not today

yesterday?

Not really

tomorrow?

I'd rather not be

i'd rather not be alone either

say,

do you know today's date?

Monday

yesterday?

Sunday

tomorrow?

Tuesday

did you perform your ritual today?

Yes it will make my wish come true

your wish?

When my wish comes true, i can disappear completely

disappear, leaving nothing in the world behind

that's why i have to keep performing the ritual

until then, the red umbrella protects me

say,

what's tomorrow?

Can't you figure it out?

Tomorrow is my birthday

and so...

i d rather not be alone

the 4th day 27 days remain

um...

what?

Why did you follow me, that first day?

Why are you following me now?

Well... because you intrigue me

same here, then

this your place?

Yup

here?

My unsound heart

and the consuming loneliness

of longing for someone

perhaps anyone will do

as long as that someone

will love me

constantly, ceaselessly,

it will suffice

' is this true love?"

' I feel at ease with you'

' we're compatible '

i ponder such ideas everyday

sick

dad and mom are sick

everybody's sick

and i'm...

sickest of all

what's wrong?

Maybe i shouldn't have come

it s not that

no one's stood there before...

i mean, it's unusual

so i felt strange

strange? Do i look weird?

No, not at all you look just right

like my room?

Probably

i like it

because only my favorite things are here

including me?

Yup you're one of the gang

i'm ok here

i like coming back here

i m home, mother

listen, your sister...

you listening?

She never listened to her mother

it s too late for regrets now!

Listen to me, or you'll end up like your sister!

Both of you share that man s blood

guess it's hopeless

i've had it! Where are you!

Not with that man again

i won t stand for it!

Will you ever...

pick up the phone and call me!

All right, all right, i get it

i worked myself to the bone to raise you

and now you abandon me

at least your sister had a heart

how infuriating!

Listen.

You keep up this selfish behavior

and you will pay for it

i swear you will

you, you, you...

how dare you talk to me that way

your father tortured me, doing whatever he wanted

and now my own daughter hates me so much!

What's the point of living...

i'll get out of the hospital tomorrow,

and it's your birthday, too

please won't you come home

sure

know what tomorrow is?

Probably, your birthday, right?

That's right so let's play together again

i don t want to be alone on my birthday

the 5th day 26 days remain

what are you doing?

Rainy days are days for my father and sister

they're both dead

and tomorrow's my birthday...

no doubt for her, the truth

is only an enemy that wounds her

the days of her life pass in loneliness, a darkness without exit

i longed to ease her sadness and anxiety, if only a little

even if only to atone for my own past

can i be with you?

Yeah

know what tomorrow is?

Tomorrow's your birthday

the 6th day 25 days remain

the time is

5: 59am

and

30 seconds

the time is

5: 59am

and

40 seconds

the time is

5: 59am

and

50 seconds

the time is exactly

6am

the time is

6am

and 10 seconds

good morning!

I'm going to

give you a tour of my house

first,

this is.

The secret 4th floor

and this...

this is lucy

the secret...

3rd floor

and this is...

the secret

2nd floor

and this is...

the secret

1st floor

there's a basement

no!

That s absolutely secret! You can't go in there!

And this is...

the secret

5th floor

and this is

the secret

what?

6th floor

and this is

the secret

7th floor!

Why are they all secret?

Because...

they're our secret

and finally...

this is

the secret

roof!

These... stairs... i'm beat

getting old...

you like high places?

Not really

i do

sometimes, i come here to check

check what?

That i'm still ok

the sky is pretty

the stars are pretty

the moon is pretty

the light is pretty

if i don't exist,

everything's pretty

maybe it's better if i didn't exist

how about my blood?

Maybe it's pretty

maybe i will look

see, i'm still ok

i didn't let go

still ok to be alive

a blank-faced mosquito falls

a huge mosquito

much, much bigger than i

it slumps and is still

a much larger creature caught it

and took flight, the mosquito in its grasp

it flew up and passed right over me

but it released its grasp and the mosquito fell

still blank

it drifted down, down, down

what's that?

The inside of my head

such an interesting head

it's your turn

to talk

about what?

Something

something, huh

anything i want to hear you talk

you know fireman?

No

well, when i was a kid,

he was like ultraman

his enemies attack him and in the end, he dies

he ignites

so he dies

fireman ends up burning

he yells " fire! ' but actually he's afraid of fire...

maybe he's fireman 'cause he burns

but that wasn't what you wanted

i don't really get it, but it's interesting

that's what she says, but i wonder...

actually, all she wanted was to hear someone's voice

actually, all she wanted was to stop feeling lonely

know what tomorrow is?

Your birthday, right?

Echoes from the

creaking arcade roof opening and an all too ordinary sky

disturbed my ease

can i see you tomorrow?

If i m still alive

the 7th day 24 days remain

you like cars?

Not so well as boats and trains,

but well enough

i like 'em

cars

why?

Because my big sister did

where were you?

I was back at the hotel getting my things

that stuff

no, i mean where were you 'til now

i took my usual route here,

the bookstore, department store,

and the toy store today

no

i mean where were you before you came here!

Oh... tokyo

why d you come?

What? I wanted to think things over

i was kind of tired

tough time?

Well, there was a lot going on

but really, it was all about nothing

you are just like my mother

mother always said life is full of tough times

must be a wrong number

no cell phone calls today?

Yeah, the deal's already done

what are you doing?

What? Nothing...

my usual work exhausts me

so i'm keeping my distance

actually, i wanted to make live action films, too

live action films. Films

films?

Films...

why don't you? Why not? You should

from now on, you're "director"

i'll call you director

director...

cut it out

cheers

i want blue, the blue one

this? This blue?

Ready, go

hey, you cheated

it stopped

say, say

say,

know what tomorrow is?

Tomorrow? Tomorrow's your birthday

you got that right,

director

the 8th day 23 days remain

i m still ok today

i'm finished

yes, yes, i start shooting today

but there's no telling...

yes, yeah

an outline by...

reel 1

rolling

i'm rolling

i'm shooting you

say something

she seems to have escaped

does my outfit look ok?

Is it right for the film?

Sure, i think it looks fine

i don't know much about clothes

i'm not up on clothes

it's cute

are you shooting...

it's moving

happy?

Happy on the train?

Happy on the train with you

i've never been here

the unknown

yeah, it's exciting

the streetcar is a perfect means of escape from the tedium of my days

the scenery flows by cinematically the sound effects are punctual

my fantasy about her expands

i won't be bored for some time

our idle routine, the days i spend with her, like a lukewarm bath,

her faint smile, all seem to agree with me

each day, a countdown towards death

i dare not risk negligence

all the more reason to film her. I think

lmages, especially animation,

simply embody our personal and collective fantasies,

manipulating selected information, and fictional constructs

even live-action film, recording actuality, does not correspond to reality

conversely, reality, co-opted by fiction, loses its value

"the inversion of reality and fiction"

none of this matters to me anymore

my consciousness, my reality,

my subject, all converge in her

certainly, she longs to escape into fantasy

certainly, i long to escape from fantasy

i wanted to keep a visual record of these contradictory phenomena

but, my behavior is really no more than an excuse

for my inability to communicate except through images

this is the way to the mystery basement

no trespassing because the camera is prohibited,

i cannot show you anymore your pardon

outside circumstances

force me to omit the 1st through the 7th floors

next, the roof

so, this is the roof

wow, it's high...

this is where she always

checks herself

you know what tomorrow is?

Yeah. Your birthday, right?

Each day, she postpones the morrow, by transforming today to yesterday

a typical day in her life

the 9th day 22 days remain

she never goes to sleep before dawn

but awakening before 6am, she dials and listens to the time

as far as i can tell, she hardly sleeps at all

you wiii die

hey, go to sleep!

Aren't you sleepy? Don't you want to sleep?

I'm scared to sleep

when i close my eyes

and sleep, something really heavy seems to crush my head

i push it away and away and away, but it keeps bearing down

i can't avert my eyes

and so i don't sleep

i faint

but i like tomorrow coming

because tomorrow...

you know what tomorrow is?

Your birthday, right?

Terrified to face the truth, she rejects even sleep

not that there is actual truth in the ambiguity of human memory

her best and only means of survival depends on her

destruction and renewal of memory

certainly many more days bear forgetting than joyful commemoration

what is it that i want from her?

You'd better get some sleep you're shooting again tomorrow...

the 10th day 21 days remain

again, today, i record her image

because i find in the act of capturing her being

according to my own will, for my own purpose, relief from my own life

lmages transform my real past into fiction

each of us edits and alters our memories

by giving form and existence to this process through images,

i reinvent my past, whitewashing it,

into an idealized history

re-creating the present as something invulnerable.

As a world of fiction and fantasy

we are the same only our methods differ

look what i found

what's that, throw it away

do you read this stuff too?

No i don't

i don t

liar

i am not

why not?

Well, i read the softer stuff

you do read it disgusting

like playboy, or whatever

' females drowning in their lust, coming wherever they please... '

don't read it

' normal sex doesn t do it"

stop it

"the nymphomaniacs who lust for kinky settings '

cut it out it's embarrassing

throw it away

it's dirty

you like this stuff too

what can i say

it says, vavoom

no!

You like it

no, they're too big

you do like it

do you like sex?

Well, all men like sex

and you. Director?

Well, the director neither likes nor dislikes...

i don't dislike it...

so you do like it

i don't like it

'cause if you do,

you're no more than male and female

just like everybody else

so i hate it!

I really hate it!

A kumoha 42 street car

the type: 20 meters with driver's seat

two doors and benches on either side

semi-cross seats perpendicular to the floor

street car color, grape #2

capacity 104, 68 sitting, 36 standing

weight: 45 tons built in 1933

these two cars are the only ones of this type still operating in japan

wait a minute

hello

yeah, in ube

yeah, i'm shooting

i can t tell whether it's any good or not

i'll email you an outline when i m done

tell me what you think

yeah, sounds good sure

it s from a woman again dirty director!

No, it s not like that

lucky you

at least once a day you get to talk to someone

it's not like that

i don't care who it is at least someone calls you

want it?

Give it back

here

that night, her smile disappeared

with the falling rain

hey, you ok?

I'm coming in

it'll rain tomorrow

it'll rain tomorrow

what are you doing!

Tomorrow's my birthday!

The 11th day 20 days remain

today is

my father and sister's day

i like rainy days

because when it rains,

all the merry people in the world finally walk with their eyes downcast

that's why i like rain!

The rain she loves

what she keeps bottled up on sunny days,

flows as from a broken dam when it rains

her feelings of loneliness sorrow

these emotions elevate her,

preventing her from engaging in a certain behavior

and...

engendering her complex reactions to the phenomenon called rain

what is the sadness that she harbors?

No doubt the deaths in her family

in this moment i acknowledge

yet again, that in her heart, she yearns

to cease existing

the 12th day 19 days remain

a brand new

morning s here

a morning of hope

open your heart with joy

look up at the sky

open your vibrant heart

to the song on the radio

to the fragrant breeze

now, 1, 2, 3...

i'm ok again today

having something to hold onto when you're scared

is good enough in itself

and this is my

secret

ritual space

it always has to be flooded

it's a really sacred place

but as of today, it's open

the director can come and go videocamera ok

not the other one?

This one's cooler

an umbrella here

umbrella

don't you need it?

As of today... this

what's that?

A videocamera

matching

did you ever have fun?

A hesitant reply isn't a good sign, is it?

Ok then...

a favorite place?

Favorite place... this sort of place isn t bad...

i loved the desert

the desert?

Desert

a simple place with only sand and sky

really beautiful

but it was beautiful because it was unpopulated

no humans there to warp it

a beautiful world without people

that sounds lovely

like railroad tracks?

What? Yeah

why?

Well...

how shall i put it... because they are mechanical

and then rails are fixed, right?

As long as you ride them you needn't choose a path

perhaps that is a relief

and you?

I like them

why?

Because these two rails

will never come together

and yet,

the two are one

that's why!

They left me

abused and then abandoned

i tried everything

but my fear made me tremble

the magical powers of a pair of dice

still sway me

undiminished

if only one day i could say

i'm so glad i met you

i hum to myself

my umbrella! My umbrella!

If i died in your place

how would the skies part

how would the wind flow

beneath the steps of that dark red space

you used that sharp stick

and struck my bursting...

over and over...

it's no good, i can't write

hopeless

maybe time to give it up

what ii i do if i quit

what do you think i'd...

oh, sorry i'll call you back

hey, what are you doing?

The 13th day 18 days remain

today, she didn't venture near the roof,

or to the railroad tracks

she never attempted to leave the room

tomorrow s my birthday

tomorrow s my birthday

be happy

be happy

she never discussed what frightened her,

what she wanted to escape

she no longer saw anyone but herself

i no longer exist inside of her

that day passed without our exchanging a single word,

a single glance, or lifting the camera to shoot

for i hadn t the courage to capture her like this

her unrelenting oppressive reality

began to bear down on me as well

the 14th day 17 days remain

unbeknownst to me, she had found a cat that day

look mother, isn't this cat cute?

It s called jam

look, it's mother, mother

our very. Very kind mother

let's say hello to her, jam

you know what tomorrow is?

Tomorrow...

is my birthday

the 15th~19th day 16~12 days remain

her ritual remained interrupted

since that day, she hadn't climbed to the roof, or visited the tracks,

but played with the cat all day

playing with the cat seemed to allow her to avoid herself

she still slept rarely, and now barely ate,

only played with the cat

nothing else worth recording took place

except that of course we neither spoke nor exchanged a glance

i remained locked outside her

here, jam!

Why don't you come

the 20th day 11 days remain

the cat slipped away that day

the photographer's dream

the writer's soul

the director's obsession

the actor's disease

red cheeks

swelling lips

tightened strings

the human heart is fragile

and is easily captured

an evil song

drifting through the dark

envelopes the girl

you can eat this

announcing,

my true mother s arrived

the girl dances

wildly, wildly

wildly

she never did come home that day

and suddenly

i noticed that i was somewhat relieved the cat had gone

the 21st day 10 days remain

um...

the cat?

Mother

my mother was inside me

i've become my mother

cut it out!

What are you doing!

Cut it out!

Calm down

why! Why weren't you with me then!

Why!

Calm down!

Calm down!

It's your sound

it's beating away

a gentle sound...

i've never heard it before...

don't go anywhere, ok?

Don't disappear like that, ok?

Don't ever leave me alone again, ok?

Promise

because tomorrow's my birthday

sure... ok

you have to be

with me on my birthday

forever and ever, ok?

What are you thinking?

What? Oh, sorry

the 22nd day 9 days remain

For real!

Hey, hey, wake up! Wake up!

It's past 6

no... hold on...

don't climb

up we go

yup

ok?

Your heart says i'm ok

there... there...

which line today?

Amusement park

i can handle this

sorry, there's someone scary

director! Monkeys!

Monkeys and goats

i made a huge discovery this morning

guess what

i m not scared to fall asleep anymore

just because you were with me,

i could close my eyes just like that

and like,

i wasn't scared at all

nothing came crashing down

actually, my body felt really light

i could just sleep

this is amazing!

This is really amazing do you understand what this means?

Amazing discovery!

Really

great angle

the wind s not so bad when i lie like this

you re right

cuddling is nice, isn't it i like it

yeah

in a way, i like this better

than that

don't believe you

no, really

huh, well then,

what do you like about it?

That it s warm

it s warm...

for me,

when i wake up in the middle of the night,

you're beside me

your face is right there

it's so reassuring amazing, isn t it?

I know what you mean

but your mouth s

always wide open and you drool

you... fool!

Ouch!

Can you make it?

All these used tires

look like people's ex-teeth

let me shoot too

ok? I want to shoot, too

no, it won't be my film anymore

who cares, c'mon

let me, let me

this? This ok? Is it working?

Give it back

say something

don't shoot me

why are you upset?

I'm not upset

liar

it's true

do i look upset?

You do

i am not upset

i wonder...

i'm tired lately

tired?

Huh, i see

so what!

Want me to mother you?

Yes, please

ok, good boy, good boy

i'll mother you more

will you mother me then?

I want a piggyback

piggyback?

Yeah, piggyback

for real?

A two-shot

i'm dizzy

dizzy

know what tomorrow is?

Sure

that's right,

tomorrow's my birthday

tomorrow s my birthday

tomorrow s my birthday

tomorrow's my birthday!

The 28th day 3 days remain

it's nearly a month since i met her

i m fed up with the endless "yesterdays,"

and lulled by the ' todays '

anxious, too, that tomorrow may bring change

yet eagerly awaiting the change it may finally bring

what do i want from this reality i share with her?

The constancy of the past or the change of the future

however,

these were no more than idle doubts that shifted with my moods

you snore every night sounds just like a hedgehog

these days will come to an end eventually, i'll part with her

even my life will end one day

all the more reason to treasure these slight, fleeting emotions

but the excess of boredom and the excess of intimacy

were simply exhausting me

and i realized that gradually the times that being with her

depressed me, outstripped the times

that i enjoyed it

someday that'll happen to me

you know, today,

there was this blue car

in front of the shrine.

And this car, you know,

was really cute...

hey, you listening? You listening?

I've gotten really good

oh, it stopped

i'm off to the store

he hates me?

Hates me?

He hates me

hates me, hates me, hates me!

I'll be left alone again

i'll be left alone again

they left me

abused and then abandoned

i tried everything

but my fear made me tremble

the magical powers of a pair of dice...

...still sway me

if only one day i could say

i'm so glad i met you

i hum to myself

listen, your sister...

you listening?

She never listened to her mother

it s too late for regrets now!

Listen to me, or you'll end up like your sister!

Both of you share that man s blood

guess it's hopeless

i've had it! Where are you!

Not with that man again

i won t stand for it!

Shut up, clueless!

You're so patronizing!

All you ever want is for me to be grateful!

Always, always, always

you're just patronizing me!

You don't even have a clue

what it is i really want! Not a clue!

How dare you!

You only remember what you gave me,

but not how you mistreated me

right?

Or what, we re even-steven for all your troubles?

Go ahead and die! I won't care!

Shut up, shut up, shut up!

Why were you nice to me then?

Mother...

why don't you answer

why don't you answer

her heart is overcome by a world

awash in cruelty, harshness, hatred and loneliness

but that is the way of the world

each of us fears its absurdity, and curses it

and yet, the world is immeasurably vast,

and gentleness, mercy and empathy linger in our hearts

i desperately wanted her

to know this reality as well

hello...

hey, there

what's wrong

but her heart is so delicate, so vulnerable

am i really capable of embracing

the endless darkness inside it?

Perhaps i'm incapable of accepting her...

i find myself enveloped in an anxiety i cannot shake

today, again, i can do nothing

the 29th day 2 days remain

6 in the morning, she's back to her usual self

she's returned to her little world

constructed entirely

of her protections, denying the existence

of whatever can harm her

except now she has chosen to rely on me

yeah, it always sounds good

she begins another day of life, brimming with fantasy,

plastered in self-deception, sealed by oblivion

my own faint panic, ' i ve got to do something"

is futilely idle

what are you doing?

Nothing, work

let's go outside then

shoot your movie, that s your job. Right?

Is that work?

It is your job

in japan today, all forms of expression,

beginning with images, serve only

as either

time-killing entertainment for those without occupation,

or as momentary respite for those who are afraid of pain

people desire either real scandals amplified into rawness,

or,

the illusion of beautifully adapted fictions

it is true of me

unable to create appropriate relationships

i escape into a fictional world, constructed on a fantasy of daily life

even this film, when completed,

will become a device to deliver a certain amount of stimulation

devoid of surprises, and a measure of time spent in peace

who wants images beyond that? Who needs them?

By then, i had abandoned her as a visual construct

i didn't want to film anything

as long as she was present, i didn't need to make a film

i had always been entranced with the idea of

being madly loved, and loving madly

and yet this was a stupendous burden, exhausting

could i really bear it?

Long time...

so you were back

hey, wait!

Wait, dammit!

What's that about?

I gotta go

hey, don't bother

i said wait! Hey, hey!

Give it back, i know you've got it

hey! You do, right!

No. I'm not my sister!

You re crazy!

Excuse...

you ok?

Hello

sorry about that...

a reunion? Right now?

A toast to his triumphant return!

You forgot, right?

Oh... sorry, sorry

where were you?

And you?

Where were you!

With some woman?

No, what are you saying?

I was out drinking with my old friends

liar, liar

it's the truth

liar

and where were you

liar!

I'm not lying it's the truth

there's nothing left

nothing but your heartbeat

ever kissed someone?

I have

maybe i haven't ever

have you ever killed someone?

No...

maybe

in my head

me too

you want sex?

If i have sex with you, will you stay forever?

Actually, you like it, right?

Much better than cuddling

you just put up with that, right?

You want to see and touch my breasts, right?

Then, have sex with me

but don't go anywhere

don't abandon me

i'll do whatever you ask

don't hate me

don't start hating me

ouch

no, no!

If i do this, i will become my sister...

i'll become my sister!

I m... still...

if i died in your place

how would the skies part

how would the wind flow

beneath the steps of that dark red space

you used that sharpened stick

over and over

striking my

quivering lips

swollen to bursting

tasting

of sorrow and betrayal

that song

has left me

i peer back again and again

at that dreamlike state

oh, hello sorry, i'll call you back later

hello

how unusual calling at this hour

cat got your tongue? Hello, hello...

what are you...

come to bed

you read this?

Why...

what'd you think?

Why?

It's your movie

because you have to?

Are you with me because you have to be for work?

No, that s not what i meant

just like my father?

Just like my sister?

Just like my mother?

It doesn't matter if you don't like it

am i worthless?

Do you hate me?

Are you going away?

Tell me you won't tell me you won't

that woman on the phone...

you were just tempted when she called you, right?

What woman? She s nobody...

irrelevant...

i can't hear you

i can't hear your heartbeat

there's one answer

two answers

three answers

how many answers?

What makes you like this...

the 30th day the day before

by 6 that morning, she had disappeared

are you a friend of my sister's? You dating her?

Well, yes, something like that

huh... that girl got a boyfriend...

oh, sorry

i never thought she'd do it

her sister appeared instead

finally, she'd rejected even herself

it's none of my business, but be nice to her, ok?

Come to think of it, she always liked this kind of place

i feel sorry for her

parents split up when she was young,

father walked out on both of us

wound up dead with the new woman

did it rain on that day?

No, in a fire

a fire?

Yes, on her birthday

and, your mother?

A streetcar hit her

on her birthday, she'd always cry, ' why did they leave me?"

Our mother was a terrible person

she blamed anything bad on someone else

it was dad's fault,

that woman's fault,

my sister's fault, my fault, the world's fault

it never occurred to her the fault might be hers

my poor sister she was always compared to me

she only heard nagging ' why can't you be like your sister? '

It was like she was no good

she must have suffered

i wonder how she'll ever learn to like herself

there's someone i'd like to see coming?

None of your business, butt out

you...

new guy, huh... must run in the family

listen, cut the crap

you only show up when it suits you

what's with that face? Same as last time?

Seen my cat?

Listen, you...

my cat, my cat, you know, jam

no i don't how the hell would i know?

Liar, liar, liar, liar...

you deny attacking my little sister, too?

What are you talking about? You are her, not her sister

no i'm not

your sister went away a long time ago

you ranted about killing her

i say i'm not

you were babbling some crap about how you killed her

no...

you do this to me all the time

you ask me to let you stay 'cause you got nowhere else,

then you split

now it's about some cat!

You come wandering back ranting about a cat!

Don't mess with me!

Say something!

Goddammit!

After all i did for you!

You don t get it, do you!

What an idiot

don't ever go again

what the...

what the...

i'm...

oh, great

being with you makes me crazy

drives me nuts

you're crazy

demented both of you

wanna be like your sister well you already are

sleep around, get knocked up,

spitting image of that sister you love

huh!

I'm sick of you both

no...

no...

no...

crazy, right?

Hey,

you pulling the same, ' go away ' crap on him?

Sister!

Sister! Sister!

Your sister used to say...

"my own sister scares me '

don t! Don t!

Why does it always have to be so damned dramatic

forget it give me back the ring, the ring

don t touch me!

What!

How dare you ' all i did for you' me!?

You never did a thing yourself!

My sister did everything!

Who do you think you are!

I've had it with you!

Stop...

spit it out! You!

Please stop

give back the ring!

Who you callin stupid! Who doesn't get it!

Calm down

let go!

I've had it!

Go away!

Get out of my life!

Give me a break

sister, why were you with that guy?

That guy...

after you disappeared,

he came after me

why did you have to go away?

But it's too bad

you pretended to like me, but you didn t

so god punished you

be happy be happy

be happy

hello

be happy be happy

be happy

you had a phone call

who?

It was... your mother

no...

she's still alive

i gotta kill her

it's not true, 'cause she s dead

it's not a lie

she's coming to see you tomorrow

tomorrow? What for?

Don't know... maybe she's worried about you

after all that?

After all...

she calls you all the time

why d you answer my phone?

Keep out of my business!

I'm sorry but it's what's best for you

liar!

I'm not lying

liar!

Go away! You go away, too!

Don't run away!

I'm not running!

You run away from everything you don't like, and wind up

in your own little world

not true!

You just deny anything you don't like

not true!

That's why you want everyone to go away!

Shut up! Cut the crap! You depress me!

Why are you still here? I told you to go...

because i...

want to be with you

i...

like...

you...

lies!

It's true i like you

you're lying just like everybody else

i like you

liar!

I like you

i like you

i like you

why are you so nice to me?

I wonder...

let's go home

when i was little, my mother cursed my father

to drive him away

mother's curse came to pass

and my father left

i tried hard

to keep her from driving me away

but she told me

even though she never told my sister

it was my birthday

a red umbrella and red shoes

my mother bought them for me when we went shopping together

the first things that weren't my sisters hand-me-downs

they matched my mother's

but my mother threw them away

she called them old she didn t need them

when i saw that,

i thought, she'll do that to me one day

i'm scared of being alone

but i'm scared of mother. Too

so i cursed everyone to drive them away

the curse will come to pass on my birthday

so my birthday always has to be tomorrow

but mother didn't go away

so i had to kill her in my head. Over and over

but suddenly,

i realized that i had to leave

so i began dressing up

tomorrow

would bring my

new and happy life

but i don't know

what to do about tomorrow

you never know about tomorrow

all we really know.

Is that tomorrow we'll still be together

what do you say?

Want to try to see your mother?

The 31st day the day

you've been ok?

You've been ok?

Leave me alone

i can't leave you alone

but you did

your own mother leave you alone?

For a long time

i left you alone for a long time?

When did i leave you alone?

When did your mother leave you alone?

Ever since i was little,

you always left me alone...

you only cared for my sister

excuse me

did her sister pass away?

Is she still alive?

We are apart, but...

she worries about you, too

she called me the other day

we'd been out of touch

i m sorry, it's not that

i left you alone

i was so busy thinking...

about myself, that maybe i didn t think about your feelings

maybe i was difficult for a long time

maybe i was no good

always complaining, always getting angry

maybe i never did anything for you

maybe i only...

thought about myself

maybe i couldn t really love you

now...

what?

I really want you to come home

i know it's selfish...

i'm lonely

i know that s selfish of me

what about when i was lonely?

What about all those years when i was lonely!

All those...

you couldn't have cared less when i needed your love,

but now you're lonely, you come to get me!

I'm sorry, i'm sorry

what! After all this time, now you're lonely!

Is that what it is?

That s how it is...

that's how...

when i was lonely,

you just ignored me...

now you...

go away! I'm asking you, go away!

Just go... just go...

just go away, now!

I'm sorry

no!

I m sorry, sorry, sorry

i'm sorry i'll be waiting

just once, won't you come home?

Won't you come home just once? Please

i know...

please come home...

i'm sorry

mother!

Wake up from your dream?

Or is this part of your dream?

Are we still dreaming a dream?

But this is our reality... your reality

your birthday

will come, on the day

you were born

smile,

please smile

thank you

the 32nd day the day after

what day

is that?

December 7th

my birthday

the red hair i got from my mom

braided in two

swaying in the wind

why, why, i still don't know

calmly i stood up

scissors in hand

and cut off those braids

it was a sunny day

cast it was a sunny day

it was a sunny day

shunji iwai it was a sunny day

shunji iwai

shunji iwai the future had no meaning

the future had no meaning

ayako fujitani the future had no meaning

ayako fujitani

ayako fujitani i was helpless, had no words

i was helpless, had no words

jun murakami i was helpless, had no words

jun murakami

jun murakami but the scent of the way home

but the scent of the way home

it was tender

shinobu otake it was tender

shinobu otake

shinobu otake i can live

i can live

somebody was laughing

narration voices somebody was laughing

somebody was laughing

suzuki matsuo somebody was laughing

suzuki matsuo

suzuki matsuo it was a very sunny day

it was a very sunny day

megumi hayashibara it was a very sunny day

megumi hayashibara

chief executive producer yasuyoshi tokuma

executive producer toshio suzuki

executive producer toshio suzuki with no more hair

with no more hair

based on the novel, " touhimu ' by ayako fujitani with no more hair

based on the novel, " touhimu ' by ayako fujitani

based on the novel, " touhimu ' by ayako fujitani i cut off my arms

i cut off my arms

cinematographer yuichi nagata i cut off my arms

cinematographer yuichi nagata

cinematographer yuichi nagata kept cutting until i could

cinematographer yuichi nagata

production designer yuji hayashida

production designer yuji hayashida it felt warm

production designer yuji hayashida

lighting designer tatsuya osada dancing, with my bloody arms

dancing, with my bloody arms

sound yasuo hashimoto kazunori shimizu dancing, with my bloody arms

sound yasuo hashimoto kazunori shimizu

sound yasuo hashimoto kazunori shimizu without you

without you

editor souichi ueno without you

editor souichi ueno

editor souichi ueno there was nothing here

there was nothing here

costume designer sachiko ito there was nothing here

costume designer sachiko ito

hair and make-up designer isao tsuge

hair and make-up designer isao tsuge but only the bright sun

but only the bright sun

composer takashi kako but only the bright sun

composer takashi kako

composer takashi kako it was a very sunny day

it was a very sunny day

theme song " raining' it was a very sunny day

theme song " raining'

theme song " raining' couldn't even cry

couldn't even cry

written, composed, performed by cocco

the land had no limit

beauty surrounded me

i was singing

in a white dress

the line of people far away

i could've cried with a rain like today

it was a sunny day

the future had no meaning

i was helpless, had no words

but the scent of the way home

it was tender

i can live

somebody was laughing

it was a very sunny day

a tokuma shoten production

producers nozomu takahashi miyuki nanri

written and directed by hideaki anno

beyond the 33rd day unknown