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Anybody can do that.

I can do that job.

You just gotta listen to me.

Nobody... nobody listens.

Oh, Mommy's up. It's morning.

It's 4 a.m.

That means breakfast, Pooh Bear.

So we're playing.

Playing? Right.

Su, you sleeping upstairs now?

We're gonna go stay with grandma

for a little while, okay?

Just like we talked about.

You ready?

Okay.

What are you doing?

I thought I heard something.

We're gonna stay with my mother.

I don't know for how long.

You and I are done.

Sweetie, Mommy forgot her keys.

What is it this time?

This is serious.

There's something in the crawl space.

James.

- I don't want to know... - Shh. Listen.

Are you serious with this?

What?

I never should have come with you.

Oh, wait a minute, no, honey, just wait a second.

Wait a second.

Coyote?

No.

Hey.

James.

I don't see anything.

Okay, look.

I lost my job today,

and I didn't know how to tell you.

He knew I needed it.

I had told him before that I would need time off

at a moment's notice for my mental health.

Not now.

After all the years that I've...

James, we're leaving.

It's not safe.

No, it's not.

Don't.

Hanna?

Hanna?

Su?

Hanna?

Hanna.

Hanna.

Hanna!

Hanna, I need you to get away from the river, sweetheart.

Pooh bear's afraid of the water, okay?

You gotta get away from the...

Hanna, it's okay, baby, it's okay.

Stay back!

Everything's fine.

Hanna?

Hanna?

Where is she?

Where is she?

Hanna?

Where is she?

Where is she?

City of Astoria officials saying

that the state of Oregon

does not consider local construction zoning,

and that the issue would remain at a city level.

But what I realised is that

while I'm beating myself up over the lost time,

my sobriety is actually giving me the gift of time,

the present and the future that could have been lost.

It's not easy, but I'm really focussed on letting go of...

of the what-could-have-beens and letting in the what...

what's going to be.

Thanks for your share, Maple.

So often we forget to forgive ourselves

for the actions that have caused so many losses in our lives.

So thank you.

James, would you like to share with us?

I'm James, and I'm an alcoholic.

Hi, James.

A monster pushed her into the water.

Mr Streeter, can you confirm that no one else

was at the scene other than you?

I've been on this sobriety journey for eight months now,

and it continues to be a roller coaster so far.

I have trouble with milestones.

I keep relapsing just before my 30 days or my 60 days.

I just still feel like I don't deserve good things.

My childhood has had this psychological hold on me.

Nothing I ever expected, so it's not my fault.

It's not just that alcohol,

the only thing I've ever felt helped,

also destroys lives.

But that wasn't me.

No, I don't know that guy.

But I'm slowly moving through the 12 steps.

I'm working at it,

and soon I think I'll be ready for a sponsor.

Anyway, thanks for listening.

Su, you gotta believe me.

No, not this again.

There is no monster.

I saw a monster knock her into the water.

Thanks for your share, James.

And thanks for reminding us

that for anyone who doesn't have a sponsor already,

there are plenty of people here that can sponsor.

In fact, let's take this chance

to have anyone who is willing and able to sponsor

to please raise their hands right now.

There isn't any monster, James.

It's been a year now, and nothing.

It's time to let this go,

don't you think it's over between us?

Stop calling.

You have a glob of mustard on the corner of your mouth.

I haven't eaten yet.

Oh, well, it's still...

Oh, shit.

You all right?

That means it's been there since lunch.

I've showed two separate houses since then.

Maybe no one noticed.

You noticed from two tables away.

To be honest, I came over here to see if you were okay.

Kind of looked like you had a bad day.

And if it helps, so have I.

I didn't notice the mustard until I got closer,

and then I used it.

"You've got a glob of mustard on your face" is a line?

You know, it showed that you cared.

Counts a lot more than any of my stubborn clients today.

Oh, it has been a shit day.

So, um...

have a seat, fellow shit-day haver.

Thanks.

Mostly Astoria or near it, but, uh...

yeah, all my life.

You end up working a lot of different odd jobs,

but fishing is the one that stuck the longest.

So you're out there with your pole

just fishing all day, every day?

No, no, I go out on a local boat.

There's nets and a crew.

It's a full commercial fishing outfit.

Okay, so your bad day was no fishies.

Something like that.

I had a pretty rough conversation with my ex-wife,

- um... - Oh,

your ex? Huh?

Nice drop into the conversation there, fisherman.

Subtle, right?

Well,

then this calls for something stronger.

Drinks are on me if you teach me one of your sea shanties.

Come on, I thought we were having fun.

And besides, what is a celebration without a little...

Yo ho ho and a bottle of rum.

Uh, sir, can we get some rum?

Rum?

Actual? Yeah, I mean.

Yeah.

Okay, let's do it.

How do you not know any damn sea shanties?

What kind of a seaman are you?

- Oh. - Oh.

- Don't do it. - Seaman.

- Oh my God. - Did I say that right?

- No. Absolutely not. - I'm sorry. Shipman.

- Come on - Be more creative.

What are you doing?

Come on, I demand a sea shanty.

- Okay. - Let's make one up.

Okay, you first.

I swear I'll go next.

♪ My, my seaman loves his fishies ♪

Okay.

Harmonise.

♪ So more rum da-dee-dum da-dee-dum ♪

I should be your sponsor.

I don't...

No, just because we work together

doesn't mean I can't help you

smash out those 12 steps, brother.

- I really don't. - Think about it.

Like, because we work together

arguably makes me better than any of these losers.

I don't know, man.

No, no, but just like, it's step four, isn't it?

That's the one you're afraid of, I can tell.

You have to find a way to take responsibility,

otherwise you're never going to forgive yourself.

What the hell? Hey! What the hell do you know about it?

Did I say something wrong?

You're trying to assume you know what I fear.

Yeah.

Good morning.

Morning.

Uh, how did you not wake me?

I was as quiet as could be.

Mm.

Coffee?

Yeah, of course.

Wow.

I didn't expect you to have such style.

Are you doing okay?

Yeah. Just, uh...

maybe a little more hungover than I'd like to be.

Hm.

I don't really drink like that anymore.

Not like I used to.

Is that a bathtub on the deck? Oh.

It is.

Ooh la la. Must be kind of thrilling.

Bathe in the forest.

- Is that the upstairs? - Um...

Is that where the third bedroom is?

Let me show you the kitchen.

I want to see the upstairs.

It's just storage right now.

Full of old junk.

I love old junk.

- Always full of old stories. - No,

It can tell you so much about someone.

It's just I'd rather you didn't.

Okay.

Yes, sure.

This is your space.

I'm sorry.

I totally intruded here.

This was just a one-night thing,

and here I am, starting to feel comfortable.

You know, it's a bit of a drive back to Portland,

so I should really get out of your hair.

No, it's... it's okay. It's great, actually.

You know, I'm glad you're here.

I'm glad you stayed.

Look, there's a great little day hike

just up the road, you know?

It's a Saturday,

so you can just relax, go on this hike

and let the forest continue to reset you.

Look, to be honest, last night was

the most fun I've had in a long time, too,

and I'm not ready for it to end.

All right, Fisherman James.

Okay, I happen to have some hiking boots

in the back of my car,

I'll put them on,

- If you give me the shirt - No!

- off your back. - This is my favourite shirt.

Come on. I want your shirt.

No.

So you'll go?

Great.

So you said you've lived here your whole life?

Yeah.

Oh, so you must take these woods for granted, then.

- Oh! - Oh!

I'm sorry. You startled us.

You're so pretty. You are so pretty.

Oh, it's... it's a tragedy.

It's a tragedy.

I'm sorry?

Shojo.

Shojo monster.

Shojo.

Uh, you said a tragedy.

Did you lose something?

The bark.

They like to grow in the bark.

Mira.

There's a few encampments in these woods,

so you'll run across homeless people like her.

She's just a little crazier than most.

She's lived in these woods a long time.

I just try to avoid her.

You on the wagon still there, buddy?

Yeah.

Hey, how are you doing?

Just thinking.

Watching the water.

Watching the water.

Do you see that?

Hey.

Do you see that?

Tim!

She's out there, her bear's right there, hey!

Who?

Hey! Hey, Scott.

- James! - Take us out, man.

She's not out there.

Man, Hanna's dead.

She's fish food.

Bitch!

Watch your step.

Worth the hike?

Not bad.

This way.

What are you doing?

Oh.

These rocks.

Sometimes it feels like you're seeing things.

This is just amazing.

Nevada is so flat.

It feels like we're all alone in this big forest.

I just wonder what's out there.

Well, this has been

an unexpected and much-needed adventure.

Yeah, you know, for me, too.

You should come back sometime.

Well, any time really

you need a break or renewal,

I'm around.

Well, I'm sure that will be needed sooner rather than later.

I'll call you.

And you work on your damn sea shanty?

Yeah.

See ya.

James.

James.

James.

Come on, man. I'm sorry.

I'm having a shit day.

That was way out of line back there.

Bet your ass.

Okay, you know better. You know what I've been through.

You saying that may as well have shoved the bottle

right down my damn throat.

Look, again, I'm sorry.

I'm trying to take responsibility too, you know?

Quit telling me I have to take responsibility.

Shit, I am sick of hearing that.

All right. Fine. Be a prick.

You know what?

You've shown me exactly who you are.

Piss off then, mate.

And you know what?

I'll keep saying it over and over again.

Take responsibility, James.

Take responsibility.

Shit! Tim!

Hey!

Tim, get out of there, man!

Get out of there!

Top of the hour, it's seven o'clock.

Looking at this morning's headlines,

a body was found late last night in Astoria,

near the local commercial fishing docks.

So far, the authorities say

evidence is pointing to an attack of some kind.

More later.

Right now, I'm with the body.

James, get up.

Oh, God, I'm sorry.

Jesus.

I used to do the same thing when I was younger, newer.

Sit alone in a dark office late at night instead of going home.

Guess you haven't kicked the old habits.

Some of them, oh, yeah, yeah.

I got five years.

Five years sobriety.

Where'd you transfer in from? Portland?

LAPD.

Really?

Your dead fisherman.

Worked with one of these guys you questioned,

got me thinking about something weird in a case last year.

I don't have many more days left to look into this.

Think it might bring you a good idea

of what you're going to get on the Oregon coast.

Shojo monsters are commonly depicted

in Japanese folklore as tangible spirit...

tangible spirit.

Shojos would encourage and antagonise sailors on shore.

According to the tale, shojos appeared to be sea-dwelling.

You hear that, Pooh Bear?

Sea-dwelling.

No one believes me.

I can't...

I can't do it anymore.

Fuck.

Fuck.

You witnessed your child falling into the water?

She didn't fall, okay? I told you she was pushed.

Pushed? Was someone else there?

No, not someone, okay?

A monster pushed her into the water.

Mr Streeter, can you confirm

that no one else was at the scene

other than you and your wife?

That's right.

So a wild animal runs into your daughter,

she falls into the creek and is swept out into the ocean.

Mr Streeter, were you witness to your daughter falling?

Mr Streeter,

It was the monster.

Monster.

I'm sorry, what?

It was the monster.

What's all this?

Surprise!

Yes, it is.

It's really kind of thrilling

being out here in the woods, exposed.

Kind of turns me on, you know?

Join me.

Actually, I need to tell you something.

Okay.

They found a co-worker of mine dead outside the docks today.

Oh, shit.

Did you know him well?

Sort of, yeah.

We argued a lot, but...

this...

Thank you for being here,

I'm just really not in the mood for this right now.

Of course, I... I understand.

I'll be inside.

Monster.

Monster.

It was the monster.

Join me.

Join me.

My James.

My James.

My James.

Fuck!

Can I help you guys?

Doesn't seem like you need any more, does it?

I know you.

What do you want with me again?

I just want to be around

in case you run into any more monsters.

Salt?

Right cupboard.

Are you sure I can't help?

You are helping.

Oregano?

That you will find at the grocery store.

Okay.

You're no longer helpful.

I can go get some if you want.

No, no, no.

We can live without oregano,

but not without a corkscrew.

Cooking wine.

For breaded chicken?

No, for the one who cooks the breaded chicken.

Cooking wine.

You look like you could use a little cook-watching wine.

I shouldn't.

Just to take the edge off.

See?

Mm.

The sound of the rain and the river.

This is such a great place.

This cabin must hold a lot of memories for you.

It does.

Have you ever thought about putting in additional...?

Ah, I don't know.

Sorry.

It's okay. It's just... If I talk about the cabin,

I have to talk about my ex, and I don't want to do that.

Yeah, that makes sense.

But...

you could rewrite the past.

Rewrite the past?

Yes.

Make your past, present and future

whatever you want it to be.

Yeah.

This feels right.

Just the one bottle?

Yeah, unless you have something.

James?

James?

James?

Behind you!

What the hell?

Oh my God!

Oh my God!

Sorry.

There's no more wine, couldn't find any.

Oh, I... I don't mind.

I... where did you even come from?

I was talking to you.

You're right, I'm sorry, twice.

Good morning.

I'm going on a rejuvenating meditation hike.

I can't tell you how much I love how green it is here.

Are you sure? It's not safe.

Well, you had things you were going to do today, so...

Yeah, but that doesn't mean you go

off in the woods by yourself.

James, it's the hiking trails that you took me on.

You know, it's perfectly safe.

The boat's going to be docked for a few days.

We can just go somewhere like you wanted to before.

Okay.

You've had your say, but it's settled.

I really... I just...

I don't want you to be out there by yourself.

What is this?

Is there something that you're not telling me?

I just want you to be safe.

I'll be fine.

Oh, don't worry.

I'm keeping the mushrooms safe.

Keep them safe.

That's great.

They're fun, aren't they?

Oh, no.

Can't always be harming the mind.

It makes us into someone we don't want to be.

Of course.

Where's your friend?

Oh, it's just me today.

Tragic. So tragic.

Shojo.

Can I help you?

Are you Su-Yeong?

Mira.

Mira, are you here?

I'm upstairs.

Shit.

Did you have a daughter?

Did you have a daughter that died, James?

Well...

No, no, you don't understand.

Okay.

I know this is gonna sound crazy,

but I have to say it because it's the truth.

There is a monster in these woods.

James.

It killed my co-worker the other day.

And this monster...

Killed your daughter?

Yes.

No one has believed me.

Look, I've been looking for it.

I've... I've... I've... I've been staying here,

and I've been looking for it.

If I could just find its home.

James.

You're hunting a monster?

Mira, I saw it.

It's not real.

It can't be.

These are delusions.

What? No.

I saw it.

What is that?

It's Hanna's Pooh Bear.

Her bear?

That's... that's not a teddy bear.

Can we... can we go back downstairs?

It's hard for me to be in here.

What is it?

I can't find my phone.

Did you... did you leave it upstairs?

Damn it.

Hello?

Hi.

Uh, you don't know me. Um...

I don't even know why I'm calling.

Who is this?

My name is Mira.

I've been sort of seeing James Streeter.

Oh, okay.

Well, I'm a little worried about him.

Um...

Is he an alcoholic?

Has he been drinking?

Yes, but I didn't know...

He didn't tell me that he...

He's not well.

Well, he's drunk and he's talking to me about monsters,

and I... I don't, I don't know,

I just... I just thought that I should call someone.

You're right. You were right to do that.

Listen, I don't know your relationship to James,

but I really think that you should leave, okay?

It's what's best for you,

what's best for James, okay?

Okay.

Good, okay, good.

Su...

I'm so sorry about your daughter.

You just get home.

Hey, there she is.

Hey, don't forget, you gotta be careful alone out there.

What's going on?

James, I... I should go.

I'm gonna go, okay?

Go?

No, I got us food to make.

Just wait.

It's like you said, remember?

Rewrite the past.

That's all this is.

This is just a series of rewrites.

This feels more like secrets and lies.

No lies, no lies, okay?

I'm just trying to make things whatever I want them to be.

Mm-hm. That's what you said.

No, James, I don't like this side of you.

Huh? Hey, what happened all of a sudden, huh?

What changed?

I understand why you didn't tell me everything.

That's a lot to share with someone

that you just started seeing,

and that is what I'm realising.

This is so new, and I moved too fast.

Okay,

now we know more about each other, so stay.

I can't.

You don't want to go out there.

Look, James, I care about what happens to you.

You know,

there are some really great programs out there.

Just go to an AA meeting or something.

Don't go.

You gotta just... hold on.

Yeah.

James?

I've been calling you all morning.

I'm just getting up.

It... it's the afternoon.

All right. What is it?

Someone named Mira called me.

When did she?

It sounded like you might have been drinking.

She shouldn't have called you.

I don't know why...

You know better

than to be bringing someone into your world of shit.

You're supposed to be focussed on your healing.

Nothing more.

I know. It just kind of happened.

Is she all right, James?

Of course she's all right.

I mean, if you must know, she took off last night.

I don't know where she is, and she's probably not coming back.

Okay.

Well, she called because she was worried.

It sounded like you were pretty drunk.

Come on, James.

Yes, all right.

You're telling her about your monster?

James?

Her car is still here.

What?

James.

Mira?

Su, I need a minute.

What's going on?

I don't know, she isn't here.

James, I'm coming up, okay?

Be there in an hour.

Don't do that. It's not safe.

I'm coming.

Su!

Shit!

Mira!

Oh no.

What to do?

I failed you, Pooh Bear.

I messed it up.

I've been looking for something that's been here the whole time.

I'm so stupid.

♪ For he's a jolly good fellow ♪

♪ For he's a jolly good fellow ♪

♪ For he's a jolly good fellow ♪

♪ Which nobody can deny ♪

Damn, kid.

Damn it! Su!

Oh, no.

No.

No!

No!

I can't.

Hey, Pooh Bear.

Wake up, daddy! Wake up!

I miss you, Pooh Bear.

James?

I can't move.

I'm... I just... Su, help me.

Su, help me up.

Look, Su, you gotta listen to me.

- The monster? - No! No!

James.

What did you do?

I...

Why would you do this, James? I don't understand.

It wasn't me.

Mira.

James.

She's dead, Su, she's dead.

The monster!

What did you do to her?

I...

It separated itself from me.

Do you understand? It's out there.

No! Please.

Where's Mira?

I don't know.

Where is her body?

Look, I don't know.

Just don't go out there.

Why don't you get up and stop me?

Su!

There is no monster!

James.

James Streeter. You in there?

James!

Oh, God.

Stop right there.

Do you have any weapons on you?

No, nothing. I... Is he okay?

No, no, no. Hold on, you don't understand.

I did not do that to him.

There's a... there's a monster inside the cabin.

That's still everyone's alibi.

It's connected to him somehow. I...

Please, just... just look inside.

Tell me.

Tell me why it's some monster.

Otherwise, this has domestic abuse written all over it.

Oh, no.

What?

What is it?

I think it's alive.

I saw it.

What the hell is that?

How many times do you want the same answer?

Wait right there.

There's a detective out there.

He's looking for it.

APB.

Detective Joseph at 26597 River Creek Road.

There you are, Joseph.

That's my car you took.

Don't look in the glove compartment.

Just get somebody out here.

I've got one wounded

and a loose, wild animal.

We're headed your way.

I wounded it.

You're wounded.

Do you understand, James?

You think if he kills it...

It's not your fault.

It's not your fault.

Had I just believed you before...

It still wouldn't have mattered.

The monster was in me this whole time.

All I had to do was stop.

James.

Hanna's death was my fault.

My responsibility.

Su-Yeong, I'm so sorry.

It's not fair.

Don't make me forgive you like this.

Do you?

James.

Let's go.

You... you killed it?

You saw it dead?

Saw what?

The monster.