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Thank you.

You wait up for me, I don't wake up for you. Would you like a companion?

Are you sick of me?

When your love lets you go, you really want love, love, even when love's not

what you were looking for. Let's be slow, tell me love, where do we go? I

don't care where we go, I don't care where we go.

She's pretty cute.

Shut up. Oh, thank you.

I've never seen you before.

Come sit.

I'm Sonya.

What the hell?

You guys just left me. I had to call my dad to come get me.

He told us to just leave you.

We didn't know what was happening.

Please get me a Coke. I went down for you, asshole. You get me a Coke and a

pretzel. You're right there. I'd have to do it.

You're just like two steps, please.

Wait, who's this?

I'm Coley.

They say the quietest ones are the smartest.

They listen.

We found her sitting all alone. Sonia's a thing for strays.

Lovely name. I mean, I guess that's how I found you.

Okay, I'm out.

I'm gonna go smoke a cigarette. Okay.

That was quick.

What's wrong with him? Oh, have you heard from Brooke yet?

No, I mean, I just texted her, but my mom is giving me literal hell this

morning. I'm so fucked.

Oh my god, did you take my mood ring? I swear, it's like a gimmick.

So, um...

How do you guys know each other?

Uh, we live here.

Hey, we're down at the lake. She says it's on over there.

Shotgun, shotgun.

No, no, no, no, no.

Sonia, come on.

Sonia.

Hey, we're swimming with friends at Cliff's Edge Trail.

Cool.

Well, if it's so cool.

You coming or what?

I'm coming!

Please move!

Colby.

Glad we didn't scare you off.

You gonna be senior this year?

Yeah. Lucky for you, you got a couple more months to get used to us.

Yeah, I actually... Bro!

Don't ruin my... You're all dry.

You swimming?

No, thanks.

Come on, we don't fight.

It's like 100 degrees today, get in.

I actually think I'm going to get going.

You can't get wet?

What? No, it's really not that scary.

What if we do it together?

No.

No, no. No, stop. What are you doing?

Stop. Stop.

Put me down. Stop. Put me down.

Stop. Let me go. Let me down. Okay, okay. Stop.

and ass sometimes, but I swear he's a good guy. I've known him, like, forever.

Yeah, he seems great.

Hey, don't be mad at me. I didn't do anything. You were laughing.

I didn't know what else to do.

So you just go along with whatever, as long as you get to be part of it?

Okay, wow.

Harsh and untrue. Then what was that?

Trenton was just messing around and I... I don't know.

Look, you don't even know me and you're judging me? Like, I ran over here to

make sure you were okay and now you're just acting like some wet, grumpy bitch.

i'm so sorry i don't i don't know why i said that it's fine it's not that i just

i don't know hey can

we start over i

feel terrible don't please please you have to let me redeem myself okay

honestly i'm just stupid i make terrible choices ask anyone but i don't usually

make people cry on first things you know

I should probably get going.

I live all the way on Kingsley Street, so my dad is probably waiting for me.

We need to have, like, a proper hang sometime.

Give me your number.

My phone is dead now.

Right.

We can be old-fashioned.

You got a pen in there?

Um... Honestly, Chloe, I'm not used to doing all the work that you're making me

do here.

Those are zeros.

You know, you could have just given that to me on paper, right?

Darling, it's called romance. Oh, my God.

Hey, Coley.

Yeah?

Promise you'll message me tonight?

Promise.

Hey, how was your day?

Oh decent coming up

Hey

Morning, I gotta go into town Do you want to come grab some lunch

get to know each other?

No, I'm good Okay, well I'll leave you alone

So just to see someone, you're visiting, it's exciting. By the way, I love your

house. It's so cool. Thank you.

I inherited it, so I can't take credit for it. Oh, I love the wood. It's really

vintage. Oh, thanks. Yeah.

There you are.

Hey.

Hey. I've got to get going. I've got to run some errands. Very nice to meet you,

Sonia. You're welcome anytime.

Cole, I'll see you in a bit.

You guys have fun?

So what are you doing here?

Well, you didn't message me, so... You broke your promise.

I showered.

Yeah.

So what do you want to do?

How do you know I want to hang out with you? Oh my god, let's go!

Do you do this a lot?

I mean, fake IDs can be...

It's kind of hard in a town where everyone knows everyone, so...

S.J. is actually still kind of pissed at me for ditching her.

Whoops.

Getting left behind sucks.

Someone leave you behind?

My dad has plenty of alcohol at home. I don't think he would mind if we... What

are you?

A wimp?

No.

Proven.

Hey.

Sorry, can you help me?

Can you show

me where that is?

What you got there?

Should we go?

Yeah. Let's go.

Come on, come on, come on!

Mom, I'm home.

Sonia, where have you been? You made me late again.

Mom, I'm here now.

Mom, this is Coley.

Hi, Coley.

Would you get your sister ready for bed?

I'm going to be out late.

Bye, girls.

Bye, Mom.

okay enjoying

the

movie riveting

Okay, so... Why did I have to find out you just moved here from San Diego?

From your dad?

Beats me.

Okay, so what?

Do I have to find out you have a boyfriend from there too?

Are you and that Trenton guy, like... What?

You know.

I'm emotionally unavailable to all.

Hey.

Let's go hang in my room.

She's fine.

I'm gonna put on some music.

Okay.

Very award-heavy

What

are you like famous or something No, I'm not

famous my mom she's just having competitive dancing since I was like

five competitive Yeah, it means I win a lot

Can I see?

You want me to dance?

I've never seen a competitive dance before, so how would I know the

difference between a competitive and non-competitive dance?

I mean, it's not like a recital. It's not just like a show for your parents.

Can I just see one thing?

Fine, but I'm not going to go full out. And for the record, I don't do this for

just anyone.

Okay.

I think I danced this like...

two years ago and it was actually quite sweet because I just learned how to do

changing spot fouettés and I was the first on my dance team to do that.

confused when i noticed you cause i noticed you

let me in your head what you're thinking it's all so new

but i noticed you cause i noticed you

what you had in front i'm right here

Ah, shit.

Oh my god.

You good? Shit.

Yeah, no, no, no. I'm fine.

Yeah, that was... That was so stupid.

Well, thank you, competitive dancer. You showed me...

Really, really competitive dance.

Hey, I won for that song.

Congrats.

Okay, then you dance.

If you're gonna make fun.

Okay, fine.

Okay. Give me something sad, raw, achy.

So something just like you?

Oh, okay.

This was kind of a big deal because I was the first one on my team to raise my

arms like this.

Okay, okay.

Wow.

be

Sonia?

Yeah?

Are you okay?

Yeah, I'm fine. I mean, the champagne and everything was just a bad combo, and

I have to put Emma to bed soon.

I'm sorry.

It's okay.

If you want to head home, I'll eat you.

Promise.

Oh.

Okay.

Well, night.

Hey.

Hey.

There's some leftovers in the kitchen if you want them.

I'm good.

By the way, do you want to watch TV? I'm hogging this thing. I watch way too much

television.

I'm fine.

Where'd you get that jacket?

It was my mom's.

Technically, that jacket used to be mine, and she took it from me years ago

and never gave it back.

She always said it looked way better on her than me.

It looks way better on you, though. You wear it better than anybody.

I'm gonna go to my room now.

Tempered air Above

Truth or dare

On my tongue

Exploding flares

Filled with diamonds

It's the first time

No!

Disgusting

I heard that if you stare at someone long enough, you'll get high. But it has

to be in the eye.

It's something in the brain chemicals. I don't know.

Well, I want to get high.

Me too.

Okay, so how long should we stare for?

Probably until we're tripping balls.

Okay.

Oops.

Trenton!

Look at this. There's something in my skin, babe. It's all itchy. I don't know

what to do.

Okay, let me see.

Here. That's poison ivy.

Can you fix it? Shit, you okay?

Yeah, I'm fine.

I know. Okay, I'll go get the first aid kit. All right.

Gotta put some calm on this. Thank you.

You're the best.

Oh, thanks, babe.

No, no, no, don't put that stuff on me. It's pink.

I mean, it's so gross. You have to let me treat it. I can't have pink cream all

over my body. Is there anything else, Leske?

Can we go?

Where? Brooks, parents are out of town. Remember, we're going to go hang.

So just get your stuff and say goodbye to Cole.

Let's go.

You should come hang, too.

We've got plans.

What kind of plans?

None of your business plans.

You're surrounding yourself with bitches and you know what they say about the

company. All right, we're leaving Okay, you boys can go.

Yeah. All right Wait, I thought we bye Has

he always been so possessive

like all guys, okay. Well he needs to change

Guys don't change.

Girls just tell themselves that they will if they love us, but what actually

happens is that the girl changes so that they'll keep on loving us.

Okay, but that life law doesn't say anything about the girl actually loving

the guy.

Why do you think that is?

Love is about sacrifice.

I mean, that's what my mom always tells me.

Do you think it's easy?

Loving someone?

I think love is a shitload of things, but I don't think making yourself

smaller to be with another person is worth it.

Ever.

Well, Trenton doesn't make me. I didn't say his name.

You did.

Okay, well, he's just being super annoying right now, so whatever.

Come on.

Now let's get you to my secret spot.

Oh. Yeah?

OK. I'm going to be there. You're going to be me? Yeah.

It smells good.

You're a dance star. You're supposed to be a little bit more graceful than that.

I'm a dancer.

Oh, I know.

You dance for me, remember?

You need some lessons.

What?

Okay.

I don't know if it's because we're spinning, but everything's spinning

right now.

You good?

Mm-hmm.

Mm-mm.

You're like...

I think you're really pretty too.

I also think you're really drunk.

You gonna remember dance with me tomorrow?

Look, I may be drunk, but...

I know what I'm doing.

Sometimes the next day I'm like, oh shit, but I

don't forget anything.

I like your life.

My mom can be so judgmental and hard on me and I feel like I can never do

anything right.

I just wish she was more chill like your dad.

He left when I was really young, so I don't really know him.

It was always just more me and my mom.

You never mentioned her.

Yeah, um... She

passed away.

End of last year.

I'm so sorry.

I just... She wasn't well.

Not for a while.

I know I'm not making any sense.

But it's just that...

She...

She kind of did it to herself.

She wasn't trying to.

I feel like she died without ever really knowing me.

Colleen.

Hey.

Do you know how incredible-

Tschüss.

Hey, are you okay?

No, it's just my mom. I just gotta go.

Okay.

Night. Night.

Thanks for reaching out. I didn't know that this was still happening. Of

course. Oh my god, so the guy from the other night showed up, so I'm gonna go

say hi to him.

Yes!

Okay, you know, but like, how are you?

I'm fine.

Oh my gosh, you came!

Oh, did Bootsy talk to you? Okay, I think I need to call an inspector.

Oh my god, but you literally started today.

Yeah, I know, drunky. But you literally leave Sunday and I'm gonna be so hung

up.

no she's been like totally blowing him off and then she just gets to his side

when he gets back on and blow us off

Okay, just a sec.

Holy, is that you?

I can't believe you didn't tell me how bad I looked.

You don't look bad.

Liar.

I can't believe you didn't tell me that you're leaving.

I thought I did.

Where are you going?

It's just this, like, dance camp intensive that, like, my mom makes me

go, like, every year, and, like, I'll be back in August.

Well, are we still gonna talk while you're gone? Yeah, I don't... I don't

think I can.

I just...

Really need to focus.

Okay, did I do something?

Or... What?

You seem really distant and like you're not being yourself with me. Look, Chloe,

I just have a lot going on right now and like I don't have time for much. Like,

I can't handle this.

Handle what?

Handle me?

Koli, you're at a party.

Don't mingle.

You'll have to sit alone looking so sorry for yourself.

I'm sorry. No.

Hey, Koli.

Hey. Hey, are you mad at me? I'm sorry. I'm sorry.

No. Why are you acting like I don't even matter to you?

Please, I'm sorry. I'm sorry.

Everything has been so hard. You know I care about you.

I'm sorry.

I don't know what got into me.

I'm really sorry.

I just... I suck.

I just suck.

Don't suck.

Sonia.

Okay?

Olive juice.

Olive juice, too.

Feels like I've known you forever.

Damn. I was looking for you.

Wait, what the hell are you guys doing in my room? Hold on. You locked her in

here? Just calm down. Let's just go.

What the fuck were you guys doing in there?

Nothing.

What?

Some... You can get out of my room now.

Go.

Thank you.

I can't, I can't, I'm drunk.

Please don't hate me.

Are you serious?

I don't know. You're like a completely different person.

I'm sorry, okay? You've been ignoring me for weeks.

Hanging on to that girl like you're her bitch.

No, no, no, don't touch me. Please don't get mad at me, please. You're

embarrassing yourself, Sonia.

Can I have some?

Only if you'll talk to me.

You have such sad eyes.

They're nice though.

Are you okay?

I just...

I, uh...

I heard about your mom.

You know, I'm here for you if you need anything, or... Who told you that?

I... I thought everyone knew.

I need to go. Did I do something? I thought... I need to go.

Chloe, wait.

I'm driving you home.

Hey, um... My bike is still at Brooks.

Can I get a ride?

I left something back at Sonya's.

Sure.

I'll take it.

Okay, you can just stop here.

Yeah, stop.

Okay, I'm just gonna walk back.

Let me help you get stuck.

Thanks. I can wait.

Fine.

Koli, hi.

How have you been?

Fine. Sonia and the girls are just step back.

felt so stupid very brave holy what are you doing here

you have my jacket

oh it should be in my room you can just go grab it

sorry

I'll be right back

It should be in here somewhere.

Sorry.

Here.

Is that all you need?

Yeah.

Okay.

Okay.

Bye.

Bye.

I know that you like me.

You kissed me.

You basically said that you loved me.

I don't know what to say, Coleen.

I'm just like that with all my friends.

Holly, is everything okay?

What happened?

Don't take me home.

Leave this to people.

You okay?

I mean, you were so busy.

You were gone nonstop, and I haven't moved in days.

Yeah, I'm just pretty boring, I guess.

Well, you could do something.

There's nothing to do.

I could show you something I've been working on here. I bet you've been

curious, maybe. I don't know.

I got into it back in the day when I was, you know, making music and... Kind

of a way to pay the bills.

I kind of stumbled into it when a buddy of mine gave me some beautiful stones.

It's pretty.

I made it for you.

It's a design I've been working on ever since I started.

Around the time I met your mom.

There's this box back there, so much nostalgia, beautiful pictures, memories.

I haven't been able to go through it yet, to be honest.

If you want to look through it together, it's here.

She was a woman of very high highs and very low lows, your mother.

Why would you show this to me right now?

Well, I was happy I found it. I don't know, I thought this year has been so

crazy. I thought maybe we could look through it and we could...

We could talk.

I'm here. I just... I want you to know that.

You were never there.

I was.

Every day.

Alone.

And you have no idea what it was like.

I want you to tell me.

I'm trying to give you your space, but I want you to know that I'm...

I'm here.

I really want you to feel like you can share with me, Nicole.

I understand that you don't know me, but I want to change that. I want to get to

know you. Yeah, that's only because you have to.

Mm.

Not bad, huh?

Unsweet and kind.

Just having one of those days, you know?

Shit, I'm having one of those years, you know?

Yeah.

Well, I'm off at five.

You want something stronger than chocolate?

You can put your bike right there. Thanks. It'll be fine.

Upstairs? No, it's around here.

Right this way.

My fucking parents, I have to keep sneaking around and shit, so...

Cole? Yeah? Where were you last night?

At a friend's. Okay, I have no idea where you've been. I think we have to

have some sort of agreement that you're at least home by midnight.

You know, that sounds more like a curfew than an agreement. Fine, then it's a

curfew.

Look, I feel really bad. I upset you the other day. Well, that sucks for you.

Hey, stop.

You can't keep doing this.

Doing what?

Avoiding me. I don't know where you are. I don't know what you're doing. I don't

know who you're with. I need to know that you're safe, okay? You're scaring

me. Never scared you before.

Well, now you're my responsibility.

Now?

Yeah, because you didn't care at all before.

No, that's not true.

No, your first instinct has always been to put you first.

Nicole. You were the first person who ever taught me that.

I'm someone that no one's gonna miss.

Nicole. Nicole.

Hey! Hey! Open the door.

Nicole.

Open the door.

Let me in.

Nicole, I am so sorry.

You're right.

I wasn't there.

I don't know what your mom told you, but it's not what I wanted. I wanted us all

to be together.

But she didn't want that.

Did you know that?

She left me too.

Okay, go, go, go.

Yeah!

You recording?

You recording? Okay, let me go. Yeah, go do it. Do it.

Whoa. Are you feeling better now?

I'm feeling pretty good.

I'm sorry.

I'm sorry.

Nicole?

What happened?

What's going on?

I can't.

I just... I'm never gonna be normal.

I'm just tired.

I hate this.

I hate feeling like this. I just... I just...

I hate myself.

Why would you say that?

No, I mess everything up.

Don't say that, Cole.

I don't know why I'm not good enough for anyone.

Mom gave up on me. She probably hated me, too.

That's why I missed my bus that day. I just wanted a few more minutes without

her hating me.

If I had been home early enough...

Yeah.

Hey, it's not your fault.

Koli, your mom loved you so much. I promise you.

Not enough.

No. She didn't love anything.

I know it's hard for you to understand, but I think maybe in that moment, all

she was thinking about was her own pain.

I just want to start over.

We can start over.

Let's start over.

We can.

You gotta give yourself a chance to grieve.

Think about what's happened to you in the last year.

I promise you, things are gonna get better.

How? How is anything gonna get better?

By being honest with each other.

You're not alone anymore.

I'm sorry. Now you're stuck with me.

I missed out on too much. I'm not going to miss out on any more.

And I know that my loss is not the same as yours.

But losing your mom taught me that I'm never going to stop trying.

I want to see you find your person.

Find some person that doesn't make you cry like this.

There's so much for you to love about yourself, Coley.

I wish I could see it. You will.

What do you feel?

This is our station right here.

This is my boyfriend, Ty. It's so nice to meet you.

Nice to meet you, too.

Last but not least, some delicious

roasted mosquitoes.

practice.

You work here, don't you?

Happy birthday to you.

Happy birthday to you.

Happy birthday dear Emma.

Happy birthday to you.

Happy birthday.

From Monday.

And a party of six. Okay, cool. Great. We'll see you then. Thank you for

calling.

Hey, Coley.

Hey.

How are you?

What are you doing here?

I work here.

You look great.

Do you want to catch up? Like, do you have a sec?

I'm really busy right now.

Okay.

Well, how about after your shift is over, I can just meet you back here? I

don't really think there's anything for us to talk about.

Come on, Cole.

Okay, I'm off at 11.

Okay.

See you.

They liked it, so that's all that matters.

See you tomorrow, Cole.

See ya.

Hey.

It's good to see you.

So what's up?

We could sit in my car?

Sure.

I missed you.

At camp, this girl, she literally whacked her elbow into

this guy's face mid-rehearsal. Had this like huge meltdown, like just blaming

him.

I just saw you in the corner dying laughing, which then made me start

laughing, and then she tried to fight me, and it was just this whole crazy

thing. I just...

wish you were

there.

Is that all?

Well, we haven't talked.

Yes. Yeah, that's kind of shitty, huh?

Okay, are you gonna say something or...

I like you.

And it scares me how much I like you.

I don't know what that means. Like, if I'm... Maybe it's just you.

Maybe it's not that, and I'm just, like, attracted to you.

I mean, I... Like, I know you're wrong, but this just feels so right, and I...

Are you saying that I'm wrong now? That's not what I... You know what I

mean. No.

I can't talk to you. I can't do this anymore.

Koli. Koli. Wait. I didn't... Wait.

I'm sorry. I didn't mean... I don't... I don't... I don't know what to do. This

is so new to me and you've... You've just confused me. I'm on a sounding

board for you to figure out your shit. Sit down for one minute. Please.

I, like, need you.

I can't sleep at night. All I imagine is... Stop, please. Why are you saying

this to me right now? Because I want to be with you. Then be with me. I can't.

Exactly. There's just going to be an endless circle of you telling me all the

reasons how I'm wrong and how we're wrong and about how you want me but you

can't want me and...

You're not helping. It just hurts.

I don't want to hurt you, Koli, but this isn't just about me. This is about my

mom, my friends. What would people think of me? That's all you think about.

People are going to think about you, and it's not even you.

I was doing fine letting this go.

I can't do this anymore.

Please.

Yeah.

Coley, hey.

I wanted to invite you to the party at my place tomorrow.

Look, I heard it got around.

Your mom's... I want you to know Sonia wasn't trying to gossip.

She was trying to understand how to help you, and she came to me to make sure

that she wasn't making it worse, and then Trenton overheard us and blabbed it

all over.

I'm really sorry.

Look, I'm sure you're over all of us, but Sonya's been home a week, and she

just seems so sad.

Not like herself.

I asked her about it, and she told me how she messed it all up.

So I thought maybe if I explained... Yeah, thanks.

Come or don't, it's totally up to you.

I know it'd make Sonya happy.

We'll see.

I can't feel anything.

Oh my god. Where are you going?

I didn't know you were serious.

I'm so tired of living like this.

All I do is run.

I could stop.

But...

Stealing kisses from your missus doesn't make you freak out.

Got you fussed and got you worried, scared to let your guard down.

Boys.

Boys.

Tell the neighbors I'm not sorry if I'm breaking walls

down.

You forgot something.

Promise you'll message me?

Promise.

Better not break your promise this time. I won't.

I know where you live.

I'll hunt you down.

Yeah, I'm counting on it.