Original subtitles

(melancholy music)

- [Jess] Why are our lives so fucked up?

My best friend, Steve, says "We'll never know."

Maybe we just made bad choices

because they seemed good at the time.

Or maybe, we're lying to ourselves.

Our dreams aren't even real.

"Or probably," he says,

"It's just destiny.

"Everything's already written, so why try to change it.

"It doesn't matter.

"You can't explain reality.

"Spend your time questioning it,

"and you'll be too busy to see the answer.

"All you can do is accept yourself.

"Stop trying to figure out why you're so different.

"Don't try," he says, "Just be.

"We're all in this together."

But that's not my case.

I can tell you exactly why my life is hell.

And I can't accept it, I won't.

- [Sally] Jess, how are you feeling?

Oh God, I was worried sick.

Honey, what happened?

I'm sorry, honey, you rest.

(punching)

- [Police Officer] Dispatch, show me back in service.

Nothing here to report.

- $1.49.

You need a bag with that?

- [Lisa] Girl, keep it in your pants.

- Shut up.

- [Tom] I wish I could stay longer.

- [Sally] Oh no, you've done enough.

Thanks for being here.

- You'll call me if you need anything.

- [Sally] Tom, I don't know what I'm doing wrong.

- [Tom] It's not your fault, Sal, okay.

She's a teenager, they're uncontrollable at her age.

Remember all the hellish stuff

we put mom and dad through.

You're gonna get through this.

- How can you really know that?

- [Steve] I have a little surprise.

Look what I made for my fabulous girl.

- It's great, I love it.

- [Steve] Really? - No, I'm lying.

You got so much talent.

- [Steve] Don't worry, Mrs. Benice,

you don't have to wear it.

- So you're coming?

- I don't know, I better not.

- Here we go again.

- I told my mom I'd be home.

- Shit, Ann, why don't you just move in with me?

- I'm only 16.

- So, I left home before I finished high school.

How to avoid my obituary.

"Teenage girl smothered by love."

- My mom's not that bad.

- Yeah, okay, keep telling yourself that.

Come on, they'll be cute guys.

Maybe your boyfriend will be there.

- Shut up.

- Okay, whatever, goodnight Moe.

- [Moe] Goodnight girls.

- [Voiceover] Have a fun night little principal.

- [Connor] Thanks for the ride, coach.

- No problem, say isn't that Mike's car?

- Uh-hum.

- How long he's been in the Marines?

- About a year.

- Your dad must be proud of him.

When you gonna get his car back on the road?

- When you stop working me so hard.

- Nah, who needs a car anyway?

Goodnight kid.

(electronic music)

- [Sally] Honey, I know this is tough,

but we can't ignore it.

Whatever it is you can tell me.

- Just leave me alone, mom.

- Is it something I'm doing, my job,

school, your father?

- It was an accident, okay, you can relax.

- [Sally] You can't have anymore accidents.

Do you hear me?

I wouldn't survive it.

- Don't worry about me.

- [Katherine] I see you're back on that diet.

- [Ann] Yeah, just for a little while.

- Why were you so late last night?

- [Ann] I worked overtime, okay?

- Ann, don't lie to me.

What is going on with you lately?

- You drink too much coffee.

- [Katherine] I asked you a question.

- Caffeine is the most consumed mind-altering drug

on the planet, you know that?

What do you want from me, you should be happy

I'm slaving away like you wanted it.

- Lower your voice, young lady.

- [Ann] You make me waste my whole damn summer.

Why can't I hang out like everyone else?

- [Katherine] Maybe you'd rather spend

your summer in school like some of your friends?

Look, even your guidance counselor agrees

that working in a supermarket

is great life experience for your career.

- You're supposed to be my mother, not my principal.

- I'm not having this conversation, again.

- [Rick] Good morning.

- [Students] Good morning.

- [Rick] Where's Jessica, Connor?

Connor, I asked you a question.

- How the hell should I know where she is, Christ.

- [Rick] Hey (laughter) watch your language.

Open your books to page 20.

- [Jess] Oh God, I can't take it.

She comes by my room every five seconds to see

if she can unveil the secret that's tormenting me.

- [Steve] That's easy to fix you know.

- [Jess] It is?

- [Steve] You just got to tell her.

- [Jess] Don't you start too.

- [Steve] God, your hair is to die for.

Oops. - Weirdo.

- Okay, I just have one thing to say,

and we can move on.

- Don't start, all right.

- I have to admit I'm kind of offended.

- Offended?

- Girl, if I can tell you about

pooping in my pants in kindergarten,

you can certainly spill what's bothering you.

- Oh my God, I forgot all about that.

- It was a powerful sneeze, it could happen to anyone.

(laughing)

Seriously, though, I'm here for you.

- I know, I know, I just...

I don't want to talk about it, okay?

- [Steve] Okay.

- [Barry] The bitch is hot and she wants me.

Come on, what?

I'm telling you, I'm gonna hit that soon.

Oh, I forgot, Tyson's in training.

No time for pussy. - Fuck you.

- Look who it is.

- [Jess] Bye, poopy pants.

Bye Steve. - Bye.

(horn honking)

(motor revving)

- [Barry] I thought you'd like

getting revved from behind.

- [Connor] Thanks, bro.

- You fucking crazy asshole.

Now you're going around attacking people too.

- [Connor] I didn't do anything.

- Well, you didn't stop him.

- [Connor] You're not my fucking problem, freak!

- Fuck, fuck!

- [Jess] What the fuck is so fascinating?

- [Sally] Jess?

- [Ann] So you really like Barry, huh?

- I don't know, he's kind of young for me.

I love this stuff.

- You know I'd have to run three miles

just to burn half a slice.

- So what about you, why don't you ask Connor out?

- [Ann] He doesn't even know I exist.

- [Lisa] Make him know, he's kind of cute,

strong, silent type.

- He's way out of my league.

- You know what, you're crazy, listen, guys are easy.

You just have to make them believe

they're gonna get lucky.

- Guys don't want to get lucky with me.

- [Lisa] Bullshit, you're telling me

none of your boyfriends ever tried.

- I haven't really had a boyfriend per se.

- No way, really, oh shit, so you're a virgin.

- [Ann] Shut up, it's not like I'm a prude, or anything.

Guys just don't like me.

- [Lisa] You know, there's a little trick

for when you're feeling fat.

- [Ann] See, you do think I'm fat.

- [Lisa] I do not, I'm just saying.

Everybody feels that way sometimes, you know.

- [Ann] Yeah, right.

- Hey it works, all the models do it.

Trust me, it's not that bad.

- Why, you do that?

- Well, not all the time, just, like, when I pig out.

- That's sick.

- [Coach] I'm seeing a difference with that Creatine,

bulking up, more stamina.

You're still loading, right, 30 grams a day?

- Yep.

- [Coach] Good, because you need to be

putting on about five pounds by Saturday.

I didn't know the queen was your neighbor.

- Unfortunately.

- [Coach] He ever come on to you?

- Shut up.

- [Coach] All that kid needs is a day in the ring,

and we straighten him out,

straighten him out.

Hey, kid, don't talk so much.

(quirky music)

(knocking)

- Entrée.

- Hey, weirdo, you know you can wash that?

- I worship it too much to take it off.

Thank God you're here.

- [Steve] (mumbles) is on again.

- No, worse. - You (mumbles)

- I'm serious, cabin fever is driving me insane.

- What are we gonna do about you?

- Don't start, okay?

- [Steve] No, I mean, damn, you're never gonna hear

the end of it when you go back to summer class.

Maybe you better stay quarantined.

- I can just wear sweaters.

- [Steve] In July?

- Oh right, wouldn't want people

suddenly thinking I'm strange.

- We could say you were in a car crash.

- We could, we can say I hit a cheerleader,

and buried her body in the woods.

- That's the girl I love ♫ She's my weirdo ♫

You know the first shirt I did

was even better than this one.

You should have that one, too.

You could, like, alternate on not even days.

- Weirdo, why don't you just wear it?

- You know I don't wear my own shit.

It's tacky, I can develop an ego.

See, that's why I need you

to elope to New York with me, and open a boutique.

I want to keep it real, sister.

- Well, I want to see the other shirt.

- Yeah, me, too.

I left it at you know who's place.

- Oh, good luck with that.

- [Child] I want that one.

- [Tom] How is she?

- [Sally] I don't know, better I guess.

I left her with Steve.

I don't feel comfortable leaving her alone.

- Steve, Randy's boy? - [Ann] Uh-hum.

- You do know that he's gay, right?

- We don't know that, he's a good kid, I trust him.

- So has she said why, or?

- You sure we shouldn't have

her in some therapy, Tom?

- I don't know, Sal.

I think she'd just resent you for it.

Remember, Rob never had any use for it.

I think you should just listen to her.

- [Waitress] You want another beer?

- Better not. - [Waitress] Okay.

(doorbell ringing)

- [Hank] Hey Stevie, long time no see.

- Hi, Mr. Schrader.

- [Hank] How you doing?

Hey, come on in, Connor, you got company.

- [Steve] Hello, Mr. Schrader.

- What the hell are you doing here?

- I'm fine, thanks, and you.

I need my shirt.

Okay, we get it, you're macho.

- [Connor] Is that it?

- When did you turn into such a fucker?

- When you turned into such a fag?

- This is how I was born, it wasn't a choice.

- This is how I was born.

- You're not even worth it.

- [Rick] Who can share with us

the arithmetic mean of the numbers on the board?

Oh, Hi, Jess, good to have you back.

Anyone?

- What the cat dragged in.

(hissing)

You got problems.

(laughing)

- [Rick] All right, people, settle down, settle down.

(bell ringing)

- Jessica, wait a moment, please.

- What?

- Just want to let you know I heard what happened.

And whatever is bothering you?

- Who said something is bothering me?

- I just want you to feel comfortable in class.

If anyone gives you any trouble,

you can always come to me.

- Is that all?

- [Rick] Or you can always speak with one

of the guidance counselors if you prefer.

- I wonder who the genius was

that decided that spilling your guts out

to somebody magically cleans your slate?

- We just want to help.

- Can I go now?

- [Rick] Starting tomorrow, you need to spend

an extra hour with me after class to catch up.

- Whatever.

- Hi. - [Customer] Hey.

- $1.49.

- [Barry] Hey baby, what are you doing later?

- I don't know, what are you doing?

- You. - Pervert.

Ooh, I have a good idea.

You got to hook your boy up with Ann.

- Why? - Just do it.

- Hey man, you want to hang tomorrow?

There's a great party.

- No, I can't.

- [Lisa] Come on, you got to come, it's gonna be sick.

Ann, you're coming, right?

- Sure, it should be fun, you know.

- Just for a little while, if not,

Ann, here, is gonna be very disappointed.

- Okay, I guess.

- Cool, later woman.

- What was that?

- Nothing, just getting you some pussy.

You can thank me later.

Man, you don't even know.

This girl is gonna jump all over...

Hey, Mrs. Jones, you got a daughter, niece?

- Asshole.

- [Barry] Oh shit, was that Mr. Richard's wife?

- [Connor] I think it was.

- [Barry] Oh, man.

- This is crazy.

(blow dryer humming)

(gagging)

(vomiting)

(flushing)

- Wow, that was fast.

- Can I go now?

- [Rick] How come you couldn't pass algebra all year,

yet you can learn an entire chapter

in less than 20 minutes?

- You must be a great teacher.

- You used to be a straight A student.

What happened?

- Maybe I realized it doesn't matter.

- But it does matter, Jessica.

Everything you do in life matters.

- That's what people tell themselves.

- See you tomorrow.

- [Announcer] Do you know who's hot and who's not?

Gisele Bündchen has been seen around town

with a new hubby, they are inseparable,

and they're hitting all

the hottest clubs and restaurants.

- How was work?

Mom, you ever think about dating again?

- Oh please, I barely have time for you,

you know what I mean, why?

- No reason.

- [Katherine] You're off your diet, I see.

- I've been exercising. - That's great.

- [Announcer] Britney Spears, Angelina Jolie,

Jessica Simpson, and you're not going to believe

what teen celebrity...

(punching)

- Come on, follow, follow.

- [Hank] Hey there.

- Oh, Hi, um.

- Hank. - [Sally] Hank.

Right, I know, I'm Sally.

- [Hank] My son, Connor, and your daughter,

they're friends from school.

- Yes, they have a class together.

- [Hank] Right, yeah.

- I'm just going there now to pick up Jess.

- [Hank] Oh, how is she?

- Well, you know, she's...

You heard about the...

I took a leave of absence from my new job.

- Yeah. - [Ann] So, well.

- Uh, Sally, we're practically neighbors.

I think it's my civic duty to ask you out

for a cup of coffee, what do you say?

- Hey, baby.

- Don't, just don't, okay.

Don't embarrass yourself. - [Rick] Wow.

- [Ann] I'm going out.

- [Katherine] Wait, where are you going?

Be back by 12.

(hip-hop music)

- Bye, stop hiding, look at you.

You look hot, I'm serious,

but my question,

does the principal know where you are?

- Shut up, what if the cops come?

- [Lisa] Don't worry, (mumbles) all the time.

But tonight, it's your night.

So have fun.

- [Barry] Bottoms up. - Bottoms up.

- [All] Nine, 10, 11, 12,

13, 14, 15, Hurrah!

♫ You may think that you're not for me

♫ Baby I'm not the one you see in your dreams

♫ I can be what you want me to be

♫ Hey boy there's something about me

♫ That you need to understand

♫ But I can't and I won't put someone

♫ In the position to break another heart again ♫

- [Ann] Hey. - Hey.

- [Ann] You wanna a beer?

- No, training.

- Oh, right, don't they have any sports drinks here?

Cool party, huh?

- [Connor] Yeah.

- Every time I saw you at the store

I thought you'd be really cool to hang out with.

- Me? - Yeah.

- Thanks.

- Do you wanna dance?

- No, um, I can't dance.

- [Ann] There's something I wanna do.

- [Connor] Oh fuck.

- What's your fuckin' problem man, it was your fault.

(hard punch)

- [All] Fight, fight, fight, fight, fight!

- [Ann] What's the matter?

(groaning)

- Nothing.

(groaning)

- Okay, that's about it for today.

You've got a real knack for this.

You know cosines and tangents

better than I did at your age.

- Great, all I need to prepare for life.

- Okay, what do you need?

- [Jess] Goodbye Dr. Phil.

- [Rick] No, seriously,

why are you so mad at the world?

- Why do you care?

- I just want to make sure you're okay.

- Why don't you worry about your own life

because it doesn't look like cosines and tangents

are making your wife very happy.

So did you cheat on her, or something?

It's not so fun when we're talking about you, is it?

- The difference is you're not asking, you're attacking.

What the hell do you know?

- [Katherine] Wow, you're really taking

it seriously this time, I can already see a difference.

- [Ann] Really?

- Yeah, you look a little anemic, though.

I'm gonna go get you some iron supplements.

- Do I look good?

- Yeah, whatever you're doing,

it's working, keep it up.

- [Steve] Let's see, I'm a rich, famous,

ground-breaking, fashionable artist in New York City.

I got Tyra Banks on speed-dial,

she calls me for advice.

- [Jess] That's your dream?

- [Steve] Okay, anywhere far from this town

is acceptable, et toi?

- [Jess] Me.

I'm floating all alone in my own little boat,

just me against the rough winds.

- Honey, that would suck. - Why?

- Well, for starts, when you get horny.

(quirky music)

- [Ann] Hey, surprise, surprise.

- [Connor] Hey. - Always working, huh?

- Yeah.

- I had a great time the other night.

- Me too.

- So you're pretty serious about boxing, huh?

- Yeah.

- Well, I want to be a nutritionist,

so we make a good team.

You know, your body's your temple.

- [Connor] Yeah, sorry, I got to run.

- [Ann] That's funny, okay, was wondering

maybe you want to see a movie sometime?

- [Connor] Why not?

- Okay, so I'll get your number from Barry?

- Okay, see ya. - Cool.

- [Jess] You just want to be famous

so you can get laid all the time.

- [Steve] Doesn't everybody? - [Jess] No.

- [Steve] Seriously, how would you survive

all that time without sex?

- [Jess] I don't know, I'd be busy,

navigating the waves, thinking,

figuring things out.

I'd masturbate, okay, you happy?

- [Ann] I'm not sure he likes me.

- [Lisa] Yeah, right.

I was in the front seat, remember?

- Yeah, but.

- Yeah, but, nothing.

I heard Mount Vesuvius erupt.

- [Ann] Shut up, I mean, he doesn't talk, ever.

- [Lisa] He has speech problems.

- I'm serious.

- Chill, girl, they always come back for seconds.

- [Hank] Hey, Connor, how's your friend, Jess?

- What, why?

- [Hank] Just wondering.

- Hey son, when did you get home?

Look how big you're getting.

You still driving girls crazy? - Yeah, gramps.

I haven't talked to her,

but everybody knows she tried to kill herself.

- That's tragic.

- Dad?

Is mom coming?

- To the fight?

I don't know, you know,

she's got a lot on her plate these days,

I'm sure she'll try.

- [Grandpa] Son, how long you been here?

(phone ringing) Look how big you're getting.

You still driving those girls crazy?

- [Hank] Yeah, hold on just a second.

- Yeah, gramps. - Hey, Connor, it's Ann.

- I'm beat, tell her I'll call her back.

- [Hank] She's called two times already, take the call.

Hey, son, you know I'm proud of you, right?

But you're young, and she's pretty.

What are you crazy?

It's not gonna stunt your growth,

take the call, come on.

- Pretty girl, are you crazy?

- [Ann] Okay, see you then.

- All right, girl, let's roll.

- Guess what? - What?

- Guess who I scored a date with?

- Mount Vesuvius.

- Shut up, it's not like that.

- I'm sorry, I'm happy for you.

♫ Eyes reflect the faces

♫ I've seen lost in sorrow

♫ You know my spirit

♫ Speak to me through empty bottles

♫ You're coming around

♫ And taking the blame

♫ Drowning myself in emptiness

♫ But there's more to this life

♫ There's more to this world

♫ Than we've been living in

♫ There's more to this life

♫ I believe that we can change

♫ Change can change

♫ Embrace the fears that vice

♫ Your mind into silence

♫ Reasons that are far

♫ From our control

♫ Leave you hopeless

♫ You're coming around

♫ And taking the blame

♫ Drowning myself ♫

- Water break.

- My mom would kill me if she knew

I left the neighborhood.

- No, she'd kill me.

- Why, are you my probation officer all of a sudden?

- Afraid so. - Auch!

- [Steve] Jess, look, karaoke.

- Auch, we've got no...

- No, yes, yes. - No.

- Please.

♫ He's my lover baby

♫ He's my sweet, sweet, sweet

♫ Sweet lover snap ♫

Jess, isn't that Mr. Richards?

Now that's a man in the dog house.

Poor thing, should we say Hi? - No.

- I have to go back to work, Jess.

- I think that's great, mom, when?

- This week, Jess, I...

- [Jess] Mom, I'm fine, promise.

(melancholy music)

- Are you done?

- I saw you, you know.

- What are you talking about?

- At the motel.

- [Rick] Jessica, finish your task.

- Look, I'm sorry about before.

- Your task? - I'm done.

- [Ann] Why does it always have to be their way?

I just wish she would lay off.

She's a workaholic, she is,

she creates work for herself.

I never want to end up like that.

- Yeah, my mom doesn't even call me anymore.

- I'm so sorry, are they separated or divorced?

- Yeah, divorced. - Mine too.

- She moved out after my grandfather moved in.

- Do you want your parents to get back together?

- That's never gonna happen.

She's married again, and she has a new baby.

- I'm sorry.

- [Connor] Thanks. - Well, it's almost four.

If you want to see that movie?

I heard it's gonna be awesome, we should see it.

- Yeah, that sounds good.

- Really, okay, don't move, I'll be right back.

(gagging)

(vomiting)

- [Rick] May I? - Sure.

- So, what are you doing here?

- It's a miracle, my mom went back to work.

Did your wife confiscate your wheels, or something?

- Something like that.

I remember the day we bought that car.

It was her first new car.

God, she loved that new car smell, she was so happy.

She insisted that it be a four-door,

so that we could fit our kids.

- You have kids?

- Wasn't in the cards for us.

You know it's amazing how one day

you can be so completely, and utterly happy,

and the next the welcome mat is gone,

and the locks have been changed.

- That sounds pretty rough.

- How could someone be so completely

oblivious to how unhappy others are?

It's funny how we choose

to remember the good times.

I suppose too much pain could destroy us,

so we focus on the roses and-

and we like to forget the thorns.

- [Jess] Yeah.

I remember my dad used to tell me

these great bedtime stories,

but he'd never finish them.

He'd leave it up to me,

and then the next day he would ask me,

"So what's the ending, Jessica?"

I always had these great dreams.

- You used to write amazing, wonderful stories.

What happened?

- I don't know, I guess I stopped dreaming.

- [Ann] That was a freaking cool movie.

- [Connor] Yeah, it was pretty sick.

- [Ann] Yeah, and when the door opened slowly.

- [Connor] And you thought it was gonna be night,

but it was really bright sunlight.

- [Ann] Yeah-yeah, and you thought

it was a zombie gonna tear him apart.

- [Connor] But it was just that creepy woman.

- [Ann] Yeah, that woman was butt ugly.

- [Connor] Yeah. - [Ann] My favorite scene.

- Yeah, mine too.

So I have this exhibition fight coming up.

Everybody's gonna be there.

And if I do things right, I got to go pro,

it's my ticket, you know.

I don't want to go into all me.

- [Rick] So have you given any thought

to what you're gonna do next, dear?

- Steve wants me to move to New York with him.

- Are you going?

- Well, I don't want to lose my best friend.

- [Rick] Yeah, but what do you want, Jess?

Your dreams are waiting for you.

- What are you gonna do?

- [Rick] Oh, it's complicated.

She wants a divorce, I don't want to let her go.

It's a messy equation.

- [Jess] You know what they say.

If you love something you have to set it free.

- Yeah, well, I don't know that that wisdom

applies when you've been married for 20 years.

- Well, if you don't let her go,

I mean, you'll never move on.

We can't always get what we want.

- Back to work.

(farting)

(laughing)

- [Ann] I was starting to wonder why

she doesn't date, does you dad date?

- Not much.

- I wonder if she's hiding something.

Deep secret, and she's afraid of getting caught.

I think everyone has something to hide, right?

- I don't know.

- I think falling in love is finding

that one person you can share all your secrets with.

I'd keep yours.

- Umm, I got to hit the gym.

(hard punching)

- [Coach] Body.

To your body, drop your knees.

When you have the rock you should finish them.

Okay, easy.

Easy, Connor, easy, easy!

- [Connor] What did he do?

- [Abbie] Like everything (mumbles)

Do you mind holding this for me, please?

- [Connor] Sure. - [Abbie] Thanks, so nice.

So I think you're gonna win your match.

- [Connor] Really, thanks, I hope so.

- [Abbie] Well, you've been working hard.

- [Ann] I don't know what to do, Lisa.

He's seeing someone else.

- I'd like to shove that slut out of the picture.

- But she's, like, perfect, I hate her.

- How much money you got?

- [Ann] I just got paid, why?

- [Lisa] So let me get this straight.

People are gonna pay you to tell them what to eat.

- [Ann] I'll be a health professional,

it's like educating on what foods

are good for you, and stuff.

- [Lisa] That's what I said, people are gonna pay you

to tell them what to eat.

Oh shit, you look amazing.

- You think he'll like it?

- [Lisa] Hello, give me one reason why he wouldn't.

- He better, my mom is gonna have such a fit

when she discovers how much I spent.

- Why, it's your money?

- Tell her that, ever since my dad left

she wants me to save every penny, and have no fun.

"You have to be responsible,

"or you'll never amount to anything."

- Parents are fucking hypocrites.

They're afraid we're gonna make

the same stupid choices they did.

Hold on, damn, Ann,

you really have lost weight.

- [Steve] This place is so beautiful.

Look at that sky.

What is that, homework? - [Jess] Sort of.

- [Steve] What's gotten into you?

Are you gonna turn into a four-eyes, again?

- Hey, still doing what I can't get back.

- Does Lolita have a crush on the professor?

- [Jess] Get real.

- That's it, isn't it?

You've been in a better mood,

you're doing homework.

- [Jess] You're a pervert.

- What then?

- I don't know.

I guess he makes me feel like

maybe I'm not alone on the island, you know.

- No sex? - No sex.

- That actually sounds pretty nice.

I'm a little jealous.

I can't wait to find a man I can share the island with.

Someone who adores me, and trusts me.

Someone to get inspired by

with sex, of course.

- Weirdo, what am I gonna do

when you go away to college?

- You better get unlimited long distance,

if you don't come with.

- [Connor] So, coach? - [Coach] Yeah.

- [Connor] Think I'm ready?

- Well you had a good day today, and...

(phone ringing)

- Can you hold on one second?

Hey, I can't talk right now.

Sorry, I can't tonight.

Yeah, no problem, but I got to go.

Okay, bye. - Bye.

(sobbing)

(melancholy music)

- [Katherine] No, no, Cheryl, that is not acceptable,

and set that parent conference up for me for

10 o'clock tomorrow morning. - [Cheryl] Yes ma'am.

- [Katherine] And Cheryl, this is the last time.

- [Ann] You seem happier lately.

Honey, I have a conference next weekend.

- Cool. - Just over the weekend.

I'll be back Sunday night.

- Mom, I'm fine, relax.

- [Sally] Well, I've asked your uncle

to come stay with you, just in case.

- Just in case what?

- I just feel more comfortable.

- I won't be here anyways.

I'm spending the weekend at Steve's.

- [Rick] Mathematics is perhaps

the only true language

that humans speak to each other.

In the pure language of numbers

there is no error of miscommunication.

Equations and formulas will never...

- [Barry] What have you done to that poor little girl?

- [Connor] Nothing.

- [Barry] She's obsessed with you, bro.

You better be hitting that.

- You can always count on math, no pun intended.

Barry, is there something you'd like to add?

- No, sir, you said it all.

- [Rick] I don't understand you people.

Connor, do you want to be left behind, again?

What could possibly be so important?

- Getting into girl's pants.

- Speak for yourself, lesbo. - [Jess] Eat me.

- [Rick] All right, that's enough.

(bell ringing)

Did you finish the chapter?

- I'll finish it at home.

- Jess, why don't you tell me

what's really bothering you.

- Time's up.

- [Rick] I just want to know how things are going.

- Stop acting like my friend, okay?

I caught up with my work.

You can't make me fucking stay here anymore.

- Look.

I know that at your age being comfortable

with your sexuality isn't always easy.

- You want to lecture me about sex

when your wife is dumping your ass?

- What the hell is with you?

One minute you're warm and caring.

The next minute you're pushing everybody away.

- Life isn't like math, it doesn't always make sense.

- Hi. - How you doing?

- Good, great, $2.00.

- [Connor] Oh! - Just kidding.

- [Connor] Got to go, see you.

- Wait, do you want to hang out later?

- I'm sorry, training, got to go.

- [Ann] Connor, hold on.

I get it, I'm disgusting.

I don't look like that girl at the gym.

- [Connor] What? - I know about her.

- No, who told you that?

I'm not seeing anyone, that's crazy.

- Then, what's the problem?

- You know what, I got this fight.

I have to focus, that's all.

It's not you, Ann, I'm sorry.

- I'm coming off a little crazy, huh?

- It's okay, call you later.

- [Announcer] Miss (mumbles) we need help at

the check cashing window.

- [Lisa] Ann.

- You saw him, what's wrong with me?

- Nothing, just got to play it cool,

you'll scare him off, be patient.

- That's the most action I've gotten all week.

- [Steve] They walked in on me once

after I just smoked a bowl.

I'm talking my room was like cloud nine.

I told them it was incense.

Sister, they're so naive,

they don't even know I'm gay, they think I'm shy.

Huh, look at that sky.

No human could ever paint that depth.

I mean why even try.

I should try to make sense of our world, not copy it.

- Can I stay with you this weekend?

- [Coach] Not good.

Hey listen, I noticed you're a little

unfocused out there, is everything okay?

- Yeah. - [Coach] You sure?

- Yeah, just girl crap.

- Listen, in the ring there's no place for that shit.

That's a stupid way to lose, deal with it!

- I know.

- I'm serious Connor, you're too close, and you can't

afford to slip right now. - I know.

- [Coach] So what are you gonna do?

- Deal with it. - [Coach] Thatta boy.

I promise you after the fight

you'll get more pussy than your brother

ever dreamed of, that's my word.

(knocking)

- [Server] Rick Richards? - Yes.

- [Server] You've been served.

(melancholy music)

(knocking)

- Come in.

- I'm going to be early, honey.

- Goodnight mom.

- I love you, honey.

- Hey, can I come over?

(vomiting)

(flushing)

(knocking)

♫ It's hard to be alone

♫ They say I've changed without you

♫ I struggle to believe

♫ How far you really are

♫ And I wake up

♫ Wishing you were here

♫ Since you're not around

♫ It's really so lonely

♫ I can't escape

♫ From your face

♫ Since you're not around

♫ I'm feeling so lonely

♫ I can't escape

♫ From your face

♫ Since you're not around

♫ I'm feeling so lonely

♫ I can't escape

♫ From your face

♫ Since you're not around

♫ It feels so lonely

♫ I can't escape from your face ♫

- Connor.

You got to deal with this before it kills you.

- Don't start.

♫ All you wanted was

♫ For me to break

♫ Since you're not around ♫

(screaming and crying)

- [Connor] Grandpa?

Grandpa?

- [Grandpa] Son, what are you doing here?

Look how big you're getting.

- [Connor] What are you doing, grandpa?

- I was just, I was...

Um, nothing.

I can't remember, I can't remember.

- [Connor] Don't worry about it, it's okay.

Let me get your slipper on for you, okay?

Come on, let's get to bed.

- [Grandpa] You're a good kid.

- [Katherine] Ann?

Ann, I got you some iron supplements.

Ann, are you home?

I'm just gonna leave them on the counter for you.

I have some work to finish.

- Hey. - [Connor] Hey.

- I wanted to apologize for before.

- [Connor] Don't worry about it.

- Wanted to save you the trip. - Thanks.

- [Ann] So, where you off to?

- Got to hit the bags.

- Right, dumb question.

What are you doing after?

I mean we could hang out.

- Ann, I can't.

- Come on, you have to live a little.

- Can't you take a hint?

- [Jess] Why are we all so fucked up?

- [Steve] Keep it down,

you're gonna wake my parents.

- Then answer me, weirdo.

- [Steve] Don't try so hard to figure it out.

All you can do is accept yourself.

- Thanks weirdo.

- Listen, you know who's fight

is coming up this Friday. - So?

Don't tell me you want to go.

- He was your friend for, like, 10 years, Jess.

- He was yours, too, and look how he treated you.

- Maybe it's time we put things behind us.

- [Jess] Don't tell me you still have a crush on him.

- Maybe you should slow down.

- [Jess] You wuss.

You know, what if you just can't accept it?

Really?

What do you do if you can't accept yourself?

You say it, like, it's easy.

I'm sure for some people it is,

but you don't even know,

you don't even know.

For some people things go really deep.

When you really think about it,

what do you do?

Talk to your fucking mom, talk to God.

Well, mom, and God don't want you

to rock their world, no one does.

Who says I shouldn't end it right now?

- Stop fucking around.

- No, seriously, I mean

what would be so bad about it, you know,

like father, like daughter.

I was just saying.

- Just leave it off.

- [Steve] Hey, I was just kidding a lot before.

I'll go to the fight with you.

(cheering)

- [Coach] You got to get this guy, man.

You have to bend your fucking knees,

and keep moving, and can you pay attention?

Look at me, stay focused.

Hit him in the fucking belly.

Jab occupies his hands.

You stuck into his belly and he froze,

everything opened up.

Put that jab up and stick it...

- [Steve] He was so hot, it was worth the wait.

He loved it.

[Coach] Listen to me, I'm telling you

he's gonna walk into a right hook.

Just keep jabbing and focus.

He's killing it with the jab.

Just keep on and focus.

- [Steve] Honey, he's as gay as they come.

- Listen, listen to me.

He's gonna walk into a right hook.

Let's go to work.

- Ready, ready.

- All right, push him, push him.

- [Referee] Let's go guys, break.

- [Steve] He loves cock.

- [Crowd] Ohhhh!

- Come on, man!

Keep working, come on, come on!

Come on, come on!

- One, two, three,

four, five, six,

seven, eight,

nine, ten.

- [Coach] That's what I'm talking about,

that's what I'm talking about.

- Connor, Connor,

Connor, Connor.

- [Coach] You get used to that feeling, baby.

You get used to that.

Because that's what it feels like to win.

- Winner.

(crowd cheering)

- [Coach] Yeah boy, yeah.

- [Rick] There's no easy way to say this, so,

I'm worried about her.

- I thought her grades were good.

- [Rick] Her grades are fine.

She'll pass with flying colors.

I'm concerned about

whatever it is that's troubling her.

- But, what do you mean?

- [Rick] Well, it seemed like she was

coming out of her shell,

but then the last week of class, I don't know.

She was more hostile, and negative than ever.

This is a delicate question,

but is there a history of bipolar disorder,

or depression in your family?

- I don't know, I mean, kind of.

On her father's side.

He killed himself when she was five.

- $1.49, great fight yesterday.

- Thanks.

- $2.00.

- [Jess] I don't understand why

we just can't stay here forever.

- [Steve] Well, for one thing, we'd run out of weed.

- That would suck.

If I could never see anybody again,

I'd be really happy, you know.

- You've been extra dark lately,

not your usual negative self, are you okay?

- I just want to be left alone.

- Speak for yourself, I could never live

without those togetherness moments,

with a gorgeous guy, I would just...

- God, can't you think of anything else?

I mean, is that all you ever think about?

Connor is an asshole who hates you.

- Girl, I'm tired of this crap.

Tell me the truth, are you a lesbian?

- No. - What then?

- Are you in love with me?

- Oh my God, no, get over yourself.

- Okay, so what, what is it?

You just haven't had a beautiful man in your bed yet?

Letting you feel his throbbing manhood

until you're begging for it, huh?

- No. - [Connor] Get off.

- Get off. - [Steve] Get off!

- Get off, get off!

- [Steve] Sweetie, sweetie, sweetie.

It's okay.

Honey, you need to tell me what's going on.

You can tell me anything.

Did somebody, did somebody do something to you?

(acknowledges yes) (crying)

- [Ann] I just wanted to congratulate you.

You wanna sit?

- Are you okay?

- I think I just got the flu, or something.

So, all your dreams have come true.

- I don't know, hopefully.

- [Ann] You're gonna be rich and famous.

Shame you don't have a girlfriend to share it with.

I know, wishful thinking.

I mean, what's the problem,

what's your excuse now, the fight's over.

- [Connor] Ann, you okay?

Ann, wake up, Ann.

- Honey, we need to talk.

- Not now, mom, I have a headache.

- I've seen the websites you're visiting.

- [Jess] What?

- I looked at your computer, Jess.

- [Jess] Are you kidding me?

- Please, let me help you.

Jess, please let me in, I love you.

- Leave me alone, mom, you can't help.

(melancholy music)

(knocking)

(punching)

- Fuckin' faggot.

- [Connor] You got a fuckin' problem?

- Easy, easy.

- [Coach] Hey, what the hell is going on?

(knocking)

- Honey, I am so sorry.

Oh, my baby.

- How could you?

- [Sally] Jess, you have to tell me, who was it?

- Just leave me alone, please.

- Jess. - You don't want to know.

- Jessica.

- I'm gonna get some coffee, do you want anything?

(gagging)

(vomiting)

- [Katherine] Oh my God, Ann.

What are you doing?

- [Coach] Man, what's gotten into you?

- I don't know.

- [Coach] Take a few days, man, relax,

these are good times.

(melancholy music)

♫ You're just watching me burn

♫ And it's all that I deserve

♫ Left out on the highway ♫

- Come in.

- What's going on, are you okay?

- Come in.

- [Male Nurse] Gonna need you to

step outside, please.

- Mom, what's happening?

- [Katherine] It's all right, baby,

it's all right, they're just here to help,

it's okay, it's okay, I'll be right outside.

I'll be right outside.

- How could you?

- What are you talking about?

- She told me.

- Who, Jess?

Okay, Sally, I don't know what you're talking about,

but whatever she told you, she's disturbed.

- She's 17, how could you rape your own niece?

- This is insane, and I don't have to hear this.

- Yes you do, and you're lucky

I want to settle this right now

because that poor girl does not need

the whole world knowing.

Now I could easily take you down,

and get the DNA evidence they need

to put you behind bars.

- [Nurse] Ann, we're gonna insert this tube

into your nose, and it's gonna go down

the back of your throat, and into your stomach,

and that's how we're gonna feed you, okay.

- This is crazy, Sally.

- [Sally] Tom.

I got to ask, so you tell me truth.

Make this right.

Tom.

Did you rape, Jessica?

Did you?

- Sally, it wasn't like that, okay, she...

- [Ann] How could you do that to my little girl,

how could you?

- [Tom] It only happened once.

- Stop it, get out, I can't believe it.

How could you do that to my daughter,

how could you?

- [Hank] Sally, come on.

Get him out of here.

- [Police officer] You have the right to remain silent.

Anything you say can and will be held

against you in a court of law.

You have a right to an attorney during questioning.

If you cannot afford an attorney,

one will be appointed for you.

- What the fuck have you been saying about me?

- [Steve] Are you ever in a good mood?

- [Connor] Don't fuck with me.

- What the hell is your problem?

- Everybody knows.

- [Steve] I didn't say anything.

- That's bullshit.

- You know, Connor, it doesn't have to be

this rough all the time.

You could take me out to dinner.

Mother fucker, what are you worried about, huh?

That I'm gonna out you,

like you did me in ninth grade?

- I'm not like you.

- You're queer, Connor, and everybody knows it.

(hard punching)

- [Steve] What are you doing, stop!

(hard punching)

(dramatic music)

- [Nurse] Just relax.

Don't swallow.

(dramatic music)

- [Dispatch] Officer needed, 10-74 in progress,

two males, (mumbles) Street North.

- That's my street.

- [Sally] Go, I'll be here.

- [Hank] I'll call you, all right.

10-4, unit M-12, I'm a mile away, I'm on it.

Connor, what the hell did you do?

(dramatic music)

- Jess.

(dramatic music)

- Hi, I'm Lisa, a friend of Ann's.

- [Katherine] Yeah, I know who you are.

Did you know what was going on?

- What are you talking about?

- You are not seeing my daughter.

- School's out.

- [Doctor] Mrs. Kelly?

- [Katherine] Yes, talk to me.

- Your daughter is bulimic, possibly anorexic.

Now there are programs out there

to help your daughter,

but she's gonna need your support in this.

I'll make sure you get some information on it.

She may struggle with this disorder

her entire life, Mrs. Kelly.

Now, if you need anything at all,

please just call me, okay.

- [Ann] I'll take you for ice-cream.

- [Lisa] Yeah, that would be fun.

- [Steve] Jess. - Yeah.

- I love morphine.

I had to tell her.

- I know, I know.

Looks like we're both going to be okay, right, weirdo?

- Right, we're in this together.

As soon as I get my looks back.

(melancholy music)

- [Hank] Why?

- Dad.

I, uh...

(melancholy music)

- How is he?

- He's gonna be fine.

- That's good.

- Look, I'm sorry about...

- Don't you worry about that.

Well, it's official, I'm on my own now.

Got a nice apartment.

- That's great, you're gonna be fine, I know it.

- Thanks, what about you?

- I'm dreaming again.

They say you have to go

through hell to get to heaven.

It sounds like a cruel joke,

but maybe it's true.

Maybe that's the only way we learn

that we're more than our emotions.

How they treat us,

what they tell us to be.

Everything is like the weather,

and weather changes.

Sometimes you just got to go

where the wind blows you.

(dramatic music)

- [Radio announcer] For all you punk fans

that have been waiting patiently to hear what group

is gonna be on tour this fall here's a little hint.

♫ He's my lover baby

♫ He's my sweet, sweet, sweet, lover

♫ Come on, he's my lover baby

♫ He's my sweet, sweet, sweet, sweet, lover

♫ Lover snap ♫

(lyrical music)