Original subtitles

RADIO: 'But if you reduce hours...

'I mean, we've already heard in a special school,

'there was only two days a week of speech therapy,

'and the caseload was enormous...'

BIRDSONG

"Do not let your hearts be troubled.

"Believe in God. Believe also in me.

"In my father's house there are many dwelling places.

"If it were not so,

"would I have told you that I go to prepare a place for you?"

MOBILE PHONE RINGS

PHONE BEEPS

Yeah?

Yeah, I'll call you later.

Vicar's talking.

Old man's funeral.

"Old man's funeral"?

That's what he said, Jenny.

That poor father being buried!

What a son. They couldn't wait to get out of there.

Thomas would never say that.

Sometimes, this job would break your heart.

He's much too good a boy, our brother.

Lizzie's being Lizzie. Yeah, Lizzie. You're being Lizzie.

Mum, Jenny's being Mum. I'm your mum, I say stop...

It's not fair - you're all against me, cos I've got bigger feet.

But your feet - they're dazzling, madam, quite dazzling

LAUGHTER

What is she on about?

Mum and Jenny were shopping... We took so long to buy anything

that the assistant thought we were going to nick something

and then Mum said, in her best vicarage voice..

"This blouse - would it suit my daughter?

"Does it match her eyes, which we think are..."

BOTH: "..Dazzling?" LAUGHTER

Ooh. Oh, dear!

"Dazzling, madam, as you say. Quite dazzling."

Stop mocking your poor mother!

Dazzling!Absolutely dazzling!

What a rowdy lot this family is.

Roll on, Anglesey - lovely holiday, lovely Wales.

Oh, lucky you, Mum.

Lucky me? Wish you were coming.

Well, I'm a hard-working woman, stuck in London.

In fact, I'd better go. It's nearly time for the train.

Is James going to meet you at Reading?Yes, he will.

I'll ring you tomorrow.Mmm-hmm. We'll come to the stationwith you, wave you off.Great!

Bye, Mum. Ready, Dad? Yup, ready.

Bye! Bye, darling.

Love you.See you, Mum!Bye.

Bye, Mum. Bye. Thank you. Drive carefully.

I'm in the front.

We're still on holiday.

KNOCK ON DOOR

Are you awake, Julie?

Yes, Uncle Jimmie.

Do you want your cuppa?

Yes, please.

It's going to be a lovely day.

I'll get up in a minute and make breakfast.

'You're waking up to BBC Radio Berkshire...' Get up, James.

'..thank you for joining us. It's Maggie and Jim with you,

'through until nine o'clock this morning...'

What time is it?

It's time to get up and go to work.

I don't want to go to work.

I know you don't, but if you don't get up now,

then how are you going to win the Nobel Prize?

I don't want to win a Nobel Prize. I want to stay in bed.

James, get up.

I'm off.OK.

I'll see you this evening.

Get up.Hm.

See you, James.

'..Neil Armstrong became the world's most famous man. What was the year?'

Get up.

Eggs. Do you think they're going to want eggs as well?

Well, somebody might!

How much toast should I do?

One each, to start with?

Or maybe two, for the blokes. OK.

No bacon for me, there's more for the men.

Dad, Uncle, breakfast's nearly ready.

Coming! Coming!

Well, we should make use of the good weather.

A trip in the car would be lovely.

What about a picnic, Julie?

Lovely.

Where, Dad?

Hmm? Oh, you decide.

Will we fit in?

We can squeeze. None of us are that fat.

I'm working on it. LAUGHTER

PHONE RINGS

Lizzie?

Mum, are you watching television?

No, I'm cooking breakfast. Why?

Mum, have you talked to Jenny? I can't reach her.

Would she have her mobile?

Well, she'll be busy at work - it's ten past nine.

Oh, you don't know, do you? There've, er...

There've been explosions

'in London - explosions. It's all on television. Turn it on.

'I can't reach Jenny.'

Lizzie, she'll be busy at work. Stop being dramatic.

I'm not. I'm worried - turn on the television.

TV: 'Several different stations now, indeed

'and, of course, we have been hearing all morning

'that it was a power surge that caused the problems...'

Oh, my God.'..right across the London Underground,

'but we still don't know what caused that power surge...'

I'll ring her and I'll call you back as soon as I've spoken to her.

'..two trains which may have collided at Edgware Road

'and British Transport Police are trying to investigate

'whether passengers are still there...'What's wrong?

'..on board and just... and trapped there...

'London's entire underground network has been closed.

'Police are describing it as a major incident.'

Jenny, it's Mum. Are you OK? Can you call me as soon as you can?

'..across the capital have been closed, while major termini,

'including King's Cross and Liverpool Street have beenevacuated.

'Some people...'Auntie Karina, we having this picnic or not?

Boiling eggs for the sandwiches.

'We can talk to our correspondent Russell Hayes,

'who's at the police station in Edgware Road...'

Did you get hold of your mum, Lizzie?

She said as soon as Jenny realises what's happened, she'll call.

She'll keep ringing.

'..but this place still alive with activity,

'there is police tape fluttering along every entrance to Edgware Road

SIREN WAILS 'Ambulances are still arriving here.

'We're also getting reports this morning of an explosion

'in Russell Square.

'Now, we have had confirmation of an explosion on the bus.

'You can see the emergency services there.

'We were just hearing there from an eye witness,

'who heard this very loud explosion

'and we understand that this has very badly destroyed

'the top layer of the bus.

'We can see some bystanders there...'

That's not a power surge.

These are bombs.

'Now, if you're worried about relatives,

'don't call 999 or any of the hospitals.

'Scotland Yard has issued a special telephone number

'for anyone concerned about friends or relatives.

'The number to ring is 0870 1566344.

'That's 0870 1566344.

'Well, I'm glad to say that the Metropolitan Police Commissioner,

'Sir Ian Blair, is in our Westminster Studios.

'I wonder if you could start by giving us

'the facts as you know them at the moment.'

PHONE VIBRATES

'I want to say one thing specifically to the world today.

'This was not a terrorist attack against the mighty and the powerful.

'It was not aimed at presidents or prime ministers,

'it was aimed at ordinary, working class Londoners.

'Black and white, Muslim and Christian, Hindu and Jew,

'young and old.

'Indiscriminate attempt to slaughter,

'irrespective of any considerations

'for age, for caste, for religion, whatever.

'The Archbishop of Canterbury...' PHONE RINGS

It's James.

James?

'Hi, Julie.'Have you heard from Jenny?

No, I haven't. Shall I call her office?

I've been trying. I can't get through.

I'll try again and as soon as I do, I'll call you first thing.

All right?

OK.

Try the office.

'..clearly enormous. James Westhead, BBC News.

'That's the latest from the hospitals,

'now we have new pictures from the bus attack...'

Oh, hello. This is Jenny's mother. I'm so glad to get through.

Is Je...'..Square, that's very close,

'you can see on the map...'

Could you ask her to call me, immediately?

Yes, I'm sure she will. Has anybody else not arrived?

'..the new pictures from Russell Square or very close to where that

'bus was actually targeted of course,

'right outside the BMA building...'

They're all there.

Thank you.

'..debris from just the force of this bus.

'Scotland Yard has had explosives officers...'

They're all there, at work.

She's not.

'..they did say that traces of explosives

'have been found at two of the sites.'Oh...

I'll check on the main hospitals.

Are you staying in Anglesey, or are you going home to Bristol?

I'm not sure. I'm not overly worried.

'I'm not sure, Vanda.'

'News 24 and BBC One...' No. Neither are we.

I was just saying, she might be helping somebody.

She wouldn't walk away.

Maybe you should check the hospitals.

She might be sitting around in one.

She might be waiting for news in an A & E.

Julie, what do you think you should be doing?

'The blasts began shortly before nine o'clock...'

Going to London to see for myself.

London.

I'm ringing her cousins.

Do you think you should?

Yes, I do. And I think they will drive her.

'Scotland Yard said there were seven...'

MUFFLED TV

Have you got enough money?

Shall I help you pack for the morning?

Pack, Julie

I don't know what to take.

Leave that to us.

'The Queen has issued a statement

'describing the day's attacks as dreadful

'and she expressed sympathy to all those affected

'and her admiration for the Emergency Services.'

'It's six o'clock on Friday 8th July. Good morning.

'This is Today with John Humphrys and Sarah Montague...'

KNOCKS AT DOOR Can I come in?

Sharon?

I'm glad to see you! What are you doing here?

Martyn, she's decent - you can come in.

We're driving you to London - we insist. We'll meet James there.

You must have got up at some unearthly hour.

It's all right, Julie - we're with you.

We're not letting you do this on your own, Julie.

Will we find her? We'll bring her home.

'After the four terrorists...part of London's transport system,

'a big security effort has begun...'

What's Greg doing?

Er, he needs to stay in Bristol, with Lizzie and Thomas.

And in case Jenny phones?

Yeah, in case she rings.

James!

Hi.

Anything?Er, nothing yet, no, no.

Hi, Sharon.How are you?

Hi, Martyn.All right.

Um, just through here.

Just give them your name.

Have you travelled far today?

It's quite stifling in here, isn't it? Yes, it is.

Is there anything I can get you?

No, there isn't - thank you.

Are any of you hungry?

I don't mean if you'd like my sandwich -

of course if you want to have it, feel free -

I'm thinking of coffee and tea.

There's biscuits as well.

I hope you soon have news.

So do we. Thank you.

I wish he'd just eat the ruddy thing.Julie?

Mrs Nicholson? I'm Joanne, a Police Liaison Officer.

We've matched the details you've given to us.

There's a young white woman in intensive care -

she's under 30, unidentified.

Might she be...?

We're checking for distinguishing marks.

Is she the only one? There are two others.

And neither of them match Jenny's description -

hair colour, the photographs this gentleman brought.

Might she be in another hospital? I've explained to this gentleman...

James.There's no point in going anywhere else -

all casualties yet to be identified have been sent here.

So, what do we do?

We wait.

Excuse me.

'..not the first country to experience

'this kind of terrorist attack...' PHONE RINGS

Julie?

Are you bearing up?

She hasn't phoned here. Has she...

Phoned me?

'I'd have told you.'

Can I speak to Mum?

I'm putting Lizzie on.

Mum, all the cousins from Manchester are arriving -

Katie and Joanne.

That's good, you'll have a full house.

Lizzie...

..mind Thomas.

'Make sure you mind Thomas.'

I will.

Can you put Dad back on?

I'm here, Julie.

First news, I'll ring.

She'll be all right.

We'll find her.

We'll find her.

I promise.

Cigarette, or something?

Oh, you haven't got a spare cigarette You sure?

What? Something not to your liking

Mrs Nicholson

James, you as well, please.

I know you gave these details before, but...

It's all right, it's all right. I need descriptions.

Of Jenny?

Well, she looks like you. Your age, your colouring.

Um, she doesn't have any fillings.

She was wearing a watch - her bracelet watch...

Yeah, bracelet watch.

Um, she has scars on her back...

..and her bosom - she has a wonderful bosom.

Well, she does.

PAGER BEEPS

Sorry, would you excuse me?

I'm confused.

She wouldn't have been at any of those stations, or on that bus.

I know her route, I know exactly where she should've been.

It just doesn't make sense.

It doesn't make sense.

Mrs Nicholson, would you consent to having your DNA taken?

Yes, of course.

Can you open your mouth for me?

Are you going home now?

Er, no. We're going to my sister Vanda's house, just outside Reading.

Will we hear from you?

No, you'll be assigned officers from the Reading area -

probably in the next few hours.

If there's anything I can do, please call me.

How many people have you said that to today?

I know you mean it.

Please, please find my Jenny.

We'll do everything we can.

Spare some change Anything you got?

Except 20p, I don't want... I don't want 20p,

I can't buy anything for 20p.

I mean, what about you? You got a... You got a fag

Please! Don't you have change?

Leave us alone - just leave us alone.

SIRENS BLARE

And it's Steven Gerrard!

No! He's tackled the goalkeeper,

he's tackling the goalkeeper!

He's tackling!

Yeah!

Were the police helpful?

They did what they could.

Not much they could do.

There was a woman in intensive care we thought might be Jenny,

but it wasn't.

Julie did a DNA test.What's that?

Just to help them - the police.

When someone goes missing, their mum or dad gives a DNA test.

Why?

So the police will know exactly -

scientifically, who they're looking for.

Won't they know Jenny when they see her?

Course they will, Ellie.

Have they been ringing from Bristol

Greg did. We want them here.

I'll finish the food. You must be famished.

Thank you both so much. I'll give you a hand.

I haven't brought Jenny with me, Vanda.

I promised them that I'd find her.

We will, Julie.

If we have to search the earth for Jenny, we will.

They know that.

Just...drink your gin...

OUTSIDE: Goal!

Or you could join Steven Gerrard out there in a game of football.

It's well past his bedtime, I'd better bring him in.

'The attacks came just 24 hours after the city was told

'it had been awarded the Olympic Games for 2012.

'The Mayor of London, Ken Livingstone...'

She called me from there, all excited.

She saw the Red Arrows for the first time in all her 24 years.

'Their faces say it all, Sir Bobby Charlton

'and his London team-mates, checking in...'

There's no way she could be travelling

through any of those stations. There's no logic to it.

I know I keep saying that, but...

It says on the news, people are drifting into churches

and they're traumatised -

completely traumatised - not knowing who they are, or where they're from.

Anything could have happened.

She's just been caught up in this.

She's missing.

For the time being, she's missing.

And we will find her.

We will.'..Olympic glory, the last thing on anyone's mind.

'Andrew Harding, BBC News, Singapore.'

No sleep either?

None - no.

I remember the first question I ever answered about her.

What was it?

The midwife said, "Mrs Nicholson, your baby is awake and hungry

"and would you like to feed her?"

And I could hear the faint cry of a newborn baby.

And my first child is placed in my arms.

And I look down at her face...

..and the midwife asks, "What are you calling her?"

And I reply, "Jennifer -

"Jennifer Vanda Ann."

And my baby's feeding from my breast...

..and I can hear little suckling sounds...

..and I vow this to her...

I vow to love her, protect her, and keep her from harm...

..and I haven't.

It's not looking good, Vanda, is it?

It's not looking good.

Julie, what are you doing?

What?

Is my kitchen not clean enough for you?

Yeah.So why are you mopping it?

It's something to do.

Anything to do.

Shouldn't you try to sleep?

I've got to meet the Family Liaison Officer.

Jenny...Jenny and James' house.

When?

This morning.

Do you want me to come into Reading?

Oh, no. James is going to be there and Greg's coming.

Can you get me some credit for my phone?All right.

No, no, no, no. Pay me later.

What about the people at your church?

Oh...

Um...well, I'm on holiday,

so I don't need to worry about services.

The bishop

Yeah, he should know. Um, somebody should know.

I'll do it. Who should I call?

There'll be somebody at the church - in the office - somebody, anybody.

How is my mother, the vicar?

The others are waiting for you.

I've just come to see if you need a hand.

Poor Mum - you must be drained.

It's not every day that a girl gets ordained.

Oh, you must be roasting. This heat is sweltering.

I took precautions.What?

Mum! LAUGHTER

Under the cassock, I'm still a woman.

Only my mother would be ordained wearing red lacy undies.

Well, maybe they all were - I hope they were.I'm telling Dad.

Tell them all. Tell the world!

DOORBELL RINGS

FOOTSTEPS COME DOWNSTAIRS

Oh, Thomas, darling...

We'll find her.I know. We'll find Jenny.

Lizzie's here. Is there any more word?

Nothing yet, but maybe when we meet with the Family Liaison...

Oh, Mum... Lizzie! Mum

I'm fine, I'm fine.

Oh, I missed you. I missed you too.

Thank you. It's, er...Colin, is it?

Yes, that's right. I'm Pauline.

Everything that you would do yourself to find your daughter,

we'll do on your behalf.

We'll be in touch regularly, in person or on the phone.

So, even if there's no news...

Well, we'll confirm that there's no news.

I have to ask - has Jenny been abroad recently?

Er, no. No, we haven't been on holiday.

Did she have religious affiliations?

Church of England, like the rest of the family.

I'm a vicar - why are you asking this?

We have to have clear lines of inquiry.

Let them ask whatever questions they think helpful.

Have most of the injured been identified?

Yes, they have.

May I go upstairs and collect a few items belonging to Jenny?

Shall I show you? It's OK. You stay here.

Do you have those photographs of Jennifer?

I'm happy to give a DNA sample. I know my wife already has.

Anything that helps... We appreciate that.

It's a simple procedure.

You'll keep them safe?

I only need a few.

She looks different in all of them.

We'll make sure that you get these back.

We'd rather get Jenny back.

We hope that she's still alive.

We, er...we'd like the police to explore

the possibility of other train or road incidents...

Jen may be in hospital in an accident

not connected with the bombings...

That's very unlikely.

Any news will be given to you straight away.

Now, I have to ask if you would like information

on a need-to-know basis or all details.

I want to know everything.

I want to know everything.

We'll see ourselves out. We'll keep in touch by phone.

If we have any definite news, we'll come in person together to see you.

Thank you.

James, I really appreciate everybody coming,

but there are going to be so many.

Are you sure you want to face the multitude?

I want to be with the people Jenny loves.

How can you be so calm, James, when I know your heart is broken?

Not completely.

It's not broken, not yet.

It's them.

'Were these people linked directly to the core of al-Qaeda -

'what's left of it in Pakistan or Afghanistan -

'or were they acting on their own?'

Julie?

Yeah?

William has something to ask you.

What's wrong, William?

Nothing.

If there was something, would you tell me?

What is it you want?

I want everybody to go away and leave my house.

Why are there so many of them in our kitchen?

Would you like Auntie Julie to tell you about Jenny

and what's happening?

Is Jenny dead?

We don't know.

We hope not, but she might be.

So, that's why everybody's here?

So we can all be together to find out...?

..What's happened to Jenny on the Tube. Is that OK?

Is there anything else you want to know?

Did someone put the bombs there?

Yes, William, they did.

I think the bombers are very bad people.

'Anxious friends and relatives have been searching

'for around 20 people who've not been seen since the attacks.

'Fergal Keane has been hearing some of their stories.

'Laura Webb was 29 and on her way to work,

'like Anya Brandt - missing on the Piccadilly Line.

'Jenny Nicholson from Bristol, also on her way to work...'

Where did they get that photograph?

I don't know.

'Anthony Williams, also missing on a bus.

'Philip Russell, another bus passenger.

'Richard Ellery, missing on the Tube.

'The most difficult recovery operation is here at King's Cross.

'If you go down to the platform...'

I thought it was a rescue operation. Why "recovery"?

'Rescue workers say the scene underground is truly terrible -

'hell on earth.'

Uncle Jimmie, are you OK?

HE SOBS

Oh...

Oh, I know...

I know.

You all right, Julie?

There's one thing we've forgotten about - the dog.

Misty.

Our neighbours were minding her.

Where should she go?

Should she stay in Bristol or come here?

Julie? Julie, the dog... What about the dog?

SHE SCREAMS

I don't care about that dog!

Julie, what's the matter?

"What's the matter?"

My daughter's missing. She might not be coming back.

That's why they've taken her toothbrush - for DNA.

Do you really think that they'd be doing that if she was coming back?

My daughter... Your granddaughter has been murdered -

by terrorists, probably -

and you ask me what the matter is?

And you want to know about the dog?

She's been murdered.

Hasn't she

Hasn't she? Oh, God....

JULIE SOBS

I can't go back to Bristol until I bring her home.

I have to bring her home.

Maybe she'll sleep.

We'll sort the dog out.

Do you think we should stay?

No. It's time to leave them.

Will she sleep?

'Yet today, police revealed

'they are sure of the identities of all four bombers

'and they are convinced all four were suicide attacks.

'Hasib Hussain was one of four men -

'the Metropolitan Police Commissioner said today -

'carried the bombs and were killed in the blasts.

'One of Hussain's friends, Mohammad Sidique Kahn,

'planted the bomb at Edgware Road.

'Another, Shehzad Tanweer, detonated the Aldgate bomb.

'And today, police sources named the fourth bomber,

'Lesley Germaine, a Briton of Jamaican origin.

'And this is where he lived.

'His Aylesbury home raided by anti-terrorist officers has...'

How long will we have to wait for news?

We don't know.

Maybe she won't ever be found.

Don't say that.

It all takes so much time.

Well...

..the police say that there are a lot of...

Don't even think that.

Julie?

How are you, Mum?

About the same as you.

You can always talk to us.

You know that, Mum.

Yeah, yeah.

I'm the oldest. Dad, Dad! I'm the oldest!

No, I should be in the middle, cos I'm the middle child!

I'm the boy! Dad, Mum! But I'm here already!

Can we please just settle down for a second? Let's just...

Er, no, I'm in the middle... No, I should be in the middle.

What?! Dad, I'm always in the middle...

Do you want to say something? Greg, you're the photographer.

Dad! Come on! No, no! Just take the photo.

I'm just going to take it, I'm just going to take it.

Absolutely unfair! No! LAUGHTER

CAMERA CLICKS

# I need you More than anyone darling

# You know that I said from the start

# So build me up Build me up, Buttercup... #

We have bad news for you.

Jennifer Nicholson has been identified by way of dental records

as being one of the victims from the Edgware Road site bombings.

QUIET SOBBING

A temporary mortuary has been set up.

It will probably be 28 days before Jennifer's body can be released.

The DNA test confirms that it is Jennifer.

There is no mistake.

Jenny... Shh.

I want to see Jenny's body.

That's not advisable.

We have to wait.

I want to see her as soon as possible.

I am a priest, and I will see her.

I want to and I will see her.

I will not wait. I do not care what is advisable.

I am her mother

and I will see my daughter.

You can hold her hand.

She kept her nails short, cos she played the piano.

I can't remember the words.

I'm sure whatever you say will be perfect.

In your beginning, I anointed you

with water, blood and milk...

..and in death...

..I anoint you with oil...

..in the name of this mystery that we call God.

By this holy anointing

and of his most loving mercy...

Loving...

It is Jenny.

I can tell by her hands -

her beautiful hands.

She's dead.

Thank you. Thank you for being with me.

Now, where am I going?

You're very upset, Julie.

Don't rush things.

Can I not drive you back, are you sure?

No, I need some air, I'll...

I need to walk. I'll get a taxi.

It's nearly rush hour.

Well, there'll be more taxis out, then.

Thank you.

CAR HORN BEEPS

CHILDREN LAUGH

SIRENS BLARE

TRAIN SLOWS

TRAIN BRAKES SCREECH

Sorry, love. I'm not for hire. I'm going off duty now.

Please, I need to get to Paddington.

In this traffic? You must be joking.

Please?

Please...

All right. Well, if I don't take you to Paddington,

I'll have to take you home with me, won't I? Get in.

Well, jump in - I'll take you to Paddington.

You look a bit flustered. You been waiting long?

Yeah, I'm not from London.

You up sightseeing, are you?

Doing a bit of shopping?

Only see one carrier bag - you must be hanging onto your money.

No, not shopping.

What brings you up, then?

I came to see my daughter's body.

She was killed at Edgware Road.

What was her name, if you don't mind me asking?

Jenny.

She was on her way to work at Shaftesbury Avenue.

Oh, you sit back, love. I'll soon have you at Paddington.

CROSSING LIGHTS BEEP

Thank you. Thank you for being so kind.

Listen, why don't you stay where you are and let me drive you?

To Reading?

I couldn't possibly let you do that.

You going to stop me, are you?

No, I'm not going to stop you.

Don't worry, I'll get you there safe and sound.

Thank you.

You rest. I know the way to Reading.

I can't tell you how grateful I am.

How much do I owe you? No, you don't owe me anything.

I can't let you drive me all this way for nothing.

I wanted to do it.

Look, you must think the world's a pretty bleak place right now.

I just wanted you to know there's still some good people left in it.

I wonder if you still can believe that?

Yeah, I can - sometimes.

Don't let them win.

I'll never do that.

Courage?

Courage. I'll try.

Then you've paid me.

Auntie Julie!

What's up with Steven Gerrard there?

He's bursting to ask you more questions.

What do you want to ask me, Wills?

I can't - Mum'll be cross.

All right, I know when I'm not wanted

Come on.

So, what do you want to know?

Promise you won't be cross.

Promise.

Auntie Julie, was Jenny reading a book when the bomb went off?

Yes, I think she was.

How do you know?

She was always reading.

Is that what James thinks as well? Yeah.

What page was she on when the bomb went off?

About halfway through, I expect.

When the bomb went off, was Jenny standing like this?

I hope so, Wills.

When it went off, did Jenny fall like this?

Or was it like this?

Probably backwards, because of where her body was found.

OK. I expect Jenny fell like this.

HE IMITATES EXPLOSION

William, stop annoying Auntie Julie.

I'm not.Yes, you're upsetting her.

No, he's not.See? Just go and play in the other room.

All right.

Dread to think what he was asking you.

He's asking what I need to ask.

What he wants to know, so do I.

It's not that that's upsetting you, is it?

No, it's not.

What is it, then?

You, deciding to go to Edgware Road Tube station.

I have to see it.

I have to see where that bomb went off -

to make sure that it happened.

It happened.

Yes, it did.

But I need to know how -

and tonight, I make a start.

How are you going to cope with this?

Because I have to. If I don't, I'll die.

TANNOY: 'Owing to severe delays on the Piccadilly Line this morning,

'customers are advised to seek an alternative route.'

Every single morning this week - this service is getting worse.

I'm buying a bike.

Right, I better find another route - I'm very late.

SIRENS BLARE

Sorry. Are you all right?

TRAIN SPEEDS UP

What was the point of impact?

Second carriage.

Ten seconds into the tunnel, the explosion occurred.

Do you know how many people were in the carriage?

I'm afraid I don't.

It was still rush hour - it would've been quite full.

Yes, very full.

Er...

Jen was travelling in completely the wrong direction for work.

She should've been travelling away from Paddington, not towards it.

Where was your daughter travelling? Tottenham Court Road.

There was a fault on the Piccadilly Line.

It affected the Bakerloo route all that morning.

She must have been heading back from Paddington to Notting Hill.

She could get the Central Line there to Tottenham Court Road.

That exactly is what happened?

I believe so, yes.

That's why Jenny died?

A fault on the Piccadilly Line?

Excuse me.

Should we follow him?

No, leave him.

Do you have any more questions, Julie?

This is the place where my daughter's life

was snatched from her, Colin.

Do you know what I see when I look into that tunnel?

The face of a stranger -

Mohammad Sidique Khan.

He came into our lives...

..he didn't know us.

He didn't know who he was killing.

He didn't know how good she was...

..how beautiful she was.

She was my Jenny.

James loved my daughter.

He truly loved her.

The stranger didn't care that he was...

..killing the children that would be born to them.

My grandchildren...

..he killed their future.

Mohammad Sidique Khan.

Lizzie gave her these.

I've sorted some things - started to.

Do you want to take them to Bristol?

No, let's keep everything together for the moment.

Do you think she's...

..watching, or...

..waiting, or...

I don't know how to say this.

Do I think she's passed to another life?

All the cards people send tell me that.

Do you believe that?

I'm not sure any more.

And if I'm not sure, what am I doing, being a priest?

I'm empty, James.

Empty.

CHEWING

It's great food, Grandma.

Thank you, Thomas - eat up.

No need to tell him that.

I like Grandma's cooking.So do I.

I didn't say you didn't.

Where's Dad?

He's upstairs.What's he doing?

Sitting in Jenny's old room.

Fetch him down, Thomas.

I'll go.

Do. Then come back and eat your dinner.

You've barely touched a mouthful.

How are you?

I'm OK.

I'm not OK. I can't imagine going on.

You will.

My life is over.

You have strength, Julie. Oh, do I, Dad?

You must have strength.

Do you hear me?

I'll bide my time here...

..till it's time to join her.

HE SOBS

Jenny...

I should've gone first.

Dad...

..you won't lie down and die.

You have too much spirit for that.

LAPTOP POWERS UP

You're not eating, we're worried about you.

Oh, Greg, you eat - eat to your heart's content.

Stop worrying about me. Worry about yourself.

Why can't I worry about you?

Because I don't want you to.

What do you want?

My daughter.

My dead daughter.

So do I, Julie.

She was mine too.

SHE SIGHS

Jenny?

'Hiya, setting out for work.

'Forgot to tell you,

'I bought The Magician's Nephew on Saturday at £6.99 in Waterstones.

'I'll give you feedback as soon as I finish it.

'What does your week bring you?

'Jenny.'

Oh, Jenny...

Oh, Jenny...

Dad?

What?

Do you know what scares me?

Me and Lizzie...

..we've lost our sister.

And I'm starting to think we're going to lose our mum and dad too.

You won't lose me - you'll never lose me.

Well, then come in.

Soon.

Why did they do it?

I don't know, son.

Who would want to kill their own people in their own country?

She was so good, Jenny.

I hate them for what they did.

'Hasib Hussain was one of four men,

'the Metropolitan Police Commissioner said today

'carried the bombs and were killed in the blasts.

'One of Hussain's friends, Mohammad Sidique Khan,

'planted the bomb at Edgware Road... GLASS SHATTERS

'Another, Shehzad Tanweer, detonated the Aldgate bomb...'

Mum, you can't read everything at the funeral.

Can I not?

Do you want to see what I've designed?

It's...for the coffin.

Would she like it

It's exquisite.

Thank you, thank you.

Oh, thank you. Thank you.

Mum, Thomas is worried - so am I.

It's the stress we've all been under since the news...

..and the strain of the funeral...

No, no, it's not just the funeral.

It's something else.

You and Dad...

We're apart.

We're in pain.

But the pain is keeping us apart.

I'm really sorry if it hurts you to hear me

talk about your dad like that.

I'm...forgetting how to do things -

how to feel things,

except anger and hatred.

I don't want to turn into this.

All my life, I've wanted to believe the best -

most people try and do their best.

Maybe I'll never be able to believe anything ever again.

I don't believe in God, anyway.

Tell you what I don't believe -

I don't believe that fate took your sister's life.

Human beings did, because they chose to do it.

That must be said.

Something else must be said.

I still love my sister -

I always will -

and I'll miss her all my life.

Can only men carry coffins?

Can women do it as well?

I don't see why not.

Then I'd like to carry Jenny.

So would our cousins, I'm sure.

Then it shall be arranged.

But you should be her bridesmaids, not her pallbearers.

We will dress in black and gold.

We will carry her together.

I promise you, it will be formidable.

And you know what else?

You'd make a good teacher.

Why?

Right bossy boots

Like Jane Eyre?

Jenny's heroine.

"I am no bird...

"..and no net ensnares me.

"I am a free human being,

"with an independent will."

We recovered these.

A travel pass...

..a book...

..an umbrella...

..cash to the value of £3.82...

..and a watch.

Are you absolutely sure you want to go ahead with this?

Absolutely sure.

We'll go through the photographs one at a time.

No hurry -

we can take as much time as you need.

I'll start when you're ready.

I'm ready.

The photographs are in chronological order, beginning with the carriage.

The next picture is Jennifer's body without the blanket.

Do you want me to carry on?

These are my daughter's Stations of the Cross.

I'm her mother.

I'll be with her to the end.

Would you like some water? Please.

Thank you.

I have two boys - two young sons.

When I left them this morning, they were sleeping.

I just wanted to hug them.

Hold on to them.

These are my two -

my girls.

That's Jenny and Lizzie.

A little bit tipsy, giggling...and happy.

We were happy.

Look at her...

..both of them, so beautiful.

I love them.

I won't let hate destroy that love.

That's why I can look at this horror.

Jenny's love lets me.

She didn't hate.

Neither must I.

I couldn't save my daughter...

..but she saved me.

# Let all mortal flesh keep silence

# And with fear and trembling stand

# Ponder nothing earthly minded

# For with blessing in His hand

# Christ our God to Earth descendeth

# Our full homage to demand. #

"A time to kill and a time to heal.

"A time to weep and a time to laugh.

"A time to seek and a time to lose.

"A time to keep silence and a time to speak.

"A time to love and a time to hate.

"A time for war and a time for peace."

"Except I be by Silvia in the night,

"There is no music in the nightingale.

"Unless I look on Silvia in the day

"There is no day for me to look upon."

"She is my essence...

"..and I leave to be...

"If I be not by her fair influence fostered...

"..illuminated, cherished...

"..kept alive.

"I fly not death, to fly his deadly doom.

"Tarry I here, I but attend on death

"But fly I hence...

"..I fly away from life."

CHORAL ENSEMBLE SINGS: The Silver Swan by Orlando Gibbons

# ..When death approached

# Unlocked her silent throat

# Leaning her breast against the reedy shore

# Thus sang her first and last and sang no more. #