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"Never be lonely again."

I dedicate this story to everyone who,

having chosen their path by feeling,

lives on it innocently,

and to all the people who are said to be "inappropriate,"

asking their forgiveness if, by chance,

this film seems inappropriate to them.

15th and 16th October 1978

I dreamt you had died!

Wake up, it's almost time.

Oh, right, it's Sunday.

You want to take a piss?

Come here. It's Sunday, go back to bed.

It's not even 7 o'clock.

I have a meeting at 10.

Still a little time.

I don't know what he wants, that jerk.

Every day I'm a little more trapped.

It's crushing me.

I should have thrown my resignation in his face straight away!

-How do you want to come? -Not today.

I'm alone and despite all my wounds,

I think back to all of my past loves,

to the sun, to the old things I've read,

and most of all to my childhood dreams,

and most of all to my childhood dreams.

Are you there Sybele?

You could have made the bed...

I didn't have time, my mother called.

Fine.

And then I did the shopping for tonight.

Did you forget that Anne-Marie was coming for dinner?

I slapped him in the face!

But� Franklin? What do you mean?

-I gave him one in front of 10 people! -What?!

I don't know what came over me, it just happened!

Well, I'll give him a call, He'll come for dinner tonight.

Anne-Marie will turn on her charm, and it's in the bag!

Stay there!

Ah, you have no idea how much better I feel all of a sudden.

Are you sick?

So, I'm going to go back to work.

Mom said: "you're getting rusty!" And she was right.

Children revive you.

It's never the same from one year to the next.

It's true. It's true, I'm getting old.

You know it's Anne-Marie's birthday, right?

I bought her a Punchinello.

She's cute, she makes me laugh.

Tick tock tick tock, time is flying away, carrying off our words,

Tick tock tick tock, even so, this is writing's most beautiful role,

Tick tock tick tock, when time is unchained, sharpening all our pains,

Tick tock tick tock, our bodies and hearts struggle in love or hate.

And before long, love goes off the rails,

and before long, life is slipping away...

Tick tock tick tock, time is flying away, carrying off our words,

Tick tock tick tock, we laugh and we laugh at the ravages of time...

Tick tock tick tock, we laugh and we laugh when we're 18 years old...

And before long, love goes off the rails,

and before long, life is slipping away...

She's gone!

-I'm only happy with you. -That's nice for your mother.

I don't know who my mother is.

I was born to an unknown mother.

You won't tell me to stop smoking?

I'm going away, Anne-Marie.

Far away?

I'd like to...

I'm leaving here, I'm leaving your mother.

Oh my...

Will you keep in touch?

I don't think so.

Do you have a mistress?

Drop it.

Do I disgust you? Is that it? Don't lie, I can feel it.

Sybele... She wanted to name me Sybele, the bitch!

-Do you have a mistress? -If that's what you want.

But I don't!

Answer me. Do you have a mistress, yes or no?

Yes, I have a mistress.

I've been had, I went there almost every day.

Take the flowers, put them in a vase.

-It's a pain in the ass to be like that! -Like what?

Well-raised.

I don't like it.

I always told myself:

She's cracking up and I work like a dog to help her.

Wait, I'll take a look.

Almost everyday.

Poor fool!

At least you're coping with it!

-I'm here, it's the same. -Do you think so?

You want to get married, when you see things like this?

Married or not, it's all the same...

Make love, don't worry about the rest.

-Do you make love? -No.

Anyway, I should come to your house.

My house? 6th floor without an elevator, very bad for the heart!

Definitely shouldn't risk it.

I see your old boss often.

Don't sleep with that, it's disgusting!

I haven't decided anything yet, if you don't mind.

Put away your claws.

Let's make the bed?

Sometimes she pretended she was dead.

The nurses didn't even look at her.

She told me:

"See? You can die and they don't give a damn!"

That's when she was doing better.

Get up, I hear the door.

Welcome home!

He came?

Be brave...

-Lie down, don't stand there. -No.

I'm the one who decides what I want and what I need! No more orders!

Maybe if you had been given more of them...

There!

I didn't come for no reason.

Get lost! you'll ruin everything.

Don't cry, you know what Cathy told you: you're divorced, period, that's it!

So you're all gossiping about my life, eh?

Even you, you little idiot.

Run away then! I've reinvented my life now,

And you'll only touch it again if I want you to!

Anne-Marie, be good and get a glass of water, it's time for the Tranxene.

Are you done with your number? Good.

Now lie down, you can preach just as well from bed. Go on!

You're my sunshine, smile for mommy!

They pricked my veins to control my libido,

and in my head there was nothing left but chirping, "tweet tweet," I got away!

You understand that, Louis! I'm sure!

Louis!

How do you like that?

Louis.

Louis!

Come back!

You really hurt me for that little flick I gave you.

Let's go my dear, we're in the way here.

You, to another life, me, to another world.

Am I bothering you?

I always knew, but never admitted it.

And I was right.

You'll see Anne-Marie,

Everyone gets there later in life...

It's really funny to be in the way!

Come on. It's starting to stink in here.

It's the ooze of love!

Don't make a fuss.

She furious, she's capable of falling down the stairs just to punish us.

Do you recognize me?

I won't plead guilty, I'm warning you.

I never believed you were crazy.

I'm cold.

Put on your bathrobe.

It was a clear, calm place. On the coast.

Always a step ahead!

I admire you.

Not even a phone call to Cathy.

-It was really hard for you. -No.

-I don't believe you, I had you followed -I know.

You have no one. You live from day to day.

You seem happy enough.

You go out a little, always on your own.

You make music, you sing and it bothers the neighbors.

A few women hover around you.

I have money.

Aunt H�l�ne is dead, you should know... She left me everything.

If you want, I could help you.

I saw your cop.

He tried to extort money from me.

I didn't have any.

Do you want me?

Of course! Can I go now?

I was really crazy, it's true.

Stone-faced...

15 million questions at once...

I'm not being clear but you must understand, I'm sure you do.

It consoles me to sense that.

No more lies.

Get out!

And come back without lies for once, please!

-Do you have a mistress? -No.

-Do I disgust you? -Yes.

Your body repulses me.

The smell of it most of all.

And all your habits I can't stand anymore.

Your whole mechanism.

Your needs.

The words that you whisper to me.

your cries...

...when you hold me,

when you suck me,

when you're sure that you're pleasing me,

when you act like an authority, or when you want to submit,

I want to be somewhere else.

To know you're dead.

I want to lose my erection.

I stay inside you to make you come...

...but I'm faking it,

and I cry out of helplessness.

I have nothing left to give you Sybele.

I left you because I didn't want you anymore,

and because it didn't even excite me to lie to you anymore.

It's been... two years that I've been pretending to come inside you.

Take a lover, Sybele!

But that's you... You're my lover!

This is all I can offer you this year: the subway.

It's a start...

Want to talk about it?

I'm doing bad, you're doing bad, she's doing bad, let's skip it.

Next year I'll be married, no matter what!

Getting married isn't like killing yourself.

Do you have more like that?

-Love is very serious. -I know that! Thanks.

We settle down when we get married.

Love...

Do you really believe in that?

�I'm waiting for it!

Not me.

I only think about money.

If you marry that asshole, I'll kill you!

Kiss me!

I didn't steal!

I'm a fool!

I should just do like the others: steal, beat, kill!

Grab the money where I can! But I don't want to!

I don't want to steal, I want to work! To work!

-Get up and leave! -No!

Get up, you never know with this kind of guy!

Take a taxi. Meet me at Kremlin-Bic�tre. Hurry up and go!

I don't want to put on a show. I can't sing, can't act for a damn.

Give me a little money.

You have to help me!

Leave me alone!

I'm unemployed too!

Should I tell you all about my life??

You want money... Here!

That's all I have for the rest of the week!

Don't be so scared...

She was scared.

But I don't want to, I said!

I don't want to steal, and I don't want to scare anyone!

I want to be honest!

For me, being honest is all I ask.

Thank you sir.

Please sir.

So I don't have to steal, or kill...

Everyone left...

They were afraid.

Afraid of me or of my misery, what do you think?

What can I say? What can I do so they believe me?

Eh?

Tell me. Hey, tell me.

Move on, man.

Look, here's 10 francs. Your act doesn't interest me.

Bastard.

You saved my life, pal.

Here...

You can always reach me at this number.

I'm lucky you're here, you reconciled me with this bunch of idiots.

If you ever need something or someone...

Call me, you'll see...

I'm not an ingrate!

Anything you want! I'm telling you:

Anything!

I don't need a thing.

Never say that, my friend.

...Stage right, stage left,

we don't play around with love.

Romantic,

yes, but...

differently romantic.

Yes, but...

It depends on the birdsong,

or on the tide,

or even the age of the captain.

Or the mermaids.

Uninformed, not polite,

not sworn in...

no comedy, no variety...

not yet blas�.

Stage right, stage left,

We don't play around with love.

Romantic,

yes but,

differently romantic.

yes but...

It depends on

the birdsong,

or on the tide,

or even the age of the captain.

Or the mermaids.

Romantic...

Please, something for the music.

Something for the music please.

No, thank you.

Thank you for going away, or thank you for the song?

I didn't hear the song. My head was somewhere else.

Sometimes it would be better to speak...

Don't waste your time, I haven't got a penny.

-Oh? -No.

I'll be back.

-There's no use. -Sure there is.

I don't believe you, I'll be back.

Dressed like that, without a penny!

-Come on, be frank at least. -No...

You came too late.

That's alright, I'll introduce myself:

Immondice (Filth)

That's not my name of course. I gave it to myself.

It's better than... Adrienne!

I think it's like a name from a fairy tale:

Princess Immondice!

-It seems to suit me. -I don't have any money.

-And I'd like to be alone. -Ok, bye then.

I like you.

And when I like someone, I always see them again!

It's true!

See you soon.

You lost this.

-No, I... -It's not yours?

Yes it is.

-Well? -Well?

A nightmare!

You got scared for no reason and I got frustrated by the show.

-Let's go. -No, I'm leaving.

I don't feel good, I don't know what's wrong with me.

-See you next year? -Never again!

I want to get married to you.

Ah, I don't know if your mother would give her consent.

-Then make love to me! -No.

Just once.

Please, just once!

I would never be unhappy again!

I wouldn't have any more stupid desires.

I'll wait for my true love, if you want.

Make love to me!

-No. -Take me to your house!

I'll throw myself under the metro when it leaves.

You'll go to hell!

I love you.

See you Thursday!

No. I'll call you.

Your mistress?

My daughter.

Life's complicated isn't it?

Why don't you sleep with her if she wants you to?

She doesn't want me to.

Not nice of you to throw away my address.

I didn't throw it away, here it is.

"Romantic, yes but...

differently romantic."

What do you want from me?

-You're not listening to me. -Yes I am.

-Well, answer then! -We can get divorced when you want.

But you didn't understand a thing.

I don't want to marry him.

No, he's good in bed. Very good even.

If we got married, it would be routine in no time...

He has muscles everywhere and what a dick!

-Maybe you know him, he works at... -I know, I know him.

You aren't jealous?

No, sorry.

It's nice, your place.

Anne-Marie told me you earn a lot.

It's not my place, it's a friend's who's putting me up for 2-3 months.

-Can you lend me a little? -No.

Too bad.

I'm taking care of myself and that's expensive.

I don't want to let myself go.

Did you see? All this?

-You've never been so beautiful! -Ah!

You noticed.

You know why?

I've discovered that I have a power over men.

I loved you too much.

I had a kind of modesty.

But men are happy too when you take care of them!

Before I would have found it disgusting, but now...

Everything's natural, basically.

You're smiling!

-You smiled, I saw you! -Maybe.

-Are you happy? -No, calm.

I'd like it so much if we could see each other, could stay friends.

It seems like...

there are some things I could only tell to you.

-When you told me I could come... -I never said that!

Yes... that's true.

I came on my own. But I'm still here, you haven't kicked me out.

Ah... won't that bitch ever call!

Let me see you now and then to talk to you.

Women bore me!

I can't manage to keep a single friend.

They interpret everything I tell them,

they have a solution for all of my problems. It's a pain!

You promise?

I don't know. Later on...

Two years without seeing you is too hard.

When I'm settled down.

Oh yes!

That'll be my day!

That'll be Sybele's day!

And if you need, I'll come over. For anything you want!

You'll see, it's good to have someone you can count on at any time.

Since I live on my own everyone wants to take care of me!

Everyone?

Do you have someone?

Ok...

I didn't say a thing. Not a thing.

Don't look at me like that.

She really asked me to come see you so she could call both of us at once.

It's her first birthday without us.

She forgot us.

Well, I'm starting to talk nonsense again.

She won't call anymore. I'll go.

-But you're smiling again! -No.

-You are! -I'm thinking about something.

Louis...

You should know...

I'll never stop loving you.

This is the last time I'll talk to you about it.

You see, I'm calm too, I'm doing really well.

So, don't hurt me.

Let me see you now and then, to balance myself out.

I promise.

Good!

-So, you'll call me, right? -Alright.

Shit, you were asleep?

Good evening Uncle Louis!

So, you had your kid?

I had her 25 years ago, my kid... but not today.

Intellectual!

-How was fishing? -Miraculous, brother Louis!

Woe to you fornicators!

The gig is up!

Sinners of both sexes...

This is your last chance.

Keep going!

-You like it? -It's good.

Vice has contaminated your minds!

In the name of love, in the name of freedom,

pornography has invaded your environment.

It exhorts you, it excites you in every way,

and you don't see it for what it is!

You don't recognize it because it is adorned with the virtues of beauty.

Because it fills you with the desire to possess!

Because it seems like a palliative to your sick, jaded everyday.

Devoured by new needs, new demands,

Join us, brothers!

Join the movement of the Messiah rediscovered!

Become one of us!

Struggle with us!

For the family!

For morality!

Don't think that God wants to punish you.

He has given you a solemn warning.

Rejoice that he is speaking to you after so many years of silence.

You are threatened by horrible things, but it's not the Antichrist,

it's a tiny little greedy beast

that feeds on your cells, that sucks your blood!

And destroys your organism.

Flee from love without love!

Distance yourself from this gigantic sex industry that tempts you,

and makes you think that you are free...

in order to destabilize you even more!

Help us, brothers, help us!

Make our movement the pillar of redemption.

The doctors gave a name to this scourge.

They can give it all the names that they want!

We know!

And you know as well that it is the devil himself

who runs in the veins of the fornicators!

And pollutes their seed!

They have opened the gates of Hell!

They have hijacked the divine act!

Join us, for God's sake!

Come with me to the station!

Me, poor Russian immigrant, come with you?

There's been a complaint against you, for fraud!

Do you have a warrant?

No need for a warrant to arrest a crook like you!

Stop! Stop!

Franz.

Louis.

Hi.

Go on, have a drink. I'll defrock myself.

Settle down Louis, and pour us a drink.

Is that funny for you?

I'm a bouncer in a nightclub, The 7th Heaven.

It excites the customers...

And I like to dress up, don't you?

I never had the opportunity.

Come tonight! It's a fun place.

-No thanks. -Why not?

I don't know, it doesn't interest me.

Shouldn't we stop by the flea market today?

Do you think so?

I don't just think so, I'm sure!

Alright, ciao Franz! Ciao Louis!

Ciao! -Ciao.

Let's go over there?

Don't waste your time.

This is what my time is for!

When I like someone, he's all that matters.

I use all my time to convince him.

Of what?

That I'm worth it.

For sale, I suppose...

I've done it...

But not anymore.

Especially not with you!

In 5 minutes...

As soon as I came in, I was sure you were for me!

I'm never wrong!

Except for today. I live at Ivan's place, but that's it...

I know.

I know all about you. But I don't care.

It excites me even more.

Ok, beat it or I'll get mad.

You don't believe in love at first sight?

No.

Finish your drink.

Hello?

-Is mom still there? -No.

Ah, shit.

The photo shoot took longer than expected.

I hope they didn't take advantage of you.

Yeah right... it was great! Super well-paid!

I'm bursting with cash! And I'm not tired.

I'll stay here... a year or two at least.

Please!

You're not alone? Am I bothering you?

No, no... The phone is...

I don't know if New York is a good idea. Move around a bit.

Well if it doesn't work I'll come back.

I'm clearing my mind.

-What? -I'm clearing my mind!

And that nasty idiot, what's he up to?

-Did you sleep with him? -None of your business!

You're wrong about him. He's very respectful.

Nothing to say?

Happy birthday, my dear!

Call your mother, she would be upset.

I think about you a lot. I write to you every day.

And you? How are things at your friend's place?

You didn't tell me who he was.

-Do I know him? -No.

You're strange, distant.

Up close, too.

Hello?

Well, I have to go.

Be safe, naughty monkey.

You're here!

-Want a drink? -No thanks.

-Did you win? -What do you think?

-Shall we go? -If you want...

If you want to leave, then leave.

Let's get a drink somewhere else.

Don't bother me when I'm playing pool.

Don't come here, I already told you.

I've been calling you all week! I couldn't find you.

I don't know where I was.

I don't remember anymore.

-You're... very different! -That must be it.

It's like you have love coming out your eyes!

That's putting it nicely.

It's nothing, It's nothing.

He'll drive you crazy, that guy! Crazy!

Don't tire yourself. Shall we go?

But... just like that? Without having a drink?

It's now or never!

Good night.

-Is that all you have to say to me? -Yeah.

Give me your keys, I'll wait for you at your place.

Go with Andr�. It's worth it, really.

Have some feelings.

He's so lonely it's crushing him.

Then come to my place!

I don't want to sleep with you anymore.

-Why not? -Because...

You're not my type.

Stop fucking around!

You have a husband's eyes.

I'm not a wife!

I'm not your wife! Or your man.

I'm nothing to you!

You come here with ideas like that...

I want to be alone.

I feel good like that.

For how long?

I don't give a damn about getting old!

When I don't like it anymore, I don't like it anymore.

I'll shoot myself.

Either that or I'll find some friends, who are alone, like me...

And instead of fucking, we'll play cards!

Take me home!

I'll sleep on the floor if you want.

Please!

Have some dignity.

Dignity?

Do you even know what you're talking about?

I'm not ready for what you want.

I probably never will be.

For me, life is best taken in small sips.

Without ever knowing what I'll do the next instant.

I need you!

Sorry.

Have you ever loved anyone?

I don't remember.

Tell me something that you really think!

Get out of here!

And never come back.

It's your only chance.

Ciao buddy.

Hey you.

We never see you any more.

Immondice is moping, what should I tell her?

I'll go see her.

How's your mother?

My mother? She died two years ago!

-Oh! Aren't you Michel? -Yeah.

Ah well man, I can't help it...

-Time passes... -I'm sorry.

Say, is that your friend who just left?

Oh... Look I'm warning you, don't mess around with him.

Go see what he's up to, Ivan.

It's nothing. He's in love...

You have to let him stew in his own sadness...

Delicious, isn't it?

Can you tell me where he lives?

-Just over there. -What floor?

I'll go.

I have so much to tell you...

Too bad for you, I'll tell you anyway.

I can't believe that you forgot me!

If you have serious problems and I can't do anything for you,

that worries me even more!

Call me soon!

All of a sudden I don't want to talk to this machine...

I'm sad.

I'm coming back to Paris.

I miss you too much.

Don't be stupid!

I don't like the way you talk and what you've been thinking lately...

But I still love you...

You know...

Ciao papa!

Oh, mom sends her love.

She surprised me by coming to New York.

For my birthday.

I'm really sad.

Call me...

-It's Cathy, I'm sure of it! -No, no.

It's Cathy, she's bored.

She's using her little power as best she can!

When she says something, we don't pay attention, we believe it,

but behind what she says there's always a calculation!

Nothing mean...

A series of tiny calculations spread out over every day, every visit.

Under the pretext of healing us!

-I'm too old. -But that's just it...

You wouldn't use that alibi on me if she wasn't mixed up with us!

Too old? You're joking!

If we still hadn't made love,

I could believe your bullshit... The romanticism and everything...

But no, pops, none of that!

And your wife...

Yeah, she was nice, cool... lost when she was here,

but she wasn't out to destroy!

That would have been easier!

In 15 years I'll be old and you'll be a beautiful woman, full of life.

I don't give a fuck! 15 years, 10 years, even 5!

Its good enough for me if I spend them with you!

No, Marthe.

What do you mean no?

We'll say goodbye.

And we can both enjoy the happy memory of our love.

You're funny when you want to be.

You crack me up.

-Are you leaving tonight? -Yes.

And we'll never see each other again?

Never again.

That's better than now and then, isn't it?

Two weeks without leaving each other's side and then never again?

Disappear! I'd like that!

You're scrupulous, it's good.

Scrupulous?

Nobody asked me to do that,

but me, myself, and I!

I'm running to clear my head.

The air goes in one ear and...

Okay.

If it doesn't work, I wonder why you keep doing it.

Maybe it does work!

I don't see things the same way.

Everything is so very far away...

-Why are you crying then? -It's the wind.

I'm still in pain.

It bleeds a little every day, when I least expect it.

Is it true that you write to him?

Here are the responses.

He writes back?

Not really...

I made these letters and envelopes,

as if it was him...

Just to have a dialog.

Here! Read them. Go on.

Which one?

Doesn't matter! All of them!

Hi. I'm writing to you from 7th Heaven.

There's almost no one here.

I'm playing pool alone.

I'm playing against myself, honestly.

And I win every time.

And I wonder who's actually losing.

Now and then I open the door to get some air.

And I look up at your closed window.

I still have your last letter, it burns my skin.

I pinned it to the inside of my jacket.

I feel the chill of the metal and the heat of your words.

I'm still naked underneath my jacket.

That's how you like me.

That's how they like me.

This isn't a response to your letters. I don't read them.

I throw them straight in the fire.

I don't want this kind of relationship between us.

Neither fucking nor platonic love.

I don't want anything to do with you.

Not as a friend, or as a lover.

They told me not to look down on you, to tell you things clearly.

I don't know if they're right, but there you go.

Don't wait for me!

Time will change nothing.

Franz."

Are you mad at me?

No.

You know how men are.

Even that, I can't manage to believe.

I don't believe it.

I held him in my arms, you know.

I know very well what happened between us.

I try to believe in what he says now.

That dirty little bit of hope keeps coming back!

You did the right thing!

Because you thought you were doing the right thing.

Don't do anything else without talking to me about it!

All your stories of great characters feel so foreign to me

that I'm sure I could help you!

Don't laugh!

In a year or two you'll laugh at what an idiot you were.

Let me go.

I have more news for you.

It's your lawyer.

He sold all your shares. You're filthy rich, man!

That'll change your life too.

First of all, you're moving! We'll take care of it.

Take care of it, then!

But... you should go. They'll be here soon.

-My train is in 2 hours. -I know.

You want to suffer in peace?

No, I promise.

And Ivan?

-They put him in prison, Louis. -For what?

For everything!

I left a message at the hotel. They'll meet you here.

Shouldn't we talk one last time?

You never lay down your arms!

I'm not going to play doctor with you.

-I'm just a friend Louis. -A friend of Sybele and her mother!

I'll pay them back for my stay, apparently I'm filthy rich.

-Money isn't an issue between us. -No?

No.

That's it! Then you love me.

Tell me that you... healed me with love.

I will.

I had hoped that you at least would understand me.

You just have to let some blood pour out and everyone comes running!

It's too late afterwards. The poison has already spread.

-No one was there before. -That's not true and you know it.

No one before, too many people after!

And now I need to be alone.

You don't know how to be alone!

Stop. Stop! Even if you're right, stop!

The world is moving.

You don't feel it moving when you move with it.

But here, during my retreat, I felt it move!

I got a good overview of myself, did a kind of tune-up.

Without a couch. Without advice from friends.

I'm not much of an optimist, as you know.

But from now on, whatever I do,

I'll do it knowingly!

-That's not going to be easy. -Oh yes it will, on the contrary!

Life on one side...

...death on the other.

Thats bullshit!

Once you've understood that death is a part of life.

I wouldn't say you can't make mistakes, but...

You get to the point of things!

Go ahead and smile, you gave me a big hand all the same.

So...

Do you fall in love with all your patients?

Only the men.

Even better.

Did you say goodbye to Marthe?

I hope you didn't mess her up.

She's solid.

It's turning gray.

-I'll cut it. -No!

In the end she decided not to come.

She said this place wouldn't bring her any happy memories.

And seeing you here with Cathy would be too much.

Is she still going with that hunk of meat?

Marcel is wonderful!

Oh! Marcel is wonderful!

He can crack open nuts with his dick!

An exceptional parlor game.

You're beautiful, it's a joy.

You're beautiful too, it's too bad.

I'm still a virgin, it's ridiculous!

You gave me such a scare that I didn't give in.

You were right. He was an ass, it upset me.

He only thought of money! He resolved everything with it.

If you refused him, he raised the amount. Coldly.

With a smile.

And I thought:

He's lucky, he gets to live like a model.

Impeccably dressed.

Always clean, decent, respectful.

His hand always on his wallet.

With cash... cash everywhere! Never checks, always cash.

He had no sense of pride.

Or of humiliation!

He can fuck off!

He can go back to his worthless money.

-And that one there, is he rich? -He hasn't got a penny!

-I'll help you. -No thanks!

Either he'll manage, or I'll dump him!

Alain!

Alain!

I'll sleep with one or two, to see.

I don't want to make a mistake you know.

But I love him!

I love him so much!

He's the only guy I can think of without thinking of you.

See, I did what you told me to.

I waited for true love.

I'm going to marry him! We'll have children.

The first one will be a boy.

We'll call him Louis.

But you won't be the godfather!

I've decided not to get in your way anymore.

What are you talking about?

Later on.

Later!

Alain.

Meet my father.

-Do you come here often? -Now and then, yes.

-Yeah, I don't know. -You don't?

-Going back to Paris? -Ciao.

What are you doing here?

Marcel told me you were often here.

-I came last night too. -What? Marcel knows this place?

You know, he's very popular. He goes here, he goes there...

-Ah, he's in it for the cash. -You think?

I don't care as long as he comes back to me.

So?

You're still not coming tomorrow for the birthday?

Anne-Marie wants to put some distance between us, I think she's right.

Right or wrong, I don't want to upset her.

-You're so complicated. -Not at all.

-And you? How are you? -Great!

It would be better if I wasn't worried about everyone all the time!

Mama is rejuvenated, she's up to mischief!

Anne-Marie, ever since she's with Alain, she acts so petty-bourgeois.

It's annoying!

Then there's Marcel.

No problem. He's very nice.

But the company he keeps...

There are some nights... It's something else! I'm not kidding!

-And then there's you. -Me?

Yes, you!

It doesn't bother me if you sleep with guys!

But that's why I'm here.

Because Anne-Marie and you, you were always beyond me.

Well, more or less...

-Ah� You're scared of the rumors? -As if I give a damn.

It's the doctor, Cathy.

-I don't know who told her about it. -I did.

-Oh really? -She called me.

Listen....

What's happening in America is serious!

And it's starting to get scary here too.

Sybele.

I like you a lot, dickhead.

I'm scared for you.

Stop it, you'll make me cry!

So listen:

She told me to tell you you have to use a condom.

-And Marcel, does he use a condom? -Of course he does!

I made him, what do you think?

At first he didn't want to, he said:

"I don't feel anything! It's ugly!"

"It looks like I'm going to a hold-up!"

Well, tell Cathy that I love her.

And that the day she promises me immortality, I'll use one!

You're crazy.

You don't know the horrors she told me about...

Not just for you, but the others...

I don't force anyone.

And then that's not something for the two of us to talk about.

Also, tell Cathy that AIDS isn't death, it's life...

That there are thousands of tiny viruses in the shadows,

waiting patiently for it to go out of style.

Ok, now get out of here.

You're being a pain.

Couldn't I hide in some corner to see how you do it?

We do it like everyone else!

If you want to be a voyeur, dress up like a man!

Oh, and the present for Anne-Marie... It's at your mother's house.

-You see my mom? -Of course! She didn't tell you?

I tell her everything, it distracts her.

Ciao bella.

Franz!

I almost didn't recognize you.

Neither do I, in the morning, in my mirror...

Word on the street is you're made of money.

Does that interest you?

No more than before.

Look, Machine Gun! Do you know him?

I've seen him...

Ah, very gifted, you should try him out.

Six times in one night... It's exhausting but you remember it!

I don't fuck anymore.

Are you scared?

You could put it like that.

Weathering the storm?

You consoled yourself quickly, didn't you?

You swear your love to me...

And now there's not one of my friends you haven't slept with!

Not one...

Not one who has regretted it. Didn't they tell you?

Yes.

What are you hoping to win from this game?

I'm not playing to win.

Do you still play pool?

I'll give you a thrashing one of these nights.

You won't get me, Louis.

Hey Andr�, not even a hello?

I thought you were trying to avoid me. Everyone's avoiding me lately.

Why's that? Oh shit, what happened?

An imprudence.

I brought two guys to my place...

They looked everywhere� money, money, money!

They broke everything.

They almost killed me.

It might have been better if they had.

Then to take my mind off things I went to see a shrink.

-Another imprudence... -Why?

Oh� I fell in love with him.

He was a sadist. And sadists, you know, I...

-Franz? -What about Franz?

No, that's the past.

Call me some night and come over to eat.

Ah, I'd like that.

Yes, once I've... patched myself up a little.

Made myself presentable.

-Say... -Hm?

About Jean-Luc, you know...

Ciao!

-Do we know each other? -I do, you don't.

You do, I don't

Let me guess.

Ah, Michel!

You're the one who warned Ivan two years ago.

Yes, it's me.

You've been asking Immondice about me.

-Cut it out... -Are you blushing?

If you want me, you should tell me.

No need for intermediaries. Just tell me. So?

Does it bother you so much if someone's interested in you?

I don't like sneaks.

You could call them shy instead...

I don't want to talk here, come to my place.

Your place? No need to go home with you.

I know a spot over there...

Come on.

No, not like that!

Do you want me or not?

Look, I don't go to this kind of place.

I only came here to meet you.

Come here.

You don't need to talk, I can see it in your eyes!

Let it happen. Live in the moment.

No!

Let me go goddammit!

If you want to make love, come to my place or I'll go to yours.

I don't do anything outside.

They must have told you about me, didn't they?

Yes.

Yeah they warned me...

I don't give a damn!

I'm stubborn, so now I don't have a choice.

Come!

You'll go through hell, you know.

We'll see... Come!

Not so fast.

There's no fire.

I don't marry myself off so quickly.

I need a bit of an engagement first.

Let's go, please.

Yeah.

-Do you have cysts? -Yes.

-Where? -Everywhere!

I'm tired for no reason, I drag myself through the day,

and in the morning I feel like I haven't slept!

You don't want to get tested?

How long would you give me?

Impossible to say... 6 years... 2 months...

If I don't die in a car crash or get struck by lightning in a storm.

Thats more poetic.

You have no right to keep living like this!

Would you prefer that I stop?

Bastard! Bastard!

Forgive me.

I can't handle cynicism.

I've seen so much.

It's horrible!

When I imagine you like these guys...

You know, we can still slow it down...

Please...

Do it for Michel if you won't do it for yourself!

Do it for Anne-Marie. For me.

Go get Sybele for me.

You want to tell her about it?

6 years, that can wait, but 2 months is different!

But I was talking nonsense Louis!

My first symptom was almost like a relief.

Listen!

I'm perfectly aware that I'm pissing every one off!

When you can't get well, you end up being sick.

-Didn't you tell me that? -Yes.

Let me live the way I want!

Free.

Free.

Tell Sybele to come see me.

But not a word of this!

Take some vitamins at least.

What is this pigsty? Were you dancing on the table?

Cathy tried to rape me.

Ah, I hope she doesn't get it into her head to touch Marcel!

No, but it's true, she steals all my men.

Come here!

Are you mocking me?

Or do I remind you of someone?

We never talk seriously.

No, and let's not start now out of pity!

Do you know Franz?

They surely told you...

I understood it on my own!

He starts things but can't finish them!

-Is that it? -More or less...

I'll give you his address.

I might be going away for a while.

If anything happened to me, you never know...

I'd like to leave him some money, or put an apartment in his name.

I'm afraid that in a while, he might be in a tight spot.

And Michel? And Anne-Marie and me?

There's just him, and you don't care about the rest?

Rest assured, everything is in order.

It's just, with Franz, I have the impression that

he won't accept it so easily.

So I thought that...

that I could trust you.

But what are you talking about? What are you telling me?

What are you plotting with Cathy?

Louis, look at me, don't lie!

Is something seriously wrong?

No.

No, I'm saying that now.

Maybe it's seeing Anne-Marie in white...

Nostalgia... The passing of time...

Death can come without warning... We forgot to...

No?

-I swear, I'm ok! -I don't believe you!

-Do I look like a dying man? -No.

You scared me.

Do you remember?

Down to the last detail.

As long as she's happy!

-Were you happy? -Yes!

I still am.

Even today, if I get rid of everything in my head:

You're departure... the fear... Marcel...

When I manage to live in the present I feel happier, yes.

In a way that's more level.

Would you like it if I said you were the only woman of my life?

No.

I don't need that!

Well, yes! All the same...

I think that I would be a little bit proud.

Now I see why you're hiding!

Have you no shame?!

-No! -I should hope not.

Ok, come on, it all falls flat without you. Come on!

Let's go.

Oh no, you two dance by yourselves!

Careful!

What does she want from you? -She wants to see.

I know her, next she'll want to touch!

So what?

You're becoming a pain in the ass again, I'm warning you.

-Do you think so? -Yes!

Come help me, papa doesn't want to sing.

My dear...

You'll see, you'll see�

Don't be so direct.

Michel!

With him... we'll be going in no time!

Go ahead.

What's going on? Louis doesn't want to sing?

No, no.

-Is everything ok? -Yes, it's ok.

"Don't live in fear.

Accept the constraints.

Reject your dread.

Tolerate the pain.

Don't live inside your fears.

Never be cold again.

Bet on happiness.

Push aside the oracles.

Love is a miracle,

learn it by heart.

Once more, forever,

Once more tomorrow.

To shout again.

To dream again.

To suffer again.

Body and heart.

To cry again.

Tremble again.

The sun again.

Wake up again.

Go mad again.

Desire again.

Pleasure again.

Happiness again.

Go too far again.

Sigh again.

Come again.

Again tomorrow.

Once more, once more.

(Live your life.)

Once more, once more.

(Live in hope.)

Once more, once more.

(Live your life.)

Once more, once more.

(As a glory.)

Once more, once more.

(Yes, every day.)

Once more, once more.

(Yes, every day.)

Live your life.

(Once more, once more.)

(Live your life, Once more, once more.)

Live your life, once more, once more.

Live,

For love."

It was me who made the decision.

Do you want my word? I won't even call her again.

Anne-Marie wanted to come herself, but I stopped her.

It's already hard enough without her seeing me again.

-When is it due? -In about a month.

It's going to be a boy, she confirmed it.

-We'll call it Louis. -That really isn't necessary!

Maybe we should have talked more often, you and I.

You wouldn't have gotten much out of it,

but thanks for the thought at least.

Don't hold it against Anne-Marie.

I'm incapable of holding a grudge against anyone at all.

Tell her.

She won't accept the slightest conversation about you.

She's closed in on herself, she only thinks of her baby now.

It's like she's trying hard to forget everything else.

Entire days in her chaise lounge, without sleeping!

And you cant get a word out of her!

Don't rush her.

She'll come back on her own, I know her.

Sooner or later, life will return to normal with her.

Don't try to accelerate the movement.

She wouldn't forgive you for it.

Farewell Louis.

That's it?

Farewell Alain.

Louis, can we come in?

Avanti.

It's this little monster's idea. For me, family reunions...

Yes, it's my idea.

I'm sick of running between you two!

Hearing your snickers, your whining!

I'm sick of seeing you suffer for no reason!

There, like this we'll know if there's any point to it or not.

Talk!

Lie to him, lie to yourself, tell the truth,

But stop doing things without doing them.

Saying things that aren't what you think! Talk!

I'm sorry, Louis.

I don't know what she's dreamt up...

Don't make me smash in your pretty little face!

It wasn't my idea, but since you're here, explain yourself.

Louis can talk.

I'll listen.

I have nothing to say.

You want me to say it for you?

You're crushed by your fear and your pride.

You act cynical and you're so lonely it makes you sick,

and you'll never admit it!

Stop it!

Get the hell out of here!

Franz, take them away.

You're right.

There's nothing to say.

There never was.

Leave me in peace! Peace!

Louis!

It's alright, let me go.

Louis.

Don't forget about us.

It's you who will forget me. It's better that way.

Michel is waiting downstairs.

Should I tell him to come up?

He can do what he wants, this is his home.

In prison, I thought about Michel and you.

I didn't like the idea of you two together.

I felt like it wasn't right for you.

Franz disagreed.

Franz...

Don't hurt Michel, that's all we ask.

Get lost!

Apparently, I'm torturing you.

Forget it.

I never lied to you, you know.

You were always very clear.

They have a taste for getting things straight.

For anarchists, you have to admit it's surprising.

That's the only effect it has on me.

It's so ridiculous!

And what if I liked being tortured by you?

Thank you for all these months of happiness.

Don't overdo it.

Are you afraid of being late?

I don't want you to come with me.

I want to take a shower, can you close the suitcase?

Just a minute.

I hate goodbyes.

Who said anything about goodbyes? Come here.

Just to be close to you.

To touch you a little.

Breathe you in.

You shouldn't, Michel.

I know.

AROUND OCTOBER 15th, 1987

Oh... No! Don't come!

Call me immediately, so I can come there, to wash him.

There's no need, trust me.

We can't leave him like that!

Don't worry about that. You won't be able to stand it.

Don't forget to warn me.

I want to tell Sybele myself.

Cathy...

Do you think he'll make it through the night?

We'll see.

Tell me.

No.

-Is he suffering a lot? -Can we know?

-Have you seen the nurse? -She's lying down.

In any case, he doesn't want to see anyone now.

And if he changes his mind?

I'll stay.

He doesn't even know you exist anymore.

Shut up!

Come here my angel, come here.

...my little cutie, come here.

You fuss over him too much. If you let babies cry,

they'll stop on their own.

I hate when he cries.

He's so much more handsome like this.

Want to play with your toy?

There we go... My feather...

That's it, you were hot, weren't you?

Do you know he's dying?

-What does that change? -You won't go to see him?

-Excuse me, it's my turn. -You're finished, pal!

I'm finished too.

We're all finished! You're all zombies!

Don't talk so loud.

You might get beat up.

Maybe that's what you're looking for...

Little man, go to hell!

You should go.

They said I could stay.

I didn't think it would be so hard.

I would have more courage if you left me alone.

It's an upside-down world!

I'll stay over there.

I'll hear you crying.

I won't cry.

I'll hear you breathing.

I have to tame this other pest...

I want to hold your hand.

You see, you're crying.

Leave me alone.

That's how you can help me.

If you want.

I hope I die from you.

Franz!

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