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A month ago, you were in
med school being taught by doctors.
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Today you are the doctors.
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The seven years you spend here
as a surgical resident
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will be the best and worst of your life.
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There's an old joke doctors like to tell.
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"Hey, Doc, it hurts when I go like this."
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And the doctor says,
"Well, don't go like this."
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It's a lame joke,
but it's nonetheless true.
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Okay, folks. Meeting time.
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Please take your seats.
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As human beings, we can't help
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but want to follow our instincts...
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Hey!
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I, uh, went back to the loft
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and got you another bag of your stuff.
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- Oh.
- Couldn't find those
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ugly, fuzzy socks you like.
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...to follow our guts...
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That face is over socks?
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...our primal urges...
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Uh, some bills, some junk,
and, uh, top letter.
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...no matter how much it may hurt.
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I'll sit with you.
We can read it together.
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I got it.
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I got it.
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You know where to find me.
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Dear Jo...
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Mer, this is not
the way I wanted to do this.
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Dear Dr. Bailey, I regret to
inform you, blah, blah, blah,
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that I will not be
returning to Grey-Sloan.
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The last thing on Earth
I want to do is hurt you,
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but I'm leaving.
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I already left, actually.
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I'm gone.
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Synced & corrected by -robtor-
www.addic7ed.com
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This is not the way I wanted to
do this, but you know me.
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Any chance to take the easy way out.
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Or maybe that used to be true.
I don't know.
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God, I hate nurses.
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I'm Alex. I'm with Jeremy.
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You're, uh... You're with
the Nazi, right?
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She may not have pneumonia, you know?
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She could be splinting, or have a P.E.
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Like I said, I hate nurses.
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What did you just say?
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Did you just call me a nurse?
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Well, if the white cap fits.
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What I do know is I owe you the truth,
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and I don't know how else to tell you.
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But you know as well as I do
if I showed up on your doorstep,
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you'd yell or give me guilt or crap
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or whatever you do that
seems to always set me straight.
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We're grown-ups.
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We can't run.
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We have to face up to
the stupid things we do.
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- Alex!
- Get off!
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Supposedly, if you face up to them,
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something good comes out of it.
I don't know what.
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You were always the one
to set me straight...
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God, I smell good!
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You know what it is?
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It's the smell of open-heart surgery.
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It's awesome. It is awesome.
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- You gotta smell me.
- I don't want to smell you.
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...to point out when I was being an ass.
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You have got to be kidding me!
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Okay, I have more important
things to deal with than you.
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I have roommates and boy
problems and family problems.
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You wanna act like a little
frat-boy bitch? That's fine.
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You wanna take credit for
your saves and everybody else's?
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That's fine, too.
Just stay outta my face.
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And for the record,
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you smell like crap!
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And when that didn't work,
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you'd flop in my bed
and say the one perfect thing
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that would make sense.
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But the thing is, I can't come back.
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I can't face you.
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You can go.
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What are you gonna do if I leave?
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It's just us now.
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There were five of us,
and now it's just you and I.
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And it can't be just me.
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It seems like five seconds ago,
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we were the interns
hiding in the tunnels.
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- Alex!
- Get off.
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Look, I'm not gonna stay in Seattle
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just because you don't want to be alone.
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I deserve the guilt
and to be called an ass,
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but I don't want to be set straight.
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I don't want you to say the right thing
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because the one perfect thing
isn't in Seattle.
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Not anymore.
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Yang left me
her shares and her board seat
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and... she left me you, too.
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It's just us now.
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I don't know... if you need
somebody to bitch to
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or just be...
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My person.
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I don't know what you mean.
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But you do.
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Apparently, I'm your emergency contact.
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I want waffle Sundays.
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Like a family, all of us...
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everybody, all together.
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Okay.
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I want to do that as long as we can.
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- It's important to me.
- God, get off! Stop it!
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Oh, my God. Ohh.
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But I swear, it's not
about work or you or Jo.
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It's about me.
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I left.
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And I'm with Izzie.
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This is probably the part
where you're gonna get on your phone
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and call a million times
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and leave hateful messages on my machine
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till I call you back.
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But I can't, Mer.
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I can't lie to you, and I can't promise
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I'm gonna come home
because it's not home anymore.
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- Go make her happy.
- Yeah.
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When you were in danger
of losing your license,
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when I called everyone to write letters
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and show up on your behalf,
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I called Izzie, too.
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I want to say
I hoped she wouldn't answer,
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but the truth is I hoped she would.
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I want to say,
"I had to call her for you,"
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but that would be a lie.
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The truth is your trial gave me
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an excuse good enough to call her.
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'Cause I wanted to know where she landed.
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Today is the day my life begins.
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All my life, I've been just me...
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just a smart-mouth kid.
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Today I become a man.
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Today I become a husband.
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Today I become accountable
to someone other than myself.
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Today I become accountable to you,
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to our future,
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to all the possibilities
that our marriage has to offer.
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Together, no matter what happens,
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I'll be ready...
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I wanted to know
if she was alive and well.
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Screw the DNR.
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Hand me those paddles.
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- Clear.
- I wanted to hear her voice.
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I'm a bride.
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Iz, come on. I'm getting her a real one.
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I love this one,
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and that makes it a real one.
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When she picked up,
I blurted out the whole thing
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about you picking up trash off the street
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and needing a letter that proved
you're better than that.
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And she laughed and said,
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"Of course she'd be trash-picking,
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trying to save the world."
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Today, Izzie Stevens,
our life together begins.
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And I, for one, can't wait.
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And then these voices
were in the background
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and a girl was singing this song about
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"greasy, grimy gopher guts"
that I learned in first grade
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and I started laughing and I
asked if she had kids and...
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Izzie got quiet.
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For so long, she was quiet,
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and finally, she said,
"Yeah, I have kids."
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"Twins."
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And it turns out they're my kids, Mer.
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Izzie's and my kids.
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She had our kids.
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♪ Before we turn to stone
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I love Jo.
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Deeply. Still.
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I think I always will.
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And if it was just about
two women I love,
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I'd choose my wife.
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You know I would.
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- Hey.
- But it's not just her.
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Izzie made our kids.
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I snooched into a cup for you today.
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Um... thank you?
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She was single and wanted children
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and couldn't have 'em because
the cancer nuked her eggs.
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But she had our embryos.
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Back then I was too freaked out
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to care about what she did with
them if we never used them.
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You think a Dixie cup full of my swimmers
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will make everything okay?
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It's crap. This is crap.
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You just can't go messing
with people's heads like that.
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Even if she freezes the embryos,
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you think... you think
we'll get a chance to use them?
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You think she'll still be here?
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You think she'll survive all this?
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Do you think...
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She t-told me...
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she told me she was seeing a ghost, okay?
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And I'm so used to all
the crazy chicks in my life
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that I didn't even...
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I'm a doctor.
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A doctor!
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And I didn't even think to...
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And now she's... This is...
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This is wrong.
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This isn't how it's supposed to happen.
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I know.
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- It's crap.
- I know.
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I hate this.
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I know.
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This isn't...
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This isn't how we... How we were supp...
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this isn't how I wanted to do this.
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This isn't how Izzie and I
were supposed to make a baby.
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So I signed papers saying she could do
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whatever she wanted with them.
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And so she used them.
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And she had twins.
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Eli and Alexis.
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I should have told Jo
or told you, but I didn't.
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I got through the trial
and then I came here
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and I met the kids.
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Met, my kids, Mer.
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They're five.
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And hilarious and stubborn
as hell, just like Izzie.
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Like this little team that gangs up on me
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with stubbornness and sticky hands.
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Hi, horsey!
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And the second I walked in the door,
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they wanted to show me their rooms
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and the look on their faces
when they were showing me
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all their toys and books and...
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asked if they could call me...
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Dad.
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They both want to be doctors,
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and Izzie teaches them
to bake just like her.
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And they scribble
pictures of stethoscopes
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all over the walls in chalk.
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And Alexis...
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...oh, she's got Izzie's eyes.
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And Eli smiles crooked just like I do.
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And now I live on a freaking
farm in Nowhere, Kansas.
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And the kids play with the chickens
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and Izzie goes to work
as a surgical oncologist.
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Oh, and she's amazing, Mer.
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The progress she's made.
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She's alive.
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And she's a miracle
and keeping other people alive.
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And I'm applying to the hospital nearby.
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And I wanted to be mad at Izzie
for keeping them from me,
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but I can't because all I am
is grateful she made them.
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Oh, they're so damn smart,
smarter than I was at their age.
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Hell, sometimes at my age.
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And they get to have everything...
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a home where they feel safe and loved,
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and they play "sleepover,"
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where they just keep
swapping beds non-stop,
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all night until
they land in ours at 4:00 a.m.
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And they wake up with two parents,
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when I rarely ever even had one.
260
00:13:24,982 --> 00:13:26,350
Oh, I love them, Mer,
261
00:13:26,418 --> 00:13:28,284
with every inch of me and every cell,
262
00:13:28,320 --> 00:13:30,754
and I get to be their dad.
263
00:13:30,788 --> 00:13:33,756
I'm the guy who lied
and said I only had one ball
264
00:13:33,792 --> 00:13:35,679
to get into Seattle Grace.
265
00:13:35,713 --> 00:13:37,360
And it worked.
266
00:13:37,428 --> 00:13:40,230
I got a job and a career I love
based on a lie
267
00:13:40,264 --> 00:13:43,567
that no one really cared about,
and I made it work.
268
00:13:44,970 --> 00:13:46,903
And when I look at my kids
269
00:13:46,937 --> 00:13:49,740
and doubt if I know
how to do right by them,
270
00:13:49,807 --> 00:13:53,426
I just think of you and Zola
and Bailey and Ellis.
271
00:13:53,460 --> 00:13:54,539
You're so brave.
272
00:13:54,565 --> 00:13:56,548
And you've grown into
this incredible mother,
273
00:13:56,591 --> 00:13:58,849
this incredible surgeon.
274
00:13:59,985 --> 00:14:01,407
You did that.
275
00:14:02,721 --> 00:14:04,922
You always said Cristina was your person.
276
00:14:04,990 --> 00:14:06,956
Then I was your person.
277
00:14:06,991 --> 00:14:09,826
But you've always been
your own damn person,
278
00:14:09,860 --> 00:14:12,929
a force of freaking nature.
279
00:14:12,964 --> 00:14:16,213
You've never needed anyone but you.
280
00:14:16,902 --> 00:14:17,835
And you can come here, you know?
281
00:14:17,869 --> 00:14:19,903
You... You...
You could show up at my door
282
00:14:19,937 --> 00:14:21,971
and... and get me
to walk away from all this
283
00:14:22,006 --> 00:14:24,508
and just go back to you
and Jo and the hospital
284
00:14:24,542 --> 00:14:26,911
- and everyone who helped me get here.
- ...two... one!
285
00:14:26,945 --> 00:14:29,145
But I hope you don't.
286
00:14:29,179 --> 00:14:31,014
Mer, you are my best friend,
287
00:14:31,048 --> 00:14:32,615
and I will miss the hell out of you,
288
00:14:32,650 --> 00:14:38,588
but I'm finally
exactly where I should be.
289
00:14:38,623 --> 00:14:40,904
I never had that before.
290
00:14:41,625 --> 00:14:45,296
So, I hope you do come here one day,
291
00:14:45,330 --> 00:14:48,264
but not to ask me to leave.
292
00:14:48,289 --> 00:14:50,691
I hope you come to meet my kids
293
00:14:50,716 --> 00:14:52,984
and they get to call you "Auntie Mer."
294
00:14:53,071 --> 00:14:56,254
Because you'll love them,
and they'll love you.
295
00:14:56,908 --> 00:14:58,965
And until you're ready to do that,
296
00:15:00,110 --> 00:15:02,413
try not to hate me too much.
297
00:15:02,447 --> 00:15:03,760
Please?
298
00:15:05,082 --> 00:15:06,764
Alex.
299
00:15:20,162 --> 00:15:22,162
I'm sorry!
300
00:15:24,404 --> 00:15:26,639
You deserve more than a letter.
301
00:15:26,673 --> 00:15:28,140
I'm your intern for the day.
302
00:15:28,208 --> 00:15:30,063
Oh. Well, hello, intern. You have a name?
303
00:15:30,099 --> 00:15:31,177
Jo Wilson.
304
00:15:31,211 --> 00:15:33,447
Oh, nice. I like chicks with boys names.
305
00:15:34,042 --> 00:15:35,816
And this right here,
306
00:15:35,850 --> 00:15:39,720
this cowardice, this letter?
307
00:15:39,754 --> 00:15:42,288
It's officially
the worst thing I've ever done.
308
00:15:43,691 --> 00:15:45,893
But it's about me, Jo.
309
00:15:45,927 --> 00:15:47,193
It's not about you.
310
00:15:47,227 --> 00:15:49,206
I don't live in my car anymore, jerk.
311
00:15:49,231 --> 00:15:50,663
It's not what you deserve.
312
00:15:50,697 --> 00:15:53,734
You deserve and have earned
so much better than this.
313
00:15:53,768 --> 00:15:55,269
Hey, powdered sugar's your favorite.
314
00:15:55,302 --> 00:15:57,336
Yeah, no. Uh, this is great.
315
00:15:57,361 --> 00:15:59,062
You wanted to hear me say the words.
316
00:15:59,087 --> 00:16:01,623
So I'm... saying them right now.
317
00:16:04,245 --> 00:16:06,647
I love you, Jo.
318
00:16:06,714 --> 00:16:08,682
I love that you are brilliant and brave,
319
00:16:08,750 --> 00:16:10,350
and no matter what you go through...
320
00:16:10,384 --> 00:16:11,317
Hey, Brooke.
321
00:16:11,351 --> 00:16:13,687
Oh, wait. It's... It's "Jo" now, right?
322
00:16:15,255 --> 00:16:17,057
...you never let it hold you back.
323
00:16:17,081 --> 00:16:19,817
- Do I look like him?
- You have my father's eyes...
324
00:16:19,927 --> 00:16:21,327
You have an out.
325
00:16:24,631 --> 00:16:27,167
It makes you stronger, kinder.
326
00:16:27,201 --> 00:16:28,501
You made me kinder.
327
00:16:28,536 --> 00:16:30,202
That works? The compliments thing?
328
00:16:30,238 --> 00:16:31,404
Mm-hmm.
329
00:16:31,438 --> 00:16:32,673
God, you're sexy.
330
00:16:32,740 --> 00:16:34,441
Doesn't work on me.
331
00:16:34,475 --> 00:16:36,009
Ohh!
332
00:16:36,043 --> 00:16:38,445
Oh. A little warning when people are over
333
00:16:38,479 --> 00:16:39,546
would be nice.
334
00:16:39,581 --> 00:16:42,415
You loved me for exactly
who I was, and I loved you.
335
00:16:42,450 --> 00:16:44,418
I'm gonna marry that girl.
336
00:16:44,451 --> 00:16:46,552
Ohh! Yes!
337
00:16:46,587 --> 00:16:48,120
I love you.
338
00:16:48,155 --> 00:16:51,258
Maybe it's not fair to say that,
but it's true.
339
00:16:51,292 --> 00:16:52,893
What's also true is...
340
00:16:54,995 --> 00:16:56,462
...I'm in love with Izzie.
341
00:17:03,004 --> 00:17:05,571
When I asked you if you
wanted to move in with me,
342
00:17:05,606 --> 00:17:07,207
you said that you did
343
00:17:07,240 --> 00:17:08,575
and that you could
picture a life with me,
344
00:17:08,609 --> 00:17:10,743
but you never said anything about babies.
345
00:17:10,778 --> 00:17:13,807
You said, "Maybe we could get a dog."
346
00:17:13,832 --> 00:17:14,961
Do you want a dog?
347
00:17:14,986 --> 00:17:16,549
No, I want to know what we're doing here.
348
00:17:16,584 --> 00:17:18,551
I love you, and you love me.
349
00:17:18,586 --> 00:17:20,220
I know, but when I look ahead...
350
00:17:20,253 --> 00:17:21,288
Why are we looking ahead?
351
00:17:21,321 --> 00:17:23,423
If you had or maybe
you do have, for all I know,
352
00:17:23,458 --> 00:17:26,093
a bunch of Izzie babies walking
around with your face on them...
353
00:17:26,160 --> 00:17:27,160
And why are we doing it now?
354
00:17:27,194 --> 00:17:29,462
And... And I'm just
the "Let's get a dog" girl?
355
00:17:29,497 --> 00:17:31,597
You always ask about Izzie,
what she was like.
356
00:17:31,633 --> 00:17:33,299
Well, that... that girl right there.
357
00:17:33,334 --> 00:17:35,001
That... That's what Izzie was like.
358
00:17:35,036 --> 00:17:38,105
I imagined this whole life
for her where she was baking
359
00:17:38,138 --> 00:17:40,140
and happy and had a bunch of kids.
360
00:17:40,173 --> 00:17:42,142
Alex, if you want to know how she is,
361
00:17:42,175 --> 00:17:43,248
you should just call her.
362
00:17:43,282 --> 00:17:45,177
And I never imagined me in that picture.
363
00:17:45,212 --> 00:17:46,346
You should call Izzie.
364
00:17:46,381 --> 00:17:48,347
But suddenly, I am.
365
00:17:48,415 --> 00:17:51,183
Not suddenly. That's a lie there.
366
00:17:51,219 --> 00:17:53,353
There was a part of me
that always wondered,
367
00:17:53,387 --> 00:17:54,921
always wanted to know,
368
00:17:54,989 --> 00:17:59,526
always felt
like we left things unresolved,
369
00:17:59,594 --> 00:18:01,627
unfinished.
370
00:18:01,663 --> 00:18:06,333
So, when Mer needed all those
letters, I reached out to her.
371
00:18:06,366 --> 00:18:08,801
I reached out to Izzie
and we started talking
372
00:18:08,836 --> 00:18:10,537
and it scared the crap out of me
373
00:18:10,561 --> 00:18:13,159
because it felt like no time had passed,
374
00:18:13,875 --> 00:18:17,544
like Izzie and I were
kind of frozen together in time,
375
00:18:17,612 --> 00:18:19,945
and now... now we're not.
376
00:18:19,980 --> 00:18:22,548
She's not. She's here in Kansas,
377
00:18:22,583 --> 00:18:25,786
on a farm in this incredible
place in the middle of nowhere.
378
00:18:25,819 --> 00:18:27,688
And I never, in a million years,
379
00:18:27,712 --> 00:18:30,815
would think I belong here, but I do.
380
00:18:30,924 --> 00:18:32,893
And I can't lie to you...
381
00:18:32,960 --> 00:18:34,594
...and pretend the truth
isn't the truth...
382
00:18:34,628 --> 00:18:37,141
that I love you and I love Izzie.
383
00:18:38,183 --> 00:18:42,001
But if it was just me missing
her or nostalgia or whatever...
384
00:18:42,036 --> 00:18:43,047
Will you stay with me?
385
00:18:43,080 --> 00:18:44,837
...I would have been able to walk away
386
00:18:44,863 --> 00:18:46,363
and come back to you.
387
00:18:48,108 --> 00:18:50,743
But Izzie had my kids.
388
00:18:50,778 --> 00:18:54,047
And I know you get
what that really means.
389
00:18:54,082 --> 00:18:55,648
I know you of all people
390
00:18:55,682 --> 00:18:57,750
understand why I can't just leave now...
391
00:18:57,785 --> 00:18:59,856
...why I can't miss another
392
00:18:59,882 --> 00:19:02,189
second of my kids' lives.
393
00:19:02,222 --> 00:19:05,092
I have a chance
to make this family whole,
394
00:19:05,125 --> 00:19:08,434
and I just hope you love me back
enough to let me take it.
395
00:19:09,652 --> 00:19:12,220
I need to give these kids
the family you and I never had,
396
00:19:12,244 --> 00:19:16,048
with barbecuing out on
the back porch and soccer games
397
00:19:16,073 --> 00:19:18,407
and movie nights and book reports.
398
00:19:18,432 --> 00:19:19,866
Mom.
399
00:19:26,440 --> 00:19:28,340
I didn't know she would have my kids,
400
00:19:28,365 --> 00:19:30,634
and now that she does,
401
00:19:30,659 --> 00:19:33,394
I don't know how to look anyone
in the eye if I don't stay
402
00:19:33,419 --> 00:19:36,688
and do everything I can
to make this work...
403
00:19:36,824 --> 00:19:40,579
make this a life, make this a family.
404
00:19:41,528 --> 00:19:43,130
You were wrong.
405
00:19:43,197 --> 00:19:45,865
You're not the "Let's get a dog" girl.
406
00:19:45,891 --> 00:19:47,258
And I was never holding a candle
407
00:19:47,282 --> 00:19:48,516
or those pieces of paper
408
00:19:48,540 --> 00:19:51,257
thinking anything would ever change.
409
00:19:52,105 --> 00:19:54,473
When I asked you to marry me, I meant it.
410
00:19:56,676 --> 00:19:58,511
And we'll be together
forever, right? You and me.
411
00:19:58,546 --> 00:20:00,346
And if we have kids, we'll be great.
412
00:20:00,381 --> 00:20:02,516
I'll be a great dad, and you'll be great,
413
00:20:02,549 --> 00:20:03,916
and it'll be just us.
414
00:20:03,951 --> 00:20:05,719
We won't need anybody else, okay?
415
00:20:05,752 --> 00:20:09,122
When I told you I love you, I meant it.
416
00:20:09,156 --> 00:20:12,558
But Izzie has our kids, Jo.
417
00:20:12,593 --> 00:20:14,493
Our kids.
418
00:20:14,528 --> 00:20:16,990
And the way you and I grew up, I...
419
00:20:17,597 --> 00:20:19,965
I-I came to meet them,
to start to know them.
420
00:20:20,000 --> 00:20:22,368
I missed five years of their lives.
421
00:20:22,403 --> 00:20:24,403
And not because I was a junkie
like my dad
422
00:20:24,438 --> 00:20:26,740
or off my meds like my mom.
423
00:20:26,807 --> 00:20:30,296
I didn't exist to them until
I walked through the front door.
424
00:20:30,678 --> 00:20:34,647
And once I did, I had this
family I never knew I had
425
00:20:34,682 --> 00:20:37,548
on this insane farm, and I wish I'd
426
00:20:38,618 --> 00:20:41,587
I wish getting everything I always wanted
427
00:20:41,655 --> 00:20:43,856
didn't have to hurt you in the process.
428
00:20:55,068 --> 00:20:56,947
But I can't lie to you.
429
00:20:57,505 --> 00:20:58,805
And I can't come home.
430
00:20:58,839 --> 00:21:00,707
Are you asking me to a dance?
431
00:21:00,740 --> 00:21:04,678
No, I'm... I'm asking you
to come back home.
432
00:21:06,580 --> 00:21:08,280
I'm not coming home, Jo.
433
00:21:08,316 --> 00:21:09,316
I can't face you.
434
00:21:09,383 --> 00:21:10,650
I can't look you in the eye
435
00:21:10,684 --> 00:21:12,986
because I wouldn't be able to walk away.
436
00:21:13,054 --> 00:21:15,622
Maybe "I love you" is wrong to say,
437
00:21:15,646 --> 00:21:19,516
but thank you for making me better
438
00:21:19,540 --> 00:21:21,551
and taking care of me when I needed it,
439
00:21:21,628 --> 00:21:25,565
for taking care of yourself
when you needed it, too.
440
00:21:25,599 --> 00:21:27,166
I went to a lawyer.
441
00:21:27,201 --> 00:21:28,734
I signed divorce papers.
442
00:21:28,769 --> 00:21:31,503
I left everything to you. It's yours.
443
00:21:31,571 --> 00:21:35,008
You worked for every cent
you ever owned and then some.
444
00:21:35,076 --> 00:21:37,644
I also left you my shares in Grey-Sloan.
445
00:21:37,711 --> 00:21:40,713
Whatever you choose to do with
them, I know it will be amazing.
446
00:21:40,780 --> 00:21:42,682
Just like you.
447
00:21:44,333 --> 00:21:45,599
You know, I, uh...
448
00:21:45,685 --> 00:21:48,555
I barely saw you this week,
449
00:21:48,588 --> 00:21:51,167
and it sucked.
450
00:21:52,093 --> 00:21:54,927
I'll find another job. Whatever.
451
00:21:54,961 --> 00:21:58,798
I, uh, but I don't want
to never see you again.
452
00:21:58,833 --> 00:22:02,304
Oh, you deserve everything good
in this life, Jo.
453
00:22:03,403 --> 00:22:06,472
I hope you find so much better than me.
454
00:22:06,507 --> 00:22:07,707
Thank you.
455
00:22:08,519 --> 00:22:10,354
I'm... I'm sorry.
456
00:22:11,112 --> 00:22:13,231
I don't know how to end this.
457
00:22:13,814 --> 00:22:15,582
I don't want to.
458
00:22:17,684 --> 00:22:19,028
Goodbye.
459
00:22:26,625 --> 00:22:28,519
I'm guessing
you're not surprised by this,
460
00:22:28,544 --> 00:22:31,416
and definitely not happy about it.
461
00:22:32,427 --> 00:22:34,628
They called me Evil Spawn
most of the time
462
00:22:34,697 --> 00:22:36,698
growing up in your hospital.
463
00:22:36,731 --> 00:22:38,199
Nice panties, Yang.
464
00:22:39,556 --> 00:22:41,269
In your dreams, Evil Spawn.
465
00:22:41,302 --> 00:22:43,003
It's probably one of the better nicknames
466
00:22:43,072 --> 00:22:45,373
I had most of my life, to be honest.
467
00:22:45,406 --> 00:22:47,174
I earned the name.
468
00:22:47,242 --> 00:22:48,919
I know it, you know it.
469
00:22:48,953 --> 00:22:50,153
Morning, people.
470
00:22:50,179 --> 00:22:53,271
Hell, you probably know
that better than anyone.
471
00:22:54,415 --> 00:22:57,184
Truth is, you didn't like me
very much in the beginning.
472
00:22:59,221 --> 00:23:01,756
I didn't really like you much, either.
473
00:23:01,789 --> 00:23:03,391
Sloppy, sloppy, sloppy.
474
00:23:03,459 --> 00:23:06,193
Redo these and return them to me
before lunch, understood?
475
00:23:06,228 --> 00:23:08,096
- Understood.
- Karev, don't tempt me.
476
00:23:08,130 --> 00:23:09,730
And, Karev, see the chief
by the end of the day.
477
00:23:09,765 --> 00:23:10,864
What for?
478
00:23:10,897 --> 00:23:12,666
Do I look psychic to you? He's the chief.
479
00:23:12,701 --> 00:23:13,701
He asked, you go.
480
00:23:13,736 --> 00:23:15,435
Karev, go stand in the hall.
481
00:23:15,471 --> 00:23:17,204
- Karev, cover the pit.
- Pit!
482
00:23:17,239 --> 00:23:18,905
Hate being an intern.
483
00:23:18,941 --> 00:23:23,176
You were mean and impatient...
and knew everything,
484
00:23:23,211 --> 00:23:24,778
and you liked everyone else but me,
485
00:23:24,813 --> 00:23:26,446
even when you pretended you didn't.
486
00:23:26,481 --> 00:23:27,809
Are you sure they're balloons?
487
00:23:28,516 --> 00:23:30,718
You have reason to believe
they're not balloons?
488
00:23:30,752 --> 00:23:32,720
This one here's got a face.
489
00:23:32,755 --> 00:23:34,622
They all do.
490
00:23:34,690 --> 00:23:36,223
I'll be damned.
491
00:23:36,258 --> 00:23:38,726
- They're Judys.
- Judys?
492
00:23:38,794 --> 00:23:43,931
He swallowed the heads of ten Judy dolls.
493
00:23:43,999 --> 00:23:46,567
Or you were convinced I had "it"...
494
00:23:46,634 --> 00:23:50,238
that something that would make
them great someday.
495
00:23:50,788 --> 00:23:53,141
Hell, you named your kid after O'Malley.
496
00:23:53,208 --> 00:23:55,977
And Mer named her kid after you,
and you...
497
00:23:57,246 --> 00:24:00,414
...you just seemed like all
my other teachers before you
498
00:24:00,449 --> 00:24:03,718
who took one look at me,
decided I was garbage,
499
00:24:03,786 --> 00:24:06,386
and that was all I'd ever be.
500
00:24:06,422 --> 00:24:08,155
But here's the thing.
501
00:24:08,222 --> 00:24:11,992
Unlike everyone else,
you let me grow the hell up.
502
00:24:12,060 --> 00:24:14,895
- He saved a baby's life.
- You gave me crap when I deserved it.
503
00:24:14,962 --> 00:24:17,265
You pushed my buttons
and my limits when I needed it.
504
00:24:17,298 --> 00:24:20,000
What the hell? You are not some
hotshot surgeon right now.
505
00:24:20,035 --> 00:24:22,069
Yeah, it's a teaching hospital
and all that,
506
00:24:22,136 --> 00:24:25,205
but you did more than that,
and you know it.
507
00:24:25,240 --> 00:24:27,240
Why is there a trailer
in my parking spot?
508
00:24:27,700 --> 00:24:30,678
Is one of these yours? My bad.
509
00:24:30,712 --> 00:24:31,972
And, sure, it'd be pretty great
510
00:24:32,008 --> 00:24:33,580
if I just stayed there forever
511
00:24:33,648 --> 00:24:36,049
and repaid you
for everything you did for me.
512
00:24:37,000 --> 00:24:39,220
But you and I both know I can't.
513
00:24:41,022 --> 00:24:42,824
Never could.
514
00:24:42,857 --> 00:24:44,858
You helped me grow the hell up,
515
00:24:44,926 --> 00:24:46,861
and you took a bullet out of my stomach.
516
00:24:46,894 --> 00:24:48,028
You paged me?
517
00:24:48,063 --> 00:24:50,464
I did. I have a surgery.
518
00:24:50,499 --> 00:24:52,083
You're actually gonna
let me near a patient?
519
00:24:52,107 --> 00:24:53,325
You are the patient.
520
00:24:53,368 --> 00:24:55,523
- Get in there and get on that table.
- Oh...
521
00:24:56,682 --> 00:24:58,651
I don't need a reminder of this thing.
522
00:24:58,675 --> 00:25:00,309
I'm gonna carry that day around with me
523
00:25:00,335 --> 00:25:02,318
every day for the rest of my life.
524
00:25:02,344 --> 00:25:04,244
I don't need a reminder
every time I look at you.
525
00:25:04,278 --> 00:25:07,481
And I'm tired of bullying you,
526
00:25:07,516 --> 00:25:09,317
so I am asking you,
527
00:25:09,351 --> 00:25:13,221
please, get in there
and get your shirt off.
528
00:25:15,758 --> 00:25:17,525
You protected Jo from herself,
529
00:25:17,558 --> 00:25:19,059
and if I started the whole list
530
00:25:19,094 --> 00:25:20,494
of everything I learned from you,
531
00:25:20,528 --> 00:25:22,363
I would never stop writing.
532
00:25:22,397 --> 00:25:24,332
And right now my hand hurts.
533
00:25:24,923 --> 00:25:26,842
So just know this.
534
00:25:27,142 --> 00:25:29,743
It took me a long time to say it,
535
00:25:30,005 --> 00:25:32,339
but I'm a good peds surgeon.
536
00:25:33,509 --> 00:25:35,276
I'm an okay guy.
537
00:25:35,643 --> 00:25:37,377
I'm still trying.
538
00:25:37,810 --> 00:25:41,348
But I'm a really damn good surgeon.
539
00:25:41,416 --> 00:25:42,950
- We got movement!
- And I don't mind saying it now
540
00:25:42,984 --> 00:25:45,286
because I didn't figure it out myself.
541
00:25:46,194 --> 00:25:49,423
You kicked my ass
and asked more of me than anyone
542
00:25:49,458 --> 00:25:51,092
and hired other teachers
who kicked my ass
543
00:25:51,125 --> 00:25:52,426
and asked more of me.
544
00:25:52,461 --> 00:25:54,628
Karev, I hear that
you're the future of peds.
545
00:25:54,663 --> 00:25:56,035
- Excuse me?
- Yeah, a little birdie named
546
00:25:56,059 --> 00:25:57,365
Bailey whispered it in my ear.
547
00:25:57,398 --> 00:25:59,318
I want you to work with me
today so I can see if she's right.
548
00:25:59,344 --> 00:26:00,471
What did she say?
549
00:26:00,507 --> 00:26:02,336
That you're the best babysitter
in the hospital.
550
00:26:02,403 --> 00:26:03,770
Shut up.
551
00:26:03,806 --> 00:26:05,105
And I know who I am.
552
00:26:05,140 --> 00:26:08,910
I'm not that guy with a million
Catherine Fox Awards on a shelf.
553
00:26:08,977 --> 00:26:10,243
Goodbye, Mom.
554
00:26:10,278 --> 00:26:11,636
Bye.
555
00:26:12,762 --> 00:26:15,383
A junkie dad, a crackpot mom,
556
00:26:15,451 --> 00:26:18,952
and somehow Karev still became a doctor.
557
00:26:18,987 --> 00:26:21,455
I'm not easily impressed,
but I'm impressed.
558
00:26:21,522 --> 00:26:23,739
I became the guy you
trusted to run the hospital
559
00:26:23,772 --> 00:26:24,837
and keep your secrets.
560
00:26:24,905 --> 00:26:26,727
And now... It's okay.
561
00:26:26,761 --> 00:26:29,396
...and now I'm a surgeon, a friend,
562
00:26:29,431 --> 00:26:32,365
a father of two incredible kids
with Izzie Stevens,
563
00:26:32,433 --> 00:26:35,201
which I'm sure is breaking your brain.
564
00:26:36,204 --> 00:26:38,239
- But it's true.
- Nothing!
565
00:26:38,307 --> 00:26:40,106
I'm all these things.
566
00:26:40,142 --> 00:26:41,409
She been out there all day?
567
00:26:41,442 --> 00:26:43,644
And by the way, I have a shot
568
00:26:43,711 --> 00:26:46,113
at being Chief of Peds
at Shawnee County here,
569
00:26:46,547 --> 00:26:48,982
but I'm guessing you're the last person
570
00:26:49,017 --> 00:26:51,759
I should put down as a rec right now.
571
00:26:52,820 --> 00:26:56,423
Okay, look, the... the kids
keep asking for pizza sushi,
572
00:26:56,458 --> 00:26:59,059
and I have to go tell them
that's not a thing.
573
00:26:59,094 --> 00:27:01,796
And if I say any more in this letter,
574
00:27:01,829 --> 00:27:04,731
there are going to be feelings
all over the place.
575
00:27:04,766 --> 00:27:06,442
Yours, not mine.
576
00:27:07,035 --> 00:27:09,403
And, really,
I'm just writing to say goodbye.
577
00:27:10,153 --> 00:27:11,939
And thanks.
578
00:27:11,973 --> 00:27:13,508
And that sounds lame and small
579
00:27:13,575 --> 00:27:14,775
compared to everything you've done,
580
00:27:14,843 --> 00:27:18,244
but there it is.
581
00:27:19,381 --> 00:27:21,816
Goodbye, and thanks.
582
00:27:23,719 --> 00:27:25,653
I love you, Dr. Bailey.
583
00:27:27,655 --> 00:27:29,457
Dr. Alex Karev.
584
00:27:38,551 --> 00:27:42,227
- Richard, alcoholic.
- Hi, Richard.
585
00:27:46,169 --> 00:27:48,237
See one,
586
00:27:48,305 --> 00:27:50,172
do one,
587
00:27:50,207 --> 00:27:51,653
teach one.
588
00:27:52,890 --> 00:27:55,838
That's been the motto
of every hospital I run,
589
00:27:55,864 --> 00:27:57,742
every teacher I've loved.
590
00:27:59,148 --> 00:28:04,353
I loved being a surgeon, saving lives,
591
00:28:04,386 --> 00:28:08,356
giving people back their families,
592
00:28:08,391 --> 00:28:11,911
their loved ones, and their friends.
593
00:28:11,934 --> 00:28:16,385
Giving them back to them
when all seemed lost.
594
00:28:17,105 --> 00:28:20,275
And I loved my students,
not because of ego...
595
00:28:23,378 --> 00:28:25,180
I'm done. I'm done! I'm done!
596
00:28:25,214 --> 00:28:29,984
...but because it gave me that
same rush, that same feeling...
597
00:28:30,019 --> 00:28:33,188
That's why I'm the chief.
598
00:28:33,222 --> 00:28:37,025
It's like you're helping
to keep people alive,
599
00:28:37,093 --> 00:28:39,701
keep families alive.
600
00:28:40,697 --> 00:28:43,164
And then this morning,
I wake up to a letter
601
00:28:43,232 --> 00:28:46,902
from a student of mine, who, well,
602
00:28:46,935 --> 00:28:51,006
let's just say he's not the one
I would have put money down on.
603
00:28:51,074 --> 00:28:53,040
What happens, uh,
if I... if I take the exam
604
00:28:53,076 --> 00:28:55,344
for a second time and I don't pass?
605
00:28:55,377 --> 00:28:58,012
You will no longer be a surgical
resident at Seattle Grace.
606
00:28:58,080 --> 00:28:59,882
Failing again is not an option.
607
00:28:59,949 --> 00:29:02,084
- What's the big deal?
- Well, the big deal is you're...
608
00:29:02,117 --> 00:29:05,787
you're sweaty and you and you smell.
609
00:29:05,821 --> 00:29:07,798
And you're not going into my OR.
610
00:29:07,834 --> 00:29:09,090
What the hell's the matter
with you today?
611
00:29:09,125 --> 00:29:10,625
This is a teaching hospital, okay?
612
00:29:10,660 --> 00:29:12,528
You were the chief for 20 years.
613
00:29:12,561 --> 00:29:14,730
You're supposed to be
teaching your residents.
614
00:29:14,797 --> 00:29:17,132
Oh, I think I taught you something today.
615
00:29:17,200 --> 00:29:20,035
You don't give up a
once-in-a-lifetime surgery,
616
00:29:20,103 --> 00:29:24,105
not for any reason,
not for anyone, not ever.
617
00:29:24,140 --> 00:29:26,074
But he... he did the work.
618
00:29:27,249 --> 00:29:29,243
Yeah. He... He showed up.
619
00:29:29,311 --> 00:29:31,836
He... He stepped up.
620
00:29:32,749 --> 00:29:35,483
Became an excellent student,
621
00:29:35,518 --> 00:29:38,252
- a stellar surgeon.
- 10 blade.
622
00:29:38,288 --> 00:29:40,154
You're an underdog, aren't you, Karev?
623
00:29:40,189 --> 00:29:41,623
It's not that you don't have the skills.
624
00:29:41,691 --> 00:29:42,958
You have the skills.
625
00:29:42,991 --> 00:29:46,127
But you're scrappy. You're a fighter.
626
00:29:46,162 --> 00:29:47,603
I like that.
627
00:29:48,163 --> 00:29:49,631
I always root for the underdog.
628
00:29:49,699 --> 00:29:51,981
A fine teacher.
629
00:29:52,868 --> 00:29:55,777
He was working with the best of the best.
630
00:29:57,073 --> 00:30:00,808
But instead,
631
00:30:00,876 --> 00:30:03,345
he chose to abandon it all
632
00:30:03,378 --> 00:30:07,615
for who he says is the woman he loves.
633
00:30:07,650 --> 00:30:11,626
And for the two children they now have.
634
00:30:12,521 --> 00:30:16,157
You know, I wanted to
look him straight in the eye
635
00:30:16,192 --> 00:30:19,461
and yell at him and... and tell him
636
00:30:19,494 --> 00:30:21,195
that he's made a mistake,
637
00:30:21,230 --> 00:30:24,066
that it feels like a mistake.
638
00:30:25,401 --> 00:30:27,702
I've been there before, yeah.
639
00:30:27,769 --> 00:30:31,772
I've fallen in love with two
people at the same time,
640
00:30:31,807 --> 00:30:32,941
and...
641
00:30:34,711 --> 00:30:37,445
And I know all you can do
is go with what your...
642
00:30:37,480 --> 00:30:40,214
your bones and your guts
and your heart tell you to.
643
00:30:40,249 --> 00:30:43,884
I wanted to grab him
and shake him and tell him,
644
00:30:43,920 --> 00:30:46,188
"Don't give it all away.
645
00:30:46,221 --> 00:30:48,222
Not now. Not for... for this."
646
00:30:50,893 --> 00:30:55,086
But I missed my chance to watch
my own child grow into an adult.
647
00:30:56,365 --> 00:31:00,868
And I would give anything to
have those years with Maggie.
648
00:31:00,903 --> 00:31:02,503
I'd do anything.
649
00:31:04,106 --> 00:31:05,931
I guess, um...
650
00:31:07,143 --> 00:31:09,351
I just wanted to say goodbye.
651
00:31:10,445 --> 00:31:12,681
I just wanted to say goodbye.
652
00:31:12,714 --> 00:31:14,146
Hey, Dr. Webber.
653
00:31:14,683 --> 00:31:16,250
I-I didn't want to work here, either.
654
00:31:16,318 --> 00:31:19,387
You know, at Grey-Sloan,
I inherited a-a legacy.
655
00:31:19,422 --> 00:31:21,123
Bailey's legacy, your legacy.
656
00:31:21,156 --> 00:31:22,289
You know, I mean, every choice I made,
657
00:31:22,325 --> 00:31:25,093
I heard your voice in my head...
"Don't settle. Do better."
658
00:31:25,127 --> 00:31:27,429
At Grey-Sloan,
failing was our last option.
659
00:31:27,497 --> 00:31:29,196
But here, failure's the culture.
660
00:31:29,231 --> 00:31:30,499
But we can change that.
661
00:31:30,566 --> 00:31:32,166
Help me turn this place around.
662
00:31:32,201 --> 00:31:34,169
Help me do the impossible.
663
00:31:34,237 --> 00:31:37,305
I wanted to say thank you for helping me
664
00:31:37,339 --> 00:31:42,259
to be a better doctor, better teacher.
665
00:31:42,538 --> 00:31:44,072
I mean, anything.
666
00:31:46,214 --> 00:31:47,382
But he up and left...
667
00:31:47,416 --> 00:31:49,518
Karev! Do better!
668
00:31:49,551 --> 00:31:53,954
...with only a note
and an apology, and that's it,
669
00:31:53,990 --> 00:31:57,625
not considering that I might
want to say goodbye
670
00:31:57,660 --> 00:31:59,060
as a teacher...
671
00:31:59,095 --> 00:32:00,561
Watch your back, Karev.
672
00:32:00,596 --> 00:32:02,931
I may decide to teach you
something tomorrow.
673
00:32:03,766 --> 00:32:05,299
Time of...
674
00:32:05,334 --> 00:32:06,535
...as a colleague...
675
00:32:06,568 --> 00:32:08,236
Time of death... 15:42.
676
00:32:08,270 --> 00:32:09,744
...as a friend.
677
00:32:10,972 --> 00:32:12,207
See one.
678
00:32:12,663 --> 00:32:14,375
Do one.
679
00:32:14,410 --> 00:32:16,167
Teach one.
680
00:32:17,012 --> 00:32:22,451
I've seen people leave.
681
00:32:22,484 --> 00:32:24,925
I've done the leaving.
682
00:32:25,387 --> 00:32:29,458
Richard! Richard! Richard!
683
00:32:29,525 --> 00:32:31,046
I was gonna ask you to be by my side
684
00:32:31,079 --> 00:32:32,160
for the rest of our lives.
685
00:32:32,194 --> 00:32:34,261
I'm not sorry about a damn thing.
686
00:32:37,333 --> 00:32:41,036
And lately, it seems like
all the people I love just...
687
00:32:42,238 --> 00:32:44,806
...they just disappear.
688
00:32:45,447 --> 00:32:46,990
And...
689
00:32:48,176 --> 00:32:49,826
I can't...
690
00:32:50,346 --> 00:32:53,848
find a way to make it stop.
691
00:33:03,096 --> 00:33:05,263
Alex, if you want to know how she is,
692
00:33:05,332 --> 00:33:07,398
you should just call her.
693
00:33:07,433 --> 00:33:08,627
You should call Izzie.
694
00:33:08,663 --> 00:33:09,602
No.
695
00:33:09,669 --> 00:33:11,403
No, it's okay.
696
00:33:11,471 --> 00:33:12,770
No.
697
00:33:12,838 --> 00:33:15,740
I mean, I-I-I don't need to call her.
698
00:33:15,775 --> 00:33:17,311
I know how she is.
699
00:33:18,243 --> 00:33:20,112
I mean, she's, uh...
700
00:33:20,180 --> 00:33:22,847
she's married with three kids,
701
00:33:22,882 --> 00:33:28,453
and she lives somewhere,
I think, uh, kind of woodsy?
702
00:33:30,356 --> 00:33:32,691
And she's a surgeon
and she goes to work every day,
703
00:33:32,726 --> 00:33:37,164
so she refuses to hire help,
so her house is always a mess.
704
00:33:38,263 --> 00:33:41,400
And it has Christmas decorations
all over it
705
00:33:41,433 --> 00:33:44,756
because she won't let
her husband take them down.
706
00:33:47,073 --> 00:33:48,440
It smells like muffins,
707
00:33:48,508 --> 00:33:50,709
and she's...
708
00:33:50,743 --> 00:33:52,176
she's smiling.
709
00:33:54,681 --> 00:33:57,102
When I picture her, she's always smiling.
710
00:33:57,817 --> 00:34:01,021
I don't need to call her because
I want it to stay that way.
711
00:34:02,955 --> 00:34:07,393
I picture her as happy as I am with you.
712
00:34:08,494 --> 00:34:10,295
You imagined a whole life for her?
713
00:34:10,329 --> 00:34:13,065
Oh, yeah. It's way better than wondering.
714
00:34:17,469 --> 00:34:19,304
Hi, Izzie Stevens. Washington.
715
00:34:19,338 --> 00:34:22,273
Hi, Alex Karev. Iowa.
716
00:34:22,307 --> 00:34:23,574
What program are you in?
717
00:34:23,610 --> 00:34:25,811
Surgery.
718
00:34:25,878 --> 00:34:27,478
- Seriously?
- Seriously.
719
00:34:27,514 --> 00:34:29,280
Morning, Dr. Model.
720
00:34:29,315 --> 00:34:30,782
Dr. Evil Spawn.
721
00:34:30,817 --> 00:34:33,284
Ooh. Nice tat.
722
00:34:33,318 --> 00:34:34,820
Do you ever wake up
in the morning and realize
723
00:34:34,853 --> 00:34:38,190
nobody likes you and, I don't know, care?
724
00:34:38,257 --> 00:34:39,992
Oh.
725
00:34:40,025 --> 00:34:41,360
I think somebody likes me.
726
00:34:41,393 --> 00:34:43,362
What is she doing?
727
00:34:43,396 --> 00:34:46,097
She's hanging out with Alex.
728
00:34:48,201 --> 00:34:51,135
- - What?
729
00:34:51,170 --> 00:34:52,603
There's a discussion we could have
730
00:34:52,672 --> 00:34:54,806
if you wanted to have one.
731
00:34:54,840 --> 00:34:56,442
I kissed you with tongue...
732
00:34:56,476 --> 00:34:59,878
...and I plan to do it again and again.
733
00:34:59,913 --> 00:35:01,380
Get used to it.
734
00:35:01,414 --> 00:35:03,148
Ow!
735
00:35:03,172 --> 00:35:04,184
I care about you.
736
00:35:05,418 --> 00:35:07,286
And I'm not gonna stop caring about you,
737
00:35:07,353 --> 00:35:09,153
no matter how hard you push me away.
738
00:35:09,222 --> 00:35:10,456
Shut up and get out of my room.
739
00:35:10,489 --> 00:35:11,856
No.
740
00:35:11,891 --> 00:35:14,425
I care about you.
741
00:35:14,460 --> 00:35:15,860
And I know you care about me, too.
742
00:35:15,894 --> 00:35:17,596
It is not too late for us.
743
00:35:17,630 --> 00:35:18,731
Admit that you care about me, too.
744
00:35:18,764 --> 00:35:21,032
I know you do. I care about you.
745
00:35:22,199 --> 00:35:23,425
I care about you.
746
00:35:23,469 --> 00:35:25,804
I care about you. I care about you.
747
00:35:25,871 --> 00:35:27,358
I...
748
00:35:28,108 --> 00:35:31,009
I think with you, you make me better.
749
00:35:31,077 --> 00:35:33,811
- Oh!
- You make me want to be better.
750
00:35:33,847 --> 00:35:35,581
You make me want to be good.
751
00:35:35,614 --> 00:35:37,048
And I think I can.
752
00:35:37,083 --> 00:35:39,184
With you, I think I can.
753
00:35:39,251 --> 00:35:40,719
And if you want to be scared,
that's okay.
754
00:35:40,753 --> 00:35:42,086
Just be scared with me.
755
00:35:42,121 --> 00:35:43,521
I don't want to be
the future of this hospital
756
00:35:43,556 --> 00:35:47,626
if you're not there with me.
757
00:35:55,802 --> 00:35:57,702
I didn't know you still
felt that way about me.
758
00:35:57,737 --> 00:35:58,903
Me neither.
759
00:36:00,606 --> 00:36:03,541
I love you.
760
00:36:03,576 --> 00:36:05,376
What?
761
00:36:05,411 --> 00:36:07,112
I love you.
762
00:36:07,146 --> 00:36:08,355
I freaking love you.
763
00:36:08,389 --> 00:36:10,014
I can totally see you in ten years...
764
00:36:10,048 --> 00:36:11,949
...a little salt and pepper in your hair,
765
00:36:11,985 --> 00:36:15,253
big-shot attending.
766
00:36:15,288 --> 00:36:16,789
You're gonna be a rock star, Alex.
767
00:36:16,822 --> 00:36:18,090
Shut up.
768
00:36:23,396 --> 00:36:25,463
I love you.
769
00:36:48,554 --> 00:36:50,521
You taking my spot on the couch tonight?
770
00:36:53,992 --> 00:36:55,393
Miranda, is...?
771
00:36:55,460 --> 00:36:58,030
Alex Karev isn't coming back.
772
00:36:58,063 --> 00:37:00,076
Left his wife,
773
00:37:00,869 --> 00:37:03,204
his friends, his job.
774
00:37:04,036 --> 00:37:09,574
Alex Karev is now a father
of two with Izzie Stevens.
775
00:37:13,079 --> 00:37:16,447
And, if they take my
recommendation seriously,
776
00:37:16,481 --> 00:37:20,786
he'll soon be Chief of Peds
at Shawnee Memorial.
777
00:37:24,157 --> 00:37:25,590
What's this got to do with Joey?
778
00:37:27,492 --> 00:37:30,494
Now, it is a matter of luck,
779
00:37:30,530 --> 00:37:35,400
of grace that Alex Karev
is who he is today.
780
00:37:35,434 --> 00:37:40,271
He could have just as easily
been lost to this world,
781
00:37:40,306 --> 00:37:42,574
aimless.
782
00:37:42,608 --> 00:37:46,445
But he survived his home,
783
00:37:46,478 --> 00:37:49,380
his family, his foster homes
784
00:37:49,414 --> 00:37:51,682
and became a man,
785
00:37:51,717 --> 00:37:53,672
now a father,
786
00:37:55,047 --> 00:37:58,456
a fine surgeon by luck,
787
00:37:58,885 --> 00:38:00,427
by chance.
788
00:38:02,695 --> 00:38:06,101
Joey's future shouldn't
be a matter of chance.
789
00:38:06,465 --> 00:38:10,605
A child's future
can't be a matter of luck.
790
00:38:14,407 --> 00:38:15,860
Okay.
791
00:38:17,076 --> 00:38:18,643
"Okay"?
792
00:38:18,677 --> 00:38:20,572
Just like that? "Okay"?
793
00:38:22,014 --> 00:38:25,583
I just wanted to talk about it.
794
00:38:25,617 --> 00:38:27,452
I mean, you and I,
look, we... we both make
795
00:38:27,487 --> 00:38:31,155
these big, sweeping decisions
without each other.
796
00:38:31,190 --> 00:38:34,025
You... You had a heart attack
and didn't tell me.
797
00:38:34,059 --> 00:38:36,394
You... You had a miscarriage
and shut me out.
798
00:38:36,429 --> 00:38:38,842
- You...
- You change careers like sweaters.
799
00:38:39,431 --> 00:38:42,219
Yeah.
800
00:38:43,101 --> 00:38:46,505
And I am down for all of it. I...
801
00:38:46,572 --> 00:38:50,775
All the change and the easy
and the hard that comes with it.
802
00:38:50,842 --> 00:38:53,045
Of course Joey should have you.
803
00:38:53,079 --> 00:38:54,512
Should have us.
804
00:38:54,547 --> 00:38:57,416
He should have a family.
805
00:38:57,449 --> 00:38:58,737
But...
806
00:38:59,818 --> 00:39:06,824
that family needs to learn to
talk to each other first, okay?
807
00:39:10,228 --> 00:39:11,916
I'm sorry.
808
00:39:12,632 --> 00:39:13,632
I know.
809
00:39:13,699 --> 00:39:15,467
I'm sorry. I'm sorry.
810
00:39:19,072 --> 00:39:21,472
Congratulations, Miranda.
811
00:39:21,507 --> 00:39:22,740
It's a boy.
812
00:39:22,775 --> 00:39:24,876
A teenage boy!
813
00:39:26,545 --> 00:39:29,313
It's another boy.
814
00:39:39,492 --> 00:39:42,927
- You can quit hovering.
- I'm not hovering.
815
00:39:44,514 --> 00:39:45,588
I'm... deciding
816
00:39:45,630 --> 00:39:48,869
whether to come in or give you space...
817
00:39:49,802 --> 00:39:52,570
...or take you day drinking.
818
00:39:52,605 --> 00:39:54,940
♪ But I come back again
819
00:39:55,007 --> 00:39:57,175
Okay, whiskey it is.
820
00:40:03,648 --> 00:40:05,851
Pierce is paging me for a cecal bascule
821
00:40:05,885 --> 00:40:07,719
for one of our cabbage patients.
822
00:40:09,956 --> 00:40:13,358
Okay.
823
00:40:13,393 --> 00:40:15,226
Whiskey tonight.
824
00:40:15,260 --> 00:40:17,661
Today I am working.
825
00:40:22,838 --> 00:40:26,137
You're my hero.
826
00:40:26,172 --> 00:40:27,172
Mine, too.
827
00:40:27,206 --> 00:40:29,034
We hold onto hope,
828
00:40:29,942 --> 00:40:32,277
thinking one small detail,
829
00:40:32,311 --> 00:40:34,179
one tiny piece of information
830
00:40:34,213 --> 00:40:36,547
will somehow make things right,
831
00:40:36,581 --> 00:40:38,050
make it different,
832
00:40:38,083 --> 00:40:40,052
make it okay...
833
00:40:40,085 --> 00:40:42,788
stop the world
from spinning off its axis.
834
00:40:42,822 --> 00:40:46,391
Mom, Uncle Alex said when
I finish my science project,
835
00:40:46,458 --> 00:40:47,726
I'm supposed to show him.
836
00:40:47,760 --> 00:40:48,960
Can you show me?
837
00:40:49,027 --> 00:40:50,661
He helped me come up with it.
838
00:40:50,730 --> 00:40:52,697
It's a dog feeder. See?
839
00:40:52,731 --> 00:40:54,231
When the dog walks on this lever,
840
00:40:54,266 --> 00:40:56,300
the pulley tips the bucket over and...
841
00:40:56,369 --> 00:40:58,737
That is so smart!
842
00:40:58,771 --> 00:41:01,005
All we need is a dog.
843
00:41:02,875 --> 00:41:05,844
So, can I show him?
844
00:41:05,878 --> 00:41:09,713
Can we go and show Uncle Alex
right now, please?
845
00:41:09,748 --> 00:41:12,083
Um...
846
00:41:12,150 --> 00:41:13,717
Come sit here.
847
00:41:16,856 --> 00:41:20,257
Your Uncle Alex loves you so much.
848
00:41:21,527 --> 00:41:22,909
And I just got a letter from him.
849
00:41:24,117 --> 00:41:25,182
- You did?
- I did.
850
00:41:25,217 --> 00:41:26,275
When the truth is...
851
00:41:28,034 --> 00:41:30,735
...there's really
no good way to say goodbye.
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