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good morning what a privilege to be able
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to attend my third true woman and what a
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privilege and honor it is to be able to
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share a God's story that he has written
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in my life and to share when the sin and
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the cross of Jesus collided in my life
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and the result of that or as dr. Moore
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shared last night how when the gospel
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wrecked and rebuilt my life or as Blair
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shared how when I went from a captive to
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being captivated with Jesus Christ
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or as Mary shared when I found that
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place where Jesus became enough and so I
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want to share with you briefly this
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morning that I'm a former inmate so I
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spent eleven and a half years in the
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Arkansas Department of Corrections and
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before I go any further I just want to
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stop and say I know I don't look that
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old
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so I know you're thinking there's no way
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you've spent that many years in prison
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but you try being canned for about 12
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years
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see if it doesn't preserve your youth
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you know what I mean you guys got that
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usually I have to explain that joke so
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this is encouraging already but how many
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of you have ever heard the saying sticks
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and stones may break my bones but what
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words will never hurt me I remember the
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first time I actually heard that saying
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I think I was probably around third
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fourth grade was in recess bullying this
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girl that I was picking on this is pre
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Christ so don't don't uh don't judge me
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too harshly so I was bullying her and
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she just strolled up to me and said this
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same I never heard it before and then
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she just walked off and kind of stopped
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me in my tracks kind of stopped me from
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saying anything I have nothing to say
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after that I was like huh well that's
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that's cool I can't wait to try that and
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so it wasn't long that I got that
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opportunity and I was on the school bus
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and this boy was picking on me and I
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thought this is my chance I'm gonna I'm
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gonna try that so I I said it she's
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probably not as good as she did and he
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didn't have the same reaction that I did
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so he just kept on and then I just
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started crying because his words are
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really hurting my feelings but on a
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serious note we know that words they do
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hurt don't they they awaken a host of
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different emotions within us we know
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that some words can offend us they can
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insult us they can awaken insecurities
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when they're spoken to us they can
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awaken fears they can awaken anger they
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can cause your blood pressure to rise
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and that vein in your your temple to
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start pumping fast rapidly in your jaws
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to Clint's clinch and sorry I'm getting
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carried away I was thinking about when I
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heard about Weston not having a
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Starbucks this year but anyway they can
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they can create they can awaken
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different emotions within us and at the
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same time they can they can encourage us
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words can awaken security they can
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awaken joy encouragement they can bring
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peace
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the words that are spoken to us and as I
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look back in my life I was raised in
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Northwest Arkansas if you can't tell
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that already I'm from the south but I
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was aware he's in Northwest Arkansas I
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had an older sibling and back then they
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don't have the four D it's by five D I
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don't know what it is that where they
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can go in and see the gender of the baby
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and actually it's like all kinds of
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dimensions they have now but I don't
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think they had that in the 70s so my
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parents they wanted they already had a
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girl they wanted a boy and that's what
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the doctors told him I was supposed to
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be and of course surprise I wasn't and
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of course they were disappointed and
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because I was going to be Bobby Joe jr.
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and it just didn't work now but instead
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I became Jennifer Jo so but they said
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one little sentence to me and teasing
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throughout my childhood and it was you
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were a mistake
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God was supposed to give us a boy and
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you know those words they created
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insecurity within me
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they created anger within me they
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created doubts a lot of different things
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would come to the surface when I would
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hear those words growing up and then
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they became my own I began to believe
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them and rehearse them to myself and so
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I had a view of God from a small child
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that he made mistakes and that I was one
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of them and I didn't want really
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anything to do with him and so although
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I grew up going to church with my
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grandma knowing the facts about God
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never really knew God and so as I began
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to to grow older and a 10 years old I
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had something else in my life that
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happened
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from within the church I was actually
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sexually molested by a sunday-school
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teacher within the church and that
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happened for about four years of my life
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and the words he spoke created different
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things within me as well and so now I
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have this heart that is very angry very
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cold very bitter toward anything that
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has to do with the Lord then I heard
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some other words as I was about eleven
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years old I heard these words if you try
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this it'll make you feel better I wanted
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to feel better I wanted to feel
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something different than what I had felt
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to that point in my life and so I did I
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tried it and it made me feel better
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temporarily but you know when it wore
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off for the next morning the same misery
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was there the same emptiness the same
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despair and so I began a lifestyle then
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of drug use and everything that goes
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with that lifestyle sin relationships
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that were not healthy living life on the
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streets leaving home at 15 years old
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disrespecting not valuing any one that
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spoke any kind of guidance into my life
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and I found myself just in a cycle that
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I could not get out of now there were
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times in that cycle I would look back
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and say how did I get here how did I get
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to this place because I don't ever
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remember when I was like 4 thinking I
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can't wait to grow up to be a drug
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addict everybody nobody ever thought
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that can't wait to grow up to be a
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criminal that was never the case I had
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other dreams and but then that thought
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would come well you're stuck this is
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your life so words again they're
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powerful and long story short I ended up
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being arrested several times for drug
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possession of drugs been to three
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different rehabs
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became a felon before I was ever 18 so I
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will not get political on you up here
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because I can't even vote so I won't
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even do that but at age 22
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I found myself being sentenced to the
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Arkansas Department of Corrections for
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drugs and robbery and I can tell you
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that that was the best thing that could
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have ever happened to me the best thing
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although at this point I still did not
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know Christ but he knew and his
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sovereignty where he was going to
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strategically allow the direction of my
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life to go so that I would hear the
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gospel of Jesus Christ that would one
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day set me free
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and so I entered Macpherson at an
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Arkansas maximum-security unit for women
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at 22 years old having what I knew 12
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almost years to do before I was even
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eligible for parole and I really didn't
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know much about prison I've been in out
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of County Jail just what you see on TV
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so I had a game plan I thought if I go
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in and act really crazy then people will
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leave me alone and I just will not have
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any problems so that was my game plan so
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I entered in prison and I did that for a
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minute and I quickly realized there were
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crazier people than myself there so the
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Lord had a different game plan so but
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there was also another group of people
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that I discovered in this place of
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darkness in this place were murders her
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house rapists drug addicts those people
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that dr. Moore was referring to last
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night in his message those people were
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housed there and there was a group
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within those people that they had found
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something they had found Christ they had
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found Jesus and there was a barracks
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within there that was a faith-based
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program where you could volunteer to
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sign up and live in that barracks and
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and just become a student of the Word of
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God and be taught how to live those
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things out and of course I wasn't going
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to join them because I hated God still
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but still his enemy I was still living
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in my life the way I wanted to live and
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so I just started making fun of him like
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everybody else did but secretly I was
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watching them secretly I was observing
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the joy that they had in the midst of
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prison and that haunted me because I had
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never experienced that and I didn't
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understand how some of these ladies
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could have this joy in the midst of
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doing a life sentence and
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ever gonna be able to walk outdoors I
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never understood that and so it haunted
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me but it drew me at the same time and
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so after about a year of making fun of
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them and persecuting them I decided to
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join them you know if you can't beat
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them you join them right so I signed up
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to come into this program and I began to
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hear things I had never heard in my
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entire life I began to hear the good
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news
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I began to hear of a gospel that said
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that it wasn't anything that I could do
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I couldn't clean myself up enough in
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order in order to be accepted by this
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Savior but I began to hear about a
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savior who knew no sin at all but yet he
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became sin so that I could be made in
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His righteousness I began to hear about
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a savior who died a criminal's death my
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death and the wrath of God for my sins
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was placed upon him that day and he bore
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that he bore my sin and he paid that day
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and all I had to do was accept what he
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had done and believe and trust and the
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work that he did on the cross was enough
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to free me from a lifetime of bondage of
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sin and the blood was enough to cleanse
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me and to forgive me and that in that
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moment when my sin in the cross collided
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I became reconciled with the holy God
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and I'll never forget December the 21st
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mm after hearing the gospel over weeks
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that for the first time his spirit
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interacted with me I realized that I was
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a sinner and I needed a savior and I
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went to my cell and to 10b and I fell on
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my face and I cried out to a holy Living
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God and asked him to forgive me of who I
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was and what I had done and if he could
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use my life and he could salvage
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anything that was left that it was his
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and he's been working me ever since
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but you know it doesn't stop there
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now that I had a new life in Christ and
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his spirit resided within me I still had
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the memory of who I was still had the
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memory of what I had done and that's
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where his word is so precious because
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it's the very thing that he says will
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renew our minds and bring transformation
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in our life which I'm so desperately
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needed and still need today and so as I
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began to learn truths and I began to
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become hungry for the word of God and
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and realize that yes the gospel it's
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great and it saved me and it it
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reconciled me and it rescued me from my
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sin but that was almost 16 years ago
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what is it doing still today in my life
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is it still doing that and so when we
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forget that when we forget what God has
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rescued us from the gospel isn't good
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news anymore it's just news that doesn't
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bring that brokenness and that that all
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that he would save someone like each of
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us we have all fallen short and sinned
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so just because I was in a physical
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prison that's there's no difference than
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being in a spiritual prison and so when
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we forget that when we forget that
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gospel that we were rescued by and we
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don't rehearse that when it comes to
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maybe you're within the church and
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someone took your seat
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or maybe the committee just did not vote
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in the direction that you wanted or
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maybe that person just never shows up to
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serve but always wants to be served and
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those little small offenses and
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irritations happen the gospel says
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forgive not just forgiveness from here
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to here but from here to here and I
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wasn't going to learn those things I did
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take responsibility
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I could not excuse anymore and justify
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the decisions I've made in life because
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of the way I'd been talked to or because
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I had been taken advantage of and sinned
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against greatly I could not use that
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anymore as an entitlement to continue to
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make bad decisions but now the gospel
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looked different to me because after
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forgiveness now I had to forgive and
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that was a challenge but I needed the
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gospel I needed the grace of God to be
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able to do that and so as I began to
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practice that in my life
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then I realized I became even more free
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freedom began to multiply in other areas
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and so even today when I get offended or
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I get mad because Starbucks is not in
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the Western
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I have to forgive them because I don't
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want to be bound in prison of
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unforgiveness and there's two times in
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Scripture that those two are mentioned
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in the same passage and I'm not going to
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quote them all but Matthew five is one
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Mary hit on that last night where she
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was talking about if you bring your gift
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before the altar they remembers that
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brother has something against thee
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he says first go your way be reconciled
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then come again offer your gift
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you'll be reconciled with them and he
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tells you what's going to happen if you
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don't that he's going to put you in
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prison until all it's paid and the other
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is in Matthew 18 or the story of the the
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two servants one owed the huge debt the
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other owed the small debt 1 forgave the
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other didn't and how quick we are to be
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like that servant that wicked servant
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and not realize what God has forgiven us
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from and then we're quick to hold
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someone else's debt when they offend us
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and not release that forgiveness so as
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we rehearsed the gospel to ourselves we
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have to realize that forgiveness has to
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be released to others just like it's
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been given to us and so that was a
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challenge that I began to learn in
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prison and I'm running out of time so
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I'm fixing to wrap it up but uh the Lord
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used prison as a mission field for me
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and he began to birth a desire for women
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coming out of prison to have something
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like what was in prison and he began to
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birth a desire to be a missionary and me
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in my heart when I was released from
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prison and I was released May 31st 2011
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and the Lord has not ceased to amaze me
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with his goodness and His mercy and
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prison was the best thing that could
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have ever happened to me
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because it's there I met Christ it's
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there the gospel transformed my life and
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it's there that I've learned how to live
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a life free in Christ full in Christ and
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know that I'm not you're not going to
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believe this but I just forgot the third
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one what
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Virgil nursing cries zzc I still need I
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still need help and a life that's
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fruitful in Christ so I'm so thankful
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for the opportunity to be able to share
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with you today God's a part of God's
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story in my life and where he set me
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free and how the gospel impacted and
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still impacting my life thank you don't
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you love her and love this story
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for the food
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I have to I have to ask you we're gonna
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bring we're gonna bring some friends of
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yours up here in just a minute but I
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have to ask you forgiveness has had to
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extend to people who said hurtful things
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to you when you were growing up
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including your parents yes Lord restored
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that relationship with my parents
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Wow we're gonna ask we've got three
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friends of yours who are coming up here
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and we'll ask these ladies to come up
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and as they come why don't you just
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introduce each of these three ladies all
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right okay well first here we have Tamra
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Cohen Deborah and we have Stephanie
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Hankins Stephanie and we have Amy
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naughty and these ladies actually the
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depart didn't just share but I'm now a
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chaplain back in the same unit I was
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once incarcerated and these ladies were
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incarcerated there some of them I was
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their chaplain and actually all of them
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except for one we just came at different
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times but I was their chaplain so it's
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kind of weird
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Tamra welcome tell us a little bit of
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your story how did you wind up in
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McPherson God put me there on purpose he
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loved me so much that he took me to set
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aside a time just for me I don't know
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about the other eight or nine hundred
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women there but he put me there in a
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place where he could talk to me
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one-on-one
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and show me how much he liked me what
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what was your crime it was many charges
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they I think the official title was
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fraudulent use of a credit card but you
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don't get five years for that but it was
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really embezzlement and it was money you
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had to in that moment be at the lowest
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point in your life absolutely absolutely
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I could not go any lower there was
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nothing else had you
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had any spiritual foundation in your
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life yes
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when I was 8 years old I made a
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profession of faith I have a name my
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name is written in a Bible that was
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given to me on that day I grew up in a
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Christian home I raised my children my
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husband and I in a Christian home I was
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a Sunday school teacher
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what was the church treasure married to
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a deacon you sound like the Apostle Paul
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and so so what was the what was the
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spiritual wake-up call that came in
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prison bring it it came before prison
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some what it was coming but you know I
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was that religious person that we hear
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about I was that church lady mm-hmm I
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was that church lady but when you don't
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have the Lord Jesus Christ in your heart
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you can say all the things you can talk
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all the talk you can walk the walk as
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you've heard so many times before till
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he takes over your heart it's nothing
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I'm sorry for the emotions but I'm
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thankful for them because for so long I
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was
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so God gave me back my emotions and my
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husband keeps telling me you cannot cry
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and eat at the same time stop so me you
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know I have a wonderful family
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a husband will be married in 40 years
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next year two beautiful daughters and
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son in-laws six right wonderful two
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grandchildren but for ten and a half
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months God set me aside but the moment
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that I knew that I did not really have
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Jesus in my heart it was on July 1st
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sitting in a cell in Fort Smith Arkansas
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and those church ladies came to talk to
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those other ladies that were there and
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the scripture that they talked about was
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depart from me I never knew you and not
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everyone that says Lord Lord will enter
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in the kingdom of heaven and at that
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moment I knew that was me that was me
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that turnaround led you to a different
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understanding of the gospel and a
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different kind of life than the church
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life you had been living absolutely and
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the things that I learned while I was at
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McPherson I have to practice today but
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the the very first thing that I learned
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was Authority if you don't know what
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Authority is you will learn it in a
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physical prison yeah I could not be
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under anyone's authority I didn't want
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that Authority I was my own authority
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and if I couldn't do it
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so when young get done and but I
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controlled my life and you see where
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that led me so the authority another
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thing it takes away as all your judgment
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because as Jennifer alluded to I was in
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a maximum-security prison with murders
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with rapists with people who had
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committed other many charges drugs
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alcohol
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no one knew unless you told them what
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you were there for everybody's the same
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place at the foot of the cross aren't
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they absolutely so your husband your
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daughter's your family today they all
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look back on your prison experience is
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the best thing that happened to mom and
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say mom came home a different person
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than when she left
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Stephanie welcome tell us a little your
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story how'd you wind up in prison well
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sir
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I just want to let you know that who I
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was yesterday is not who I am today and
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who I am today is nothing compared to
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who I am in God's eyes that's right
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that's good but I committed a horrible
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crime and 2011 I confessed to my crime
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and I went to jail
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and I lived there for 13 and a half
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months and then I went to prison I went
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to McPherson and when I got there I
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thought I was saved I had had a lot of
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false doctrine and false teaching and I
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had come from a background of paganism
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so paganism paganism well sir you know
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rebellion is as the sin of witchcraft
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right but I was actually a practicing
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witch I was all I know right yeah but I
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I went to prison and I thank God for
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jail and for prison because when I got
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there for me it was just one step closer
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to home you know you had to come in with
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a pretty hard heart Oh sir I did you see
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I actually cast my first spell when I
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was about 11 years old
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and it worked so at a very tender age I
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had that first taste of self exaltation
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and that pride just began to grow when
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you heard women in prison talking about
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Jesus what did you think
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well I knew about him but I didn't know
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he was real right so I wanted what they
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had that you know they had peace and
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comfort and joy and they had things that
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I had seen on my life in church ladies
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and I was pretty sure I wanted some of
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that but I didn't really know how to get
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it your spell's didn't didn't nothing
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work yeah didn't work so where was the
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turning point for you in prison what
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happened well the most amazing thing
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happened one day after I had moved into
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the Powell barracks
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our chaplain was standing up at the
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front and there wasn't an altar call
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given he was just teaching about the
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cross of Jesus Christ that it was the
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the free gift of God for all mankind you
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know that Jesus what he did on that
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cross is a finished work he took care of
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all sin past present future all of it
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even for me so I literally knelt down a
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witch but Sir I stood up a child of God
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ami let me ask you to share a little of
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your story what got you to prison myself
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got me yeah that's right
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I was extremely unhappy with life and I
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was searching for something that I
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wanted I knew I wanted something I just
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didn't know what it was I wanted
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happiness mm-hmm so I started doing
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drugs at a very young age and started
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drinking and that became my life drugs
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and alcohol were my whole entire life
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that was the most important thing in my
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life and because of that my bills came
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last so because my bills came last I did
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whatever I had to do to get him paid
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yeah
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so I started stealing and I started
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stealing not only to pay my bills but
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also to buy my drugs in my alcohol and
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it caught up with me and I ended up in
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prison which was the best thing that
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ever happened to me mmm did you have any
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spiritual background I grew up in a
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Christian home I was in the church I
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played Church very well I knew Church I
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played Church I could do it with the
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best of them
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but I never had a real experience I
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always said I wanted what I saw in other
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people you know what they had I see that
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happiness and in prison I would see
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these girls from three barracks walking
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down the hall and I was there in prison
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how are they walking around with such
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smiles on her face how are they so happy
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I wanted that and I found that in prison
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I found exactly what I had been looking
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for all those years in the drugs and in
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the alcohol and you know I had a lot of
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anger in my heart I was mad at the world
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I had been abused for many years as a
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child both mentally physically and
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sexually and so I had a lot of anger a
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lot of hatred towards myself but towards
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the people that did it and towards the
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world I hated the world hated people I
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was ready to just give up on life and as
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a matter of fact the night before I got
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arrested to go to prison I didn't
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necessarily want to kill myself I just
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want to go to sleep so I took a bunch of
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pills and it backfired I woke up at 5
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o'clock in the morning with a smile on
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my face
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but it very well could have killed me
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and I ended up in prison that day so I
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found in prison a lot of happiness and I
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was able to find forgiveness I was able
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to not only forgive the people who had
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hurt me but also forgive myself I'm
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still working on some of my forgiveness
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issues especially with myself but I I
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found a true happiness a true peace that
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I had never felt before I've never never
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knew what true happiness could actually
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be and now I see life so much different
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life is so good life is so positive and
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there's so much good in this world and
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that's what I want to do now is help
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people was there a moment or a message
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or something that was a turning point a
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spiritual breakthrough for you
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it just started whenever I hit the door
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at prison um I looked around and I was
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like oh my goodness I'm in prison I
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never thought I would be in prison I
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said all my life I'll never go to prison
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I'm never gonna do anything wrong guess
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what you're a bruisin I was in prison it
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was kind of a wake-up call when I walked
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through the gate so in nineteen barracks
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I started reading my Bible and started
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talking to one of the guards and I
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started hearing about the PALS program
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and November the 22nd I believe that it
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was brother Jared that was preaching
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that night and he was preaching on
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Jeremiah 29:11 which is now my life
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Scripture and I realized that that was
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what I was looking for that somebody out
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there cared enough about me
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to die but somebody also cared enough
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about me to want the best in life for me
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and to give me my heart's desire and
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everything that I could possibly ever
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need want anything anything take all my
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pain away take all my sadness take all
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my everything
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and that night I went back to my
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barracks and I I went in and I closed my
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door I was in the close barracks I asked
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my roommate to step out I closed my door
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I literally got on my knees and cried
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out to God and begged God to forgive me
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and to please come into my heart and
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change me and changed the way I thought
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the way I walked the way I talked
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changed everything about me and to fill
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me with him and he did just that
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jennipher all three of these women have
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referenced the palace program that's a
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discipleship program that is in the
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Macpherson unit in Arkansas and and
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you've added to that now a new phase
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there's a there's a home that's a
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transition house tell everybody a little
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bit about the cornerstone house correct
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cornerstone is going transition home is
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a faith-based home that ladies that we
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hope they are graduates of the PAL
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program or that or Christians on the
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compound that they really don't have any
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where to go or that they go back home to
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the same environment you know there's
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drugs still there there's no
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accountability responsibility they can
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come to Cornerstone and they can stay up
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to a year and they can learn how to live
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this Christian life now on the outside
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you
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