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Hypothermia set in. I'm tapping out.

I'm done. I can't take anymore.

I've been working with my spider bites with the plant medicine.

Oh, yeah. It's totally healing up.

I've been waking up in the night. There's a fog going around my shelter.

I don't know if he's going to try to bite me.

What is that?

My trail camera's been knocked over.

They're freaking mocking me.

Oh, look at that. There's snow.

Awesome.

All right.

It's a winter wonderland out here.

Nice sticky snow.

I'm from Maine, and I love the snow.

It always makes me cheerful.

Today, Taking the day off.

Doing whatever the heck I feel like.

It's a snow day.

Whee! Man, would you look at that? Isn't that beautiful?

Snow on the mountains there.

There's snow across there.

Ah, that reminds me of winter at home.

It'll be a good day. A good day.

I love to build snowmen.

At home, my daughter, Abby and I make snowmen in the snow and I mess them all

up and she gets mad.

Pop ruined my snowman!

That one's for you, little Pip.

A nice, normal little snowman.

And it's got a fish head hat.

And I won't even do anything mean to him like I do to the ones at home.

Oh, yeah, right in the nose.

Oh, sorry, Abby.

Your snowman's not going to make it.

This is fun, but I cannot wait to be back home again with my family.

I talk about cheese. I freaking love cheese.

I love cheese.

I had dreams last night, man. We're all about food.

I swore I had to spend half the night eating one thing of cheese.

Like deciding if I should sell it or if I should just eat it.

Eventually, it was a huge freaking block of cheese.

Eventually, I just ate the whole damn thing.

I was hanging out with Jose in season two.

Take a look at that.

There's snow on the ground.

Woo!

Snow! Is this amazing or is it amazing?

Ah!

Ah!

This is so beautiful.

The snow is going to help my tracking ability, though I'll lose fishing.

It seems the colder it gets, the less they stay towards shore.

It's interesting, with the amount of food and the amount of water that I'm

getting, it's these lulls of energy, you know, highs and lows. It's amazing the

difference energy-wise.

It's slippery.

It's real slippery.

Thinking about hunger.

This morning, I'm hungry today and no fish today.

It amazes me how much I think about food.

You get that food is life out here.

Good food.

That's what I'm missing.

I feel like my body is deteriorating.

You know, I'm feeling like I'll probably look like an anorexic here pretty soon.

If I'm not already.

would take us on a little winter wonderland walk you can see i have on

every single layer i own out here so i can stay super cozy warm

which i am and uh yeah it's just absolutely stunning

there's something so peaceful about snow falling you know my spider

bites are practically all the way healed over My glands still have swelling in

them, but it's going down every day.

So beautiful.

I was going to go home.

I was going to take care of my body.

But I believe that my body will tell me when it is time to go.

I want to just be strong until the end.

But maybe...

Five days, maybe 10 days, 20 days, I don't know.

But whatever it is, I want to feel good about it.

Snow angel!

Oh, I just love the snow so much.

It's such a winter wonderland here.

absolutely could win this.

It ain't over yet.

But I'm starting to feel a winding down.

Skinny am I is the question that everybody wants to know.

I think I lost some weight.

Yep, I'm skinny.

Wow,

real skinny.

then I can come up with some substantial meat.

If I can get a boar, then we're solid, right?

All right, so I'm just going to string my bow.

I think we're ready to take off to my blind.

So many clothes on.

I just tuckered myself out.

Okay, let's give it another go. Hopefully, it might not be going to my

blind.

I can't string this bow.

Come on.

Oh, no, come on.

Weaker for low calorie consumption.

If

I

can't string my bow, hunting's out.

of energy energy so that i could work out and do something and like build my

muscles again first i started eating the whole fish

and then it came to this realization well okay let's start let's start saving

up a couple nice fillets right there i fillet them out dry them

two fillets one body Head goes in the stew.

Each fish lasts me three to six days.

If I have food stored away, then I know I'm doing well.

And I know I can continue here.

I've got 33 halves of fish

filleted.

That's 33 days. If I can make that go every other day,

I can do every other day with 33 fish.

That's two months.

Two more months that I can be out here.

Oh, green.

I do want to be healthy, and there's a lot of food.

I'm having this once every other day.

I want to stay here. I love this land.

Third of a fish.

Greens.

Mushrooms.

And it is just life.

Sounds like geese.

They're over on the island.

Looks like they're eating on the bulrushes.

It would be really, really awesome if I could catch a goose.

Maybe they'll come over here.

In preparation for the geese coming back, I'm going to make two bolas.

I've got some rocks.

I'm just going to tie it around.

And when you throw it, you're all spread out and hopefully

entangle the bird so that it can't fly.

Two sets.

One's a little bit longer and heavier than the other.

Means I have two throws.

Just heard the geese and I looked down my trail and they did just come over

here.

Right there.

And I'm going to sneak down there and try to catch one.

It's going to be quite the task, sneaking around.

It has to be the right timing.

I've got that sweaty, nervous armpit feeling.

I've heard the geese.

And I'm going to sneak down there and try to catch one.

I didn't even hardly get within sight of them sneaking around.

And they spooked.

Getting protein, it's been a challenge and a struggle.

It weighs on me.

What I want the most out here is just the meat.

Without that extra calories, I don't know if I can keep going on plants

alone.

I had a pretty good sleep.

The fox hasn't been around for the last couple of days or else he's just not

being aggressive, trying to get into the shelter.

That is a fox.

Oh, my gosh.

I had some sweet dreams to see my family and

just spending time together.

Today is my son's sixth birthday.

And that totally breaks my heart that I can't be there with him.

Hey, buddy, I miss you and I love you so much. And your sister, too.

I don't make it up to you guys when I get home.

Well, I'll check fish traps.

There's a lot of snow on the hill today.

No fish.

Hmm.

Oh, fish in my stomach right now would be amazing.

My number one priority right now is trying to get some protein.

And if the fish is dried up, then I'm just going to start focusing on birds.

I'd like to make a bird trap.

I'm going to make a box with reeds, and there'll be four more pieces for wood on

the top, and then I'll tie them all together, and the box will fall down

onto a bird when they trigger the trigger line.

The birds around here, I haven't seen very many big ones, so this doesn't have

to be huge.

So there's one side of the box.

Just trying to keep myself busy, keep myself off my dwelling on the fact that

it's my little boy's birthday today.

It's the first birthday I've missed.

Gosh, I miss my children so much and my husband.

And just being alone, away from them, just makes me really appreciate how good

I have it.

There is a bit of my...

rose hips that Somebody got into the first couple of days. They're kind of

rotting now, and I'd save them I save almost everything just in case I want to

use it so what you do is do a little bit of a trail leading up to the box and

then throw a handful in the box and

Then the animal would go towards that

And your edge of the box should just be resting on the one stick, not on the

pegs.

And that's it.

We achieved today.

I'm going to add that to the wizard's staff. This is my wizard's staff

journal. It's a story of my adventure here.

Special things that happened. There's a symbol so I can remember it.

All right, today, fire because we kept it going.

Little old man in his cane, grabbing his back, going, oh, my back. That's my

physical field now.

Making things makes me happy.

Keep myself from getting bored.

Just moved out my thimble.

I find that it is very important to keep your mind busy, especially after 4 o

'clock. 4 o'clock, you're used to going home and being with your family.

Abby's a little wizarding wand I'm making her.

Sometimes it's hard to work on stuff for them.

Miss them all so much.

Now I know what wildlife goes through when the weather gets rough.

I have to really scrounge for their food. I have a new appreciation for what

animals in the forest have to go through.

I can tell things are changing. The fish don't seem to be biting. There's no

mushrooms left.

Some of the forage material is turning.

And now I'm going to focus just on birds.

I finished a bird box.

I have to go back to see if they were triggered.

Did it get away?

I just checked my bird box and something triggered it.

It managed to get out because all the bait inside has been eaten.

I'll have to fix it and reset it.

I'm going to check out my hair snares and my fox snare at the top of the hill.

I'm serving.

It's cold.

I'm running on very, very low energy.

Oh, it'd be so nice to get a rabbit.

Oh, my God.

I did have it.

Man, oh man.

Jeez Louise.

Look at that.

That is a fluffy, fat rabbit.

There's all this new fur from the rabbit.

And I thought maybe it had just bumped into this bush.

But it ripped out.

There's a snare here. So it obviously got stuck in the snare and then rifted

way out of it and got caught up in there for a bit.

Super frustrating.

I almost had that rabbit again.

This is definitely one of the harder days I've had.

It's really rainy.

I'm running on very limited calories right now.

I'm trying to really conserve energy and also just be really careful about

getting too cold, which will drain energy from my body as well. And I don't

want to get sick.

Yep.

We got one.

Booyah.

Booyah.

Booyah, baby. We got fish.

Oh, beautiful fish.

Thank you so much for your life.

We have got a beauty here.

Thank you!

Woo!

Whoa, lots of eggs.

Oh, I'm sorry, Mama.

Check out all those eggs.

Whoa, Roe.

We are going to prep this up for feasting.

We have had an abundant forage today. Let me just show you this really fast.

Look at this.

Look at that.

We've got our fish, our fish roe, a ridiculous amount of greens.

and uh lots of mushies i love a good feast from the land

this land has been so good to me giving me good

food good medicine

the last couple days have given me

such reflection on the journey

i think i came into this with way too much competitive nature.

And I put a lot of pressure on myself that I didn't even realize I had to win

to buy my land.

And I think my body took on a lot of that stress.

And suddenly, when I let go, it gave me this profound

release.

I'm starting to feel my call home.

been calling me back through my heart

Such a constant battle trying to get traps set up, traps reset up after

weather, traps reset up after animals run through them.

Trying to get bait.

Such a constant struggle trying to get food out here.

At least I managed to forage quite a bit, so at least I'm getting some food

in me.

I need to.

keep eating and keep calories coming in.

But the protein is this constant chase.

I need to catch more fish.

Those reeds out there are my nemesis.

It's not the best like to try to set a gill net as I found out.

Just looking at my gill net, and nothing appears to be in it, so I'm going to

pull it and probably use it for some other stuff.

So I'm just making this dip net, taking my gill net, which I cut in half, and

then I've sewn up the sides here to make a bit of a pouch.

The 22-pound test line that I just cut down the other day that never caught me

fish.

I could pull the string to tighten it up at the top if it's stuck on reeds so the

fish doesn't get out the top.

And then when I go to use it again, I just loosen it.

And dip net.

Checking some of the fishing lines.

There's a fish.

Awesome.

Oh, my goodness.

So I have a fish caught on the reed.

I'm going to try out my dip net that I made.

Oh, it's cold.

Definitely do not want to fall in and get wet.

Whoa, that's so deep.

It's not very huge, but...

Definitely give me some protein.

Oh, my God, I got them.

My dip networks, I got them.

I'm so happy.

Oh, my gosh.

Oh, yes.

I'm going to mark, I'm going to patent that net system.

But when you're fishing in Patagonia alone, this is what you need.

Oh, I'm so excited.

It's amazing,

this cycle.

It's like drought.

And then you actually get a little bit of something that helps get you more

things.

There's so many lessons to be learned from nature.

And I want my children to at least be exposed to that.

There will be hurdles and challenges.

Nothing worthwhile comes easy.

Every day I feel, yay, it's a good day to be alive, you know? This is great.

This is quite the adventure.

And as night draws on, I become more tired.

And it's like, ugh.

Can't wait for this to be over. I want to be home doing my thing there.

Ugh. I feel like the man who struggles with becoming a werewolf at night, you

know?

Firewood land.

Start with grabbing that big log.

This thing's heavy.

I'm missing the comforts of home even more today than I have for a day.

The more I try not to think about them, the more I do.

Well, this is not the goodbye we thought of.

There's the car on the side of the road, our rescuers here in a Subaru.

Love you, one. I love you, Sparrow.

I had to leave my wife and my two daughters with our new vehicle broke

down on the side of the road.

I'll see you when I get back, okay?

Well, I hitchhiked a ride to the airport to come to Patagonia.

I love you, Sparrow.

Not able to say goodbye at the airport.

That was horrible.

When you're out here by yourself...

You think about family and how much they mean to you.

The weight, gravity on your chest is just so

strong.

The pulse of my heart to be with them.

Those two little girls of mine and that beautiful wife.

It's so hard

So I am officially tapping out.

Thanks. Okay, bye.

That's it.

Wow.

That was easy.

Wow.

How does it feel?

It feels, it's so mixed emotions.

Yeah, but it feels great.

You know, I kind of decided yesterday, I didn't want to leave on any other terms,

but feeling complete in the journey.

And I do.

From the beginning, I saw this.

experience as an opportunity to buy my land and to have this outcome of me

winning. And at a certain point, I saw that I was holding too tightly to this

material goal.

But when we hold so tightly to something, we don't allow other things

to come in.

I had to shed that.

And when I did, I realized it doesn't matter what the outcome to any situation

is. It's about being in this moment. It's about the journey and finding a

deeper sense of my own voice, finding a deeper sense of my own self-worth. And

by being out here for so long, truly on your own, you develop this relationship

with yourself that is so profound.

And I communicate with myself in a way that I never thought possible.

I only can imagine how this is going to serve me in the rest of my life.

Yes, yes. Oh, my goodness. I'm not expecting that.

I'm going to eat tonight.

Oh, no.

Things are not going well. I'm getting quite thin. I definitely feel like I'm

living each day here as if it could be my last day.

It's amazing how breathing is so difficult when you don't have a lot of

calories.