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I'm capping out. It's time to go home to my family.

I'm so excited for this.

The lake's come up about six feet in the last couple of hours.

I've got hypothermia. I can't move my hands.

Oh, I can't deal with this.

I'm a maker. Making is my net.

The inner walls are done.

It is looking good.

So I have...

three spider bites. Now I can feel it moving to my glands which is not a good

sign. This is probably my last night.

I'm freezing. I can't stop shaking.

Everything's been soaking wet all night.

The rain is still going, but I got to get up, try to keep the fire going, see

if I can get dry.

Can't move my hands.

It's hard to stay warm even by the fire.

Rain keeps putting the fire out.

Oh, I'm just freezing.

I just hope that's...

Sun comes out to warm things up and dry my sleeping bag and stuff.

Oh, I'm just shivering.

All night I shivered.

I just can't seem to warm up here.

I've got hypothermia.

So what do you do?

My clothes are wet, and I can't stay dry because of the rain.

I can't even hardly move my hands. It's like a cold rain.

It's just really tough.

Every time I stand up, it's like I'm in a path out.

I'm getting weak.

Very weak, physically.

My feet are frozen.

And I'm almost hallucinating.

That's scary.

I'm done. I can't take anymore.

I'm 53.

I got no energy left to finish this quest.

I physically can't take it anymore.

I've been pretty hypothermic all day. I'm soaked. All my clothes are wet.

I'm officially tapped out.

I just can't do it anymore.

I need to be rescued now.

Just about two months, 51 days I lasted out here living off the land.

And that's all I could do.

I'm sorry, Jeanette.

I feel awful.

All I wanted was to build you a house.

This was my retirement.

Now all I've got to look forward to is going back.

and doing drywall again.

That's my future now.

I have a great sense of relief in a way, but great disappointment.

It's making me cry right now that I just physically couldn't do it.

There's my ride.

How are you feeling right now?

Hypothermia set in. No fish for a week.

Just every time I get up, it's like I'm going to faint. I just got no energy.

It's done.

Once you have hypothermia to the point where your choices and decisions are

becoming bad, you're in danger.

I think all week I had been making bad decisions because of my state of mind.

Moving in the rain was a bad choice.

And that's what did me in.

And that's why I made the call.

Because I knew if I didn't, my mind would trick me into staying.

And I probably wouldn't be here today if I tried to go another night in the

conditions.

I can't even explain the devastation.

That was my retirement.

That was a house for my daughter.

I don't even know how to go about telling her.

It's a big disappointment, but somehow a person has to carry on.

That's part of being a survivalist.

I'm worried about spider bites on my bum bum.

that are infected.

So I went around and said all my goodbyes and my gratitudes to everything

because I was in a lot of pain. I had an

infection in my glands and I accepted that.

I'm struggling, but I am so not ready to go home. It is crazy.

My journey is not over here.

on so many levels.

And it's not time for me to go.

There is so much more work for me to do.

I'm making more Uthian poultice.

My wound.

The flesh wound.

If I was here just on a spiritual journey, yeah, I probably would get to a

certain point and be like, I'm done. But I do care about owning land, and that

motivation is huge.

So I'm upping my herbal game.

I'm making the strongest friggin' pot of euthanate and see if it helps my

internal infection.

Sleep on it, see how everything's doing in the morning.

We're going bigger on home.

I got my new shelter up.

So warm, so dry.

A little shelf I made last night.

All nice and neat.

Chopsticks are poked in there nicely so they don't fall out anymore.

I got my blower and my spatula in the back and my sponge for wiping things

down.

Smoking sticks are looking awful sparse.

Got fresh fish heads and half a fish.

Not a lot.

I really need more than just the protein and fish soup.

Today I saw a little bird on the game cam, so one of my goals is to catch him

and have him for dinner.

I haven't had anything but fish.

A little bird would be quite the boon.

I don't even know if there's as much on one of those guys as there is a fish,

but... I intend to get him before I leave, even if it's the biggest

land game I ever get the whole time I'm here.

Having quite the battle of wits, me and this bird.

He's the ultimate target.

He's the roadrunner.

So I've got a new plan.

I'm going to build a bird trap.

I need to build a pyramid, and I got two base sticks, and they have strings on

them. So when you slide in the other ones, it stacks up, and the two strings

hold the whole thing down nice and tight.

See, but you got to keep it tight.

Now that is one beautiful bird trap.

This is exciting.

I wish I had made a baited trap like this from the beginning.

So I've got a little piece of gut hanging in there on the string so the

mice can't reach it.

I've never seen a bird go into one of these and not touch strings that make

the thing drop. It's so sensitive.

Traps are set.

Little bird will be mine.

I'll walk away, and hopefully I'll catch a bird.

I always feel hopeful on days that I set a trap.

You know?

A little booger.

There he is. Right there.

There he goes!

A little booger.

Right there.

There he goes.

He's in the trap.

He just ate the grub and out of the trap.

I can't believe this bird has outsmarted me this far.

It's a pretty clever little bird.

But I'll figure it out.

Birds on the menu one of these days, I'm telling you.

Happy birthday to me.

Happy birthday to me.

Happy birthday to me.

My birthday gift to myself is I'm going to go for a wander

this morning.

Try to find something to eat.

My awareness of edible plants started at a young age and has evolved.

I like to be able to provide for my own needs.

Dandelions, just what the doctor ordered.

And even in an unfamiliar country, like down here in South America,

I'm finding plants that I know from back at home.

I found nettles.

This is awesome.

It's nice to work.

And gross.

Take it back home and have a feast of nettles tonight.

It's a lot of greens, but I'm going to cook them all up.

I simply make green soup.

It's going to be a feast.

To me, the difference between living and survival is an attitude.

Living is about enjoying the moment.

Surviving is about getting through that moment.

I want to just continue living day by day to many more

great days in Patagonia.

I've been waking up in the night. There's definitely something going

around my shelter.

I went and checked on my trail cam.

There was a fox.

I just don't want them to try to bite me.

Rabies is definitely something I do not want to get.

As soon as the symptoms show it's too late.

And the max amount of sleep I've had out here is maybe, I don't know,

I'd say around four hours max, maybe at a time. And it's because of the fox.

I really would like to just sleep.

I am concerned about the next couple weeks because all the foliage is dying

with all the frost.

See if I can salvage any of this one.

You know, the cold weather is definitely taking a hit on my forage materials.

I'm so hungry I could eat a fox.

It might be my biggest bang for my buck right now.

Killing the fox.

I've never killed a fox before. I've never really wanted to, but

it does have a lot of meat on it.

I would prefer not to wreck the pelt, so I'm going to try to do a hanging trigger

trap.

And foxes are really sensitive to smell. They can smell a lot of things, and

they'll also pick up human scent. So I'm going to try to be really careful with

that. Santa get on the cord. I've brought gloves, and at least I'll get

some meat, and I can use part of the pelt.

So I'm going to tie the Santa peg, and I'm going to try to funnel the fox into

this area.

I'm going to be making the noose out of paracord, because on my trail cam, it

looked like the animal.

That fox was about 40 pounds.

I guess if it's going to get really aggressive and come into my shelter,

then it's going to be me or it.

Because I definitely don't want to get bit.

And this thing sounds like it's hungry.

Definitely digging and scavenging around.

I've fenced in this whole area so the animal is encouraged to funnel over to

the side.

Then there is a noose tied to the sapling.

Which comes on down, is propped up.

It's about the right size for a fox head, about the right height.

And there's a trigger line running back from the sapling over to the top peg

with some bait.

So that is my trigger new system for a fox. And if this one doesn't work, I can

do one with spears.

I just don't want to wreck the pelt. If I can get it this way, then I can have a

full intact pelt to use.

I'm just going to set some more traps.

And we'll see if this actually works.

I think that fox was behind my shelter last night.

That'd be my luck. He'd come over and sit beside me and then freaking pipe me

in the face.

A lot of rabies in three days. It's right to the brain.

Insane in the membrane.

I just have dead hooks in the water.

I have no bait, but at least I get the sunrise.

I'm going to do some foraging, see if I can find any bait, food to eat.

That's a fox poo right there.

This is his territory.

And he's wondering what I'm doing here.

He gives zero Fs.

Let's try if the fox doesn't come up here.

I wonder where that little nice burrow is.

Oh, no.

At least I know this height is a good distance to have them.

That was completely chewed off.

graft around some animal.

That is a fox.

Oh my gosh.

It's the fox.

Oh, my gosh.

I don't see him.

Well, that's what's been waking me up.

Man.

He's active during the day, too, it looks like.

You would think after it saw me that it would be a...

I'm a bit more hesitant knowing that there's a human here.

I don't think it gives a shit. It wants food.

And if it's having as hard of a time as me getting food, and it has no fishing

line and hooks, it's probably hungrier than me.

It'd be a battle of the hungry bee, me and the fox, if it got into the shelter.

That's for sure.

The fox is running around outside.

It's rushing behind on my tender.

Definitely trying to get in.

I guess that thing's not afraid of me. I guess it's still just hungry.

I don't want to open the door and get bit.

I'm not a big fan of rabies.

I don't know. I might have to stay up all night tonight. I'm really concerned

it's going to try to come in here when I'm sleeping and bite me.

Freaking fox is back, running around my shelter, sniffing and digging.

I don't know, it's got to be a couple hours before dawn.

Get.

Right now, I'm questioning the trade-offs of, staying out of here

really long.

And what are the benefits and what are the

downfalls? Either way.

I'm just really starting to think, you know, I'm the only mother.

and doing what's up here.

Start the day off with a clean start and a clean front yard.

Get a little bit of raking and we'll go get some new firewood.

Start it all over again.

It's just an excuse to use my rake. It's just so much fun.

As soon as you pay attention to him, like, he senses it, and he's like, he's

out of there.

All right.

All packed up.

Head down.

Check on the situation.

And, uh... What was that?

my bird trap go off let me check on that

oh look who finally got himself

caught trying to get out the

jacket goes around here let's cover the trap just in case another piece of this

wiggles and opens up because man this is you'll finally catch something to eat

And then it goes and flips out on you and not the way to win, you know?

Get your hand in there.

Grab your catch.

Pull him out.

And boom. There we go. Broke his neck.

I got him.

There he is.

Not much.

Just a little handful.

Thank you, little fella.

Well, I will eat something besides fish.

I got to strip the feathers off. I want to utilize every last bit of them.

And I will have a nice, delicious soup tonight. Oh, my goodness, is this going

to be delicious.

It's all of them.

There's the bird.

Not very big. A couple mouthfuls, but it'll make great soup.

His head in the soup and the feet in the soup and the liver and heart are right

there. Not wasting a thing.

There we go.

One little peeled bird head for the soup pot.

I hate to say it, but man, it tastes like chicken.

I can't wait to eat something again that doesn't have bones. At home with my

family.

I can't wait to be back with them.

I knew I'd miss them, but...

I never imagined that it would pull at me so strongly.

Good morning.

Checking on our spider bite here.

And we're going to see how it's looking.

So I've been working with my spider bites and with the plant medicine and

also taking Usnea internally.

Working with plant medicine is about patience. You know, it isn't the quick

fix.

But, oh yeah, it's totally healing up.

You know, we still got that scabby scab, but it's way better.

The poultice is working.

There's no pain, and the infection is just being drawn out.

I feel really good about it.

It's awesome.

I am just blown away.

And I was like, this close to tapping out. This close.

But I just felt like it just was not time.

And I was right. It wasn't.

So...

Feel like I've been gifted a second chance pretty amazing High five

I am a mountain man.

I am tough.

Bam.

Food energy is a need out here.

I like this bow and I like being connected with it, you know?

I want to be able to know that my shots are going to be clean when I go hunting.

Got to give my body some needed energy.

Got to figure these animals out.

There's boar around.

There is boar.

I'm going to start setting snares.

I'm going to see if I can snare some of these wild boars.

I'm going to use the doubled up one.

Killing a boar would give me a lot of large food very, very quickly.

I want to make sure there's no other area this thing wants to go through.

All right, two traps set for bear. I mean, wild boar.

just came up my path.

Unfortunately, I think it's the deer that is not huntable.

That would be a lot of good eating right there.

Bummer.

I have this.

hole in my glove.

I want to try to find some burrs, stick it together, and then use some pitch

glue to try to glue it.

Here's a spruce tree.

And there's these little bump blisters all over the trunk that have sap in

them.

Made some pitch glue with sap from the spruce tree and mixed it with ashes.

These burrs, I'm hoping they'll work like a Velcro, pull them together.

I don't know how it's going to hold up to daily tasks, but you can see

the patch right there.

Fingers crossed.

We have been living with a mouse in the house, and the mice down here have

hantavirus, which is not good.

I'm living in a hanted house with a hanted mouse.

And we were furiously warned, if you do have a mouse in your house, you need to

get rid of it or move.

And I'm...

So sure, I'm going to move.

I'd rather go home. I mean, yeah, I'm going to build a new shelter.

No mother effing way.

I actually felt it run across the top of my sleeping bag when I was lying awake.

So I'm going to try and muster the energy to make a mousetrap because I

don't think no Usnea and Plantain is going to cure.

hantavirus i'm working on making my little figure four trap to catch the god

no you can't let something like this stop you because

i'm motivated by something really deep and that is my land this prize money

that i saw you know as being a means to buy buy my property owning land is a

really important thing to me

I want to create a long-term home, you know? And in order to do that, in order

to really homestead, you really have to have a piece of land to work with.

And that motivation is huge.

So I'll show you what I have set up. It's a little figure-four trap.

The mousey comes along.

Eep, eep, eep, eep, eep. Yummy.

Bam. Hopefully smashes it.

Hopefully we can catch ourselves a little mouse tonight.

Not for eating, but for disposing of.

Because we don't want to get no hantamires.

So I'm lying in my sleeping bag, and I think I hear the mouse.

Hey, mouse.

Well, I just heard my trap go off. It's very, very early in the morning.

And we got the mouse.

See the tail?

Right there.

Oh my goodness, I cannot believe it worked.

I have to say, I'm very happy that we killed the haunted mouse.

Hanted house no longer hanted.

Let's progress with mouse removal.

Whoa,

big guy.

Geez, oh.

Wow, that's like a mongo.

Without touching the mouse at all.

You see him? That is a really fatty mouse.

You know, if this was season one or two,

that mouse would have offered Callie a good 30 calories. I love the little

bubbles that pop up. They're like, this mouse will provide Sam with one gram of

protein and 30 calories.

And you're like... Yeah, you could get more calories from eating your

fingernails.

Just kidding. But food is food.

Mousy Wensy.

Sorry for killing you, Mouse.

Here it's coming in a little bit more.

It feels soft. It feels really nice.

Like other strips of, like, gray in there.

Shows my wisdom.

Mm-hmm.

Because I am wise.

I said it on camera.

It's true. It's got to be true.

Once the tea's done, then I'm going to go check those traps, those two snares

that I set for wild boar.

All right, so checking my traps.

Not disturbed yet.

But I've got this spot right here.

That's a great natural blind.

These are bore trails.

One follows through there, and then one that sort of cuts around here

and follows through, follows right through there. So this gives me a shot

from this direction, from that direction, and from that direction.

Three different directions.

And I'm just going to sit and sort of chill out for a little while.

I really enjoy spending time on my own.

I was thinking about my dad this morning, my biological father.

How does that hurt a son when your father leaves at four years old, you

know, and moves as far as he can get from New York to California?

Yes, I think I have some bitterness still.

For the longest time, I thought, well, that's why I'm not in a relationship,

you know?

I started realizing that's not why I'm not in a relationship. I haven't found

somebody I want to spend time with more than I want to spend time with myself,

you know?

What's that?

What is that?

I wonder if my trap got set.

I'm going to go take off up there.

Check my traps.

My heart is beating so fast.

Just with the possibility, you know, of having an animal.

Wild boar can definitely be dangerous if I corner it or push it into a situation

or injure it.

If I catch it in my trap, I'll shoot it with the bow.

Oh my gosh, I'm freaking out.

So this is interesting.

There's sign all over here, right around my trap.

In fact, fresh sign all through there.

Ah, I hope they continue here.

I want pork steaks so bad.

My trail camera's been knocked over just from...

All the foraging.

So I guarantee I got boar on this trail cam.

They're freaking mocking me.

They're like, this guy's an idiot.

Hard snow is falling.

I have on every single layer.

So I can stay warm.

No!

The colder it gets, the less fish stay towards shore.

I've lost a lot of muscle since I've been here. Yep, I'm skinny.

It would be really awesome if I could catch a goose.

I'm going to sneak down there and try to catch one.

They have two throws.

When you're out here by yourself, think about family, the pull to be with them.

It's so hard.