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These are the user uploaded subtitles that are being translated: 1 00:00:06,000 --> 00:00:12,074 Advertise your product or brand here contact www.OpenSubtitles.org today 2 00:01:16,151 --> 00:01:22,150 RIP-FIXES-SYNC by VaVooM 3 00:01:24,151 --> 00:01:26,872 Hi, this is Lucy, leave a message. 4 00:01:26,908 --> 00:01:29,709 Hi, sorry I missed you again. 5 00:01:29,744 --> 00:01:32,478 So I have one quick meeting with my mentor 6 00:01:32,513 --> 00:01:35,414 and then I'm on my way to you, I will meet you in town square, 7 00:01:35,450 --> 00:01:37,583 and then we're gonna wrap that tree in so much tinsel, 8 00:01:37,618 --> 00:01:39,752 they're gonna be able to see it from outer space. 9 00:01:39,821 --> 00:01:41,554 I love you, call me back. 10 00:01:46,394 --> 00:01:47,394 Come in. 11 00:01:49,330 --> 00:01:50,763 Merry Christmas. 12 00:01:50,798 --> 00:01:52,965 Sharon, congratulations. 13 00:01:54,335 --> 00:01:55,801 How do you feel? 14 00:01:55,837 --> 00:01:58,604 I am still in absolute shock. 15 00:01:58,639 --> 00:02:02,174 I mean, the MacAdam's Fellowship, 16 00:02:02,210 --> 00:02:05,177 it's just one of those things that you joke about winning, 17 00:02:05,213 --> 00:02:08,381 but I never actually expected to be nominated. 18 00:02:08,416 --> 00:02:10,783 Well, I can't think of anybody more deserving. 19 00:02:10,852 --> 00:02:11,852 Come. 20 00:02:15,990 --> 00:02:17,022 Okay. 21 00:02:18,292 --> 00:02:22,928 I know I'm not supposed to ask, but did you nominate me? 22 00:02:23,731 --> 00:02:25,331 Sharon Harper. 23 00:02:25,366 --> 00:02:26,966 You know as well as I do that nominations 24 00:02:27,001 --> 00:02:29,068 are to remain anonymous. 25 00:02:29,103 --> 00:02:32,738 But on a completely unrelated note, Merry Christmas. 26 00:02:32,774 --> 00:02:34,540 Merry Christmas. 27 00:02:34,575 --> 00:02:38,110 Look, they already know that you're a brilliant neuroscientist. 28 00:02:38,146 --> 00:02:39,957 If you wanna stand out, you're gonna have to focus 29 00:02:39,981 --> 00:02:42,148 on the future, not the past. 30 00:02:42,216 --> 00:02:45,851 Tell them how you'd like to change the world. 31 00:02:46,821 --> 00:02:48,487 Don't overthink it. 32 00:02:49,424 --> 00:02:52,224 Do you have any fun holiday plans? 33 00:02:52,260 --> 00:02:53,260 I do. 34 00:02:54,262 --> 00:02:55,262 Yes. 35 00:02:55,897 --> 00:02:58,297 I'm going home now to celebrate 36 00:02:58,332 --> 00:03:00,599 with my cousin Lucy and her husband. 37 00:03:00,635 --> 00:03:02,802 Is this the first time you're going home since... 38 00:03:02,837 --> 00:03:04,403 The funeral, yeah. 39 00:03:05,540 --> 00:03:07,239 I've gotten quite a few messages 40 00:03:07,275 --> 00:03:09,675 from my grandmother's estate attorney 41 00:03:09,710 --> 00:03:13,979 about my part of the will, and so I have to handle that. 42 00:03:14,015 --> 00:03:15,581 But it's gonna be great. 43 00:03:15,616 --> 00:03:17,183 My grandmother loved Christmas, 44 00:03:17,218 --> 00:03:19,852 so it's the perfect way to celebrate her. 45 00:03:19,887 --> 00:03:21,454 That sounds great. 46 00:03:21,489 --> 00:03:24,957 Is your town the kinda town that likes to go all out for Christmas? 47 00:03:45,546 --> 00:03:46,812 There she is. 48 00:03:46,848 --> 00:03:47,746 I'm here. 49 00:03:47,782 --> 00:03:48,614 Where are you? 50 00:03:48,649 --> 00:03:50,616 Sorry, I went home. 51 00:03:51,752 --> 00:03:53,486 My feet were killing me. 52 00:03:53,521 --> 00:03:55,287 Can you scoop me up here instead? 53 00:03:55,323 --> 00:03:58,190 Of course, I will come to you. 54 00:03:58,259 --> 00:04:00,092 You okay, Share Bear? 55 00:04:00,127 --> 00:04:04,430 Yeah, it's, you know, it's strange being back. 56 00:04:04,499 --> 00:04:06,198 When I was here in January... 57 00:04:06,234 --> 00:04:09,168 It was not exactly the most wonderful time of the year. 58 00:04:09,237 --> 00:04:10,302 Yeah. 59 00:04:10,338 --> 00:04:11,782 I'm actually having a real hard time 60 00:04:11,806 --> 00:04:14,907 getting in the spirit this year without her. 61 00:04:14,942 --> 00:04:17,676 I can't even imagine how much harder it must be for you. 62 00:04:17,712 --> 00:04:19,256 Oh stop, she was your grandmother too. 63 00:04:19,280 --> 00:04:22,081 Gramma Vera was the world's best grandmother to me. 64 00:04:22,116 --> 00:04:23,849 But she raised you. 65 00:04:26,020 --> 00:04:29,955 Yes, yes, and she also taught us 66 00:04:29,991 --> 00:04:31,757 that no matter how hard things get, 67 00:04:31,792 --> 00:04:33,792 that Christmas is an all-out joyfest, 68 00:04:33,828 --> 00:04:35,728 and we are not gonna let our Christmas blues 69 00:04:35,763 --> 00:04:37,074 get in the way of celebrating her, 70 00:04:37,098 --> 00:04:39,865 we are going to do this thing right. 71 00:04:39,901 --> 00:04:41,166 Which way are you facing? 72 00:04:41,202 --> 00:04:43,335 Towards the Christmas shop. 73 00:04:43,404 --> 00:04:44,970 Okay, turn. 74 00:04:45,039 --> 00:04:46,272 Turn. 75 00:04:46,507 --> 00:04:47,706 Turn. 76 00:04:47,742 --> 00:04:48,742 Stop. 77 00:04:49,710 --> 00:04:50,910 You are a genius. 78 00:04:50,945 --> 00:04:53,178 I am getting us a dozen snickerdoodles. 79 00:04:53,247 --> 00:04:54,747 Actually, could you get me 80 00:04:54,782 --> 00:04:58,584 salted chocolate chip cookies and a jar of mayo? 81 00:04:58,619 --> 00:04:59,619 Sharon? 82 00:05:00,521 --> 00:05:01,387 Okay. 83 00:05:01,422 --> 00:05:03,322 See ya soon. 84 00:05:09,196 --> 00:05:10,162 Sharon. 85 00:05:10,197 --> 00:05:11,430 Andrea, hi! 86 00:05:11,499 --> 00:05:13,032 It's so good to see you. 87 00:05:13,067 --> 00:05:14,433 It's so good to see you! 88 00:05:14,468 --> 00:05:17,469 I was hoping that you could swing by the counseling center. 89 00:05:17,505 --> 00:05:21,073 We renamed it after gramma Vera. Naturally, since she was its founder. 90 00:05:21,108 --> 00:05:25,144 I did not hear that. That is so wonderful. 91 00:05:26,113 --> 00:05:27,780 Sharon Harper, is that you? 92 00:05:27,815 --> 00:05:30,382 Hi miss Pat. How are you? 93 00:05:30,418 --> 00:05:32,084 I'm headed to Holly and Ivy. 94 00:05:32,119 --> 00:05:33,752 - Me too. - Okay. 95 00:05:36,190 --> 00:05:37,856 Good morning. 96 00:05:37,925 --> 00:05:40,659 I read about your latest study in psychology now. 97 00:05:41,929 --> 00:05:43,006 It looked like it got excellent peer reviews. 98 00:05:43,030 --> 00:05:44,730 Thank you so much for reading it. 99 00:05:44,765 --> 00:05:47,066 Yeah, I'm pretty excited about it. 100 00:05:47,134 --> 00:05:49,602 Coffee black and a plain croissant. 101 00:05:49,637 --> 00:05:52,705 Now, I heard a rumor that you are nominated 102 00:05:52,740 --> 00:05:55,407 for some big fancy award? 103 00:05:55,443 --> 00:05:58,677 The MacAdam's Fellowship, yeah, it's a creative award. 104 00:05:58,713 --> 00:06:00,312 But I thought you were a scientist. 105 00:06:00,348 --> 00:06:03,482 Well, science is very creative. 106 00:06:03,551 --> 00:06:05,050 I am so excited for you. 107 00:06:05,086 --> 00:06:05,884 Sharon. 108 00:06:05,920 --> 00:06:06,652 Yeah. 109 00:06:06,687 --> 00:06:08,487 Ethel. 110 00:06:08,522 --> 00:06:09,855 Snickerdoodles. 111 00:06:09,890 --> 00:06:10,990 How did you know? 112 00:06:12,493 --> 00:06:13,493 Hi. 113 00:06:14,462 --> 00:06:16,895 Nick, Nick, get out here. 114 00:06:16,931 --> 00:06:18,597 Coming, coming, coming. 115 00:06:18,666 --> 00:06:22,267 It's little Sharon snickerdoodle Harper. 116 00:06:24,305 --> 00:06:25,771 Hey, where's Lucy? 117 00:06:25,806 --> 00:06:27,740 Well, that's actually why I'm here. 118 00:06:27,775 --> 00:06:30,976 She would like a dozen of the salted chocolate chip cookies, 119 00:06:31,012 --> 00:06:32,811 specific craving request. 120 00:06:32,847 --> 00:06:33,545 I'm on it. 121 00:06:33,614 --> 00:06:34,847 Thank you. 122 00:06:34,915 --> 00:06:36,982 Vera did say that you weren't married, 123 00:06:37,051 --> 00:06:41,987 and I think my David would be a wonderful option for you. 124 00:06:42,523 --> 00:06:43,523 David? 125 00:06:43,557 --> 00:06:44,790 Please. 126 00:06:44,825 --> 00:06:46,659 My Wyatt is handsome and a firefighter. 127 00:06:46,727 --> 00:06:48,160 - Sharon. - Yes. 128 00:06:48,229 --> 00:06:49,595 Sharon Harper. 129 00:06:49,630 --> 00:06:50,696 Hi. 130 00:06:50,731 --> 00:06:53,499 Sam Taylor, your grandmother's estate attorney. 131 00:06:55,503 --> 00:06:58,571 Oh yeah, of course, it's nice to meet you. 132 00:06:58,606 --> 00:06:59,872 - Likewise. - Yeah. 133 00:06:59,907 --> 00:07:01,974 Pardon me, do you have a quick second to chat? 134 00:07:02,009 --> 00:07:03,175 Absolutely. 135 00:07:03,211 --> 00:07:04,710 - Yep. - Thank you. 136 00:07:04,779 --> 00:07:06,412 These are on the house. 137 00:07:06,447 --> 00:07:09,448 Thank you guys, I will be seeing you soon. 138 00:07:09,517 --> 00:07:13,352 Merry Christmas. 139 00:07:16,591 --> 00:07:19,558 Thank you so much. 140 00:07:19,594 --> 00:07:21,126 Trust me, I've been there. 141 00:07:21,195 --> 00:07:23,329 They mean well, but it can be a lot. 142 00:07:23,364 --> 00:07:24,897 Have we met? 143 00:07:24,966 --> 00:07:26,477 I am your grandmother's estate attorney, 144 00:07:26,501 --> 00:07:28,000 that was not just great improv. 145 00:07:28,069 --> 00:07:30,636 No, no, no, that's not it. 146 00:07:30,705 --> 00:07:32,738 I'm also her next-door neighbor. 147 00:07:32,773 --> 00:07:34,073 Yes! 148 00:07:34,108 --> 00:07:37,776 Yeah, Sam Sam, see, I knew you looked familiar. 149 00:07:37,812 --> 00:07:39,845 I've heard so much about you. 150 00:07:39,914 --> 00:07:40,813 - Really? - Yeah. 151 00:07:40,882 --> 00:07:42,381 I've heard a lot about you too. 152 00:07:42,416 --> 00:07:46,018 It's nice to officially meet you outside of a few neighborly waves. 153 00:07:46,053 --> 00:07:48,854 Yeah, well, work has been so busy that Christmas has been 154 00:07:48,923 --> 00:07:52,091 more of a fly in, fly out extravaganza 155 00:07:53,294 --> 00:07:56,362 for the last, well, how long have you been here? 156 00:07:56,397 --> 00:07:59,331 - Six years. - Six years? 157 00:08:00,501 --> 00:08:02,801 It's so weird we never met. 158 00:08:03,971 --> 00:08:06,505 It's always busy at the holidays, probably just bad timing. 159 00:08:06,541 --> 00:08:08,707 So if you have a little bit of time tomorrow, 160 00:08:08,743 --> 00:08:10,309 maybe we could go through the last part 161 00:08:10,344 --> 00:08:11,544 of your grandmother's will. 162 00:08:11,612 --> 00:08:13,279 Actually, do you have time today? 163 00:08:13,314 --> 00:08:14,314 4:00? 164 00:08:15,249 --> 00:08:16,882 Sounds great. 165 00:08:16,918 --> 00:08:18,050 - Okay. - Bye. 166 00:08:24,258 --> 00:08:25,224 For me? 167 00:08:25,259 --> 00:08:25,991 You shouldn't have. 168 00:08:26,060 --> 00:08:27,459 I didn't! 169 00:08:27,528 --> 00:08:29,895 Sorry, Roland, you have been usurped by your child-to-be. 170 00:08:30,998 --> 00:08:32,531 - Hey. - Merry Christmas! 171 00:08:33,834 --> 00:08:36,068 I know, I look like I'm short two wise men. 172 00:08:36,103 --> 00:08:37,736 Listen, I was hoping you'd talk 173 00:08:37,772 --> 00:08:39,338 some frankin-sense into your cousin. 174 00:08:39,373 --> 00:08:41,006 There's that wit. 175 00:08:41,042 --> 00:08:43,976 She's very excited to see you, but she's also quite... 176 00:08:44,011 --> 00:08:46,845 Fully capable of deciding what she can and can't handle. 177 00:08:46,914 --> 00:08:48,213 Hi! 178 00:08:49,951 --> 00:08:50,951 Hi! 179 00:08:51,752 --> 00:08:53,852 You look so amazing! 180 00:08:53,888 --> 00:08:55,287 Thank you. 181 00:08:55,323 --> 00:08:58,724 - So good to see you! - So good to see you. 182 00:08:58,759 --> 00:09:02,127 - You got the goods? - Oh, yes, how could I forget? 183 00:09:02,163 --> 00:09:03,362 The goods. 184 00:09:04,231 --> 00:09:05,231 The goods. 185 00:09:05,833 --> 00:09:07,132 Cookies. 186 00:09:07,168 --> 00:09:08,667 - And? - Mayo. 187 00:09:09,770 --> 00:09:11,036 Thank you! 188 00:09:11,072 --> 00:09:12,449 Yum, okay, can you take these inside? 189 00:09:12,473 --> 00:09:13,606 Yep. 190 00:09:13,674 --> 00:09:14,674 Thank you. 191 00:09:15,543 --> 00:09:16,842 Okay, bye sweetie! 192 00:09:16,877 --> 00:09:18,210 Bye, have fun! 193 00:09:24,251 --> 00:09:25,529 I could understand if you're a little nervous 194 00:09:25,553 --> 00:09:28,320 to be back at her house, because... 195 00:09:28,356 --> 00:09:31,824 This is the first time I'm staying here without her. 196 00:09:31,892 --> 00:09:33,994 - Right! - Right. 197 00:09:34,962 --> 00:09:37,563 But I am not gonna let that overshadow 198 00:09:37,598 --> 00:09:40,165 a lifetime of happy memories, right? 199 00:09:40,201 --> 00:09:41,201 Right. 200 00:09:42,003 --> 00:09:44,870 Because you're not gonna do it alone. 201 00:09:46,540 --> 00:09:47,773 Okay. 202 00:09:47,842 --> 00:09:48,842 All right. 203 00:10:12,633 --> 00:10:13,633 Ready? 204 00:10:14,535 --> 00:10:15,535 Yep. 205 00:10:16,437 --> 00:10:18,404 Thank you. 206 00:10:18,439 --> 00:10:20,606 So tell me about this crazy award again. 207 00:10:20,675 --> 00:10:23,475 The award is half a million dollars. 208 00:10:23,511 --> 00:10:24,677 Half a million dollars? 209 00:10:24,712 --> 00:10:26,011 Yeah, yeah. 210 00:10:26,047 --> 00:10:28,080 And you can use it to advance your expertise 211 00:10:28,115 --> 00:10:31,717 or jumpstart a new project, change career paths altogether, 212 00:10:31,752 --> 00:10:36,655 but either way, it is insane that someone nominated me. 213 00:10:37,158 --> 00:10:38,290 No it isn't. 214 00:10:38,325 --> 00:10:40,225 You've always been super smart. 215 00:10:40,261 --> 00:10:42,061 Thank you. 216 00:10:42,096 --> 00:10:44,530 Now, the interview is on the 30th, 217 00:10:44,565 --> 00:10:47,032 and I just have to come up with a plan 218 00:10:47,101 --> 00:10:49,001 of how I would use the money. 219 00:10:49,036 --> 00:10:50,736 Knowing you, I'm sure you've come up 220 00:10:50,771 --> 00:10:53,272 with a color-coded 100 page plan. 221 00:10:53,340 --> 00:10:57,976 It is 50 pages, thank you very much, and color-coded. 222 00:10:59,380 --> 00:11:03,549 But I will probably use the money for my research, 223 00:11:05,753 --> 00:11:08,687 if I get it, and that is a big if. 224 00:11:12,760 --> 00:11:13,659 Sharon. 225 00:11:13,728 --> 00:11:14,626 Yeah. 226 00:11:14,695 --> 00:11:15,695 Take a break. 227 00:11:18,699 --> 00:11:22,768 Not until I hang the 12 days of Christmas ornaments. 228 00:11:22,803 --> 00:11:23,836 Do it later. 229 00:11:23,904 --> 00:11:25,404 No! 230 00:11:25,439 --> 00:11:28,340 These were my favorite when I was a kid. 231 00:11:28,375 --> 00:11:31,510 - Especially the... - Two turtle doves, I know. 232 00:11:31,545 --> 00:11:34,179 I remember the tears the year I tried to hang it 233 00:11:34,248 --> 00:11:35,414 instead of letting you. 234 00:11:35,449 --> 00:11:36,593 You know what, that was my ornament, 235 00:11:36,617 --> 00:11:38,417 and gramma Vera said so. 236 00:11:40,321 --> 00:11:42,354 I gotta go, I'm gonna be late. 237 00:11:42,389 --> 00:11:44,757 I will see you in an hour? 238 00:11:44,792 --> 00:11:46,091 I love you? 239 00:11:46,127 --> 00:11:47,760 Yeah? 240 00:11:47,795 --> 00:11:48,861 Okay. 241 00:11:48,896 --> 00:11:50,229 Love you too. 242 00:11:56,971 --> 00:12:02,040 Just one second, I wanna make sure everything's in order. 243 00:12:03,744 --> 00:12:06,178 This is your daughter Mikayla, right? 244 00:12:06,213 --> 00:12:09,815 Yes, although she's twice as big and twice as loud now. 245 00:12:10,918 --> 00:12:13,018 She's really cute. 246 00:12:13,053 --> 00:12:16,221 Gramma Vera talked a lot about her. 247 00:12:16,290 --> 00:12:18,824 Yeah, we liked to claim Vera as family. 248 00:12:18,859 --> 00:12:20,759 We got very close after Mikayla's mom died. 249 00:12:20,795 --> 00:12:22,861 I really felt like she should talk to someone, 250 00:12:22,897 --> 00:12:24,763 and there's no one better than Vera. 251 00:12:24,832 --> 00:12:26,031 That is true. 252 00:12:27,568 --> 00:12:29,668 I'm sorry about your wife. 253 00:12:31,238 --> 00:12:33,472 I'm really sorry about your grandma. 254 00:12:33,541 --> 00:12:34,541 Thanks. 255 00:12:36,243 --> 00:12:37,910 Would you like to have a seat? 256 00:12:37,978 --> 00:12:38,978 Yeah. 257 00:12:42,116 --> 00:12:43,116 Okay. 258 00:12:44,385 --> 00:12:47,920 I didn't know that gramma Vera was Mikayla's therapist. 259 00:12:47,988 --> 00:12:51,023 I mean, not that she would've ever said anything. 260 00:12:51,091 --> 00:12:53,959 No, no, I guess that makes sense. 261 00:12:56,230 --> 00:12:57,329 Help yourself. 262 00:12:57,364 --> 00:12:58,096 Thank you. 263 00:12:58,165 --> 00:12:59,832 Never pass up a cookie. 264 00:13:01,302 --> 00:13:03,669 Okay, so, here's the deal. 265 00:13:04,972 --> 00:13:08,006 Vera knew that you had a very full life 266 00:13:08,042 --> 00:13:10,375 outside of Pine Springs, and she did not want you 267 00:13:10,411 --> 00:13:12,811 to feel obligated to have to maintain a house 268 00:13:12,847 --> 00:13:15,347 that was in a town that you didn't want to live in. 269 00:13:15,416 --> 00:13:18,350 She also wanted to make sure that you got the decision 270 00:13:18,385 --> 00:13:21,019 before it went to someone else, since you grew up here. 271 00:13:21,055 --> 00:13:24,056 She is still somehow the most considerate human being 272 00:13:24,091 --> 00:13:25,657 I have ever known. 273 00:13:26,827 --> 00:13:27,971 This is where it gets tricky, though. 274 00:13:27,995 --> 00:13:30,529 She has compiled a list of Harper family 275 00:13:30,564 --> 00:13:33,532 Christmas traditions, and she would like you 276 00:13:33,567 --> 00:13:36,101 to complete all of them before Christmas, 277 00:13:36,136 --> 00:13:37,647 at which point in time you would then be able 278 00:13:37,671 --> 00:13:39,404 to make the decision about the house. 279 00:13:39,440 --> 00:13:41,740 I'm gonna let her explain it to you. 280 00:13:41,775 --> 00:13:43,375 Wait, what? 281 00:13:43,410 --> 00:13:45,377 She thought it might be better coming from her. 282 00:13:45,446 --> 00:13:48,080 After Jennie died, I really wished that I had 283 00:13:48,115 --> 00:13:50,816 more things with her voice, and so we both agreed 284 00:13:50,885 --> 00:13:53,285 that it might be nice to record her explanation. 285 00:13:53,354 --> 00:13:56,455 Okay, so I'm gonna just leave this here, 286 00:13:56,490 --> 00:13:58,290 and you just press play whenever you're ready, 287 00:13:58,325 --> 00:14:02,127 I'm gonna step outside, just give you a second. 288 00:14:16,877 --> 00:14:18,410 Let me know when it's ready. 289 00:14:18,479 --> 00:14:20,646 I pushed record, you can start any time. 290 00:14:20,681 --> 00:14:24,216 Well, that's not a great start. 291 00:14:24,251 --> 00:14:26,585 Say hi to Sharon, Sam. 292 00:14:26,620 --> 00:14:27,352 Hi Sharon. 293 00:14:27,388 --> 00:14:28,754 Right. 294 00:14:28,822 --> 00:14:29,988 Okay. 295 00:14:30,024 --> 00:14:33,759 My dearest Sharon, please know that I am 296 00:14:33,794 --> 00:14:36,895 squeezing you right now, even if you can't feel it. 297 00:14:38,565 --> 00:14:41,800 I am so proud of the woman you've become, Share Bear. 298 00:14:41,835 --> 00:14:43,535 After your mother passed away, 299 00:14:43,604 --> 00:14:46,038 it occurred to me that I might leave this world 300 00:14:46,073 --> 00:14:48,540 while you're still fairly young. 301 00:14:48,575 --> 00:14:50,815 So I started jotting down the family Christmas traditions 302 00:14:50,844 --> 00:14:54,479 in these journals, so you'll always have a connection 303 00:14:54,515 --> 00:14:57,416 to the Harper women who love you. 304 00:14:57,451 --> 00:15:00,852 So these are yours, written to you, 305 00:15:00,888 --> 00:15:04,356 because I know this first Christmas without me 306 00:15:04,391 --> 00:15:06,024 might be hard. 307 00:15:06,093 --> 00:15:09,361 In my experience, having something positive to focus on 308 00:15:09,396 --> 00:15:11,997 is the best way to keep going. 309 00:15:13,167 --> 00:15:15,167 And because, my little scientist, 310 00:15:15,202 --> 00:15:18,770 I know you love clear parameters for an experiment, 311 00:15:18,806 --> 00:15:21,707 I'm giving you until Christmas to complete 312 00:15:21,742 --> 00:15:26,211 12 of these traditions, one for each of our cherished 313 00:15:26,280 --> 00:15:29,514 12 days of Christmas ornaments. 314 00:15:29,583 --> 00:15:33,051 And I promise you, if you do 12 of these by Christmas, 315 00:15:33,087 --> 00:15:37,723 you won't need more time, you'll know if this house 316 00:15:37,791 --> 00:15:41,460 and this town are the place for you or not. 317 00:15:42,696 --> 00:15:46,264 There's no wrong answer, Sharon, only discovery. 318 00:15:47,501 --> 00:15:51,103 I want you to know that so much, my love. 319 00:15:51,138 --> 00:15:53,972 From here, there is only discovery. 320 00:15:56,610 --> 00:15:57,610 I love you. 321 00:16:01,348 --> 00:16:02,614 Hey, how are you doing? 322 00:16:02,649 --> 00:16:03,649 Good. 323 00:16:04,318 --> 00:16:06,018 I'm good. 324 00:16:06,053 --> 00:16:06,785 Would you like some water? 325 00:16:06,854 --> 00:16:08,220 No, no, it's okay. 326 00:16:08,255 --> 00:16:11,156 You know what, I think I'm just gonna go 327 00:16:11,191 --> 00:16:14,159 and process all of this, you know? 328 00:16:15,129 --> 00:16:17,629 If there's anything else I can do for you... 329 00:16:17,698 --> 00:16:20,198 Yeah, yeah, yeah, thank you so much. 330 00:16:20,234 --> 00:16:22,167 Thank you, and for the cookie. 331 00:16:22,202 --> 00:16:23,468 Thank you. 332 00:16:23,504 --> 00:16:24,748 Hey, and remember, I live right next door. 333 00:16:24,772 --> 00:16:26,004 Yep. 334 00:16:26,073 --> 00:16:27,906 I know, thank you so much, thank you. 335 00:16:32,146 --> 00:16:33,612 How are you feeling? 336 00:16:33,647 --> 00:16:37,949 I am feeling like someone cracked my heart open 337 00:16:37,985 --> 00:16:39,518 and fried it like an egg. 338 00:16:39,553 --> 00:16:42,521 That is vivid, but understandable. 339 00:16:54,835 --> 00:16:56,835 I really just thought that I was gonna relax, 340 00:16:56,870 --> 00:16:59,938 sign some papers, and then get back to work. 341 00:16:59,973 --> 00:17:02,374 But it's sweet, in a way. 342 00:17:02,409 --> 00:17:04,554 It sounds like she was worried about this first Christmas 343 00:17:04,578 --> 00:17:08,346 and wanted to give you something positive to focus on. 344 00:17:08,415 --> 00:17:10,148 Something positive to focus on. 345 00:17:10,184 --> 00:17:11,917 It's tough, but it's important to remember 346 00:17:11,952 --> 00:17:16,588 that we're hurting because we lost someone worth missing. 347 00:17:17,791 --> 00:17:20,792 Have you ever heard of synaptic pruning? 348 00:17:20,828 --> 00:17:22,561 How did we get here? 349 00:17:22,596 --> 00:17:24,062 Okay. 350 00:17:24,098 --> 00:17:28,633 So, our brains are full of neurons that are wired together, 351 00:17:28,669 --> 00:17:31,103 and these connections, they get stronger or weaker 352 00:17:31,138 --> 00:17:35,474 based on our experiences, so what we focus on grows. 353 00:17:37,010 --> 00:17:40,312 Okay, so if we focus on the sad things, 354 00:17:40,347 --> 00:17:42,781 then our brains will theoretically rewire 355 00:17:42,816 --> 00:17:44,749 to focus on the sad things, but if we focus on 356 00:17:44,785 --> 00:17:48,386 the happy things, say, our grandmother's 357 00:17:48,422 --> 00:17:51,990 amazing Christmas traditions, those things will grow 358 00:17:52,025 --> 00:17:57,062 and our brains will be wired to focus on the love, not the loss. 359 00:17:57,097 --> 00:18:00,165 I'm not gonna bypass my grief with positivity. 360 00:18:00,200 --> 00:18:02,000 Besides, gramma Vera always said 361 00:18:02,035 --> 00:18:03,680 "sometimes you just have to sit with the hard things." 362 00:18:03,704 --> 00:18:06,438 Or, or we could go ice skating, 363 00:18:06,473 --> 00:18:08,406 or have a cup of the best hot cocoa in town, 364 00:18:08,442 --> 00:18:11,176 or decorate the house, she said those things too, 365 00:18:11,211 --> 00:18:13,311 and wouldn't that feel so much better? 366 00:18:13,347 --> 00:18:16,448 I wish I had your energy, but this? 367 00:18:19,453 --> 00:18:22,254 This is hard for me still, and I was hoping with you home, 368 00:18:22,322 --> 00:18:23,722 I wouldn't be alone in that. 369 00:18:23,757 --> 00:18:25,290 But you won't be alone. 370 00:18:25,325 --> 00:18:27,592 You won't, we would be doing these things together, 371 00:18:27,628 --> 00:18:31,429 and then she would also get to be a part of it. 372 00:18:35,135 --> 00:18:37,002 Do you remember that every year, 373 00:18:37,037 --> 00:18:39,004 there is a competition on our street 374 00:18:39,072 --> 00:18:40,939 for best Christmas lights? 375 00:18:40,974 --> 00:18:42,707 We may not take top prize every year, 376 00:18:42,743 --> 00:18:47,512 but I am proud to say our house never disappoints. 377 00:18:51,418 --> 00:18:52,150 Hey. 378 00:18:52,219 --> 00:18:53,718 Hi. 379 00:18:53,754 --> 00:18:56,855 Hi, just wanted to check on you, see how you're doing, 380 00:18:56,890 --> 00:18:58,490 I feel really bad about the way things 381 00:18:58,525 --> 00:18:59,836 went down in my office, I shouldn't have 382 00:18:59,860 --> 00:19:00,692 sprung it on you like that. 383 00:19:00,761 --> 00:19:01,993 No, no, it's fine. 384 00:19:02,062 --> 00:19:05,130 You know, I'm actually really excited about this, 385 00:19:05,199 --> 00:19:08,400 it gives me something positive to focus on. 386 00:19:08,468 --> 00:19:10,535 - Okay, well. - Yeah. 387 00:19:10,604 --> 00:19:12,649 Are you sure you wanna start positively focusing tonight? 388 00:19:12,673 --> 00:19:14,806 It's gonna be dark in like 11 minutes. 389 00:19:14,875 --> 00:19:19,811 Yeah, maybe you're right, I got a little overexcited. 390 00:19:21,315 --> 00:19:22,315 Look. 391 00:19:23,951 --> 00:19:27,552 In my experience, sometimes plans can... 392 00:19:27,588 --> 00:19:29,921 Sam, you seem like a great guy. 393 00:19:29,990 --> 00:19:34,659 Gramma Vera's five-star review of you feels pretty accurate. 394 00:19:34,695 --> 00:19:36,895 And I appreciate your concern. 395 00:19:36,930 --> 00:19:40,198 But I'm doing great, I am. 396 00:19:40,234 --> 00:19:43,768 I mean, crossing off a list is very satisfying 397 00:19:43,804 --> 00:19:45,937 for my type a puzzle-loving brain. 398 00:19:45,973 --> 00:19:49,140 I mean, there are such doozies as, you know, 399 00:19:49,209 --> 00:19:51,543 watching a Christmas movie marathon 400 00:19:51,578 --> 00:19:53,745 while wearing fuzzy socks. 401 00:19:55,482 --> 00:19:56,482 Yeah. 402 00:19:57,417 --> 00:19:58,550 Thank you. 403 00:19:58,585 --> 00:20:00,218 Thank you, though. 404 00:20:00,254 --> 00:20:03,855 I will let you know when I have made a decision about the house. 405 00:20:03,890 --> 00:20:05,523 - Okay. - Okay. 406 00:20:20,841 --> 00:20:22,641 See, now that's a rookie mistake. 407 00:20:22,676 --> 00:20:24,176 You always put the clips on the lights 408 00:20:24,244 --> 00:20:26,778 before you climb the ladder, you know, so that... 409 00:20:28,182 --> 00:20:29,681 Okay, I can't watch this anymore. 410 00:20:29,716 --> 00:20:30,716 Mikayla! 411 00:20:31,485 --> 00:20:33,485 Go run and get your coat! 412 00:20:33,520 --> 00:20:35,787 Okay, uncle Alex! 413 00:20:43,163 --> 00:20:44,429 Excuse me, hi. 414 00:20:44,465 --> 00:20:46,898 You look like you could use a hand. 415 00:20:48,702 --> 00:20:51,903 You know what, if my 83-year-old grandmother 416 00:20:51,972 --> 00:20:53,939 can do it, so can I. 417 00:20:53,974 --> 00:20:55,140 She didn't. 418 00:20:55,175 --> 00:20:56,741 She asked me to do it. 419 00:20:56,777 --> 00:20:59,478 At least for like the last couple years. 420 00:20:59,546 --> 00:21:03,248 Anyways, I'm Alex, by the way, and this is... 421 00:21:03,317 --> 00:21:05,350 The famous Mikayla! 422 00:21:06,787 --> 00:21:09,121 Gramma Vera talked so much about you. 423 00:21:09,156 --> 00:21:10,055 She did? 424 00:21:10,090 --> 00:21:11,056 Yeah. 425 00:21:11,091 --> 00:21:12,724 Are you Dr. Harper? 426 00:21:12,759 --> 00:21:13,725 I am. 427 00:21:13,760 --> 00:21:15,527 But you can call me Sharon. 428 00:21:15,562 --> 00:21:17,762 Gramma Vera told me that once you get a doctorate, 429 00:21:17,798 --> 00:21:19,831 everybody has to call you doctor, 430 00:21:19,900 --> 00:21:21,766 and I thought that was pretty cool. 431 00:21:21,802 --> 00:21:23,602 It is pretty cool. 432 00:21:25,205 --> 00:21:26,805 Are you finished decorating inside yet? 433 00:21:26,840 --> 00:21:30,408 Because I used to be one of gramma Vera's best helpers. 434 00:21:30,444 --> 00:21:31,977 I heard that. 435 00:21:32,045 --> 00:21:35,547 I heard that last year, you were her very best elf. 436 00:21:37,184 --> 00:21:41,486 Well, I still have to buy a tree, and I have to decorate it. 437 00:21:41,522 --> 00:21:43,421 By yourself? 438 00:21:43,457 --> 00:21:46,658 Well, I think I can handle a tree. 439 00:21:46,693 --> 00:21:48,505 No, I'm not saying you can't, I'm just saying that 440 00:21:48,529 --> 00:21:53,465 can and have to might be different things. 441 00:22:03,844 --> 00:22:06,912 The only things that I really know about you, 442 00:22:06,947 --> 00:22:08,814 gramma Vera told me. 443 00:22:08,583 --> 00:22:10,549 So tell me something about yourself. 444 00:22:10,585 --> 00:22:12,329 I'm the lawyer, I should be the one interrogating. 445 00:22:12,353 --> 00:22:16,055 I will point to Exhibit A, I was raised by a therapist. 446 00:22:16,123 --> 00:22:17,423 - Good point. - Yeah. 447 00:22:17,458 --> 00:22:19,425 What do you wanna know? 448 00:22:19,460 --> 00:22:21,794 - That's sweet. - That's kinda nice. 449 00:22:21,862 --> 00:22:24,263 How do you like your coffee? 450 00:22:24,332 --> 00:22:25,631 Black. 451 00:22:25,666 --> 00:22:27,044 Coffee with milk and sugar defeats the whole point 452 00:22:27,068 --> 00:22:28,434 of drinking coffee. 453 00:22:30,271 --> 00:22:32,071 What is your most controversial opinion? 454 00:22:33,808 --> 00:22:35,240 I don't believe in naps. 455 00:22:35,276 --> 00:22:36,842 But naps are life. 456 00:22:36,877 --> 00:22:39,445 I do believe in late lazy Saturday mornings, though. 457 00:22:39,480 --> 00:22:41,180 - Yeah, that's just... - Yeah. 458 00:22:41,248 --> 00:22:44,216 What is your version of the most wonderful 459 00:22:44,251 --> 00:22:45,784 time of the year? 460 00:22:45,853 --> 00:22:48,253 Well, I have a 10-year-old, so whatever makes her happy. 461 00:22:48,322 --> 00:22:50,856 Yeah, but you must have some kind of preferences, 462 00:22:50,925 --> 00:22:53,892 you know, some things that you love. 463 00:22:53,928 --> 00:22:55,594 Dr. Sharon. 464 00:22:55,630 --> 00:22:56,895 What about this one? 465 00:22:56,931 --> 00:22:59,732 Well now this, I love. 466 00:22:59,800 --> 00:23:01,433 It's perfect. 467 00:23:01,469 --> 00:23:03,168 What do you think? 468 00:23:03,237 --> 00:23:04,770 Whatever you like. 469 00:23:08,509 --> 00:23:10,242 It's the one. 470 00:23:10,311 --> 00:23:12,711 Okay, one, two, three! 471 00:23:13,781 --> 00:23:14,947 - Okay, you good? - Yeah. 472 00:23:14,982 --> 00:23:15,982 All righty. 473 00:23:18,219 --> 00:23:19,551 Thank you guys. 474 00:23:19,587 --> 00:23:20,897 Yeah, let's get this thing decorated. 475 00:23:20,921 --> 00:23:22,488 Come on guys. 476 00:23:22,523 --> 00:23:24,134 You know what, you don't have to sweetie. 477 00:23:24,158 --> 00:23:25,424 Hey, Mikayla. 478 00:23:25,459 --> 00:23:26,903 Make sure uncle Alex doesn't get pine needles 479 00:23:26,927 --> 00:23:28,394 all over her house, please. 480 00:23:28,429 --> 00:23:29,628 On it. 481 00:23:29,697 --> 00:23:32,431 Look, do not feel obligated to have her help, 482 00:23:32,500 --> 00:23:34,299 but if you do need an extra set of hands, 483 00:23:34,335 --> 00:23:36,435 she really loved doing this with Vera last year. 484 00:23:36,470 --> 00:23:38,871 You know what, that would be really nice. 485 00:23:38,906 --> 00:23:43,142 It's kind of empty in there decorating the house by myself. 486 00:23:43,177 --> 00:23:44,543 I get that. 487 00:23:44,578 --> 00:23:46,089 Take it from me, nothing fills up an empty house 488 00:23:46,113 --> 00:23:47,846 like an enthusiastic 10-year-old. 489 00:23:58,292 --> 00:24:00,926 I put all of the angels on the top shelf, 490 00:24:00,961 --> 00:24:03,729 and then I put the manger on the middle shelf, 491 00:24:03,764 --> 00:24:07,166 and the three wise men go on the bottom shelf 492 00:24:07,201 --> 00:24:08,634 so that the whole... 493 00:24:08,669 --> 00:24:10,502 whole bookcase tells a story. 494 00:24:10,571 --> 00:24:12,705 That is exactly how gramma Vera taught me to do it. 495 00:24:15,209 --> 00:24:16,108 Yes. 496 00:24:16,177 --> 00:24:17,543 You can take over here. 497 00:24:17,578 --> 00:24:18,544 Put those on there. 498 00:24:18,579 --> 00:24:20,212 - Thank you. - Okay so. 499 00:24:20,281 --> 00:24:21,613 Put me to work. 500 00:24:21,649 --> 00:24:24,450 It's always soft and squishy on the bottom, got it? 501 00:24:25,252 --> 00:24:26,118 All right. 502 00:24:26,187 --> 00:24:28,153 And then anything that's sparkly 503 00:24:28,189 --> 00:24:30,355 goes in front of a light so it can send rainbows. 504 00:24:30,391 --> 00:24:33,826 And she's absolutely right, absolutely right. 505 00:24:33,894 --> 00:24:36,428 Soft and squishy, high as we can go. 506 00:24:36,464 --> 00:24:37,696 No! 507 00:24:37,732 --> 00:24:39,431 You put it down here. 508 00:24:42,303 --> 00:24:44,837 Hey, thanks for letting me help. 509 00:24:46,540 --> 00:24:49,041 I'm really glad you're here. 510 00:24:49,076 --> 00:24:51,543 I am really glad you're here. 511 00:24:53,047 --> 00:24:56,148 This was always my favorite part to do with gramma Vera. 512 00:24:56,183 --> 00:24:57,382 Yeah? 513 00:24:57,418 --> 00:25:00,285 This was my second favorite part. 514 00:25:00,354 --> 00:25:02,054 Can you guess my favorite? 515 00:25:02,089 --> 00:25:04,289 I'm gonna give you a hint. 516 00:25:06,694 --> 00:25:07,993 Hanging stockings? 517 00:25:09,130 --> 00:25:10,729 So close! 518 00:25:10,765 --> 00:25:13,665 Hanging the 12 days of Christmas ornaments on there. 519 00:25:13,701 --> 00:25:14,701 What are those? 520 00:25:14,735 --> 00:25:16,101 What? 521 00:25:16,137 --> 00:25:17,569 I never did that with her. 522 00:25:17,605 --> 00:25:19,538 Wait a second, wait a second, 523 00:25:19,573 --> 00:25:22,107 you are going to love this, okay. 524 00:25:22,176 --> 00:25:24,643 Alex, there's an antique wooden box 525 00:25:24,678 --> 00:25:27,045 in that pile of boxes, do you mind finding it for me? 526 00:25:27,114 --> 00:25:28,447 Yeah, sure. 527 00:25:28,482 --> 00:25:30,149 All right, so. 528 00:25:30,217 --> 00:25:31,917 Gramma Vera made these journals for me 529 00:25:31,952 --> 00:25:35,420 and they have all of our family traditions in here. 530 00:25:35,489 --> 00:25:36,955 Here, okay. 531 00:25:36,991 --> 00:25:38,457 So on this page, she talks all about 532 00:25:38,492 --> 00:25:40,826 the 12 days of Christmas ornaments. 533 00:25:40,895 --> 00:25:44,696 So a long, long time ago, my great-great-great, 534 00:25:46,400 --> 00:25:49,768 let's just say seven greats grandfather. 535 00:25:49,804 --> 00:25:52,504 He was an artist and he worked with ceramics. 536 00:25:52,573 --> 00:25:53,605 My mom did that. 537 00:25:53,641 --> 00:25:54,940 Really? 538 00:25:54,975 --> 00:25:56,375 Oh yeah, that's why we moved here, 539 00:25:56,410 --> 00:25:59,178 so she could open a shop, she was a very talented artist. 540 00:26:01,282 --> 00:26:02,981 That is so cool. 541 00:26:03,017 --> 00:26:06,552 So he fell in love with my seven greats grandmother, 542 00:26:06,587 --> 00:26:09,488 but her parents didn't approve of them getting married. 543 00:26:09,523 --> 00:26:10,889 Why not? 544 00:26:10,958 --> 00:26:13,125 I'm sure they had very specific ideas 545 00:26:13,160 --> 00:26:16,628 about who they wanted her to marry, probably, yes, 546 00:26:16,697 --> 00:26:18,063 and that was very common back then, 547 00:26:18,098 --> 00:26:19,398 we don't do that anymore. 548 00:26:19,433 --> 00:26:20,799 No, we do not. 549 00:26:20,835 --> 00:26:23,802 So he made her these ornaments. 550 00:26:23,838 --> 00:26:26,772 All right, I think I found it. 551 00:26:26,807 --> 00:26:28,674 Yes, yay! 552 00:26:28,709 --> 00:26:30,275 Here, come here, come here, come here. 553 00:26:30,344 --> 00:26:31,555 Forbidden love, that's a pretty juicy 554 00:26:31,579 --> 00:26:32,678 family history right there. 555 00:26:32,713 --> 00:26:33,879 I know. 556 00:26:33,948 --> 00:26:35,681 Well, they actually had to leave for America 557 00:26:35,749 --> 00:26:38,550 before he had time to make the partridge in the pear tree, 558 00:26:38,586 --> 00:26:41,486 so there's a family legend now 559 00:26:41,522 --> 00:26:45,457 that the two turtle doves makes people fall in love. 560 00:26:45,492 --> 00:26:47,326 That was my favorite part. 561 00:26:49,697 --> 00:26:52,197 I loved how gramma Vera told the story, 562 00:26:52,233 --> 00:26:53,966 and I like the ritual of it. 563 00:26:54,001 --> 00:26:55,045 Where's the two turtle doves? 564 00:26:55,069 --> 00:26:56,501 There's only 10. 565 00:26:56,537 --> 00:26:57,537 What? 566 00:26:58,672 --> 00:27:00,138 No. 567 00:27:00,207 --> 00:27:01,218 She's right, there's only 10 ornaments in there. 568 00:27:01,242 --> 00:27:03,075 But that doesn't make any sense. 569 00:27:03,110 --> 00:27:04,810 Well, it's gotta be here somewhere. 570 00:27:04,845 --> 00:27:07,045 Look, I pulled out all the boxes, 571 00:27:07,114 --> 00:27:08,191 if it's not in one of those boxes, 572 00:27:08,215 --> 00:27:10,916 then I don't know where it would be. 573 00:27:10,951 --> 00:27:12,150 We're gonna find it, okay? 574 00:27:12,219 --> 00:27:13,051 We're all gonna help you, right guys? 575 00:27:13,087 --> 00:27:14,286 Yeah, yeah, definitely. 576 00:27:14,355 --> 00:27:17,122 I'll check the rest of those boxes. 577 00:27:17,157 --> 00:27:20,092 We'll find it, it's okay. 578 00:27:37,913 --> 00:27:39,446 Dr. Sharon, it's Mikayla. 579 00:27:39,481 --> 00:27:40,980 Yeah, come on in. 580 00:27:42,751 --> 00:27:43,850 Hey. 581 00:27:43,885 --> 00:27:44,962 Hey guys, what's going on? 582 00:27:44,986 --> 00:27:47,420 We were sad that we couldn't find 583 00:27:47,456 --> 00:27:49,422 the ornament yesterday, and so Mikayla 584 00:27:49,458 --> 00:27:52,959 wanted to make you something to help you feel better. 585 00:27:54,028 --> 00:27:56,261 It's a placeholder. 586 00:28:00,935 --> 00:28:02,301 This is perfect. 587 00:28:03,672 --> 00:28:05,338 Thank you so much. 588 00:28:05,674 --> 00:28:06,973 Come here. 589 00:28:08,877 --> 00:28:11,578 So, I was gonna hang one ornament 590 00:28:11,613 --> 00:28:14,147 for each tradition that we crossed off gramma Vera's list. 591 00:28:14,182 --> 00:28:18,117 This is the one for decorating the house. 592 00:28:18,153 --> 00:28:18,918 Can I do it? 593 00:28:18,954 --> 00:28:20,053 Absolutely. 594 00:28:27,329 --> 00:28:28,628 Any leads? 595 00:28:28,663 --> 00:28:32,465 No, I'm gonna stop by gramma Vera's old office, 596 00:28:32,534 --> 00:28:35,101 and then if it's not there, I'm gonna 597 00:28:35,170 --> 00:28:37,971 turn Lucy's house inside-out. 598 00:28:38,006 --> 00:28:39,606 Well that's a start. 599 00:28:39,641 --> 00:28:41,922 Well, let us know if there's anything we can do to help. 600 00:28:42,777 --> 00:28:44,110 I'm a great detective. 601 00:28:44,145 --> 00:28:45,578 I bet you are. 602 00:28:45,614 --> 00:28:49,549 So does that mean I'm gonna see you guys later? 603 00:28:49,618 --> 00:28:51,517 Yeah, we'll see you later. 604 00:28:51,586 --> 00:28:53,086 Good. 605 00:28:53,121 --> 00:28:54,587 Great, thank you again. 606 00:28:56,892 --> 00:28:57,657 Buh-bye. 607 00:28:57,692 --> 00:28:59,359 - Bye. - Bye. 608 00:29:27,889 --> 00:29:28,788 Hey. 609 00:29:28,857 --> 00:29:30,390 Hi. 610 00:29:30,425 --> 00:29:31,391 Hi, I just wanted to give you a five-minute warning 611 00:29:31,426 --> 00:29:32,659 before the next appointment. 612 00:29:32,694 --> 00:29:34,127 Thank you. 613 00:29:34,162 --> 00:29:35,162 Any luck? 614 00:29:35,697 --> 00:29:37,297 Nothing. 615 00:29:37,332 --> 00:29:38,332 No. 616 00:29:39,401 --> 00:29:41,212 Do you know anywhere else she might've stashed it? 617 00:29:41,236 --> 00:29:45,004 No, if it's not in one of those boxes, then it's not here. 618 00:29:45,040 --> 00:29:47,106 But you might try to do some sleuthing 619 00:29:47,142 --> 00:29:49,108 at the town tree lighting tonight. 620 00:29:49,144 --> 00:29:51,678 A couple of years ago the mayor invited every family 621 00:29:51,713 --> 00:29:54,047 to hang one personal ornament on the town tree, 622 00:29:54,082 --> 00:29:56,716 so maybe there was a mix-up there. 623 00:29:56,785 --> 00:29:57,984 That is a great idea. 624 00:29:58,019 --> 00:29:59,819 I will definitely do that. 625 00:29:59,888 --> 00:30:01,421 Thank you. 626 00:30:01,456 --> 00:30:04,023 And I'll clean everything up, just give me two seconds. 627 00:30:04,059 --> 00:30:05,892 - Thank you. - Thank you so much. 628 00:30:09,831 --> 00:30:12,365 One of my favorite days of every Christmas season 629 00:30:12,400 --> 00:30:15,601 was watching your face when you came home from school 630 00:30:15,670 --> 00:30:20,573 and saw Santa and his reindeer right there, at our house. 631 00:30:21,509 --> 00:30:24,577 You told me as long as we displayed our Santa, 632 00:30:24,612 --> 00:30:28,581 the real Saint Nick would always know he was welcome here. 633 00:30:28,650 --> 00:30:31,918 I thought that was the cutest thing I'd ever heard. 634 00:30:31,953 --> 00:30:34,287 And so every year, up he goes. 635 00:30:38,326 --> 00:30:39,959 What are you doing? 636 00:30:39,995 --> 00:30:44,397 If you don't know, then I'm worse off than I thought. 637 00:30:44,432 --> 00:30:45,876 Okay, here, let me help you, stay there. 638 00:30:45,900 --> 00:30:48,001 No, it's balanced, I'm almost there. 639 00:30:48,036 --> 00:30:49,969 Nope, I got it. 640 00:30:50,005 --> 00:30:51,037 See? 641 00:30:51,072 --> 00:30:53,973 I'm assembling Santa and his reindeer. 642 00:30:54,009 --> 00:30:55,009 Why? 643 00:30:56,211 --> 00:30:59,746 So Santa knows that he's welcome, right? 644 00:31:04,786 --> 00:31:05,786 There. 645 00:31:06,888 --> 00:31:09,000 Wasn't this list supposed to bring you Christmas joy? 646 00:31:09,024 --> 00:31:11,891 What is more joyful than Santa? 647 00:31:12,827 --> 00:31:14,527 I don't know, maybe not assembling 648 00:31:14,562 --> 00:31:17,096 a 15-foot lawn ornament all by yourself. 649 00:31:17,132 --> 00:31:19,165 You know what, okay. 650 00:31:19,200 --> 00:31:22,568 You don't appreciate my Santa, you don't like sweets, 651 00:31:22,604 --> 00:31:25,338 you don't have a tree preference. 652 00:31:25,373 --> 00:31:29,475 I'm starting to think you just don't like Christmas. 653 00:31:30,445 --> 00:31:31,477 Okay. 654 00:31:32,414 --> 00:31:34,547 - First... - That's heavy. 655 00:31:34,582 --> 00:31:36,949 Nobody enjoys assembling these things by themselves. 656 00:31:36,985 --> 00:31:38,317 I'm having a great time! 657 00:31:38,353 --> 00:31:39,852 Right, okay, talk to me tomorrow 658 00:31:39,921 --> 00:31:41,487 when everything hurts. 659 00:31:41,556 --> 00:31:44,057 That is not my point. 660 00:31:44,092 --> 00:31:48,861 You're evading my point, which is you don't like Christmas. 661 00:31:49,798 --> 00:31:52,298 I think you're a secret Scrooge. 662 00:31:55,537 --> 00:31:58,071 - Let's do this one. - All right. 663 00:32:00,508 --> 00:32:02,675 - Right to this one, okay. - Yeah. 664 00:32:02,744 --> 00:32:04,544 You know, the first year after Jennie died, 665 00:32:04,579 --> 00:32:06,712 I went all out for Christmas. 666 00:32:06,748 --> 00:32:10,450 We just had a rough year, and I was so excited 667 00:32:10,485 --> 00:32:12,785 to finally have something to celebrate. 668 00:32:12,821 --> 00:32:16,556 Man, I did the cookies, half-eaten carrots, 669 00:32:16,591 --> 00:32:18,524 little hoof prints through the snow, 670 00:32:18,560 --> 00:32:20,059 and there was a suit involved. 671 00:32:20,128 --> 00:32:21,461 That sounds amazing. 672 00:32:21,496 --> 00:32:23,096 Yeah, Mikayla still talks about it. 673 00:32:23,131 --> 00:32:26,365 It had to be this big, over-the-top thing 674 00:32:26,401 --> 00:32:28,267 that would distract her from the fact 675 00:32:28,303 --> 00:32:30,536 that her mom wasn't there, and it had to be 676 00:32:30,572 --> 00:32:34,107 a big enough gesture to remind her that I always would be, 677 00:32:34,142 --> 00:32:36,109 and that Santa would be there too. 678 00:32:36,144 --> 00:32:38,411 You are a really great dad. 679 00:32:38,446 --> 00:32:41,214 Doing all that without Jennie, 680 00:32:43,384 --> 00:32:46,252 I wanted to sleep right through January. 681 00:32:46,287 --> 00:32:47,386 It was rough. 682 00:32:50,525 --> 00:32:51,525 Yeah. 683 00:32:53,995 --> 00:32:55,528 Last one. 684 00:32:55,563 --> 00:32:57,763 I don't understand why anyone 685 00:32:57,799 --> 00:33:01,200 who doesn't have kids would want to do this. 686 00:33:01,236 --> 00:33:04,003 I mean, I would be inside by the fire, 687 00:33:04,038 --> 00:33:06,339 reveling in the joys of adulting. 688 00:33:06,374 --> 00:33:10,143 Well, it's because I'm not doing it for me either. 689 00:33:10,178 --> 00:33:12,945 I'm trying to remember her. 690 00:33:13,014 --> 00:33:14,981 Why is this so hard? 691 00:33:16,885 --> 00:33:19,485 Why is she making me do this? 692 00:33:19,521 --> 00:33:21,487 Because she loved you. 693 00:33:24,893 --> 00:33:28,194 Come on, let's see how we're lookin' here. 694 00:33:30,532 --> 00:33:31,532 Yeah. 695 00:33:36,070 --> 00:33:37,070 Okay. 696 00:33:38,373 --> 00:33:39,373 Okay. 697 00:33:40,675 --> 00:33:44,610 Now we just have to put together Santa's village. 698 00:33:44,646 --> 00:33:46,245 I'm sorry, what? 699 00:33:49,116 --> 00:33:51,450 The traditional lighting 700 00:33:51,519 --> 00:33:54,219 of the town Christmas tree. 701 00:33:54,255 --> 00:33:56,989 I'll never forget the first time you saw it. 702 00:33:57,024 --> 00:34:01,326 The lights came on and your eyes went wide as saucers. 703 00:34:03,064 --> 00:34:07,232 I just love when we light candles and the whole town sings. 704 00:34:07,301 --> 00:34:08,934 There's something so magical 705 00:34:08,969 --> 00:34:11,804 about the stillness in that moment. 706 00:34:13,240 --> 00:34:14,506 Well? 707 00:34:14,542 --> 00:34:16,208 No, looks like she's doing her thing, 708 00:34:16,243 --> 00:34:17,888 I don't think she wants to talk to anyone right now. 709 00:34:17,912 --> 00:34:20,379 Okay, well, I'm sure she'll make an excuse for you. 710 00:34:20,414 --> 00:34:21,847 Come on, let's go see the reindeer. 711 00:34:21,916 --> 00:34:23,782 Oh, yay. 712 00:34:25,786 --> 00:34:27,720 All by yourself over here. 713 00:34:27,755 --> 00:34:30,123 - Hey. - Hey. 714 00:34:30,958 --> 00:34:33,592 Yeah, Andrea mentioned gramma Vera 715 00:34:33,627 --> 00:34:36,729 possibly putting the ornament on the tree. 716 00:34:36,764 --> 00:34:38,764 So I just thought I would... 717 00:34:39,700 --> 00:34:42,534 Yeah, nothing yet though? 718 00:34:42,603 --> 00:34:43,936 Nope. 719 00:34:45,740 --> 00:34:50,209 I checked Lucy's and the counseling center, and nope. 720 00:34:52,613 --> 00:34:55,180 Just a couple of days of nope. 721 00:34:57,418 --> 00:35:00,352 Some guy came and humbugged all over your Santa. 722 00:35:00,387 --> 00:35:02,888 That was really great. 723 00:35:08,429 --> 00:35:11,830 Lighting this tree later tonight. 724 00:35:11,866 --> 00:35:12,866 Yeah. 725 00:35:14,401 --> 00:35:18,837 It used to be one of my favorite traditions. 726 00:35:23,377 --> 00:35:25,944 Is it always gonna be like this? 727 00:35:28,616 --> 00:35:31,717 I just, I keep having these flash memories 728 00:35:31,752 --> 00:35:35,187 of being here with her and my mom, 729 00:35:35,222 --> 00:35:38,357 and if Christmas is gonna be like this, 730 00:35:38,425 --> 00:35:41,160 I just, I don't think I can do it. 731 00:35:45,733 --> 00:35:46,999 Yeah. 732 00:35:47,034 --> 00:35:49,268 First year after Jennie died, it was really hard 733 00:35:49,303 --> 00:35:53,438 not to feel like Christmas was just a giant shadow 734 00:35:55,075 --> 00:35:58,143 that Jennie would just, she would light up the whole house. 735 00:35:59,513 --> 00:36:02,414 But whether she was gone or not, 736 00:36:02,449 --> 00:36:06,018 I was not gonna let how I felt about Christmas 737 00:36:06,053 --> 00:36:09,087 ruin it for Mikayla, 'cause she's a kid, 738 00:36:09,156 --> 00:36:11,390 she gets to be a kid once, and when you're a kid, 739 00:36:11,425 --> 00:36:14,560 Christmas should be magical no matter what. 740 00:36:14,595 --> 00:36:16,228 How did you do that? 741 00:36:16,263 --> 00:36:21,200 No, seriously, I'm just by myself and I can barely do it. 742 00:36:22,436 --> 00:36:25,237 At first I took it one step at a time. 743 00:36:25,272 --> 00:36:27,050 Like driving with your headlights on, you know, 744 00:36:27,074 --> 00:36:28,941 you just focus as far as you can see. 745 00:36:29,009 --> 00:36:31,376 And most importantly, you don't do it alone. 746 00:36:31,412 --> 00:36:35,814 My brother Alex, he moved here just to help me out. 747 00:36:35,850 --> 00:36:38,784 And Vera, and Nick, and Ethel, yeah, 748 00:36:40,788 --> 00:36:43,689 a whole town full of wonderfully nosy neighbors 749 00:36:43,724 --> 00:36:47,893 who were ready to help make Christmas Magic happen 750 00:36:49,096 --> 00:36:52,030 when I didn't feel like I had it in me. 751 00:36:58,305 --> 00:37:01,039 You're welcome to join us if you want. 752 00:37:03,344 --> 00:37:04,344 Okay. 753 00:37:09,116 --> 00:37:10,116 - Dad! - Hey. 754 00:37:10,150 --> 00:37:11,617 I pet the reindeer! 755 00:37:11,652 --> 00:37:12,885 Nice. 756 00:37:12,920 --> 00:37:15,087 And he licked the corn right out of my hand. 757 00:37:15,155 --> 00:37:16,155 Gross! 758 00:37:17,524 --> 00:37:18,790 And awesome. 759 00:37:21,095 --> 00:37:24,296 So, Dr. Sharon, did you find the ornament yet? 760 00:37:24,365 --> 00:37:27,966 I did not, but thank you so much for asking. 761 00:37:28,002 --> 00:37:29,768 It's okay, we'll find it. 762 00:37:40,648 --> 00:37:42,368 Please join me in the traditional lighting 763 00:37:42,416 --> 00:37:44,983 of the Pine Springs Christmas tree. 764 00:37:45,052 --> 00:37:46,551 Five! 765 00:37:46,587 --> 00:37:47,552 Four! 766 00:37:47,588 --> 00:37:48,487 Three! 767 00:37:48,522 --> 00:37:49,388 Two! 768 00:37:49,423 --> 00:37:50,423 One! 769 00:37:54,995 --> 00:37:57,029 And as your mayor, I want to welcome 770 00:37:57,064 --> 00:38:00,699 everyone who's come near and far to join us. 771 00:38:00,734 --> 00:38:03,035 The spirit of generosity this town embodies 772 00:38:03,103 --> 00:38:05,637 is truly a miracle every season. 773 00:38:08,642 --> 00:38:12,511 Hello, my friend, Dr. Sharon Harper, 774 00:38:12,546 --> 00:38:16,648 is missing an ornament that used to belong to Vera Harper. 775 00:38:16,684 --> 00:38:19,151 It's white with two birds and a little heart 776 00:38:19,219 --> 00:38:21,853 hanging from it, so if we could all look, 777 00:38:21,889 --> 00:38:23,855 we can make a Christmas miracle. 778 00:38:23,891 --> 00:38:26,124 Thank you and Merry Christmas. 779 00:38:27,361 --> 00:38:29,461 Merry Christmas. 780 00:38:29,496 --> 00:38:31,463 Well, I don't think I can top that. 781 00:38:31,532 --> 00:38:34,032 Welcome home, Dr. Sharon Harper. 782 00:38:35,235 --> 00:38:37,135 We will all keep our eyes peeled, yes? 783 00:38:37,171 --> 00:38:38,603 Yes. 784 00:38:38,639 --> 00:38:40,872 And now, please join me in enjoying 785 00:38:40,908 --> 00:38:44,343 the rest of this fine evening, Merry Christmas. 786 00:38:44,378 --> 00:38:47,112 Merry Christmas! 787 00:39:00,794 --> 00:39:03,528 Is baking Christmas cookies on your list? 788 00:39:03,564 --> 00:39:05,530 As a matter of fact, it is. 789 00:39:05,566 --> 00:39:08,467 Would you like to bake cookies with me and Mrs. Ethel? 790 00:39:08,502 --> 00:39:10,469 I would love that. 791 00:39:10,504 --> 00:39:11,803 Thank you. 792 00:39:11,839 --> 00:39:15,874 Do you want me to take you, or is your dad coming? 793 00:39:15,909 --> 00:39:18,810 - No... - Yeah, I could swing by. 794 00:39:18,846 --> 00:39:20,545 I thought this was girl time. 795 00:39:20,614 --> 00:39:25,283 Well I will come by at the end, then, and we can hang out for a bit. 796 00:39:25,319 --> 00:39:26,752 Sounds great. 797 00:39:26,787 --> 00:39:27,787 Okay. 798 00:39:28,856 --> 00:39:30,956 Okay, well, good night. 799 00:39:32,159 --> 00:39:33,159 Come on. 800 00:39:34,261 --> 00:39:35,961 Good night. 801 00:40:17,971 --> 00:40:20,772 Now, I'm no Ethel, but I just don't think 802 00:40:20,840 --> 00:40:23,808 it's Christmas without a homemade batch of cookies. 803 00:40:23,843 --> 00:40:27,078 Frosted sugar cookies are my favorite. 804 00:40:27,113 --> 00:40:30,915 But you love a snickerdoodle, just like your mom. 805 00:40:30,950 --> 00:40:33,084 It's so much fun to get your hands messy 806 00:40:33,153 --> 00:40:36,120 and spending time in the kitchen together. 807 00:40:36,156 --> 00:40:38,089 That's my favorite part. 808 00:40:38,124 --> 00:40:40,792 Your favorite part seems to be licking the spoon, 809 00:40:40,827 --> 00:40:42,894 and I can't blame you. 810 00:40:42,929 --> 00:40:45,897 I've got something to check on out front. 811 00:40:45,965 --> 00:40:47,699 Lucy, do you think you can give me a hand? 812 00:40:47,767 --> 00:40:48,800 Absolutely. 813 00:40:51,071 --> 00:40:52,071 Okay. 814 00:40:52,939 --> 00:40:55,373 I have a very important question for you. 815 00:40:55,408 --> 00:40:58,543 What is your favorite Christmas cookie? 816 00:40:59,446 --> 00:41:00,446 I only get one? 817 00:41:01,414 --> 00:41:02,692 You're right, loose top three. 818 00:41:02,716 --> 00:41:06,417 Okay, I like Ethel's snickerdoodles. 819 00:41:06,453 --> 00:41:07,518 Naturally. 820 00:41:07,554 --> 00:41:09,020 Gingerbread cookies. 821 00:41:09,055 --> 00:41:10,321 Crunchy or soft? 822 00:41:10,356 --> 00:41:11,122 Crunchy. 823 00:41:11,157 --> 00:41:12,523 Yeah. 824 00:41:12,592 --> 00:41:13,825 Good choice. 825 00:41:13,893 --> 00:41:17,361 And I like my mom's frosted sugar cookies 826 00:41:21,134 --> 00:41:23,768 that were shaped like snowflakes. 827 00:41:24,938 --> 00:41:28,039 Or at least what I can remember of them. 828 00:41:33,213 --> 00:41:35,012 You know, I lost my mom when I was 829 00:41:35,081 --> 00:41:36,948 just a little bit younger than you. 830 00:41:36,983 --> 00:41:38,182 Yeah, I know. 831 00:41:38,218 --> 00:41:40,017 Gramma Vera told me. 832 00:41:41,387 --> 00:41:45,923 If it makes you feel any better, I never forgot her. 833 00:41:47,260 --> 00:41:50,461 In fact, I feel I know her even better now 834 00:41:50,497 --> 00:41:52,830 than I ever did when I was younger. 835 00:41:52,866 --> 00:41:53,731 Really? 836 00:41:53,800 --> 00:41:54,800 Yeah. 837 00:41:57,270 --> 00:41:58,469 Pinky promise. 838 00:42:04,077 --> 00:42:05,843 Presenting. 839 00:42:05,879 --> 00:42:09,347 Great-gramma Ida's famous lemon cake. 840 00:42:09,382 --> 00:42:10,581 Really? 841 00:42:10,617 --> 00:42:11,482 For your list. 842 00:42:11,518 --> 00:42:12,784 The ornaments, right? 843 00:42:12,852 --> 00:42:13,852 Yeah. 844 00:42:14,888 --> 00:42:17,355 That looks so beautiful. 845 00:42:22,228 --> 00:42:24,195 It smells just the same. 846 00:42:25,031 --> 00:42:25,763 Ready? 847 00:42:25,832 --> 00:42:27,398 Yes, I am ready. 848 00:42:32,138 --> 00:42:33,604 How did you do this? 849 00:42:33,640 --> 00:42:36,541 She fudged the recipe a bit. 850 00:42:36,576 --> 00:42:38,776 'Cause I know back in the day, your great-grandmother 851 00:42:38,812 --> 00:42:42,146 wouldn't have baked with anything but lard, so. 852 00:42:42,182 --> 00:42:43,748 - Lard? - Lard? 853 00:42:45,118 --> 00:42:46,951 I don't wanna know any more. 854 00:42:47,020 --> 00:42:48,853 That's the best, don't ask any questions, 855 00:42:48,888 --> 00:42:49,821 just eat the cake. 856 00:42:49,856 --> 00:42:50,888 Hi ladies. 857 00:42:50,957 --> 00:42:51,989 Hi! 858 00:42:52,025 --> 00:42:52,957 Dad! 859 00:42:52,992 --> 00:42:54,425 Hey, hello. 860 00:42:55,762 --> 00:42:56,928 Hey. 861 00:42:56,963 --> 00:42:59,597 I see we're gettin' into a little dessert before dinner, huh? 862 00:42:59,632 --> 00:43:00,865 Hey Sam, good to see you. 863 00:43:00,900 --> 00:43:03,467 Good to see you too, this looks great. 864 00:43:03,503 --> 00:43:05,603 Thank you for lending me your little helper today. 865 00:43:05,638 --> 00:43:07,071 You're welcome. 866 00:43:07,106 --> 00:43:08,751 We still have two more batches of cookies in the oven. 867 00:43:08,775 --> 00:43:10,719 I wouldn't dare intervene, but it is getting close 868 00:43:10,743 --> 00:43:14,212 to dinnertime, so do you want me to go out 869 00:43:14,280 --> 00:43:15,980 and get takeout or something? 870 00:43:16,015 --> 00:43:17,715 That sounds amazing. 871 00:43:17,750 --> 00:43:19,517 Can we get pizza? 872 00:43:19,552 --> 00:43:20,885 Okay. 873 00:43:20,920 --> 00:43:22,720 You should go to Patsy's. 874 00:43:22,755 --> 00:43:24,689 I was talking to her, and she seemed to recall 875 00:43:24,724 --> 00:43:27,992 Vera mentioned the two turtle doves ornament to her. 876 00:43:28,061 --> 00:43:29,360 Seriously? 877 00:43:29,395 --> 00:43:31,140 It might not be much of a lead, but it's something. 878 00:43:31,164 --> 00:43:32,029 Go. 879 00:43:32,065 --> 00:43:34,298 Yeah, yeah, I'm gonna go. I'm gonna go! 880 00:43:35,368 --> 00:43:38,302 That's fantastic, thank you so much. 881 00:43:38,338 --> 00:43:40,137 I just need to get my jacket. 882 00:43:41,908 --> 00:43:45,176 It's cold, can you, sorry, can you hold that? 883 00:43:45,211 --> 00:43:47,945 So has Vera's list swayed you to the charms 884 00:43:47,981 --> 00:43:49,313 of hometown living? 885 00:43:49,349 --> 00:43:52,850 It would be heartbreaking to give up that house. 886 00:43:52,886 --> 00:43:56,387 But I'm a finalist for a MacAdam's Fellowship, 887 00:43:59,959 --> 00:44:02,493 and my interview is on the 30th. 888 00:44:03,930 --> 00:44:06,330 You just became like 11% more intimidating. 889 00:44:07,901 --> 00:44:10,902 I love my family, and I love my home. 890 00:44:12,338 --> 00:44:16,240 But my work and my everything else is somewhere else, 891 00:44:16,276 --> 00:44:19,243 and moving back home was never part of the plan, 892 00:44:19,279 --> 00:44:22,480 and now I just feel torn between, you know, 893 00:44:22,515 --> 00:44:24,415 my past and my future. 894 00:44:24,450 --> 00:44:26,784 Well, hey, just to be clear, I don't think 895 00:44:26,853 --> 00:44:28,653 the goal was ever to make you choose, 896 00:44:28,688 --> 00:44:32,089 I think it was more to just give you options. 897 00:44:32,125 --> 00:44:35,893 Well, now you sound like my mentor. 898 00:44:35,929 --> 00:44:37,395 It's not a bad thing. 899 00:44:37,430 --> 00:44:41,165 I just have a very clear path for this Fellowship, 900 00:44:41,200 --> 00:44:45,169 and she just keeps urging me to think bigger 901 00:44:45,238 --> 00:44:47,571 than the research, and there's no time for that, 902 00:44:47,607 --> 00:44:51,142 'cause in my field, once you take your foot off the gas, 903 00:44:51,177 --> 00:44:52,977 you just get left in the dust. 904 00:44:53,012 --> 00:44:55,246 Yeah, the New York bubble, I remember that well. 905 00:44:55,281 --> 00:44:57,248 I live in Minneapolis. 906 00:44:57,283 --> 00:45:02,053 Right, okay, I'm just saying, New York is an achiever culture. 907 00:45:02,088 --> 00:45:03,154 Yes. 908 00:45:03,189 --> 00:45:04,333 And people who live there, they think 909 00:45:04,357 --> 00:45:05,923 the world starts at the East River 910 00:45:05,959 --> 00:45:09,727 and it ends at the Hudson River, and I loved being there. 911 00:45:09,762 --> 00:45:12,563 I lived off of that ambitious culture, 912 00:45:12,598 --> 00:45:16,600 that ambitious energy, that relentless pulse, 913 00:45:16,636 --> 00:45:17,835 a lot of Thai food. 914 00:45:17,870 --> 00:45:19,248 Yeah, there's nothing resembling Thai food 915 00:45:19,272 --> 00:45:20,371 in Pine Springs. 916 00:45:20,406 --> 00:45:22,373 No, no, no, no, no, no. 917 00:45:22,408 --> 00:45:25,876 No, but I firmly believed that leaving Manhattan 918 00:45:25,912 --> 00:45:28,145 would mean a slower life, a slower career, 919 00:45:28,181 --> 00:45:29,647 that I was settling for those things, 920 00:45:29,682 --> 00:45:31,716 that all of my colleagues would rocket past me 921 00:45:31,751 --> 00:45:35,019 to fame and acclaim, and... 922 00:45:35,054 --> 00:45:38,356 So wait, you're saying that that didn't happen? 923 00:45:38,391 --> 00:45:40,291 No, it totally did. 924 00:45:40,326 --> 00:45:42,493 That's not helpful at all! 925 00:45:42,562 --> 00:45:44,362 But it wasn't settling. 926 00:45:44,397 --> 00:45:46,197 It was a new dream. 927 00:45:46,232 --> 00:45:48,332 A yard for my daughter, a chance for my wife 928 00:45:48,368 --> 00:45:49,500 to be a working artist. 929 00:45:49,535 --> 00:45:53,938 What I wanted changed, so the plans changed. 930 00:45:53,973 --> 00:45:58,509 And whatever you choose, that'll be the right thing too. 931 00:46:01,280 --> 00:46:03,080 Do you miss New York? 932 00:46:03,116 --> 00:46:04,116 Yes. 933 00:46:05,051 --> 00:46:06,051 Some days. 934 00:46:06,919 --> 00:46:09,186 But I mean, look at this place. 935 00:46:09,222 --> 00:46:10,554 I know. 936 00:46:10,623 --> 00:46:14,825 It's the perfect place for Mikayla to grow up. 937 00:46:14,894 --> 00:46:17,895 Well what about when she goes to college? 938 00:46:17,930 --> 00:46:19,010 She'll never be that old. 939 00:46:21,667 --> 00:46:24,135 No, I'm not focused on that, I'm just trying to focus 940 00:46:24,170 --> 00:46:26,504 on Mikayla, it's part of being a good dad. 941 00:46:26,572 --> 00:46:28,105 Yes, and also... 942 00:46:28,141 --> 00:46:29,540 And also what? 943 00:46:34,447 --> 00:46:35,980 I am not a parent. 944 00:46:37,517 --> 00:46:41,385 But I lost my mom at a young age, like Mikayla. 945 00:46:42,588 --> 00:46:44,355 And even though gramma Vera was there for me 946 00:46:44,390 --> 00:46:48,259 every step of the way, she also went back to school 947 00:46:48,294 --> 00:46:50,895 and she got her master's degree in social work, 948 00:46:50,930 --> 00:46:54,865 and she opened up her own therapy practice. 949 00:46:54,901 --> 00:46:57,101 And I watched her do that. 950 00:46:58,905 --> 00:47:02,740 She cared for me, yes, but at a time in my life 951 00:47:02,775 --> 00:47:05,076 where I was afraid that being an adult 952 00:47:05,144 --> 00:47:09,847 meant getting sick and dying, she modeled what it was like 953 00:47:11,717 --> 00:47:15,653 to be a happy, fulfilled adult, even after loss. 954 00:47:20,026 --> 00:47:21,826 It was one of the most important things 955 00:47:21,894 --> 00:47:23,961 that she ever gave to me. 956 00:47:30,235 --> 00:47:31,868 Now, it was a long time ago, 957 00:47:31,937 --> 00:47:35,238 so my memory's a little hazy, but she said something 958 00:47:35,274 --> 00:47:38,208 about an ornament that your great-great-grandfather 959 00:47:38,243 --> 00:47:40,076 or whomever never made? 960 00:47:40,145 --> 00:47:41,823 He never made the partridge in a pear tree. 961 00:47:41,847 --> 00:47:43,046 Yes. 962 00:47:43,115 --> 00:47:44,559 And I remember she mentioned something about 963 00:47:44,583 --> 00:47:47,050 maybe she could get someone to make one for her. 964 00:47:47,285 --> 00:47:50,086 Use one of the other ornaments as a model. 965 00:47:50,122 --> 00:47:52,322 Do you have any idea who that was? 966 00:47:52,357 --> 00:47:54,102 I'm not sure she even got around to doing it. 967 00:47:54,126 --> 00:47:57,093 I mean, she just sort of mentioned it in passing. 968 00:47:57,429 --> 00:47:59,896 I'm not sure if that's helpful, but... 969 00:47:59,931 --> 00:48:01,475 it's more than I've had to go on so far. 970 00:48:01,499 --> 00:48:03,199 Thank you so much. 971 00:48:03,234 --> 00:48:05,468 Do not take his money, no no no, 972 00:48:05,503 --> 00:48:08,338 your money's no good here tonight. 973 00:48:08,406 --> 00:48:10,073 Thank you, Patsy. 974 00:48:10,108 --> 00:48:11,374 You're welcome. 975 00:48:12,344 --> 00:48:14,143 Welcome home, honey. 976 00:48:14,179 --> 00:48:16,346 - Merry Christmas. - Merry Christmas. 977 00:48:16,381 --> 00:48:18,314 And I will let you know if I find it. 978 00:48:18,350 --> 00:48:19,350 Great. 979 00:48:20,785 --> 00:48:22,085 Dr. Sharon. 980 00:48:22,120 --> 00:48:23,353 Yes. 981 00:48:23,388 --> 00:48:24,632 Are you going to the Christmas pageant? 982 00:48:24,656 --> 00:48:25,933 Because I'm going to be an angel. 983 00:48:25,957 --> 00:48:27,924 I wouldn't miss it. 984 00:48:27,959 --> 00:48:29,826 Pinky promise? 985 00:48:29,894 --> 00:48:32,762 And then we get hot cocoa. 986 00:48:32,797 --> 00:48:34,097 Mikayla. 987 00:48:34,165 --> 00:48:35,765 What? 988 00:48:35,834 --> 00:48:38,768 Gramma Vera always took us to go get hot cocoa after. 989 00:48:38,803 --> 00:48:39,936 It's on the list. 990 00:48:39,971 --> 00:48:42,472 Have a cup of the best hot cocoa in town. 991 00:48:42,540 --> 00:48:45,875 I'm doing it for 11 pipers piping, you wanna know why? 992 00:48:45,910 --> 00:48:47,176 Why? 993 00:48:47,212 --> 00:48:50,480 Because the cocoa will be piping hot. 994 00:48:51,516 --> 00:48:53,549 Dr. Sharon, seriously? 995 00:48:53,585 --> 00:48:54,550 You're better than that. 996 00:48:54,586 --> 00:48:56,386 I know, I know. 997 00:49:12,571 --> 00:49:13,571 All right. 998 00:49:32,190 --> 00:49:33,423 Sharon? 999 00:49:33,492 --> 00:49:34,424 Hi. 1000 00:49:34,459 --> 00:49:35,692 Okay. 1001 00:49:35,727 --> 00:49:37,627 So you know how this field works. 1002 00:49:37,662 --> 00:49:40,864 I can't just press pause on my research 1003 00:49:40,899 --> 00:49:43,366 to pursue some sort of passion project, you know? 1004 00:49:43,401 --> 00:49:45,869 Once you lose momentum, there is no going back, 1005 00:49:45,904 --> 00:49:49,973 the path is very clear, it is very specific, it is very... 1006 00:49:50,008 --> 00:49:51,608 Very limiting. 1007 00:49:51,643 --> 00:49:54,210 Which is the beauty of this Fellowship. 1008 00:49:54,246 --> 00:49:58,348 I've seen scientists use this award to fund their research, 1009 00:49:58,383 --> 00:50:01,117 and that would be great, but I've also seen them use it 1010 00:50:01,153 --> 00:50:05,221 to integrate their work into community outreach projects, 1011 00:50:05,257 --> 00:50:08,525 to write books, start treatment centers. 1012 00:50:08,560 --> 00:50:11,494 So if you win, the question you'll have to answer 1013 00:50:11,530 --> 00:50:15,698 is what would you do if there were no more limits? 1014 00:50:20,539 --> 00:50:22,939 Well that is a terrifying thought. 1015 00:50:22,974 --> 00:50:24,407 Why? 1016 00:50:24,442 --> 00:50:28,745 What if I choose something else, and I fail? 1017 00:50:28,780 --> 00:50:29,780 You know? 1018 00:50:30,882 --> 00:50:35,652 All of that research, all of that work, for nothing. 1019 00:50:36,888 --> 00:50:38,332 If you care more about defending your path 1020 00:50:38,356 --> 00:50:41,457 than exploring the possibilities right in front of you, 1021 00:50:41,493 --> 00:50:43,660 you're gonna get stuck, fast. 1022 00:50:48,934 --> 00:50:49,934 Thank you. 1023 00:51:14,059 --> 00:51:17,460 I need an elf to help me pass out candies 1024 00:51:17,495 --> 00:51:20,129 to these boys and girls, do you think you can help? 1025 00:51:20,165 --> 00:51:21,165 Yes. 1026 00:51:22,934 --> 00:51:24,901 Merry Christmas. 1027 00:51:30,008 --> 00:51:34,544 Well, it's been a year since I was here with gramma Vera. 1028 00:51:35,747 --> 00:51:37,914 You know, I can remember the exact fabric 1029 00:51:37,983 --> 00:51:39,549 from the chairs in the waiting room, 1030 00:51:39,618 --> 00:51:43,553 I can remember pretzels are B7 in the vending machine, 1031 00:51:43,588 --> 00:51:46,656 but I have the hardest time remembering 1032 00:51:46,691 --> 00:51:49,292 what kind of candy Jennie put in the stocking, 1033 00:51:49,327 --> 00:51:52,662 or how many cookies we left out for Santa. 1034 00:51:54,165 --> 00:51:58,001 I just wish that I didn't have such flash-bold moments 1035 00:52:00,171 --> 00:52:03,473 from those last terrible days, 1036 00:52:03,508 --> 00:52:07,910 and then such hazy memories of our best family moments. 1037 00:52:11,850 --> 00:52:13,816 And I really wish that when those memories 1038 00:52:13,852 --> 00:52:16,953 did come back into focus, they just didn't... 1039 00:52:16,988 --> 00:52:19,756 Knock the wind right out of you. 1040 00:52:24,062 --> 00:52:26,796 Because they're just memories now. 1041 00:52:31,169 --> 00:52:32,169 I know. 1042 00:52:37,809 --> 00:52:43,813 This week, it seems the more I try to keep Christmas alive for her, 1043 00:52:43,848 --> 00:52:49,986 the more painfully real it becomes that she is not here anymore. 1044 00:52:54,592 --> 00:52:57,960 I never would have been able to confront 1045 00:52:59,297 --> 00:53:04,567 any of those memories if I hadn't been making new ones with you. 1046 00:53:18,483 --> 00:53:19,582 Okay. 1047 00:53:19,617 --> 00:53:21,283 I am going to show Sharon 1048 00:53:21,319 --> 00:53:24,020 some more Christmas decorations. 1049 00:53:24,055 --> 00:53:25,321 Okay. 1050 00:53:25,356 --> 00:53:29,191 Well, I am going to do the last of the shopping. 1051 00:53:29,260 --> 00:53:30,559 Do you need anything else? 1052 00:53:30,595 --> 00:53:31,794 No, yes. 1053 00:53:31,829 --> 00:53:33,462 I am in desperate need of wrapping paper. 1054 00:53:33,531 --> 00:53:34,397 Okay, cool. 1055 00:53:34,432 --> 00:53:36,999 Well, I will see you all later. 1056 00:53:38,736 --> 00:53:39,736 Thank you. 1057 00:53:42,006 --> 00:53:45,207 Look at this place, did you do all of this by yourself? 1058 00:53:45,243 --> 00:53:49,712 No, my dad and uncle Alex helped a little bit, but... 1059 00:53:53,785 --> 00:53:57,119 This is one of the first ornaments my mom made. 1060 00:53:58,856 --> 00:54:00,489 That is so beautiful. 1061 00:54:01,526 --> 00:54:02,825 - Yeah. - Yeah. 1062 00:54:02,860 --> 00:54:05,061 And this is the one I made in preschool. 1063 00:54:06,631 --> 00:54:08,409 Very nice, I can see where you get your talent. 1064 00:54:08,433 --> 00:54:09,665 Thank you. 1065 00:54:09,701 --> 00:54:11,701 This is my dad's. 1066 00:54:14,505 --> 00:54:15,571 Yes. 1067 00:54:16,574 --> 00:54:19,075 Yeah, that one we can just tack around 1068 00:54:19,110 --> 00:54:20,543 the back side of the tree there. 1069 00:54:20,578 --> 00:54:23,345 Oh no no, I think that this should go front and center. 1070 00:54:23,381 --> 00:54:24,547 Right? 1071 00:54:24,615 --> 00:54:26,782 - So everyone can see it? - Yes. 1072 00:54:28,386 --> 00:54:29,997 Okay, I'm going to show you where all the Santas go. 1073 00:54:30,021 --> 00:54:31,387 - Okay. - Come on. 1074 00:54:35,793 --> 00:54:37,159 All right. 1075 00:54:37,195 --> 00:54:40,529 There are 37 Santas over here, and my mom, 1076 00:54:42,033 --> 00:54:45,668 she would always put lights and ribbon on the garland, 1077 00:54:45,703 --> 00:54:49,672 and she would always help me put teddy bears up there. 1078 00:54:49,741 --> 00:54:51,440 Wait a second. 1079 00:54:51,476 --> 00:54:53,008 What happened to the teddy bears? 1080 00:54:53,044 --> 00:54:54,643 I think they're with my mom's stuff 1081 00:54:54,679 --> 00:54:56,879 in a box in the basement somewhere. 1082 00:54:56,948 --> 00:54:57,948 Wait, what? 1083 00:54:57,982 --> 00:55:00,316 Which box, I'll go get them, honey. 1084 00:55:00,351 --> 00:55:01,550 It's okay. 1085 00:55:01,586 --> 00:55:04,053 So, we would always save the tree for last, 1086 00:55:04,088 --> 00:55:06,055 for when dad got home. 1087 00:55:06,090 --> 00:55:10,493 And while we waited, we would make muddy buddies. 1088 00:55:10,528 --> 00:55:12,061 You know what? 1089 00:55:12,096 --> 00:55:14,230 I'm gonna need to know what a muddy buddy is. 1090 00:55:14,265 --> 00:55:15,265 Okay. 1091 00:55:19,604 --> 00:55:20,703 You okay? 1092 00:55:22,306 --> 00:55:24,874 I don't remember the teddy bears. 1093 00:55:24,909 --> 00:55:27,610 You know what, it sounds like that was something 1094 00:55:27,645 --> 00:55:29,378 that was between she and her mom. 1095 00:55:29,413 --> 00:55:32,515 I wouldn't worry too much about it. 1096 00:55:32,583 --> 00:55:35,718 We would always take these and cover them 1097 00:55:35,753 --> 00:55:37,219 with chocolate and peanut butter, 1098 00:55:37,255 --> 00:55:40,222 and then shake 'em up in a trash bag with powdered sugar. 1099 00:55:40,258 --> 00:55:42,358 I do not remember that. 1100 00:55:42,393 --> 00:55:44,560 'Cause we ate 'em all before you got home. 1101 00:55:46,264 --> 00:55:47,596 You what? 1102 00:55:47,632 --> 00:55:50,533 Well, do you wanna make some now? 1103 00:55:51,836 --> 00:55:53,102 No thank you. 1104 00:55:54,138 --> 00:55:55,138 Why not? 1105 00:55:57,041 --> 00:55:59,742 Because it would make me sad. 1106 00:56:02,146 --> 00:56:03,146 Hey. 1107 00:56:05,817 --> 00:56:07,416 Sweetheart. 1108 00:56:07,451 --> 00:56:08,984 It's okay to be sad. 1109 00:56:10,121 --> 00:56:11,654 But you don't get sad. 1110 00:56:11,689 --> 00:56:15,391 Sure I do, I miss your mom every day. 1111 00:56:15,459 --> 00:56:17,026 Not at Christmas. 1112 00:56:17,094 --> 00:56:18,794 You're always happy. 1113 00:56:18,830 --> 00:56:21,030 Especially at Christmas. 1114 00:56:22,667 --> 00:56:25,701 I just, I don't wanna talk about it 1115 00:56:25,736 --> 00:56:29,638 because I want Christmas to be so magical for you. 1116 00:56:32,710 --> 00:56:34,443 Because I love you. 1117 00:56:35,646 --> 00:56:40,149 And I know that's what your mom wants for you too. 1118 00:56:40,184 --> 00:56:43,719 I thought I was the only one that got sad. 1119 00:56:46,824 --> 00:56:49,458 You're not alone, okay? 1120 00:56:49,493 --> 00:56:53,262 I get sad, uncle Alex gets sad, Sharon gets sad. 1121 00:56:53,297 --> 00:56:55,531 I mean, she's been sad all week 1122 00:56:55,566 --> 00:56:57,867 because she misses her gramma Vera. 1123 00:56:57,902 --> 00:57:00,970 It's true, I have been so sad. 1124 00:57:01,005 --> 00:57:03,973 And you know what, talking to your dad about it 1125 00:57:04,008 --> 00:57:05,574 has really helped me. 1126 00:57:08,646 --> 00:57:11,947 He's actually a really good listener. 1127 00:57:13,818 --> 00:57:18,520 You can tell me anything, you can ask me anything. 1128 00:57:18,556 --> 00:57:19,556 Okay. 1129 00:57:20,791 --> 00:57:24,827 Is Christmas always going to be a little bit sad? 1130 00:57:30,368 --> 00:57:31,734 You know what? 1131 00:57:34,538 --> 00:57:37,139 I think Christmas sometimes feels sad 1132 00:57:37,174 --> 00:57:41,911 because we just want everything to stay the same, you know? 1133 00:57:44,348 --> 00:57:45,481 And it can't. 1134 00:57:47,018 --> 00:57:49,919 But I realized something this week. 1135 00:57:51,689 --> 00:57:54,490 You know all those traditions that gramma Vera 1136 00:57:54,525 --> 00:57:56,125 wrote in the journal? 1137 00:57:56,160 --> 00:58:00,095 Well, once upon a time, someone made them all up. 1138 00:58:03,200 --> 00:58:03,933 Really? 1139 00:58:04,001 --> 00:58:05,167 Yeah. 1140 00:58:05,202 --> 00:58:08,103 There were no ornaments, and now we hang them 1141 00:58:08,139 --> 00:58:10,572 every single year, and my great-grandmother 1142 00:58:10,608 --> 00:58:13,909 would make her lemon cake, and now I eat it every Christmas. 1143 00:58:14,345 --> 00:58:18,013 Or the Christmas that uncle Alex came down for the first time. 1144 00:58:18,049 --> 00:58:19,181 Yes! 1145 00:58:19,216 --> 00:58:21,450 So if we can just make space for the past 1146 00:58:21,485 --> 00:58:24,286 and also make some fun new memories 1147 00:58:26,490 --> 00:58:31,427 that make us so happy, Christmas doesn't have to be as sad. 1148 00:58:32,063 --> 00:58:33,662 Does that make sense? 1149 00:58:36,400 --> 00:58:37,400 Okay. 1150 00:58:38,402 --> 00:58:41,136 So what if you and I do something new? 1151 00:58:42,173 --> 00:58:43,439 Would that be fun? 1152 00:58:43,474 --> 00:58:44,506 Yeah. 1153 00:58:44,575 --> 00:58:46,075 Should we come up with a new cookie? 1154 00:58:46,110 --> 00:58:49,478 Should we paint an ornament, we could make a wreath, we could... 1155 00:58:49,513 --> 00:58:50,980 Oh yeah, we don't have a wreath! 1156 00:58:51,015 --> 00:58:52,114 Okay. 1157 00:58:52,149 --> 00:58:54,750 We're making a wreath, then. 1158 00:58:54,785 --> 00:58:56,719 Okay, you go get your coat, go get your gloves, 1159 00:58:56,754 --> 00:58:59,755 get your hat, and we're gonna get some awesome supplies, okay? 1160 00:58:59,824 --> 00:59:00,824 Okay. 1161 00:59:01,959 --> 00:59:03,359 I don't know how to make a wreath. 1162 00:59:05,563 --> 00:59:08,797 Okay, it's easy, actually, you just bend some branches 1163 00:59:08,866 --> 00:59:11,667 and get some snazzy ribbon. 1164 00:59:11,702 --> 00:59:14,103 I don't know how to get snazzy with ribbon. 1165 00:59:14,138 --> 00:59:17,773 Well, you know, a really wise person 1166 00:59:17,808 --> 00:59:21,744 once told me that you don't have to do it alone. 1167 00:59:23,014 --> 00:59:26,615 You've got Alex and you've got Nick, 1168 00:59:26,650 --> 00:59:29,752 and you've got Ethel, and you've got a whole town 1169 00:59:29,787 --> 00:59:32,855 of really nosy neighbors that will help. 1170 00:59:35,559 --> 00:59:36,725 And me. 1171 00:59:38,929 --> 00:59:39,929 You got me. 1172 00:59:41,732 --> 00:59:45,234 And I can get really snazzy with a ribbon. 1173 00:59:50,441 --> 00:59:53,742 Did you mean what you said about making Christmas new? 1174 00:59:53,778 --> 00:59:55,911 Not until I said it. 1175 00:59:55,980 --> 00:59:59,548 And when I said it, it hit me that it was true. 1176 00:59:59,617 --> 01:00:01,984 Okay, I'm ready. 1177 01:00:04,522 --> 01:00:06,121 - Let's go. - Yeah. 1178 01:00:07,258 --> 01:00:10,526 Did you know wreaths are a Christmas symbol 1179 01:00:10,561 --> 01:00:14,797 for eternity, because they have no beginning, and no end. 1180 01:00:14,865 --> 01:00:18,100 I will forever remember making wreathes with you 1181 01:00:18,169 --> 01:00:19,568 and your mother. 1182 01:00:19,637 --> 01:00:22,771 It was a nice reminder when I needed it most 1183 01:00:22,807 --> 01:00:27,609 that life may be brief, but some things are everlasting. 1184 01:00:27,678 --> 01:00:29,878 All right, let's see it, let's see it. 1185 01:00:29,914 --> 01:00:31,013 - Okay. - Yeah. 1186 01:00:31,048 --> 01:00:33,482 Hold it up. 1187 01:00:33,517 --> 01:00:34,950 - That is beautiful. - Oh my gosh. 1188 01:00:34,985 --> 01:00:36,752 It's beautiful. 1189 01:00:36,787 --> 01:00:37,586 What do you think? 1190 01:00:37,621 --> 01:00:38,353 I like it. 1191 01:00:38,389 --> 01:00:39,121 I like it too. 1192 01:00:39,190 --> 01:00:40,722 I like it a lot. 1193 01:00:40,758 --> 01:00:43,892 I think I'm going to go hang this on the front door. 1194 01:00:43,961 --> 01:00:45,694 - Perfect. - Good idea. 1195 01:00:49,867 --> 01:00:54,403 And thank you guys, because making a Christmas wreath 1196 01:00:54,472 --> 01:00:57,406 was on gramma Vera's list, and now I can cross that off. 1197 01:00:57,441 --> 01:00:58,507 See that? 1198 01:00:58,576 --> 01:00:59,576 You're welcome. 1199 01:01:01,579 --> 01:01:03,545 I think I should give you guys some time alone. 1200 01:01:03,581 --> 01:01:06,682 No, look, you don't, it's really fine. 1201 01:01:06,717 --> 01:01:10,219 No, besides, I have a Christmas movie marathon 1202 01:01:10,254 --> 01:01:12,087 to cross off my list. 1203 01:01:12,123 --> 01:01:14,423 Look, I mean, there must be some kinda rule in there 1204 01:01:14,492 --> 01:01:17,326 about not watching a Christmas movie alone, right? 1205 01:01:19,263 --> 01:01:22,231 I might've read that somewhere. 1206 01:01:22,266 --> 01:01:26,068 And hey, even if you didn't read it in there... 1207 01:01:32,476 --> 01:01:33,942 Stop shaking it. 1208 01:01:33,978 --> 01:01:35,244 Don't shake it, stop. 1209 01:01:41,118 --> 01:01:44,219 Thank you guys so much for indulging me. 1210 01:01:44,255 --> 01:01:46,889 Oh no, twist my arm, movie night. 1211 01:01:46,924 --> 01:01:48,590 Is it time to press play? 1212 01:01:48,659 --> 01:01:50,359 I call sitting by Sharon. 1213 01:01:50,394 --> 01:01:53,162 I call dibs on the armchair. 1214 01:01:54,665 --> 01:01:55,764 Get in here. 1215 01:01:55,799 --> 01:01:56,899 There you go. 1216 01:01:57,868 --> 01:01:58,868 - Yeah. - Okay. 1217 01:02:00,838 --> 01:02:02,437 Okay, we're ready. 1218 01:02:13,117 --> 01:02:14,117 It's from London. 1219 01:02:15,352 --> 01:02:17,486 Mr. Gower cabled you need cash, stop. 1220 01:02:17,555 --> 01:02:21,690 My office instructed to advance you up to $25,000, stop. 1221 01:02:21,725 --> 01:02:24,860 Heehaw and Merry Christmas, Sam Wainwright. 1222 01:02:38,242 --> 01:02:40,042 Will you just...? 1223 01:02:40,077 --> 01:02:41,109 Yeah. 1224 01:04:03,994 --> 01:04:05,227 Morning. 1225 01:04:05,262 --> 01:04:06,361 Good morning. 1226 01:04:07,564 --> 01:04:10,999 I was wondering if Mikayla wanted to 1227 01:04:11,068 --> 01:04:13,001 go ice skating tonight, you know? 1228 01:04:13,804 --> 01:04:15,237 Keep the streak alive. 1229 01:04:15,272 --> 01:04:17,592 She's actually at a sleepover at her friend Kara's house. 1230 01:04:17,975 --> 01:04:19,174 Well. 1231 01:04:19,209 --> 01:04:20,275 Worth a shot. 1232 01:04:23,013 --> 01:04:24,146 Have a good day. 1233 01:04:27,384 --> 01:04:28,483 I could go. 1234 01:04:30,788 --> 01:04:33,288 You know, you don't have to. 1235 01:04:34,458 --> 01:04:38,593 Maybe we could go out to dinner before, or... 1236 01:04:38,662 --> 01:04:39,761 Yeah? 1237 01:04:39,830 --> 01:04:41,330 Yeah. 1238 01:04:41,365 --> 01:04:44,299 I mean, hey, you have lots of crossing off to do, 1239 01:04:44,335 --> 01:04:45,801 and list takes priority, but hey, 1240 01:04:45,836 --> 01:04:47,369 ice skating alone sounds a little... 1241 01:04:47,404 --> 01:04:49,538 - Well, not as much fun. - No. 1242 01:04:49,573 --> 01:04:50,573 No. 1243 01:04:51,709 --> 01:04:52,741 Okay. 1244 01:04:52,810 --> 01:04:53,508 Yeah. 1245 01:04:53,544 --> 01:04:55,777 Dinner and ice skating. 1246 01:04:55,813 --> 01:04:57,279 - Dinner and ice skating. - Yeah. 1247 01:04:57,314 --> 01:05:00,382 - I'll see you tonight. - See you tonight. 1248 01:05:14,031 --> 01:05:17,999 There is nothing wrong with wanting to date him, by the way. 1249 01:05:18,035 --> 01:05:19,067 It's just... 1250 01:05:19,103 --> 01:05:20,447 I know, I know, it's not a good idea 1251 01:05:20,471 --> 01:05:24,239 to start something if I don't plan on staying. 1252 01:05:27,845 --> 01:05:32,447 Look, I now can't imagine not being here for that baby, 1253 01:05:35,886 --> 01:05:40,255 and I can't imagine not having Christmas in that house, 1254 01:05:40,290 --> 01:05:43,959 and I can't imagine not seeing Mikayla run across the yard, 1255 01:05:44,027 --> 01:05:45,027 or Sam. 1256 01:05:48,332 --> 01:05:49,332 Or Sam. 1257 01:05:52,403 --> 01:05:54,269 And I also can't imagine walking away 1258 01:05:54,304 --> 01:05:58,373 from everything that I have worked for for my entire life, 1259 01:05:58,409 --> 01:06:02,778 and by the way, the interview, it's in 48 hours now. 1260 01:06:07,451 --> 01:06:09,184 I don't wanna pick. 1261 01:06:09,987 --> 01:06:11,453 I don't wanna pick. 1262 01:06:13,157 --> 01:06:14,990 You've got a double whammy right now. 1263 01:06:15,058 --> 01:06:17,025 You are confronting the death of gramma Vera, 1264 01:06:17,060 --> 01:06:20,162 probably after outrunning it all year, 1265 01:06:20,197 --> 01:06:22,664 if I know you at all, and I do. 1266 01:06:23,667 --> 01:06:25,233 Plus it's Christmas. 1267 01:06:26,837 --> 01:06:29,438 A whole season of new beginnings in the midst 1268 01:06:29,506 --> 01:06:32,073 of unlikely circumstances. 1269 01:06:32,142 --> 01:06:35,777 Death and birth and miracles, those are all 1270 01:06:35,813 --> 01:06:38,447 terrible times to make permanent decisions. 1271 01:06:38,482 --> 01:06:39,781 Yeah, well you know what? 1272 01:06:39,850 --> 01:06:41,361 Gramma Vera didn't exactly leave me a lot of time. 1273 01:06:41,385 --> 01:06:43,718 Gramma Vera, she was a wonderful grandmother, 1274 01:06:43,754 --> 01:06:46,822 and I loved her, but that was a bad deal, 1275 01:06:46,857 --> 01:06:49,424 and I think you should ignore it. 1276 01:06:50,727 --> 01:06:52,561 Keep the house for now. 1277 01:06:52,596 --> 01:06:54,162 Sell it later. 1278 01:06:54,198 --> 01:06:59,100 Take a sabbatical from work and write or paint, or whatever. 1279 01:07:00,304 --> 01:07:02,704 Ask them to delay the interview for the award. 1280 01:07:02,739 --> 01:07:04,539 I don't think it works that way. 1281 01:07:04,575 --> 01:07:06,186 Just because that's not the way it works 1282 01:07:06,210 --> 01:07:11,112 doesn't mean it shouldn't work better than the way it works. 1283 01:07:12,416 --> 01:07:15,317 You know what, you were on a real roll until then. 1284 01:07:16,687 --> 01:07:18,198 I just can't believe that a smart woman like you 1285 01:07:18,222 --> 01:07:21,823 can't buy herself some more time, and some better options. 1286 01:07:25,696 --> 01:07:26,696 Thank you. 1287 01:07:29,833 --> 01:07:30,833 Thank you. 1288 01:07:38,375 --> 01:07:40,709 - Here we are. - Here we are. 1289 01:07:44,982 --> 01:07:47,115 So any luck with the ornament? 1290 01:07:47,184 --> 01:07:48,184 No. 1291 01:07:51,154 --> 01:07:53,788 And I think that's okay. 1292 01:07:53,824 --> 01:07:57,759 Yeah, I think that I am just gonna take a break, 1293 01:07:57,794 --> 01:08:02,130 and focus on the good things that I have left 1294 01:08:02,165 --> 01:08:03,798 right in front of me. 1295 01:08:06,503 --> 01:08:09,437 Now it's my turn to cross-examine you. 1296 01:08:10,407 --> 01:08:12,541 - My goodness. - Yeah. 1297 01:08:12,576 --> 01:08:16,611 Do you bring a lot of dates to Chez Noel, Samuel? 1298 01:08:16,647 --> 01:08:17,979 Objection, leading the witness. 1299 01:08:18,015 --> 01:08:19,381 Overruled. 1300 01:08:19,416 --> 01:08:22,417 I have frequented Chez Noel many times, but no. 1301 01:08:22,486 --> 01:08:25,654 I can't say that I've brought many dates here. 1302 01:08:25,689 --> 01:08:27,789 That would require dating. 1303 01:08:31,094 --> 01:08:33,862 Is that because you didn't want to, 1304 01:08:33,897 --> 01:08:36,865 or because the options were limited? 1305 01:08:41,939 --> 01:08:44,573 At first, I didn't want to. 1306 01:08:44,608 --> 01:08:47,542 In the beginning, I was just really trying 1307 01:08:47,611 --> 01:08:48,877 to take it one step at a time. 1308 01:08:48,946 --> 01:08:51,746 But then when I was finally open to it, 1309 01:08:51,782 --> 01:08:54,416 I remembered that I live in a very small town. 1310 01:08:55,752 --> 01:08:57,719 So this not only limits your options... 1311 01:08:57,754 --> 01:09:00,055 it insures that everyone knows how that date went 1312 01:09:00,090 --> 01:09:02,157 by the time they buy their coffee the next morning? 1313 01:09:02,192 --> 01:09:03,192 Yes. 1314 01:09:03,961 --> 01:09:04,926 Yeah. 1315 01:09:04,962 --> 01:09:06,695 Trust me, I know. 1316 01:09:06,730 --> 01:09:09,998 Try dating as a teenager in Pine Springs. 1317 01:09:10,033 --> 01:09:12,100 Yeah, yeah, you get it. 1318 01:09:12,135 --> 01:09:13,135 I do. 1319 01:09:15,639 --> 01:09:18,440 But yes, I do want to be dating. 1320 01:09:27,384 --> 01:09:29,484 So wait, ice skating is a Harper family 1321 01:09:29,519 --> 01:09:30,852 Christmas favorite. 1322 01:09:30,887 --> 01:09:32,287 - Only every Christmas. - Favorite? 1323 01:09:32,322 --> 01:09:35,757 And every Friday in middle school, 1324 01:09:35,792 --> 01:09:38,259 because what else was there to do? 1325 01:09:38,295 --> 01:09:40,095 Oh man, I forgot Mikayla's gonna be 1326 01:09:40,163 --> 01:09:42,197 in middle school next year. 1327 01:09:42,232 --> 01:09:43,798 Middle school. 1328 01:09:43,834 --> 01:09:45,645 I don't know anything about middle school girls. 1329 01:09:45,669 --> 01:09:48,303 Well, tell her she can always call me. 1330 01:09:48,372 --> 01:09:51,206 I feel like I'm going to blink 1331 01:09:51,241 --> 01:09:52,874 and she's gonna be in college. 1332 01:09:52,909 --> 01:09:54,309 Oh man. 1333 01:09:54,344 --> 01:09:56,311 - It's just like... - What's the plan after that? 1334 01:09:56,346 --> 01:09:59,214 I have no idea what I'm gonna do with myself. 1335 01:09:59,249 --> 01:10:01,583 Anything you want. 1336 01:10:01,618 --> 01:10:03,818 The world is your oyster. 1337 01:10:03,854 --> 01:10:08,089 Wait, so ice skating was which ornament? 1338 01:10:08,125 --> 01:10:10,592 10 lords a-leaping, of course. 1339 01:10:11,928 --> 01:10:13,261 That was really good, by the way. 1340 01:10:13,296 --> 01:10:17,632 Come on. Come on. 1341 01:10:18,702 --> 01:10:19,534 - Now you have to do it. - What? 1342 01:10:19,603 --> 01:10:20,835 - Yeah, leap! - That, no. 1343 01:10:20,904 --> 01:10:23,405 - Yes. - No thank you. 1344 01:10:23,440 --> 01:10:25,507 Are you all right? 1345 01:10:27,811 --> 01:10:29,344 I'm so sorry, you okay? 1346 01:10:29,379 --> 01:10:31,079 No, I'm fine. 1347 01:10:31,114 --> 01:10:32,881 I'm so sorry I pulled you down. 1348 01:10:32,916 --> 01:10:37,719 No, I tried to catch you, and then I lost my balance. 1349 01:10:37,754 --> 01:10:39,654 Mikayla is so excited that you're coming 1350 01:10:39,690 --> 01:10:41,256 to the Christmas pageant, by the way. 1351 01:10:41,291 --> 01:10:43,825 I got a glimpse of the angel costume she's gonna wear, 1352 01:10:43,894 --> 01:10:45,126 it is, what? 1353 01:10:49,900 --> 01:10:52,934 I got an email and they changed the interview, 1354 01:10:52,969 --> 01:10:57,872 and I actually, I gotta fly to New York in the morning. 1355 01:10:58,742 --> 01:11:01,042 - I am so sorry. - Okay, hey. 1356 01:11:01,078 --> 01:11:02,078 No, it's okay. 1357 01:11:02,112 --> 01:11:04,079 Mikayla will understand. 1358 01:11:06,817 --> 01:11:08,283 What about you? 1359 01:11:10,220 --> 01:11:11,220 Yes. 1360 01:11:13,690 --> 01:11:16,725 It's just hit me, this week is gonna end 1361 01:11:16,760 --> 01:11:18,326 and it's probably not gonna end with you 1362 01:11:18,361 --> 01:11:20,829 packing up and moving to palm Springs. 1363 01:11:20,864 --> 01:11:23,364 - I don't know that. - Yeah. 1364 01:11:23,400 --> 01:11:25,600 I don't, I mean, the fact that I'm here right now 1365 01:11:25,635 --> 01:11:28,269 and not frantically pacing and preparing for this interview 1366 01:11:28,305 --> 01:11:32,407 speaks volumes about how I've changed my mind 1367 01:11:32,442 --> 01:11:34,142 about Pine Springs. 1368 01:11:37,347 --> 01:11:42,283 Being here, it just, it showed me how much I was missing, 1369 01:11:43,720 --> 01:11:47,655 home and community and a connection to my past, and... 1370 01:11:50,627 --> 01:11:55,263 Future possibilities that I have never even considered. 1371 01:12:03,956 --> 01:12:07,075 I want you to know how hard it is to not kiss you right now. 1372 01:12:10,147 --> 01:12:11,813 I'm sorry, I can't. 1373 01:12:12,983 --> 01:12:15,450 Look. 1374 01:12:16,753 --> 01:12:18,686 I wish I could be the guy that just kisses you 1375 01:12:18,722 --> 01:12:19,988 and doesn't care what it means, 1376 01:12:20,023 --> 01:12:23,458 but if I'm being honest with you, 1377 01:12:23,493 --> 01:12:24,759 this is new to me. 1378 01:12:26,797 --> 01:12:28,696 Feeling this way again. 1379 01:12:32,035 --> 01:12:35,637 The part of me that just needs the world to make sense 1380 01:12:35,672 --> 01:12:38,673 needs to know that when I kiss you, 1381 01:12:38,708 --> 01:12:42,477 you're not gonna have one foot out the door. 1382 01:12:44,047 --> 01:12:47,448 Sam, I wish that I had a definitive answer 1383 01:12:47,484 --> 01:12:49,083 to be able to give you, I just... 1384 01:12:49,119 --> 01:12:51,519 No, I really, really need you to not answer right now, 1385 01:12:51,555 --> 01:12:54,055 a giant pit of guilt would just open up and eat me, 1386 01:12:54,124 --> 01:12:55,290 and swallow me whole. 1387 01:12:55,325 --> 01:12:56,958 I couldn't live with myself if I felt 1388 01:12:56,993 --> 01:12:59,928 like you decided not to stay and then 1389 01:12:59,963 --> 01:13:04,365 me kissing you just somehow may have made a difference. 1390 01:13:17,948 --> 01:13:18,980 I'm sorry. 1391 01:13:46,976 --> 01:13:48,609 Why didn't you kiss him? 1392 01:13:48,644 --> 01:13:51,178 Because he made it very clear 1393 01:13:51,214 --> 01:13:54,515 that he did not want to be kissed. 1394 01:13:54,550 --> 01:13:55,816 No. 1395 01:13:55,852 --> 01:13:57,596 He wanted to kiss you, he just needed you to say 1396 01:13:57,620 --> 01:13:59,487 that you were staying first. 1397 01:13:59,555 --> 01:14:03,124 Lucy, you were the one that told me not to kiss him. 1398 01:14:03,159 --> 01:14:05,459 Don't listen to me, what do I know? 1399 01:14:05,495 --> 01:14:08,529 Well, this has been supremely helpful. 1400 01:14:08,598 --> 01:14:09,463 I gotta go. 1401 01:14:09,499 --> 01:14:10,998 What's your plan here, Share? 1402 01:14:11,067 --> 01:14:14,402 To have absolutely no plan, that's what I've got. 1403 01:14:14,437 --> 01:14:16,637 All right, I gotta go, I'll call you after, okay? 1404 01:14:16,672 --> 01:14:17,972 Bye. 1405 01:14:19,609 --> 01:14:21,275 We will be well on our way to creating 1406 01:14:21,310 --> 01:14:24,412 a culture that knows how to heal trauma. 1407 01:14:24,447 --> 01:14:28,149 That knows how get down on the ground with the wounded 1408 01:14:28,184 --> 01:14:31,752 and say, "I know that this hurts. 1409 01:14:31,788 --> 01:14:35,923 "But you are not broken, and you cannot stay here. 1410 01:14:37,360 --> 01:14:39,894 "Because anything bad that happens to you 1411 01:14:39,962 --> 01:14:42,129 "happens to us too." 1412 01:14:43,833 --> 01:14:45,800 15,000,000 views and counting. 1413 01:14:45,868 --> 01:14:47,868 Countless media appearances. 1414 01:14:47,904 --> 01:14:49,837 You've jump-started a major conversation 1415 01:14:49,872 --> 01:14:53,007 about a topic that most people would prefer to avoid. 1416 01:14:53,042 --> 01:14:54,508 That's inspiring. 1417 01:14:55,711 --> 01:14:58,446 We were particularly struck by how your talk 1418 01:14:58,514 --> 01:15:02,183 made the scientific, creative, and personal. 1419 01:15:02,218 --> 01:15:05,786 Can you speak to how this Grant and Fellowship 1420 01:15:05,822 --> 01:15:08,689 would personally change your life? 1421 01:15:08,724 --> 01:15:12,993 Earlier this year I lost my grandmother. 1422 01:15:13,029 --> 01:15:16,964 The woman who raised me and inspired me 1423 01:15:16,999 --> 01:15:18,933 to go into this field. 1424 01:15:18,968 --> 01:15:21,936 A week ago, I went home to celebrate Christmas 1425 01:15:22,004 --> 01:15:24,905 and get her affairs in order. 1426 01:15:24,941 --> 01:15:29,376 Even though I'm supposed to be an expert in this field, 1427 01:15:31,180 --> 01:15:33,347 even though I was prepared for how 1428 01:15:33,382 --> 01:15:36,183 my brain and body might respond, 1429 01:15:40,389 --> 01:15:44,992 I discovered that this experience brought me to my knees. 1430 01:15:48,097 --> 01:15:50,898 And it made me think more deeply 1431 01:15:51,834 --> 01:15:54,835 about the gap between what we know 1432 01:15:56,005 --> 01:15:59,139 and how we actually experience things. 1433 01:16:07,149 --> 01:16:09,884 I love you, dude, but you have like zero chill. 1434 01:16:09,952 --> 01:16:12,419 I mean, what did you think she was gonna say? 1435 01:16:12,455 --> 01:16:13,621 I don't know. 1436 01:16:13,656 --> 01:16:15,589 I thought I was stating the obvious. 1437 01:16:15,625 --> 01:16:17,424 Right, because your life screams 1438 01:16:17,493 --> 01:16:19,994 "I am open to dating right now." 1439 01:16:20,029 --> 01:16:21,462 - Now come on... - What? 1440 01:16:21,497 --> 01:16:23,330 You're living with your younger brother, 1441 01:16:23,366 --> 01:16:25,499 who is helping you raise your 10-year-old daughter. 1442 01:16:25,568 --> 01:16:26,467 Okay, but... 1443 01:16:26,536 --> 01:16:28,602 And you know I loved Jennie. 1444 01:16:28,671 --> 01:16:31,405 - Right. - Okay, all I'm saying is, 1445 01:16:32,642 --> 01:16:36,577 if you really are ready for your life to change, 1446 01:16:37,747 --> 01:16:40,881 you have to make space for something new. 1447 01:16:53,329 --> 01:16:54,995 How did it go? 1448 01:16:55,031 --> 01:16:56,497 I got it. 1449 01:16:58,267 --> 01:17:00,868 I can't believe that I got it. 1450 01:17:02,204 --> 01:17:05,406 Okay, this is a teddy I got for your mom in college. 1451 01:17:05,474 --> 01:17:07,541 I gave that to her on our first official date. 1452 01:17:07,577 --> 01:17:08,776 Hey. 1453 01:17:08,811 --> 01:17:10,611 What are you doing? 1454 01:17:10,646 --> 01:17:11,745 Making space. 1455 01:17:13,182 --> 01:17:17,318 These are the last of Jennie's boxes from the basement. 1456 01:17:19,622 --> 01:17:20,588 And they liked that? 1457 01:17:20,623 --> 01:17:22,256 They loved that I was thinking big, 1458 01:17:22,291 --> 01:17:26,360 and they got really excited about some of my ideas. 1459 01:17:26,395 --> 01:17:28,329 Even if you don't know how to make them happen? 1460 01:17:28,364 --> 01:17:29,808 Well, if I knew how to make them happen, 1461 01:17:29,832 --> 01:17:31,298 then that would mean that someone 1462 01:17:31,334 --> 01:17:32,800 had already done them, right? 1463 01:17:32,868 --> 01:17:35,369 Okay, so all of this can go to Gloria for sale? 1464 01:17:35,404 --> 01:17:38,072 - Yeah, I love that idea. - Okay. 1465 01:17:38,140 --> 01:17:41,508 And then, this should go to Nick and Ethel. 1466 01:17:44,714 --> 01:17:45,913 Okay. 1467 01:17:45,948 --> 01:17:48,749 - By the door, Nick and Ethel. - Got it. 1468 01:17:50,486 --> 01:17:51,652 What's that? 1469 01:17:54,056 --> 01:17:57,057 This, I don't know what this is. 1470 01:17:58,427 --> 01:18:00,060 Maybe this decision will take me 1471 01:18:00,129 --> 01:18:02,463 off of the track that I had planned. 1472 01:18:02,498 --> 01:18:07,434 It is going to be super scary, for sure, but new always is. 1473 01:18:08,671 --> 01:18:09,681 But it could also be bigger than anything 1474 01:18:09,705 --> 01:18:11,805 that I have ever planned. 1475 01:18:13,109 --> 01:18:16,744 It's messy, very messy, and I definitely have 1476 01:18:18,447 --> 01:18:22,383 more questions than I have answers right now, for sure, 1477 01:18:22,418 --> 01:18:26,687 but I just have a feeling that I will know the answers 1478 01:18:26,756 --> 01:18:28,489 - when I see them. - Dad. 1479 01:18:36,265 --> 01:18:38,298 "Dear Jennie, I can't tell you how delighted I am 1480 01:18:38,334 --> 01:18:40,512 "that you've agreed to make us a partridge in a pear tree 1481 01:18:40,536 --> 01:18:42,236 "to complete our family set. 1482 01:18:42,271 --> 01:18:44,638 "I so love your work, and I'm sure 1483 01:18:44,674 --> 01:18:46,340 "if anyone can do it, it's you. 1484 01:18:46,375 --> 01:18:48,242 "Please use this ornament as a model 1485 01:18:48,277 --> 01:18:52,046 "and return it when you're finished. 1486 01:18:52,081 --> 01:18:54,214 "Take all the time you need. 1487 01:18:54,250 --> 01:18:55,816 "Love, gramma Vera." 1488 01:19:10,199 --> 01:19:11,839 Look, little lady, I just don't want you 1489 01:19:11,901 --> 01:19:13,100 to get your hopes up. 1490 01:19:13,135 --> 01:19:14,601 You don't understand. 1491 01:19:14,637 --> 01:19:15,836 She pinky promised. 1492 01:19:15,871 --> 01:19:17,504 I know, but hey, things happen, 1493 01:19:17,540 --> 01:19:21,642 and Sharon's got a lot on her plate right now. 1494 01:19:21,677 --> 01:19:24,611 Dad, if you break a pinky promise, 1495 01:19:26,415 --> 01:19:29,750 I don't wanna get into it, but it's messy. 1496 01:19:30,786 --> 01:19:33,620 She's going to be there. 1497 01:19:33,656 --> 01:19:34,656 Okay. 1498 01:19:34,724 --> 01:19:36,204 All right, we gotta go, hon, let's go. 1499 01:19:37,426 --> 01:19:39,526 Do I have my, yeah. 1500 01:19:43,265 --> 01:19:45,599 Long, long ago, under the biggest star 1501 01:19:45,634 --> 01:19:50,237 the sky has ever seen, an angel sent a message of hope. 1502 01:20:02,017 --> 01:20:04,017 Any word from Sharon? 1503 01:20:04,053 --> 01:20:05,053 No. 1504 01:20:48,230 --> 01:20:49,863 You were magnificent! 1505 01:20:52,601 --> 01:20:55,569 I'm really glad you came back. 1506 01:21:03,746 --> 01:21:05,445 I'm gonna go talk to your dad, okay? 1507 01:21:05,481 --> 01:21:07,047 Okay. 1508 01:21:07,082 --> 01:21:09,483 Okay, I'll see you in a few. 1509 01:21:09,518 --> 01:21:10,784 You did so good. 1510 01:21:14,824 --> 01:21:16,290 Hey. 1511 01:21:16,325 --> 01:21:17,057 So how did it go? 1512 01:21:17,092 --> 01:21:18,358 Did you get the... 1513 01:21:18,394 --> 01:21:21,028 Okay, now it's my turn to ramble, okay? 1514 01:21:21,063 --> 01:21:23,363 Since gramma Vera passed away, 1515 01:21:24,600 --> 01:21:27,434 I have been running as fast as I can, 1516 01:21:28,637 --> 01:21:33,707 just chasing goals to a place where she would be proud of me. 1517 01:21:33,776 --> 01:21:36,510 I decided to take a leap of faith. 1518 01:21:38,414 --> 01:21:41,715 Believing her when she said that I could 1519 01:21:41,750 --> 01:21:43,851 never disappoint her. 1520 01:21:43,886 --> 01:21:44,963 I think that's a great... 1521 01:21:44,987 --> 01:21:46,687 I'm not finished. 1522 01:21:47,923 --> 01:21:51,258 I'm gonna break gramma Vera's challenge. 1523 01:21:52,862 --> 01:21:56,396 I'm not gonna make a decision on the house yet. 1524 01:21:56,465 --> 01:21:58,932 I'm gonna hang on to the house for a year. 1525 01:21:58,968 --> 01:22:00,334 A year? 1526 01:22:01,904 --> 01:22:03,704 What are you gonna do? 1527 01:22:03,739 --> 01:22:06,740 I'm gonna write a book. 1528 01:22:06,809 --> 01:22:09,109 I am going to collect people's stories 1529 01:22:09,144 --> 01:22:11,578 and use story to shift how we view 1530 01:22:11,614 --> 01:22:14,581 the brain in the face of loss. 1531 01:22:14,617 --> 01:22:19,553 And who knows, maybe I'll open a grief center, I don't know. 1532 01:22:20,656 --> 01:22:21,967 Okay, so I'm guessing you got the Grant. 1533 01:22:21,991 --> 01:22:22,991 I did. 1534 01:22:23,926 --> 01:22:26,360 Okay, so a year, and then... 1535 01:22:26,395 --> 01:22:30,197 I know you told me that you didn't wanna kiss me 1536 01:22:30,232 --> 01:22:35,135 with one foot out the door, and maybe the promise of a year 1537 01:22:35,971 --> 01:22:38,005 isn't enough for you, but man, 1538 01:22:40,843 --> 01:22:45,712 I would really love to kiss you on the promise of tomorrow. 1539 01:22:46,615 --> 01:22:49,116 And I don't have a sign, a big neon sign 1540 01:22:49,151 --> 01:22:51,018 to prove to you that... 1541 01:23:02,564 --> 01:23:04,298 There might be signs. 1542 01:23:04,333 --> 01:23:08,702 They might not be neon, but sometimes there's signs. 1543 01:23:14,176 --> 01:23:15,842 Where did you? 1544 01:23:15,878 --> 01:23:18,178 It's the craziest story. 1545 01:23:48,677 --> 01:23:52,045 Isn't it amazing how seven generations ago, 1546 01:23:52,081 --> 01:23:55,615 two people fell in love one day at a time, 1547 01:23:55,984 --> 01:23:57,750 and now here we all are. 1548 01:23:59,751 --> 01:24:05,750 RIP-FIXES-SYNC by VaVooM 1548 01:24:06,305 --> 01:24:12,776 -= www.OpenSubtitles.org =- 112208

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