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Fukami Aki. Do you know who she is?

I'm Fukami Aki's elder brother.

Maki, I'm coming in.

What are you doing?

- You're alone? - Yeah.

When I took Yuri back home with me,

why didn't you tell me about it? That Misaki Fumiya was...

He's Amamiya Kenji.

He killed a seven-year-old girl

He paid for his crime. He's working earnestly, isn't he?

- Even you yourself grew to like Kenji... - Don't make a fool of me.

I'm a mother, you know? More importantly than anything, I'm Yuri's mother.

Yeah.

I'm scared. I'm really scared.

I know.

Kohei.

Oh, here you go.

You bought so much.

Where's Nii-chan?

- He's bringing a visitor when he comes back. - What? Who?

A nurse... who used to work at the juvenile reformatory institution in Tokyo.

Erm, you mean...

Azuma-san.

I wonder if Futaba is eating properly.

Yeah.

Onee-chan sent me a text message.

She said she would be coming home soon.

What I can tell you is not something...

...that can save you from your distress.

What I'm going to say might even make it unnecessarily more painful for you.

If you are fine with that...

Please do tell us.

Nine years ago, around the time I started working at the juvenile reformatory school in Tokyo,

Misaki Fumiya-san was already there and due to be discharged in a year.

At that time, his treatment was almost completed.

What do you mean by "completed"?

It means he has repented for his crime,

and he could go back to normal life and get along in society.

Misaki Fumiya had been rehabilitated. Everyone believed that.

Except for one person.

Who is that?

He himself.

For the guys' building, the second floor is for those who have health problems.

[Year 2002, Early Summer]

The third floor is for people with psychological issues.

The fourth floor is for people who stay for a long time here, or so-called "special kids."

Special kids?

They are separated into groups like these to do exercises and study together.

We put kids with the same characteristics in the same group and conduct treatment on them.

- Sorry, Kawatou-san. - Ah, yes.

What are you drawing?

Mi- Mikazuki Lake.

Never heard of it.

Why are you drawing a lake?

- I don't know. - I see.

He's from the fourth floor.

He's called Yamanaka-kun here, but it's not his real name.

Do you know of the murder of a primary school girl at Mikazuki lake?

Mikazuki Lake. He's the offender?

But don't worry. He's cured already.

Ken-chan. Ken-chan. Ken-chan.

Yuri, what are you doing? Come here.

- Badminton. - Forget about it.

1 - 2 - 3.

4 - 5...

You can't tell right?

That someone with his face can bludgeon a seven-year-old girl to death at the lake.

According to the doctor's diagnosis, he had severe trauma caused by...

...his father's neglect of the family and the sudden death of his strict mother in a traffic accident.

In the end, he's the only one who knows the best...

...why he committed murder.

Say, is that rumor about you true?

That you used to spend 3 million yen to support a man from the previous hospital.

Not 3 million, but 30 million yen.

Quickly put it away.

Don't worry. I'm your fan.

I'm interested in you. Are you really cured?

Aren't you just pretending to be cured?

Don't leave the line.

Just tell me if you need anything else.

Squirrel brush.

Squirrel brush?

There is raccoon brush too.

Shall I buy it for you next time?

This is to thank me for the brush?

- Then, please help me take his blood pressure. - Yes.

Shachou, you have a call.

- Who's that? - No idea.

Hello?

Um, there's something I would like to inquire.

Actually I'm searching for someone...

Is there any 28-year-old man among the employees working there? Yes.

Huh? Hey, this is mine?

Hm? Those are Futaba's. Akari's pair is this one.

You can really tell, huh?

It's not your fault that Onee-chan left home.

Onee-chan is 25 years old already anyway.

- I'm going out for a while. - Where are you going?

A fruit orchard in Chiba.

- You found where Onii-chan is? - No, not yet.

If you manage to find him?

You're Fumiya's father, so you can tell when you meet him, right?

You can tell what kind of human being he is now, can't you?

Well, I'm going.

Let's have faith in Otou-san.

"Even so, we'll be living on"

Episode 7: On the darkness of his heart

Translation and fine timing by yuizaki_libra@livejournal

33 - 34...

There are rumors going around among the kids.

They say you and Yamanaka-kun are seeing each other.

If that sort of story leaks out,

your whole life will turn into a mess.

Are you listening to me?

- You're gonna be discharged soon, huh? - Yes.

- Are you happy? - Yes.

You're happy because you will be free?

I'm happy because I'm cured.

Are you cured?

Yes. The doctor told me I'm cured.

I see. Then why are you happy because you're cured?

Because killing people is not a good thing.

When you're no longer here...

I have a favor to ask you.

Rubens?

I'm not knowledgeable about him though.

Um, it's just because the last chapter of "A Dog of Flanders" mentioned him.

You're the same as Nello huh? You like this drawing?

Aki-chan told me.

Aki-chan? You mean Fukami Aki-chan?

She said that it would have been better if she hadn't been born.

I see. And you thought she was saying that about herself?

That's why, you killed her...?

What are you doing, Azuma-san? Open the door.

You're inside, right Azuma-san? What are you doing? Open the door.

It's all right.

I'll give you this as a present next time.

I was told not to get close to you any more.

Yes.

You're discharged tomorrow, right? If any problem arises...

Did you show this to anyone?

You mustn't show this to anyone. Or else you won't be able to go out any more.

This is... Fukami Aki-chan, right?

A goldfish. A pitiful goldfish.

Written decision to release on parole. Misaki Fumiya.

Congratulations.

Take it.

Congratulations, Misaki-kun. Take it.

Thank you very much.

- Do your best. - Yes.

Right now everyone is crazy about ramen, you know?

You didn't have ramen to eat inside there, right?

- It was delicious, right? - Yes.

From now on, work hard and live straightforwardly.

That's how you can repent for the sake of the victim.

Yes.

Shall we get going? Thanks for the food.

Thank you very much.

[Amamiya Kenji] [Mitaka, Tokyo]

Here you go.

Nothing. I'm just a little startled.

You know,

seeing you work so earnestly makes me happy.

You have changed, and meeting you has changed me too.

That just startles me somewhat.

Am I cured?

Yes, you are.

Did it disappear? Did the image of my murderous self disappear?

It disappeared. You're not a special kid anymore.

You no longer kill anyone.

Welcome back.

Are you hungry?

That's right. Here is...

What's the matter?

- Beer. - You want to drink it?

That's rare. Then I'll buy some later.

Okay. I'll go buy some now.

I'll be back.

That plastic bag was purposely placed there by him.

I was hit severely on the stomach, and got a miscarriage.

He was just his same old self from the time he was 14 years old.

The day I was discharged from the hospital, I found his diary.

There were some sporadic illustrations drawn inside.

The human being in each of them...

...everyone was a goldfish with a red tail.

To him, human beings are...

...all pitiful goldfishes inside a fish tank.

He always had the impulse to scoop them out...

...with his palms and destroyed them.

June 28. I started working at the factory.

I was in charge of drilling.

It's a little different from what I was taught in the training school,

but I think I'll get better at it from now on.

When I returned to the apartment, I ate the gyoza Yukie made.

Yukie laughed a lot. I tried to divert my mind to other things.

July 19. We ate fried prawns at a restaurant.

When Yukie went to the washroom,

there was a primary school girl who came in and sat at the next table.

I let go of the fork I was holding and put it down.

I waited for Yukie to return.

I was able to restrain myself.

He had the impulse to kill that girl...

...he saw at the restaurant.

There was a period during which he would come home a bit late.

He saw a lady on the train and followed her until her apartment.

September 5. I went to yesterday's apartment.

I thought of confirming the color of the curtains one more time.

I couldn't see clearly, so I wanted to open the door,

but I didn't.

I went to the rooftop. I could see the streets clearly.

I peered into the water well inside my head.

There wasn't any water.

I was thirsty. I wanted to pour water in.

I was really troubled. I wanted to die.

October 1. I had a dream.

I was striking Yukie's head with a hammer again and again.

Yukie couldn't hit back, and she continued making gyoza.

When I woke up, Yukie was done preparing breakfast and I ate it.

I didn't taste a thing.

I think I'll do it again some day.

I think I'll do it again some day.

She shouldn't have been born.

November 9. I feel really good.

The sky is blue. The grass is shining green.

Yukie is smiling. The well is filled with water.

November 9. Humans are sad.

They don't know why they were born, still they were born.

They don't know how to go on living, still they go on living.

Just like that, without knowing anything.

And without knowing anything, they will die.

November 9. I'm murderous.

My murderous self probably killed my own child.

I just watched.

I just watched my murderous self kill my own child.

Even so, I'll go on living.

Seeing his diary, I realized.

To him, I am neither a woman, nor am I a mother.

I am not even a person to him.

At that time, I was just a fish tank.

I was a fish tank who contained a pitiful goldfish and would break when falling.

That day, before he came back from work,

I left the apartment. I ran away.

I haven't seen him since then.

I... couldn't save him.

Thank you very much.

You still want to see him?

Yes.

Before I asked a person who was his probation officer about him.

He is now working at a fruit orchard in Chiba.

I'm going to refill the tea cup.

Shachou. Um, I want to talk about my wage.

Let's talk after I return.

Yeah. Can you put us up for sometime? My daughter and I.

No, it's not like anything happened to me though.

Thanks...

Yuri? Eh? What?

Where's Yuri?

Where's Yuri?

Where did you hide her?

What the heck are you?

Where is Yuri?

You're Misaki-san?

Yuri! Yuri!

Sorry, sorry. Next time, you have to lean to one side.

That's right, that's right. Then you have to see the shuttlecock clearly and hit it. OK?

- Ah! Are you alright? - Yeah.

Ah, that hurts huh? What to do? Shall we go back? Yeah?

I'm fine. Let's continue.

Wow, so brave. Then I'll go get the shuttlecock.

Yeah!

There it is.

Whoa! You startled me.

What is it? And what are you holding?

It's dangerous. Let go of that.

Saho-chan, you're not done?

Yuri-chan. Go back to your mom.

- What? - Just go. Hurry up!

- I don't want to! - Hurry up!

You can't!

You must be thinking why I only come after all this time.

Well, it doesn't matter what I think.

I'll just tell you this first. I'm not trying to talk big or anything,

...but Kenji... I mean, your son...

...might not want to see you.

Yes.

He's never talked about you or his family.

Even so, if you still insist on seeing him,

if that's the case, this time... This time, you really mustn't abandon him anymore.

If you can't do that, it's better for you to just go back without seeing him.

Please let me see him.

Ken-chan substituted for Saho-chan!

Thank you very much.

I know I shouldn't say this...

...but please put him out of his misery.

- What did you two say to each other? - Nothing in particular.

If you're going home, you should leave now.

I'm also Aki's brother after all. Plus if there's no one to stop you,

if you become a murderer, I'll be in a fix.

Oh yeah?

Who's that?

Futaba-chan.

Come on in.

Hey, come in.

It hurts.

It hurts. It hurts. It hurts.

- Yuri-chan. - It hurts...

It hurts, Ken-chan.

Then...

...shall we go back to your mother?

Yeah.

Um, where's Hiroki-san?

- He went to a fruit orchard in Chiba. - Erm...

Perhaps your brother is there.

I'm sorry.

My brother hasn't repented.

I ascertained that after meeting him.

My brother... That person...

...hasn't shown a bit of remorse for taking away Aki-chan's life.

I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry.

I'm truly sorry.

- Mama! - Yuri!

Where did you go? What happened to you?

- I fell. - What on earth did you play?

- Yuri? - Hm?

Mama, it hurts.

Yuri. Why were you with that person...?

That person?

What did you do to Yuri?

What did you do to her?

You act as if nothing happened.

How can a person who has murdered a child be so calm?

Why are you even alive? Huh?

The child you killed had a mother too.

A mother who had treasured and taken good care of her.

Even you had a mother, didn't you?

Can't you understand?

How can you be so calm when you've robbed her of that?

It would have been better if a person like you weren't born.

You shouldn't have been born.

I was a fool.

Even though... even though that sort of thing could definitely never become true.

I just fooled myself into thinking that maybe, by any chance,

that could come true.

What do you mean?

I had hoped that my brother would come home,

...that our family would laugh together.

And some day...

...the day will come...

...when I can laugh from my heart with Hiroki-san.

Though there's definitely no way that will happen.

No way it will be permitted. I'm sorry.

Hey.

It's fine.

It's fine to wish for happiness.

Even you, even Hiroki.

It's not absolute that you two won't become happy.

In order to become... In order to become happy, you and Hiroki have to think for yourself.

Hiroki-san and I...

Both of you have to think of the other's happiness.

Hiroki... has to think of your happiness.

You, Hiroki's happiness.

Um, I...

Yeah? What?

I would like to buy shoes and socks for Hiroki-san.

Eh?

Hiroki-san's always walking on his heels.

Also, all the socks he wears have weird colors for some reason.

Ah... And... I would like to cook for him too.

What is Hiroki-san's favorite dish?

Hiroki?

Frozen oranges, I think.

It's no use cooking for him, right?

Thank you.

For thinking for Hiroki like that.

Then Futaba-chan, what do you want Hiroki to do for you?

Well, nothing. There's nothing. Nothing.

- There must be something, right? - No, nothing at all.

Then, keep all of this in.

Keep all of this in, and just have faith in Hiroki.

Yes.

I don't think he'll avoid seeing you, but he'll surely be shocked.

Yes.

- Grandpa! - Oh, Yuri. Where's Mama?

- She went upstairs. - I see.

- Sorry. Can you wait for a while? - Yes.

Kenji. Is Maki inside? I'm coming in.

Uncle, I give you.

Thank you.

Maki! Maki!?

Ah, I'm gonna take a pee. Want some coffee?

Okay.