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How are you doing today?

Feeling okay?

Mm-hmm.

I feel fine.

Anything bothering you?

I'm in this place.

I mean, it's funny for a day, but I don't think I need to be here anymore.

I mean, I don't know. I'd like to know what you think. I mean, being around

here makes me think maybe I do need to be here. I don't know.

Well, I hate to disappoint you.

You don't have a serious illness that requires you to stay

in a psychiatric hospital environment.

This is a bad fit for you.

Hey, it's Shelly.

Are you gonna come? Hey, I'll come in a minute. Okay.

Hey, dude.

Hey, Bubba.

Hey.

You look good. You look like you've finally got some sleep. How are you

doing? I'm okay.

Yeah?

Yeah, you feel better?

Yeah, I feel much better.

You feel sane?

You got sane?

I feel better. I don't know about sane. I just feel better.

Yeah.

Yeah?

I'm fucking sane.

Did you make any friends? But you made a lot of friends.

Did you? No, I actually did. I met a really nice girl. Really? Yeah. Cool.

We're going to make a movie together.

Really?

I think she'll be a good friend. She's really loyal.

I love her.

I really love her.

You know, people have such a cute idea of what they really look or are.

I mean, I know I do.

I'm probably much different than what I think I should be.

Perhaps I've become more open to the ideas that other people have.

Yeah, we're doing pretty good. Yeah?

Yeah, we have a big show. There's mad people coming.

Can we come, Caroline?

I don't want to force you. What kind of music?

Children's rock.

Christian opera.

Like... Japanese... progressive...

old.

It's like...

I don't know.

You'll see. Just come. Just don't go to L.A. and then come. Right, yeah.

Yeah. All right, I rolled up my one. I guess no one will pay attention. Oh, I'd

rather use a 20. Okay, I see.

Fancy.

How's the painting going? Are you a painter or are you a photographer or

what? A little of both, you know?

He's fucking awesome.

I'm going to shut up a little bit. I'm sorry.

I'm going to put you off.

yeah no i read in like the the times there was like the sale from christie's

recently and it said one of your photographs went for a lot of money uh

really uh what are we talking about before but

i didn't say anything

no your tongue is moving look at my tongue

I'm fucking tired. What do you want me to say?

Nothing.

Could I connect you?

Yeah.

Yeah.

I'm gonna go outside, man.

Do you like Morrissey?

Yeah, I do.

I feel like... if I could choose, uh, you know, bands to see that I couldn't,

I hadn't seen, you know? Mm-hmm. Like, it'd be awesome to see The Smiths. Yeah.

Well, I don't think, it's not The Smiths, but... Well, obviously not, but

you know what I'm saying, just generally.

Um... Like, a girl I was dating, we used to sit in a car and, like, listen to

that, that song on repeat, like, for, like, you know, an hour.

Really? Yeah.

I don't know.

And then what would happen?

Let's do it again.

And then we'd probably fight and shit, but, you know. Oh, right. Well, I don't

know. I thought you were going to say, and then we'd probably fuck.

Maybe that, too. You know, like, fight, fuck.

Fuck, fight.

What part is more enjoyable?

Would you think that the fucking part only is as good as the fight has, you

know, the balls of the fight?

What's that?

Probably a zit.

Does it hurt?

No, I kind of want to pop it. Well, it doesn't have any pus in it yet.

I mean, it's not a full head yet. Maybe tomorrow.

Maybe in the morning.

Here's your drink there if you want it.

I might take your drink.

Sound everything?

Yeah.

You want some privacy?

Why'd you change?

Because I feel more comfortable like this.

In orange?

Yeah, and it's just not as tight around my waist.

Do you want a little strike?

Thanks.

Are you kissing me?

You have a nice

chest.

It's okay.

You have a nice chest, too.

You didn't really see my chest.

I've got a few grabs in there, though.

I'd like to.

so funny.

It didn't necessarily... That works. That works.

When am I going to see you again?

Soon, soon. Let's get together soon.

Fuck,

I have to go. I've got to go, though.

No, I'm serious.

Why do you have to go?

I have somewhere to be.

Somewhere to be, huh?

Oh, come on. Don't be like that.

Alright.

Um, so I gotta get going.

Maybe we'll speak later?

Yeah, yeah. I'm not really sure what the day is going to be like, but

I'll call you later.

Bye.

I was so full of shit that I'm never really going to be able to see the

person or recognize the person that I want to be with or that I feel is

meant for me.

I mean, who knows? I think you could just pass me by, you know, and you miss

that slot and you miss the timing. I mean, timing is everything.

Timing and lighting.

Sorry, I'm late. No, it's okay.

I wasn't here that long.

Good, I got lost.

Have you seen this place?

Yeah, it's insane.

It's really weird. These are inside out?

Yeah, I don't care. My socks are inside out too. This is the way I roll.

You know?

Are you?

Mine's a little.

Your heart is. Yeah, I feel weird. I can feel it.

I was smoking a cigarette, and I was like 13 or something, and people were

always kind of intimidated and frightened by me, so they wouldn't

really talk to me, and they'd avoid me. But Simon just came right up to me and

asked me for a cigarette, and he just didn't have any fear.

I think it takes courage. It takes courage to...

to show how much you love someone and not scare them with it.

I know she wasn't there for you.

I know she was gone, so to speak, out of your life for you to get any nurturing

from her when you needed it. Do you think this little pep talk is going to

help? No. I don't need you telling me why my mother wasn't there for me and

all this crap.

No. This alone is not going to help.

As I mentioned to you before, you need to work on the three items that I laid

out for you.

An individual therapist will help with this. I guarantee you it'll work.

And if that therapist won't work, we'll try another one.

But this is not the right environment for you.

It just isn't.

I'm glad.

Dr.

Schultz, we're making this little movie.

I think it helps me.

To become another person momentarily.

And sometimes acting is more real than real life.

Can't beat a scientist, you know.

Hello?

Hello?

Okay. Hey,

Cecily. Hi, I'm Shelley.

Shelley. Oh, okay.

Hi. Shelley, I thought we were done for the day.

No.

Okay. Oh,

Shelley. Okay.

Well. Hi, I'm Sparky.

Sparky. Okay. Please, Shelley, please.

Come on.

We're going to do this, you know, it's a long day, so we're going to kind of

speed through it a bit because we need to get Sparky fed.

But come on. Okay.

Come on up. Just make yourself at home. Watch your steps. Those are pretty high

heels there. Watch your steps.

Do you want me to be right where the thread tape is? Maybe we can scoot over.

What do you think, Don?

No, no.

Okay, just a little bit over.

Okay, just a bit. That's perfect.

Thank you. Sparky, let's go.

Yeah, make yourself at home. Just you know foot.

Thank you. Thank you Now this is a bit more that I like that jacket on the

floor. It's a bit more of an intimate scene Than what we had imagined.

Okay, you should use it as a pillow or something. Oh well Wow No,

no, but if you feel like resting on something you can use that

Okay? You feel like resting on something.

But, you know, just leave it there. Now, what I want to happen is I want you to

just, you're at home.

So it's an intimate scene. It's kind of, you've got to get into it

psychologically. You've got to feel that energy.

Just let yourself go.

Okay. We're not here.

Okay.

It's a bit racy, but that's how we like it. You know, that's what's going to

make this scene play.

Okay?

All right.

Now, I want you to do something before we start.

Let me just keep up the nature of the theme. Just make, you know, just, I want

you to close your eyes.

Close your eyes.

Sparky? Yeah.

Eyes.

Close your eyes.

You want me to close them? Close your eyes.

Now, I'm going to close my eyes, too.

Okay. Nobody's here.

It's just nobody's here. You're performing this alone for yourself.

You can go wherever you want with it. Okay, my eyes are closed.

Everybody's eyes are closed.

We're going to just go with the theme, okay?

Okay, everybody open your eyes.

Everybody open?

Perfect. Okay, let's do this now.

Just feel the words.

Okay.

Okay. Oh, my God.

I can feel you thinking about me.

How lightly you touch me with your thoughts.

Like sun reaching across a million light years of cold, dark space.

Oh, God. I'm gonna cum.

Oh, God.

Look at me.

Look at me.

What the fuck are you looking at, you scum?

To be mindfucked like this by a mindfucker like you.

Did you hear something?

I thought I heard something.

Okay.

Okay, okay. One more time. Let's keep going. Let's keep doing it. Same thing,

right from the top. I want you to slap me.

I want to get... That was good.

What are you looking at? Come down.

Actually, slap Fox.

Slap me? Not hard. You'd be okay with that. All right.

Okay. Okay, you'd be okay. What the fuck are you looking at? And then slap and

then go back and do the scene.

Okay. Okay, so give it, you know, unleash, you know, that energy inside.

Just let that go. Don't hold back. I feel like you're holding back, you know.

Are you busy working these days? Do you have another job? I'm just trying to

figure out scheduling stuff. We're trying. We're asking everybody, you

know, every pity, you know.

No, I mean, I'll make time. I have time. I have time. That's all I have.

Okay, bye.

Mom, it's me.

I just got out of my audition and it went terrible.

Anyhow, it just was terrible.

I was beat up.

I know.

Oh, God.

Huh?

Everywhere in New York.

I'm not from New York.

Oh, come on.

Have some fun.

No,

you're not allowed to smoke in the lobby. I need you to leave right now.

I'm in an ashtray.

No, you need to leave the hotel right now.

I don't want to grab you and escort you out. You need to leave right now.

Not now, but right now.

How about now?

Right now.

This is not a joke.

please?

Get $725,000.

Don't touch it!

When you're little, everything seems so nice.

You don't realize how good it is until you grow up and everything's so fucked

up around you.

Everything's taken care of and everyone takes care of you. My mom used to seem

much nicer than she does now.

They had this house 25 years ago.

My mom and my dad.

So it reminds me of them when they were together, too, which is really nice.

Hey, Simon, it's Shelly.

I'm here in the country.

It's really pretty here. It's really nice.

I was just wondering if you were going to come.

I don't know if you're on your way or if you're not coming.

Call me.

I want to know if you're going to.

Walk through the door any second or if you need directions or what?

I'm so glad that you guys are here.

Yeah, it's really nice to belong to the country.

I haven't been out of the city for like months.

Yeah, I was doing sitting around my house.

Boring spring break.

When did you guys first start hanging out together?

When you got kicked out.

You introduced us. You know that. You remember that. I know, but I just don't

understand how you guys got so quickly together, you know, became so compatible

without, you know, I guess I wasn't there. Maybe that's why.

Do you mind if I smoke a cigarette?

No.

You can smoke. I'll get you an ice tray.

I mean, he feels a man getting...

This is nasty.

Well, where's mine?

Try this.

What do you mean, where's yours?

Cheesecake order!

Don't contaminate all the cheesecakes. I'm not contaminating it. That's the

only dessert here that I like.

Okay. Here you go, baby.

And I eat little bites from it. Little piglets.

Try some of these.

You can do whatever you want to.

Cough all over it. Yeah, cough all over it. Give me your pussy and I'll just

help you out. You don't have a dick to know what a pussy feels like, baby.

Yeah, you do.

Of course you do, because the way I feel my own pussy is not related.

I'll show you.

It's like that.

It's all different.

Don't you agree, Rach, that I mean, come on, the way he feels my pussy is not the

same way I'm going to feel my pussy?

Absolutely.

Or the way that I would feel your pussy. Right.

Well, I couldn't smell yours.

Are you trying to smell?

It doesn't smell at all. It smells like the nicest thing you've ever seen and

smelled in your life. It smells like babies covered with flowers.

Honestly. Whose?

Ours. I don't know what yours smells like. Oh, you remember that?

Yeah, I remember that.

Mine doesn't smell like anything I've been told.

Nothing. Well, no, I mean, mine, whatever, not like there's a smell.

We just fool it around a little bit, you know?

There's more about her.

I don't really like three sons that much.

She was sweet.

She was okay. She wasn't bad.

She was a nice girl.

Not really good enough for him, though. But I think he liked her for a really

long time, and he had to do it, you know?

Do you need someone to wash dishes?

Or clean up the kitchen?

Lucky.

You can wind up back in here and you can get more treatment.

Hopefully, that would work.

Two.

You can wind up behind bars if you're not so lucky.

And if you're extremely unlucky, you could die.

It's entirely up to you.

Hi, Mom.

It's me.

She's calling to say hi, and I love you.

And I hope you're having a good time at the beach.

Okay. Well, I hope you call me back, too.

Big kiss to you.

Dr. Schwartz doesn't really think acting is...

Good for my psychology.

My mom, she's a great actress.

She's a really great actress.

Born and raised in Kentucky and came to New York.

She's much more beautiful than I am.

What I like to do is these multimedia interdisciplinary

extravaganzas, they have videos, they have singing live musicians, and I match

classical stories.

with contemporary iconography.

And it's, you know, it's like this big event thing.

And right now I'm working with Hecuba, and she's a, do you know who Hecuba is?

Okay, well that's cool. She's a big, you know, famous Greek queen, and she was

married to Priya. I'm equating it with, right now, with Britney Spears, because

she's having a lot of babies right now.

And then she had that weird video where she, like, drowned in the bathtub.

And in Hecuba, she also turns into a dog and then jumps into the ocean. You tell

me a story about a peak experience in your life, for real. I would like it to

be a story about the first time, the very first time you fell in love.

And then I will say song.

You will burst into song.

Okay. And you will sing any song that pops into your head. It doesn't matter

what it is, but I need you to sing it full out.

Right? I don't think.

I don't believe that.

I don't believe that. If you can talk, you can think.

And... Action.

I walked up 10th Avenue and I went to some apartment that was

an artist's studio and there was a big hallway and a bunch of windows and

he was laughing and... and I heard his laugh from the other side of the room.

And I walked through the studio and went to the kitchen and this dark-haired

beauty, I mean, very short, but handsome and hysterically funny and... Stop!

Loudy, loudy, loudy, Miss Cloudy. Oh, you sure look good to me.

Well, please don't stop...

Okay, okay, so, okay, quite honestly, I

don't think that you're quite right for this piece.

But that's okay, you know, because not everybody is for this kind of thing.

But with your permission, I want to ask if I can give your contact info to a

friend of mine who's making a film.

Oh, great.

Because you have a very special presence and energy.

How about that?

Cool. That would be great.

I'm so happy you guys met. Yeah, really. Me too.

I'll try and send my headshots.

They're getting ready.

Don't even worry about it.

Your best contact information. I'll just give you my...

Do you have email?

You know what? I don't have email.

to actually learn how to send emails.

I mean, I don't use an email, but I know I'm going to get one soon, like today.

Okay, there.

I can read my message. Thank you.

Oh, thank you. I'm so sorry. Bye.

Bye.

You already created your account. You already have your screen name and

your...

set up so you're in your email you don't have any email yet because you just

created it so let me you know what i'll do i'll go online i'll send you an email

okay and then just respond to it all right just like as practice all right

okay

okay

What's up?

All right.

Okay, so there.

So it's set up. Yeah, now I'm going to log out of mine.

Now log into yours. Right there. Write your name on the top on your password.

Where's the password?

Okay. Okay.

The presenter.

Okay. Okay, cool. See my email?

Yeah, click on it.

So just, yeah, respond to it if you want.

Hello, Hanson.

Enter? Yeah, and then press the little, using the click right there. Okay.

All right?

Yeah, there you go.

Got it? Okay, thanks.

All right.

You're all evidence.

Huh?

Thank you.

No problem.

Hi, Mom.

It's me, Shelly.

I had an audition today that went really well.

Call me. I want to speak to you, okay?

Miss you. I'm going to go to Atlantic City for the weekend, but my phone's on

and I have my phone, so... Okay, and maybe we can see each other when I get

back.

All right, bye.

Welcome to the happiest place on earth, Atlantic City.

Welcome to the happiest place on earth, Atlantic City.

They're doing sound checks.

What? They're doing sound checks. They are? Yeah.

I don't know if Wade saw them, though, but he looked really cute.

He did? Mm-hmm.

And what, they're up there on stage?

Yeah, they're just, like, setting up. And what's it like, the arena?

It's really big and kind of cheesy, but... Oh, I'm so excited. I don't know,

I'm really excited.

I have this one, too.

Wow, that's really neat. Do you get wedgies wearing them?

No. Really? Oh, my God. Well, I mean, I get sometimes, yeah. But, I mean, it's

always up there, but then it gets up there in an uncomfortable position. I

can't sleep.

I'm really klutzy on boots, so I don't know if I can wear these.

But they're really nice.

You have nice boots.

Thanks. They're like torpedoes.

They're really perfect. Thanks.

I like them too.

Yeah. Because I don't have to wear a bra.

Well, because they stand right up. But if you don't wear a bra for long

enough... I know, then it'll... Oh, I was wondering.

Maybe I could borrow that black tank top?

Sure. Yeah. For the doctor?

Shelly, come on!

All right.

Thanks, girl.

What, you have to pee?

Yeah.

I'm making this little movie called Golden Girls Gone Wild about slutty

elders.

Slutty elders?

This is funny.

What do you mean, like married people?

Or just like freezing in this room. I know.

Ooh la la.

Being a warrior. No.

It does look like that. Does it? But in a good way? I mean in a good way.

Good way.

I left my antidepressants at home. What kind do you take?

Lexapro. Do you take any? No.

I used to be really against them.

They really helped me come out of my shell, can't you tell?

So you do have eyeliner?

Yeah, yeah.

The last time I lent my eye makeup to somebody, I got a sty.

Okay, well, if you don't want me to use it then, I won't.

You can use it on your finger.

You look great.

She said, man, I don't want to play around with what I just want to let.

I've never met him.

I just know he has the feeling of the person that I like. Like, he's a little

awkward. He's a little, like, shy.

He's not about being cool. I mean, he's cool.

So he's not at all trying to be cool. He's very much into his work, into his

music.

I wonder

if

he could ever really give himself up.

So I wait for a while, and I look to the sky, but nobody

comes.

Right on my face, I was straight to the place where we were when you said

all the words that you meant.

self of wade the only bad drawing that's like okay all of you guys look like

reminiscent of one of yourself he doesn't look like himself he looks like

we had just decided that day that

he was gonna dye his hair blue if you had blue hair the drawing would be

different no no he was supposed to have blue hair I was supposed to have orange

hair, but we never did it. So his hair ended up blue and mine ended up orange,

but we never actually went through with it.

I can't believe I broke Shelly's boot.

You didn't break Shelly's boot.

I'm just infatuated with zippers. You really have a fetish.

I think I forgot this.

Finally.

Take a picture. Oh, my God.

Thank you.

Thank you. It's done.

It's done. Oh, my God. Yeah, we did it. Thank you.

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Do you want to kiss him?

Kissing is sweet and nice. That's what keeps you young.

Well, I don't know.

He just texted me.

For a booty call.

For you.

No, for you.

No.

Yeah, that's why we got his number from me. For you. Come on, give me a break.

Call him back and let's just see. Okay, stop.

Yay.

No,

I know.

He's not the aggressive one who wants to, like, do anything more either.

He's just like, he needs loving.

I feel like Carlin wants a room key.

Yeah, that's perfect. Carlin wants a room key.

Carlin wants to rape you.

I just, I feel like I'm, I don't know if I'm in a

relationship. You're not.

But how would you know? You want to hang out with him. I know. Now I'm too tired.

Now I want to go to sleep. I don't know why you're trying to make my life easy.

All right, fine. Get in bed then.

I will get in bed. You don't have to be so.

I'm not being anything.

I'm just sick of you like, I'm not your text messenger.

I'm not asking. You don't have to write anything. Okay, enough.

I'm not going down there, but I appreciate your effort. Fine.

Great. Perfect.

Lovely. Alright, whatever.

I think you're a bitch, though, letting some guy hang when he's, like, really

sweet and nice.

funny about all of this is you're the one who wanted to come to the stupid

thing so you could sit with Eric and be his little groupie and obviously that's

not working out. So don't get mad at me because I'm not taking advantage of the

situation that you're obviously jealous of. That a boy is paying attention to

me. He's not falling asleep on the bed. I'm not jealous that someone is paying

attention to you. I'm excited.

You should be happy to have a friend who's not jealous. I thought you were

going to have a nice time. I can go to sleep right now. Okay, well that's what

you should.

That's what you should then. Sure.

He's tired. Fine.

Of course it hurts that he's sleeping.

I wish he would just, like, you know, go to sleep and people could be a little

closer to their hearts and that.

I mean, just like you, being so distant from the way you feel. I mean, fuck you.

You don't need to attack me.

I wasn't ever telling you what to do. I thought that's what you wanted to do

because you seemed so excited about it.

That's all. At least I was honest to how I felt. I didn't pre- and flirt.

I was me, and I was exactly me. I didn't pretend I was anyone else, and my

feelings for him were exactly how I wanted them to be, so fuck you.

Fucking little idiot.

Little fucking depressed on your dumb fucking drugs pathetic bitch.

Fuck you.

Really, fuck you. Oh, yeah, really angry. Get the fuck out of the room,

frankly, because I'm me.

I don't feel insecure about being who I was tonight, unlike some people who can,

like, skirt around things and pretend that they want to be something else, and

then they don't deliver.

They pretend.

No, I actually do what I want, and then if it doesn't happen, it's not

happening. But I'm me, and I know what it is. It's not about making a whole

image and then going, oh, I'm not sure.

What are we going to do? too at least i don't come across like a cry for help

cry for help you're the one that's loony cry for help what's cry for

help what does that mean you're just phrasing things phrasing things you're

just putting things in a quote

oh right now because you're so sober you'll go i'm drunk you're drunk i'm

high and you know you're not acting like uh you're using your head because when

people are drunk or stoned and they smoke hashish that they can't function

no you're just like your chemical imbalance is that far down that you

can't function oh yeah oh fuck you i'm so cool

go to bed Take your shit. Get off the bed.

Get off the other bed.

You're like one of these people that are going to kill themselves in five years,

so I don't really want to upset you any further and be implicated in anything.

Good.

Ex-implicate yourself.

I hope you're happy with your outburst.

Shelley? Shelley?

Well, maybe you're asleep now, but I just want you to know that you are a

fucking psycho.

Oh, I hope you get lung cancer, by the way.

Pretend to be pathetic.

I pretend to be pathetic.

I'll take that as a compliment.

I am. You just pretend to be.

You're a waste of space and you know it.

Join the London Theatre Company.

I just, I just yelled at her so much and I felt really awkward.

It is that nobody takes her seriously and that she's just embarrassment.

And then I walked out of the room, but now I don't want to go in there and

sleep there with her.

So I guess I'm a real sucker for sweet nothings when I'm with a guy, because

I'm not used to it. So even if it's not true, I still want to hear it.

Look at that pink bike down there.

God I wonder what happened to that person.

What the fuck is that?

I'm sorry. I just want to go to bed.

All right?

Come on. Don't be angry with me. Fine. Fine. Don't be upset with me. I didn't

do anything wrong.

Fine. Fuck. Go to bed.

Go to bed.

But wait. Come on. Don't be upset.

Sorry. I'm fine.

I'm fine.

I'll let you know.

I'll see you later.

You want me now? Yeah, I do.

Help me?

Ow!

you piece of shit.

Fuck you.

I'll call the police.

It's okay.

Simon? We could go to Venezuela.

Rio Cuarto.

Okay, La Biola.

Olavaria.

Bolivar. Las Flores.

Chivilicos.

I didn't know what they had been talking about.

You were totally out of control. Otherwise, you couldn't even get into

this hospital.

I'm glad you think it's funny, but it can be serious.

My friend Albert, you know, he's like this guy who's... and on tons

of drugs, much older than me, but I mean, he knows everything.

I mean, you could talk to him about anything.

So I brought this really weird guy home.

It was a bad mistake.

Wait, which one is this? The one who beat you?

Yeah.

Wait, that happened here?

Why do you do that?

I mean, you know, you should always have a good appraisal before you ever, ever

commit yourself to a purchase.

I mean, he knows he fucked up his own life. I mean, he could have done

anything he wanted, but he is a drug addict. Shall I teach you the 12 steps?

Step one.

First, you put your two needles up tight.

That's step one.

And then you swing them to the left, and you swing them to the right. That's step

two. And that's as far as I got in rehab.

That was a real joke.

I could make a lot of money with a joke like that.

Don't buy any lobster, Mama.

Papa's coming home with the crabs.

Well, I found the peas.

They're not sweet. You wanted that.

Yeah, but they're supposed to be sweet, Mommy.

They're not sweet.

I like your mother.

I'm sure you do. I like your mother. She hates me, that's all.

I don't really like my mother that much. Come on.

What's the silly thing?

The only reason you're with me right now is because she's out in the country and

you couldn't get your hands on her.

That's true.

Three weeks without me and you're already turning into a weirdo.

You better come back, bitch.

Come back to that.

Oh, sweet pie.

Oh, poor thing.

All along the big world, with nothing but a tired old queen to take care of

you.

Oh, this is no way to die.

That tickles. Am I hurting you? No.

Maybe I like it when you hurt me.

Shut up.

You know, obviously, I guess drugs give you a temporary escape.

They give you also a mind where you can think in a different way.

If it's unnatural, then I still find it sometimes useful and effective.

Do you have any money?

No.

Where'd you get all that?

I sold something.

You know, discovering parts of your personality or parts of your mind or

parts of equations in the world or in life or things that you haven't figured

out and then you can think about them when you're high and sometimes things

unravel and they make sense, you know.

When you're down there scuba diving, underneath the ocean, underneath the

water.

And there's nobody else or nothing there except barnacles and the moving water

and the rays of light coming through.

You know, I think that to me is the most beautiful because it's the most

peaceful.

And you have to be careful on what you're doing because you're swimming,

you're breathing out of this tank and you fuck up, you go down too fast.

I'm Andrew. Hi. Nice to meet you. Nice to meet you.

Hi.

What are you doing now?

Nothing.

You?

Nothing.

I mean, everyone's lonely.

Everyone feels that there really isn't the right person for them and that

they're alone in this world.

I don't know. Sometimes I just really, really want to just have a kid and be

with my baby and with my husband and have him do whatever he wants and

whatever he's good at. I just want to make sure he's happy with it.

Take care of him to care of my kid, you know, just be like a real person

You're Shelly, you know, I mean, you're the same girl I've known for, you know,

more than a decade, and, you know, I just, I'm just worried I'll treat you

like shit, and I can't do that, and our friendship's just, you know, I just got

a relationship, I'm not, like, I'd treat any girl like shit, and I don't want you

to be that girl, because we have something so amazing, and I know it's

weird, and I know what happened was intense, but...

You know, I love you so much.

I know you're, you know, you're having a rough time and... I

just want to be there for you, you know, but... In a

way, I've been there for you forever.

You know what I mean?

I don't want to be confusing.

I don't want to be an asshole, but, you know...

No, you're not being confusing.

It's fine.

Yeah? You sure? Yeah. You sure?

Yes, I'm sure.

Okay. Can I kiss your head?

Yeah. Your little turtle head?

Shut up.

Okay? Okay?

Okay. Yeah?

You alright? Give me a kiss on the cheek, please.

Shut up, Silverstein.

Shut up. Run, fuckhead. I'm not a Jew anymore.

You're always a Jew to me.

My little Jewish friend.

I love you. I love you too. You know that, right?

Everything's cool?

Yes. Yeah?

Yes.

It would

be

great to be able to express things that I feel inside that only certain writers

or certain...

Artists can do you know change somebody's life because of it

I'm not like this

ambitious creature where I need to be famous.

You know I'd want my own inner inner creative part to be satisfied

What? I just, I don't know. It was just, you know, basically like that I

physically hurt the child. Oh, God.

But, you know, I wouldn't. You know, he was just very violent and he was looking

for a way out. Oh, that sucks.

Yeah, it was really hard. It was really bad. And I had to leave.

So I just decided to move back here and take over my aunt's house where I grew

up. Oh.

My sister lived there for a while.

Uh-huh. She left.

And, I don't know, I've just been trying to, like, renovate it and make it my

own. Ah, wait, I'm sorry.

Sorry.

This is, this show.

Pick one.

I'm showing. I'm showing. Who are you?

I'm showing.

Tonya. What are you, are you auditioning to?

Yeah, I didn't know you were acting.

Yeah, I'm not, I don't really go on that many auditions, but, yeah, I don't know.

We went to Atlantic City together a few months ago. Oh, wow.

Fun.

No, I had a good time.

It's not going to be the traditional audition process. And the reason is, I'm

sure you've all been to, or perhaps not, sort of a traditional audition.

I think the only thing you really can tell from that is how good people are at

auditioning. So, what's your name?

Shelly. Shelly, good to meet you. Hi.

James, good to meet you.

Bridget. Bridget, hi, good to meet you.

Okay, so what I want you to do now is form a circle, please.

A story word at a time. Has anyone raised your hand if you've done story

word at a time before? Okay, great.

Shelly, why don't you start?

One more. One more.

Not sexy enough to do what they want forever.

And so I need to talk more times than I

need to talk.

One more time. Let's change the subject to...

Nothing to be embarrassed about. James keeps saying pussy, so nothing any of

you guys say today.

No, yeah. I'm embarrassed at this point.

Okay.

Interpret things in the worst possible light as you're describing her behavior.

Your legs have a big slit in between them.

I can smell it from here.

You carry a lot of guilt on your shoulders. You don't give a shit. You

just want everyone else's boyfriend to fuck you. All you care about is someone

else's boyfriend fucking you. You don't want your own. It's always about feeling

something that doesn't belong to you.

That's what makes it exciting. You're just being aggressive with me because

you don't... You can't exist in a world where you have to say yes to people and

open yourself up. Of course I can. You have nothing to do with anybody else.

It's your fault.

It's your fault.

What's false?

I didn't do anything. It's your fault. You're the thief.

I'm not a thief.

You're the one who's the reason that it doesn't work. You're the one that gets

used and thrown back into the same place every time you do it, and that doesn't

change your life. It's just one night of being used like a fish. You're the

thief. You're the thief.

You're the thief. There's something consistent in my life. You're full of

inconsistencies. You don't know what to say when you're not being mean.

All right, so that was good.

I guess...

Yeah, that was really exciting.

Really exciting, huh?

Yeah, it was really good.

Shelley, can you stay here, and can I get everyone else to go to the hallway

for just a second? I just need maybe one minute to talk to Shelley.

Thank you.

OK, so what I'd like to do is I'd like to send you the script.

And I'd like to get your thoughts on it, because what I don't want to do is just

have it be like, here's the script, it is what it is, and that's it.

To me, the point is not to create exactly what's on the page, but to bring

that into real life.

But I have to tell you that the one thing that I'm worried about is that it

seems like maybe the distinction between reality and fiction could be

difficult for you.

in that it seems like you're very frustrated um like even beyond the

exercises that we did i don't know there's a lot of other people to

audition today and i want to see them too but but i think that um i definitely

want to talk to you and i definitely want to send you the script so maybe

just something to think about is real life i don't think we get along very

well and i don't really think you do want i mean i don't feel like i want to

be in your movie you don't no why not because i think you're full of and i

think you're pretentious and i don't think i have any interest what do you

think what do you think is pretentious what do you think about what we said

today my disposition is pretentious i think that you have misconceptions of

who i am and where i come from and everything else in my life in real life

and my frustration you're frustrated right now and you're angry right now

When this isn't the scene anymore and you got angry in the thing you weren't

angry when you came in here But now you're angry you're angry because of the

work You're frustrated right now, though.

You're frustrated with me or you're frustrated with the scene.

I'm telling you the truth I mean, I'm not frustrated with you. I think what

happened. This is real life, right? I mean What I'm saying is real life. I'm

not acting

going with Dr. Schwartz.

So we'll have lunch when I get back, you know, in the next two weeks.

I'm not thinking of you. So, you know, maybe we can have lunch and get a

manicure.

Don't bite your nails while I'm gone.

The issue with your mother, which brought you here, the specifics of which

I'd like to remind you, you were...

totally out of control, threw a lamp at her, and she had...

It's not funny. It really is not funny. I mean, it's

serious. I mean, it's serious enough that based on what I've read and what

your mom has said to me, you know, she had no alternative.

What? To bring you here. She had to bring you here.

I love my mom.

I hope she doesn't resent me.

Maybe she secretly wants me to act and be bigger than she was.

Better.

Parents always want their kids to succeed,

or at least I hope they do. I think she does, but...

It's nice, too.

It's good when they can let you do

your own thing.

You're making a movie.

I'm so glad to be with you again.

It's Telly calling on the phone.

Dr. Schwartz.

Oh, no, I didn't mean to interrupt you.

Oh, I just wanted to say hello and see how you were doing.

Make sure that you didn't lose your office or anything.

I'm just calling to...

Tell you that I miss you.

And that I appreciate very much what you did for me and Frank.

Because we love each other very much.

We're the best of friends now.

So thank you.

Goodbye.

Bye-bye, Dr. Short.

You know somebody for so long, and you want to love them, but they don't know

how to receive it.

Or if they want it, they're just frightened of it.

I never really cared about anybody as much as I care about him.

these ones the pinkish ones here this one that's rotten

these ones are

unopened yet so these are good so i'm gonna and then you mix them together all

right okay some violet roses yeah look at those

the yellow ones with the pressure actually

These are pretty.

And then, you know, you cut them yourself and you put them together. And

so you put them in water, okay?

All right. That's it? Yeah.

Yeah. Perfect.

You could buy her a little flower, you know, a plant.

Nah.

This is fine.

Okay.

It's more my style.

Okie dokie.

I need cigarettes, too.

You know, some people you think you want, you invent that you like them, and

then at the end of the day, it doesn't really matter.

You're the queen of that.

But there's that rare person that you actually do like.

Yeah. Where's that German place?

It's up there.

Like five o'clock.

Nice flowers you got. Yeah, I'm happy.

You can go.

You're free to go.

Good.