Original subtitles

Wait for me.

Hello... Hey, Bu-chan.

Baa-chan. Jii-chan. We got these from the festival.

Oh, thank you.

- We're going. - Wait up.

Should they hold the festival in this kind of weather?

- It'll let up by tonight. - I hope so.

Yes?

My name is Misaki Fumiya.

Eh? You're Masami's?

You're her son, right?

We've decided to separate and live apart.

Please sit down.

I'm worried about Futaba.

Seems it's because of what Fumiya said to her.

That he blames her for the incident that happened.

Oh... it's hot isn't it?

Fumiya had talked about his mother's death.

That it wasn't an accident but a suicide.

At that time, Fumiya was 5 years old...

I thought he hardly remembers it...

When I met my brother, he said...

... to go with him to the place where my real mother was born.

Uh. The mother that died. May I ask where she came from?

[Sign: 'Shigei Port, Innoshima' Hiroshima Prefecture]

~ SOREDEMO, IKITE YUKU ~ Ep. 10 "After the Confrontation"

~ Jibun no ikikata de jibun wo ikite ~ *Living for myself in my own way*

~ Ooku no machigai wo kurikaeshitekita ~ *Repeating so many mistakes*

~ Ganbatte mo ganbatte mo umaku ikanai ~ *Even if you try so hard times over, things don't go well.*

~ Demo kidzukanai tokoro de ~ *But though you don't realize it*

~ Dareka ga kitto miteru ~ *Someone's definitely looking over you*

~ Ano koro mitai ni kimi ni ~ *Just like that time*

~ Yasashiku dekite iru kana ima mo ~ *Was I able to treat you kindly?*

~ Ichiban taisetsuna no wa sono egao ~ *Even now, the most important thing is that smiling face*

~ Ano koro to onaji ~ *Just like that time*

Translation and fine timing: earthcolors

Special thanks to: yuizaki_libra (song translation)

Special thanks to: ggenglish (initial retiming)

Special thanks to: furransu (raws)

I've come.

I think, you know... you can pull through.

Hmm?

During my high school and college days, I would go to karaoke with my friends, right?

Yes.

There were words in the lyrics like 'hope' and 'light.'

Well, I still sang them.

But while singing, I'd ask myself, 'What do they mean?'

Like 'What's hope?' 'What's light?'

Yes.

I did wonder if they made sense to everyone...

...but I couldn't ask them. I didn't want to be a party pooper.

Coming from a victim's family and that I'm being too gloomy... I didn't want to be a bother.

Yes.

But it seems it's just here. It's all around us.

So Kaa-san, I'm asking you to tough it out.

Kohei. You've given me encouragement.

A guy who doesn't know what 'hope' means in karaoke songs...

...doesn't qualify as someone who gives encouragement.

Who would know of such things anyway?

How about Nii-chan?

Hiroki... I wonder how he is.

('Tokiwa Hotel')

('You have a missed call.')

"This is the voice mail center."

"You have one message."

"Uh, this is Fukami..."

"Toyama-san, please call me..."

- Here you go. - Thank you.

Ribbon-chan, you wanna drink?

('Consent to terminate life support')

Maybe I can find some friends from the outside who can help us.

Uh, is there something the matter with Iida-san and the guys?

Yeah. They don't know how to deal with the saplings so they went home.

- That's bad. - We can't plant, can we?

I may have to sell half of the land.

I see.

- Welcome home. - I'm back.

- Has Futaba called yet? - No.

- I'll be back by 7. - Sure.

- For your school transfer tomorrow... - Take care.

Ok... I'm going now.

- The sea looks nice, isn't it? - If you say so.

Isn't it hot inside there?

Speaking of hot, the weather's like 'hot pattern'* today, isn't it? [*hot-rainy-hot-rainy pattern]

Wait, I wanna borrow this.

No. You can't, there's nothing in there.

It was in my car. I placed it in there.

You took it, didn't you? Didn't you?

- I don't know what you're saying. - Return it to me, please.

Wait... I'm coming out.

Ah... hot.

Why did you take it?

- I'm not telling you. - Please give it back.

Wait. Give it back please. Please go away!

Wait.

There's no way you could do it.

Well, can you?

It's tough to kill someone, y'know.

Besides, this is a family matter, we'll handle it ourselves.

You know nothing about it at all.

If you're gonna kill him yourself, it'll be more unbearable.

To be honest, I'm so mad.

I'm not happy at all! Deciding to do this on your own.

So this means you don't trust me?

Is it like that?

But I'm also the same.

If you become a murderer, I won't be able to bear it, too.

Here.

- Did you find Murakami-san's house? - Who?

So you didn't even know the name.

I asked it from your father.

You and your brother's mother... her name was Murakami.

- Murakami... - Murakami Masami-san.

Really? Really....

I was still a baby then...

So unlike my brother, I knew nothing about it at all.

That's why I thought Okaa-san was my real mother.

Oh. Here, it says Murakami, right?

Ah. It is Murakami. Murakami. Murakami. Murakami.

- There's a lot, huh? - Ah... they're all Murakami!

Masami had left a long time ago.

I don't know anything.

Is it this place?

Yeah. This was the home of my niece.

Are you looking for her picture?

- Excuse me. - Yes, what can I do for you?

I'm looking for Murakami-san on this map.

You could try the white house just across us...

Shoo! Shoo!

Ah. Is that the house?

He hasn't left yet?

Hey.

At our house, there was Okaa-san, me and the baby.

Everytime the baby cries, "Ah, I'm sick of this. I can't stand it anymore..."

...Okaa-san would say that. Otou-san hasn't come back yet.

I just stayed in the closet.

I would stay there like up to the night.

Mom would say over and over again that Otou-san...

...went to Hawaii. She says he's wearing his swimsuit...

...Eating large shrimps.

"If you two weren't born, I could've gone to Hawaii many times."

"I could've gone to Hawaii many times if you weren't born," she said.

Okaa-san was carrying the laundry while she went to the balcony.

"Where are you going, Okaa-san? Where're you going?"

"To heaven," she said.

"I'm going to Hawaii in the heavens," she said.

I'm sorry, to hear Masami recklessly married and to kill herself like that.

But it doesn't have anything to do with us.

My dad, Futaba and my new mom...

In my dreams, I see myself killing them many times...

'Oh, I've killed them. I killed them,' I thought.

I wanted to die.

That day, I wanted to destroy the fence in Mikazuki Lake so I brought a hammer.

But Hiroki's little sister came along.

"It's better if Nello..."

"...wasn't born, right?"

"If he's gonna have a sad life, why was he born?"

I was thinking, 'Help me, Okaa-san.' Help me, Okaa-san...'

But I couldn't remember her face... just couldn't remember...

All I see was that night... and big red shrimps.

When I opened my eyes, Hiroki's sister was floating on the lake.

You...killed the child?

It's alright. I'll make sure to kill myself next time.

Get in.

Is it here?

Miyo-san, what happened?

Just come on. Hurry.

- Why are we hurrying? - Just come on.

- C'mon... Hurry up. - But what's the hurry?

- Come quick. - Miyo-san.

Though the barn was messy ...he didn't take anything.

- He said he had killed before. - Where did he go?

Maybe he's going to the festival.

He asked where it'll be held.

He also said he'll commit suicide.

Suicide?

Akari, I'm sorry.

I wasn't able to handle your transfer procedures for tomorrow.

It's okay, I'm not going to school anymore.

I'll go out during my lunch break. Say.

You wanna meet up at City Hall?

Don't look at these things!

I don't wanna go to school!

Akari.

I'm so sorry. I'm sorry.

Toyama-san.

So pretty.

- It's gone. - Yeah.

- Get another one. - 'Kay.

15 years ago, I saw your picture in a tabloid.

...You were pregnant then. - Yes, it was with her.

I hated looking at that picture of you.

Of course.

Is it the same with you?

Did you...

...also felt resentment towards us?

No, we did not.

I'm sure you noticed that other families of murdered victims...

...were also harassing you.

That's why I ask... how were you...

...and your husband able to stay together?

How did you manage to keep your family together?

- It's because... because... - It's because you didn't want to lose to us?

No... It's not that.

I came here to let you have your say.

Alright. I will let out my resentment.

15 years I have lived feeling hatred towards you.

After that incident, I also thought that the child in my tummy would die.

But I remembered you before...

...when we were going to that sewing class.

People showed their sympathies to you... While they tell me that I should die.

I thought... what's the difference between us two?

Your daughter was killed. My son was the killer.

You're suffering... we're suffering. So what's the difference?

I hated you for that.

I hated you up to this day.

I am a selfish, wretched person.

I'm relieved.

To hear you have suffered all this time...

...I feel better now.

I too am a wretched person.

I think I may never forgive you.

But... when I saw that new picture of yours...

...I don't feel the same way as before.

So strange. Maybe my son, too.

He felt the same when he met Futaba-chan.

Those two are the same.

We're the victim's family and you're the criminal's family.

We're all in the same boat.... And we could be stuck in it for the rest of our lives.

That's why...

...we should work together...

...and think about how we can move forward.

Please don't. Don't say that.

You know I hated you.

I've resented you.

Why say such a thing... Why?

It's no use to switch on the lights.

If I turn this thing off...

..it'll be impossible for her to breathe.

But if I continue with this life support, I'll have nothing left for my grandchild.

Allow me to pay for it.

Can you call this living?!

Sit down.

I will sign this now.

A father giving up on his daughter's life.

Take a good look at what I'm doing!

Ah... I'm so hungry.

Fukami-san.

Maybe we should leave it be. If we leave it alone...

...and let him commit suicide...

...you won't have to take revenge, right?

Don't say that.

But if so, you won't have to commit a sin...

The father and the others in that orchard would feel relieved, right?

Fukami-san's family, too... and everyone in my family...

Easier... It'll be easier.

Onii-chan! Onii-chan!

Onii-chan! Onii-chan! Hey... no, Onii-chan!

Onii-chan! Onii-chan!

No no no no! Onii-chan! Onii-chan!

Wake up, Oniichan! Onii-chan, please!

- Move aside! - No! No!

No no no no...

Fumiya... Fumiya. Fumiya!

- Onii-chan. - Hey... don't you dare escape!

Fumiya! Hey! Fumiya? Fumiya! Don't you get away!

- Onii-chan... - Hey!

C'mon, c'mon... Ah, damn... the coach should replace him.

Welcome!

- Um, there's three of us. - Sure, come on in.

- Oh, you've been to the festival? - Yes.

You probably got drunk and fell into the sea, eh?

- Omelette rice, please. - Yep, omu-rice.

Where're you going?

Toilet.

- Is there a window in your toilet? - How I wish.

It's a hit.

Did he make it? Ah... he did, right?

Ah, he made it. Good.

- Will it be 3 omu-rice? - Yes.

- My potato salad's tasty, too. - Oh.. so okay.

- Po-- one potato salad please. - Okay.

- So that's 3 omu-rice and one salad? - Yes.

Alright. Here we go.

What should we do?

Why did you save him? You could've let it alone.

I dunno. I can't understand it myself.

- Should we call the police? - What?

I dunno. Not sure but...

...I think I wanna trust him.

Onii-chan, Fukami-san had saved you.

Yeah.

If he hadn't helped you, you would've died.

Yeah.

You were trying to kill yourself?

It was nothing. I'd do it again.

Then, I'll save you again.

No matter how many times you do it, I'll save you. I won't let you escape.

I've heard a lot of things about you.

That you're scared... scared of yourself.

You're scared...

...so you killed your own child before it was born.

You also said that Aki would have been better off if she wasn't born.

For such a small thing, you killed her.

Aren't we gonna eat yet?

I had been looking for you.

I was going to kill you with this. I was close to doing it, too.

But if she hadn't stopped me that day...

I would've stabbed and killed you...

...and be in jail by now... That's what I think.

If so, well, I'll still feel nothing...

And probably accept my fate.

But it didn't happen.

Instead, this person stopped me, and I got to know her.

Maybe I... I've changed.

A lot of things have happened to me since then.

She also experienced a lot... My mother, too.

And both your parents, too.

This is how I'll explain it...

I'm like a tangled up fishing line that's getting untangled bit by bit.

But when doing so, the hook would prick and hurt me.

But even if I'm in pain, I know it'll get easier soon...

I know I'll be able to breathe again.

Gradually... it becomes less and less tangled.

I really didn't understand it...

I don't know even up to now... I don't get it but...

It seems I don't wanna kill you anymore.

Aki also asked me... why was 'Dog of Flanders'...

...such a sad story.

Why did people bother to make such a sad story?

Aki was killed.

My friend was the criminal. My family fell apart.

There's someone who believes her brother is innocent and suffers for it but still she has to go on living.

We'd like to escape from such sad stories.

But even if you escape, the sadness is still there.

You die. Or you kill... It'll just create more sadness.

If you don't want this sadness to increase...

...then don't add anymore to this sad story.

Someday you might be able to regain a heart (conscience/soul).

And start from scratch, and make amends.

No, that's not it.

Never mind what I said.

Don't mind it. Forget it... Ignore what I said.

It's just that. I saw the sunrise this morning.

I hadn't had much sleep last night and went to the toilet this morning.

The toilet stinks so I opened the window and saw the sunrise.

From that stinky bathroom window, I saw the sunrise.

I've lived there for so long...

...but I've never felt like that before.

I thought, 'Another day has begun...'

'Whether it'll be a painful day or a fun day... Happiness can be fickle.'

'Whether there's no sense living...'

'...Today will STILL start.'

I mean, for 15 years I've been there...

Looking through that bathroom window...

...it was my first time to see the start of a new day.

What I mean to say... Fumiya-san...

You and me... let's go see the sunrise.

Let's go together.

It'll be good.

Is the food not here yet?

Onii-chan is hungry.

You want me to surrender, right?

You want me to apologize?

I'm sorry, Hiroki.

I'm sorry, Futaba.

Woah. Did he hit it?

Was it a homerun? Nee-chan, was it a homerun?

Yes.

See what happened when the pitcher got replaced.

Alright... omu-rice. Here you go.

Here. Macaroni salad. And here are the spoons.

Eh? What is it? What's wrong?

- We ordered potato salad, - Wasn't it macaroni salad?

No, never mind. This is okay.

My macaroni's still good.

I'll go in alone.

Oh. I'll pay for the omu-rice.

Your change.

Hey... your change.

Stop it! Stop it... stop...

Hey! What're you doing?!

Stop!

Stop it!

Translation and fine timing: earthcolors

Special thanks to: yuizaki_libra (song translation)

Special thanks to: ggenglish (initial retiming)

Special thanks to: furransu (raws)

Next on ~SOREDEMO, IKITE YUKU ~ Final Episode: "Towards the Light"