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FORGIVE ME MOTHER

TAPACHULA - CHIAPAS SOUTH OF MEXICO

Hey!

Ma'am?

What do you want?

I already told you not to come here and bother Benito anymore.

Benito!

You're a criminal.

Benito's not going to end up like you.

-Benito! -Benito is not coming out!

Or do you want me to call the cops, so they throw you in jail?

Is that what you want?

Grandma…

Shut up and get back inside.

Get back in

because you ain't fucking going nowhere!

This is our secret.

It doesn't leave this room.

Lil' Mago wants to see you.

One.

Two.

Three.

Four.

Five.

Six.

Seven.

Eight.

Nine.

Ten.

Eleven.

Twelve.

Twelve.

Twelve.

Thirteen.

Congratulations, homie.

Casper.

This kid is all smiles.

La Mara Salvatrucha.

TEGUCIGALPA, HONDURAS

Your dad's waiting for you.

Look,

I understand why you're going on this trip,

but I still don't understand why I should.

If you stay, Grandma won't force you to go…

but my brother won't come back again for you.

Look, if I wanted, I could go north on my own.

Come with us. It won't be easy there,

but at least we'll be together.

There's nothing for you here, Sayra.

Nothing.

Your daughter's here.

Damn. If I didn't know I wouldn't recognize her.

She's already a lady.

Now you can make up for lost time.

We'll catch up on the road, Ma.

Yessenia is alone with the girls.

Tomorrow morning we head north.

Don't worry, she'll be ready.

"LA BOMBILLA" - TAPACHULA CHIAPAS - SOUTH OF MEXICO

Hey, Casper. Sup?

Pederast. The younger they are, the stupider they get.

Look how you fucked him up. Savages!

MARTHA MARLEN - WHERE ARE YOU? I'VE BEEN WAITING.

Go on, I'm in a hurry.

Thank you.

Dumbass.

Harder.

Enough, dumbass.

Martha Marlen.

I'm bored.

Why?

Take me somewhere?

Where do you want to go?

I don't know.

Wherever you want.

Where you go when you're not here.

You have a girlfriend in your hood, don't you?

Of course not.

'Cause if I find out you do…

You're shrinking!

Oh, that's normal.

It'll come back.

Think she has a friend for me?

Look, Smiley. Don't say we didn't stay in La Bombilla.

And don't say anything, otherwise Lil' Mago will find out.

Keep your mouth shut!

Yeah.

Not a fucking word.

To be part of the gang,

first, you have to kill one of our rivals, a chavala.

Then…

we'll worry about girls.

Welcome to the Destroyer.

Sup, homie?

What's up, Casper?

What's up?

What?

Did he kill a chavala yet?

No.

This is El Piqaro and El Smokey.

They just got here.

They come and go, handling business between gangs.

Salvadorans.

Thirsty?

This homeboy is El Turbino.

And El Peluquin.

He can't sit down 'cause he's bleeding from the ass.

He's got hemorrhoids.

You'll have to wait to earn a gun.

For the moment you share.

What's from La Mara is for La Mara.

La Mara Salvatrucha, Sol.

You remember El Sol, right?

He's the second-in-command.

My boys have arrived!

How'd it go?

You went to La Bombilla?

Yeah.

But we didn't see shit.

El Sol found him today in a group of pollos…

in La Bombilla.

Take him out.

Don't worry, this bad man won't scare you no more.

You fucked up, chavala.

You put yourself in Mara land.

I told you, I don't do that shit no more.

I'm just going north.

Honestly, please.

You ain't worth dick, bitch.

We're going to chop you up into 18 pieces and feed you to the dogs.

I have family.

I don't do that shit anymore.

Really.

A chavala will always be a chavala.

Give Smiley a hand.

Both of you'll shoot him.

Aim for the head.

This is for our homeboys.

On the count of three.

One…

two…

three.

The first time is like that.

Don't let it get you down.

The pain goes away,

but La Mara is forever.

Now you're part of a family with thousands of brothers.

Wherever you go,

there'll be someone to take care of you.

Food!

Hungry?

You weren't in La Bombilla today.

El Sol didn't see you.

Yeah, homie, I was there the whole time.

And I didn't see him, either.

You're not bullshitting me, homie?

There have already been some other things…

And now, El Sol didn't see you there.

Forget what I just said…

but the homies are getting restless.

I love you, son.

From my heart.

THREE DAYS LATER

Again.

9-0-8-5-5-5-0-1-8-7.

Again.

9-0-8-5-5-5-0-1-8-7.

Again.

We got it.

Say it again.

I said we got it.

You need to know this number.

In case anything happens, Yessenia will help you.

Horacio. How much more?

Some six hours.

Are you tired?

You have to see it as an adventure, brother. This is an adventure.

Repeat the number again.

9-0-8-5-5-5-0-1-8-7.

GUATEMALA

MEXICAN BORDER

Welcome to Mexico.

Your papers.

Don't have them, right? Everyone over here.

First empty your pockets of any valuables you have.

Then take off your clothes

and put them on the floor in front of you.

Start with your shoes.

It's nothing.

You just walked too much today.

We'll buy her some water.

We have no money.

Two big bottles.

Your second toe is longer than your big one.

That means you're a fast runner.

Look. This is how far we got today. See…

If there's no Border Patrol, we'll be here in two weeks.

Two weeks?

Maybe three.

And New Jersey?

It's not on the map.

Look,

not half of these people are going to make it.

But we will.

Yessenia is not as pretty as your mother was.

But she has a good heart.

Pretty girls.

Thank you.

Here, keep it.

They're your family now, too.

I don't want a picture of your family.

Look…

You're taking me with you, I'm grateful.

Here.

I'm going to call home.

9-0-8-5-5-5-0-1-8-7.

Look at him.

I remember him handsomer.

No. I'm the handsome one in the family.

It's not so bad, is it?

Don't tell me you're not a little happy?

If he hadn't been deported, he wouldn't be here.

That doesn't matter anymore.

It matters to me.

Come here, stubborn.

See that train?

It's our train.

What if we get on it and go all the way to Texas?

We could go to Six Flags.

Tell me again that you love me.

I love you.

Tell me you'll stop hiding me.

It's not that.

You do, you hide yourself from me.

You know everything that's worth knowing about me.

Martha Marlen.

Martha Marlen.

Wait.

You think I don't know what you do all day?

Partying with girls and fucking around.

Casper.

Smiley.

Sup, Sol.

What's up?

Who's this?

Martha Marlen.

He's El Sol.

Is this your girl?

No, she's just a friend.

We're having a meeting in the cemetery tomorrow.

Late afternoon.

See you there, then.

Watch your backs.

The train is packed.

You never know who's lurking in the crowd.

I'll take you home?

Friend? You idiot.

-Wait. -Let go!

Homie…

Wait for me here, Smiley.

Wait for me.

Wait for me here, Smiley. Wait for me here.

It's here, finally.

Let's go!

No train.

One derailed up ahead today. Many killed.

Where did you hear that?

Some cerotes told me.

No train tonight!

No train tonight!

We need more cash to buy food and supplies for our homies in prison.

Lastly,

some homies are avoiding their responsibilities.

The chavalas are all over us now.

We can't let that filth in our hood.

There will be cortes for Casper and Smiley.

They lied to me.

And they know you don't lie to the boss,

and especially not to the hood.

I want to hear your version of the story.

Where'd you go after La Bombilla?

Smiley, where'd you guys go?

Well, then, your gun.

That's all.

What are you doing here?

You have to leave, now.

Why? Is this a private party?

Sup, Casper. Who's this?

A friend.

From Las Guacas?

No. From downtown.

Next to the buses to Cacahoatán.

Oh. Pardon me.

I was just going to show her out.

No.

Won't take long.

I can show her out.

Or she can wait and watch,

but you're not going anywhere.

Just show her out, homie.

Come on.

Casper…

Thirteen seconds of cortes for lying.

One…

two, three…

Smiley, you, too.

Corte for lying with Casper.

Thirteen seconds.

Four…

This is the tallest tree in Tapachula.

If you climbed to the top of it,

you'd see China.

Why couldn't Willy come?

Willy?

You mean El Casper?

Willy.

I get it.

You're the reason he's been missing.

Sit.

I want to talk to you.

Closer.

Closer.

Don't worry. I don't bite.

So…

you and Casper are more than just friends, aren't you?

I've got to go.

Did he talk to you about us?

Do you know…

what the most important rules in a friendship are?

Honesty…

respect…

and generosity.

Hey.

Girl?

Where's Martha Marlen?

She's gone.

Home?

The Devil took her.

You'll find another.

Smiley.

We're going on a mission to Tonalá.

Just you, Smiley and me.

One more thing.

Lie to me again…

and I'll kill you myself.

Horacio!

Thank God, the tracks have been cleared.

The train's leaving tonight.

TONALA 5KM

Give me the fucking money!

Now!

Go on.

The money, you son of a bitch!

Here.

You, too, fucker!

You, too, bitch. Come on.

Smiley, come on.

The money! Son of a bitch!

Here!

Take out your money!

Take the money!

Quickly! Give him the money!

Here.

Give me your money!

She doesn't have any!

Hey, Casper.

Look at this pretty girl.

Like a little Salma Hayek.

Please!

Get back!

Turn around!

Everyone turn around!

Papa!

Shut up! Bitch!

Shut up, bitch!

Shut up!

Shut up! You're going to like it.

You didn't bring more?

You fucker!

Shut up, bitch!

Smiley, get off the train!

But Casper…

Get the fuck off!

Go, Smiley, go!

He's dangerous. There may be more of them.

Are you okay?

He's not doing anything.

He's a gangbanger.

We should throw him off the train.

Border Patrol!

La Mara Salvatrucha.

Homies.

This problem we've got…

El Casper.

We need to go now and kill that fucker.

We can't.

Not with the chavalas on top of us.

We'd lose everything.

We'll spread the word.

Sooner or later he'll appear.

And when that happens…

I'm no bitch. I came back.

You're lucky I haven't shot you already, Smiley.

You don't have respect for the hood, right?

If you couldn't kill Casper,

How do we know you didn't help him escape?

That's what happened, son of a bitch?

That's what happened?

I didn't do anything.

I'm going to banish you from the hood, son of a bitch.

No, Sol, please.

Then prove to me that you're no bitch.

Send me.

Send me, to prove I have respect for the hood.

Send me,

to find him…

and to kill him.

Easy, Sol! Easy!

Easy.

Get the fuck out of here.

Do it and kill him to prove yourself.

If you don't kill him, you'll be marked, too…

and then never come home.

The little fucker doesn't even know where his own dick is.

We have to call the leaders in LA.

That dog won't even have a rock to hide under.

SOL - GREEN LIGHT, YOU'RE DEAD.

Thank you.

My name is Sayra.

My name is Willy.

He killed Lil' Mago.

He's been greenlit.

It's the rules.

How are you going to kill Casper?

Cool!

How many bullets?

Enough to kill you guys.

Ambush him.

Ambush him.

Sleep. I'll stay awake.

TIERRA BLANCA VERACRUZ

We were very poor. Only had beans to eat.

Cut some lemons for breakfast.

Do you have the cilantro?

Get some cilantro. Please.

We're all right. So far, we had no problems.

Aren't you going to wash up?

It feels nice.

I don't know. Maybe later…

when there are less people.

Then what will you do?

Dunno.

Are you going to stay here for the night?

Sayra!

Sayra!

If there's food, I'll bring you some later.

What were you talking to him about?

We can help him.

Are you crazy? We have to stay far away from him.

-Are you giving me an order? -You don't understand.

He's a killer.

-He's in trouble. -And yes, I'm ordering you.

He's in trouble.

I don't care about him. I care about you and Orlando.

Look. There's still a long way to go.

We've got to be alert.

We can't let anyone separate us, or we're screwed. Okay?

Who's the leader?

I am.

I'm Smiley from the Confetti.

Are you tattooed?

Who's the leader of the Confetti gang now?

El Sol.

We heard what happened.

Are you hungry or thirsty?

Ever been on one of those?

Me neither.

Near a highway in Texas,

I saw the factory where they make them.

It had this huge sign, like a globe, all lit up and bright.

Man, I wanted to climb it.

If we pass it, I'll think of you.

That's if you get that far.

I will. I know I will.

Back home I went with my friend Clarissa…

to visit a neighbor,

an old woman named Mrs. Eleanor,

a psychic.

In a scary voice, she said,

"You'll make it to the USA,

not in God's hands…

but in those of the Devil."

If you come with us,

you can show me that sign you were talking about.

We're going to New Jersey.

Because they will come for you, won't they?

I guess so.

Eventually they'll find me.

The Mara has a good memory.

Aren't you afraid?

To be killed?

No, I live from one day to the next.

The only hard part is not knowing when or where it's going to happen.

Are you sure you haven't seen him?

No.

He's got a teardrop tattoo right here.

No, sweetheart. I haven't seen anybody like that.

No one with tattoos for days except you guys.

Sipe!

Hey!

Sons of bitches.

I know who you're looking for.

He's got a teardrop tattoo right here.

Thank you!

We're going to have to get down.

What?

We're going to have to get down.

Why?

There's always Border Patrol

and Judicial Police at this station.

What should we do?

We'll get off and run around it,

as fast as we can.

Nice day for a run, isn't it?

We'll check this side.

Meet us at the far end of the station.

Hey, sup?

The Eighteen rules this hood, son of a bitch!

He's from La Mara.

Take out your fucking gun.

Don't worry, homie. These fuckers can't aim for shit.

Except that one.

Where the fuck were you guys?

You didn't hear the shots?

Yes, homie. But we almost caught the guy.

So you left us alone to fight those losers?

And?

Where's Casper?

On the train.

I want to kill that son of a bitch.

Get in.

Smiley, up front.

You were just going to leave?

What do you want?

I'm going with you.

God. How'd I get myself into this?

I can't take care of you.

I didn't ask you to.

For the love of God, Sayra.

Don't you get it?

I'm a dead man.

Don't worry, Willy.

Everything will be okay.

You fucked up.

You have no idea what you've gotten yourself into.

Horacio, Sayra's not here.

Oh, Casper.

Why did you come here?

You put me in a tough position.

I can do this, but it won't be easy.

I have some arrangements to make.

Hungry?

You two can sleep on the couch.

You want to clean up?

You're a tiny little thing.

Let me see what I have.

You said you didn't have any family.

I don't.

She's not my aunt.

I used to do side jobs for her in her territory.

She can get us to the border?

And you're coming with me?

Let's see.

Try this on,

see if it fits.

The shower is through there.

Stay away from the window.

I don't want anyone to know you two are here.

What are you doing with this girl?

I'm going to help her get to the border.

Find her family.

And what's in it for you?

Nothing.

That's good, Casper.

So you're going to the border.

You know what's waiting for you?

They already called, you know.

What'd you tell them?

Nothing.

The truth.

That I ain't seen you. But that was before.

You won't tell them anything, right?

I always do what's right.

Maybe she got off to take a pee and the train left her?

She's gone.

So we wait here.

We'll wait for her here, catch the next train.

No, we can't wait for her.

Why?

We keep going, or we won't make it, either.

Hurry up!

Hurry up!

-Here. -Thanks.

Don't thank me.

LIL' MAGO, CASPER WON'T GET AWAY

Not more.

-Sol. -Are they on the road?

Yes, as we speak.

Get in.

Are you scared?

No.

As long as I'm with you, I'm fine.

No, you're not okay because you're with me.

I don't care. I trust you.

See this scar here?

The police shot me when I was leading…

a group of pollos to the border for my gang.

I got this…

from a fight with some chavalas over territory.

This is from the night

the homies I defended all my life…

killed the girl I loved.

And I couldn't do anything for her.

You still trust me, Sayra?

We both know loss.

All I know is…

I fucked up my life,

and now I'm afraid I fucked up your life, too.

Train!

Sons of bitches!

Idiots!

Fucking immigrants, get out of here!

We don't want you here!

-I love you. -Say it like you mean it.

I love you so much I don't know how to say it, how to…

express myself.

If you had to measure it?

No.

I couldn't. I'd need kilometers.

I'd need the whole universe to tell you how much I love you.

-Take me to the cemetery tomorrow. -No, I…

-Why not? -It can't be done.

We'll see each other later. Look…

You wouldn't like it anyways. How about…

you turn that off and kiss me?

Papers, please. Where do you come from?

Where are you going?

You can see what I'm driving. It's just junk.

Okay, go.

Willy…

Get down, assholes!

-Let's go! -Get down!

That way.

Get down!

REYNOSA TAMAULIPAS

Check the black car, man.

Nothing.

There's nothing here.

Motherfucker.

This card is your ticket.

It's valid for three days.

DIVINE PROVIDENCE SHELTER REYNOSA - TAMAULIPAS

After that, you will have to leave to make room for new immigrants.

You'll have two meals a day. Lunch and dinner.

Please respect the rules written on the wall.

Hey, you.

We don't want your kind here.

You're a fucking gangbanger.

I was.

Not anymore.

That doesn't matter.

You can't be here.

Let go of him, kid.

Let him go.

Hey.

Wow, I can't believe you're here, too.

Have you seen my father and uncle?

What?

Your uncle has been deported.

And your father's dead.

When we cross, promise me something.

What?

No matter what happens, you'll find your family in New Jersey.

You've got little sisters that don't have a father now.

I'd just be a burden to them.

Like I am for everyone else.

Not to me.

Besides, you could help them.

Work or something.

You'll go with me?

Of course.

We're looking for a rafter.

You want to cross?

Let's go.

I can only take one across at a time.

And the money?

After we cross.

Hurry up.

Turn around.

Hurry. Get in the water.

No!

We have to go back!

Let go of me!

Let go!

If you get off, you'll drown!

Smiley.

Mara forever, homie.

SEARS

9-0-8-5-5-5…

0-1-8-7.

Operator.

Collect call.

Your name?

Sayra.

-Hello? -Sayra?

How are you?

Yessenia?