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Could you go to my house and get the mail? Someone should be seen there. I

know it's only for one night, but there have been robberies lately.

Maybe you want to sleep there.

We'll call.

See you Wednesday.

Love, Joe.

Hi, this is Jo.

I'm away for a couple of days, but if you leave me a message, I'll call you

when I get back.

Thanks. Bye.

Hi, this is Linda from JC Equipment Rental.

Your bill is way overdue. Please let's settle that matter. Call me at 777-0953.

Thank you.

I had already fallen for Tony, and one day he came to me and told me that he

loved me and wanted to paint me for the rest of our lives.

She asked me to paint her all the time. She became obsessed with my painting

just her.

She'd get furious if I painted anything else.

One night I woke up and I found him crouching at the edge of the bed, just

studying my face.

She asked me to sketch her while we were making love. I told her it would be

impossible, so she made me keep my pad by the bed.

What a man.

Let's throw it.

Don't feel like watching the movie?

Why?

Well, I have seen it before.

Yeah, I guess you have.

No, thanks.

But I have a good idea.

After I introduce you, everybody's going to be gone in about an hour.

And you're going to be hanging around with nothing to do.

You'll probably be hungry.

How about if I buy you dinner?

That's exactly what I'd like to do.

I have three hours until my train leaves for New York, and I am starving.

Great. How about Chinese food?

Yeah.

He must have still been in school.

Tom.

David.

Ned.

No.

I was waiting tables for the award.

It was really too much. And so we begged her, please, please, please, please put

us in the kitchen because we didn't want to be seen, you know, at this event.

Meanwhile, the pet refused the award.

So anyway.

As you said, she wasn't insane. She said she was fucking crazy.

Oh, my God, it's late. I've got to get my train back to New York.

Oh, no.

You can't go home tonight.

Spend the night with me.

You can go back home tomorrow instead.

Stay.

Really.

I'm going to have to go to the bathroom.

Joe, what are you doing?

Well, I like him.

And besides, it wouldn't mean anything. It's just for one night.

But if you do do it, it would mean something.

I think I'm just a little bit drunk.

No, you can't stay.

I have a bad sleeping car, and I can't get a refund if I decide to leave

tomorrow.

And besides, I really do have to get back to New York.

I'll come with you.

I have to go to New York soon.

Stop it, Richard.

You have my number. You can call me when you get to the city.

Well, at least let me drive you to the station to see you off. No.

I'm going to leave you here and grab a cab.

I had a wonderful time, really.

Honey? Yeah?

I just realized today that I'd forgotten about the dead baby.

It amazes me now that I didn't know what fucking was.

But I thought that I had done it when I hadn't.

And thought for years that I was pregnant.

And that the baby didn't get born because it was dead.

And I was always in fear of it falling out of me at any moment.

Perhaps in a room full of people.

I spent years not knowing I was a virgin.

And later when I found out I had just lost my virginity, it just felt

so meaningless.

Everybody knows about the abuse of Indians in Guatemala.

This is the first time that they've actually come to us and asked us for

help. How can we not respond to that?

Agatha, we can't just respond to any demands made of us. And if we do decide

to respond, we have to be cautious.

It could be just some form of harassment.

You call this harassment?

They get kicked out of their land to make place for a big American

corporation and given useless desert.

Then oil is found in the desert and they're kicking them out again.

Then, if they protest, they get massacred.

You call this harassment?

It's an emergency.

Okay, let's hear what Jonathan has to say, since he's the one who wants to go.

I've been down there twice before.

I'm tight with the authorities, my contacts are good, and I speak the

language. Besides, Agatha and I have discussed this extensively, and my

decision is that I'd like to go. American reporters have disappeared

there recently.

Also, we must be extremely careful how we handle this thing.

We've been accused of collaborating with terrorists in the past, and it's been

very damaging to our work.

Jonathan, if you went, how long would it take you to come up with a good

investigation and report?

Two weeks, three weeks at the most.

Why don't you prepare a detailed memo about the whole thing, and then a

decision will have to be made.

In the meantime, what I need is lunch.

That is an excellent idea.

May I talk to you for a minute later?

So, what do you think?

Well, we're going to have to work magic on that memo.

Why can't we think of something sensational like communist threat?

With a line like that, we could get whatever we needed.

You know, that's a great idea.

Listen, I have to go. I'll talk to you later.

Okay.

February 16th.

Dream.

I suddenly got extremely old.

I could tell this by the drawings I was making.

The lines were all shaky.

One of the drawings was a bent cock.

Like the picture he had drawn on my arm the night before in a bar.

Oh, God, I'm glad you're here.

I'm totally beat.

I spent all this extra money on a sleeping car.

I didn't sleep at all.

How are you?

Well, I'm fine.

Your mail's over there on the table. Nothing interesting.

I slept here last night. I kept myself quite busy.

What did you do to keep busy here?

Notice anything?

Like that?

Oh, come on.

I always make the bed when I stay here.

I don't believe it.

What in the world possessed you to do this?

It's incredible.

It's so neat.

I don't know how you do it.

I have been living with this mess for years.

I learned a lot.

You can learn a lot from somebody's book.

Well, thank you.

Let me take you to dinner.

It's wrong.

How was your trip?

I've had it with this one.

I'm not going around with it anymore.

People liked it, but I'm sick of it.

I'm much more interested in that Catalina story.

century woman who rebelled.

She must really have been something.

Joe, what are you doing?

Well, I like him.

And it wouldn't mean anything. It's just for one night.

What were you thinking about?

Catalina.

Listen, I'll get the phone. I have to go to the bathroom anyway.

Hello?

Yeah, I'm back.

Good.

Tomorrow after work?

It's my last day until I've finished.

That place near you?

Fine.

Bye.

over three months' leave of absence.

Well, I'm getting away with it.

I think that my supervisor gets off on the fact that I'm doing other things.

So, Marlene, what's wrong with the budget?

We can get students to work for very little, and I have some friends who work

for nothing. I've done the same for them.

I think it'll be all right. We just have to go ahead with it. I don't know what

else we can do.

Joe, how can you ask me to work with this?

I can't ask people to work for this kind of money.

And don't think I'm not committed to this project because I am.

I've just got to be professional about it. Look, Marlene, you knew this was low

budget when you got involved.

And you know what that means. It means begging and borrowing and working for

almost nothing.

I don't know what this got-to-be-professional business is all

of a sudden.

Hey. Look at this. Look what I found.

If this isn't a good sign, I don't know what is.

Jo, cut it out. What's the matter with you? That's $5. Oh, yeah?

When's the last time you found money?

Anyway, don't worry.

It's not public yet, but I've just heard about a grant that's coming through.

What grant?

I can't really say right now, but I think we can go ahead with it.

Joe, we can't go ahead on just one grant.

Look, Marlene, we can go ahead on one grant because we have to.

It's as simple as that.

You wanted to work on this project, and this is the situation.

Take it or leave it.

Do you have any liquor here?

May I help you?

Yes, I called about the necklace.

Oh, yes.

Yes, it's a good piece. I can give you $2,000 for it.

That's not enough.

You know it's worth much more than that.

You know, my grandmother gave it to me.

Oh, really?

Yes.

I can remember watching her dress when I was a little girl.

It was a very elaborate ritual.

All of the layers and things.

Her skin was so soft.

And her toes, they weren't round. They were sort of angular from all those

years of being in her shoes.

I'm sorry.

I must be boring you.

Yeah, it's fine.

$2,000 and it's all yours.

Cash?

Yes, please.

You got my message.

Wait till you hear what I did today.

Marlene said... What the hell are you doing?

You've been drinking and it's not even 7 o'clock.

Where the hell did all this money come from? Marlene said that there wasn't

enough money.

So I sold a piece of my grandmother's jewelry.

I didn't know your grandmother had value of jewelry.

No, she didn't.

I mean, this was the only piece some man gave to her a long time ago.

Anyway... I got $2,000 for it.

There's one lot more.

I just finished cleaning up this place.

I can't believe it. Look at it.

I need a lot more. There's stuff all over the floor.

I don't know. Maybe the grants will come through.

I'm sorry to Marlene about it.

There's money all over the place.

And you haven't even finished unpacking from your trip.

I don't know why I bother cleaning up for you.

It's useless. What's wrong with you?

You're half-clothed. I didn't ask you to do anything for me, did I? Oh, Agatha,

I'm not interested in your Catholic self-sacrificing martyr trick. It's

boring.

I'm sorry.

Oh, I'm sorry.

Forgive me, please.

I'm just a mess.

Oh, I loved it when you cleaned up in here for me.

Oh, you know I never would have done it.

Promise?

I'm sorry.

Didn't mean to be nasty.

Well, if you don't stop being so ugly, I'm not going to give you the present I

bought for you today.

Present? What?

Where is it? I see!

You go sit in there.

Sit down.

You know what you are sometimes, Agatha?

A big cliché.

And you love it.

Sometimes clichés can be sexy.

You really want a cock.

What?

No.

Sometimes, maybe.

I don't want to be a man.

No?

It's disgusting.

Anyway, you got it wrong.

I have two.

Two? Two.

Oh, I'm sorry. I must not have noticed.

Can I try again? No.

Oh, if only my father could see me now.

Him again?

The respected Brazilian lawyer?

So how come you became a lawyer like him anyway?

Oh, I don't know.

I preferred identifying with him to falling in love with him.

How's that for a cheap analysis?

Sick.

You know I'm a misogynist.

The church taught me to hate women.

That's all right.

I know you love us.

I want to see it.

What?

I want to see it.

You want to see what?

Come on.

You never let me. Come on.

Lie right here under the light and relax.

Otherwise, we operate.

I want to keep it as mine. No, I want to see it. No.

It's all right. Look, it's beautiful.

We won't be struck by lightning.

My grandfather was struck by lightning. I know it can happen.

Well, don't worry.

He was probably a very bad man, and we're good.

Here, sleep with me. You'll be safe now.

Catalina, I love you.

I love you too, Angelina. I wish we could go out and see the world.

I mean, I don't remember it. I was just a baby.

They just brought you here last year.

Tell me what it's like.

You have spent the night here, Angelina.

Catalina, I suppose you're responsible for this. For what?

You are in the house of God, and you've committed evil.

This is unforgivable.

You'll be punished, and this will never happen again.

No, we didn't do anything wrong. I was afraid of the storm. Came out of my room

after saying my prayers.

Catalina, you have no humility.

I promise you, you will never see your friend again.

I will send her to another convent.

Immediately.

Catalina, you will have to learn that there are certain groups of people who

need leadership.

For example, women and children.

If they have no leadership, they can easily lose control and become harmful.

They must be taught properly and civilized.

The right to this leadership is derived from God.

It is our responsibility to see that it is carried out.

Catalina, your eternal soul is in danger.

I... I think this is a little obvious.

Do you think we can do something with it?

Well, look, she's going to get out of this easily.

Now, this is too big. She's very small. But that's not the way it works. Put

this around like this, and then you tie it not over here. No, no, no, look it,

look it. I bought one of these last time I was in here.

I want something better, something stronger.

May I show you something?

This is a stronger one.

Yes.

I'd like to see one of these dildos. Do you want that in leather or rubber?

I'd like something very realistic.

Well, that depends on what you think is realistic.

Large, medium, small, pattern.

Collar will be medium.

Wrist restraint.

Nipple lift.

Oh, yeah, yeah, I forgot.

I need a Judy doll.

It's for a party. You don't have any more in the stuff.

I'll take the display item.

I'll come back some other time.

Thank you all.

So this is what you do when you go into the gut.

You disappear.

Do you know I haven't laid eyes on you in a week?

I told you it was going to be like this.

But we stole a few minutes this afternoon.

Aren't you glad to see me?

Yes.

Well,

it's good I've had to work hard lately so I can get away.

But I had nothing to do but work.

It's no big deal.

They all come here to make out.

But when you look at them, they're everywhere.

Oh, I'm going to go down to the water.

Not in bed.

It

may

never do that to you.

I feel guilty staying away in the phone. What if something happens?

Oh, come on. Oh, I'm sorry. Please.

Why can't you ever relax?

I can't believe I wanted to make this.

I'm sure it's going to be disgusting.

Not at all.

My grandmother used to make it all the time.

You know what else?

Bull's paws.

Yuck. They're very tender. That's revolting.

So.

Do you want to hear a story I read in the Times today?

Oh, no.

There was this man. He was a retired Marine captain, and five years ago, one

of his sons shot him and his wife dead.

I don't know why these stories attract you.

I call them appetizers.

Anyway, just yesterday, another of his sons and a daughter were caught and

charged with disinterring his remains.

You see, they got this idea that he had the number of a Swiss bank account

engraved in the gold crowns of his teeth.

So they dug him up, they pulled out his teeth, and they took them to a jeweler

to have a look.

Capitone. Well, there was no number, and they got caught.

I don't think I can bear slicing it.

I'll do it.

Barbarian.

Anyway,

what I want to know is...

What can they do to him? I mean, they didn't hurt anybody.

He was already dead.

And he must have been pretty awful to be killed by one of his children and dug up

for his teeth by two others.

I know it's morbid, but for a Swiss bank account, I think it's understandable,

no?

You're not supposed to go around digging up dead people.

You're supposed to be able to be buried and rest in peace.

You're the one who's morbid.

Tongue's finished.

Chris. The guy from California prison. The guy from California prison.

Sam.

Robbie.

Wanted trap.

Angry.

Tired.

Paul.

How's it going?

You look exhausted.

Well, my boss is finally going to let Jonathan go on a trip. But my God, it

was a battle. So you won.

How do you feel?

Well, he's excited about going, but I'm nervous.

It's the nature of his work.

And it's dangerous down there.

Oh, I really wish I could spend some time with you.

We have to finish shooting that scene where Catalina gets dressed as a man.

I'm sorry.

Well, I'm going to stay at my house tonight.

God knows how long you're going to be out.

Good night.

Good night.

Now remember, one of the interesting things about her was that she was never

able to live in this world as herself, as a woman, or taught about being a

woman.

First of all, she was a nun, which she didn't want to be.

And then she had to live the rest of her life as a man to hide and survive.

So what really has to come across is real androgyny, awkwardness, especially

in the beginning.

later we should forget that she was female because I'm sure she did.

Hey, you ate my sausage.

I know you did.

I can smell it.

You're a bad boy.

God will punish you.

You're going to go to hell.

You're supposed to feed me. Hey, don't you tell me what I'm supposed to do.

I'm going to beat you with my cane, you good child of the devil.

You think you're the only orphan in the streets?

I'll get another orphan to lead me. You almost fell into a puddle that's as

large as a lake. You're going to have to jump across.

Well, lead me to the very edge of the puddle so that I can jump over it.

All right. You are at the very edge, but you must jump as hard and as far as you

can.

Don't leave me.

I can't see.

A child of the devil.

Boy, please, help me.

Cut.

Chris, how was that? Okay, it was good for camera.

I don't know.

It doesn't end.

Let's take a break.

Claudia, let's go talk about it. Okay.

What are you doing down

there? You hear me?

Did you work all night? How'd it go?

I want it to be over.

I can't stand it anymore.

I don't know what the hell made me think I wanted to make another movie.

After the last one, I swore I'd never do it again.

I don't know what I'm doing.

I can't make decisions anymore.

I've lost all sense of the whole thing.

And they all stand around and look at me like I'm from outer space or something.

Not one of them has ever made a movie, and yet they all know just how it should

be done.

I guess they all learned it in film school.

I'm going to have myself committed.

Oh, Agatha.

Why aren't you here?

Listen, you're just overwhelmed and exhausted.

Don't think about when it's over. What do you have to do today?

I have to meet with Tom, my assistant director.

I have to talk to him about a lens he has to rent.

Why don't you come over after that?

Why is he doing that stuff?

I thought that was Marlene's job.

I'd rather meet with him myself.

There's some things I have to explain to him that Marlene doesn't know.

Anyway, I like him.

I'd like to get to know him better.

He's nice.

And he's interested in helping me edit just to learn.

I'm going to be editing some of the script after that, so why don't you come

over? I'm going to be writing and changing the script while you're

shooting it.

I like him. I bet you like him.

He's nice.

I'd like to get to know him better. You'd like to add him to your list,

perhaps?

He's going to work for free.

I'm teaching him better to you.

Oh, Lord.

I bet you like him.

No. No.

Hi. What a surprise.

Come on in.

Don't get too close.

It's wonderful to see you. You too.

How are you?

I've been so dizzy.

Migraines again?

I can't talk standing here. My knees are weak.

Let's go to the bedroom. I'll tell you all about it. Okay.

Do you want a cup of tea?

Oh.

Do you have anything for the nurse?

I have just the thing.

Severin. I'll be right in. Good.

Eric, all living things need light.

Don't you go organizing things in there.

Okay.

Thank you.

Oh, God.

I'm so exhausted.

I think there must be something wrong with my brain.

I get dizzy when I lie down.

I can only sleep sitting up.

This has been going on for a week now.

I think I need another checkup.

Didn't you have this six months ago?

No.

Wasn't anything like this.

Are you regular?

Clockwork.

It's his.

Balance. Do you have an ear infection?

Son of a... Oh.

I've been sneezing a lot lately.

I think my allergies are flaring up again.

Really? That doesn't sound good.

It's not like having something wrong with the brain, though, is it?

No, it's true.

In fact, you don't look well.

You look tired.

There are circles under your eyes.

You think?

I'm not well at all.

Would you pass me a Kleenex?

How's Joe?

How's the film going?

No, it's going all right, I guess.

They have a disaster every day. It seems to be a part of it all.

What's really driving me crazy is what else is going on in her life.

Is she sick?

I think she's having an affair.

What? With some man who's working on the film. And what's really too much is she

pretends like nothing's going on.

What shall I do?

Shall I confront her?

Are you sure?

Positive.

Doesn't sound like her.

I know she's no saint.

She really loves you.

I don't know.

I keep thinking that she knows that I found her out.

And that she's playing a game on me.

What shall I do?

Shall I keep playing the game?

Or shall I put a stop to the whole thing?

Maybe she's challenging me to something.

Listen. I've got an idea.

I'm supposed to see her soon.

When? Next week. Unless she postpones it again. Let me see what I can find out.

She usually lets me know what she's up to.

You're obviously torturing yourself.

And I'm really not sure you're right.

Let's drink our tea. It'll make us feel better now.

And I'll give you a call as soon as I know something.

Okay?

Would you pass me another Kleenex?

Look.

Listen Agatha, I don't mean to sound negative.

But what do you expect getting involved with a woman whose sexual history is the

most of men?

Look, all my life I've been told what's right and what's wrong.

From my father, by nuns, by priests.

And finally I discover something that gives me great pleasure.

And there's another ideology telling me that it's wrong. Do you want to know

what I think about that?

It's not about being right or wrong.

Try and understand, for instance.

Why do you get pleasure from something that causes you such pain?

Oh, come on, Julia.

I'm not the bleeding mascus that you make me out to be. And you know it.

I'm not the first woman that she's ever been with.

Okay. Well, with Kate, I know she's gay.

She's been with women.

I don't get jealous of men.

So what? You get jealous of women.

Anyhow, I don't care about that stuff.

I love her, and she loves me.

I want her.

I should have never gone through a diary.

It's true. You're a thief.

But I couldn't help myself.

I wanted to possess her, and now...

It feels like I'm possessed.

Sounds like God is punishing you.

I wish it were that simple.

It's funny.

I'm just looking for my baby, and I'm trying to make him come.

I've been listening to it a lot lately.

You know what the story's about?

I think that the essence of tragedy is that

life interferes with love and love gets destroyed.

And it always happens because of some misunderstanding between lovers.

She's miserable.

Because her lover has left her.

Because he thinks that she was untrue, but she wasn't untrue.

She was sleepwalking.

It always seems to happen that way.

They find out or one finds out the truth.

And then it's too late.

And they go mad or kill themselves or something.

I like this story because it's weird.

It has a happy ending.

Most people lose each other.

really curious you

don't

know what they're doing

now

you're becoming jealous you don't know who you're jealous of

you're jealous of both of them

They're doing this very intimate thing with each other and you're all alone.

Now under all the covers you see his penis.

And you start to realize what they're doing.

Come on, this is pain.

Now you finally understand what this is all about.

Now you're starting to feel excited, too.

Good.

Good.

Now you see the knife.

Yes, now run in.

Cut.

Good, wonderful. Thank you, Claudia.

Let's leave the set dressed for tonight and just pre-light for the lover scene

tomorrow. Everything else is a wrap.

Okay. It's a wrap.

Did you see it? I think it went well, no?

It's a really hard scene for her to do, but I think it's going to be really good

and weird.

Let's go for a drink when we finish wrapping up here.

That's a good idea. I'm dead tired.

You look a little shattered yourself.

You know, tomorrow's our last day.

Finally.

Be back in a minute.

I know. I'm sorry. I've had to postpone everything.

I know. Let me look at you.

What is this?

Come on. Get that back.

Oh, Eric.

I really need this.

Me too.

How are you? Oh, I'm okay.

I still feel a little bit lost since we stopped shooting.

It's always like this. I never seem to get used to it.

I understand just what you mean.

My back was out again all last week.

I'm not going to even bother telling you.

I know you're not interested.

I have to be interested.

I've been listening to this for ten years.

Well, at least Agatha still cares.

Speaking of which, how did you get through the shoot?

Oh, I think she ended up feeling abandoned.

She's not quite over it yet.

She still seems somehow suspicious.

I must say, I don't blame her.

Imagine all sorts of things.

Oh, come on. In an intense situation like that.

Harry. There's always sex all over the place.

Come on, Jo. I know you.

I didn't notice.

Really?

Really? I think this time everybody was just too tired to be bothered.

There might have been a few things going on.

I was too busy to notice.

Nothing juicy, I assure you.

Are you telling me everything?

Everything.

Okay. Well, now.

Well, do I have a story for you. Do you believe everyone has a double?

I thought about that.

There's another Eric Marshall.

What? Yeah. This guy called me, asked for Eric Marshall, but it wasn't me he

wanted. I tried to convince him he made a mistake, but he kept insisting he

recognized my voice.

He even accused me of playing some kind of sadistic game with him.

This is the eerie part. You described his Eric. Could have been my twin.

Eric, have you gone mad and started impersonating yourself?

I must admit, I began to wonder.

Except, his Eric seems to go out every night.

Dancing, drinking, drugs, sex. You know me. If I carried on like that, I'd be

dead in two weeks, right? At least you'd think so.

Can I tell my story?

All right.

He became increasingly distraught.

How could I do that at the bar in front of him?

How could I be so cruel?

Was I trying to make him jealous?

He went on and on like that. His jealousy was so palpable, I could feel

it on my skin.

He was so out of control, he hung up before I could convince him it wasn't me

he wanted.

God, I felt so sorry for him.

Can you imagine?

He'd pulled me into this thing that was so personal and painful.

What did you do?

What could I do?

Nothing.

wished I could tell it to the person it was really about.

Let's go steamroll.

That's a good idea.

Thank you. Thanks for meeting me here.

You're welcome.

How are you?

Okay, not great.

But I'll get along.

I got you a little something.

Yeah? Mm-hmm.

Why are you giving this to me?

I don't know.

I saw it and I thought of you.

Wonderful.

Well, thank you very much. Well, you're welcome very much.

Now, I know what you really want to talk about.

I finally saw Jo yesterday.

What'd she say?

I didn't ask her anything directly, but I am certain everything is okay and you

have nothing to worry about.

Are you sure? She would have let me know if she was up to anything, and she

didn't.

And anyway, from what she said, she's so busy and preoccupied with this film of

hers, how could she be doing anything else? And you should have known that.

Agatha, stop making yourself so miserable.

At some point, you've got to decide to trust Joe.

Well, maybe you're right.

Come to see if I can rescue you from the dungeon of war?

How's it going?

Okay, I think.

You're just in time.

I've just finished cutting the voyeur scene.

Want to see it?

I'm fine.

Very good.

If you'll wait just a minute, I'll finish cleaning up here and we can leave

together.

Let's go to dinner.