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I mean, what's the use of having a beautiful body and beautiful breasts or

a beautiful cock if nobody sees it all?

Twenty-five years ago, I started taking large format portraits with an antique

view camera in my East Village studio.

My first subjects were New York artists.

Soon I was asked to shoot actors, and then musicians, writers,

and eventually even presidents.

Now I have a new subject.

Horn stars.

Here it comes.

You can't just come in this business and think that you're going to make millions

of dollars.

Everybody is fucking someone to get somewhere in life. We're just doing it

on film.

When you look at the range of pornography and the different characters

who have chosen the profession of pornography, just who are these people

and why are they so inaccessible to us? We seem never to tire of looking at

naked bodies. That is true.

I've been thinking about shooting porn stars for a while, particularly nude,

because I've never shot nude.

And I imagined that these are people who would be comfortable nude.

This is a mock-up for the book. I've asked 15 writers to contribute essays.

Nancy Friday, Gore Vidal, Lou Reed, all these different voices.

And then it kind of leads into the portraits, which are going to be clothes

and then nude portraits of each porn star in the exact same pose.

Like Goya.

And it's funny because when you see porn stars in their everyday clothes, it's

almost more startling than the way the world knows you, which is naked, I

guess.

I worked at the Scores, the gentleman club in Manhattan, before I started

making movies. And my husband really wanted me to make a movie for a wedding

present. I was appalled at the idea at first.

Clothes.

And that's beautiful. Just stay like that.

Chin up slightly.

But then the more I thought about it, the more I watched, the more I got

turned on by the idea.

And I figured, like, no one would ever find out, and I could do it and get this

little fantasy over with.

But I got porn fever, so.

I chose to be in this industry because I am comfortable.

With my sexuality and performing on film, I was very sexually aware at a

very young age.

And 16 was more watching pornos myself.

18, wanting to be a porn star, just not knowing how, I'm choosing to make myself

a sex symbol.

I think every girl defines herself differently as a porn star.

I don't live the lifestyle of a porn star. I look at it as a business. I'm

just an actress.

having sex on camera some girls are you know addicted to sex i'm not one of

those i can turn on and off really easy so just the way you are is wonderful you

can't have some redeeming credible presentation of sex in america even

though it's dude porn so that's coming out remember if you're nude you won't

have pockets so right maybe what happens if you fold your arms in front because

I love women, and you don't degrade something you love.

In the old days, you know, it was more about people who really enjoyed sex.

A female, you know, if she enjoys her sexuality and it comes across like that,

she is a sex goddess.

But if she's there looking at her watch and her nails while she's doing double

anal, people are like, well, she's just a slut and she needs to be on some

street corner. Because, you know, it's not about that. It's about...

art, in a way, and enjoying, okay, it's art, the art of fucking.

I got into porno because I grew up in a time and a place where I was told that I

could make my own happiness.

I was reading feminist texts in the early 70s about ourselves and the joy of

sex, and I knew that these things were me. They spoke to me.

For some reason, I'm comfortable with the idea of doing this in front of

thousands of people. Right on.

So...

For me, the mental awareness of SM heightens the physical sensation and

vice versa.

The biggest problem about this house is an electric stove. That just annoys the

hell out of me. We had some priorities that were very firm when we set out to

look for a plate.

I really like three-way sex. I like sex with women.

I still have fantasies, and I do it, of rather extreme sexual acts. The floor is

rubber.

It's like a sex garage. Everything slides.

We also like to go out to dinner in nice restaurants. We like to shop.

We're actually, in many ways, very normal bourgeois Americans.

I'm actually currently the biggest gay male porn star. There's nobody in the

industry who has a bigger penis than I do.

I grew up in very rural Ohio in a one-stop light, very Republican type

place.

One week.

I may have hooked up with a guy. One week I may have hooked up with a girl. I

was married for four years.

For the past three years, I've won best group scene at the Gayvians. I won best

sex scene also.

I've won best three-way. I've won best oral, best performer, best supporting

actor. So I've done quite well.

I came from a family that would be like the Huxtables, the Bill Cosby, the

middle-class family.

I was daddy's girl. I mean, I really could never do wrong when it came to my

dad. My mother knew I was different when it came to expressing myself.

When I was 18, I did my first movie, and that was amazing. We had a birthday

party for me. We had everything.

And I blew out my candles. That's how I blew out the first sexy.

When I first got into the business, there was only two other black

performers.

I was shocked, and they weren't being portrayed right, you know, just within,

like, how Hollywood is.

Either they were playing the gardener, the maid. You would see titles, Black

Fudge, Swirl.

You know, you would see other movies with the blonde girls and their names on

the box covers.

When I started doing films, all my films were interracial. There were not enough

black people in the business to do all black films.

It was very important for them to portray me as Heather Hunter, not as

black Heather Hunter.

To me, honestly, I think I'm the Halle Berry of porn.

When I was a student in the law school, I didn't think about becoming an adult

porn star. But once I came to the West, of course I couldn't go on and study. I

mean, I didn't have money for that, and I wasn't really interested in that. I

had a body, I had, you know...

I had a face, so I started doing modeling.

A little bit too short, 5'11". So I decided, okay, I will pose for nude

magazines, for adult magazines.

And then it went down the hill.

Time to work today.

I studied a lot. I was a real nerd in school. I was 23, and I had moved to L

.A. I wanted to be a nurse anesthetist, so I was going to school for that.

A Playboy scout said, you know, are you interested in posing for Playboy?

And I thought, Playboy?

Take my clothes off. I don't think so. And they said, well, if you become a

centerfold, you get $25,000. And I said, all right, where do I go? You can do it

like this.

You know, just sitting like this. I don't know.

That way you can see this. I don't know. Can you see? We can see everything.

Everyone always goes, oh.

You're so lucky.

You have the most wonderful life.

All the sex must be great.

You get paid so much money.

And, you know, you come into this business, you give up a lot. And you

kind of give up your soul in a way. Once you do porn, there's no going back. And

there's still, as mainstream as the industry wants to go, there's still a

really big stigma attached to porn stars.

To be a porn star would require a certain measure of self.

distancing, an ability to detach from your body.

They're narcissists. They need people to want them and desire them.

And whether they were abused, and I think a lot were, nothing great happens

to you because you become a porn star when you're 18.

I never wanted to be a porn star.

It just happened.

I never said I'm straight or gay. I just always say I'm sexual.

I just love sex.

Just look at the lens now, Lucas. That's great. Like that. Good.

And... I'm actually retired.

Finally.

Too old.

I think we could try for this pose that I kind of... It's a play on Cezanne.

So come on around here.

I usually don't tell people this because, you know, all the girls go on

Howard Stern and say I was molested.

I was put in foster care three times, and it was either a group home or go

back to my mother.

I had to sit there and look my mother in the eye and tell her that she was not

capable of taking care of my sister.

And I got custody, got legal documents.

I lived on Top Ramen.

Me and my sister had top ramen and canned olives. Those were her favorites.

Good. Okay.

And Mark, give me a bell. So I got this job as an auditor.

I got fired, and then I got home, and I got evicted in the same day.

So I'm like, okay, you know, this just isn't my day. And if the court found out

about it, they were going to take my sister away. They had their eye on me

like a hawk.

So I see this ad in the paper, make $1,000 a day.

I answered the ad, and it was a porno ad, and there I was.

Porn stars were the lowest. They were considered scum. Nobody would elevate

them to celebrity status. But then the hip-hop movement started acknowledging

them. Music videos started using them.

Cable TV channels, which are sex-obsessed, elevated them.

And people like me took notice and realized.

they deserve their celebrity. I just got invited to a party recently in, like,

some furniture showroom. It had nothing to do with porn at all, and they just

had, like, Jenna Jameson on the list of guests that were coming.

I was almost going to go, but then I heard she wasn't coming, so I said,

forget it.

And the bellows is three-quarters to the top.

Jenna Jameson is really the only...

porn star that's ever crossed over.

Good.

Okay. And I'm ready.

Okay.

Now she's done, the E2 Hollywood story was the most ever watched E2 Hollywood

story of all time.

So Jenna has really paved the path for the rest of us.

A lot of us have had to work to kind of push the business one way. You know,

Jenna worked really hard to get the business accepted by the public.

He is by far and away the most successful ever to come out of his

business.

Savvy, smart, sexy, good at what she does.

Jenna had a vision. She never wavered. She just, I want that. And she used her

tool and got that.

Jenna Jameson is probably the one person that I look up to as an adult actress

more than anyone else.

I finally had an opportunity to work with her, and after our first scene

together, I ran around and was yelling at everybody to smell my face.

I was just like, oh, my God, I have Jenna Jameson's juice on my face.

I'm never going to watch it again. I was like, smell it.

Smell it. It's a hint of Jenna.

Who are your favorite porn stars?

Me? My?

Jenna Jameson?

It used to be rock stars and models went together.

and then suddenly it became, you know, to heck with these models. They're

skinny, and they're not much fun. Let's go for the porn star.

I've been able to do a lot of mainstream work.

I've been on Entertainment Tonight. I've been in Eminem's video, The Sopranos,

and it's benefiting me financially.

My goal is not to go completely mainstream. It actually gets me more

popular in the adult industry going mainstream.

All the real porn people use it. It's just their calling card. Then they go

and become dancers or escorts and they travel and they make really a lot of

money. The porn is just their coming attractions.

They got to go on the road.

I was like 18 and really broke.

And it was like survival.

And it made me feel pretty when I didn't at that time in my life feel it.

That's great.

You know, now so many girls are strippers and then want to be a porn

star so then they could go feature on the road as a stripper and make some

money. When that was not even an option in 1984, it was so different.

You got a couple hundred bucks a day, no rights, no royalties.

A lot of porn stars don't make that much money from making films, so there's a

kind of side industry that's sprung up where they can do strip joints, they can

sell merchandise.

It all adds up to a pretty decent living.

The last few years, I've been making sure I get residuals on certain things,

like my adult video toy lawn.

Right now, there's about

30 toys out there. My handcuffs, I have my whole bondage line, my ass and pussy

mold, my doll, which is...

Kind of freaky looking, but the boxing and the packaging is really beautiful

and I think that's what's selling well.

Sexual power for poor women is literally tied to economic survival.

I think it's sort of like a big fuck you in a way. It's sort of saying if I'm

going to be used sexually or this is what I'm worth, well then I'm going to

make some money off of it.

One of the reasons they're in this business is it's a very high rate of pay

legally for people with a high school education.

You could make a comparison of how boxing used to be for young men.

And I just see the bellows on that.

I remember getting my first check, and I remember thinking, this shoe's on the

other foot.

This is my money.

I made this money, and no one's going to take it away from me.

People always say, oh, these poor women, these poor women, oh.

And it's like, well, no, these women did not have the choice of Harvard, porno.

Porn, paper hat.

Porn, double-wide trailer.

Porn, five kids.

My son has no idea what I do.

He just knows Daddy makes money, but he doesn't know how.

Not being college-educated, it was the best course for me, but right now I am

in school, so this has helped me get to that point where I can afford to go to

school plus have a living on the side.

My parents are so proud of me because, you know, I have two nice cars. I've

never, ever asked for any help. They saved money on college.

It's not about that this is the last resort. It's about this is the

opportunity which you can achieve easier. There is a big need for adult

performers. And if you have what it takes, you have a good chance to make it

big.

In the porn industry, it's ironic that the women make more than the men do,

since they have to produce less than the men do physically, in my opinion.

When individuals say that, oh yeah, males are just a prop in the adult

industry, that's like American society taking school teachers and not paying

them what they're worth.

Guys in gay films absolutely make a lot more than guys in straight films.

That's why there are many straight models who work in the gay porn

industry. A guy in a straight video is lucky to get maybe $300 to $500.

I make almost five times that.

Straight women actually make quite more. For men, this is as good as it gets for

us, and gay porn industry is actually the best way to make the most money if

you're a man.

Whether it's through porn or whether, you know, you have a 9-to-5 job, it's

not ever too late to go back and make something out of your life.

You can get caught up in the x-ray adult business because it's a world where

you're not judged.

You know, you can be yourself, and you can get lost in that, you know, because

when you step out of that world, that's the reality check, and a lot of people

don't accept what you do.

I don't regret anything that I did.

But I definitely learned a lot. And I knew when to cash in.

I realized that there was other talents that I have that need to be expressed.

I'm an artist. I paint.

So I'm trying to put together a show.

This one right here is called Mindfuck.

I'm also a writer. I have a book coming out. It's a black, black erotic tale.

And my music.

The sexy, the horny have the hunter.

What's up? This is Heather Hunter, and I'm actually bringing the passion, but

I'm also hyping. I'm hyping the rap game.

With my music, I have hip-hop albums that I've worked on, and I have, like,

DJ Premier, White Clef.

And it's amazing because people put in my mind that because of what I've done

in my life that society would not be able to take me, and all my life I

wanted to prove them wrong.

I was wise enough, smart enough, I would say, to understand how poor my chances

are to become a film star or runway model.

Now walk over to the wall so it feels natural.

I made this choice, and this is as close to this as I got.

And I'm very happy with my choice. Otherwise, I could still wait tables.

In the adult entertainment industry, I started in 1975.

In 1996, I went back to school.

I finished my master's in public health, and I'll be a Ph.D. next year.

I run

the AIM Healthcare

Foundation, and we're a non-profit organization. We serve over 900 people a

month. by monitoring everyone for HIV and STDs on a monthly basis in porn.

Yeah, that's pretty great.

Gay porn was always doing movies with condoms.

You know, there are so many clichés and bad things said about porn.

Well, we always had this thing to say, listen, we tell you about how to have

fun, how to have a great time, but still being safe.

Shut up a little bit.

You know, straight industry, they thought that AIDS is a gay disease.

And bad news, it's not. It's actually, you know, very easy to catch and

transmit for straight people too. And this is such a shame that it's the year

2004 and they just discovered it.

Now, fucking without condom, it's a big problem.

Okay.

Bring your butt around a little bit more today, but don't swing it this way too

much.

I was dancing my senior year in Catholic high school in New Jersey.

My first layout was a three-girl pizza shoot. We had pizza all over. It was a

cute, fun shoot.

I was married before I divorced.

He couldn't handle dancing. He was just a really jealous guy.

I'm actually remarried.

My dad's a Baptist preacher slash missionary.

When I was little, we went on the mission field up to Alaska, and there

was really nobody there, some Eskimos.

Got a job when I was like 14 babysitting when they used to have Hustler magazine

laying around. It was like my favorite thing.

One of my dreams was to always be in Hustler, and I actually was in Hustler

last year.

With me. Yeah, with her. She was on the cover, actually.

So this is a really old camera, right? Do they even make this camera anymore?

It's an antique version of what they make now. It shoots that size negative.

So it's kind of complicated. You have to look at the image upside down, and it

takes some getting used to.

But I just love being in front of the camera when I'm shooting you because I

can see everything you're doing, and I can really see your expression. And for

me, it's all about the expression.

A porn star is a person who is famous for public sex.

Put your hands up a little bit.

Just like that.

Let me see a tiny smile.

And now close your mouth.

I like it.

It's funny, I feel more comfortable naked.

I'm so weird. I have clothes on and I'm like, I look stupid. I get naked and I'm

like, yeah, there you go.

I mean, you're so comfortable nude because you do it all the time. In the

beginning of this project, I wasn't. It was very awkward for me.

Desire begins with taboo and taboo is against.

The little boy or the little girl showing off their naked bodies, they're

told that almost immediately.

So if they go into rebellion of any kind, they might be tempted to take

everything off and just break the taboo and then get paid for it.

When I'm dancing on stage, that's when I like to

get watched.

Like a high. And if everybody's screaming, you know, I get even happier.

So I probably get more wet on stage dancing than, you know, while I'm doing

a sex scene. That sounds bad.

Part of me being so excited and loving this is knowing that someone's going to

be watching it. Knowing that someone out there is going to be seeing what I'm

doing and getting off on it.

The camera comes on and I come to life.

There are people that are truly exhibitionists. They've got to show it

to somebody every day.

It doesn't matter who they are. If they weren't in porn, they'd be flashers.

Being an adult star, I get to act out my fantasy. I have millions of people

watching me in my videos, and it turns me on.

I love the fact that people watch me, you know,

enjoy it.

That's what I might say.

You're allowed to be looking at her and that she's allowing you to do that. So

it's very parental. It's very comforting.

We begin life as exhibitionists because we're little. We need to be

seen. You can't be fed until you're seen. You can't be kissed until you're

seen.

At first it was really hard because I just was super shy.

I've never done anything like that. My whole body is naked and you're like, oh

my God.

Sure, that's what you want to see.

But after, like, a year, I got used to it. I used to, like, find a way to enjoy

it, I think.

Because not every time you're, like, super attracted to the person.

My way of doing it is to just go in there with, like, an open mind and see

what you can do to them to make them enjoy you the most.

Now I'm, like...

Bring it on to anybody, you know what I mean?

I like intense sex. I want a guy to be aggressive with me.

That's just my type.

I think we're over the top in porn star beauty, as it were. You're almost

getting into a kind of weird science fiction movie looking at women who've

had their bodies obviously altered.

When I am not working, you know, my job is to keep my appearance good.

To be a gay porn star, you have to be a good-looking guy. You have to take care

of your body.

You have to go to the gym at least four times a week.

Male porn stars used to be unattractive, but

they're really not so much now.

There was a time when the industry thought the men wanted to identify with

a guy who looked like them.

But the fact of the matter is that now the really good-looking guys

sell better, even in heterosexual porn, meaning that it's a fantasy.

They want to see themselves as those marvelously improbable guys

with gigantic dicks that stay erect as long as they damn well please.

Peter North.

Oh, my God.

Woo!

I mean, his pop shots were like, they were like waterfalls. I think he pop

shot like 10 to 12 times at one point.

Boys were created to squirt as often as possible to

fructify an egg.

Girls... are there to take nine months to lay an egg, and they have to be

slightly thoughtful about what they're doing.

Porno is like live-action cartoon.

Big penises, big breath, big party, big orgasms, more big hair, long nails.

It's only a blast if you are well-endowed.

It's very, very, very good. I can't lie about that. It will be hypocritical to

fake. It doesn't matter. No, it does matter.

Some of the industry is predicated on size, obviously, of genitalia. But being

Shawn Michaels without a reasonably large-sized penis, I would have to say,

yeah, I would have probably, with the good graces of the universe, been just

successful maybe more so.

There's people that you see that think they look like a porn star. You know,

it's a country-western song. What is it? Too ugly for L.A., too stupid for New

York.

Everybody in L.A. kind of looks like a porn star to me.

And no one in New York does.

Well, in L.A., we think that John Waters looks like a porn star.

Everybody considers if you're blonde and you have big boobs, you're a porn star.

Yes, most girls that are in the business are blonde and big boobs. And if they're

not, they get their boobs done or they dye their hair blonde.

A little more.

That's good. Just in your eyes.

We want big boobs. Men love breasts. And it's just, I don't know what it is. It's

just so womanly.

I've always just wanted them. I always wanted to feel confident and sexy.

The Europeans think that Americans are a bit gaga on the subject of breasts.

which they put down to the essential infantilization of the American public.

Hypervigilant breaths.

It's really from the baby's point of view. The hunger of looking at the

nipple or looking at the breath.

Breaths are mommies. You don't really want to have sex with mommy.

That's why pornography is so great.

Because if not, we'd just be a bunch of motherfuckers.

Dimitri? So what I need you to do is to take your clothes off and let me see

your body.

And then you will go to another room. You'll get a hard-on. I'll take one

Polaroid picture.

You have to be a very sexually active person and have strong sexual desires.

Otherwise, you will look like you're getting a root canal on the screen.

That's perfect.

That's perfect. Don't worry about that.

Don't worry.

That's good enough.

You have to be real good. You have to be very concentrated. You have to be

disciplined. And then you maybe will become a porn star, and maybe you will

be successful.

But you might not.

When I'm performing, I enjoy the fact that people are looking at me, but at

the same time, I pretend like there's no one else there. You have to produce an

erection.

The blood has to get there somehow.

So I'll think about a great pair of feet that were attached to this great chick.

That I knew back and then there I go. I'm back.

People get a well-produced videotape and they watch it at home. It looks so

smooth and easy and they're kissing and the skirt comes off.

He's a wreck.

What people at home are not seeing is that after every oral sex position and

every intercourse position, you have to shoot it soft core for at least four

minutes, hard core for at least four minutes.

Hop for still.

Penis near the orifice.

Penis in the orifice.

Hand close. Hand away.

Mouth on. Mouth off. Okay, next position.

Camera sex and regular sex are two very different things. You're supposed to

make it look glamorous. You're supposed to make it look fun. And you're supposed

to make it look enticing.

Swing slightly with your body toward the light.

That's it.

Yeah.

Maybe not. Just come back again.

Like that. I think what it is, it's like...

Somehow there's a space here. I always used to joke, am I going to get a bed

today? Because you're always on gravel or some rock.

You know how I have sex? I have sex at home on a bed, missionary with the

lights out.

And I think my husband, when he married me, thought, oh, wow, I'm marrying Tara

Patrick. This is great.

You know, she's going to bring home all these chicks.

Nope. I had to tell him, let me tell you, I'm really boring.

Our sex life at home is a lot different than in the movies.

I can't last as long.

On film, I do anal.

But you would love to do them, even? Yeah. Not even in my personal life, I

don't do it. I had a toy up there, a good seven inches, and she didn't even

know it. And then she's like, don't do it. And I was like, it's already there,

you know?

Sometimes it'll get really weird, and I'm like, we're not shooting a porno

scene. Let's just, you know, have fun doing this.

Not make it last a whole hour.

We all think that we somehow come here fully equipped to enjoy sexuality in all

of its explicitness. But, you know, we really do need a lot of instruction,

just like we need to be taught how to eat properly, how to dress properly.

Every aspect of our lives, we take lessons and we educate ourselves. Early

on when I was reporting, as someone who had nearly no exposure to pornography at

all, my astonishment that these young women would watch.

porn as literally instructional videos, you know, how to learn how to position

themselves better, how to give better blowjobs, which I thought was really

great because for me it was just laced with such shame.

Sometimes you think, I never even thought of doing that. There are some

things you tell and maybe would be disgusting, but then you see it in porno

with great-looking people. I thought, well, I never tried that. Maybe I'll

save that one for the autumn of my years.

I was like anal queens. I was like the anal girl.

And it's funny, too, because I never really did anything that was that

outrageous with my butt. I never did a fisting in my ass. I never did, like, a

really huge penis in my ass. It's just that my orgasm from anal sex is just so

intense that they're usually not even on my butt. They're on my face.

My eyes roll back in my head when I come, and it's like they've called me

the Linda Blur before.

Sex is a universal urge, and porn is just saying, Here's people fucking. We

all do it. We all want to do it. We all want to watch it. And if you say that

you're not interested in it, you're just lying.

Those channels on TV where they just show animals mating endlessly, there's

no question that that's what would be interesting if you're watching human

beings either. There's something inherently interesting, I guess, about

watching mammals mating.

The fantasy of the porn star is the ultimate fantasy because it's a sexual

fantasy. I think that's why it's so disturbing to people because it really

does defy our capacity to control it.

I actually really contemplated leaving the business.

And it was because I had a traumatic thing happen to me on the

set.

with a male performer.

I literally just had such a bad experience that I didn't want to have

sex. I didn't want to have sex at all.

And I went through this period where I didn't have sex.

And then I got myself together and I realized, you know, I can't let one

thing happen to me.

I've come too far and worked too hard to throw it all away.

When my husband and I have sex, he'll want to turn on porn, and I'm like,

okay, fine, you can turn it on, but I don't want to hear the sound.

Porn irritates me.

I always wanted to be a part of Hollywood as an actor, director, slash

producer. But at the same time, unfortunately, entertainment, like

everything else, is filled with politics and prejudices.

Sounds kind of corny, but I do things because I believe in them.

You know, I'm an artist, so I kind of had the problem.

So what do we call it?

Porn is one of the greatest forms of art that there ever was.

My dream is always to be a runway model or to be on the cover of Cosmo or the

cover of Vogue.

But, you know, once you do porno, you're never going to be not known as Breonna

Banks. I couldn't walk into Elite and say, hey. You know?

They would look at me and turn their nose up.

I have big, fake boobs to start with. And second of all, you know, everybody

in the world would see me naked.

So there's no chance.

I mean, I made it just halfway.

This business has been great to me. I'm not ashamed of it. I've never been

ashamed of anything that I've done.

And, you know, it was a means to an end.

It helped me go back to school, so I'm quite proud of the fact that I did that

for myself.

If my son became a porn star, it would not bother me. That's what he wants to

do, more power to him.

Girls shouldn't get involved in the industry until they're after 21.

They're an 18-year-old kid, and most of them don't survive in the industry.

They're out right away.

You know, a lot of them are beautiful girls who made the wrong decision, and

they regretted a lot of them.

By getting older on camera, I have not only brought with me a whole host of

fans for 20 years who are perfectly happy with the fact that I'm older, I

have new fans coming in who like me specifically because I'm over 40.

I'm here for my own personal satisfaction mainly.

but also to be able to speak to people about sexuality from a place of

experience.

The American dream for me is starting my own company from scratch.

For me, my family is very important, and I brought all my family here, my

grandparents, my parents, my brother, everybody came in the last three years,

and I was able to support them. So that was my American dream, and I feel like I

fulfilled it.

I'm ready.

I'm hoping that my choices don't.

really hurt me in the future. I mean, I found my confidence in the nude.

And I have to thank porn for that.

Really, it's the most honest business that I can think of.

But my family is really hurt by what I've done with my life.

Like embarrassed.

I come from a small town.

They wanted to move when they found out.

But I continue with my relationship with them like I keep calling and because I'm

the same person and I think I've got a great career and a great future and they

just are gonna have to accept it.

When I was in an adult industry I was a sex machine. When I stepped into the

real world everything backfired on me. Whenever I would jump into the bed with

somebody I would truly believe that they loved me.

I was Heather Hunter, the fantasy girl, and I was like a notch on everyone's

belt. I remember one time I was having sex with this guy. I had a date, you

know. You know, we're doing it. You know, we had a great time. It was

fabulous. And we're laying in the bed, and he's smoking a cigarette, and he

reaches over for this pad and thing on his desk, and he asked me for an

autograph.

And I was like, oh, my God.

Why did you disappoint me? But I signed it. You know what I mean?

I signed that autograph.

Because why? I am Heather Hunter. You know what I mean? And I have to face

that. You know, I am someone's dream, someone's fantasy.

That's what my life is all about. That's the bed I lie in.

No parent actually wants their kid to become an adult star.

But, you know, my mom flew out here to see what kind of stuff I do. And she

was... So relieved and so comfortable. And now when my mom and I talk, she's

like, so are you shooting a new movie yet? And I'm about to go to Tahiti to

shoot Island Fever 3. And she's like, wow, that's great. So she gets into it.

I love it, and I'm proud of it. And I've had a great life, and I still am having

a wonderful life now.

Is she ever come now, now? Is she ever come now, now?

Is she ever come now, now?

If he ever comes now, now. If he ever comes now, now. If he ever comes now.

Uh-uh.

Like it looked all good.

Uh-uh.

Made out of wood. You see.

ever come now now if you ever come now now if you ever come now now

if you ever come now now together come down now together come now

oh it looked so good oh

she made out of wood

Thank you.

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