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I caught you.

Um... What...

I saw you looking.

Do you want to sign up?

Oh.

No. Uh... I'm not qualified.

Or I'm just not really 12-week challenge material.

That could change.

Are you a student or staff?

I'm a... MS-1, yeah.

Hana.

- I'm Alanya. - Oh.

This is all for my psych MA.

Oh, so you're looking for guinea pigs.

What are you saying? You... you don't want to be my guinea pig?

No.

Um, well, may...

-Maybe? - ...maybe.

Maybe leaning towards a yes?

Maybe depending on the scientific rigour of the study.

Hmm.

Well, why don't you come by and find out?

Mortui vivos docent.

The dead teach the living.

For the next 12 weeks,

these generous donors will be your teachers

and your first patients.

You'll have the opportunity to honour their lives

at semester's end.

But until then,

let's remember to proceed with dignity and care.

Oh, we got a hefty one.

Stop.

Let's start with our first incision

down the sternum.

My eyes are burning from the fumes already.

Now, remember the scalpels are extremely sharp.

When you handle them, you'll please do so handles first.

Remember, hold the scalpel as you would a pencil.

Loose but firm.

Shit.

Let's hope for the sake of your future patients

that the rest of you have a more delicate touch

than Miss Hitching here.

I got it. It's OK.

Yeah.

Happy birthday, baby!

Thanks, Nikki!

This is for you, birthday girl.

Oh.

Strictly speaking, it is a re-gift.

What is it?

Do you lack all self-control with your phone?

Then let this Phone Jail Cell help you out.

Oh. I don't know. How does it work?

-Push it up. -Oh, like this.

No, no, no, no, no!

This re-gift has backfired.

OK, um, don't panic,

but I think that girl's checking you out.

The hot one at the bar.

She keeps looking at you.

You should go for it.

Go for what?

Don't get all pissy.

Come on, you're always talking about

how you're all theory, no practice.

It's like you're waiting for an invitation

to some kind of initiation party.

Come on, Jose.

I'm not. I'm not waiting.

Well, then here's your chance.

To put your theories into practice.

Fine.

I need the bathroom.

- Oh! - Oh, you are such a tease!

I really thought this was initiation day.

Hana.

How have you been?

Good.

I've been good.

How about you?

How many years has it been?

Oh, my God, Melissa!

- Yeah. - Hi!

Hi.

Ohhh.

I...I know.

There's something different about me.

You were really nice

to me in high school.

A lot of people weren't.

A lot of people were assholes.

You can ask, you know.

What?

How I lost the weight.

It's not that impressive.

There's these new pills called Gray.

A supplement.

It's kinda pricey, but it makes you drop the weight like crazy.

Gray?

It's not TGA-approved.

Strictly speaking.

I was dubious too, but then I started taking the pills

and no matter what I ate, the weight just melted off.

Do you want to try one?

I don't really take, uh...

Do you remember this girl?

The girl that had bloody pads shoved in her bag?

She doesn't exist anymore.

I'm a completely new person and it's thanks to those pills.

I'll take it back.

Take this one tomorrow.

My treat.

And tell me if you notice a difference.

It works that fast?

You'd be surprised.

Here we are!

Oh, no.

-There you go. -Oh, yes.

Cheers, queers!

Cheers!

Shit.

Do you know what baffles me?

How many people stereotype fat people.

Your girl is fat, yes.

But your girl is gainfully employed.

I am capable. I am switched on.

Hey, it's Mackenzie here, and it is challenge time.

Potato masher challenge.

Take one. Here we go.

It hurts.

Oh, shit!

This might be my favourite ab routine

I've ever done.

And just a reminder that

this is what a real woman looks like.

The reason why you can't lose the weight,

why it just stays on,

is because you can't stop--

I just tried the potato masher challenge

and you would not believe...

I can't help but notice some people

are not using the potato masher correctly.

So I thought I would just jump on and show you how it's done.

Hope this helps.

I'm about to launch my 12-week challenge.

If you've been wanting to build some solid habits...

...this is for you.

You're gonna meet some amazing people

who will keep you motivated and accountable the whole time.

You are out of control.

No, youare out of control!

Dad?

Mom?

Hana-chan! Happy birthday!

No flour, no sugar.

I used beetroot instead.

No butter.

Can you tell?

It's yummy.

You don't like it?

No, no, no. It's good.

You are too smart to be this stupid.

10 bucks says it's just speed.

No, I'm hoping it's something a little more run-of-the-mill.

Seriously, though, I mean, this is all just, like, a bit gross.

You're bangin'.

Uh-huh.

I'm thinking of signing up to do this thing.

What thing?

Oh, just a gym program thing.

So that's what all this, uh, diet pill bullshit is about?

That bouncy-haired trainer, Alana?

Alanya.

Huh.

Have you figured it out yet?

Getting there.

Not that.

Have you figured out whether you want to be with her

or just be her?

Come on!

Let's go.

My stomach is eating itself.

Huh. High sodium, high potassium.

It's mostly calcium phosphate.

What?

I think it's ash.

What?

Human ash.

Melissa's probably eating someone's grandpa.

Oh. Eww! Wait. Are you gonna report her?

It's just the sodium content alone should make you hungrier.

If anything, a lack of phosphate

would be more likely to cause weight loss.

OK, but, I mean, if you can't make it, who cares?

Huh.

Not too deep. Make sure not to puncture her lungs.

It's too weird to think of her as a real person.

We could name her, like the other groups did.

That's it. Well done.

Hey, guys, Big Bertha.

Ugh!

Maybe her family will show up

when we do that memorial service.

Nah. Big Bertha's definitely unclaimed.

They'll be rolling her out for years.

And why would you assume that?

Well, look at her.

You're a dick.

Great.

Alright. Ready?

Three, two, one.

Smile!

Last thing for today.

Come on. Finish strong.

Good job, everyone. Great work.

Have a sip of water. Stretch it out.

Nice one, Hana.

Come on. One more.

For me.

There we go.

OK, drive those knees out.

Flatten the back.

Sink deeper.

Hana, your progress is...

I'm impressed with you.

You should be really proud of yourself.

Would you mind if I made a post about this?

- OK. - Yeah?

- Let's take a photo. - OK.

Smile!

Bertha?

Mom!

This place is a mess, Hana.

You'll get roaches.

I wish you would tell me if you were coming to visit.

How can I tell you if you're not answering my calls?

Um, you don't have to do that.

Are you going somewhere?

I booked it.

You're going.

Tonight?

What? Hana-chan, you were the one who told me I should go.

No, no. I'm... I'm happy for you. I just thought you...

You said Dad couldn't be left alone.

I can't help him, Hana.

You don't know how hard it is for me.

I've been waiting to see Iguaçú Falls for 25 years.

OK, OK. But then...

You'll check on him, won't you?

Yeah.

Yeah, of course.

Once a week?

You know your father won't.

We don't want to attract any hungry ghosts.

Uhh.

- Ah, Hana-chan. - Hmm?

You are looking...

Hey, Dad. It's me.

Mom just came by on the way to the airport.

Um, do you think it might be a good idea to maybe just...

Your voicemail has been sent.

OK.

Acetylcholine synthesised by choline and acetyl-coenzyme...

Acetylcholine synthesised by choline

and acetyl-coenzyme...

Acetylcholine synthesised by choline

and acetyl-coenzyme...

Acetylcholine synthesised by choline...

Serotonin needs tryptophan hydroxylase and decarboxylase.

Serotonin needs...

GABA, y-aminobutyric acid...

...acid synthesised from glutamate

and pyridoxal phosphate.

Acetylcholine synthesised by choline

and acetyl-coenzyme...

Acetylcholine synthesised by choline

and acetyl-coenzyme...

Synthesised by choline...

Twist your hips.

OK. Left, right, hook.

Sorry.

Dopamine synthesised...

That's it. Push. Push!

Ohh.

OK, show me that hook again.

Again.

Again.

Again.

OK, last one, Hana.

Argh!

Come on, Hana.

- Up! Up! -Ahh!

Nice.

- Ohh. -Amazing.

Ohhh.

Alright. Really nice, everyone.

Uh, let's warm up with 1K on the rowers.

- Can I chat to you for a sec? - Yeah.

Hm.

Hana, I'll be honest, I, uh...

...I'm a little concerned.

The rate that you're losing...

Have you been following the diet guidelines?

I'm following the guidelines.

H-how closely?

You haven't been skipping meals or anything?

Uh, do you want an adherence percentage?

I have a duty of care to everyone in the group.

You know that, right?

Yeah. I'm... I'm sorry. I...

Whatever you're doing, whatever shortcut you think you found,

I promise you it is a bad path.

- I'm not doing anything. - Hana...

- I'm not doing anything. I... - That's bullshit.

Do you even realise the damage you could be doing to yourself?

All that I've done is exactly what you've asked me to do.

That is it.

I...I've been killing myself for weeks

because I thought that you would be...

Hana, I'm not trying to make you feel bad.

Yeah.

Talk to me. You...

You thought I'd be what?

Impressed.

Or something.

Uh...

OK, should we, um...

Should we join the others?

Coming?

I need to... tie my shoes.

Alright, uh, once you're done with your warm-up...

Fuck it!

Mmmm.

Fat camp going well?

I quit.

Why?

Whoa!

Liver cancer?

Must be.

Looks fucking cool.

Professor, can you come look at this?

Wow.

Pretty advanced.

See here?

It metastasised to the abdominal wall as well.

Terrible way to go.

Tadaima!

Hello?

Hi.

- Thanks. - No worries.

Uh...

Grab yourself a plate.

Actually, I can't stay.

After bench press, into barbell squats.

Then one minute on the rower.

Then we'll be doing everybody's favourite - treadmill sprints.

Moving into boxing pad workout

and, uh, then we'll be finishing up with some shadow boxing.

Any questions?

Let's get into it.

-Hey, ALANYA. -Yes?

Hey.

Heading home?

Hey.

Yep.

Uh... sorry.

It's OK.

No, really.

About the other day, I...

...I wasn't trying to be harsh, but I know I came on too strong.

Well, at least you weren't the only one.

Anyway, I, uh...

...I have this bad habit of telling other people

how to live their lives.

But it's meant with love.

- You have bad habits? - Mmm.

Hmm. You know, I feel a little betrayed.

Wild, right?

Yeah.

I'll just get this.

See you tomorrow?

These guys absolutely smashed it today.

Give yourselves a round of applause. Whoo!

See you tomorrow.

Hm.

Ow! Stop!

Ugh.

Ugh.

I'm so happy for you, Hana.

Does this mean you got your hands on some Gray?

Ash.

You know that's what it is, right?

Human ash.

What?

Mel, who were you buying the pills from?

What do you mean 'human ash'?

I tested it.

Did you notice any other side effects

like, um, nightmares, weird visuals?

I guess... technically, blackouts.

Blackouts?

Nup.

Uh, nightmares.

Uh... well, sometimes I'd wake up in the middle of the night

feeling really anxious.

Like...

Like someone was watching me.

I've had a similar feeling.

One time, I was in bed and...

...I heard someone whistling in the hallway.

Like, this old-timey tune

and I thought it was my housemate,

but I got up to check and she wasn't home.

Spooky.

But I haven't had it since I stopped taking the Gray.

Not at all?

Maybe you should go get yourself checked.

Huh.

But, honestly, you look amazing.

It's kind of worth it, right?

I wouldn't recommend it.

Why is that?

Well, you see these smooth ridges here?

The tumour in your pancreas is benign and small.

It's an unnecessary risk.

What about the other symptoms?

The... the sleepwalking?

Well, I can see here

that the results of your sleep test were inconclusive.

I think we need to factor in other causes.

Diet, fatigue.

Drugs and alcohol?

I remember how much pressure I was under in med school.

On the oncology side,

my recommended course of action is...

Watchful waiting.

OK, ready?

Three, two, one. Smile!

And rest.

And sprint!

What are you doing?

Can someone take over?

Whoa. Whoa. Are you OK?

Hey.

Oh, yeah. No, I'm fine.

I just... I just need a minute.

Jesus.

Come on.

Where are we going?

Have you eaten anything today?

I am fine.

Just I'm... I'm having a bad reaction.

To what?

Hana, please tell me

you aren't actually taking those diet pills.

You really,

really can't lecture me on pills.

You look sick, Hana.

This is just like those scam-tastic cleanses

that we used to make fun of, but worse, way worse.

It's not a bad thing for me

to want to change myself for the better.

- It's my body. - It is.

It is your body, yeah.

But do you really think

that you're gonna magically feel better

when you reach a certain number on the scale?

Because if so, you're fucking deluded, Hana.

I know you wish I were fat and miserable forever.

Oh my God, you use the word 'fat' like it is a dirty word,

OK, that is the whole problem.

Hana, if you don't stop punishing yourself,

you're gonna destroy everything good in your life.

Hi.

Hey.

Come in.

You OK?

Yeah. Yeah, of course.

You just seem a bit off.

I think 'off' might be my equilibrium state.

Um, have a seat.

And, uh, oh, you don't have to indulge me, by the way.

We can go out.

Oh, no.

This is great.

Hmm.

Thanks.

Yeah.

I promise to keep my hands to myself this time.

I mean...

...are we committed to that plan or...

...is there some latitude?

Mmm.

Mmm.

Oh.

Do you mind if we turn off the lights?

Yeah. Of course.

OK.

Yeah, I had a friend stay over.

I'm just trying to find her.

Hana?

I am so sorry.

Uh... it's fine, it's fine.

Um, are you OK?

Um...

Uh, leave it, leave it. I can do that.

What the fuck?

Really?

Wait, Hana!

Kimie?

Dad?

Hana?

Uh-huh.

Everything OK?

Everything's fine.

I just felt like a little trip.

Hana?

Can you open the door, please?

Answer me, Hana.

What was that?

What the hell's going on in there?

What's going on?

Open this door!

Hana!

Hana!

Hana!

I said open this door, Hana!

Open it right now.

Hana, what's going on?! Open this door.

Dad, would you just fuck off?! I'm not a child.

I know how to clean up some glass, for fuck's sake!

Is this what you wanted?

No.

No, no, no, no, no. Not again.

Not again!

Ohh.

Are you OK?

Oh, I'm fine.

I just, um...

My... pen.

Thank you.

Ohh.

Dare I ask you about the glass?

What is this?

It's pancakes.

What for?

I made you breakfast.

Aren't you feeding yourself?

I didn't even know you could cook.

Huh!

What, you think I can synthesise complex compounds

and I can't...

...can't follow a simple recipe?

That just makes it worse.

Are we fighting?

Hey, you've got to tell me if we're fighting,

otherwise I just look foolish.

It's only a meal, Hana,

and it's getting cold.

It's never just a meal.

Not with either of you. Not ever.

Well, don't eat it, then.

What does it matter?

It matters!

You always pretend like it's nothing.

But it has always mattered!

I understand if you don't care about yourself that much, fine.

But why did you have to care so little about us?

Your mother is the one who's left.

Youleft usa long time ago!

- I'm still here. - Until when?

Until when?

You can't sit by yourself like this in the dark forever.

I'm not gonna sit with you here until the end.

Hey.

You can say it.

Just... just say it.

I don't know what you're talking about.

I am sorry.

And you were right.

I need help. I am losing weight way too fast.

Jesus, Hana.

I told you not to take Melissa's pills.

They're not Melissa's pills.

Uh... I actually made them myself.

What do you mean...

...you made them?

Like, you stole an urn or something?

Oh, Hana.

Please tell me you have not been...

...eating all the cadavers.

- One... -Oh...

- ...cadaver. - ...my God.

Ours.

Bertha.

What the fuck?

How?

I know.

Do you, though?

Because you ate a person! I...

That is beyond fucked up.

I know.

What you said about me the other day, it... it is true.

I am fucked up.

Sometimes I-I feel like

there is this, like, bottomless pit inside of me

and everything just keeps getting sucked into it.

And then... then I thought that if I-I changed myself,

then it'll go away.

But it just got worse.

And now I think I'm really in trouble.

You did fuck up.

Yeah.

- Like, catastrophically. - Yeah.

But you're not fucked-up.

- Uh... - There's a difference.

But you stopped taking them, right?

- The pills? - Yeah.

Um... there is one more thing.

Bertha...

...has latched on to me...

...spiritually.

Spiritually?

I can prove this to you. OK?

Yeah.

Uh, look into this.

I just have to do this.

Just take a look into the reflection

and tell me what you see.

Hmm.

I see myself.

Try looking around the room.

OK, Hana.

Seriously, what are you doing?

I'm measuring my blood sugar.

I have this theory that she comes

whenever my glucose levels drop below 6 millimoles.

I've been microdosing on these to keep my blood sugar up.

Just keep looking.

W--

At what?!

'Cause all I can see is my face

looking a bit freaked out, frankly.

Look... at... the spoons!

There is nothing.

There is nothing, Hana.

There.

What...?

There!

You can't see that?

Hana...

She is right there!

OK, OK, but... but listen.

Because you are seeing something that I can't see.

Hana...

I think that we should speak to the school psych.

I mean, they... they're used to seeing students...

Oh! Thank God!

Thank God? The fuck was that?!

Oh!

Eat the bears!

Eat the gummy bears!

She's gone for now.

OK.

So I've been keeping track

and there is a direct correlation.

The more calories I consume,

the more weight I lose and the larger she gets.

It's like she's devouring me from the inside.

I talked to Mel.

She said that she felt a presence at times,

but it was nothing like this.

And everything stopped when she quit taking the pills.

Well, then what makes Bertha different?

What does she want?

Uh, Professor?

I, um...

...had a question... for you...

...um, ab... about, uh, the...

We were inseparable as teens.

And she was the kind of sister who'd buy you booze,

you know, show you how to shove a tampon up your vag.

Yeah.

She worked in disability.

That was good for a bit.

And then, um, the diagnosis.

Yeah, we saw.

In her liver.

Yeah.

It started small.

Just a tiny speck on her pancreas.

Grace spent her whole life taking care of other people,

but she wasn't really up for taking care of herself,

you know?

I think she carried a lot of pain.

And eating had always been her way of coping.

But it got really bad.

Then she stopped seeing everyone.

I don't think Grace ever made peace with herself.

She was... so good.

And she never saw it.

And I couldn't help her.

You can't... love someone into getting better.

Are you OK?

I think I understand why she latched on to me.

And I need to return everything I took from her.

What...

I have to head home for her ash,

uh, but could you pick up a few things for me?

I'll text you a list?

Hana, wait.

Mom?

Hana!

You scared me.

What's happened?

Oh.

You're here.

Of course I'm here.

I sent you my flight details.

I just... I didn't... I didn't think you were coming back.

You are being silly.

What about Dad?

He called just before.

We'll see.

Hana...

You're so skinny.

Are you OK?

Yeah, I'm fine.

You're not fine.

Is it the stress?

I told you not to study too hard, Hana.

You always overdo it.

What are you looking for?

Did you... Did you go through my stuff?

Hana, maybe we need to put school on hold for a bit.

I asked you not to clean when I am not here.

You need to come home and rest.

I've never seen you so thin!

Oh my God, Mom!

But that's what you always wanted!

Of course not, Hana.

You look like a different person.

No.

No, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no!

- What did you do with it? - What?

The... the powder that was in the Tupperware.

- The dust? - Yeah.

I threw it out.

- It was filthy. -Oh!

I needed that!

I was just trying to help you, Hana.

Where are you going?

Hana?

Ohh.

What are you doing, Hana?

Oh, Goddammit.

Stop. What's going on?

Hmm!

Mmm.

Hana, stop!

Why didn't you tell me about this?

Is this bad?

Is this why you've lost so much weight?

- Are you dying? - No! No, no, no, no.

Just look at the smooth borders, Mom.

It's benign

soft tissue, see?

Ah! Someone's at the door.

Mom! Wait. Don't!

Ohh.

Oh!

OK.

Ohh!

Oh!

Hey!

You're pathetic! No-one loves you!

Oh!

Ow!

Argh!

Oh!

Ahhh!

Hana!

Not on the floor!

No. Stay in there. I have to go.

And don't clean!

Ohh.

Uh, just charge me whatever for... that.

Josie, hi.

Have you got any more of that ketamine?

Alright, you want to fill me in?

Because I figured the ket wasn't for celebrating.

I think I figured it out.

Where the hell did you get that, Hana?

Hana!

I just need you to trust me, Jose.

Can I see your phone?

Fine.

Here.

Uh, what?

What the fuck are you doing?

I'm so sorry. Just trust me.

OK?

Let me in!

Oh my gosh. Wait.

Are you already high?

Hana? Wait... Hana?

Hana, that is waytoo much.

I only need 20 minutes, tops.

For what?

Hana, 20 minutes for what?

I have a theory.

I told you it was a dead end.

But when I got the test done,

they found a growth on my pancreas

in the exact same spot as Bertha's.

What if the ash is what caused the tumour

and I need to remove the growth to break the connection?

Well, that is not a theory.

Uh, that is...

...like far-fetched speculation at best, Hana.

Please think about this clearly, OK?

You can't just...

...cut yourself open.

Elective surgery would be months away.

There's no way that I can last that long.

Hana...

Hana, no!

No! This is...

This is not cool!

OK? You cannot put this on me.

I swear I will make you pay

for, like, 20 years' worth of therapy!

Fucking decades of it, Hana!

Look, I'll... I'll do all the work.

All you have to do is make sure that I don't bleed out after.

What? Hana...

Hana!

Hana...

Hana? What are you doing?

Lowering my blood sugar.

What?

Argh!

Oh!

Oh!

Argh!

Ohh.

Hey!

God, you stupid, fucking idiot.

What the hell were you thinking?

Hey! Hey. Hey. Hey.

I'm gonna get you out of here.

I told you to wear the other shirt.

This one gets wrinkled so easily.

You said this one brings out my eyes, though.

I never said that.

You didn't?

Must've been my other wife.

You are ridiculous.

Hana! You are going to be late!

Today, we gather to honour the silent teachers

who have profoundly shaped our understanding of the human body

and the art of medicine.

Each donor was a person

with dreams, fears and stories of their own.

We do not know all the details of their lives,

but we do know this.

In their final act,

they chose to become our teachers.

They chose to leave a legacy

of learning, compassion and healing.

To the families of our donors here with us today...

Hey.

Hi.

Come on in.

What's all this?

Oh, these are for you

to replace what I...

...last time.

- You really didn't have to. - Right. Sorry.

Um... I couldn't remember everything you had,

so I just went off of the program list.

But, um, if there's anything missing, I can just...

- Hana, I don't need groceries. - Sorry.

You said.

I'm sorry for disappearing.

I was a little screwy, evidently.

But I really am trying.

What were you doing at the gym before exams?

I wasn't at the gym.

I saw you go into the locker room.

I called you, like, right after.

I should probably leave you to it.

Hana... come on.

I want to understand.

You're wonderful.

Adorable.

Clever.

Completely amazing.

What's wrong?