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"Blue Lips"

(Episode 14)

What's wrong?

Something on your mind?

No.

I just feel like...

my sister has been acting weird lately.

Weird how?

The test results came back.

It's not about the tests.

It's...

The way she's been talking the past couple of days is a bit strange.

Do you think...

Do you think she found out?

I don't think so.

You know what she told me this morning?

Something like, "Can't you two be apart for even a second?"

I just get the feeling...

She's hinting at something.

So, while I was away...

What were you up to?

Me?

Nothing much.

I mean, when I was in Fengzhou...

When you weren't with your sister during the day...

Where did you go?

I was, of course...

Studying on my own.

I just...

Was I acting too obvious?

I wouldn't know about that.

It just feels like...

You're really into me.

Don't flatter yourself.

What else did your sister say?

She asked me...

What I thought of you.

And what did you say?

I said you're pretty great.

And...

Reliable.

Things like that.

Actually, your sister is incredibly smart.

Shixian.

I think you should take a look when you have time.

Once your sister gets better, we should go somewhere on a trip.

Let's find somewhere warm.

We can bask in the sun and listen to music every day.

Eat and drink to our hearts' content.

Just really enjoy ourselves.

Make up for all the hardships of the past few years.

Tell me...

Will that day really come?

It definitely will.

What is this? It's all crumpled.

Shixian.

Go and check...

If the wedding photos we took with my sister have been developed yet.

Okay.

Sis.

Can't we just call the photo studio...

To confirm something like this?

Just go. I'll keep an eye on things here.

Hurry up.

Fine.

Sis.

I'm heading out then.

Take care.

Teng Mo.

Come sit down.

You probably know...

I sent Shixian away...

Because I have something to say to you.

Go ahead, Sis.

Lately...

You and Shixian have been taking turns at the hospital to look after me.

What exactly is the relationship between you two?

We're...

I won't beat around the bush.

Shixian likes you.

Did you know that?

We're, well...

We get along really well.

Like kindred spirits.

I'm not talking about that kind of liking.

I mean liking you as a lover.

What about you?

Do you like him?

I do.

As a lover.

Wanting to spend the rest of my life with him.

Growing old together, that kind of love.

You know our family's financial situation.

We're heavily in debt because of my illness.

If you two are together...

For a very long time to come...

life is going to be tough.

Are you...

mentally prepared for all this?

It's fine, Sis.

My family is doing okay financially.

And I have my own savings.

Don't worry.

Family...

Does your family know about you two?

No.

Will they...

approve of you two being together?

Even though my parents are older...

Getting them to accept it...

Of course it won't be easy.

But I'm determined.

I'm determined to prove myself to them.

So they can give us their blessing.

Teng Mo.

I hope you keep your word.

Shixian's life over the past twenty years has been far too hard.

I don't want him to get hurt.

I hope you'll protect him.

I'll do everything in my power to take good care of him.

Sis, does this mean you approve?

If I had more time...

I might have objected.

Not because you're not good enough, of course.

But because two men being together...

Is truly not easy.

The criticism and judgment you'll face...

Will be far more than you can imagine.

Since I won't be by his side...

I don't want him to suffer such grievances.

But it's his life, after all.

Even though I'm his sister...

I can't make decisions for him.

All I can say is...

Maybe this is all for the best.

Rest assured, Sis.

I promise I will never let him come to any harm.

Actually, I can tell...

Shixian really, really likes you.

This kid...

He can have a bad temper sometimes.

And he's impulsive.

But he's a good kid.

And he's very devoted.

I hope you'll be patient with him.

After I'm gone...

I'll leave him in your care.

Lately...

Everything you've done for Shixian...

I've seen it all.

It's exactly because you're here...

That I can let go with peace of mind.

And safely leave Shixian in your hands.

Sis.

Don't say that.

I will treat Shixian well for the rest of my life.

Don't spoil him too much.

You'll be the one who suffers in the end.

I... I don't mind suffering.

And I'm not afraid of hardship.

I just want him to be okay.

Okay.

I'm a bit tired.

I want to rest.

Then...

I'll head out.

I'll stay here and keep watch.

Why don't you go home first?

I'll call you if anything happens.

It's fine.

I'm not tired.

If you're tired...

You can go back and rest first.

How can your sister rest easy with you like this?

I'd be even more anxious if I weren't here.

Then what do you want to eat?

You haven't eaten anything since yesterday.

I don't have an appetite.

Teng Mo.

Have you ever kept a rabbit?

No.

I had two.

People say...

Rabbits...

Are...

Gentle yet cruel animals.

They don't cry out when they're in pain.

When they suffer...

They don't make a sound.

When they get sick...

They just endure it.

They endure absolutely everything.

So...

By the time...

You realize...

Something is wrong with them...

It often reaches a point

where things are beyond repair.

They won't even

give you a chance to save them.

My sister is that rabbit.

Shixian.

I always thought,

you know?

I always thought

that as long as I

worked hard,

as long as I held on and tried my best,

life would definitely get better.

But now I realize,

I realize there are always things in this world

that even time

can't change, right?

Teng Mo,

my sister is going to leave me.

Shixian,

actually,

everything in the universe is made of protons.

We humans are the same.

This world

is just a cycle.

She isn't leaving you.

She's just keeping you company in a different way.

I don't want that.

I don't want it to be like this.

She won't be a living, breathing person.

She won't hug me when I'm sad.

She won't scold me when I'm wrong.

She won't smile at me,

or worry about me.

I don't want her like that.

I don't want her to become like that.

I want her by my side forever.

How could she not be by your side?

When it rains,

it's her feeling sad for you.

The summer breeze

is her blessing to you.

As long as you keep her in your heart,

she will always be by your side.

Don't let your sister spend her final journey in sorrow.

Okay?

Shixian.

This photo studio

is way too inefficient.

They just gave me the photos.

The patient is awake.

She's in fairly good spirits right now.

The ventilator can be taken off for a bit.

She said she wants to see you.

Okay.

Shixian.

Shixian.

In a moment,

whatever your sister says,

make sure you remember it well.

If you have anything you want to say,

tell her everything.

What's wrong, Shixian?

Aren't you happy to see me?

No, I am.

Sis,

I missed you so much.

These past few days,

you've been sleeping the whole time.

You didn't talk to me at all.

Why are you being so clingy?

Like a little kid.

Didn't you use to complain that I was too strict with you?

Sis,

look.

The photos we took last time

at the studio are ready.

They look so beautiful.

Really.

Look.

They really are beautiful.

Thank you, Shixian.

I have no regrets in this life.

Sis,

you're going to get better, right?

You'll slowly get better.

Right?

Maybe.

I won't get better.

Sis,

couldn't you at least lie to me?

Silly child.

Birth, aging, illness, and death

are just a part of life.

You're an adult now.

You need to learn to be strong.

There are many endings in this world

that simply cannot be changed.

You have to learn to accept them.

Sis,

will you turn into a star?

I suppose so.

In my entire life,

I've never traveled very far.

From now on,

I want to freely explore a bigger,

wider world.

But this body is too heavy.

I can't take it with me.

I have to leave it behind.

Sis,

But,

I can't bear to let you go.

I can't bear to lose you.

I can't bear to leave you either.

I'm not afraid of dying.

I'm just afraid that after I'm gone,

you'll be too lonely all by yourself.

Sis.

But now you have Teng Mo.

After I'm gone,

you and Teng Mo need to live a good life.

It wasn't easy for the two of you to get together.

Since you've chosen to be together,

don't give up easily.

No matter what happens,

don't throw childish tantrums.

Don't be foolish.

He spoils you

because he loves you.

You need to treat him with the same sincerity.

Treat him well.

If anything comes up,

talk it over with him.

Don't keep it all bottled up inside.

Communicate with him more.

Got it?