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- Previously on... - Cheers to girls' days

and getting out of the house every once in a while.

- Yeah. - Cheers!

We probably look like every other family

in the neighborhood, but the truth is

everybody's hiding something.

I have a double life.

I am known as Tammy to a lot of my friends, family,

but I also make adult content as Erika Swingz.

♪ Mwah ♪

I used to be a high school English teacher,

but we were struggling financially.

I decided to try something different,

and my life completely flipped upside down.

Scandal rocks a small town as a Missouri woman is fired

from her teaching job.

What's the deal with this party anyway?

- Who is coming? - Megan and Tyler are coming.

I don't really consider us friends anymore.

I hope it doesn't, you know, boil into something

that it doesn't need to be.

Megan and I were very close.

What happened? I-- I really have no idea.

We're not really like friends anymore,

and we just grew apart. I don't know what I did wrong.

Bri did something that I'm still trying to get over.

We've been hiding like this huge secret.

I get it. I've pretty much accepted

that I'm losing all my friends. - I'm really scared.

I've been undercover as an adult content creator

for three years now, and what makes this very difficult

and complicated is that my dad is a pastor.

Thank you, Jesus, for this food, all of your blessings, amen.

Amen.

I don't know how they're gonna respond.

What are you, you like struggling with coming out?

I feel like I'm ready.

- Over here. - They're kicking us out here.

Are you serious?

They don't wanna be associated with Bri.

This is really freaking scary

Coming out, I'm probably gonna be judged

and treated like I'm not human.

And I don't know if I'm ready for that yet.

Shut the cameras off now.

Let's go outside, and we'll have a conversation.

Let's go.

- You got everything? - Yeah.

- Yeah. - OK.

This is my gym. I come here five days a week.

So, I'm shocked that we're getting kicked out of the gym

because somebody recognized Bri from adult content.

We didn't do anything wrong.

We were literally just stretching and working out.

And listen, I know for a fact

that there's other content creators at that gym,

but they're not kicked out.

I am mind-blown right now.

Can they legally do that?

That just happened?

- This is real life again. - Are we-- are we in 2026?

Are we in...

like, are we still burning women at the stake?

- Yeah. - Yeah.

I really can't believe that we literally

just got kicked out of the gym. - Just because they Googled you?

How can they do that?

Our subscribers are not what you would think.

They're not always the people in their mom's basement.

They're neighbors. They're doctors.

They're lawyers. They're normal people.

But some of them are very hypocritical

'cause they don't wanna own the judgment

that we feel every day. - Mm-hmm.

- What do you think other people do outside of this gym? - I don't know.

Yeah, exactly. They're probably a subscriber.

- Hi, [bleep]. - Hello.

Anyway.

- So, anyway. - I feel like at this point

I'm so used to it. Like, I'm so...

Like, has this happened to you before?

Oh, I've been kicked out of banks.

- Are you serious? - I've been-- oh, yeah.

- Banks closed our accounts. - What?

Yeah. There's so many.

- I feel so jaded to it anymore. - I'm sorry.

Like, this is why I don't go out in public.

This is why I've built, like, such a close community.

You know, we do hide under the radar a lot

still for fear of this type of thing happening. - Yeah.

Everybody's got secrets, everybody's got baggage.

We're out here like being moms trying to live normal lives...

- Yeah. - ...and just trying to have like

the same luxuries as everybody else.

- Right. - Who ever thought it would be a luxury

just to walk into a gym?

I was so shocked and baffled whenever

she told us we had to leave, that we were being kicked out.

I was just like, "This is not real life right now."

- I mean... - 'Cause I'm sure, like, whenever I come out,

like, things like this might happen. - Yeah.

Yeah, it's not going to be the same.

No.

I'm just like,

I'm not a bad person. Like, I'm not a criminal.

It really breaks my heart.

I will never, ever, ever

treat people the way that I have already been treated.

Hey, let's go see Dad. Hey, babe.

- How are you guys doing? - Not too bad.

You didn't have to bring that. Thank you.

You're welcome.

I feel like the real-life Morticia Adams.

Growing up in a funeral industry,

my mom was the embalmer for the funeral home

and now my husband works there.

I don't think Tyler expected to work in the funeral business

whenever he was younger, but then he developed

this passion and this love for it.

Oh, we've missed you so much.

Stop laughing at me. God.

He's my person, he's my best friend.

Megan and I had met freshman year of high school.

I was a football player.

She had came over and asked me if she could be my cheerleader.

There was one that I was hoping would ask me.

Unfortunately, Me-- no, I'm just kidding.

Megan did, and then I think it was month four

that we first said, "I love you" to each other.

I've been saying it ever since.

Thank you, babe. I've missed you too,

and I'm so happy to see the boys.

Yeah, they've been driving me crazy all night.

If you want? I'll take them with me.

We'll throw them in the back.

- Let's do that. - No!

What we're coming up on is our 14th year of marriage.

It's hard to see a life without her.

- Thank you, guys, for the lunch. - Thank you.

- Love you. - Love you too.

We have two boys, Greyson and Bennett.

They are ten and eight, and they are, I mean,

the most important little people to us.

Love you, boys. Bye.

- Air ball. - This is rigged.

It's rigged?

- There you go. - Finally.

I've wanted to be a teacher pretty much my whole life.

I have two master degrees, one in English,

one in teaching.

And I taught high school English.

That was how I was impacting the world.

Kids are the future, and you want them to grow up

and, you know, be great citizens.

And so that was very fulfilling to me.

Oh, look, Dad's coming home.

As a teacher, I was making

$37,000 a year.

Thanks.

- Love you. - Love you too.

Even with Tyler's job, we were struggling.

We had a mortgage and car payments,

and then we had this massive

$130,000 student loan payment coming due.

Bailey!

Bailey will get up for treats.

My student loans were keeping me awake at night.

On a teacher's salary,

I was very worried about making that payment.

I don't want her to bite my finger off.

She won't bite your finger off.

And so I started thinking about different ways

to earn money, and I found out

there was adult content creation,

but I was hesitant because of my job.

You know, I'm a wife, I'm a mother, I'm a teacher.

It's something I'd never considered doing.

Good girl.

Tyler and I talked about it for a while.

I mean, we made an account under an alias.

Didn't do anything with them for quite a while.

But all of the bills were coming due,

and there was no other choice at this point

that I had to make that choice.

And so I started with an iPhone,

and I started doing content.

♪ Someone said I gotta do ♪

♪ That thing that will make him move ♪

♪ Now I'm back, 'cause you know it's true ♪

♪ I'm your type ♪

I was anxious when I made my first post.

It's one of those things where you're like, "Oh, my God,

I did it." And it started with feet pics,

and it started with panties.

And the money really started coming in

from my content creation.

And so I was able to pay my bills,

start paying back my loans.

And then it also spiced up our sex life.

It was exciting and spicy.

It really helped my self-confidence.

It made us bond more.

But I like to say, "It was one foot in

and then your whole [bleep]'s out."

At the beginning, I was 100% behind scenes.

I am to today, I pretty much still am.

I would take pictures, videos, I'd help out wherever I could.

Occasionally might get called upon and there's that.

Hi babe, I've missed you today.

You ever get jealous, Tyler?

No.

Because at the end of the day, I'm hers and she's mine.

I mean, I feel the same way.

If there's something that makes one of us uncomfortable,

we talk about it.

When a client says something like, "I love you,"

for example, that's one of our boundaries.

We don't want to encourage that.

And so we generally try to shut it down.

Hey, boys, you guys wanna go play?

I was gonna talk to mom a little bit.

- Yeah, sure. - Cool.

- Play VR? - Yeah, you can play VR.

When I first started making content,

I didn't want people to figure out who I was.

So I never showed my face in my content.

But then about a month after Bri was caught, I got outed.

Scandal hits Franklin, Missouri once again tonight.

A second teacher is pulled from the classroom

when her adult content site was found.

I loved teaching.

I miss it every single day.

If I could go back in time...

If I could go back in time, I wouldn't do it.

I wouldn't make content.

I'm such an ugly crier. I'm sorry.

But I do feel that hole in what's missing.

- How you feeling? - I mean, I am excited,

but I am really nervous about seeing Bri for the first time

since the hoedown. - Yeah.

Tammy is having a barbecue,

and she wants all of us to come.

She is kind of like the mama bear

keeping the group together.

I feel like what's happened has, like,

caused like a giant hole on our friendship.

There was a time that Bri and I were super close.

We went to each other's kids' birthday parties.

We went on vacation together. Bri was my best friend.

Once I got outed and put on leave, Bri was there for me.

We talked all the time. She listened to me cry.

We grew really close.

But now it is very awkward to interact with Bri.

And so it's really hard for me to be like,

"Oh, we're still best friends," or like, oh, you know, like--

- I get it, I get that. - You know what I mean?

Like, the barbecue, like, I don't want any confrontation.

And I don't, like, I just feel like it's gonna be awkward.

Yeah, I completely agree with that.

What is going on with you and Bri?

When it comes to Bri and I, I would rather not speak on it.

You don't wanna answer?

I would give you more detail if we could turn the mic off

and I'll step out of camera and I will tell you, like,

I'll just, I'll say this--

I think she did something horrible

and I am not comfortable speaking on it.

I think we go there with every intention to have a good time

and see what happens.

My name is Heather.

I am a mom, I'm a wife.

My husband, Shawn, he's the milkman.

I have my very secret office, it's a locked door.

I only go down there when everybody's in bed.

Hey, guys.

Man, you're not cooking that to temp.

That's only 89 degrees.

Drew and I's barbecues are very easygoing.

We're all focused on friends and family.

Our problems are our problems,

and we don't need to air them out with everybody. - No.

It doesn't have to be confrontation to communicate.

- With you, it does. - OK, Megan.

She can't tell the truth and be held accountable.

It was just an excuse.

Here we go.

Do you need some help with that?

That was heavy, Bridgette.

Yeah, it has all of my clothes in it.

My name is Heather.

I am a mom, I'm a wife,

and I'm a director of admissions for a skilled nursing facility.

My husband, Shawn, works for a milk company.

He's the milkman.

Let's get some food before I door dash.

No, we do need something.

We have four kids.

Bridgette is my oldest daughter. She's 18.

Brooke is my second oldest girl.

Brody is my oldest boy.

Brandon is my youngest son, and he is a lot.

The lawn bar guy?

Bro.

- Did he just fart? - No.

My mother-in-law lives with me.

I gotta leave here in about 45 minutes to go to work.

Oh, you're gonna miss lunch.

It's not an inconvenience for us.

I mean, she's helped us out throughout the years.

- And, I mean, it's not-- - She likes to sit outside a lot, too.

Yeah, she's getting older, so she likes to sit

outside a lot. She feeds the birds.

So...

Hey, stop screaming!

- People's ears. - is stupid.

- Stop. - It's not working.

It's very noisy and chaotic in my house all the time.

It's loud.

Never a dull moment.

If you don't hurry up and decide,

she's gonna get hangry. - I mean, you're not wrong.

- And she's already hangry. - She's already screaming.

No, I'm not there yet.

But I will get hungry,

and I will start getting irritated.

Shawn and I met when I was 17.

One of our mutual friends introduced us,

and he pulled up to my house.

And he was selling Rainbow vacuums

out of his grandma's van.

They were like vacuums that have water in them.

That lasted like two weeks,

'cause I was not going around to random old people's--

You came back to my house and showed me how they work.

Yeah, I did.

But your parents didn't wanna buy one.

But so. Well, they didn't.

Let's all take a 40-minute break while mom fixes fish.

No, I'm not eating fish.

Instantly, I thought he was very attractive.

We fell in love and we were inseparable.

One night he stayed the night and didn't make it in to work.

To work and I got fired. Anyways.

How do you lose your phone?

I don't know. It's somewhere.

- It's literally right here. - Oh.

I was 18 when I got married to Shawn.

I actually ended up pregnant about three months later.

So, after having the fourth kid,

I was feeling a little down about myself.

All the body changes, your stomach, your boobs,

if you breastfeed-- was really hard for me.

Shawn knew that I was feeling not great about myself,

so he started just posting some pictures of me on social media.

I wanted her not to be so down on herself.

I was like, "Look at all the likes

and all the comments."

You know, it started raising my ego a bit,

and I was feeling good about myself.

And then somebody reached out to me.

"I saw your profile, and I think you would actually

make some money off of this."

- I don't think they deliver. - Yes, they do.

- Do they deliver? - Anywhere delivers, really.

I was making $16 an hour, and we just had our fourth kid.

To be able to feed four kids,

I mean, that runs you $400 or $500 a week anyways.

- Are we all doing cold subs? - I don't know.

Two foot-long. Two foot-long.

Because we didn't get to go to college,

we just really wanted to make sure that our kids

had the opportunity to do that.

Bridgette, she knew from a young age she wanted to go.

There was no way we could tell her that we couldn't afford college for her.

Yeah, there's no way we could tell her that--

"You're not going to college because

our regular jobs couldn't do it." - Weren't enough.

And Brooke wants to go to one that's like $70,000 a year.

I started thinking about part-time content creation

a little bit more.

We had talked several more times throughout the years.

And finally, we decided to give it a try.

My first video was of me on my bed in lingerie,

and I was saying the first day it made $100.

I was instantly excited about thinking about all the things

that I could pay for, like extra groceries.

Our kids ate a lot.

You want a cold club?

I actually had three kids by the time I was 21.

We work all the time, we have kids.

We really didn't have any hobbies or friends.

So now, being a spicy content creator has been fun.

It's let so much more excitement into my life that I otherwise

would not have had.

My Hella HotWife site

It's my sexier me, my more fun vibe.

Let me know what you think in the comments.

My content room is down the stairs,

through the basement, through the garage.

It's a locked door.

I only go down there to do my content

when everybody's in bed.

Hey guys.

Are you done with your bed?

- Let me put hose here-- OK. - Yeah.

And one.

It's very difficult to live a double life

because I'm normally a pretty honest person,

and I am tired of having to hide it.

I've kept this secret for six years.

My mother-in-law, my work, my kids,

none of them know that I make adult content.

I got your Mother's Day gift.

- Close your eyes. - Thank you.

Then I can't see what it is.

- She has to open it anyway. - No.

Shawn and I's concern is not about ourselves.

We're really concerned about backlash going

towards our kids. That's our main fear.

"Thank you for being the amazing person, amazing--"

I can't even talk, "...amazing person you are

"and raising me.

"You are my inspiration and aspiration for the kind

"of woman I want to be. I love you so much.

Bridgette, happy Mother's Day!"

That's so sweet.

We're never gonna tell anybody.

- The kids-- - The kids don't know anything

because they don't need to know anything.

It's really none of their business.

We might tell people if there's a show airing.

But... - I'm just saying maybe go into a little bit more detail

before the show comes out. - I don't think it needs to.

We just really haven't wanted

to face it yet, if I'm being honest.

Would you like to go meet the pony

you're gonna ride today?

All right, let's go see him.

- He's so soft. - He is soft, isn't he?

We're gonna have to come back.

Oh, yeah, you're definitely gonna have to come back.

I'm not going to let her down.

Nope, she won't let you forget this.

But I feel like I wouldn't have been able to do it

before I could barely pay my bills.

It's not a life that your-- a mother would choose

for their daughter.

Ah!

Look at that horse.

- Oh! - Oh, it's so pretty.

I'm here today with Blakely and my mom,

and Blakely is going to have her first ever

horse riding lesson.

Would you like to go meet the pony you're gonna

ride today? All right, let's go see him.

You wanna see him?

Hi, Elliot.

- Hi. - So cute.

Give him a pat. Oh, that's so nice.

- Hi. - He's so soft.

He is soft, isn't he?

I may look like a girly girl, but growing up on a farm,

I used to break wild cows.

I mean, I would take them from running around

all over the place to, like, being tame and docile.

I was in the mud. I was in the cow [bleep].

Having the time of my life.

- His mouth is dirty. - His mouth is dirty?

- You see his teeth? - Yeah.

He's got funny-looking teeth, doesn't he?

I grew up in a small town

of about 7,000 people.

I went to church every single Sunday.

It was very strict, and I was rebellious.

I could never get on board with those ideals.

We're gonna pull ourselves up and swing our leg over.

Nice. There you go.

Good. And off we go.

Oh, he says, "I'm ready."

So we're gonna have to come back.

Oh, yeah, you're definitely gonna have to come back.

I'm not gonna let her down.

Nope, she won't let you forget this.

It's just really, like, special and important

that you are here.

And, like, showing up for Blakely

and being here for her riding lesson.

She's a little miniature version of you,

so I get to watch that all over again.

Yeah.

I wouldn't have been able to afford stuff like this

when I was teaching, and Phillip was laid off, and...

Oh, I get it. It's tough.

Life is tough sometimes.

It's definitely, like, why we do what we do is, like,

trying to provide, like,

a good life.

I wouldn't have been able to do it,

before I could barely pay my bills.

Becoming content creators has changed so many relationships.

My mom was shocked at first.

And I mean, it's definitely hard,

like, seeing your child go through something like that.

And everyone's calling her, gossiping to her, too.

So she was kind of thrust into it as well.

But I think she approached the news from a place of love

and understanding instead of a place of judgment.

She often, like, talks to me about loving people

like Jesus would do.

She's doing really good.

So when I was put on leave at the school,

I did call my mom.

She said, "Well, it's not gonna be

on the 5 o'clock news, is it?"

I said, "No-- I don't I don't know why it would be."

Scandal rocks a small town as a Missouri woman

is fired from her teaching job.

It's like famous last words,

because it was on the news for weeks.

I don't know if I expressed my gratitude enough.

You didn't turn your back on us.

So that's really important to me.

It's not our place to judge.

I mean, I get why you're doing it

to give Blakely things that you didn't have, but...

it's not a life that your--

a mother would choose for their daughter,

but again, you guys are adults and... - I know.

I can't make those decisions for you.

I know.

As a parent, you may not always like the choices

that your children make, but that's her life,

and I'm still gonna love her no matter what.

It's hard to watch your child grow up and then do this.

And, you know, they're still people.

They still have feelings in the way that people treat them.

Is...

it was heartbreaking.

There's just, you know, a lot of people cut them--

cut them out of their lives.

And we're not the ones to be judging anybody.

There's much higher person that's gonna judge all of us.

And I'd do anything for Blakely and you.

It's not like

totally ideal, I know, but it's also like

for now just like weighing the pros and cons of like

just providing a good life for us. I don't know.

Hopefully it's not a forever situation.

Yeah.

No, I mean, I can't do it forever.

I'm not gonna be doing granny porn.

- Can you imagine? - No.

No.

No.

- Hi. - Hey.

- So good to see you. - Good to see you.

- How are you? - I'm good.

- How are you? - Good.

- It's been a while. - It has been a while.

- How are the kids? - They're doing good.

So Bridgette, our oldest,

you know, she's actually home on break.

- Aw. - So, yeah.

- That's great. - It's really exciting.

I really love Megan because she's so down-to-earth,

and she's really relatable.

And I haven't really had anyone that I've been able to talk to

about my double life and coming out.

She's already been through all of this before,

what I could potentially go through.

So hopefully, I can find some more out.

How's just life in general,

content, like everything going well?

It's good. It's so busy. Like, my work is so demanding.

I was waking up at like 4:00 in the morning

just to work on my pages before going into work.

Wow.

- Crazy. - Yeah.

It's very difficult having to juggle both jobs.

But I'm worried that if I quit my full-time job,

we won't be able to survive on the content alone

because Bridgette is in college.

And then, on top of that, the content creation world

doesn't carry any type of insurance for you,

and we have four kids.

- You're afraid of getting outed and losing your job. - Yeah, yeah.

- I went through it, so I get it. - Yeah.

I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy.

So how does it affect you with your family?

My mom refuses to really talk about it.

OK.

I lost my aunt. We were always really close.

But she started posting on my Facebook, you know,

I'm disgusting and, like, just hateful things.

Your own aunt?

That's rough.

Her situation is actually one of my greatest fears.

I've seen people attack the family and kids as well

as the people doing it, and I'm hoping that

that doesn't happen.

Have you heard about Drew and Tammy's barbecue yet?

Oh, yeah-- do you know who all is going yet?

Jim and Macy.

She said she was gonna invite Bri and Phillip.

I have always been curious.

How did you find out that

you guys were both doing the same thing?

Bri and I and then a couple other of our teacher friends

went to teacher night at a Cardinals game.

And afterwards, we weren't ready to go home,

so we went to this little dive bar.

And one of the other teachers was talking about

how she would sell feet pics and, like,

her socks and stuff. - Yeah.

And Bri and I were just sitting there, like,

not saying anything.

And, like, I just, like, caught eyes with her,

and I just said, "You're doing it too, aren't you?"

- That's so funny. - And she went, "Yeah."

She was outed, and then about a month later,

the investigation started for me.

I know. I saw that all come out,

and I was like, "Oh, my gosh, that's so terrible."

Like, that's awful.

Teaching is my passion. I didn't want to be outed.

I didn't wanna lose my passion.

I genuinely thought that I was not gonna get caught.

I was so careful.

I never showed my face in my content.

But then I received an email from a newspaper

asking about me doing content.

And regardless of if I give a statement or not,

they were putting out the story.

And I told him, like, "You do realize

this is career-ruining?"

And he said, "Unfortunately,

It is what it is." Like, it's a story.

At that point, I pretty well knew it was over.

So were you and Bri able to go through it together

at least? - We did.

We really leaned on each other...

During your-- during yours.

Well, we've kind of had a falling out.

I'm sorry.

- Because you guys were really close, right? - Mm-hmm.

Tammy's barbecue is the first time that we're going to be

getting together since the hoedown.

And I am very anxious about seeing Bri.

Our kids are going to be at the barbecue

and I don't wanna fight,

but she better not come in and confront me.

- Are you all right? - I just feel really uncomfortable

with Megan here.

Megan is acting like she doesn't even know me.

It's ridiculous.

I need to put an end to this.

I see both sides of the story.

I'm not clear on anything.

Do you know things that I don't know?

Clearly missed something.

- Still trying to figure out-- - I think everybody's missed it.

Our friendship has been gone for a while.

I'm just gonna run some stuff out to the garage real quick.

- You guys stay in here, OK? - OK.

People will be here soon.

- You'll have some friends to play with. - OK.

OK.

So 64 degrees for the high.

He has like a random number generator

that he gets dressed with.

One of the decisions I don't wanna make every day

is what I'm wearing.

So I know exactly how many shirts, how many pair of pants,

how many pair of shoes that I have.

And then I go to my randomizer app.

12, 14, 16.

So that no matter what the randomizer lands on,

it should look at least presentable.

Should.

OK, I'm gonna get the tables outside all prepped

for the food while the kids play.

Hey, be good for mom. You guys got it?

- Yeah. - OK.

Drew and I's barbecues are very easygoing.

There's no content.

We're all focused on friends and family.

We've had so much going on lately with Bri and Megan

and getting kicked out of the gym.

It's just been a lot.

But my house, it's always a safe space.

We are not judged.

And that's not usually how it goes in real life,

so I'm just ready for a fun, relaxing time.

OK, whoa. OK, stop.

- Wanna carry these out for me? - Yeah!

Two hands, I'm gonna get the door for you, OK?

Drew's the grill master,

'cause I would burn everything.

I can make lasagna, and that's about

the only dish that I can make. - Lasagna, cereal, toast.

That's her menu. You don't wanna eat it.

- Hello. - What's up?

- Glad you guys could make it. - Boozy over here.

Let me take this out of your hands.

These are for you 'cause I know they're your favorites.

OK, spicy drinks are gonna go in the fridge.

Thank you for taking care of me.

You're welcome.

It was really hard to hear from Megan.

Everything that she's been going through

since she's been outed really scared me, so...

I am so grateful that I met Tammy and Drew

and that they introduced me to the rest of the group

because I don't really know what I would do

without having them in my life now.

- Yeah, it's OK-- hey. - Hello.

- What's up? - Here, I'll take your stuff here.

- Yes, I brought goods. - Thank you.

Ooh. Heather and Shawn.

- Hey. - Hey, it's been a minute.

- Yes, how are you? - I'm good.

- How about you? - Good.

Well, more people should be coming here soon.

You can start meat if you want.

- Yep, I'm ready. - And I'll do the mac and cheese.

Ready to hang out outside.

Man, you're not cooking that to temp.

- That's only 89 degrees. - Outside.

Oh, look, they already got sidewalk chalk out,

corn hole. - Hey, what's up, guys?

- Yo, what's up, dude? - You're cooking up , buddy?

I'd shake your hand, but it's covered in

hot dog juice.

I've got to get myself a little drink so far.

I haven't drank any water.

I've been prioritizing coffee today,

and it is gonna catch up with me.

So I'm kind of worried that we're going to have another

issue with...

"Why wasn't I invited to the gym?"

Oh, with Megan?

Megan said some things about that get together

at your house.

She was offended because she didn't get an invite.

And, like, just be mature enough to understand that...

Not being invited doesn't always, like, mean that

people are feeling a type of way. - Right.

- We don't talk. - So...

Like, we haven't talked in months, you know?

I mean, are you gonna bring it up to her here?

I always do the reaching out and it's not being reciprocated.

Maybe this would be a good time just to, like,

rip the band aid off and figure it out, right?

- Yeah. - Like, a solution or at least,

like, a step on the right direction to fixing that.

Before any of the content creation or scandals,

Megan was the person that I was closest to.

Our friendship, like, really was so strong

and we had such a good bond.

I feel like I deserve a conversation

about what's going on.

Hey!

- Hello! - Hola.

- What's up, Megan? - Hey, how are you?

- Good, how are you? - I'm good.

Hello. How are you?

All right.

Hi, Megan.

- Hi. - Sorry, I was trying to beat my way through the crowd.

- How are you boys? - Hello.

I don't know if she said hi yet, but Brooklynn couldn't wait

for you guys to get here.

She just wanted friends to play with.

Coming into today, I'm very concerned

that Bri and I are going to have a conversation

about what was going on.

I don't feel like that's family friendly.

I don't feel like that's what the point of this barbecue is.

So what happened the other day at the gym,

it was a lot mentally. - What happened?

Somebody came up and told us that we had to leave

immediately because someone recognized Bri.

All three of us were being kicked out,

me, Bri, and Tammy.

We're not doing anything illegal.

Really made me think about me coming out.

We live in a small town.

Your last name carries a lot of weight.

It definitely is nerve wracking knowing that this coming out

just from me being a pastor's daughter

could negatively affect him and his reputation

and people that I really love and care about.

But it makes me thankful that we have, like,

I don't know, the community that we do

and the friends that I have, like, within all this

because I don't know

if I will be able to do it, like...

Just because you don't agree with it or you frown upon it,

like we have to get kicked out, that's not OK. - Yeah.

- It's embarrassing, too like... - Yes.

- Are you all right? - I feel really uncomfortable.

- With what? - It's so uncomfortable with Megan here.

I don't want you to feel like you're not welcome.

It's just uncomfy. It's just so uncomfy.

- I agree. - Like, why does it have to be that way?

- Did you guys talk at all? - No.

Megan acting like she doesn't even know me is ridiculous.

If there's something going on, I wanna know about it.

So we need to have a talk. I need to put an end to this.

I just...

Hey, I have to interrupt this real quick.

- Megan, Macy, Bri, Heather. - Yeah.

I need to borrow you guys for a minute.

We're going on a walk.

We definitely wanna respect the fact that there's kids here,

and we would never have those adult conversations,

you know, around the kids.

So I just decided to take all the girls down to the end

of the cul-de-sac to resolve the conflict

between Bri and Megan.

I just wanted to be-- I just wanted to be away

from the kids, and this might not all be, like,

relevant to, like, everybody, but as far as our friend group,

it's just inevitable you're gonna have--

you're gonna have clashes. - Right.

Well, it's already happening.

I'm very frustrated at this entire situation.

Megan, you are offended because us three

got together a few weeks ago.

That is something that we would talk about alone.

No, that's-- this is the point of this conversation.

I'm feeling ambushed because it seems like now every time

we go somewhere I'm going to have a confrontation with Bri

and it's not OK to me.

Our problems are our problems

and we don't need to air them out with everybody. - No.

You told me our problems were because you weren't invited

to a day with the three of us.

I am aware 'cause I didn't want to get into it,

and I don't think this is the appropriate place

with children here to have a conversation

with you about it.

OK, Megan.

Kids weren't around. It was just an excuse.

If she can't tell the truth and be held accountable,

why are you here?

Well, you're the one that can't communicate,

apparently, and confront issues head-on.

I'm non-confrontational.

It doesn't have to be confrontation to communicate.

- With you, it does. - Not true.

- Check your tone, then. - Well, you're frustrating me.

I'm sorry you feel that way.

I've asked you multiple times what's going on

with our friendship, and you just lie to my face every time.

I have not lied to you once.

- I have text-message proof. - Lied to you about what?

"You will always be one of my best friends.

You're always my best friend."

Blah, blah, blah, blah, blah. Lies.

Our friendship has been gone for a while.

I think you're just the one that didn't realize it.

I'm just feeling embarrassed and shocked.

I don't know what to say about it.

I don't know, obviously like this is between you guys,

but like it just kind of breaks my heart a little bit

because I'm still friends with both of you.

You know what I mean?

And so like, I see both sides of the story, right?

What side are you seeing of hers?

Cause I'm confused, cause I'm not clear on anything.

Do you know things that I don't know?

- No. - Like what?

She's just like...

We used to have each other's backs and now

every conversation just feels like a fight.

Clearly missed something.

I just am trying to figure out how we got here.

I think everybody's missed it, so.

Huh?

I believe that Bri outed me to the newspapers three years ago.

That's what blew my life up and made me lose the job

that I loved. She took that from me.

When you have a calling and a passion,

it's really hard to lose that.

In the life everlasting, amen.

The new church that I'm attending today

does not know that I do content.

How can I feel safe at church walking in

not knowing if I'm gonna be kicked out again?

The pastor called me.

He said, "I don't understand how you could like

what you see in the mirror every day."

I'm making world's best sandwich.

OK.

My name's Emily, and I'm a mom of four children, six cats,

one dog, 23 snakes. And I live with my husband.

He's definitely my emotional support animal.

At Bill's birthday party, I had a better time

than I thought I would. I really liked Megan.

And we're gonna go to brunch.

Maybe it could be the beginning of my peopling journey.

Trying to make friends

with an existing group of friends is very difficult.

Gonna dip some toes, see how it goes.

Tammy's barbecue. You guys all go?

Yes. Yeah.

- So tell me all the stuff. - Oh.

I feel like you're almost kind of talking,

like, you're close with us, but you're not.

This group isn't just friendship to me.

And I don't want Emily to ruin that.

"Our friendship was over so long ago."

That made me just feel like, "What did I do

that was, like, so terrible?"

I feel like I'm ready to, you know, confront Bri.

I know this is something that we both need.