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Shooting for Playboy helped me to come out of my shyness.

I've always been shy but I knew I wanted to model.

I decided to try for the top, Playboy.

So when I went to see the people at Playboy Models, the next thing I knew I

was posing for the magazine.

Maybe I'm just an old-fashioned romantic.

Or maybe I'm still dreaming.

I had a lot of fantasies.

Sometimes when I'm alone and I think about those dreams I had for so long, I

feel like anything's possible.

Wishing you were here by my side.

To give me love and keep me satisfied.

Something about a moving thing.

That makes me think of you and me.

Close to you all through.

Feels right Swept away in your arms

Swept away, baby Keep me from the

dark Swept away in love so deep

Swept away, baby

Like the sun

you know I can't wait too long cause this

love I feel is strong come to me now

please don't hesitate oh baby

don't make

Keep me from the storm.

Sweat away in the deep.

Sweat away, baby.

Being involved with Playboy has been a great experience for me, but learning is

still one of my top priorities.

I like to be creative, whether that means modeling, drawing, or even making

a movie.

Somebody's looking, looking at me.

I don't know what they're trying to see.

I guess I'm just paranoid of what it is I'm trying to

avoid.

Are you watching me? I'm watching.

I don't know what it could be. Cause I'm paranoid of field

decor.

I just don't know what you're trying to see. Watching, watching.

Never felt like this before.

Like someone behind every door. Ooh, just a window.

Close the chain. I hope the feeling starts to fade.

Are you watching me?

Watching, watching. I don't know what it could be.

Are you watching? Watching, watching. Are you watching me?

I was born in San Francisco. I was raised in L.A.

My mom is Nicaraguan. My father and his family are all Italian.

I was sent to Nicaragua when I was 12 to study for two years.

I went to the American Nicaraguan school.

That's probably where my interest in visiting other Latin countries began.

I could spend all my days on the beaches of Baja.

It's so beautiful. It's like being in paradise on Earth.

I can be totally alone for days if I want to and not see anybody else.

Well, one time I went and saw this movie called Romeo and Juliet, and she had the

most beautiful hair I'd ever seen. And after that, I wanted long hair.

So always just remember what your dreams are and think about them, and you can

have them.

My town is Dallas.

There's places you can go and not see anybody.

And then there's times you can go downtown and where it's happening is L

.A. or New York.

You know what it is about the South that makes me feel like a woman?

It's just the basicness, simplicity, just of everyday life.

There's nothing demanded of you, but yet I just try to give it all.

I love being in the South, and this is where I do the best.

And I want you to see how I live in Texas.

I met Playboy through the 30th anniversary hunt.

I saw Ned in the newspaper and decided, what the heck, let's go for it.

When I was a little girl, I think I was about 11 or 12, I remember thinking, one

of these days I'm going to be in Playboy.

So I set up a little place in my loft to work out.

When I'm there, I usually turn on the music and give it a good workout and

really go to it.

a picture of me.

Baby, come here to me.

I didn't know how loud you'd be.

You get me through the night.

I was born and raised in Jamaica, West Indies.

I grew up in the parish of St. Mary in a small town called Highgate.

Jamaica is the most beautiful island in the world.

The people are so happy, so content.

That's why it's a paradise.

People.

when the music goes around and around.

If you want some action, create your own scene.

It's just the way it is, the way it's always been.

Just live, live for today.

Okay.

It's a mighty life.

Well, it's a brand new day.

Okay.

Come on now, come on now, I don't need to show.

But I bet that you just want to live in a world

that has so much to give.

We can do,

oh yeah, I'm talking about you.

Good day. Good day. What can I just say?

We should live for today.

That's right.

Oh, that's right.

I really liked the way Pompeo captured me on film.

He was able to bring out the real me.

No fancy garters or frills.

Just natural.

That's me.

A lot of people think I'm from Chicago.

I'm not.

I'm from North Dakota.

A lot of people think playmates are all body and no brain.

It's true.

Gotcha.

But I think the most important thing you need to be a playmate is personality.

What the fuck?

The playmate phenomena is that all these women, the 12 women a year, we've all

participated, we've all done the same thing.

It's a feeling, boy, that I wish every woman could have a chance to feel, but

only a chosen few are, and that's what makes it even more special.

My life has been a fairy tale, and it all starts out with dreams and imagining

you want to go, like, to an island.

I've been studying real estate.

There's real estate in Hawaii.

Why can't I go over and get my license? Be able to have business and pleasure on

an island.

It became just a wonderful life.

I got involved in the ocean, sailing and windsurfing. It was real healthy. It was

a dream come true.

And then all of a sudden, Playboy comes into my life. And it's another dream

come true.

You make me feel so good inside every day.

Baby, what you do with me never felt this way.

Give me a better hand on the collar.

All right, let's bring that hand to the hip.

Maybe you're the best.

There's so much about you that keeps you

on my mind.

I grew up on a farm in Springville, New York.

Then I remember running around without any clothes on, naked in the field at

times.

How excited I was when I found out that I was the 30th anniversary playmate.

Me, out of 7,000 women interviewed, I just couldn't believe it. I was so

excited.

Sometimes when I'm alone, I like to envision a faraway place where it's

peaceful and serene, unlike the common hustle and bustle that I'm seeing every

day.

It's a place of peace and serenity.

It's a comfortable feeling that I can only have with myself, and I enjoy it.

Well, my pictures are so different from me looking in the mirror every single

day.

They're sexy. They're beautiful.

And I really am happy that I did this.

It's been one of the most exciting things I've ever experienced.

What is sexy?

Music makes me feel sexy. If it's soft and sexy music.

There's sexy music and then there's other music.

And I love water. Water makes me feel sexy.

So,

I was a very, very shy child.

In fact, I really didn't open up until college.

Playboy changed my life. I started modeling, came out of my shell.

I think my Playboy pictures are exquisite.

I did a fashion shoot with photographer John Bilecki, who was just absolutely

fantastic.

I like being soft, and when I say soft, I mean being very much a woman,

very sensual, sexy.

Ding!

I really loved posing for Playboy. It was quite an experience.

Everybody was wonderful.

They tried to make you as comfortable as possible, almost like family.

Steve Wada was a wonderful photographer.

I think the most rewarding thing was when I actually saw the magazine after

it came out. The pictures were done with such taste.

I like to swim because it's great exercise. It tones your body at the same

time that you're having a lot of fun.

I like to dive. I like being underwater.

Kind of a different world sometimes for me.

Quiet room Having thoughts of you

And many times we were

lost and found

to do

Shooting my layout was a very wonderful experience, and I felt like I had a

creative hand in the entire process.

They made me feel comfortable about myself and very sensual, and I just

really have a fond memory of the entire experience.

I feel a real bonding to this land because my family had a vineyard for so

many years in Lodi, which is in the Central Valley of California.

So here I am, kind of this little grape-picking farm girl.

It really holds a lot of memory for me.

And I still reminisce and like to come out and play and do the things I used to

do.

There's been times when people view me as more of a sex object instead of a

person, and whatever I do, whether I'm a playmate or a doctor or anything, I'm

still going to be the same basic person.

A lot of people forget that, and they try to look just at this image that's

formed instead of looking at the real person behind it.

That's hard to deal with sometimes.

And I told my parents that I was going to be sailing to Hawaii.

My mother was very anxious about it. My dad was really okay. He was accepting,

and whatever I felt I could do would be okay with him.

Oh, baby, you and me.

It feels so free, just like the wind.

Going out and back again.

It feels so good, the breeze in your hair.

Being out there without it. I

want to feel this way all of the time

When I found out I was going to be Miss December, I couldn't believe it because

that's the holiday issue and one of the better-selling issues, so I knew a lot

of people were going to see me, and that was a real thrill and an honor, and I

could barely contain myself.

I like it when a man tells me that he thinks I'm beautiful.

I like it when a man tells me that he thinks I'm funny, that he likes holding

me and kissing me and pressing his fingers through my hair.

I was going round in circles, they must be my

surprise.

Turn around, find your sweet passion, just by looking in

your eyes.

The shooting of the Playboy layout for me was an incredible experience.

It's the most sensual photography that i've ever done and i don't think that i

ever felt inhibited in any way with any of the the crew it was just very

exciting

when

i'm cooking it gives me a lot of time To fantasize about the things that I enjoy.

One of my fantasies is to own a bed and breakfast place.

I've watched a few old movies, and I've seen these old roadhouses.

There's always some woman getting by, making a living, cooking, serving,

pumping gas.

Real old-fashioned.

I almost wish that I could go back in time and live in the 40s and be the sole

proprietor of my own place.

Playboy always represented beautiful women to me.

I was such an awkward kid, you know, all elbows and knees.

This seems almost impossible.

The only time I really feel beautiful is when I look at my Playboy pictures.

Otherwise, I'm still that little girl in the neighborhood who likes to work on

cars with her brothers.

Detroit. The backbone of American industry and American music. Detroit is

also my home and I'm proud of it.

I don't think it's possible

to live in Detroit and not learn something about cars.

I love to work on cars. I especially love to restore old Chevys.

She's out of this world.

There's something very sexy about cars.

That's why people collect them. I'm not really sure where my future's going to

take me, but I bet you anything I'll drive there.

My pictures, they're great.

Arnie Freytag really captured me.

Bodybuilding to blue jeans.

Muscular and soft.

That's Julie.

Got a light

You

come on like a flame touching

my very soul

When I'm with you, there's only one way to go.

The birth of you.

Yeah, you take my heart.

You're in my deepest soul.

Oh, you tear me apart.

Sometimes when I look at my pictorial, I think, is that really me?

Shaps,

jean jacket, and Ebola tie.

I've worn these a lot in my life, but I never expected them to be on the pages

of Playboy.

Physical fitness is very important to me.

I work out all the time, and it hasn't just started in the last couple of

years. I've been doing it ever since I was a young girl.

After a workout, I have to relax. I have to have time to myself to get my mind

clear and let my body relax. And if certain muscles need to be massaged, I

can do it on myself. And I just make myself feel good and give myself the

time that I need.

for you.

Want me.

It's so warm.

Your mouth.

Kiss me.

Yeah.

You love me.

Now.

Yes.

Do you need me?

Do you want me?

Get close.

Your body.

So warm.

Yeah.

Yeah.

I want your mouth.

Yeah Yeah Yeah

The

kind

of man I am attracted to has a wild sense of humor He is competitive.

He does what he talks about doing.

He is affectionate and sensitive.

I like to give the man in my life a lot of attention.

And I love to send and receive love letters.

I can say things in a letter that I might be too shy to even suggest in

person.

Maybe it's been so long since we were together.

I dream.