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"Blue Lips"

(Episode 12)

A hundred thousand.

No way.

Two hundred thousand.

A hundred and fifty thousand.

That's all I have.

I have plenty of friends at the courthouse anyway.

We can just take this to court.

If you want to drag this out, be my guest.

He can't afford to wait, but I've got nothing but time.

I can wait forever.

Fine.

A hundred and fifty thousand.

Not a penny less.

You want to drag it out?

I can afford to wait.

Go to court?

I'm not afraid of you.

Neither of us will have it easy anyway.

It's settled. A hundred and fifty thousand.

I'll give it to you next week.

Next week? No way.

It has to be today.

Who knows where you'll run off to by next week.

Fine.

If you guys

want to be unreasonable,

I can haggle with you all day.

I already called the cops anyway.

When they get here,

we can ask them

how to settle you beating him up today.

Fine.

Next week it is.

Right.

Zhulin Teahouse.

Give me... give me your phone number.

Are we good?

Yeah.

Everyone,

I've recorded all of you.

Please do me a favor

and delete any photos

or videos you took.

Otherwise, I'll sue you for infringement.

Thanks for your cooperation.

Are you okay? Let's go.

Let's go inside

and get you cleaned up.

I don't need your help.

Where else are you hurt?

Go away.

I couldn't reach you earlier.

Your sister said your phone was broken

and you didn't want to replace it.

Does your mouth still hurt?

Let me see. What are you doing?

I'm sorry, Shixian.

I was late.

Teng Mo,

I'm begging you, okay?

Please.

Don't make me have any more illusions or expectations about you.

Is that alright?

Shixian,

give me a chance.

Shixian, I...

Okay.

Just listen to me.

There are some things.

I've never told you.

At first,

I just wanted a stress-free,

easygoing relationship.

I didn't want to get too deeply involved with anyone.

But then I realized I had changed.

I became sensitive and suspicious,

constantly worrying about losing you.

I wasn't myself anymore.

I would get angry

and lose my temper.

I was terrified.

I...

I was afraid you'd end up despising me.

So, I'm sorry.

I selfishly made the decision for you,

and then I ran away.

But later, I figured it out.

In a real relationship,

you have to go through pain and struggle.

That's why I came back.

I hope you can forgive me.

I want to become an indispensable part of your life.

I used to be so afraid of the future,

but being with you,

I look forward to it every single day.

I'm willing to prove myself.

Will you believe me?

Will you give me another chance?

But...

I'm not willing.

I'm not willing.

I... I...

I was wrong, Shixian.

What can I do to make you forgive me?

Don't apologize to me.

We're just not right for each other.

How are we not right? Tell me.

I can change.

You don't need to change.

You're great.

It's my fault.

It's my fault, okay?

You did nothing wrong.

There's nothing wrong with you.

Or...

Or are you sick of me?

Have you fallen for someone else?

Yes.

I am sick of you.

I'm completely sick of you.

I've fallen for someone else.

Are you happy now?

Why are you lying?

It's obviously a lie.

Your eyes don't lie, Shixian.

Then what do you want me to do?

Can love put food on the table?

I want to give you a stable life too.

I want to give you a future too.

But I only have a high school diploma.

I don't have a steady job.

I'm impulsive and reckless.

I only cause trouble.

Do you want me to drag you down?

My family needs a lot of money.

I'm just a burden.

No one will have a good life being with me.

I only cause trouble for people.

I don't want that.

So...

But I don't mind the trouble.

I... I'm not afraid of any of that.

I'm not afraid of trouble.

I don't think you're a burden.

But I'm afraid.

I'm afraid.

I'm afraid.

Actually,

I also want an equal relationship.

A partner I don't have to look up to.

I don't want you to always take care of me,

to always clean up my messes.

It puts too much pressure on me. I'm exhausted.

This isn't the life I want.

And I hate myself for being like this.

Teng Mo,

while you still

don't feel

annoyed or disgusted by me,

if we break up now,

maybe we can still keep some good memories.

Is that really what you think?

Yes.

So get out of here.

Don't make me curse at you.

Get lost!

Fine.

I get it.

Shixian,

where did you go?

It was so noisy downstairs just now.

You didn't get hurt, did you?

Wait a minute.

Lift your head up.

What happened?

Sis,

I'm fine.

Was it Teng Mo?

Did Teng Mo hurt you?

No.

It wasn't him.

Sis,

I'm going out for a bit.

Shixian!

Where are you going now?

Shixian!

Shixian!

I'm leaving.

I'm sorry for saying goodbye like this.

I'm really not good at farewells.

Thank you so much for everything recently,

for indulging me and keeping me company.

The days I've spent with you

have been the happiest times I've had in years.

But all good things must come to an end.

Being able to walk this part of the journey together

has been the greatest blessing of my life.

The money on this card is for you.

The PIN is your birthday.

This money will do more good in your hands than in mine.

Don't refuse it.

You can't mix your meds with alcohol.

No one will be watching over you from now on.

If possible,

go back to school for a few more years.

Study a bit more.

Your path in life will be much smoother.

I won't say goodbye.

I wish you a happy marriage.

May your life be smooth sailing.

May you always be happy and carefree.

Teng Mo.

Didn't I tell you to get lost?

Why did you come back?

The person I love most is right here.

Where else could I go?

Shixian.

Look.

Alright.

Stop crying.

I didn't leave, did I?

I couldn't buy a ring right now,

so I found a temporary replacement.

I'm sorry.

Why would you say that?

I was too selfish.

I always thought

love was about two equals

giving to each other.

But I've just been taking everything you give.

I just feel,

I feel so guilty.

It's because I like you too much.

I like you so much that.

I'm afraid by the time I'm capable of being with you,

you might already have a cute kid,

and you'd tell me, "I'm sorry,

I already have a wife."

How could I possibly have a wife?

Didn't I tell you?

I don't want anyone else but you.

When I saw

that book at your place,

I knew

you were a lawyer.

In the future,

you'll definitely be on top of the world.

But

while you're chatting and laughing with others,

I'll be

singing at a bar.

I'll be drinking with people at a bar.

I'll be delivering packages.

I'll be delivering takeout.

I'm not good enough for you.

Why would you think that?

You're still young.

You have a long life ahead of you.

Why do you put yourself down?

Because I'm scared!

Alright.

Actually,

I'm the one who's truly pathetic.

Haven't you always asked me

why I came to Jinyang from Fengzhou?

I'll tell you today.

I was, in fact, a lawyer.

But that was five years ago.

I was the youngest licensed lawyer in the entire firm.

On top of the world.

But something happened

that completely changed my life.

It was very late that night.

I had just finished a meeting with a client at a hotel

and was heading to the rooftop for a smoke.

I was terrified.

I didn't dare let anyone know I was there.

So I hid for a long time.

Until I was sure the killer had left,

I didn't dare come out.

The next morning,

the news broke out.

Not long after, the hotel went out of business.

Everything about that night,

all the surveillance footage and videos, disappeared.

And the video on my phone,

the one I recorded,

became the only piece of evidence.

I was so scared at the time.

I went to many places

to ask around about it.

But I found out

that all the media reports from that day

were completely gone.

And the killer vanished without a trace.

You can imagine

how massive the power behind him must be.

I don't know who ordered him to do it.

The person behind it all,

their motives, their methods,

or even how many people were involved,

I have no idea.

So I didn't know what to do.

And then?

And then I left.

I was terrified.

From that day on,

I've had nightmares every single night.

Dreaming of the gruesome way that girl died.

She's been dead for five years,

and I've had these nightmares for five years.

I didn't have the courage to step forward.

I failed her.

Is this

the reason you came to Jinyang?

Because she was also from Jinyang.

Her parents traveled all over

just to find the truth for her.

But I couldn't bravely step forward.

So that day,

when you saw me in a suit,

I was going to pay my respects to her.

I'm sorry.

That day I even...

It's okay.

None of that matters anymore.

So you see,

I'm the one who is

dirty, cowardly,

and pathetic.

I'm the one who isn't good enough for you.

No, you're not.

The person I see in you

has always been someone responsible.

If you didn't speak up,

you definitely had your reasons.

I was just making excuses for myself.

Actually,

I always

said I was afraid my parents would be implicated.

I always felt

like I couldn't fight against them.

But at the end of the day, those were all just excuses.

Upholding justice,

embracing reverence,

I failed to do that.

No.

Everyone has things they're afraid of.

You just need time,

you need a way,

and you need help to resolve it.

Now you've seen the real Teng Mo.

You can choose to leave me.

Being with me might put you in a lot of danger.

It might even cost you your life.

I don't know if you're still willing.

Now,

there's no taking it back, is there?

After all, I've already put it on.