Original subtitles

[dramatic music]

♪

You're risking organ failure.

We need to pull you.

Wish I would've ate more.

I've got so much food.

Ever since the water's risen,

I haven't been able to catch a single fish.

I don't know how long I can keep going.

I'd love to be the first woman to win.

But I'm getting quite thin.

I have this pain in my tooth.

Even a small chip in your tooth

can just lead to the biggest problem.

This is the hardest terrain.

Patagonia is a different environment entirely.

Everything out here is so hard.

Patagonia's no joke.

Are you willing to give up--

-Oh! -Who you are...

for what you will become?

It's Patagonia, for God's sake.

Patagonia!

It's tougher than I ever imagined.

Just missing home right now.

You get a feeling of helplessness,

like, "Why am I doing this?"

Oh, my God!

The last person left wins $500,000

and is a badass.

-Bam! -Ugh.

[animal growling]

What is that?

It's just how far you can push yourself

and what you're able to do.

Yeah!

You don't have anyone to lean on.

Oh, my God, I got a fish!

-Go to bed hungry. -Wake up hungry.

♪

-Can't believe I did that. -Ready, guy?

It's gonna come down to mental endurance

and food deprivation.

[ces]

Person'll be dead in a week at this rate.

[animal growling]

♪

Whoa.

That's a big cat.

♪

[dramatic music]

♪

♪

[rain pattering]

♪

My tooth has been killing me.

The root just feels like it's, um,

really constricted.

[rain pattering]

There's a constant pain.

I'm trying to keep my mind off of it,

but it is driving me crazy.

[rain pattering]

Yeah, it's just pouring outside right now.

And windy.

♪

This reminds me of home.

We have a lot of blustery days like this,

and you come up outside and see all the trees

moving in the wind and the rain.

♪

Days like this, gets harder to be out here alone.

♪

I'm definitely thinking about my family a lot.

And, uh...

♪

I miss my kids so much.

And my husband.

♪

I've tried to suppress thinking about them.

♪

If I'm not busy, I get too into my head.

[rain pattering]

How long will I be out here?

How many baskets am I gonna make?

Keep thinking about my family.

[voice breaking] I have this guilt, as a mother,

leaving my children for a very long time.

♪

I didn't bring any pictures of my children,

so I couldn't even think about my role

as a mother and a wife.

♪

My kids don't even know where I am.

We don't want to tell them and worry them.

They think I'm doing forestry fieldwork.

[rain pattering]

♪

This guilt is so complicated for me.

The urge to go see my children and husband

and my health with my tooth

are pulling me away from staying out here.

♪

The only pull left for me to stay...

is the money.

♪

♪

♪

[fire crackling]

♪

Just see how my greens look here.

Some of these rehydrated greens.

First, I'm gonna getmy.

♪

Just a little self-comfort thing that I do.

♪

'Cause my butt's kind of bony these days.

[sighs]

♪

Getting so thin.

I'm guessing I'm down around 100 pounds.

♪

Eating twice as much greens as I normally do.

Hope that I can maybe stop my weight loss.

Maybe gain just a little bit.

Really want to stay in this.

♪

[wind whistling]

[birds chirping]

♪

[scraping]

♪

My strategy at this point

is trying to outlive, outlast

whoever else is left.

♪

Thought I could live on plants alone.

But I guess I'm wrong.

I need more.

♪

I have to try fishing again,

just to keep on staying here.

♪

The next med check, I'm pretty nervous about.

♪

I don't know if the doctor will think I've lost

too much weight...

and think it's necessary to pull me.

Without extra calories...

I don't know how long I can go.

♪

♪

♪

Just Look at these crow's feet kind of thing going on.

So much weight loss, man, even my face is skinny

when I smile, by my eyes.

Look at that.

Look at all those wrinkles.

I lost so much weight, and even my cheeks are thinner.

I'm getting wrinkles on my face.

It's insane.

Wild. Wild in Patagonia.

♪

I'm still losing weight continually.

I need fat, and I'm not getting that from fish.

All right.

I see my line has sprung.

Eh, nothing.

♪

I lose much more weight, and they're gonna pull me

on a medical tap out.

The doctor said that your body mass index is dropping.

And if it does not go up,

you are at risk of being pulled.

I don't want to go.

Right now, I'm gonna just keep pushing forward.

Keep myself busy.

So I'm going to...

go cut some more bamboo for chopsticks.

On my weakened state, big projects

are kind of out of the question.

It's the best I can do to keep myself distracted,

'cause I'm still really hungry.

♪

Running on empty.

Having a hard time not becoming discouraged.

♪

When you've been hungry like this for this long,

it's like it just keeps coming to ya.

Like, "Ugh."

♪

There.

Big pile of chopsticks.

♪

♪

63, 64, 65, 66,

67, 68, 69, 70, 71.

71 so far.

♪

[rain pattering]

[thunder rumbling]

I'm hurting tonight.

Ugh.

I don't think I've been so tried

and so hungry, ever in my life.

♪

I just want to go to sleep.

♪

Getting too weak and hungry to provide for myself

and keep going.

♪

That's where it comes to an end for me.

♪

♪

[motor revving]

♪

[rain pattering]

[sniffles and sighs]

[crying]

♪

[dramatic music]

♪

[water splashing]

[boat scraping]

♪

Hi.

Greetings.

Hey.

I really feel that I've done a lot here.

I really accomplished quite a bit of what I wanted to do.

But my tooth is getting sorer and sorer,

and then there's family, and, um...

you know, I'm missing them more and more every day.

I know it's the decision I have to make right now.

There's things that happen outside your control

and you just have to be at peace with that.

But I'll definitely miss this place, for sure.

♪

I'm really appreciative that in the middle of my life,

I was allowed to have this amount of time

by myself to do a bit of life reflection.

It's an immensely powerful thing,

to be alone and be in solitude.

Nature has an immense power to it.

And when you're fully immersed in it

for a significant amount of time,

you really get an appreciation

for every minute of the day

and just how fragile life is.

You have to live positively,

and if you have the right mind-set,

it's amazing what can be accomplished.

Every second with my family after this

is gonna be so profound.

Cannot wait to see my children and my husband.

♪

♪

♪

♪

♪

[insects chirping and trilling]

[rustling]

Ugh.

My little twig legs.

♪

Little twig self, the whole thing.

Unbelievable.

I never thought you could get so small.

[rain pattering]

Little arms.

You're just so tiny.

You're so tiny. What happened to you?

Not so much the forearms that are tiny,

that blows me away is my...

upper arms, and just everything.

A lot of ups and downs to get here to day 80.

♪

[exhaling sharply]

Holy cow.

All alone.

I've been going back and forth between excited and nervous.

Now that I'm here, I think I'm just nervous.

This is one tough place.

Arriving here in Patagonia,

my strategy for this was to see it as a homesteading situation

in a new location just like the early settlers,

when they went out West.

I found myself a little area.

This is a temporary shelter.

It's only, like, 15 feet from where I was dropped off.

But my choices are limited.

My place is 95% hill.

And there's no sun, so I got to explore my territory.

♪

Look at this.

I was thinking of incorporating

this big tree as the back wall of my shelter.

I need more food.

Innovation and creativity are very important out here,

because you need to find ways to overcome your problems.

I want to make a duck trap.

And I'm gonna try and build, like, a little dock

that I can walk out on and launch my duck-hunter boat.

♪

We are fishing for birds.

♪

My shelter took me almost a month,

but it was a consistent and persistent effort

until it was achieved.

The inner walls are done.

It is looking good.

Every day more that you push forward on any goal,

you've already achieved all that is behind you.

I am done with my shelter.

Tomorrow, I'm moving in.

Make my bed--oh, done.

If I spend too many days just doing nothing,

I get mighty antsy.

[groans]

Downward dog into lotus.

Lotus eats the butterfly.

No, no, no.

Never done yoga.

♪

Don't need my man card revoked.

I find that it's very important to keep your mind busy,

especially after 4:00.

4:00, you're used to going home

and being with your family.

My new winding stick is done.

Bushcrafting gets you through the night.

Homesteading and making projects

gets you through the month.

Got to add to the wizard staff.

My wizard staff journal,

the story of my adventure here.

Whenever I'm not busy making stuff

and doing things,

I am sick and tired of being alone.

♪

But when you're out here by yourself...

♪

You think about family

and how much they mean to you.

♪

And the weight,

gravity on your chest is just...

♪

So strong.

♪

It's been 14 days with one fish.

[groans]

And you get frustrated, and you're hungry/angry.

That seems to come more and more as I'm out here.

Man, this blows. This freaking blows.

♪

Ugh.

♪

Oh, no!

Things are not going well.

♪

Grubs and roots for dinner.

[sobbing]

[fire crackling]

[sniffles]

[sobbing]

I'm so hungry.

[sniffles]

[whimpers]

[sniffles]

[sobs]

[somber music]

♪

Three months now since I've seen my family.

♪

And that pull...

♪

I swear, today, I can almost feel it.

♪

Diminishing conditions that I'm in these days...

I don't know how much more I got left in me.

[dramatic music]

♪

♪

[wind whistling]

I'm thinking about food...

and thinking about all the things

I look forward to eating when I get home.

Some day soon,

I'll be able to go to restaurants

or eat a delicious home-cooked meal.

♪

Tyler makes an amazing salmon log.

♪

And he came up with this, oh, so good,

amazing, uh, creamed halibut dish.

♪

Most of what I think about is fatty foods.

♪

[sighs]

Which, I guess, shows so that's what--

probably what my body's craving.

♪

Getting to be one lean machine here.

♪

[sighs]

Finding protein has been a struggle

since day one.

♪

Wow.

This is even more beautiful

than I could have imagined.

It's hard to put words to what this place means to me.

♪

[whispering] Two deer just walked up on the beach.

That's pretty cool.

I have always wanted to really test my survival skills.

I feel like my entire life

has building me up to this point.

Always wanted to spend a long chunk of time,

up to a year, in the woods, alone.

♪

As a survival strategy, I wanted to create a home.

I didn't want to just have a shelter

that just barely met my needs.

I wanted to be able to live inside what I eated.

Home, sweet home.

[rustling] [bleep].

Early on, there were some moments when it was a struggle.

Missing Tyler and missing being able to reach out

and call my family and friends.

[sniffles]

Sad at the moment, but...

just to be expected with being out here on my own.

I think I've struggled the most

with fishing out here.

♪

My body weight started dropping,

so I knew that I had to change

what I'm doing.

I tried everything.

Oh, man.

Protein is critical in a survival situation.

Yes! Come on.

If I could get more protein,

I would maybe be able to slow down my weight loss.

Oh.

Aw, damn it.

Here, if I don't catch a fish,

I won't have anything to eat that night.

[crying]

And that stresses me out.

And so I went with what did work,

which was gathering plants.

Dandelions, just what the doctor ordered.

I don't know where the strength came

for me to live out here as long as I have.

It's just--it's part of me.

I found nettles.

This is awesome.

I am stubborn.

My attitude and my will

and my spirit have been key points

for me being able to be out here

as long as I have.

[chuckles]

To me, the difference between living and survival is,

survival is just barely being able

to pull through something.

Living is being present

and enjoying each moment.

Ah, big flakes of snow.

I really want to make a drum.

To live out here, I do need to keep making things

and try to stay busy all the time.

I want with all of my being to stay out here

and enjoy living as long as I can.

It works.

However long that is,

I'm gonna keep striving.

I'm gonna keep going

till I can't.

[rain pattering]

Here's the--the true true

of how I'm doing right now,

at least in this moment.

I feel scared...

Scared of all the future unknowns...

Scared of having to tap out

or getting pulled out.

[motor revving]

Here comes a boat,

which worries me a lot.

[eerie music]

They gonna pull me out?

I don't know.

[sniffles]

♪

[sobs]

[percussive music]

♪

Sweater off?

♪

[dramatic music]

♪

Oops.

♪

♪

♪

Just here a second.

♪

[motor revving]

♪

♪

There we go.

♪

-All right. -Okay, just step on it.

♪

♪

Sit down, please.

♪

♪

[air hissing]

♪

[air hissing]

♪

♪

[air hissing]

♪

Open your mouth.

♪

♪

♪

[both speaking foreign language]

♪

[men speaking foreign language]

♪

[dramatic music]

♪

[rain pattering]

♪

The doctor has found that you're in a critical zone.

We're gonna have to extract you for medical reasons.

[somber music]

♪

Okay.

♪

[crying]

♪

I--I was worried that this point might come.

♪

You know, I--I felt myself getting thinner,

and even though I feel in great spirits,

you know, I feel really good

most of the time--mentally, emotionay, spiritually...

♪

Just it's really disappointing.

♪

I guess this is what's meant to be.

♪

I truly am thankful.

♪

And I've learned a lot while I've been here.

♪

I want to see Tyler.

I want to see my mom.

I want to see my dad.

Even though I've been alone,

I feel like I've been connected

to them the whole time...

♪

And that they've been there for me

and that they've helped give me strength.

♪

I don't feel like I've been surviving

and--and struggling.

♪

I've been here living.

♪

Not winning $500,000,

it is disappointing.

More so that I can't help others,

that I can't buy my mom property

and build a house,

help some friends have a better life.

And I was hoping to save

for my life and my children.

♪

But my physical body can't do this anymore.

And so it's-- it's not mine to have.

♪

This place, it's really become

part of who I am.

♪

I came out more alive

than I've ever been.

[motor droning]

[pensive music]

♪

[wind sighing]

♪

[rain pattering]

♪

One, two, three, four, five, six.

Day 87, I got on it.

♪

[motor revving faintly]

I hear a boat.

♪

I think that's not a good sign.

I think that means...

gonna have another med check today.

And there was just one yesterday.

I don't think that's good news.

♪

Think I lost another 20 pounds

when they put me on the scale.

♪

It might be over...

for me.

♪

I want it to be over.

But I don't want it to be over because

I failed to acquire enough food.

I have the energy to continue,

the mental and the physical fortitude...

♪

To make it to 90 and then some.

Maybe even 100.

♪

Pretty nervous.

But at least I wouldn't have, uh, quit.

And I will not have given up

or surrendered.

♪

Last night, I worked on a yarn thing

for Jamie to wind her yarn ball around.

I started thinking about the family

and talking about the girls.

And, uh, I kind of broke down for a little bit there.

And was just-- you know, it just...

It's getting harder and harder to think about 'em.

I miss those girls so much.

To be alone for so long and...

and have that family there all by--

you know, and just missing them,

I'm thinking of all the stuff I wanted to do with them.

You know, and as they get older,

they get little sharp elbows and knees.

I'd even take a sharp elbow to the gut right now,

if--you know, just to be with them again.

[pensive music]

♪

[sniffles and sighs]

I've wanted a family my whole life, and...

and it's the best thing in the world.

And, uh...

I just miss it.

You know, and, uh...

I just...

You know, and as long as I have strength in me

and I feel like I can push through it, I do.

And, uh...

and I don't give up, because of them.

No.

[gasps]

[dramatic music]

♪

♪

[rain pattering] No.

[gasps] Oh, my God!

[both laugh]

[crying]

-You won. -You won!

What?

I wo--

[both crying]

I'm right here.

[crying]

I won.

Oh, my God.

-It's over. -It's over.

Oh, my God!

Oh.

[both crying]

-I can't believe you're here. -[laughs]

I don't even care that I won.

[both crying]

I love you so much.

Oh.

I was thinking about you every minute.

Oh.

[both crying]

-Oh, I'm so proud of you. -I can't believe it.

Oh, you're so dirty now that I--

-I know. I don't care. -I don't care.

-You look so amazing. -I--I--

[both laughing]

Oh.

-Oh, can you believe it? -It's over.

-Thank--oh, thank God. -Thank you, Lord.

-Honey, you won. -You won.

[both laughing]

We can go home!

[laughs]

For reals--

for real.

This is, uh, unbelievable!

[both laughing]

Oh!

Whoo-hoo!

♪

Oh.

[panting]

-Oh, my God. -[laughs] Right?

You made your wizard staff.

Oh, yeah, look at it.

Every day, I would, uh--

I'd add my story to the pole.

And it's even got our story up here.

-There's the car, broke down. -[laughs]

And I had to leave you guys on the side of the road.

And I have fishes for every fish I caught, there, you see.

And, uh, each day, I had a achievement,

and then my physical achievement,

and then my, um, emotional.

And, uh, and so there's quite a few emotional ones

where little yurts and "missing you guys" and stuff.

-Oh. -So...

each day, I worked my story all the way down.

-So I got the whole thing. -It's so beautiful.

I'll show you the inside.

♪

All right, come on in.

It's a little messy

'cause I just brought the firewood in.

♪

It was so cozy in here.

The shelter worked so well.

It was unreal.

All right, I got the clothes.

And I'll put all the spoons and stuff into it.

There we go.

We got needles.

That's 50.

-That's another 50. -[giggles]

There's another 100 chopsticks.

-All the spoons. -[giggles]

Look at all of it.

I know what your family's getting for Christmas.

-Yeah. -Spoons!

Everybody's getting spoons.

[gentle music]

[bird chirping]

[motor revving]

♪

♪

I don't really consider myself a survivalist.

[helicopter rotor whirring]

-[both laughing] -[speaks indistinctly]

[helicopter rotor thrumming]

Some people, they just want

to take a knife, go out into the woods,

and see how long they can make it.

That was never one of my interests.

I wanted to be able to survive any situation.

♪

If there's something that you want,

it's not something you accomplish in one night.

It doesn't matter your pace;

it doesn't matter your strengths, your weaknesses.

As long as you just keep pushing forward,

you're achieving something.

♪

This is special.

♪

Doesn't get much more special than going to Patagonia

and surviving in the outback.

♪

One of the most beautiful things I've ever seen.

-Right? -[laughing]

That's what I felt when I saw you when I turned around.

Aww!

[static crackles]

[laughs]

♪

This has been the best experience of my life.

♪

[light instrumental music]

♪

My stomach's just been in knots.

Haven't thought about much else besides getting home

and hugging my girls.

It was hard, sometimes, to think about the things

I missed out on while I was gone.

A whole summer of stuff I missed.

Every day felt like two or three days out there.

♪

It's my favorite road.

The $500,000 means freedom to my family,

freedom to build our off-grid homestead the way we want to.

I'm home.

Oh!

Home, sweet home.

♪

Oh, my goodness.

Everything is so green.

[dog barking]

♪

[whistles]

♪

[whistles]

Who is it?

-Daddy! -[giggling]

Dad!

[both laughing]

-Hey. -Daddy! Daddy!

-I missed you. -I missed you.

I missed you, too.

Hey, Sparrow.

-Hey. -Who is that?

I missed you super, super, super much!

Yeah, I missed you, too,

and Mom and Sparrow.

Hey, hon.

-Hi. -Hi.

[both giggling]

Welcome home.

[laughs]

-I missed you! -I missed you, too.

And I won't go away like that again, I promise, all right?

♪

-I lived in the woods. -You lived in the woods?

Yeah, this whole time, I've been living in the woods.

This is the whole story of my adventure,

and down here, there's a snowman,

for the day that I made a snowman for you.

Sprinkle it on.

You want to help, Sparrow?

Want to put a little cheese on?

"Alone" is kind of the culmination

of everything my family's been working towards,

the adventure that we want to have together.

[laughing]

Me doing this and succeeding

means that we can spend more time together.

I am soaking wet.

♪

Being alone isn't something I think I will

ever pursue again.

♪

Oh, that's beautiful!

I love my wife, my little girls.

In the end, I think, after this adventure,

I know my place is at home with my family.

You want to come to me?

Aw.

♪

Arriving in Patagonia,

I wanted to have an adventure

like I had been reading about my whole life.

This was my chance to have my real adventure.

But, as time went on, I realized

being alone long term

is not how life is meant to be enjoyed.

We need human contact.

For me, going forward, it's very simple.

Have your family, love 'em,

make stuff, be happy.

Sounds good to me.

Fowler out.

♪

[dramatic musical flourish]