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♪

I'm alive, Mongolia!

I'm alive, Mongolia!

Now, that's why I'm still here, man.

So I spooked three deer, and I lost track of them.

It is a depressive state of mind

to not be able to feed yourself.

Look at the snow coming.

Today is the day it feels like the season's starting.

This is Randy. I'm officially tapping out.

It's not being out here and surviving.

It's being out here and surviving alone.

♪

NARRATOR: For the first time ever on "Alone,"”

ten past participants return.

♪

They've come back with one goal:

redemption.

I deserve to be here, and I'm back.

I want to win more this time than I did last time.

NARRATOR: Now a fresh hell awaits...

The cold is an incredibly strong punch in the face.

NARRATOR: In the punishing wilderness of Mongolia.

We're in the middle of nowhere.

Mongolia's a very unforgiving land.

NARRATOR: They must survive in complete isolation,

enduring as long as they can.

I'm just gonna push and push and push

until there's nothing left.

NARRATOR: The last one standing wins.

♪

It's day...

62,412.

I died last night for the third time,

but the old ticker just keeps starting back up again.

I think they've forgotten about me.

Oh, make that four times.

♪

At this point I'm already burning a lot of calories.

I've already used a lot of my resources.

It makes working a little bit harder.

I get exhausted quicker.

I take everything in a slow,

measured pace, and I just have to make

sure I preserve myself first and foremost.

I remember that from Patagonia.

Today was definitely the coldest morning yet.

I peeked out the door,

and there was snow on the ground.

It's melted since I first peeked out.

Seeing that snow really wanted to make me start

working on my sled.

My thoughts are that when there's a snowfall

or any sort of ice accumulation,

that I'll be able to stack my firewood on this sled

and pull it around and not have to worry about

carrying a weight on my shoulder the whole time,

and I think I'll work on that today,

'cause I don't want it to get to be where there's--

All of a sudden there's snow and ice

and I haven't finished it,

and I want to be ahead of the game.

♪

Gonna be the worst winter that probably any of us

have ever experienced.

If you're not resourceful and creative,

Mongolia will definitely take you out.

I've got people to provide for,

and I'm not ready to go home.

I found two pines that were as equal as I could find,

and I shaved them all of the bark.

What my plan to do is, on the tops of each,

I want to cut a square notch,

maybe at, like, 1-foot intervals,

and match them up with the other runner,

and then I'll take other pine crosspieces

and cut square notches in those so they fit

down inside of them like puzzle pieces,

you know, notch them in,

and then I would lash those, most likely using my

trapping wire to get it really, really tight.

Scary place to start sawing.

Hope my family's nice and warm and fed right now.

One time I made a big box, and I put it on skis,

so I would put Campbell in that,

put something soft down for him to sit on,

curl him up in some blankets, and he was all geared up,

nice and warm, and I'd get the dog,

and I'd pull them through the woods,

and then there'd be a little spot.

We'd get out, and we'd eat our snack and our lunch.

We'd walk around and play with the dog

for a little while, and then I'd get him back in

and pull him the rest of the route.

I miss my boy.

So there it is.

Stable enough,

stable enough that--but it moves enough that it'll,

like--it'll give going over stuff instead of being,

like, super rigid.

Totally by design I did that.

Who knows when I'll get to try it out,

but it'll be ready when I want it.

♪

I've come to a definitive conclusion.

The less fat you have on your body,

the tougher it is to sleep,

'cause you don't have the cushion.

Oh, my gosh.

I didn't make a good enough bed for being skinny.

Ah!

♪

I'm gonna go get some water and heat it up,

have some tea,

'cause I've been struggling today just as far as

the hunger aspect.

♪

Lately, I'm having no luck whatsoever.

At the beginning, I was eating well, you know,

two meals a day if not more,

and then bam, food resources just stopped.

Fish just died out.

Grouse just sort of disappeared.

♪

So I was feeling my teeth move around

today in my mouth.

I don't like that.

That means I'm missing some serious nutrition,

I don't like that at all.

I still have a fear from Patagonia.

I have this fear of not understanding

what my body's going through, not realizing it.

When I was out there, I didn't get it.

It's dangerous for you to stay here.

Not until I looked in the mirror

did I see how skinny I was.

I have to make sure that that doesn't happen again.

So with all the hunting I've been doing,

trying to keep my clothes nice and clean.

Hunting is really important for me.

At this point, I need to continue to hunt

to the best of my ability.

I clean them, and then I'm hanging them in trees

and letting them scent out,

making sure it airs out as much as it can.

♪

I need to sit for a minute and take some rest.

♪

I have no energy.

What are people gonna think of me?

What is my image gonna be?

I'm struggling with my ego.

I want people to look at me as--

look at me in a positive way.

It's tough with this situation right now,

because I'm hungry.

I'm really hungry, and I don't want to be hungry.

I want to really enjoy this full experience.

I want to learn from the land,

but am I learning if I'm not pushing myself?

♪

♪

Oh, my goodness.

What a good start to the day.

Wish every day could be just this nice to start with.

Days like today make me want to go explore.

I want to go to the top of that mountain.

If I was on Vancouver Island,

there's no way I'd walk up to that mountain,

'cause there'd be no reason to.

It'd be just an unnecessary expenditure of calories,

but once the food dries up,

you got to do what you got to do.

♪

A lot of the yarrow's dead.

Looks like plants are dying out.

About the only thing left, really, are mice,

and they really don't pack a whole lot of punch.

They're pretty small.

They're mostly guts.

That's what I need to do, is get this

food situation under control.

We are off to walk to the mountain.

That's gonna be a hell of a climb.

Right there.

This is steep, man.

Be able to switch back a little bit--whoa.

It takes so much energy to try and find food in general,

but you still got to gut it up and do it,

because I'm gonna stay out and push myself

for as long as this is gonna last.

No berries on the ground, no crop,

just strawberry plants.

Slippery, slippery, slippery, slippery.

♪

All right, I'm gonna keep on keeping on, man.

looking at the new plants on the ground.

I've got some fire weed up here with some fluff on it.

Too bad there wasn't chanterelles or something.

I'd chow on some chanterelles.

Looks to me like those are puffballs.

Yep, look at them.

They're rotten.

They're done.

♪

I'll be damned, that's edible, I think.

♪

This right here is edible, these leaves down here.

I've been harvesting plants when I can.

There's just not a lot of them.

It's always a little frustrating,

especially now, when, you know,

you're--you're tired; you're hungry.

It's getting cold up here, so I went ahead and put

my gear back on, some of it.

Those are wolves, man.

They're not that far away.

♪

Holy. Wolf scat.

♪

More pieces here,

lots of wolf scat, there,

there, there, and there.

Jesus, it's all over the place up here.

I'll try not to make any noise.

♪

. Wolf scat.

Several pieces here,

lots of wolf scat.

Jesus, it's all over the place up here.

The sound of the wolves howlering

makes me very uncomfortable,

but I have to keep moving.

Without food, I'm not gonna be able to last

as long as I did at Vancouver Island.

It's a roll of the dice.

You either travel far and hope you find something

or stay by your shelter just conserving calories,

hoping for a fish or a mouse.

There ain't nothing to eat out here,

not even nothing, man.

It's really steep.

Amazing, man.

This is beautiful.

It's a heck of a view, isn't it?

Wow, just wow.

That's all I can say, is WOW,

A lot of emotions up here.

A lot of--lot of highs and a lot of lows in Mongolia.

I'm feeling a little bit conflicted.

This is a very bittersweet moment,

bitter only because I wasn't able to catch any more food,

but extremely, extremely sweet,

because this is just an absolutely beautiful country.

It's also a pretty nice view behind me, huh?

I'm so glad I did this.

♪

Oh, to the days gone by,

to the days of grouse and fish a-plenty,

when fish would rise from the river,

jump to your hook,

and grouse would fly right into your camp.

♪

Two a day at times the grouse would be,

the fish sometimes four.

Oh, those days gone by.

I sit and think and weep

of days of old.

Oh, I'm hungry.

Was it in my imagination?

Where did all those fish and grouse and squirrels go?

♪

I've been hunting deer for long periods of time,

and it's a freaking chess game.

♪

Deer is the food that I need to take care of myself,

one large life.

It can be everything.

♪

To not be able to feed yourself,

what a difficult state to be in.

♪

My body doesn't feel right.

I'm getting cramps every day and every night.

I'm depleting my body of nutrient

that's--that's needed,

and I got to figure it out.

I got to get out of this funk,

'cause I'm definitely feeling it.

♪

What's motivating me,

it's being alive on the land.

It's learning every last bit I can,

and it's being thankful every moment of the day,

but right now, I'm just sitting here starving,

and that's not why I'm here.

It's tough to watch the muscles

on your body just disappear.

♪

It's difficult.

♪

I don't know.

I don't know.

♪

There's three elements that without one of them,

there's no life, Sun, Earth, and water,

and right here I've got this beautiful picture of the Sun

just shimmering off the water

and the land right on either side of it.

That is life,

straight and simple,

life, bam.

Damn, that's beautiful.

I don't want to starve anymore.

I want to live,

I want to enjoy my life.

I want to be healthy.

I can't allow my body to deteriorate again.

Feels right.

Feels very right.

♪

♪

Look who's here.

The main reason I'm tapping out is I'm taking care of my body,

straight and simple.

After Patagonia, my journey was interrupted.

There was, like, months, three months

where it was difficult to--to digest food,

and that was like, "Ah, I can push myself too far.

Oh, okay, I got to be aware of my physical well-being.”

I don't want that to happen here.

I want to just sort of walk right into the next step, and

right now it feels perfect, feels good.

♪

Two completely different tap-outs.

This one definitely feels better.

It was much nicer to take myself out of the picture,

much easier, much more empowering.

♪

It's not in me to push myself like I did

in Patagonia anymore.

That is not in me.

That is not what I want.

I did my best, and I'm proud of everything I've done,

and I am happy.

I definitely think this go-round has changed me.

I think it's helped me to look at myself

in more of a responsible manner

and look at my actions with more understanding of,

I do have an effect on the world.

♪

What do I need to do to make that a positive effect?

♪

I think that's blowing out of the south,

but I don't feel anything coming though that wall

in front of me.

It's all coming from behind me and through my door.

Gets windy and cool outside,

I figure spend the day inside.

What I'm gonna do, I'm gonna make a really cool Christmas

om--I'm gonna make Christmas ornaments for our tree.

Bam, that is going to occupy...

J A lot of time

♪ I can send people Christmas ornaments §

♪

I'll just carve a bunch of these.

I'll send some to my mom, my dad, my cousin,

kind of neat.

There's a story behind it.

I like Christmas ornaments that have stories.

My dad and I would go get the tree, and then my dad would sit

and watch us decorate, and Mom used to always love

to bring out the ornaments.

She's like, "Ooh, Britt, I remember this one from 1988,

and such and such and such, and she loved doing that.

She sent some of the ornaments to me in Ohio

to put on my tree.

That's pretty neat, carry it on.

We have a "one Christmas gift

on Christmas Eve" tradition...

But it's--it's always the same thing.

It's new pajamas or something to be, like,

comfortable in so when everybody wakes up

on Christmas morning, they have their new pajamas on.

I think about things I want to do to make up for lost time

with my wife and son.

They're my driving force at this point.

If I wasn't out here for them,

I wouldn't have it in myself to keep doing this.

I think about handing my parents a large check

and telling them, "Thank you for everything."

I'm dreaming of getting home and just telling them

thank you for how strong they've been and supportive

for allowing me to do this and thanking them for everything

that they've done in my absence.

♪

So here's what I've been carving just while I was

talking, a little ornament to hang.

That's for Campbell.

♪

Good morning.

I heard a mouse a tiny bit.

Must be a female mouse.

She's pretty smart.

She's just going about her business.

She goes to work, takes her little lunch pail

or her little thermos,

probably has a salad inside of there with a sensible dressing,

probably Italian, comes home,

and then goes to bed.

She's smart; that's why she doesn't get conked

the head by a Paiute dead fall.

Let's just get up and see what the world has to offer us.

I think I might go fishing for a little bit.

♪

It's gotten colder.

I wonder if the fish'll bite more,

Trout still feed in cold weather,

That's why they're here.

This is weird.

♪

Nothing jumping.

Well, on to the next spot, I guess.

I just can't believe the fishing turned off that fast,

and if they're cold, you'd think they'd come

to the surface and soak up some of these rays

we're getting right now.

Mongolia has just really thrown out the unexpected at me.

I was totally wrong.

I've been wrong about the weather,

and I've been wrong about the fishing.

What else can I be wrong about?

♪

If the fishing starts to dry up, I'm.

♪

It's turning out to be, like, a relatively nice day,

so I think I'm gonna take today and actually

make my wooden cup,

so it's kind of a big, big old day.

♪

I think so, at least.

It sounds like a little thing,

but, like, I think the difference between drinking

from a metal can and drinking from, like, an insulated mug.

You're going from, "Ah, oh, ah, ooh, okay,"

to, like, "Ahh,"

So that--that's the best way I can describe the difference.

You sit down, work a piece of wood, get into it,

completely forget how hungry you are.

We're gonna get a coal right here,

and we're gonna burn a hole.

Always really imperative that you're careful

with this activity.

Bad things can happen.

In the last few days, I am feeling

a lot of different stuff.

I've gone a few days without pooping at the moment,

and basically, I just want to get this next bowel movement

out at some point, because you

can't go too many days without going

to the restroom out here.

Like, if you do, it gets dangerous for your intestines

and all that.

I really need a blower stick for this.

Using a little fire blower deal is much safer,

because if I have my head down here, I can get burned,

and I do not want to go out doing something that stupid.

Ah, my good cup.

I will drink many a cup of tea with you.

♪

And then we're gonna carve down a handle.

We're gonna smooth out the edges

and essentially make it look more like a cup

than a block of wood.

♪

This is what I'm gonna be drinking out of from now on.

♪

Man, when you're carving, you are in your own little world,

and absolutely, like, nothing else matters.

♪

It's funny.

After season three,

people who I've never met, they come up to me,

and it's not so much that they act like

they know me, but they want to know me,

and they like me already, and that's really, really cool.

That's very cool.

One guy was funny.

This was funny.

I was in the gas station.

My parents were in town, and I went inside to get

my mom a lottery ticket,

and there was a guy behind me in line.

He was like, "Hey, you're the guy

from that TV show, aren't you?"

And I'm like, "Yeah, yeah, I am."

He was like, "Yeah, that was pretty awesome.

I didn't see all of it," somethin'-somethin',

He was like, "Did you win?" and he was like,

"Oh, well, I guess you didn't if you're in here

buying a lottery ticket," and 1 thought that was so funny.

I was like, "I'm buying it for my mom, jerk."

♪

What I'm eating isn't giving me enough energy to do what I

need to do anymore, and there comes a point where it really,

really escalates into more of a starvation game.

Normally I'm catching fish with grasshoppers,

but as it's getting colder and the grasshopper are getting

harder to find, then I'm finding I'm going to have to

do something different,

and I had an idea to try and make a lure.

♪

I took three of my regular-size hooks

and bound them together with my wire.

I don't have an abundant amount of hooks,

and I've realized how important and vital they are

to, like, everything that I do.

And about a inch up I took some of my paracord,

and I frayed it all out and made it like a hula skirt.

So yeah, I'll go fishing with this one tomorrow.

It's not pretty.

Doesn't have to be pretty.

♪

Let's take this guy on his maiden voyage.

Not too shabby.

I'm very pleased with it.

I want to stay away from the trees.

♪

It's a huge difference from throwing those grasshoppers.

I have faith in this lure.

♪

That was a strike.

There we go.

Got one.

♪

Oh, yeah.

Come on.

I just lost my lure.

♪

Damn,

That's a lot of hooks to lose all at once.

Running low.

That's just--that's unacceptable.

♪

Well, my fishing game just took a significant blow.

I'm in the midst of mild starvation.

♪

♪

So spoon carving is actually something I teach as a class,

like a woodcarving course for students.

We carve spoons.

It's one of the first things I think you should learn

when it comes to, like, using a knife.

One of the coolest experiences was

right after my first time out on "Alone,”

I was introduced to these two little girls,

Scarlet and Lily,

daughters of a friend of my wife,

and they cried, I guess,

when I tapped out last time.

If that's, you know, not a little bit of inspiration for

you, I don't know what is, you know, to keep--keep moving.

Well, I am gonna give those two little girls

a set of spoons.

I'm gonna make two spoons, one to each girl.

They'll get Mongolian spoons,

handcrafted right out here in my little hut.

This looks legendary.

Oh, this is a spoon fit for a king, I tell you.

♪

Time to get things going for the day.

Right now what I want to do is work on the roof

of my shelter to make sure it's nice and strong,

because when 1 have 3 feet of snowfall,

I do not want a flimsy tarp being

the only thing holding up the roof.

I need to add some, like, skeletal infrastructure

to it so that it can take a little bit of weight

when--when the time comes.

Unfortunately, my bowels are still not

kicking anything out.

I'm getting worried, because I'm having really

bad issues with my intestines.

It feels like I've got stomach cramping

and abdominal pain.

The rules of this thing are simple.

If you ask for help from the crew,

you have tapped out.

They can't come in and give me a laxative and be like,

"There you go, bud. Anything else?"

♪

They absolutely have to either wait for me to tap out

or medically pull me or wait for me to poop.

So that sits real nicely up on there.

I never in my wildest imagination

thought that one poop could get in the way

from my family having a house and a car

that doesn't break down, but it just has.

So at the moment, I'm basically finished with this ceiling.

Any time I'm cutting little thin saplings

and I get a new one, I can just interweave it in,

and it's just gonna get stronger and stronger

as we go along, so I love it.

I'm gonna keep it this way.

♪

The only thing in my head right now is the fact

that if I don't go to the bathroom,

like, if I don't have a bowel movement

in the next few days,

I'm gonna be medically pulled, and I won't get to win,

and I won't get to provide for my family.

I feel like I've put in so much work out here.

I feel like I want to make it the long haul.

♪

I don't want to have to go home from this

empty-handed.

♪

So I'm going to eat

some dandelions that I have saved,

♪

I just want some coffee.

It's funny. I never missed any of this stuff

on Vancouver Island.

Mostly I just craved sweets.

I'm craving all the comforts of life now, man, all of them.

I miss the sweet things, you know?

In order to have the sweet, you got to have the sour,

and the sour isn't as bad

as you think, because you've got the sweet.

You got the sweet in life, man.

Cherish that.

Cherish the sweetness of your family,

your close friends, your--even your pets.

That's the sweet in life.

The sour is your commute, your bad day at work,

the guy that flips you off even though you didn't do

nothing in the--on the freeway,

but the sweet makes the sour bearable.

♪

I think a reason why I get so emotional out here is there's

nobody out here I have to be strong for.

I just have to be strong for myself.

I don't have people looking to me for direction

for work.

I don't have to be the answer man.

I don't have to be the man.

I just have to be the man to myself,

and if I feel like breaking down and crying,

then that's okay. If it feels, like, overwhelming

and it helps me to cry, then I cry.

And then I pick myself back up again and drive on,

and it's okay.

You can just let yourself go, man.

It's just you.

Sometimes that's a good feeling,

♪

And then sometimes it's damn nice

to have people dependent upon you.

You feel needed and wanted and appreciated...

♪

And loved.

♪

I love my family, and I love my friends.

What more do I need out of this experience

that I haven't already gotten?

♪

When you take that buff off, you can see your neck, whoo,

you can really see how much weight you've lost.

Yeah, I don't quite have the double chin I used to.

There's a little fat hanging on there, but...

♪

I think today I will make a stool to sit on,

and maybe that will convince my body to have a stool,

you know, a stool.

So for this joint, it'll wire down through here.

Man, my fingers are getting cold.

It would suck to go home for lack of poop.

That is, like, the worst way to end a season.

"Oh, weren't you on that show, 'Alone'?"

"Oh, yeah, yeah, 1 WaS.""

Why'd you go home again?"

"Oh, you know, it's a little fuzzy.

I don't really remember.

Oh, yeah, it's 'cause I couldn't poop.

That's why it was."

Oh, goodness.

What, what, what have I done to myself?

I have made some painful decisions

for the good of the family, and this is a choice.

Like, I'm choosing to be out here, because I believe,

for a lot of reasons, that this is actually what's best

for the family.

Wow, that's good.

Whoo, baby!

And we sit on it.

Oh. Even if I don't have a stool-stool tonight,

at least I'll have this stool.

You know what I mean?

I think we did it, guys.

I think we did it.

♪

I got to say, my emotions have been very

not good these last few hours of the day.

The big thing

that troubled my mind today was,

"Okay, you want to win really bad;

"you're gonna try really hard.

But what if you don't?"

And that's a tough, tough pill to swallow, you know?

There's certain variables that you can't get through,

and some of them you don't have any control over,

but I don't know if I'm--you know,

I don't know if I'm tough enough to last

all these days out here.

♪

You know, I can really feel this adventure

drawing to a close.

I can feel it.

It's the same feeling I had last time.

People don't keep, you know?

Everybody's got an expiration date.

I'm just wondering how much longer I can go.

This snow is such a game-changer.

This place could snap at any second.

I could be in a world of hurt.

Look at this. Damn near whole hill is overturned,

and extremely close to my shelter.

This time, I'm really missing my family.

I want somebody to talk to.

This is terrible.

♪