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[dramatic music]

♪

Hypothermia set in.

I'm tapping out. I'm done.

I can't take any more.

I've been working with my spider bites

with the plant medicine.

Oh, yeah, it's totally healing up.

I've been waking up in the night.

There's a fox going around my shelter.

I just don't know if he's gonna try to bite me.

[rapid banging]

-[indistinct growling] -What is that?

My trail camera's been knocked over.

They're freakin' mocking me.

This is the hardest terrain.

Patagonia's a different environment entirely.

Everything out here is so hard.

Patagonia's no joke.

Are you willing to give up who you are

for what you will become?

It's Patagonia, for God's sakes.

Patagonia!

It's tougher than I ever imagined.

Just missing home right now.

You get a feeling of helplessness,

like, "Why am I doing this?"

Oh my... God!

The last person left wins $500,000 and is a badass.

-Bam! -[groans]

[animal growls]

What is that?

It's just how far you can push yourself

and what you're able to do...

-Yeah! -[laughs]

You don't have anyone to lean on.

Oh, my God, I got a fish!

Go to bed hungry, wake up hungry.

I can't believe I did that.

Ready, guy?

It's gonna come down to mental endurance

-and food deprivation. -[shivers]

[crying]

A person would be dead in a week at this rate.

[pig squealing]

-Whoa. -That's a big cat.

♪

♪

♪

[rustling]

Oh, look at that, there's snow.

Awesome.

♪

All right.

It's a winter wonderland out here.

Nice, sticky snow.

♪

I'm from Maine.

I love the snow.

It always makes me cheerful.

♪

Today, I'm taking the day off,

I'm doing whatever the heck I feel like.

It's a snow day.

Ooh-whee! Man, would you look at that?

Isn't that beautiful?

Snow on the mountains there, the snow across there.

Ah, that reminds me of winter at home.

Gonna be a good day. A good day.

♪

I love to build snowmen.

At home, my daughter Abby and I

make snowmen in the snow

and I mess them all up, and she gets mad.

"Pop ruined my snowman!"

That one's for you, Little Pip.

A nice, normal little snowman.

♪

And it's got a fish head hat.

And I won't even do anything mean to him

like I do to the ones at home.

♪

[chuckling]

Ohh!

[thwacks]

[thwacks] Oh, yeah, right in the nose.

Ah, sorry, Abby!

Your snowman is not gonna make it.

This is fun, but I cannot wait

to be back home again with my family.

♪

Can I talk about cheese?

I freaking love cheese.

I love cheese.

♪

Ah!

I had dreams last night, man-- were all about food.

I swore I had to spend half the night

eating one thing of cheese.

Like, deciding if I should sell it

or if I should just eat it.

Eventually--it was a huge freakin' block of cheese.

Eventually, I just ate the whole damn thing.

[chuckles]

I was hanging out with Jose

from season--season two.

[exhales]

♪

Take a look at that.

There's snow on the ground.

Whoo! [chuckles]

Snow!

♪

Is this amazing, or is this amazing?

Wow.

Wow.

Ahh!

♪

Ahh!

This is so beautiful.

♪

The snow is gonna help my tracking ability.

Though, I'll lose fishing.

It seems the colder it gets,

the less they stay toward shore.

It's interesting, with the amount of food

and the amount of water that I'm getting,

these lulls of energy, you know, highs and lows,

it's amazing the difference energy-wise.

♪

Getting slippery.

Real slippery.

♪

I'm thinking about hunger this morning.

My hunger today and no fish today and...

Well, let that go-- there it is.

It amazes me how much I think about food.

You get that food is life out here.

♪

Good food...

That's what I'm missing.

♪

I feel like my body is deteriorating.

You know, I'm feeling like

I'll probably look like an anorexic here pretty soon,

if I'm not already.

[exhales]

♪

All right, well, I thought I would take us

on a little winter wonderland walk.

You can see, I have on every single layer I own out here.

So I can stay super cozy warm.

Which I am.

And, uh...

Yeah, it's just absolutely stunning.

There's something so peaceful about snow falling, you know?

♪

My spider bites are practically all the way healed over.

My glands still have swelling in them,

but it's going down every day.

So beautiful!

♪

Bah!

I was gonna go home.

I was going to take care of my body.

But...

I believe that my body will tell me

when it is time to go.

I want to just be strong until the end.

That may be five days, it may be ten days,

may be 20 days, I don't know.

But whatever it is, I want to feel good about it.

♪

[heavy breathing]

Snow angel.

Oh, I just love the snow so much.

It's such a winter wonderland here.

♪

I think I absolutely could win this.

♪

It ain't over yet.

But I'm starting to feel a winding down.

♪

♪

[fire crackling]

"How skinny am I?"

is the question that everybody wants to know.

♪

I think I lost some weight.

[fire crackling]

Yup, I'm skinny.

[exhales]

Wow, real skinny.

♪

Hoping that I could come up with some, you know,

some substantial meat.

If I can get a boar, then we're--we're solid, right?

[stream rushing]

♪

Phew! All right.

So I'm just going to string my bow,

and I think we're ready to take off to my blind.

[inhales]

[groans]

Ah.

[chuckles] I got so many clothes on.

And I just tuckered myself out.

[exhales]

Okay. Let's give it another go.

Hopefully. Might not be going to my blind...

[laughs] If I can't string this bow,

♪

[exhales deeply]

Come on!

Aww, no! Come on.

♪

A little week of low calorie consumption...

[exhales]

♪

[yells]

[bleep]!

Ahhh!

If I can't string my bow,

hunting's out.

Damn it!

[dramatic music]

♪

♪

♪

I want to have energy.

Energy so that I could work out and do something, and like,

build my muscles again.

♪

Well, first, I started eating a whole fish,

and then I came to this realization,

"Well, okay, let's start-- let's start saving up."

A couple nice fillets right there.

I fillet them out, dry them.

Two fillets, one body.

Head goes in the stew.

Each fish lasts me three to six days.

♪

If I have food stored away, then I know I'm doing well.

And I know I can continue here.

I've got...

33 halves of fish.

Filleted for stew.

That's 33 days.

If I can make that go every other day...

♪

If I can do every other day with 33 fish, that's two months.

♪

Two more months that I can be out here.

♪

Ah, greens.

But I do want to be healthy, and there's a lot of food.

♪

I'm having this once every other day.

♪

I want to stay here.

I love this land.

♪

Third of a fish, greens, mushrooms.

♪

And it is just life.

[blows air]

♪

[birds chirping]

♪

[birds cawing]

Sounds like geese.

They're around the island.

Looks like they're eating on the bulrushes.

[geese honking]

It would be really, really awesome

if I could catch a goose.

Maybe they'll come over here.

♪

In preparation for the geese coming back,

I'm gonna make two bolas.

I got some rocks.

I'm just gonna...

Tie it around.

And when you throw it,

they'll all spread out

and hopefully entangle a bird so that it can't fly.

Got two sets.

One's a little bit longer and heavier than the other.

Means I have two throws.

♪

[geese honking]

I just heard the geese and I looked down my trail,

and they did just come over here.

♪

[whispers] Right there.

♪

And I'm gonna sneak down there and try to catch one.

♪

Gonna be quite the task.

Sneaking around.

Just has to be the right timing.

♪

Got that sweaty, nervous armpit feeling.

♪

[dramatic music]

♪

[geese honking]

I just heard the geese.

And I'm gonna sneak down there and try to catch one.

♪

[geese honking]

Well...

I didn't even...

Hardly get within sight of them,

sneaking around,

and they spooked.

♪

Getting protein--it's been a challenge and a struggle.

It weighs on me.

What I want the most out here is just

the meat.

Without that extra calories,

I don't know if I can keep going on plants alone.

♪

♪

So, um, I had a pretty good sleep.

The fox hasn't been around for the last couple of days.

Or else he's just, um, not being aggressive,

trying to get into the shelter.

♪

That is the fox.

Oh, my gosh.

But I had some... good dreams too,

about seeing my family and just spending time together.

[exhales]

Today is my, um, son's sixth birthday.

And that totally breaks my heart

that I can't be there with him.

Hey, buddy, I miss you and I love you so much.

And your sister too.

Ahh, and I'll make it up to you guys

when I get home.

[waves crashing]

Well, I'll check fish traps.

There's a lot of snow on the hill today.

♪

No fish.

Hmm.

Oh, fish in my stomach right now would be amazing.

My number one priority right now

is trying to get some protein.

And if the fish just dried up,

then I'm just gonna start focusing on birds.

[wind whistling]

I'd like to make a-- a bird trap.

I'm gonna make a box with reeds.

And, um, there'll be four more pieces for wood on the top,

and then I'll tie them all together,

and the box will fall down onto a bird when they trigger

the trigger line.

♪

And the birds around here--I haven't seen very many big ones,

so this doesn't have to be huge.

♪

Okay.

So there's one side of the box.

Just trying to keep myself busy,

keep myself off my...

Dwelling on the fact that

it's my little boy's birthday today.

It's the first birthday I've missed.

♪

Gosh, I miss my children so much--and my husband.

And just being alone, away from them,

just makes me really appreciate

how good I have it.

There was a bit of my rose hips that...

Something I got into the first couple of days.

They're kind of rotting now, and I had saved them.

I save almost everything just in case I want to use it.

So what you do is, do a little bit of a trail

leading up to the box.

And then throw a handful in the box.

And then the animal would go towards that.

And your edge of the box should just be resting

on the one stick, not on the pegs.

And that's it.

♪

♪

[fire crackling]

What did we achieve today?

This is my wizard staff journal,

the story of my adventure here.

The special things that happened,

with the symbols, I can remember it.

All right, today...

Fire, 'cause we kept it going.

Little old man and his cane,

crutch and--grabbing his back, going, "Ohh, my back."

That's my physical feel now.

♪

Making things makes me happy.

Keep myself from getting bored.

Smoothed out my thimble.

I find that it is very important

to keep your mind busy,

especially after 4:00.

4:00, you're used to going home

and being with your family.

I have this little wizarding wand I'm making here.

[fire crackling]

[sighs] Sometimes, it's hard to work

on stuff for them.

[fire crackling]

I miss them all so much.

[fire crackling]

[dramatic music]

♪

♪

♪

Now I know what wildlife goes through

when the weather gets rough.

Have to really scrounge for their food.

I have a new appreciation for...

What animals in the forest have to go through.

♪

You can tell things are changing.

Like, the fish don't seem to be biting.

There's no mushrooms left.

Some of the forage material's, um, turning.

And now I'm gonna focus just on birds.

I finished a bird box.

I have to go back to see if they were triggered.

♪

[bleep].

[bleep].

Oh, I just checked my bird box,

and something triggered it but managed to get out.

'Cause all the bait inside has been eaten.

I'll have to fix it and reset it.

♪

I'm going to check out my hare snares

and my fox snare at the top of the hill.

♪

This is getting long, this journey.

♪

It's not as fun anymore.

♪

The weather's turned to [bleep].

I'm starving.

It's cold.

♪

I'm running on very, very low energy.

♪

Oh, it'd be so nice to get a rabbit.

♪

Oh, my gosh.

♪

Great.

♪

I did have it.

Ugh.

♪

Man, oh, man.

Jeez, Louise.

Look at that.

That is a fluffy, fat rabbit.

There's all this new fur from the rabbit,

and I thought maybe it had just bumped into this bush,

but it ripped out...

♪

There's a snare here, so it obviously got stuck

in the snare and then ripped its way out of it

and got caught up in there for a bit.

Super frustrating.

I almost had that rabbit...

Again.

♪

This is definitely one of the harder days I've had.

[rain falling]

And it's really rainy.

I'm running on very limited calories right now,

and, um, I'm trying to really conserve energy, and...

And also just be really careful about getting too cold,

which will drain energy from my body as well,

and I don't want to get sick.

♪

♪

Yup.

We got one.

Boo-ya!

Boo. Ya.

Boo-ya, baby. We got fish.

Hey, hey, ho, hey, hey.

Oh, beautiful fish.

Thank you so much for your life.

[thwacking]

♪

We have got a beauty here.

♪

Thank you!

Whoo-whoo!

♪

Whoa, lots of eggs.

Oh, I'm sorry, mama.

♪

Check out all those eggs.

♪

[whistles]

Whoa, roe.

♪

We are going to prep this up for feasting.

♪

We have had an abundant forage today.

Let me just show you this really fast.

Look at this.

Look at that.

We've got our fish.

Our fish roe.

A ridiculous amount of greens.

And, uh, lots of mushies.

I love a good feast from the land.

♪

This land has been so good to me.

♪

Given me good food.

Good medicine.

♪

The last couple days have given me such...

Reflection on the journey.

I think I came into this

with way too much competitive nature,

and I put a lot of pressure on myself--

that I didn't even realize I had--to win,

to buy my land.

And I think my body took on a lot of that stress.

And suddenly, when I let go...

It gave me this profound release.

I'm starting to feel the call home.

[rain falling]

♪ Pa-a-a-tagonia's

♪ Been calling me back to my home ♪

♪ Pa-a-a-tagonia's

♪ Been calling me back to my home ♪

♪ And if home is where I land ♪

♪ Then the land's my home

♪ If home is where I stand, then I'm standing alone ♪

♪ If home is where I land, then the land's my home ♪

♪ If home is where I stand, then I'm standing alone ♪

[dramatic music]

♪

♪

♪

Such a constant battle, trying to get...

Traps set up, traps re-set up after weather,

traps re-set up after animals run through them.

Trying to get bait.

It's such a constant struggle trying to get food out here.

♪

At least I manage to forage quite a bit,

so at least I'm getting some food in me.

♪

I need to keep eating and keep calories coming in.

♪

But, uh, the protein is this constant chase.

I need to catch more fish.

Those reeds out there...

Are my nemesis.

It's not the best lake to try to set a gill net,

as I found out.

[water splashing]

Ah! [bleep].

Ugh!

Just looking at my gill net,

and nothing appears to be in it, so I'm gonna pull it,

and, uh, probably use it for some other--

other stuff.

So I'm just making this, uh, dip net.

Taking my gill net, which I cut in half,

and then I've sewn up the sides here

to make a bit of a pouch.

This is the 20-pound test line that I just cut down

the other day that never caught me fish.

♪

I could pull this string to tighten it up at the top

if it's stuck on reeds,

so the fish doesn't get out the top.

And, uh...

Then when I go to use it again, I just loosen it.

♪

My dip net.

♪

I'm checking some of the fishing lines.

[waves lapping]

There's a fish. Awesome.

Oh, my goodness.

So I have a fish caught on the reeds.

I'm gonna try out my, uh, dip net that I made.

♪

Oh, it's cold.

Definitely do not want to fall in and get wet.

♪

Whoa! It's so deep.

♪

He's not very huge, but...

Definitely give me some protein.

♪

[bleep].

Oh, my God, I got him.

My dip net works. I got him.

I'm so happy.

Oh, my gosh.

Oh...

Yes!

I'm gonna mark--I'm gonna patent that net system,

for when you're fishing in Patagonia alone.

This is what you need.

Ah, I'm so excited. A fish!

Ah.

♪

It's amazing... the cycle.

It's like drought...

And then you actually get a little bit of something

that helps get you more things.

There are so many lessons to be learned from nature.

And I want my children to at least be exposed to that.

There will be hurdles and challenges.

Nothing worthwhile comes easy.

♪

[sighs]

♪

Every day, I feel, "Yay!

It's a good day to be alive." You know?

This is great. This is quite the adventure.

And as night draws on and I become more tired...

And it's like, "Ugh.

"Can't wait for this to be over,

I want to be at home doing my thing there."

Ah! I feel like the man who struggles

with becoming a werewolf at night, you know?

♪

Firewood land.

♪

Start with grabbing that big log.

[grunts]

This thing's heavy.

[groaning]

Missing the comforts of home even more today

than I have for days.

♪

The more I try not to think about them, the more I do.

♪

Well, this is not the good-bye we thought of.

There's the car on the side of the road.

Our rescuer's here in a Subaru.

I love you, hon. I love you, Sparrow.

I had to leave my wife and my two daughters

with our new vehicle broke down on the side of the road.

I'll see you when I get back, okay?

While I had to hitchhike a ride to the airport

to come to Patagonia.

[overlapping chatter]

I love you, Sparrow.

Not able to say good-bye at the airport...

That was horrible.

♪

[sniffles]

[exhales]

When you're out here by yourself...

[inhales]

You think about family and how much they mean to you.

The weight,

the gravity on your chest is just...

So strong.

The pull on my heart...

To be with them...

Those two little girls of mine and that beautiful wife...

It's so hard.

[dramatic music]

♪

[birds chirping]

[electronic beep]

[beeping]

[birds chirping]

[beep]

Hey, so I am officially...

Tapping out.

Thanks. Okay, bye.

[water lapping]

Well, that's it.

Wow.

That was easy.

Crazy!

[waves lapping]

Whoa.

[inhales and sniffles]

[sighs]

[exhales]

[sniffles]

[laughing]

♪

[laughing]

Ohh.

[laughing]

Hey, guys.

Wow.

♪

[chuckling]

It feels...

It's so mixed emotions.

Yeah. But it feels great.

You know, I kind of decided, uh, yesterday.

I didn't want to leave on any other terms

but feeling complete in the journey, and I do.

♪

From the beginning, I saw this experience

as an opportunity to buy my land and to have

this outcome of me winning.

And at a certain point,

I saw that I was holding too tightly

to this material goal.

But when we hold so tightly to something,

we don't allow other things to come in.

I had to shed that, and when I did, I realized,

it doesn't matter what the outcome to any situation is.

It's about being in this moment.

It's about the journey and finding a deeper sense

of my own voice.

Finding a deeper sense of my own self-worth.

And by being out here for so long,

truly on your own,

you develop this relationship with yourself

that is so profound.

And I communicate with myself in a way that

I never thought possible.

I only can imagine how this is gonna serve me

in the rest of my life.

[dramatic swell]

-Yes, yes, oh, my goodness. -A fish.

I was not expecting that.

-I'm gonna eat tonight. -Oh, no!

Things are not going well.

I'm getting quite thin.

I definitely feel like I'm living each day here

as if it could be my last day.

[sighs]

It's amazing how breathing is so difficult

when you don't have a lot of calories.

[yells]

[dramatic music]

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