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[dramatic music]

♪

I'm tapping out.

It's time to go home to my family.

-Mwah. -I'm so excited for this.

The lake's come up about 6 feet

in the last couple of hours.

I've got hypothermia.

I can't move my hands.

Oh, I can't deal with this.

-I'm a maker. -Making is my knack.

The inner walls are done.

It is looking good.

So I have three spider bites.

Now I can feel it moving to my glands,

which is not a good sign.

This is probably my last night.

This is the hardest terrain.

Patagonia is a different environment entirely.

Everything out here is so hard.

Patagonia's no joke.

Are you willing to give up--

-Oh! -Who you are...

for what you will become?

It's Patagonia, for God's sake.

Patagonia!

It's tougher than I ever imagined.

Just missing home right now.

You get a feeling of helplessness,

like, "Why am I doing this?"

Oh, my God!

The last person left wins $500,000

and is a badass.

-Bam! -Ugh.

[animal growling]

What is that?

It's just how far you can push yourself

-and what you're able to do. -Yeah!

You don't have anyone to lean on.

Oh, my God, I got a fish!

-Go to bed hungry. -Wake up hungry.

-Can't believe I did that. -Ready, guy?

It's gonna come down to mental endurance

and food deprivation.

[cries]

Person'll be dead in a week at this rate.

[animal growling]

♪

Whoa.

That's a big cat.

♪

[rain falling]

I'm freezing.

I can't stop shaking.

Everything's been soaking wet all night.

The rain is still going, but I got to get up,

try to keep the fire going, see if I can get dry.

♪

I can't move my hands.

It's hard to stay warm, even by the fire.

Rain keeps putting the fire out.

♪

Oh, I'm just freezing.

I just hope that sun comes out to warm things up.

♪

And dry my sleeping bag and stuff.

So I'm just shivering.

All night I shivered.

♪

I just can't seem to warm up here.

I've got hypothermia,

so what do you do?

My clothes are wet, and I can't stay dry

because of the rain.

♪

I can't even hardly move my hands.

It's like a cold rain.

It's just really tough.

♪

Every time I stand up,

it's like I'm gonna pass out.

♪

I'm getting weak.

Very weak physically.

♪

My feet are frozen,

and I'm almost hallucinating.

♪

That's scary.

♪

Uh...

I'm done.

I can't take any more.

I'm 53.

I got no energy left to finish this quest.

I physically can't take it anymore.

[phone beeping]

♪

I've been pretty hypothermic all day.

I'm soaked. All my clothes are wet.

I'm officially tapped out.

I just can't do it anymore.

I need to be rescued now.

♪

Just about two months, 51 days I lasted out here,

living off the land.

And that's all I could do.

♪

I'm sorry, Jeanette.

I feel awful.

All I wanted was to build you a house.

♪

This was my retirement.

Now all I've got to look forward to is going back

and doing drywall again.

That's my future now.

♪

I have a great sense of relief, in a way,

but great disappointment.

It's making me cry right now,

but I just physically couldn't do it.

♪

There's my ride.

♪

Hypothermia's set in.

No fish for a week.

Just every time I get up, it's like I'm gonna faint.

I just got no energy. Just done.

♪

Once you have hypothermia to the point

where your choices and decisions are becoming bad,

you're in danger.

I think all week I had been making bad decisions

because of my state of mind.

Moving in the rain was a bad choice,

and that's what did me in.

That's why I made the call,

because I knew if I didn't,

my mind would trick me into staying.

♪

And I probably wouldn't be here today

if I had tried to go another night

in the conditions.

♪

I can't even explain the devastation.

♪

That was my retirement.

That was a house for my daughter.

I don't even know how to go about telling her.

♪

It's a big disappointment,

but somehow a person has to carry on.

♪

That's part of being a survivalist.

♪

I'm worried about the spider bites on my bum-bum

that are infected.

So I went around and said all my good-byes

and my gratitudes to everything,

because I was in...

a lot of pain.

I had an infection in my glands,

and I accepted that.

I'm struggling,

but I am so not ready to go home,

it is crazy.

My journey is not over here

on so many levels,

and it's not time for me to go.

♪

There is so much more work for me to do.

♪

I'm making more usnea poultice...

♪

To put on my wound.

♪

[in British accent] Just a flesh wound.

♪

If I was here just on a spiritual journey,

yeah, I probably would get to a certain point

and be like, "I'm done,"

but I do care about owning land,

and that motivation is huge.

So I'm upping my herbal game.

I'm making the strongest frickin' pot of usnea tea

and see if it helps my internal infection.

Sleep on it, see how everything's doing

in the morning.

♪

We're going big or going home.

♪

I got my new shelter up.

So warm, so dry.

♪

My little shelf I made last night.

All nice and neat.

Chopsticks are poked in there nicely

so they don't fall out anymore.

I got my blower and my spatula on the back

and my sponge for wiping things down.

Smoking sticks are looking awful sparse.

Got fresh fish heads

and half a fish.

Not a lot.

♪

I really need more than just the protein in fish soup.

♪

Today I saw a little bird

on the game cam.

♪

So one of my goals is to catch him

and have him for dinner.

♪

I haven't had anything but fish.

A little bird would be quite the boon.

I don't even know if there's as much on one of those guys

as there is a fish,

but I intend to get him

before I leave,

even if it's the biggest land game I ever get

the whole time I'm here.

♪

[distant clattering]

♪

[whispering] Lost him.

Having quite the battle of wits, me and this bird.

♪

He's the ultimate target.

He's the Road Runner.

So got a new plan.

Gonna build a bird trap.

I need to build a pyramid.

And then I got two base sticks,

and they have strings on 'em

so when you slide in the other ones, it stacks up,

and the two strings hold the whole thing down

nice and tight.

See? But you got to keep it tight.

Now that is one beautiful bird trap.

♪

This is exciting.

I wish I had made a baited trap like this

from the beginning.

So I got a little piece of gut hanging in there

on a string,

so the mice can't reach it.

I've never seen a bird go into one of these

and not touch the strings that make the thing drop.

It's so sensitive.

♪

Traps are set.

Little bird will be mine.

♪

I'll walk away...

♪

And hopefully I'll catch a bird.

♪

I always feel hopeful on days that I set a trap.

You know?

That little booger.

♪

[whispering] There he is, right there.

♪

There he goes!

♪

[dramatic music]

♪

That little booger.

♪

[whispering] There he is, right there.

There he goes!

He's in the trap.

He just ate the grub.

And out of the trap.

Can't believe this.

Bird has outsmarted me thus far.

That's a pretty clever little bird...

but I'll figure it out.

Bird's on the menu one of these days,

I'm telling you.

♪

♪ Happy birthday to me

♪ Happy birthday to me

♪ Happy birthday to me

[exhales slowly]

♪

I think my birth-- birthday gift to myself is,

I'm gonna go for a wander this morning

and try to find something to eat.

♪

My awareness of edible plants started at a young age

and has evolved.

You know, I like to be able to provide for my own needs.

Dandelions, just what the doctor ordered.

♪

And even in a unfamiliar country

like down here in South America,

I'm finding plants that I know

from back at home.

I found nettles.

♪

This is awesome.

Here's a nice one.

New growth.

Take it back home and have a feast of nettles tonight.

♪

It's a lot of greens, but I'm gonna cook 'em all up.

Nettles, in you go.

I simply make green soup.

♪

It's gonna be a feast.

♪

To me, the difference between living and survival

is an attitude.

Living is about enjoying the moment.

Surviving is about getting through that moment.

♪

I want to just continue living day by day.

♪

To many more great days in Patagonia.

♪

I've been waking up in the night.

There's definitely something going around my shelter.

I went and checked my trail cam.

♪

It was a fox.

Just don't want him to try to bite me.

Rabies is definitely something I do not want to get.

Soon as the symptoms start to show, it's too late,

and the max amount of sleep I've had out here

is maybe-- I don't know,

I'd say around four hours max, maybe, at a time?

And it's because of the fox.

I really would like to just sleep.

♪

I am concerned about the next couple weeks,

because all the foliage is dying

with all the frost.

♪

See if I can salvage any of this one.

♪

Yeah, the cold weather's definitely taking a hit

on my forage materials.

♪

It might be my biggest bang for my buck right now,

killing the fox.

♪

I've never killed a fox before.

I've never...

♪

Really wanted to,

but it does have a lot of meat on it.

I would prefer not to wreck the pelt,

so I'm gonna try to do a hanging trigger trap,

and foxes are really sensitive to smell.

They can smell a lot of things,

and they'll also pick up human scent,

so I'm gonna try to be really careful

with the scent I get on the cord.

I've brought gloves, and at least I'll get some meat,

and I can use part of the pelt.

So I'm gonna tie this down to a peg,

and I'm gonna try to funnel the fox

into this area.

I'm gonna be making the noose out of paracord,

'cause on my trail cam,

it looked like the animal, that fox,

was about 40 pounds.

♪

I guess if it's gonna get really aggressive

and come into my shelter,

then it's gonna be me or it,

'cause I definitely don't want to get bit,

and this thing sounds like it's hungry.

It's definitely digging

and scavenging around.

♪

I fenced in this whole area,

so the animal is encouraged

to funnel over to the side.

Then there is a noose tied to the sapling...

♪

Which comes on down. It's propped up.

It's about the right size for a fox head

at about the right height,

and there's a trigger line

running back from the sapling

over to the taut peg

with some bait.

So that is my trigger noose system for the fox,

and if this one doesn't work, I can do one with spears.

I just don't want to wreck the pelt.

If I can get it this way,

then I can have a full, intact pelt to use.

I'm just gonna set some more traps,

and we'll see if this actually works.

♪

I think that fox was behind my shelter last night.

That'd be my luck.

He'd come over and sit beside me

and then frickin' bite me in the face.

Full-on rabies in three days,

right to the brain.

Insane in the membrane.

♪

I just have dead hooks in the water.

I have no bait,

but at least I get the sunrise.

♪

I'm gonna do some foraging,

see if I can find any bait,

food to eat.

♪

That's a fox poo right there.

This is his territory, I know.

And he's wondering what I'm doing here.

He gives zero effs.

♪

Surprised the fox hasn't come up here.

Wonder where that little-- his burrow is.

♪

Oh, no.

♪

It's chewed on a bit.

So at least I know this height

is a good distance to have them.

That was completely chewed off.

It was wrapped around some animal.

♪

[animal barks]

That is the fox.

Oh, my gosh.

♪

[dramatic music]

♪

That is the fox.

Oh, my gosh.

♪

I don't see him.

♪

Well, that's what's been waking me up.

Man.

He's active during the day, too, it looks like.

♪

You would think after it saw me

that it would be a-- a bit more hesitant,

knowing that there's a human here.

I don't think it gives a [bleep].

It wants food.

♪

And if it's having as hard of a time as me getting food,

and it has no fishing line and hooks...

he's probably hungrier than me.

♪

It'd be a battle of the hungry beasts,

me and the fox, if it got into the shelter.

♪

That's for sure.

♪

[leaves rustling]

The fox is running around outside.

[leaves rustling]

He's scratching behind all my tinder.

Definitely trying to get in.

Uh, I guess that thing's not afraid of me.

I guess it's still just hungry.

I don't want to open the door and get bit.

I'm not a big fan of rabies.

♪

[banging]

♪

I don't know. I might have to stay up

all night tonight. I'm really concerned

it's gonna try to come in here when I'm sleeping

and bite me.

♪

[leaves rustling]

♪

[sighs]

Frickin' fox is back,

running around my shelter,

sniffing and digging.

♪

[animal snuffling]

I don't know. It's got to be

a couple hours before dawn.

[whacks tarp] Get.

♪

♪

Right now I'm questioning the trade-offs

of staying out here really long and, uh...

♪

What are the benefits,

and what are the downfalls either way?

♪

I'm just really starting to think, you know,

I'm the only mother.

[chuckles]

♪

And doing this out here...

[sniffles]

♪

[crying]

♪

Gonna start the day off with a clean start

and a clean front yard.

Do a little bit of raking.

I'm gonna go get some new firewood

and start it all over again.

That's just an excuse to use my rake.

It's just so much fun.

Ha!

[grunting]

Hiyah!

[bird chirping]

That little bird.

As soon as you pay attention to him,

like, he senses it, and he's like...

whoosh. He's out of there.

♪

All right.

All packed up.

Head down,

check on the "fish-uation."

♪

And, uh...

[distant rustle]

What was that?

♪

[rustling continues]

[sighs]

My bird trap go off?

♪

I'll check on that.

♪

Oh, look who finally got himself caught.

[wings flapping]

Trying to get out.

♪

The jacket goes around here.

Cover the trap,

just in case another piece of this

wiggles and opens up,

'cause, man, this is the--

you finally catch something to eat,

and then it goes and slips out on you.

Not the way to win, you know?

♪

Get your hand in there.

Grab your catch.

Pull him out.

♪

[bones cracking]

Boom. There we go, broke his neck.

♪

[exhales]

I got him.

There he is.

It's not much,

just a little handful.

♪

Thank you, little fella.

♪

Now I will eat something besides fish.

I got to strip the feathers off.

I want to utilize every last bit of him,

and I will have a nice delicious soup tonight.

Oh, my goodness, is this gonna be delicious.

♪

That's all of him.

There's the bird.

Not very big, a couple mouthfuls,

but it'll make a great soup.

His head in the soup and the feet in the soup

and the liver and heart are right there.

Not wasting a thing.

♪

There we go,

one little peeled bird head

for the soup pot.

♪

I hate to say it, but man, it tastes like chicken.

I can't wait to eat something again

that doesn't have bones

at home with my family.

I can't wait to be back with them.

♪

I knew I would miss them, but it--

I never imagined that it would pull at me so strongly.

♪

Good morning.

Checking on our spider bite here.

And we're gonna see how it's looking.

♪

I've been working with my spider bites

with the plant medicine

and also taking usnea internally.

♪

Working with plant medicine is about patience, you know?

It isn't the quick fix, but...

♪

Oh, yeah. It's totally healing up.

You know, we still got that scabby scab,

but it's way better.

The poultice is working.

There's no pain,

and the infection is just being drawn out.

I'm feeling totally good about it.

It's awesome.

♪

I am just blown away.

I was, like, this close to tapping out.

This close.

But I just felt like it just was not time,

and I was right. It wasn't.

♪

So I feel like

I've been gifted a second chance.

Pretty amazing.

♪

High five.

♪

[dramatic music]

♪

I am a mountain man.

I am tough.

♪

Bam.

Food energy's a need out here.

♪

I like this bow, and I like being connected with it,

you know?

♪

So I want to be able to know

that my shots are gonna be clean

when I go hunting.

Got to get my body some needed energy.

♪

Got to figure these animals out.

♪

There's boar around.

There is boar.

♪

Ah!

I love that.

♪

I'm gonna start setting snares.

I'm gonna see if I can snare some of these wild boar.

♪

I'm gonna use the doubled-up one.

♪

Killing a boar would give me a lot of large food

very, very quickly.

♪

I want to make sure there's no other area

that this thing wants to go through.

♪

All right.

Two traps set for bear.

I mean, wild boar.

[chuckles]

[exhales sharply]

♪

Whoa.

That deer just came up my path.

♪

Unfortunately, I think it's the deer that is not hunt-able.

♪

[exhales]

♪

That would be a lot of good eating right there.

♪

Bummer.

♪

I have this hole in my glove.

I want to try to find some burrs to stick it together

and then use some pitch glue

to try to glue it.

Here's a spruce tree.

♪

And there's these little bump blisters all over the trunk

that have sap in 'em.

♪

Made some pitch glue with the sap from the spruce tree

and then mixed it with ashes.

♪

Got these burrs,

so I'm hoping they'll work like a Velcro,

hold 'em together.

I don't know how it's gonna hold up to daily tasks, but...

♪

You can see the patch right there.

We'll see. Fingers crossed.

♪

Bad news.

We have been living with a mouse in the house,

and the mice down here

have hantavirus,

which is not good.

♪

I'm living in a "hanted" house

with a "hanted" mouse.

♪

And we were seriously warned,

if you do have a mouse in your house,

you need to get rid of it

or move,

and, um...

I am so sure I'm gonna move.

[scoffs]

I'd--I'd rather go home.

I mean, yeah, I'm gonna build a new shelter.

Uh, no mother-effin' way.

I actually felt it run across the top of my sleeping bag

when I was lying awake.

So I'm gonna try and muster the energy

to make a mousetrap,

because I don't think no usnea and plantain

is gonna cure hantavirus.

I'm working on making my little figure four trap

to catch the god[bleep] mouse.

♪

You can't let something like this stop you,

because I'm motivated by something really deep,

and that is my land.

This prize money that I saw, you know,

as being a means to buy-- buy my property.

Owning land is a really important thing to me.

I want to create a long-term home, you know?

And in order to do that, in order to really homestead,

you really have to--

to have a piece of land to work with.

And that motivation is huge.

♪

So I'll show you what I have set up.

It's a little figure four trap.

So mousey comes along.

[squeaking]

"Yummy."

Bam. Hopefully smashes it.

Hopefully we can catch ourselves

a little mouse tonight.

Not for eating

but for disposing of,

because we don't want to get no hantavirus.

♪

So I'm lying in my sleeping bag,

and I think I hear the mouse.

Hey, mouse.

♪

[rock thuds, mouse squealing]

[dramatic music]

♪

All right, well, I just heard my trap go off.

It's very, very early in the morning, and...

we got the mouse!

♪ Da da-da da-da

♪ Dee dee-dee dee-dee

♪

See the tail?

Right there.

Oh, my goodness, I cannot believe it worked.

I have to say, I'm very happy

that we killed the "hanted" mouse.

♪

"Hanted" house no longer "hanted."

♪

Let's progress with mouse removal.

♪

[singing Chopin's "Funeral March"]

♪

Whoa, big guy.

Jeez-o.

Wow, that's like...

♪

That's a mongo.

So without touching the mouse at all...

♪

You see him?

That is a really fatty [bleep] mouse.

Excuse my language.

♪

You know, if this was season one or two,

that mouse would have offered Callie a good 30 calories.

I love the little bubbles that pop up

that are like, "This mouse will provide Sam

"with 1 gram of protein

and 30 calories."

And you're like, uh, yeah,

you could get more calories

from eating your fingernails.

♪

Um...

♪

Just kidding, but food is food.

Mousey went-y.

Sorry for killing you, mouse.

♪

Beard's coming in a little bit more.

It feels soft. It feels really nice.

♪

I like how there's strips of, like...

gray in there.

Shows my wisdom. Mm-hmm.

'Cause I am wise.

It's true.

I said it on-camera.

It's true. It's got to be true.

♪

Once the tea is done,

then I'm gonna go check those traps,

those two snares that I set for wild boar.

♪

All right, so checking my traps.

Not disturbed yet,

but I've got this spot right here.

It's a great natural blind.

These are boar trails.

One follows through there,

and then one that sort of cuts around here...

♪

And follows through,

follows right through there.

So this gives me a shot

from this direction,

from that direction, and from that direction.

Three different directions.

♪

And I'm just gonna sit

and sort of chill out for a little while.

♪

I really enjoy spending time on my own.

I'm thinking about my dad this morning,

my biological father.

How does that hurt his son

when your father leaves at four years old, you know,

and moves as far as he can get,

from New York to California?

Yes, I think I have some bitterness still.

♪

And for the longest time, I thought, well, that's why

I'm not in a relationship, you know?

♪

And I started realizing,

that's not why I'm not in a relationship.

I- I haven't found somebody I want to spend time with

more than I want to spend time with myself, you know?

[animal squealing]

What's that?

♪

What is that?

[leaves rustling]

[animal squealing]

♪

♪

[animal squealing]

What is that?

I wonder if my trap got set.

♪

I'm gonna go take off up there,

check my traps.

♪

My--my heart is beating so fast

just with the possibility, you know,

of having an animal.

♪

Wild boar can definitely be dangerous

if I corner it or push it into a situation

or injure it.

♪

If I catch it in my trap,

I'll shoot it with the bow.

♪

Oh, my gosh, I'm freaking out.

♪

[groans]

So this is interesting.

♪

There's sign all over here

right around my trap.

In fact, fresh sign all through there.

♪

[groans]

I hope they continue here.

I want boar steak so bad.

♪

My trail camera's been knocked over.

♪

Just from all the foraging.

♪

So I guarantee I got boar

on this trail cam.

♪

They're freakin' mocking me.

They're like, "Ha, this guy's an idiot."

♪

Hard snow has fallen.

I have on every single layer so I can stay warm.

-Snow! -[screams]

The colder it gets, the less fish

stay toward shore.

I've lost a lot of muscle since I've been here.

Yup, I'm skinny.

It'd be really awesome if I could catch a goose.

I'm gonna sneak down there and try to catch one.

I have two throws.

When you're out here by yourself,

you think about family.

It's cold. Be with them.

It's so hard.