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If you lined up whoever's left out here with me,

I know I can persevere longer.

-Boom. -Got one!

I was worried I wasn't gonna be catching any more fish.

Thank you.

-I got him. -Oh, boy!

Look at that guy.

Now I'm in the groove.

It's an age-old tradition

to go out into the wilderness

until you've received what you need to receive.

But we're just getting started.

[animal hooting]

Really would like to know what makes that noise.

Whoa.

This is the hardest terrain.

Patagonia is a different environment entirely.

Everything out here is so hard.

Patagonia's no joke.

Are you willing to give up--

-Oh! -Who you are...

for what you will become?

It's Patagonia, for God's sakes.

Patagonia!

It's tougher than I ever imagined.

Just missing home right now.

You get a feeling of helplessness,

like, "Why am I doing this?"

Oh, my God!

The last person left wins $500,000

and is a badass.

-Bam! -Ugh.

-[animal growling] -What is that?

It's just how far you can push yourself

and what you're able to do.

Yeah!

You don't have anyone to lean on.

Oh, my God, I got a fish!

-Go to bed hungry. -Wake up hungry.

-Can't believe I did that. -Ready, guy?

It's gonna come down to mental endurance

and food deprivation.

[cries]

Person'll be dead in a week at this rate.

[animal growling]

♪

Whoa.

That's a big cat.

♪

[dramatic music]

♪

So you guys want to see something

super delicious that I'm cooking?

Ugh, I mean...

this is it, you know?

This is the pinnacle

of all...

deliciousness.

♪

[gasps]

Sock soup.

Mmm.

Good old wool socks, a little usnea and cypress.

That is, like...[smacks lips].

Okay, well, it might not be delicious chocolate cake

or something, but at least we're gonna have clean socks.

♪

And, you know, at times this journey has been so smooth.

Survival? No problem.

Being alone? No problem.

♪

But this is the first time I've been worried

about really anything out here.

So I have three spider bites on my bum-bum.

And they are mildly infected.

♪

Yup, not looking too good.

♪

I had a moment of being like, "Ah, what happens if

I get pulled out because I have an infected spider bite?"

That would be, like, nightmare.

♪

I just have to really find a way to take care of it.

♪

Oh, I've been keeping my eyes out for plantain,

which is a medicinal herb that grows pretty wild,

kind of like dandelions.

You know, it's kind of a backyard medicine.

And I haven't seen any this whole time I've been here.

♪

Check it out.

Today, of all days, when I have my spider bites

that are infected and need to be cleaned,

I found some plantain.

Da da da!

Super stoked.

And we're gonna make a poultice out of the usnea

and the plantain here.

Poultice is where you mash up the herbs

and you stick it right on there.

♪

So I'm just gonna crush it up.

What I'm looking to do is kind of create a paste

that can then be smeared onto the wound.

♪

See?

Now I'm gonna add a little usnea.

♪

That is beautiful.

♪

And so what we'll do is,

after we clean our spider bite,

I'm gonna put this onto a piece of gauze pad

from my first aid kit.

♪

And then tape it up.

And check on it in the morning.

You know, there's not medics or producers

coming and giving us food and treating our wounds.

Not even close.

We really are, like, on our own out here.

♪

♪

Wonder if I'd fare near as well

doing this "Alone" thing...

If I didn't have a camera to talk to.

[chuckles]

It's certainly fun.

I've been enjoying it; I think I want to ask 'em,

"How much is one of these cameras?"

I'm just gonna set it there.

Never actually gonna...

like, take footage.

Just gonna set it there and start talkin' to it.

You're my Wilson, baby, you're my Wilson.

♪

[chuckles]

Oh.

[laughs]

This morning, the first thing I'm gonna do

is see if I got a fish.

Fishing's been fairly good,

so I've been concentrating my energy on that lately.

Oh, yup.

There it goes.

Come on, bud.

Come on.

Come on.

Here we go.

Oh, come on, come on, come on, come on.

Don't you dare--

yes!

Hah!

Oh.

Don't you dare go anywhere.

It's okay, it's okay.

Well, it's not okay for you, but thank you very much.

Thank you.

Thank you.

♪

Oh.

The $500,000 does mean something.

But when I came out here,

one of the hopes was that I wanted to go through

my own personal evolution.

Spiritually, physically, psychologically,

socially--all of it.

And so far, it's been above and beyond.

It's a he.

Oh, whatever these are.

Might be sperm sacks for all I care.

I eat those right away.

At least one of 'em.

Oh.

Mmm.

Tastes great.

♪

I don't know when every meal's gonna come

for the next month or two.

So today, I'm gonna start making a, uh, drying rack

for fish, for winter.

And I figure I can have some bamboo pieces up here,

and then cut across as a drying rack,

'cause I always have the fire right here.

So I've got two upright pieces.

♪

And then we'll need pieces that go across.

♪

All right.

So I'm gonna fillet this fish.

♪

[sighs]

I don't want hunger

to have power over me.

I want to be out here for a long time,

and to do that, I need food.

♪

And so, I find myself

thinking ahead a lot.

And I have a plan.

Oh, that's a nice one.

♪

I fillet 'em out, dry 'em.

If I eat one fillet every three days,

and I store the rest of the fish,

I feel like I can do what's got to be done

to make six months here.

♪

Yup.

♪

Could probably beat this log apart with my axe

and get quite a few chunks off it.

It takes a lot of work to get firewood around here.

♪

So far, I've been really lucky with the fishing,

so I'm not complaining about that.

I have my tea, my berries.

I'm doing okay.

But...

it doesn't take much to make me tired in a day.

And firewood's what's, uh--

collecting firewood is what's really

taking my energy away.

♪

You know, it just goes so fast.

I like big fires at night.

They give lots of light,

lots of warmth.

But it's wearing me out to have to go 300 yards

to get firewood.

See Greg walk.

See Greg get firewood.

♪

See Greg return with firewood.

♪

See Greg need a chiropractor soon.

♪

I'm just subjected to the elements 24 hours a day.

Day after day.

I can't stay warm.

I've used up all the suitable firewood I can find,

and I'm too tired and too worn out

and don't have enough energy to be packing wood

from down the bank.

So I've decided, tomorrow, if it's nice,

it's time to pack up and move out to a different camp.

♪

With as little food as I usually get by on,

um, I'm kind of impressed that I can make ten trips

with heavy firewood like I have been.

Um...

it's obviously the plants and the fish that I do get

that's keeping me going.

♪

Ah, may as well get another look at my bobber.

In case we have something on there.

♪

Oh.

Oh, yeah, I see it-- it's way into shore.

I got a fish on there.

Okay, I don't want to lose this.

I don't know how I have a fish on there,

but I do.

But I got to get in there and grab that

so I don't lose it.

♪

Whoa!

This is slippery in here.

♪

And it's over my boots.

♪

Ugh!

Oh!

No, no, no, that's cold!

Oh! Oh, no.

[dramatic music]

♪

Oh, man.

Oh, man.

Oh, that hurts.

[panting]

I'm not kidding ya-- I'm in bare feet.

I fell in the water, but I didn't lose the fish.

I got to get to the fire.

Ugh, my feet.

Ow.

Oh, my goodness.

Oh.

No.

Fell right in.

♪

Soaked.

Everything's wet now.

Holy crow.

I feel sick to my stomach.

Oh.

I got to get out of these wet clothes.

I'm gonna have to change.

That cold water is no fun.

My feet are cold, my hands...

Thank goodness I had the fire going

before I went to check that line.

In all honesty,

I would've been dead.

♪

♪

So doesn't seem like

vast improvement from yesterday.

But it seems like it's getting better.

So I'm gonna bandage them up

and, uh, we're just gonna continue this process

until they are...

until they are good to go.

Slow and steady wins the race with herbal medicine.

♪

This is a hard thing to deal with,

but it doesn't matter how good or bad your situation is.

Everything depends on the attitude that you have.

So I'm just gonna remain positive this whole time.

I'm gonna try and think of some interesting things to do,

and what I really want to do is make an instrument.

Here's my potential piece of wood.

♪ Bow wow wow

So why make a stringed instrument?

One: fun project.

Two: I've never made a stringed instrument before.

Three: I'm a musician,

and I miss my instruments terribly.

Four: why freaking not, you know?

I'm gonna carve this down,

but then this will be where the strings kind of

resonates a little noise.

And so yeah, that's the first part.

♪

This is so experimental.

This ain't gonna be no Lucas Miller guitar,

that's for sure.

It's gonna be a very mini instrument.

A little strum stick.

First peg...[imitates creaking].

It kind of jams in there.

♪

You know, it's amazing how something threatening

your experience out here, like an infection

that could pull you out of the whole shebang,

gives you such a renewed sense of purpose

for being here, you know?

Yay, we have all four of our pegs.

And those are gonna be what our strings attach to.

Just gonna use my 12-pound test.

The 100-pound, you have to pull it so tight

to get any noise out of it.

[strings twanging]

♪

[singing softly]

♪

[dramatic music]

♪

I'm lying here in bed, feeling ill,

and all I can think about is,

"I do not want to go home."

This infection just came back,

and now I can feel it moving to my glands,

which is not a good sign.

Oh, my gosh, I feel like I'm on the verge of dry-heaving.

♪

I will listen to my body, but--

and whatever it needs to do,

but, oh, my gosh,

I just, like...[groans].

♪

This is the first time that I've even remotely

considered tapping out.

[dramatic music]

♪

I slept zero

hours of sleep last night.

Um, literally laid awake the entire night...

um, in guttural pain.

Something is going on in there...

not good.

And then I woke up this morning,

and I have two very swollen glands

in my groin.

Um...

uh, like big, big swollen ones,

which means that my infection has

turned inward.

Um, so that's really not good.

The gut pain, that's one thing,

but a systemic infection, I just cannot

[bleep] around with.

♪

So I'm feeling like today...

may be my last day.

Um, which is wild.

♪

Mentally, I feel fine.

And so here, you know? Like, so here.

♪

I don't want to go at all.

At all. Oh, my gosh.

But I have to take care of my body.

I won't put my health at risk.

If this is my last day, I'm gonna spend it...

in a state of abundance and joy

and happiness and gratitude.

♪

The same way that I've spent every day here

since the moment the boat dropped me on that beach,

and I'm gonna go to all my favorite spots here

and give my deep gratitude.

My temporary shelter spot.

♪

[sighs]

♪

Where it all began.

I want to just enjoy this day.

And I want to be present and be full of gratitude,

because this journey has been so profound.

[sighs]

Sacred bamboo forest,

I'm so grateful.

♪

This is not what I expected.

At all.

But I trust that this is how

it is meant to unfold for me.

It's so weird to kind of plan a tap out.

I just never, ever thought that I would get to this place.

Ever.

♪

I will soon wake up, but I am feeling like

this is probably my last night.

So I'm just...

being present.

♪

I just feel like I'm not in a survival situation anymore.

I just feel like I'm in a perseverance-type situation.

My only plan for today...

take my time, check my fishing lines,

and then, uh...

that's about it.

♪

Out here, you just got to take it slow

and easy.

You can't just go out and just start burning calories.

It just doesn't add up in my equation of

what you need to do out here.

People don't like my strategy, [bleep] it.

I don't really care.

I'm doing what I need to do here.

I'm on track.

It's like game day and I'm still at it, solid.

I'm just moving forward.

Oh, got a fish.

Oh, yeah.

♪

Look at that.

Got myself a rainbow.

Eh, just barely got him there on that--on the lip.

♪

Bad deal. Look at that.

Right?

Looks good.

♪

Oh, yeah. Look how good that's looking.

[whistles]

That's what I'm talking about.

♪

I'm gonna enjoy this right here.

My mom makes fish at home.

We always just make it in butter.

Usually fillet it out.

Here, I'm trying to eat as much as I can.

But we usually fillet it out and, uh...

cook it in butter.

Just fry 'em up.

And, uh...

I always call dibs on these little cracklings

that are leftover.

♪

Man, that protein helps.

But keep thinking, "conserve, conserve, conserve."

So I am going to just relax here.

♪

Wonder how my little man's holding up.

Jax.

♪

It just hit me.

For the first time...

I miss my family.

♪

I think because I was eating that fish,

I fried it up the way my mom fries it up,

and I was just thinking about eating dinner with everybody.

It just hit a nerve in me.

For the first time...

I just wanted to be home.

♪

Fishing time.

I found two worms.

Really excited about that.

♪

It was the summer after my parents got divorced

that I started going to survival skills summer camps.

♪

I didn't always get along with my dad.

And I didn't share with him what I was learning

or who I was becoming.

And that's changed over the years now, as an adult.

♪

I'm looking forward to this adventure,

being able to share who I am

with the people I love the most

that may not see this part of me.

I hope that I can make everybody proud.

♪

The lack of protein is definitely contributing

to my slowing down.

I am losing a lot of weight.

I need that protein, and fishing

just doesn't feel like it's working for me.

I built a fish weir out of rocks.

My thought is, the fish would come cruising along,

looking for insects, make its way in,

and either come over to this side and go in circles,

or go into the corner over here.

I built a basket trap.

♪

Oh, man.

♪

I don't know what else to do but just

keep going out.

I desperately would love to catch a fish.

♪

Yes!

Come on.

So close.

No, no, no.

[sighs]

Ah, damn it.

I don't know why it is that I struggle so much with it here.

♪

But if I don't catch a fish,

I may not be able to stay here.

♪

[cries]

♪

[dramatic music]

♪

At this point, fishing doesn't seem like

it's worth the effort.

But I need protein.

I noticed how much weight I've lost.

I can see my ribs really easily.

[water splashing]

Oh, there's a fish.

♪

Whoa!

♪

Yes!

Oh.

♪

[cries]

I'm so thankful for this fish.

♪

I want with all of my being to stay out here

as long as I can.

I am stubborn and have an exceedingly strong will.

And maybe I'm a crazy person,

but I'm gonna stick to that.

♪

I want to be the first female winner of "Alone."

And I want to be a role model for young girls out there.

♪

I'm thankful for each day

that I have.

I'm just thankful.

♪

So...

I'm just waiting for the fire

to perk up a little bit.

Because I'm gonna move my entire camp further down

where the firewood is.

And especially after falling in the lake,

I know I need a lot more wood from over there.

I can't stay warm.

It's ugly, ugly weather.

But I'm tired of fighting with firewood,

so I want to get moved over there.

Rain or shine, I'm starting to move today.

♪

Well, I'm gonna collect some coals

from the fire here.

And I'll carry the coals over there

to the other location

so I can start a fire over there.

♪

Not too, too far I guess.

Boy, this bush is just so slippery when it's wet.

♪

I got the tarp, I got to get that set up.

Because now it's clouding over; it looks like

it's gonna rain again.

♪

Right there.

Okay.

I'll tell ya right now,

I'm not making a fancy shelter like I had before.

This is gonna be simple.

As long as it keeps the water off me at night.

That's all I care.

♪

So I'm just gonna pack everything up.

I got to organize it, dry it out later.

♪

There's my new camp over there on the point.

So from there...

and there's my old shelter, there.

♪

See, everywhere I look: wood.

There's another nice piece.

♪

Oh, I'm so happy, man.

I'm really happy.

I finally found a good spot for wood.

Now that we're 50 days into the [bleep].

♪

My goal is to buy my daughter her own little acreage

and build her a house.

I just don't want to let her down.

I really need this.

[dramatic music]

♪

I literally don't even know what to do at this point.

You want to talk about boredom...

There's nothing.

♪

Idle time.

It's idle time.

♪

There is so much idle time, just wasted away.

What do you do?

♪

What do you do?

♪

I don't know.

♪

I think about winning.

♪

The $500,000.

Me winning was gonna make me do more for my family.

♪

They're the most important thing in my life right now.

By far.

And, uh...

I just always took it for granted.

And I don't think I ever realized that

till I was out here.

They're the hugest part of my life.

♪

I miss my family.

It wasn't like before I left, I wasn't a father

and I wasn't a husband-- I was.

But I got out here and it made me realize...

where my true values are and where they lie.

♪

Maybe it's not about $500,000.

♪

Maybe it's about just finding yourself

and doing what you need to do.

♪

I still feel like I could win this.

♪

Do I stay here and try to...

get that end prize for my family?

Or do I go back to my family?

♪

Well, it looks like it might be a nice day tomorrow.

I got to go and get plants,

finish the shelter.

Get the shelter arranged a little better.

Something's squeaking over there,

near my old shelter.

Somebody misses us already.

♪

So I'm sitting here

in my shelter,

which might not be much of a shelter for much longer.

The problem is, the lake's come up.

It's come up about six feet in the last couple of hours.

It's only a few feet from my bed.

Here's my bed,

and there's the water level.

Right there.

Uh, yesterday, it was way back there.

So I'm not gonna get any sleep, obviously.

I got to keep tabs on it.

♪

Now it keeps coming up a couple inches

every half hour, and it's still pouring rain.

This is a bad situation.

Look at how close the lake's coming to my fire, even.

♪

Since falling in the lake, I'm cold all the time.

When you start to get hypothermia,

you make bad, stupid mistakes like this,

and this was a mistake-- to move when I did.

I have a waterproof sleeping bag,

so I think the only hope of probably staying...

somewhat warm and dry is in the sleeping bag.

♪

[thunder rumbling]

♪

I can't get warm.

There's no way to get warm.

I've got hypothermia, probably second stage.

This is not a good situation at all.

I can't move my hands.

♪

There's just no way I can stay warm like this.

Ugh, I can't deal with this.

♪

I can't live out here forever.

♪

How do you get through another day?

How do you get through the next hour?

♪

The best of us have a breaking point.

Your mind starts to give up on you.

Sooner this ends for me, the better.

♪

It's done.

I'm tapping out.

As a man, as a husband, as a father,

it's time to go home to my family.

Time to move forward.

♪

I never looked at this as my home.

I came in here and I looked at this like a cheap apartment.

I got to put my time in here,

and then once something better comes along,

it's time to move on.

My survival strategy coming into this whole thing

was to conserve my energy.

Every calorie counts.

I got to the point that,

"should I just lay in this shelter

for 20 more days, 30 more days?"

To me, what am I proving?

Only thing that was left out there

dangling on a string was the $500,000.

♪

I wanted to win.

I wanted to win that money.

But when you reach a sense of fulfillment

within yourself, you start to think about

what's next.

Where do you want to go with the rest of your life?

And how do you want to improve your relationship

with your family,

and how do you want to make your child's life better?

The money became null to me

as I've realized

it's really time to get back home

and move forward with my family.

♪

I sat and shivered all night.

Hypothermia set in.

Every time I get up, it's like I'm gonna faint.

Having quite the battle of wits,

me and this bird.

He's the roadrunner.

There he goes, he's in the trap!

Whoa, a deer just came at my pack.

That would be a lot of good eating, right there.

What is that?

My heart is beating so fast.

[animal squealing]

There's a fox around my shelter.

I don't want to get bit and get rabies,

so it's gonna be me or it.

It's the fox!

♪