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Justin: I'm gonna sing, right?

Man: 'Kay.

♪ Your voice is music to my ears ♪

♪ I'm wide awake ♪

♪ You say that no matter what ♪

♪ You're watching over me ♪

( singing indistinctly, echoing )

( continues )

( vocalizing )

( cheers )

- Yeah? - Yeah!

- Do I sound good? - Hell yeah, baby.

- You sure? Okay. - Positive.

- ( music playing on speakers ) - ( rustling )

♪ No seatbelt on ♪

- Man: Less sleep. - ♪ No seatbelt on ♪

♪ No seat, no seat ♪

- Okay. - ♪ No seat ♪

What?

- Oh! I'm so sorry. - You said "No seatbelt."

- I'm so sorry. - It's okay.

Justin: I'm just nervous a little bit.

Just expectation stuff.

Shouldn't we be writing this stuff down?

♪ What is there-- ♪

Again. Shit.

This album has to be flawless,

and this is really hard to do.

I'll be honest, I don't feel good.

I struggle with massive anxiety.

There's a lot of people, I think,

that think that fame is this achievement

that brings you fulfillment and happiness.

And the truth is there's this weight

and this heaviness on you

to achieve and to be something.

People have these expectations of you.

It's just a lot.

You know, it's nothing shy of devastating.

When someone is 13 or 14 years old,

we know that the brain is not yet ready

to handle all the rigor

that comes with being an entertainer,

let alone somebody who's quite as famous as Justin.

We started working with Buzz, who is amazing.

He's a behavioral specialist.

She remembers the time where I would get stressed

and I've remembered that, too.

So it's, like-- that's a categorical trigger, right?

100%. 'Cause it's not all the little details.

It's just under the category of this show

or this event that we did in the past felt this way.

So your brain says, "I'm going to remember what that felt like."

You know what my brain says? You know what my brain says?

"Run."

Buzz: When I first saw him,

you know, he really wasn't functional.

I think as human beings in general,

I think we're-- most of us,

I don't know if anyone wants to admit this,

but most of us are hurting.

Music helps me cope

with my day to day struggles.

His cortisol levels are through the roof.

So your cortisol is your fight or flight mechanism.

Justin: This has been the hardest,

roughest season of my life.

The pressure of delivering,

you know, delivering a good album,

and just a lot of different things.

I can get it better.

♪ Only angels ♪

♪ Only ♪

♪ Only angels speak-- ♪

Shit.

I made a promise to him that if he could never sing,

if he could never dance, if he could never entertain,

I'd still always be in his life.

Scooter has been highly invested

in checking in with me on Justin's health.

Scooter sees him almost like a son.

I think when I was younger, you know,

he was always an authority figure in my life.

I was rebellious against that.

At this point, I just want to see him happy and healthy.

We've put together a process and a schedule,

and we're having meetings

and we have goals for the staff.

Allison, uh, updated schedule presentation?

What I gave you was a theoretical dreamworld.

And now I have actual availabilities and things like that.

We're talking the long-term schedule.

A schedule like Justin's is like an NFL football player

playing Sunday football every single Sunday,

every single week of the year,

52 games a year for ten straight years.

And it just can't be done.

These are supplements,

and too many of them, if you ask me.

You're taking them very late in the day today, babe.

I don't take them "yate."

You took them at two o'clock.

Anxiety creeps in. He has to get away.

Do you know Amangiri?

Justin: I was, like, feeling pressure.

I had to just get away from everything.

It was right smack in the middle of the album process.

He was recording things,

getting new songs all the time,

trying to figure out what direction

he kind of wanted to go in.

It was good rest for us.

( indistinct chatter )

Have you ever had the Flamin' Hot Munchies?

- They're fire, right? - Yeah.

- How are you doing, dude? - Pretty good.

- No. - Oh.

I just feel like it's so random

for them to be in-- like, on a road trip

in a random place like this and run into us.

Like, if we were on a road trip--

And we, like, ran into, like, Adam Sandler

- in the middle of nowhere. - Yeah.

- You know? You'd be like-- - Yeah, yeah. It's true.

Justin: Amangiri was so fun.

I just feel comfortable and safe traveling with Hailey.

Hailey: Something that we love a lot as a couple

is we love to experience new things together,

because he has obviously experienced

the most in life for somebody his age.

He's been everywhere.

He's seen everything. He's done everything.

But he hasn't really done a lot of those things with a partner.

Man: When you're there, are you thinking about work

or do you try to not think about it at all?

I think that's where Buzz is really helping me

because my brain has been so foggy for so long,

it's hard for me to compartmentalize stuff.

♪ Never ungrateful for it ♪

♪ That's all me before it ♪

♪ Habitual lady ♪

♪ My love is habitual, yeah ♪

( vocalizing )

( music playing on speakers )

- ( muttering ) - ( music continues )

Every time I--

Every time I roll, I gotta, unh, unh, unh.

- Every time, unh. - He's a night owl, I will say that.

He's always up in the nighttime

eating cereal and just roaming around.

I have no idea. I feel like creative people tend to be night owls.

♪ Tell me what you wanna know ♪

♪ I'll tell it to you right now ♪

♪ Every time I, unh, it back, I'm chicken like it's Kung Pow ♪

Hailey: Yup.

( music stops )

Hailey: Where we were staying at,

there was this big, big, big rock outside,

almost like a little mountain.

And pitch black, in the middle of the night,

you can't even see in front of you,

Justin's like, "Let's go climb it."

Everything feels like something new

when you're doing it with the right person.

The stars were something

like I've never seen before in my life.

You just felt like you were somehow closer to heaven.

( music playing )

Justin: Life is good. Life is amazing.

We have so many things to be grateful for,

so many things to wake up and look at

and be like, "Oh, my gosh."

But, you know, we got to make much of what we have.

You can always be grateful for something.

I think-- I think "Angels Speak," too.

"Angels Speak" is another special one, man.

13, 14, 15.

- That's an album right there. - That's a--

There's that number, dude.

( overlapping chatter )

Hailey: Whoa, babe! That's a big deal.

Justin: Okay, let's bounce.

We got maybe a couple more songs.

We're pretty much done.

♪ Your voice is music to my ears ♪

♪ I'm wide awake ♪

♪ Stuck on the way your frequencies resonate ♪

♪ You say that no matter what, you're watching over me ♪