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I'm just going to take a video of you, yeah?

I've got a small kink. It's nothing big or anything, but could you tell me

you love me into the camera?

Do you know my friend Star?

Don't finish.

Why?

I just want to go and fuck someone.

Okay, sure.

Yeah, I don't want to waste it. Yeah? Where are you going?

Bathroom. That's kind of close, sir.

Do you want to, like, come?

Yeah.

To the hookup? Oh, no.

Why?

Kind of scared to get murdered.

How are you going to get murdered?

They might have a knife. Why would they have a knife?

Well, they might have kitchen knives.

What would you do with a kitchen knife?

They might stab me. Straight at the edges.

Come on. Just come. It'd be fun.

Nope.

You're so rude.

Just go.

Bye. Bye.

I love watching cute gay couples, like, when they're old.

How does one of them look?

Right, they look pretty gay.

OK, I want this. OK, all right, show us the beer thing, actually.

Oh, shit, yeah, OK.

Give me the lighter.

Thank you.

What are you doing?

No, I'm doing it. I'm sorry. Give it to me. Give it to me.

Come here It's a whole to be like this a lighter like this

Get it under

What about this guy?

He's one mile away.

No. Why? He's hot.

I don't care if he's hot. I just don't want to have sex with someone for the

first time if I don't know them.

Well, is there anyone that you do want to have sex with for the first time?

Yes. Who?

Jake.

Jake?

Double English Jake?

Double English Jake.

I don't know why you don't like him.

It's not I don't like him. I just didn't realise you two were... We text.

Oh, you text.

We text. I sit next to an English.

We text about English stuff.

And some non-English things.

Is it big?

It's really big, yeah.

What?

We still hang out when, like, we get boyfriends and stuff.

I'm scared of real life becoming permanent and everybody else here sucks.

Everyone here sucks.

But I was thinking maybe after school we

could just leave and

go to a different country.

Just till that even if we don't like it we can go somewhere else and just live

it out Would you do that with me?

I got some green, hash, snow, e-pills, ket, DMT, oxide, fentanyl.

I got some methamphetamines, just meth, just amphetamines and some G.

What?

What?

Wait, what? G?

Excellent question.

OK. Pretend we're at a party.

Wait.

Wait, is there going to be food?

Yes, there'll be food.

Popcorn dips.

Yeah, there's popcorn with dips.

Guys, shut up and listen!

Right.

Imagine you are dancing someone who is not interested in you.

G is the cheat code to make them horny.

Spike their drink.

Hey, there you are. Thanks.

I've got you a drink.

Oh, okay.

It takes about 15 minutes to hit the system.

Whoever takes it will have low inhibitions and feel a sense of

euphoria.

Oh, fuck.

You just need to make sure not to overdose.

Why?

What happens then?

You will lose motor functions, respiratory difficulties, and you will

fall under or die.

Sorry, I can't breathe.

Sorry, I can't breathe.

You can counteract this by taking some stimulants.

Now give me my money and leave.

Okay.

Why are you filming for so long? Because I want to know.

Know what? You're making me nervous. Well, look, tell everyone that's

watching how it feels to be losing your virginity in T-minus 10 minutes.

I don't know. I'm nervous.

Don't be.

Okay. Walk up to him and give him a compliment.

Okay, okay.

What's up?

Absolutely not.

I know, it was terrible.

Come on, again.

Hey, um... You were really nice tonight.

Thanks.

Okay, and then I go in for the kiss.

Yeah.

Okay.

How do I know it's, um, how do I know when it's the time to go?

It's like, you know that feeling you get in your stomach?

Yeah.

You can sense all that movement.

You can hear that breathing.

And the impulse comes.

What are you doing?

I want to kiss you.

Do you not want to?

No, no.

No, I mean, you just picked a really bad time to do this.

You're not going to kiss me back at the bad timing?

No, I just didn't expect it.

We wanked together, Tommy.

Yeah, that's in a platonic way.

How is that in a platonic way?

I don't know. I don't know. I don't know. I'm just... I'm nervous, okay?

Jake's about to come and I'm about to have to text him.

Okay. Jake. Okay, then.

What?

Jake.

That's what it's all about, isn't it, I guess?

Wait, are you angry with me now? No, I'm not angry with you. No. Okay.

Okay.

Sorry, am I interrupting something?

No, no.

Oh.

Uh, you look really nice tonight.

Thanks.

Did you want to get that drink?

Yeah.

Well, let's go.

Wait, wait, wait, wait, stop, wait, stop.

I'm leaving for school now. Take my good luck.

Tommy.

I'll take you.

Thank you. I've got to leave in like 20 minutes, if we could.

20 minutes?

Yeah. Oh, my God.

That's really early. Yeah.

How do you do that every day?

I don't know. I've been late so many times.

Oh, really? Yeah. What have you got first?

Spanish. Spanish?

I wish I did Spanish. I did French instead.

Not good vibes.

No. Do you remember the last time you were happy?

I mean that feeling you get inside when everything is truly undoubtedly

fine.

Nah, me neither.

Tommy, did you take the other book?

And what's more depressing is the thing that these pills Vips gave me were fake.

My sister doesn't really deserve this.

Sometimes life just finds someone who's done nothing wrong and fucks them.

Where were you?

Sorry. I was late.

Yeah, I know you're on drugs.

OK.

I deserve to be picked up rather than waiting here in the cold for you.

May, can I tell you something?

What?

You know, I'm not really meant to be here.

What?

No, I'm seriously... Have you not noticed how different everything looks?

Yeah.

Yeah, I'm not meant to be here either.

One thing is to go back to normal, like the way they were, but that doesn't

exist anymore. No, don't do that. Don't do that. Why are you trying to act like

you know what I'm going through? It's just so dumb.

What does that do?

In hindsight, this isn't my most responsible moment.

How'd you take it?

Maddy, it's a pill.

Wait. Wait!

Stop!

Stop!

Stop! I think about it all the time, so these drugs, they

create silence in my head.

Because when everything is quiet and I do something he used to, I can feel him.

And when it's not silent, I feel like the whole world is empty and I'm the

only one left behind.

Shit.

I forgot about Maddie.

Jake.

Jake. Jake.

What's going on, man?

Jake, don't be like this. Jake.

Jake. Jake. Jake. Jake. Jake.

Seriously, Jake. You're not just sat still.

What, for eight hours?

What, so I was high and some junkie was trying to fill me up?

No. Okay, but...

I don't even know

she

was older.

Maddy, people do drugs when they're 15. I was basically doing you a favour. A

favour? Yeah, a favour. I was scared you left me alone in that place. You wanted

to do it. You actually wanted to do it. What? So we don't have something to talk

about? I don't want to talk to you. Be nice to me.

Please. Just be nice to me. I deserve nice.

The are you hot enough pic.

You've got to make sure that your abs are showing and also your butt. But not

too much of either because you want to remain versatile.

Can't be too fat.

Or too skinny.

I hate this.

Easy.

Where are you going?

Oh, I finally got out to Qatar.

Well, aren't you going to say anything?

No.

I was going to tell you I was going on a date.

Hopefully you'll tell me to be back on time to be safe, but never mind.

Maddy?

Maddy, say your location with me.

Hello?

Ah,

this is for you.

How was your day?

Good. Good.

Ah.

Take a sleep, let me get you another drink.

I'm just gonna take a video of you, yeah?

Do you, um...

Do you know my friend Star?

Who?

Brown hair, blue eyes.

Can I ask you something?

Do you think I'm kind?

Nah.

Do you think I'm capable of being loved?

Like, I just don't feel like people like me. Like, like, I mean, I mean, like, I

feel like people think, I feel like people feel sorry for me.

I mean, you and me, we're fucking everything, but...

I just want to know.

Do you think I can be more than that to someone?

I'm just trying to burn my friend's star. I mean... I don't know your bloody

friend!

Sorry.

You know what? I've forgotten something.

You just stay there, yeah?

Just give me a sec. One sec.

You just need to make sure not to overdose.

You will lose motor functions, respiratory difficulties, and you will

fall under or die.

We are on a bridge in London. I'm going to be brave as fuck and jump in this

river. You are not.

Oh my God. This is us.

Are you okay?

Tommy? Are you okay?

I'm just so lonely sometimes.

I know.

But I'm gone.

Yeah, but why though?

You know, why? Like, I just... We didn't even do anything wrong, you know?

Listen to me.

I never got to travel the world.

I never got married.

I want you to do those things.

What's the point if we're not doing them together?

We are doing them together, Tommy.

Like how?

Tom, I got lucky.

You're the best person in the world.

I fucked so many people.

I wanted to tell you, I wanted to tell anyone, but I don't know what to do.

Just know that I'm cheering you on.

Okay, I'm always there.

When you first get your boyfriend, or you get your first house, or, you know,

you're moving on with life.

You can counteract this by taking some stimulants.

Stop coming on.

Where are you going?

I was going to tell you I was going on a date.

Hopefully you'll tell me to be back on time.

It's okay.

Just breathe when I breathe.

More with the...

Marnie,

I'm so sorry.

What?

I'm sorry for not listening to you.

I mean, Star was my best friend, you know, and... It was kind of just all my

fault.

It's not your fault.

No, it is. It is.

That night, we just got into some stupid argument.

I think she had nothing.

And it just made me feel so lonely.

And I hate myself, and... I'm just sorry if I made you feel that way.

I don't hate you.

You know, you're my only friend.

Yeah, I know.

So, go on, then. Tell me about this date.

Honestly disgusting.

This guy, he went to the toilet in the chicken shop, you know, the restaurant

that he promised me, and just to pop a zit.

And when he came back, the zit was bleeding, and, um, the blood fell into

the ketchup, and, um, he ate it.

Oh, no. He ate it.

No.

Did you kiss him?

No, no, no, no. Oh, good.

Are you going to see him again?