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Sit.

Is everything okay?

No. How come?

Just sit down.

What did we do?

I didn't do anything. You did. You were being weird again.

We were just playing and having fun.

I know you don't mean it, but the way you act embarrasses me.

We were just playing the Aladdin game. Yeah, but you can't be Jasmine in the

Aladdin game.

But we like Jasmine.

No, you do. I don't. She's a girl.

So? So, you can't be a girl. It's weird.

Reed and Jacob laughed at us because you were being so girly. It was really

embarrassing. I have to go now.

No, you can't come with me.

Why? I don't want you to.

But why?

You just can't.

I'm scared.

I don't care.

Why are you being so mean?

Stop saying we. We're not the same person.

I'll come see you soon.

Sorry that I haven't come here in a while.

That's okay.

How have you been?

All alone.

Sorry, I just can't bring you back yet.

Why not?

You know why not.

I want you to stop drawing these.

Why? Because they're all girls.

But I love them. Dad saw these and asked me why I always draw girls and never

boys. It was really embarrassing.

I can't help it.

Well, you have to.

I mean it.

Don't draw these anymore.

homosexuality will inherit the kingdom of God, temptation, and

life.

Go to hell.

I can't. I can't.

Dad said something today that really scared me.

What did he say?

That... What?

That all of those people have a bad disease and they don't give it to anyone

they do it with.

But last week, Mom told Ray and I about her co-worker and

how he applied to his family.

She hugged him and said everything was okay.

She isn't supposed to do that.

At least she said she doesn't believe that's right.

But she supported him.

Mom is amazing.

She is so kind and wise.

I love her so much.

Sometimes I feel like she already knows about you.

I love you anyway because she understands and loves you only for who

you are. You are my heart.

Even if the church doesn't.

I miss Mom.

Please don't. I want to hug her.

Shut up. Don't do that.

I just came here to tell you a story and to be with you.

Isn't that enough?

Never mind.

Stop. Do you hear me?

You can't do this to me.

I'm almost done with this film camp and you have to stop.

Do you have any idea how embarrassing it is to be caught staring at him from

across the room when we're supposed to be thinking of short film ideas?

Other people are starting to think things.

Reed said something on the way back from class.

He said he'd rather die than have a good brother.

This is what you do to people.

If they knew about you, they'd want to die.

Stop.

Anna asked me out today.

What did you say?

Yes.

She's funny and she's nice.

We met at the musical audition.

I feel like I got the time slot wrong.

Am I in the right place?

But we both ended up getting the parts we weren't supposed to.

I guess we're going to be co-stars now. It's like meant to be.

Why do you always have to do that?

Okay, I like her.

Can I say something?

Let me out.

No. Let me out.

This sucks. I'm so fucking pissed.

Why? This bitch embarrassed me in front of the whole class.

How? We were all waiting for assembly when Catherine stands up and says that

Dana thinks... Fuck.

I don't understand what you're saying. So I go in the backyard and I film

myself. And I look at it and I study my mannerisms and I listen to my voice. And

you didn't tell me this, but I still sound like a girl when I talk.

Fuck. I stopped writing in cursive for this, you know? Like, I thought that

that was it.

But clearly not now.

And now the entire class thinks out of me. And now what am I going to do?

Really?

I don't understand.

You don't understand what?

I know I'm a good person.

But everyone makes me feel like I'm not.

Like I'm a criminal.

You're amazing.

I'm a liar.

Everything I do is a lie.

What? What's wrong?

Just let me out.

I won't. I'm so alone in here. I know, okay? I know. Don't you think I know

that?

I am so alone out there.

Listen. Me listen?

You never listen to a word I say.

I've been listening to you for 19 years.

It's fucking bullshit. You know it.

I get so lonely and you are the only one that I can talk to.

But you never listen to me. You just fucking sit there and stare at me like

you expect me to be someone that I am not.

No, I just want you to love me.

But I... You don't love me.

I love you very much.

Well, I love you too. Then why do you leave me in here?

Shut up.

I want to go home and to read Mom and Dad. I miss them. They don't miss you. I

think they do.

They don't know you, okay?

They don't know you. They know me.

And that is the only one that they are ever going to know.

You want them to hate me? Is that what you want?

I don't want to be here anymore.

Fuck, I know you don't. I know you don't want to be here, but you have to, okay?

So just shut the fuck up about it.

I'm going to die here.

Then go ahead, please.

Go ahead and die.

Do you want me to die?

I almost forgot you were here.

You know, I know you probably can't hear me right now, but I

came to say something.

Maybe it's just for my own benefit, but I had to say it.

I decided to take Emma to the lake today.

I took her to Lake Michigan. That's where we used to watch the Chicago

skyline reflected in the lake.

You know, Emma's a cancer.

She loves the water.

So I try to take her there as much as I can.

But I went out there with her intending to pick up my journal and sit on the

bike path.

Instead, I'm just watching her.

She went out to the ledge, and in this still way of hers, she looks out.

For some reason, I see you.

And you're with me.

And we're making one of those Lego movies that...

we used to make and force Mom and Dad to sit through.

Do you remember how we used to create those stats with these characters and

their lines and then how we'd attach the Lego broomsticks to the top of these

guys' heads and walk them upside down?

We were really happy together then.

Me and you.

I know it doesn't matter.

I know it doesn't change anything.

But I'm so sorry that I kept you here alone my whole life.

I was so alone up there.

I'm so sorry.

I want to see everyone again.