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Mom, Mom, come on.

No. It's enough.

I've had enough.

He didn't mean it.

He, always he, never me, never.

Well, he's just that kind of person.

I'm a person too, Tano. I am a person!

Gimme the keys.

No.

Then I will take the bus.

This is my senior year.

I'm supposed to be having fun, not taking care of kids.

Lisa will help you.

No, she won't. She hates us.

She'll just have to learn to-

No, this is not her problem, Mom, or mine.

We're your family.

You (sighing) can't just leave.

Dr. Brantley, you've got a phone call.

Hey.

You get one for Dad?

No, he's manic enough.

He keeps calling Dino. Leaving messages.

Poor guy.

Poor guy? Mom's the one in the ER.

Yeah, and he's thinking if something happens to her,

who's gonna take care of him?

Not Dino, that's for fucking sure.

Ella Giordano's family?

Here.

I'm Dr. Olmedo.

Hey, wait.

Aldo Giordano, eh, Ella's my wife.

Okay, well, she was severely dehydrated,

which is probably why she passed out.

We put her on a saline IV drip, she's stable.

Thank God.

Is she awake?

She is.

Is she still in pain?

She is, but, and I'm not an endocrinologist,

so this isn't definitive, but my guess is.

Ella's suffering from polymyalgia rheumatica.

Oh, God no, no, not Ella!

It's an inflammatory disorder, Mr. Giordano.

We put her on corticosteroids.

She should be pain-free in a day or two.

There you go, she's gonna be fine.

Great news, right?

We wanna watch her for a bit

to be sure everything stays stable,

but she's eager to go home, so...

No, no, no, you keep her here.

For what?

Uh, she's sick, you need to watch her.

She's better off at home.

She needs to stay hydrated, rest when she's tired,

and see a specialist after the holidays.

I'd be happy to refer you to someone.

Oh, that would be great. Thank you.

Thanks, Doctor. - Thank you.

Merry Christmas. Merry Christmas!

What the hell is wrong with her?

She doesn't say Merry Christmas.

Maybe she doesn't celebrate Christmas.

So? I do.

Dr. Hallsboro, 279.

What now?

We wait.

Or I can wait and I'll call you when she's ready.

We can be back in like 10.

Thank you (lips smacking).

Hey. How's your mom?

Uh huh, uh huh...

Ella's fine.

Yeah, yeah, yeah.

I, okay, yeah, I'll talk to you later, bye.

What?

You're not going to the hospital?

She said she didn't want me to come.

She's not gonna say it.

She needs you to.

Go.

Yeah.

Okay. Guys, 10 minutes.

'Til what?

Uh, church?

Church?

Yes, it's Christmas Day.

Oh my God, seriously, Mom?

I think God will give us a pass just this once because.

Grandma's in the hospital. - In the hospital.

God might. I won't.

Get your brother dressed.

Aiy, aiy, aiy, aiy.

What? We're Hindu.

We're family.

I love your mom, she's my life,

but there are things that I need as a man

that she cannot give me.

Like what?

Tano, there are women who make good wives, good mothers.

And there are women who make men happy.

But can't they do both?

We don't want them to.

Ah, you'll see.

Eh, don't forget the hubcaps.

Hi.

Hi.

I'm Melody, are you sick?

No.

So why are you in the ER?

I'm waiting for my mom.

Is she sick?

Yeah, but I think she's feeling better.

That's good.

Santa brought me a ZOOB Racer Z-Car Designer,

my mom says I get to play with it all day.

And my little brother can't even touch it.

Hmm.

I'll probably let him though.

Well, you're a very nice big sister, Melody.

Yeah. He's gonna miss me.

Honey, they've got everything all set up for you.

I gotta go get my infusion now. Merry Christmas.

Merry Christmas.

Call Dino, eh, tell him we're not coming for lunch.

Dad, I think he knows that.

Call him.

Darling, stop. You're not one of Pavlov's dogs.

No, they got free room and board.

That's just him. - I know.

What the hell, D, now you answer?

Dad's been calling for two hours.

Are you okay?

Yeah, it's weird, you know,

you never really think about them dying.

No one's dying. The doctor says she will be fine, okay?

Go take a shower.

Why, do I smell?

So bad.

I thought I was dead.

Are you disappointed?

No!

But it was a relief, in a way.

The world is so crazy now.

The world was always crazy.

When you came into it, during the war?

Every second was hell. And we were the lucky ones.

It never seemed hopeless.

Because your mother and Grandpa and I lived for YOUR hope.

And look where it led.

You have a good life, Ella.

You have wonderful children, and grandchildren.

Now your husband...

Grandma!

I just think you could have chosen someone more...

There is no one “more”.

There has never been any “more”. Ever.

That’s true!

How are we doing today, Ella?

I don't know how you're doing.

I'm doing a little better.

Well let's get you a lot better, and let's get you home.

Sarah, come on, I made a mistake.

No. A mistake is taking the wrong exit.

It's adding salt instead of sugar.

Having an affair with your colleague is a choice, Tano.

It's a choice you made.

Please, just let me fix this.

How would you even begin to fix this?

Let's get married.

I've been waiting 10 years of my life

to hear you say that.

I never once imagined it would sound so pathetic.

Sarah, Sarah, please. - No.

Don't, Sarah.

I'll come back later for the rest of my stuff.

Pick a day and don't be here.

Dr. Bradley, 67 phone call.

Dr. Bradley, 67 phone call.

Hey.

You came.

Thank you.

You don't have to thank me.

Let me be grateful, please?

Okay, carry on.

All right, come sit.

Shouldn't be long now.

Good.

Bill?

Yeah?

I'm sorry I fucked everything up.

Alright. We're not doing this now.

Why not?

Because. I'm here for you right now. 100%.

You bring us into this, it's an unfair balance.

God, you are such a lawyer.

Yep.

I did fuck everything up though.

Hey. We both did.

That's the longest hour I've ever spent.

Is everything all right?

Yeah, just relaxing.

I'm gonna go take a shower.

Do you wanna join me?

Hmm, sounds good.

Hey Mom, look at you, how are you feeling?

Like a sick old woman who ruined everyone's Christmas.

Oh, that's not true.

You made everybody's Christmas the best one ever

by sticking around for it.

Lisa, don't exaggerate, you sound like your father.

And she's back.

[Marco] So Tano steps between me and Dino and Dad,

and says, "You wanna punish someone, punish me,

I was supposed to be watching them."

After you literally just burned down

your mom's lilac bushes?

Yeah, yeah, from that moment on,

he was my personal superhero.

What did your dad do to him?

He gave him a 50 cent courage bump on his allowance.

So no one was punished for setting the fire?

No, no, Lisa was.

She was grounded for like a month for smoking.

We got the lighter from her cigarette case in her purse.

Where is the lunch, eh? I'm hungry.

We're waiting for Mom, Dad.

Oh.

Really?

Mom, are you okay?

I'm fine, honey.

What are you doing?

Just resting. Mini migraine.

You've had like four of those since we got here.

Are you sure you're okay?

I'm fine. Go enjoy your cousins.

I'll be right down. I promise.

Okay.

Yeah?

Everything all right in there?

Yep, uh, I'm just putting myself together.

Not too much though, okay?

I kind of like you undone.

I'm gonna go downstairs start on breakfast.

Are we sticking with pancakes,

or would you rather have eggs?

Pancakes. Always. I'll be down in a minute.

Okay.

Oh.

Grandma's home.

Good, now we can eat.

Oh yes, I'm so sorry me almost dying

interrupted you shoveling food into your mouth.

Don't do that again, eh, huh?

You scared the hell outta me, huh?

You know I can't live without you.

Stop talking nonsense.

What kind of vegetables?

LaGuardia. - Apple?

Comfortable. - Okay.

Carrots? - Carrots.

Mom! - Ah, amazing.

Well done.

In the name of the Father, of the Son,

of the Holy Spirit. - Holy Spirit.

Amen. - [Sal] Amen.

Thank you, Lord, for your greatest gift, family,

to remind us who we are, and where we come from,

to give us strength and love.

Bless us with your grace, those here and those far.

Bless this food and the hands that made it in the name of Jesus. Amen.

Amen.

Can we finally eat now?

Your mom seems good.

She does. I'm glad you're here.

Me too.

So all of you are Catholic?

Goddamn right.

Well, 'cause you know Mom and I are Hindu, right?

Mira, just eat please.

When me being truthful

obstructs her subverting her identity.

They all do it, it's literally who they are.

Gia, pass the wine.

Do you think we should save the salad behind?

No, none of us ate it, as you can see, they're all-

I know, why were we served salad

at the end of the meal? - Just salad filled.

Oh, what is that thing in there?

Let's just... Oh, we never ate that.

What was that? - I don't-

She started cooking it.

Is it snowing yet? - Yes, it does snow.

Adam?

Mhm.

Are you awake?

Mhm.

I need to tell you something.

Oh, okay, mm, what is it?

I'm pregnant.

Wow, okay, uh-

But, I'm not 100% sure it's yours.

What?

98%, maybe 99. Point 5.

Wha, ooh, how?

Three months ago you and I had just started dating

and I went back to the house to grab some stuff,

and Tano was there.

Oh, great.

We weren't us yet, we had just started,

and he and I had all this unfinished business.

I got it, I don't need to hear it.

Adam, I was with one man for 10 years, and then I met you.

This whole thing is totally out of left field.

And you wanna keep it.

I do.

Well, then you need to talk to him.

I don't wanna talk to him.

He deserves to know.

No, he does not.

He didn't want this.

Odds are it isn't even his.

And you want me to step up?

No.

I'm saying I'm stepping up.

I'm past 40, I've wanted to have a baby my whole life.

This is a gift. And I'm taking it.

What you do or don't do, is totally up to you.

- No, I'm good (laughing). - Want some, want some?

Hey.

Hey, honey.

I'm just gonna head upstairs for a minute.

I'll be right back.

All right, yeah, it’s alright. -Okay.

Oh my God. Hello, Ellie.

I’m creepy Santa.

So, Marco, little Marco, he looks at me, he says,

"Dad, uh, you need to calm down 1000%."

That wasn't Marco, Marco was two then, he couldn't talk.

That was Dino.

Actually, it was me.

You? You weren't there.

"Erased From My Family History,"

a memoir by Lisa Giordano-Navarro.

Sorry, this could be a work thing.

On Christmas?

Ah, this is Tano.

It’s Sarah.

Hold on a second, I can't hear you.

Sarah?

Still me.

I am so glad you called.

You said we needed to talk.

Right, I just-

seeing you yesterday, seeing your daughter-

What do you want, Tano?

She looks like my mom.

Is she mine?

“Yours”?

She's a human being, not a possession.

You know what I mean. Am I the father?

“The” father? I don't know.

I do know that right now she's with her father,

the only one she's ever known.

Okay, but,

I need... Tano, we're good, and you're good.

I shouldn't have stopped yesterday,

but I saw you and I just-

No, Sarah, I am glad you stopped.

I, I just... Tano!

You need to keep living your life,

and we need to keep living ours.

Sarah!

Tano, please!

You owe me that.

Oh.

Oh.

All good?

Yeah, all good.

Hey, T, can you grab my phone, it's in my purse.

You're the best big brother ever.

Yeah, with zero competition in this generation.

'Cause Lisa's probably not as annoying as you.

Oh, no, no, no, Lisa was much more annoying, trust me.

What the fuck!

Darling, what's wrong?

Seriously?

What did you do?

Nothing, I was sitting right here.

Drink your water, the doctor said you can't get...

T! Tano, I...

Look, I didn't know, okay?

No one knows, she never had Ellie tested.

Ellie? She named her Ellie?

That's Mom's name.

No, it's not. I mean, it's close.

But she loved Mom, so-

Who loves their ex almost mother-in-law enough

to name a baby after her?!

So this whole time you've been in contact with her?

No, I, I mean, I was for like, like a year

after you broke up, but we were friends.

Yeah, but nothing, nothing until yesterday.

And you didn't tell me!

No, I promised her.

Her! I'm your brother!

Your loyalty is to me!

My loyalty? Who are you, Sonny Corleone?

This isn't a joke!

That girl could be my... Ellie could be my daughter.

I could'a been a father if you hadn't-

If I hadn't?

If you hadn't! You wouldn't marry Sarah, you cheated on her.

This is not on me, this is all you!

What's going on out here?

What's going on?

Ugh, just me. Being a lousy sister.

Oh good, so nothing new?

Nope.

♪ Aah, aah, aah ♪

♪ Aah ♪

♪ We spend our days ♪

♪ Filling the void, desperate to prove ourselves ♪

♪ So we can be happy ♪

♪ We spend our nights gripping the glass ♪

♪ Numbing away the pain ♪

♪ But where is the happy ♪

♪ I can see it ♪

♪ Like a light ♪

♪ You can almost reach it if you try a little harder ♪

♪ Happy ♪

♪ I'll give 'em a smile, they will believe I'm happy ♪

♪ Just like the rest, I'll be happy ♪

♪ I don't have to feel anything real, just happy ♪

♪ So happy ♪