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I remember it so clearly.

I was only 11.

Me and my cousin swam far into the ocean to jump from a cliff.

I felt the salty water in my mouth and I opened my eyes, still underwater.

And I saw the most mesmerizing thing I have ever seen.

A bloom of jellyfish.

All around us.

Peace surrounded by such a terrifying beauty.

Their mortal jellyfish is a special one.

When it feels threatened, it goes to settle on the sea floor.

It rests there for a while and is reborn, starting life again, then swims

back to the surface of the ocean.

Your father is still impatient to know if you're a girl or a boy.

But all these years, working at St. Matthew's, taught me that body and

mind are... are not always aligned.

You can create your own light, like a jellyfish.

All I want to do is to feel your chest and mind.

I haven't thought of a girl's name yet.

But if you are a boy, I want to call you.

Nick! Nick!

Nick!

Your father was the one who wanted to pick you up at a business trip together.

If only your mother could have seen the man that you've transformed into during

this process, she would be... So proud.

But you know, this is part of the journey.

I strongly urge you to come back and complete the six-month program.

For now, take the tablets twice a day or whenever you get the urge.

Oh, I nearly forgot.

Your father left this for you.

Send them a message when you get home, okay?

And remember, be a real man.

How was the time away from the little family?

Fine.

Fine.

He did the pierce for three months.

Should be fine.

Nico!

Did you miss the water?

Shit, mate, we need you back on the team. This one doesn't know how to fuck

it. Yeah,

okay. Guess my mouth's open now.

So, Nick, how was your time away with your dad's family?

No texts, nothing.

But it seemed like nothing happened.

So, when did that happen? So, guys, were you just ordering drinks, or what do you

think? Where were you?

For real.

Were you hiding?

Were you hiding? I'm a little bit hungry. Thinking maybe the cheeseburger,

a bit of bacon, a bit of whatever.

I've been like this my whole fucking life. I wasn't hiding.

And no, just girls.

Let's be honest, the proper term.

I know my parents didn't pick it well. They feel they don't have a daughter

anymore.

But I'm glad you found me back so we can have a real talk. Okay, guys, what's it

gonna be?

A burger?

Chips? What are we doing?

Huh? I'm sorry, I... I wasn't fucking mad at you.

I'm a poison.

Hi, would you like anything to drink? Three shots of tequila, please. I don't

drink tequila.

That's shit for me.

Okay, uh, can I have a beer, please?

Nick, drink.

Uh, just water.

Guys, can we find some kind of fucking middle ground here?

Right, you stop liking me, guys in general. You stop replying to my fucking

messages. Can you stop defending him?

And Nick, you wake the fuck up.

Mom, we're getting away with murder, not tonight.

Ah, Tatsu, come on, chill out. Chill? Yes.

Am I actually the only one here who's here?

Nick, I know you're probably still in pain, but you've gone.

What are you looking at?

Nick, have fun.

You okay?

Shit.

Jesus, I mean, you could have been fucking easy on him, huh? What a welcome

back.

What?

Your dad's orders, not mine.

He specifically said, don't leave him alone whilst I'm away.

Plus, look.

Hey, bro.

You want to watch a Jolly Fish movie, bro?

Good night.

I mean, we can watch something else if you want.

Good night.

Jesus.

Not even a hey.

I was expecting to see you again.

Am I not welcome anymore?

I miss those days at the aquarium.

We could just stay here for hours.

I don't have to pretend anymore.

If John sees you here... He won't.

Cute jacket.

happy for swimming practice.

There's something about last night I want to understand.

See you then, Nick.

I thought it was only one night.

What is he doing to you?

You look like you've seen a ghost.

Do you like him?

Him?

Yeah. So?

What's stopping you?

You.

Nick, I... I still love you.

You can't even touch me.

Even if I were a blind woman.

But you left me.

Everyone does.

But I'm back.

I'm here.

You're not back.

You're not love.

Even if I went blind I'd still have my hands to see you.

Of course I remember.

Promise this is the last time?

I was really hoping to see you yesterday.

I didn't want to mention this before.

I guess I wanted to talk about this in person.

But I saw you taking that jacket at the bar.

Please meet me before swimming practice today.

Why did you take the jacket?

Which jacket?

You're lying about the jacket. You're lying about your family. What else are

you lying about?

So you are... Is that why she... I guess I always knew.

I've never really done anything about it.

I mean, she was the first person I ever kissed.

Maybe you should keep this away from us.

Well, because you've been so honest, right?

So what, are you making love to the jacket now?

No.

No. No, I...

I don't know.

I just felt the urge to take it with me.

I tried to be honest with her that night.

She didn't take it very well. She ran away.

I really wanted this conversion therapy to work.

I wanted to be normal.

I owed it to her.

Three months of weird group sessions and watching

those fucked up videos and taking these stupid polls.

And he just looks at me like I'm worthy of it.

And I just wanted to kiss him.

In front of everyone, in front of you, and I couldn't. I really couldn't. Why

couldn't you, Nick?

I mean, it's not like you're the first gay in the group, right?

Gay, idiot.

It doesn't fucking matter. Come on.

Go. Let's cry more swimming, yeah?

Promise me you won't go back to that place.

There's no cure for that.

Have you ever been in love?

Yeah.

Just once, I think.

You?

Same.

Just once.

I think.

How was it?

The sweetest.

First serious relationship.

First one I brought home. First one sleeping in my bed.

And? What happened?

A lot.

Love makes you wonder.

Feel like you want to know it all.

Move in together.

Isn't it a bit soon for that, Nick? We practically live together already.

What? I'm serious about us.

I'm yours.

Jellyfish.

What's your darkest secret? What are you even saying?

You want me to move in with you, then I need to know everything about you.

What's your darkest secret?

And what if you don't like what I have to share?

No.

Don't be silly.

I'm yours.

Sounds quite intense.

And the more you know, the harder it is to let that person go.

It's like by knowing that one thing, you automatically become an accomplice.

You both share the crime.

And you have to live with it as if it was your own.

Well, it's getting late.

I should probably get going.

Their mortal jellyfish is a special one.

When it feels threatened or sick, it goes to settle on the sea floor.

It rests there for a while and is reborn, starting life again, and swims

back to the surface of the ocean.

Your father is still impatient to know if you're a girl or a boy.

But all these years working at St. Matthews taught me that body and mind

are... are not always aligned.

You can create your own light.

Like a jellyfish.

All I want to do is to feel your chest on mine.

I haven't thought of a girl's name yet.

But if you are a boy, I want to call you... Nicholas.