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Funerals are hard, but... Yeah, that was brutal.

Yeah.

You mean it?

Yeah.

Ready to go inside?

Yeah. I'll grab the box.

Yeah.

Beautiful, beautiful service, but, uh... So many people.

So much talking.

Oh, God.

I miss him.

I do.

Everybody, you know, keep... Kept asking, how are you?

And... What do you say?

I'm... I'm fine as we can be,

but... No.

That's it.

It's done.

Mm-hmm.

I think we should do that today.

I think it's important that we're together.

You know?

Absolutely.

I'm always going to be here for you.

But you're going to have to go.

You're going to do it?

Yeah, please.

Absolutely.

Yes.

That's not right.

I'm sorry.

It's okay.

You look just like him.

I'm sorry if that's hard for you. No, it's not.

It's hard, but it's comforting at the same time.

You're so proud of you.

I wanted to be just like him.

You were so much like him.

You know, he died a hero.

Yes, he did.

I just, I can't get my head around it.

I don't understand how they got him when he was so far away.

They ambushed him.

But not before he saved all those people.

Yeah.

That's who he was.

Yeah.

We don't make them like this anymore.

No, they don't.

So nice.

I think this is fit.

I think that's your thigh.

See the same sizes? Yeah.

He looked just like him.

I'll stay as long as you need me to, okay?

Okay.

Thank you.

Come on in.

I'm holding up.

How about you?

I'm just trying to keep my mind busy.

Yeah. Distract myself.

Just keep thinking about how I didn't live up to him.

You know, when he was my age, he was out fighting for our country.

Saving people's lives.

20 years old and I'm here working some bullshit job going to school for

whatever and I just can't help but think I Didn't live up to him

Well, I can assure you That he

never thought you were a disappointment or a failure and certainly now if he

could see you and how you Took a job of taking care of your stepmom

You've been there for me so many times that, like, how could I not?

How could I not be there for you?

But, I don't know.

It's just hard.

I know it's hard, but I know there was the initial disappointment that you

didn't choose the military life.

You know, I remember you guys arguing about that. But what you don't know is

that when he saw...

Your level of commitment to forging your own path is incredibly

proud of you.

You know?

Yeah. I know I'm just your stepmom, but I'm proud of you, too.

Thank you.

So, what's in the box?

This, uh... This is your dad's uniform.

I've been giving it some thought, and, uh... I think he would want you to have

it. I think you should have that.

Well... Are you sure?

I don't know if you meant to... I

think, um...

I think that...

It makes sense for you to have it because I think it can symbolize

something else to you, what it means to be a hero, you know?

And I think it's good luck for you.

And I think it'll fit you, actually.

You should try it on.

I don't know.

Wouldn't that be disrespectful to him?

Not at all. I think he'd want you to wear it and derive a different kind of

meaning out of it.

You know?

Yeah.

I don't know.

I don't think it's even going to fit.

I think it will.

We'll see.

All right.

Well, I'll go to the bathroom.

Oh, no, you don't need to do that.

You're my stepson.

We do.

Try it on.

Oh, all right.

Oh, I should start with, um, I should start with you.

Um, what do you like?

They're cute.

As shiny as I remember them.

These are the two.

See? We're the same size.

You look so much like him.

Need help with the buttons?

Hey, Mom, what are you doing?

I'm so sorry. You look exactly

like him.

I shouldn't. Oh, no, no, no, no. Please, please, please, please.

It's been so long.

I was with him for so long.

And then I didn't see him when he was deployed.

It's been months and months without him.

I just... I care so much, and the way he touched me, and...

You look so much like him. I just... I feel... I know, I know.

But I just... It just doesn't seem like it would be right.

Well, I think he would want us to look

out for each other.

Well, yeah.

Yeah. The way that we've always looked out for each other. I remember helping

you with your application for school and finding that apartment in

town. Thank you so much. Yeah.

You've done so much for me. Anything.

I would do anything for you. I would do anything for you, too.

Yeah, you would?

I really appreciate that.

And I know your father would appreciate that as well.

I don't know if he would be okay with it.

I think he would.

I just think that in the same way that, you know, I know that your father is

proud of you for thinking around and make sure that I'm okay.

He would.

Want us to seek comfort in each other, in each other's bodies and intimacy.

I want you to carry that on for him with me.

I would hate for you to feel uncomfortable.

No, no, no, no.

I just, I don't want to do anything we can't take back.

Well, it would just be this one time.

Just this one time.

And we don't even have to speak of it again.

Just to help you out.

Yeah.

You want it too, don't you?

I never thought I'd act on it. Yeah.

I think your father would want this for the both of us.

Yeah? Mm-hmm.

Okay, Mom.

I'll do it if you really need this.

I do.

Yeah? Yeah.

Thank you.

Thank you, Lord.

Thank you.

Amen.

Oh, yes.

Oh,

fuck.

Yeah, that's so good

Oh my goodness.

Thank you.

Yeah.

Did you call me love bug?

Your father called me love bug.

That would really help me.

Love bug?

Oh my god.

That's my love bug.

Yeah.

Is that how dad used to hold you? Yeah.

Yes.

Is that how you like your love bug?

Yeah.

Oh shit.

I know.

Oh, man.

Oh, my God.

Oh, fuck.

Oh, fuck. Oh, my God.

Oh, my God.

Oh, my God.

Oh, fuck.

Oh, fuck.

Oh,

fuck.

You are even more like your father than I had originally thought.