All language subtitles for The L Word Generation Q s01e08_English

Previously on
The L Word: Generation Q...

-Yay!
-I told you!

[Quiara]
I love seeing you like this.

-I'm in.
-[Sophie] You know who's mean?

-[Finley] Who?
-[Sophie] Dani.

She processes everything alone.

I mean, how do I get her
to open up to me?

Milner's team bought up
a ton of airtime.

I'm hearing that it's going to
be a negative attack campaign.

Your job is to help me
shape my message

and get it out
into the world.

There are a lot of voices
in the room.

So, I would like
to make some changes.

[Barry]
Quite frankly,

we don't know if there will be
a next season.

We need a viral video.

Are you ready to hear
your baby's heartbeat?

[whispers]
Oh, my God.

[Shane]
Today was really hard.

I didn't feel anything.

Aren't you scared
just a little bit?

No.

You were wondering if I could
get over the whole priest thing.

Well, I can, because
you're not a real priest.

[Rebecca]
You have deep wounds.

And I don't know
who hurt you,

but somebody did.

[Finley's dad]
I can't really talk right now.

I'm at your sister's
engagement party.

Faith's getting married?

[Grace]
Have you told that sweet boy

that you love him yet?
'Cause he loves you, too.

[moaning]

[Alice]
They were fucking, Shane!

Throuples
are complicated, Al.

I don't want to lose her.

[Nat]
You know, we've spent

the last few days, Gigi and I,

really getting
into our issues.

I'm so glad I could be there
to help push you guys

towards hashing out
your divorce.

-So, I'm gonna go.
-[Micah] What happened?

-[Sophie] Oh, my grandma fell.
-Come here. Come here.

I think you should have
been there for her today.

She really needed you.

She knows I'm fucking
tapped out right now.

I-I'm giving her
all I've got.

[Sophie] You're, like,
the best part of my day.

I love the shit out of you.

♪ dramatic music ♪

What are you
doing, buddy?

[whispers]
What are you doing?

♪♪♪

[sighs]

♪ "The Fool" by Overcoats ♪

♪♪♪

[newsman]
Tonight's the night,

and you can certainly feel
the excitement out here.

Bette Porter's campaign has had
quite a few bumps in the road,

but people have really responded
to her commitment

to address the opioid crisis
head-on.

Now, if Porter wins tonight,

she not only would be the first
woman elected to this office,

but also the first openly gay
mayor of the city.

It would truly be an
historic day for Los Angeles.

The polls are about to close,

and members of our team
will be here...

[Dani]
Okay, everyone. Here we go.

Polls are closed.

Make sure you're all on
the registrar's website.

We hit the doors in CD 11.

I know that we phoned our voters
this past weekend,

but how many did we pull
to vote?

I don't have
any hard numbers,

-but we're doing all we can.
-Well, I need numbers.

Go get me the numbers.

[sighs]

-You all good?
-Yeah.

All we can do is wait.

[man]
Good luck, Ms. Porter.

Thank you, everybody.
Thank you.

-[man] You got this.
-[woman] Good luck.

[announcer]
All right, ladies, gentlemen,

all you gender nonconforming
folks out there.

Are you ready to welcome

the guest of honor this evening?

-[crowd cheering]
-Your next mayor

of Los Angeles, Bette Porter!

[Gaby Moreno's
"Mess a Good Thing" playing]

♪ Baby ♪

♪ You won't be messing
a good thing... ♪

[man]
Good luck, Bette!

Hi, everyone.

♪ With the break of day ♪

Oh, my goodness.

♪ You're not like
them other men... ♪

Aw, this is so sweet. Hey.

Ah, Ms. Porter.

Recent polls are increasingly
in your favor.

Would you say that you're
taking this last-minute ascent

as a good sign?

Well, you and I both know
never to trust the polls.

Right, Maya?

But I have to say we are
cautiously optimistic.

But, come on.
I mean, off the record,

you have to admit
this is really exciting.

Well, I-I have to admit, um...

absolutely nothing.
[chuckles]

-[Shane] No.
-[Alice] Ugh,
we're looking for me.

What about her?

No.

I can't believe

I went from
the greatest girlfriend

to two girlfriends
to no girlfriends.

-What about her?
-No.

-No?
-No.

-Give her a chance!
-No. Please, trust me.

-Okay.
-No. Ah, what about her?
What about her?

-Oh, she's cute. Okay, okay.
-No, I like her, I like her.

♪ If we'd kept
our wildest dreams... ♪

What?

Every picture's
with a parakeet.

So what's wrong with a bird?

I don't know if
I'm ready for birds.

They're so chatty.

All right, all right,
all right, all right.

What?

Check out the woman at
your twelve o'clock.

-Really?
-Yeah.

Okay. All right, I'll be sly.

-That is your six.
-Oh.

I don't know clocks, okay?

-Everything's digital now.
-Hey, you guys.

-Hi.
-Angie's on her way.

I told her to find you two
when, when she gets here.

-Yeah, of course, of course.
-We got her.

-Okay.
-Hi.

Who is it?

Wait, what?

Are you okay?

-Um...
-Are you okay?

Yeah, yeah, yeah.
Um, I-I-I'll be back soon.

-I-I-I'll call you.
-Okay.

Are you already home?

[Alice] Hey, Bette.
What do you think of her?

[Bette]
Is that a parakeet?

-Yeah.
-Is that a thing?

Uh, they called
the 11th District for you.

Wait, what?

Are you-- a-are you sure?
I mean, we weren't

polling very well
on the Westside.

-And Milner was supposed
to have a...
-I'm sure. I'm sure of it.

The county registrar
just reported it.

[Alice]
Bette.

-[crowd cheering]
-Oh, my God.

Oh, my God.
[laughs]

-We can actually win this thing.
-Yeah, well,

that was the goal, right?

-Right.
-Yeah.

-[laughs]
-Hey.

-Hi.
-It's good to see you.

You, too. Congratulations
on the whole campaign.

Oh, thank you so much.
I mean, it's all her.

Hey, you're young,
let me ask you a question.

What do you think of her?

I dated her.
The birds were her whole thing.

Oh.

-♪ I got the juice ♪
-♪ The juice tonight ♪

♪ I'm the chaser,
don't need a mixer ♪

-♪ I got the juice ♪
-♪ The juice tonight ♪

♪ Baby, I'm the plug
and the filter ♪

-♪ I got the juice ♪
-♪ The juice tonight ♪

[newsman] We are outside
the Porter campaign's

official watch party,
where we are able to

confirm now that Bette Porter
has won the 11th District.

Once again, the 11th District
has been confirmed

of going to Bette Porter,

while Milner
takes the 2nd,

and this race is still
too close to call.

Stay tuned for
further results.

♪ Feeling like a stranger ♪

♪ I am afraid of it ♪

♪ When it's too hard ♪

♪ When I am in danger ♪

[sighs]

♪ The feelings get
much stranger... ♪

[Micah]
Soph.

[Sophie]
Hey.

-Hi. Oh...
-Hello, gorgeous.

Mwah.

Oh, I like this.

-Thank you.
-Look at you together.
-Guys, hi.

Hi, baby.

♪♪♪

Oh, I'm so glad
you're here.

-Yeah?
-Yes.

You look beautiful.

-Thank you.
-Yeah.

Well, this looks amazing.

-Wow. Yeah.
-Thank you. Thank you.

Except that I have
literally never been

this nervous
before in my life.

Like, I could
puke any second.

[laughs]

[Sophie]
Hey, hey, look at me.

-Hmm?
-I am so proud of you.

No matter what happens,
all right?

Thank you.

-[phone buzzing]
-Yeah.

This is cute.

Oh, fuck.

How did we
lose the 13th?

♪ Feeling like a stranger... ♪

Mm, that was nice
while it lasted.

You'll get her back in,
like, three hours.

Ooh, yeah, I'm not gonna
hold my breath.

Okay, please, can
we see a preview

before your opening
tomorrow night?

[José] No, you're
gonna have to wait

like everyone else.

It's a painting of me.

All right, doesn't that
entitle me to some

-advanced viewing? Right?
-No.

[Finley]
Hey.

I didn't know if
you guys wanted limes,

but, uh, I thought
they looked fancy.

-Thank you.
-Thank you.

Also, no straws
because the planet.

[inhales] Can I talk
to you for a second?

Y-- sure.

Everything okay?

-Never better.
-Oh, yeah.

♪ Men run round
like a bad thing comin' ♪

♪ Bad thing comin'... ♪

Excuse us.

-Hey, boss.
-Hey, boss.

-Hey-hey.
-Oh. Hey!

Hi.

♪ Take my pills
but I still get sicker ♪

♪ Still get sicker... ♪

So... what do you think?

You think she'll win?

-Mm-hmm.
-Yeah.

Yeah, me, too.

You know, I don't think I've
ever seen her lose anything.

Like, not even her keys.

Uh-huh.

Can I ask you something?

Oh.

Yeah. Yeah, sure.

What's up?

When did you lose
your virginity?

Mm. Mm-hmm.

Okay.

Um...

I haven't yet.

I know you're lying.
[snickers]

Okay, yeah.

I was, um...

I was, like, 37.

You know what?

-I'll just ask Shane.
I think that's perfect.
-No.

-No?
-No. No, I'll talk,
I'll talk, I'll talk.

Okay, uh, whew.

Well...

I was 17, and...

it was with this guy
who played my mom's son

in a movie of the week.

So that was a little... weird.

What's a "movie of the week"?

That was your takeaway?
From what I just said?

[Sophie]
I guess I just figured

that you'd, um...

yeah, that you'd never want
to talk about it.

Yeah. No, that's, like,
definitely my move for sure.

But...

I don't know, I can be kind
of a shit storm for people.

No. You're not
a shit storm.

No, I can be, and...

I just, like, don't...

really, really don't want
to do that to you.

And I know
you love Dani,

and...

I just, I promise that
none of whatever happened

is gonna mess any
of that up, okay?

Let's just, like, undo it.

Okay.

Just, like, a "select all,"
"delete" sort of situation.

I don't even know if
that's right. It's just...

-No, I...
-I'm not a big typer.

-[laughing] Okay.
-I'm just talking words at you.

-Totally get it.
-Okay.

Yeah.

-Okay.
-Yeah.

-So we're good.
-[scoffs]

Yeah, we're so good.

-Awesome.
-Yeah.

[laughs]

All right, I'm gonna
go, I don't know...

make drinks with limes.

-All right.
-I'll see you in there.

♪ gentle music ♪

[whispers]
Oh, fuck.

[siren wailing in distance]

[man speaking indistinctly
over P.A.]

-Hey. Hi. Are you okay?
-Hey.

-Did the bleeding stop?
-Not completely, but, um...

Okay, okay, okay.
How long have you been waiting?

Not that long.
They said it shouldn't be

any more than ten minutes.

Okay, hold on.
Hi. Hi. Excuse me.

Hi. Is there a reason you're
making my pregnant wife wait

-to see a doctor?
-Ma'am, there's a process
that we have.

-We have to go
in the order that--
-Look, no, I-I underst...

I understand your process,

but she's bleeding, so she
doesn't have time for that.

-Babe, no, seriously, it's not--
-Hold on, honey. I got this.

Did you hear what I said?

Yes. We will call you up
in just a moment,

but if you'll just please--

Lady, she's not gonna
fucking wait for a doctor,

so please go get one.

Hey. Okay.

-All right...
-I'm fine.

-It's okay.
-You sure?

All right, the doctor's,
I think...

-I think she's getting him.
-Okay.

I mean, it's just...
it's normal.

Is it?

Yeah. I-I hear women, you know,

they bleed early, and...
it's-it's just spotting.

-Okay.
-Okay? It's fine.

So, we've done well in the 5th.

If we get that, we just need
one more. The 3rd...

or the 14th.

Our numbers in the
5th are slipping.

Those negative ads
really hurt her.

-[sighs] I know.
-[newsman] Polls as recent

as yesterday have Jeff Milner
leading Porter

in all three
of the remaining districts.

Porter's only path to victory
is to win the 5th,

where she has struggled

since Milner's onslaught
of negative ads were released.

[sighs]
Okay, I know.

And Garcetti won the 14th with
68% of the vote last time...

which leaves us
with the 3rd.

-Maybe if we get the 3rd, we--
-Dani. Dani.

We won the 5th.

We won the 5th?
We won...

-[man] Oh, my God.
-[woman] Oh, my God.

Oh, my... oh, my God,
we won the 5th.

-We won... we won the 5th!
-[applause]

We won the... we won...
we won the 5th!

We won the 5th.

Bette,
we've won the 5th.

The 5th?
You're kidding.

Just one more.

One more.

[cheering]

[newsman] The celebration
for the Porter campaign

has proven to be short-lived.

Can you just give us
a few minutes, please?

[newsman]
The registrar is now ready

to call the 3rd District
for Jeff Milner.

That means, with only
one district remaining,

this race has proven closer
than anyone expected.

For both sides
it all comes down

-to the 14th District.
-Sorry, do,

do you, do you want a glass
of water or something?

-Oh, no, no, God, no.
-Okay.

Yeah.

[newsman 2]
The energy, I think,

on both sides
is shifting a bit.

It feels like both of the camps

are kind of holding
their breath

as the results continue
to roll very slowly in.

Come on, come on,
come on, come on, come on.

♪ suspenseful music ♪

[exhales]

♪♪♪

Come on.

-May I?
-Yeah. Go ahead.

[tapping rapidly]

-Let me just--
-Yeah.

[tapping]

Oh, fuck.

Shit.

[reporter 2]
Jeff Milner will be

-the next mayor of Los Angeles.
-[crowd murmuring]

Fuck.

I'm sorry, okay?

I-I, I did...

-everything that I could.
-[cries]

-I...
-[sniffles]

I'm so sorry.

♪ melancholy music ♪

[both sigh]

It's okay.
It's okay.

All right?

You did a great job.

Hmm.

You did a great job.

♪ "Blink Twice"
by Joy Oladokun ♪

I need to go talk to everybody.

Okay, I got to go find Angie.

♪ singers vocalizing ♪

♪ There's more to be said ♪

♪ In the silence ♪

♪ Fill in the blanks you left ♪

♪ There's way more quiet
in a siren ♪

-♪ I hear what's in your head ♪
-Okay.

[sniffles]

♪ And we've been coming
undone ♪

It's okay.

♪ Holding on to a thread ♪

♪ Learning to pick my battles ♪

♪ Or I'll be
the only one left ♪

-♪ I only know you're home... ♪
-[sniffles] It's okay.

Come on. It's okay.

[door opens]

[applause]

[Bette]
Thank you. Thank you, everyone.

I know you're
disappointed.

I'm disappointed, too.

[continues indistinctly]

♪ Avoiding all
the street signs... ♪

[Shane]
How you feeling?

♪ That lead me
back to your name ♪

Want some tea?

♪ We've been coming undone ♪

All right, well, I'll
make some, just in case.

♪ We broke the last thread ♪

♪ Learning to pick my battles ♪

♪ Or I'll be
the only one left ♪

[Quiara sobbing]

♪ I only know you're home
when the door speaks ♪

[crying]

♪ Blink twice
if you still love me ♪

[birds chirping]

[sighs]

[sighs]

Holy shit, you're still here.

Yeah.

-Can you believe it?
-Not really.

What are you gonna do today?

Nothing.
[laughs]

Oh, bullshit. You don't know
how to do nothing.

[chuckles]

Let's get married.

That's the plan.

No, I mean,
let's do it now.

Oh, what, 'cause you suddenly

-have time for me?
-No.

Because...

why not?

Well, you know...

I could think of a few reasons.

I'm serious.

You've always wanted
to go to Hawaii.

We should just
do it there.

[exhales]

-Really?
-Yes.

We-we can go tomorrow.

We can get on a plane
tomorrow, after your show.

I'll book the tickets right now.

Well, wh--
well, what about our families?

We'll have a big party
with them when we get back.

Um...

[laughs]

Come on.

This is just
for you and me.

So we can start our family
on our own terms.

I love you and-and...

I really think
we should do this.

I just want to be your wife.

Hmm?

Come on, come on.

[laughs softly]

My mom is gonna kill me.

[laughs]

Mmm.

She'll be fine.

[exclaims]

I'm gonna book the
tickets right now.

I'm so excited.

♪ upbeat, contemplative music ♪

♪♪♪

[sighs]

[exhales]

I remember when Tina miscarried.

Yeah.

I was thinking about that.

God, it was so painful.

-[Shane] Hey.
-Hey.

-[Bette] Is she okay?
-Yeah.

She'll be okay.
She has to, uh...

[clears throat]
...go back and get the D&C.

-Oh, no.
-Oh, God.

-Yeah.
-I'm so sorry.

Yeah.

How are you doing?

I'm fine.

No, I mean really.

[sighs]

How are you doing?

I don't know.

Listen.

Quiara is okay,

and that's the most
important thing.

-Yeah.
-Right?

Yep.

And... we're here
for you now.

Yeah, and if my show
gets canceled,

I'll be here
a lot more.

And since I'm homeless,

then I'll actually be here
more than...

-I realized a second ago.
-[Shane] Wow.

We're doing great.

How you doing?

I'm... I'm good, actually.

Milner called this morning.

-Really?
-Yep.

He wants me to spearhead
a task force

addressing the opioid crisis
in the city.

So, that feels good.

You're handling
this all really well.

Well, we went out
swinging.

I gave everything I had
to the campaign

and I found a way to be myself.

What more could anyone ask for?

[Shane]
Absolutely.

Yeah.

That's true.

-[indistinct chatter]
-[phone ringing]

♪ quiet, atmospheric music ♪

♪♪♪

Hey, Finley. Come here.

Um, can we get everyone in here?

Just for a minute.
Just kind of...

-Yeah. Yeah.
-Hi. Hi.

Hey, guys, uh,
Alice has something to say.

It feels
kind of important, so...

-All right, guys, come on.
-Good morning.

-Morning.
-I, uh, I couldn't sleep

last night,
and I probably should have,

because I've had a fuck sandwich
of a week and I'm exhausted.

Um... two of my best friends

suffered horrible losses
last night,

and i-it got me thinking.

Um...

You know, none of us know
how things are gonna turn out.

Maybe the best thing to do
is just...

stay true to who we are.

I have worked too hard, and...

[sighs]

I know it sounds ridiculous,
but I set out to change...

well, I don't know,

not change the world,
'cause that's...

but change
a few people's minds

about a couple
of things.

And if we can't

use this platform to do that,

then I don't think
I want to be here.

Sometimes we have to take
a risk, and-and I say

let's make the show
we want to make.

Well, make the show
I want to make.

We have to make the show
I want to make.

-[all laugh]
-So fuck the viral videos.

Fuck the network mandate.

♪ optimistic music ♪

Sophie.

I want Roxane Gay.

You got it, boss.

Great.

The downside

is, uh...

...we might not make it,
you know.

This might be our last show.

And if-if that's the case,
I am...

so sorry I failed you.

I'm so sorry.

I-I'm not gonna cry because
my eyelashes will come off.

-[all chuckle]
-But thank you for everything.

I would not have any of this
if it weren't for you.

You've all worked so hard.

Let's go down swinging.

-[woman] Yeah.
-[whooping]

[Drew] I love the enthusiasm.
Uh, if I could pipe in

for just one second,
uh, may-maybe we can find

-a-a compromise.
-[Alice] Drew.

No more.

If you can't get on board,
then get the fuck out of here.

[staff murmuring]

[Drew mutters]

So, so you're gonna, uh,
get Roxane, um...

-Roxane...
-Roxane Gay?

-Yeah.
-Yeah. Yeah.

Yeah, can I call her that?

-Oh, my God.
-Or...?

I didn't know
if that was a joke.

-Oh, my God. Oh, my God.
-[muttering]

[both laughing]

Oh, man.

[clears throat]

[Dani] So, I bought tickets
to Hawaii today.

Sophie's never been.

We head out tomorrow.

Which island?

-Oahu.
-Oh.

Well, you should go to Maui.

No, we're going to Oahu.

And we're getting married.

[scoffs]

-[sighs]
-Dad,

she's going to be my wife.

I need you to be okay with that.

Well, uh...

I don't understand why you think

she isn't good enough.

Our family had
to work very hard

to get what we have now.

She doesn't want your money.

It's not about that.
It's never been

-about that.
-Then what?

I taught you

-to have ambition and pride.
-Mm-hmm.

-Her family is--
-Is loving

and kind and supportive.

I don't want you
to take a step backward.

-I'm not.
-Listen.

When you are...

When you come from
a broken family like Sophie,

that's the only way
you know how to live.

She's not
from a broken family.

She doesn't
know stability,

and I'm afraid that
when things get hard,

she's gonna leave you,

because that-that's
what she knows.

Dad, she's so much better
than that.

She's not gonna leave me.

We love each other,
and we're good together.

I need you to be okay with that.

[sighs]

Okay.

Tough loss last night.

Yeah. It was.

What are you going to do next?

You know, I'm not sure.

Do you want your
old job back?

No, I don't need a job.

You sure?

We're moving ahead

with our corporate expansion
at Lincoln Heights Jail,

and there's plenty
of room for you.

And how is that possible?

I negotiated

the terms with Milner
months ago.

[scoffs]

So, so you bet against me?

No.

I don't see it that way.

Well, it is pretty fucked up.

Don't talk like that.
You know I don't like it.

Yes, I do, and that is
partly why I do it.

-Daniela--
-And as I adjust

to the idea that
I can't change you,

I invite you to do
the same for me.

It's gonna be a whole
new world for us, Pa.

♪ slow, melancholy music ♪

♪♪♪

Hey.

How you feeling? You
want something to eat?

What's all this?

Oh, that's just some stuff
our friends sent over, um...

I thought you wouldn't
want to see it.

Why would you think that?

[laughs airily]
I don't know. Um...

I'm still gonna have
a baby, Shane.

I'm gonna try again
as soon as I'm ready.

Yeah-- um... yeah.

I fucking knew it.

You knew what?

You were relieved.

I lost a baby,
and you were relieved.

No, no, no, no, no.

I was relieved
that you were okay.

That's bullshit.

What?

You win.
You get whatever you want.

Hold on a second.
That's not fair.

-None of this is
fucking fair, Shane.
-Hey, listen.

You knew I didn't want this, but
you showed up pregnant anyway.

So what was I supposed to do?

You could have been honest
from the beginning.

I was honest with you.

Well, then why did you agree
to this?

Because I love you.

And I agreed
to do this

so I could be with you.

Do you want to be
with me now?

Yeah.

So you're saying you would like
to try again, too?

I'm-I'm saying...

[clears throat]

...that, uh...

I want to be realistic

and to... and to plan.

-That's-that's what I thought.
-What?

You're never
gonna change, Shane.

Wait, w-w-w-wait.

Hold on. I'm sorry.
What is...?

No one is ever going
to love you

because you're incapable
of loving anyone

but your fucking self.

♪ slow, dramatic music ♪

♪♪♪

Remember this?

I never got rid of it.

[clinking]

♪♪♪

[door opens]

[door closes]

[sniffles]

[door opens]

-Yeah.
-[Dani] I got the door.

You know, all of this
is just gonna sit

in my garage until...

Yeah, I don't even know

what the end of that
sentence could possibly be.

[both sigh]

Well, you never know.

Angie might think
it's cool one day.

Doubtful.

So, what's next for you?

Uh, Sophie and I are
actually going to Hawaii.

Yeah, we're gonna go get married
out there, just-just us.

Congratulations.

-Thank you.
-Yeah.

Well, when you come back,

I hope you'll consider

joining me in the
Milner administration.

He's asked me to
spearhead a task force

-addressing the opioid crisis.
-[sighs]

Bette.

It's a setup.

[sighs]
What do you mean?

I had lunch with my dad.

[clears throat]

And, um...

he's been supporting Milner
this whole time.

His connection
to Big Pharma runs deep.

♪ slow, suspenseful music ♪

Milner's using you.

He just wants it to look
like he gives a shit.

♪♪♪

I'm sorry.

[quietly]
Was it worth it?

Was any of it
fucking worth it?

[sighs]

Yes.

Yes, I think it was.

I don't know anymore.

[exhales]

[indistinct,
overlapping chatter]

[woman]
Good night, Sophie.

Hey. Good night.

Uh, I'll see you
tomorrow, yeah?

-[man] Have a good night.
-Bye.

-[clears throat]
-[Finley sighs]

-Hey.
-Hey. Um...

I'm-I'm on my way home.

-Do you want a ride?
-Yeah.

That'd be awesome. Um,
do you mind if I just drop this

in the greenroom really quick?
I'll be a second.

Oh, yeah, go ahead.

Okay. Sweet.

Hey, can we stop
by Jeni's Ice Cream?

I want one
of their salted cones.

We're getting married.

Me and Dani, uh, in Hawaii.

We leave tomorrow.

Oh.

Dude, that's-that's so cool.

You, uh... you've always
wanted to go to Hawaii.

Yeah.

Yeah, and now I get to go
there and get married.

To Dani tomorrow.

Yeah, I hear you.

That's... that's awesome.

You can have one of your little
coconut drinkie-drinks.

All right,
how do you really feel?

[laughing]
I don't...

I don't... know how I feel.

Okay, well,
does it feel

calm inside of your body
right now?

Like... like everything's
exactly how it's supposed to be?

You are, like,
the world's worst Catholic.

What? How?

Don't you know how
to, like, shove it down?

Just, like, way down

and never talk about it?

Oh, my God. Is that
what you're doing?

Of course that's what I'm doing.
That's what everybody does.

That's how you survive
in the world.

-Really?
-Yes.

You know what?

I cannot fucking stand you.

I know. I know.

'Cause I'm ridiculous.

No, no, no, you're...

[sighs]

You're not.

Don't look at me like that.

You're getting married

in Hawaii, and
you leave tomorrow.

Yeah.

Shove it down.

[laughing]
Shove it way down.

Yeah, but I don't want to.

[sighs]

What do you want?

♪ Feels ♪

♪ Like I'm waiting... ♪

[sighs]

I can feel your heart.

Your heart is racing.

I know.

It's a good race.

♪ Dreams ♪

♪ Where I'm fading ♪

Oh, you smell so good.

♪ Fading ♪

♪ So free ♪

♪ My mind ♪

♪ All the talking ♪

♪ Wasting all your time ♪

♪ I've given all ♪

♪ I've got ♪

[sighs]

It's just me.

♪ If you want me... ♪

[laughing]

Oh, okay.

You're laughing at me.

-I'm not.
-Pulled my pants off, and

-you're laughing at me.
-I'm just having a great time.

[laughing]
I swear.

Then why are you laughing?

♪ If you want me ♪

-[both giggling]
-♪ If you need me ♪

♪ I'm yours... ♪

Look at these ashy-ass legs.

[Finley laughs]

-Fuck off.
-Oh.

♪ Free my mind ♪

♪ My mind... ♪

Help me here.

It's a lot, this.

♪ Wasting all your time ♪

-Okay.
-♪ Wasting all your ♪

-♪ I've given ♪
-♪ Given ♪

-♪ All ♪
-♪ All ♪

♪ I've got ♪

♪ If you want me... ♪

It's okay.

This feels too good.

[moans]

[sighs]

♪ If you want me ♪

♪ If you need me ♪

♪ I'm yours ♪

[both moaning]

♪ If you want me ♪

♪ If you need me ♪

[both moaning]

♪ I'm yours ♪

[The S.L.P.'s "Nobody Else"
playing]

[singer vocalizing]

[indistinct chatter]

This, this is amazing.

Are you ready
to see yours?

Yeah.

I feel like the eroticism in my
work has never been this overt.

It's always been a thread in the
conversation I wanted to create,

or something.

Sorry. I'm talking a lot
because I'm very nervous.

Don't be.

I don't know
anything about art,

and I am so proud of you.

There you are.

♪ Some days I wake up
and I realize... ♪

Wow.

It's beautiful.

It's you.

♪ All my life been running ♪

♪ Running away
from something... ♪

Is it?

Yeah.

It's how I see you.

♪ I just wanna get back
to shore ♪

♪ Just want to get
my life on track ♪

♪ Give up myself a little ♪

[singer vocalizing]

♪ Some days I wake up
and I feel light... ♪

I love you.

[snorts]

I love you, too.
[laughs]

♪ Some days I wake up
and I realize ♪

♪ Some days I wake up
and I know I'll be all right ♪

♪ Some days I wake up
and I know I'll be... ♪

[sighs heavily]

♪ quiet, gentle music ♪

[sighs heavily]

[shuddering]

[crying quietly]

[sniffling]

-Hey, baby.
-[sighs]

Hey.

[sighs]

You scared
about tomorrow?

-Mm.
-It's gonna be incredible.

I'm gonna treat you
so good.

You deserve all of it.

I'm still learning.

But I'll always
be here for you.

[sniffles]

No matter what.

[whispers]
Always.

Always.

[sniffles]

[sighs]

[exhales]

Nope.

-Hi.
-Oh, my God.

Um, hey, hi.
What are you...

-doing here?
-I'm... I'm sorry. I...

I, like, really messed up.

I-I slept with Sophie,

and I just...

Finley, you can't show up

at my house like this.

I can't be this...

person for you.

I know. I know that.

I... I just, I'm sorry.

You said I was a good person,

and I'm so clearly
not that.

I, like, I think
I really hurt her, and...

it made me sort of,
like, realize

that I really hurt you,
too, and I'm just...

I am so, so sorry.

Um... yeah, that's it.

I'm gonna fuck off

and get the fuck
out of L.A.

Wait. Um...

Hey. Thank you.

That really meant
a lot to me.

And you are
a good person.

Good people
make mistakes.

Was it...

was it a mistake?

[exhales]

It doesn't matter.
She's getting married,

and I might have, like,
really fucked it up for her,

-and she does not deserve that.
-What about you?

What do you deserve?

Uh...

not you.
[sighs]

Not her. You guys are both,
like, way better than me.

See, that? That's shame.

You have to a-address that.

-How the fuck do you do that?
-I don't know.

It's not a
cut-and-dry thing.

It is a lifelong journey...

of cultivating...

self-worth, self-love.

Love? I don't even like
myself right now,

like, at all.

And I just need... I need
something, like, concrete.

I need... I need some help here.

Okay.

Anything.

It feels really good sometimes
to take responsibility

for the mistakes
that you've made.

And... you're actually
already doing it.

-Okay.
-Just little things.

Just start small.

-Little baby steps.
-[chuckles softly]

I got it.

Thank you.

Um, and I'm sorry
for showing up like this.

And...

you are a real priest.

Thank you.

[both laugh]

You know I'm a minister,
though, right?

Mm. Mm-hmm.

Ha! And I totally know
the difference

between those two things.

Um...

I'm gonna go, because...

I have a person inside.

Yeah, course.
Um, I'm-I'm-I'm...

sorry.

Thank you.

[softly]
Okay.

Hey, do you have, like,

a-a piece of paper?

And maybe, like, a pen?

I know.

-[groans]
-[laughs] I know.

God. Yeah, wait here.

I know.

[indistinct chatter]

[Tru's "Don't Worry" playing]

His work has...

has changed significantly,
don't you think?

-Um, yeah. I've heard.
-Mm-hmm.

-You must be a new fan.
-Yes.

I-I... Yeah.

Have we met?

Maybe.

You a friend of José's?

[chuckles]
Yeah. Yeah.

Um... I'm Micah.

Scott.

I'm José's husband.

♪ Where are we? ♪

-[man] Hey, Scott.
-[Scott] Hey.

-♪ What the hell ♪
-Hi.

♪ Is going on? ♪

♪ Hide ♪

♪ And seek ♪

♪ Ransom notes
keep falling out your mouth ♪

♪ Mid-sweet talk ♪

♪ Newspaper word cutouts ♪

♪ Speak no feeling ♪

♪ No, I don't believe ♪

♪ You don't care a bit ♪

♪ You don't care a little bit ♪

♪ And ransom notes
keep falling out your mouth ♪

♪ Mid-sweet talk ♪

♪ Newspaper word cutouts ♪

♪ Speak no fear,
no, I don't believe ♪

♪ You don't care a bit ♪

♪ You don't care a little bit ♪

-♪ And ransom notes keep ♪
-Fuck.

♪ Falling out your mouth ♪

♪ Mid-sweet talk ♪

♪ Newspaper word cutouts ♪

♪ Speak no fear,
no, I don't believe ♪

♪ You don't care a bit ♪

♪ You don't care a little bit ♪

♪♪♪

Hey.

Mom?

Okay.

Mom?

Mom.

Okay.

Mom.

Hey.

-Mom?
-Hmm?

What's wrong?

Mom, what's wrong?

I'm just tired.

[softly]
Okay.

Do you want coffee?

Something to eat?

No, I just need to rest.

We could watch TV.

Not now, sweetheart.

I knew that it
would hit you eventually.

It's okay.

You know?

To be sad.

But maybe you should
come with me.

Can you get dressed?

I'll, I'll get your shoes and
I'll meet you at the front door.

Okay?

♪ optimistic music ♪

♪♪♪

[Angie]
Do you recognize this place?

Of course.

Yeah, we spread some
of Auntie Kit's ashes here.

I haven't been
up here since then.

I come up here
with Jordi a lot.

You do?

Well, yeah, sometimes.
Just whenever I'm sad about...

Aunt Kit or...

Mama T

or...

Are you sad about
her getting married?

Yeah.

I guess a tiny part of me
always hoped

that... you two
would get back together.

-I know it sounds stupid,
but I did...
-No, no, no, no, it's not...

it's not stupid.

I'm really sorry that...
that you saw me like that.

It's okay.

You never let yourself be sad.

-What do you mean?
-Well, Mom left

and then Aunt Kit died,

and...

like, I see you. You just...

What?

You just kept going.

I think...

I think that I felt that if I...

[exhales deeply]

...if I truly let myself grieve,

then that would mean...

saying a final goodbye,

and I wasn't ready to do that.

I guess I just try
to outrun my feelings.

Did I ever tell you that I...

one time I went
on a silent retreat?

No. How did that go?

How do you
think it went?

-Not good.
-No.

-No?
-No, not well.

-Not well at all.
-[laughs]

But, but I did learn,

um, one thing that helped.

What was that?

-Uh...
-[laughs] What?

Do you want to scream with me?

Yeah, scream.
I said scream.

-Yeah.
-Yeah? Okay, but you
really have to do it.

Like, you have to fully
do it for it to work.

You-you have
to commit to it.

-Can you do that?
-Yep.

Okay.

-Ready?
-Yeah, I'm ready.

One...

-Two... three.
-two... three.

[both screaming]

♪ "Wild Wild Woman"
by Your Smith ♪

[panting]

-[chuckles]
-Do you want to do it again?

-Oh, God, yeah.
-Okay. One,

two, three.

[both screaming]

♪ Ooh ♪

♪ She's a wild, wild woman ♪

-[Angie] Oh, my...
-[Bette laughing]

♪ She's a wild, wild woman ♪

-How you guys feeling?
-[cheering]

Yes! That is what

I like to hear.
We're feeling good.

We're ready for the show.

I'm feeling good.

-I got a new car...
-Hey.

-Hey.
-Do you need anything else?

Thanks, Tammy. Um, no.

-Thank you for everything.
-Oh, of course.

-Thank you.
-You're gonna kill it.

-Okay. Big show.
-They love you.

-Okay.
-Eye of the tiger. You got it.

-Hey.
-Hey.

Um, look, I'm-I'm sorry,

-but I--
-I-I'm going home.

[laughs]
Oh, um, okay.

Uh, no, like, home home.

To Missouri.

[Heather]
Reliable car...

Oh.

Okay.

-Um...
-Yeah, I'm gonna duck out now

'cause my flight's tonight.

Wow. Um...
[clears throat]

Okay, well, are you...

leaving because of me?

Because of...

us, what happened?

Uh, no.

No, uh, it's
my sister's wedding, so...

-Oh.
-I'm gonna go be there for her.

Okay.

[smacks lips]

[Heather]
The doors don't function.

You're coming back, right?

Yeah.
[chuckles softly]

I mean...

Yeah.

[sighs]

Um...

I'll catch you on
the flip side, bud.

♪ somber music ♪

♪♪♪

[sighs]

[audience laughs]

You ready?

[Heather]
Rule number one: put yourself

out there.

[sniffles]

-Yeah, I'm ready.
-Are you ready

for the show?

[cheering and applause]

We got Alice and Roxane Gay

coming right at you.

[Bette]
Are you and Jordi having sex?

-Mom.
-I--

We literally
just started dating.

Okay, I know that you
don't want to talk to me

-about this, but--
-No, I really don't.

I just asked Alice
one question.

It does not mean
that I'm doing anything.

Oh, well, look, I'm
not gonna tell you

that you're too
young or you're...

or you're not ready or...

-anything like that.
-That's good. That's great.

Yeah, 'cause that
would be pointless.

-Mm-hmm.
-Right, but I-I will say

that sex is supposed
to feel good.

-Oh, my God, Mom. Mom.
-Yeah, for both of you.

-Okay, okay.
-Yeah, so...

-Got it.
-And if you're scared

or you're feeling pressured,
it's just...

-it's not gonna feel good.
-Okay. Okay.

Can this be over now?
[laughs] I really don't...

Uh, sure. I mean,
it's the preamble,

-but, yeah, sure.
-Okay, cool. Oh, my God!

Look at that dog. Hi!

-Is this your dog?
-Yeah.

-Hi. Hi, sweetie.
-Her name's Lynn. Oh!

-My God, Bette. Hey.
-Oh!

Hey, Maya. Nice to see you
out in the real world.

You, too.

I... Look, I know I'm
supposed to be impartial,

but I was really
pulling for you.

Oh, well, thank you.

Means a lot.

Well, have a great hike.

Thanks. Um,

do you want
to grab dinner sometime?

Uh, I'm not really doing
any press right now,

-but thanks.
-Oh. No, no, no.

I-I meant off the...
off the clock.

Oh, uh...

-Uh--
-You know what?

Just think about it.

-You've got my number.
-All right.

-Nice to meet you.
-[Angie] You, too.

All right.

Well, she's pretty.
[laughs]

-Stop it. Don't.
-Just saying, that's...

-Stop it.
-This is exciting!

-[both laugh]
-Why is it exciting?

-Nothing happened.
-You just found

-the love of your life.
-[laughs] No, that's not true.

I see sparks in the air.

-[cheering]
-[Alice] And we're back

with Roxane Gay.

I've always been obsessed
with your idea of bad feminism.

You know, like,
I really identify with that.

You know, I hear that
from women a lot,

and I think it's because,
for a lot of us,

we have this idea of
what a feminist is

as angry and man-hating
and hairy, which...

There's nothing wrong
with any of that,

but, you know, there has
to be space in feminism

for us to be human and flawed

but also to really care about
the state of women in the world.

-Yeah.
-[applause]

-[whooping]
-[Roxane] Thank you.

Can you be a bad queer?

Oh, absolutely.

Historically, in
the queer community,

we've tried to resist
heteronormative ideas.

-Mm-hmm.
-And, so, these days,

to be a bad queer

is probably to want
a wife and two kids

and a picket fence.

I think I might be a bad queer.

-Oh, really? How so?
-Well,

I've been in a relationship
with a really wonderful woman

-for about two years.
-Mm-hmm.

And we were really happy,

and not too long ago,
we introduced a third person

-into our couple.
-[audience murmuring]

Like, a poly situation?

With her ex-wife.

Wow.

[chuckles]
That's certainly

an original way of
getting into polyamory.

I wouldn't recommend it.

-You think?
-[laughter]

[Alice]
But that is

the queerest thing
I could ever do,

-right?
-Oh, absolutely.

On a scale of one
to "what the fuck,"

-that's way out there.
-Right? Right.

'Cause I thought
I was this cool,

open, you know,
understanding queer lady

who wanted to live outside
of every box, and...

I'm not.

I-I'm just, uh...

I'm heartbroken.

[Roxane]
Yeah, that's understandable.

[Alice]
Because I just want Nat.

-You know, just Nat.
-[Nat] I'm here.

-What?
-[Nat] Hi.

What's happening?

[Nat]
Sorry. Um, I'm here.

It's... Excuse me.

[chuckles]
It's me. Uh...

Um...

-Can we cut?
-Yeah, of course.

-This, this isn't the show,
so...
-No. Keep rolling.

We need this.

[Nat] I was gonna wait
for you in your office,

but then I heard what
you were saying, and I just...

I-I'm in the middle of a show.

Sorry. Um, can I...

-Can I go up there?
-[Alice] No.

-Yeah? Okay.
-No.

-No.
-All right.

-Oh, okay?
-Absolutely. Yes.

-[cheering]
-I don't know. I just...

Hi. Hi.

-Hi. I'm a huge fan.
-Hi.

-Sorry. Just...
-Thank you.

-No, go ahead.
-I didn't...

-[laughs] Okay.
-[laughter]

-Um...
-What's happening?

-[cheering]
-Oh.

No. No, I'm not proposing.

I'm just trying
to get closer to her.

Yeah, I don't do marriage.

-Okay.
-[laughter]

I want you, too.

I lost a marriage

because I was afraid to fight
for what I wanted,

and I'm not gonna make
the same mistake twice.

I love you.

I am in love with you.

And I feel like
my complete and total self

when I'm with you.

And you make me laugh.

Even when I'm mad,

which is so fucking annoying.
[laughs]

-[laughter]
-But it makes me

love you even more.

And your maternal instincts
are a little off, but...

-Well, I'm-I'm--
-Well, I know.

And you wake up
every morning

and you burn the shit
out of their eggs,

-and I love that.
-[laughter]

They're deceivingly
hard to make.

-[laughter]
-Not really. They're very easy.

[chuckles]

Love, you tried

to make it work with my ex-wife

because you thought
it would make me happy.

-I did.
-Yeah.

-I really did that.
-[laughs] I know.

I mean, she's the fucking best.

-I'm pretty great.
-[laughs] Yeah,

you are.

I love you.

I'm gonna fight for you.

Okay?

♪ wistful music ♪

Just me?

Yes. Just you.

[cheering and applause]

♪ La da da da da,
la da da da da ♪

♪ Da da da ♪

♪ La da da da da ♪

-♪ La da da da da... ♪
-[knocking on door]

[José]
Micah, please open the door.

Micah, I'm sorry.

It's not what you think.

I just want to talk to you.

Please open the door.

[knocking]

♪ We are rockets ♪

♪ Pointed up at the stars ♪

♪ We are billions ♪

♪ Of beautiful hearts ♪

[clanking]

♪ And you sold us ♪

♪ Down the river too far ♪

[sniffing]

[whines]

♪ What about us? ♪

Stevenson. Party of two.

-Maya?
-Yes.

Your party's at the bar.

♪ What about us? ♪

♪ What about all the broken
happy ever afters? ♪

♪ What about us? ♪

♪ What about all the plans
that ended in disaster? ♪

♪ What about love? ♪

♪ What about trust? ♪

♪ What about us? ♪

♪ We are problems ♪

♪ That want to be solved... ♪

Boarding pass.

Thank you.

♪ Need to be loved ♪

Boarding pass.

♪ We were willin' ♪

♪ We came when you called... ♪

[whines]

[barks weakly]

Hi.

How you doing?

♪ Enough is enough ♪

♪ Oh ♪

♪ What about us? ♪

♪ What about all the times
you said you had the answers? ♪

♪ What about us? ♪

♪ What about all the broken
happy ever afters? ♪

♪ Oh ♪

♪ What about us? ♪

♪ What about all the plans
that ended in disaster? ♪

♪ Oh, what about love? ♪

♪ What about trust? ♪

♪ What about us? ♪

♪♪♪

[gate attendant]
We will now begin boarding

Flight 1256 to Honolulu,

starting with
boarding group one.

♪ Oh ♪

♪ What about us? ♪

♪ What about all the plans
that ended in disaster? ♪

♪ What about love? ♪

♪ What about trust? ♪

♪ What about us? ♪

[gate attendant 2] Group A,
we welcome you to board

our nonstop flight
to Kansas City.

♪ But then I'll be ready ♪

♪ Are you ready? ♪

♪ It's the start of us,
waking up ♪

♪ Come on ♪

♪ Are you ready? ♪

♪ I'll be ready ♪

♪ I don't want control,
I want to let go... ♪

[gate attendant]
This is the final boarding call

for Flight 1256 to Honolulu.

Final boarding call
for Flight 1256 to Honolulu.

Boarding all passengers.

♪ We are ready ♪

♪ What about ♪

♪ What about us? ♪

♪ What about all the times
you said you had the answers? ♪

♪ So what about us? ♪

♪ What about all the broken
happy ever afters? ♪

♪ Oh ♪

♪ What about us? ♪

♪ What about
us? ♪

♪ What about us? ♪

♪♪♪

♪ Let them know ♪

♪♪♪

♪ What about ♪

♪ What about us? ♪