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Hi.

Hi.

Hi. >> Hi.

>> Hi.

>> Hi. >> Hello.

>> Hello.

>> Hello. >> Hi.

>> Hi.

>> Hi. >> How you How you doing?

>> How you How you doing?

>> How you How you doing? >> Yeah, not bad. How was the How was the

>> Yeah, not bad. How was the How was the

>> Yeah, not bad. How was the How was the drive in? You get here? Okay. It's hard

drive in? You get here? Okay. It's hard

drive in? You get here? Okay. It's hard to find on the country road.

to find on the country road.

to find on the country road. >> It was cold and it was dark.

>> It was cold and it was dark.

>> It was cold and it was dark. >> It was cold and it was dark. Oh, I have

>> It was cold and it was dark. Oh, I have

>> It was cold and it was dark. Oh, I have a fire on. It's going to be hot um

a fire on. It's going to be hot um

a fire on. It's going to be hot um anytime soon.

anytime soon.

anytime soon. >> Do you want me to take your bag? Um

>> Do you want me to take your bag? Um

>> Do you want me to take your bag? Um >> Sure.

>> Sure.

>> Sure. >> Your room our the room's just upstairs.

>> Your room our the room's just upstairs.

>> Your room our the room's just upstairs. It should be fine. Um it's just warming

It should be fine. Um it's just warming

It should be fine. Um it's just warming up. Like I said, it'll be fine.

up. Like I said, it'll be fine.

up. Like I said, it'll be fine. >> Have you got anything to drink?

>> Have you got anything to drink?

>> Have you got anything to drink? >> Yes. Yes. Um there's some wine through

>> Yes. Yes. Um there's some wine through

>> Yes. Yes. Um there's some wine through in the kitchen.

in the kitchen.

in the kitchen. It's

It's

It's Okay, just yeah, just going through.

Okay, just yeah, just going through.

Okay, just yeah, just going through. There's glasses in the in the up on the

There's glasses in the in the up on the

There's glasses in the in the up on the right. Um,

right. Um,

right. Um, >> snazzy.

>> snazzy.

>> snazzy. >> Uh, pick your pick your glass.

>> Uh, pick your pick your glass.

>> Uh, pick your pick your glass. >> And um, is is um is red. Okay.

>> And um, is is um is red. Okay.

>> And um, is is um is red. Okay. >> Yeah. Classy.

>> Yeah. Classy.

>> Yeah. Classy. >> Oh, just enough for me. You can have

>> Oh, just enough for me. You can have

>> Oh, just enough for me. You can have one, but I'm

one, but I'm

one, but I'm >> Oh, come on. You got to join me for a

>> Oh, come on. You got to join me for a

>> Oh, come on. You got to join me for a drink.

drink.

drink. >> No, it's a bit

>> No, it's a bit

>> No, it's a bit >> It's never fun to drink on your own.

>> It's never fun to drink on your own.

>> It's never fun to drink on your own. >> Okay. Yeah, just a a small one. A small

>> Okay. Yeah, just a a small one. A small

>> Okay. Yeah, just a a small one. A small one, please.

Mike.

Mike.

Mike. >> Uh, thank you.

>> Uh, thank you.

>> Uh, thank you. Here's to here's to a a lovely weekend.

Here's to here's to a a lovely weekend.

Here's to here's to a a lovely weekend. >> Yeah. A second.

>> Yeah. A second.

>> Yeah. A second. >> Okay.

>> Okay.

>> Okay. >> I need some heat.

>> I need some heat.

>> I need some heat. >> You need some heat. Okay. Um, living

>> You need some heat. Okay. Um, living

>> You need some heat. Okay. Um, living room should be okay now. Uh, just leave

room should be okay now. Uh, just leave

room should be okay now. Uh, just leave it back there. We'll get it um in a

it back there. We'll get it um in a

it back there. We'll get it um in a second and we'll bring upstairs. Do you

second and we'll bring upstairs. Do you

second and we'll bring upstairs. Do you want to go through and make yourself

want to go through and make yourself

want to go through and make yourself comfortable?

comfortable?

comfortable? >> Ooh.

>> Ooh.

>> Ooh. >> Yeah. It's It's gorgeous, isn't it?

>> Yeah. It's It's gorgeous, isn't it?

>> Yeah. It's It's gorgeous, isn't it? >> It's amazing.

>> It's amazing.

>> It's amazing. >> So, I'm I'm I'm really glad you came.

>> So, I'm I'm I'm really glad you came.

>> So, I'm I'm I'm really glad you came. >> It's all right.

>> It's all right.

>> It's all right. >> Like, there was a moment when I was

>> Like, there was a moment when I was

>> Like, there was a moment when I was like, "Is he going to turn up?" And, "Oh

like, "Is he going to turn up?" And, "Oh

like, "Is he going to turn up?" And, "Oh my god, we're doing this." Oh, you know

my god, we're doing this." Oh, you know

my god, we're doing this." Oh, you know what I mean? Did you Did you have

what I mean? Did you Did you have

what I mean? Did you Did you have something like that?

something like that?

something like that? >> You've never done anything like this

>> You've never done anything like this

>> You've never done anything like this before, have you?

before, have you?

before, have you? >> Well, read. Um, no. No. I haven't. Have

>> Well, read. Um, no. No. I haven't. Have

>> Well, read. Um, no. No. I haven't. Have you?

you?

you? >> Not really.

>> Not really.

>> Not really. >> Not really. Like, not really. Never. Or

>> Not really. Like, not really. Never. Or

>> Not really. Like, not really. Never. Or not really.

not really.

not really. >> Well, I've been on a date before.

>> Well, I've been on a date before.

>> Well, I've been on a date before. >> Yeah. But a cottage in the countryside

>> Yeah. But a cottage in the countryside

>> Yeah. But a cottage in the countryside for a weekend. Um, something like that.

for a weekend. Um, something like that.

for a weekend. Um, something like that. >> That's maybe a first.

>> That's maybe a first.

>> That's maybe a first. >> Glad I can be your first.

So,

um I'm just going to get this out of the

um I'm just going to get this out of the

um I'm just going to get this out of the way like really quickly because I've

way like really quickly because I've

way like really quickly because I've been thinking I've been running over in

been thinking I've been running over in

been thinking I've been running over in my head again and again. Um why um why

my head again and again. Um why um why

my head again and again. Um why um why me? Like why this with me?

me? Like why this with me?

me? Like why this with me? >> Why does anyone meet anyone? We're

>> Why does anyone meet anyone? We're

>> Why does anyone meet anyone? We're talking on the phone and we're getting

talking on the phone and we're getting

talking on the phone and we're getting on.

on.

on. Yeah.

Yeah.

Yeah. >> Yeah. Yeah. I I know. I know. But I

>> Yeah. Yeah. I I know. I know. But I

>> Yeah. Yeah. I I know. I know. But I mean, you must have like you must have

mean, you must have like you must have

mean, you must have like you must have pick of the litter really. You know,

pick of the litter really. You know,

pick of the litter really. You know, loads of guys.

loads of guys.

loads of guys. >> So,

>> So,

>> So, um, you know what I mean?

um, you know what I mean?

um, you know what I mean? >> Not as many as you might think.

>> Not as many as you might think.

>> Not as many as you might think. >> Okay. Well,

>> Okay. Well,

>> Okay. Well, >> you're too kind.

>> you're too kind.

>> you're too kind. >> Modesty added to the checklist as well

>> Modesty added to the checklist as well

>> Modesty added to the checklist as well then.

then.

then. >> That's me.

>> That's me.

>> That's me. >> But, I mean,

>> But, I mean,

>> But, I mean, as far as the checklist goes, you you

as far as the checklist goes, you you

as far as the checklist goes, you you look so much better than you do on the

look so much better than you do on the

look so much better than you do on the screen. Can I just say that?

screen. Can I just say that?

screen. Can I just say that? I have a good makeup artist.

I have a good makeup artist.

I have a good makeup artist. >> Can I borrow her number? His number?

>> Can I borrow her number? His number?

>> Can I borrow her number? His number? >> You don't need to.

>> You don't need to.

>> You don't need to. >> I don't need to.

>> I don't need to.

>> I don't need to. >> No.

>> No.

>> No. >> Okay. Now you're being like

>> Okay. Now you're being like

>> Okay. Now you're being like way too sweet.

way too sweet.

way too sweet. >> You're very nervous, aren't you?

>> You're very nervous, aren't you?

>> You're very nervous, aren't you? >> I I'm going to have another sip of wine.

>> I I'm going to have another sip of wine.

>> I I'm going to have another sip of wine. Is it? I'm going to have another sip of

Is it? I'm going to have another sip of

Is it? I'm going to have another sip of wine.

wine.

wine. >> Well, I tell you what. Before we get

>> Well, I tell you what. Before we get

>> Well, I tell you what. Before we get into all this heavy talk, why don't you

into all this heavy talk, why don't you

into all this heavy talk, why don't you take me around the place? Show me where

take me around the place? Show me where

take me around the place? Show me where I'm sleeping.

I'm sleeping.

I'm sleeping. >> Show you where you're sleeping. Show you

>> Show you where you're sleeping. Show you

>> Show you where you're sleeping. Show you you're sleeping. words. I'll show you

you're sleeping. words. I'll show you

you're sleeping. words. I'll show you the bedroom. How about you? Do you want

the bedroom. How about you? Do you want

the bedroom. How about you? Do you want to see the bedroom? Let's see the

to see the bedroom? Let's see the

to see the bedroom? Let's see the bedroom.

bedroom.

bedroom. >> Why not?

>> Why not?

>> Why not? >> Okay, come on. So, this is the master

>> Okay, come on. So, this is the master

>> Okay, come on. So, this is the master bedroom.

bedroom.

bedroom. >> Oh,

>> Oh,

>> Oh, >> do you like it?

>> do you like it?

>> do you like it? >> Four post to bed.

>> Four post to bed.

>> Four post to bed. >> Yeah, I um never slept in one. Have you?

>> Yeah, I um never slept in one. Have you?

>> Yeah, I um never slept in one. Have you? >> No.

>> No.

>> No. >> No. I'm looking forward to it.

>> No. I'm looking forward to it.

>> No. I'm looking forward to it. >> It'll be different. And presumably,

>> It'll be different. And presumably,

>> It'll be different. And presumably, you think we're sleeping here together?

you think we're sleeping here together?

you think we're sleeping here together? I didn't want to presume anything. I

I didn't want to presume anything. I

I didn't want to presume anything. I just think this is, you know, it's the

just think this is, you know, it's the

just think this is, you know, it's the nicest bed in the house. It's really

nicest bed in the house. It's really

nicest bed in the house. It's really comfy.

comfy.

comfy. This is

This is

This is >> It's a bit soft.

>> It's a bit soft.

>> It's a bit soft. >> Do you like it harder?

>> Sorry. Look, I you know that was a joke

>> Sorry. Look, I you know that was a joke

>> Sorry. Look, I you know that was a joke and you know I didn't mean to presume

and you know I didn't mean to presume

and you know I didn't mean to presume anything like we don't I don't mean to

anything like we don't I don't mean to

anything like we don't I don't mean to presume or put any pressure that we have

presume or put any pressure that we have

presume or put any pressure that we have to sleep together or anything. It's just

to sleep together or anything. It's just

to sleep together or anything. It's just >> you need to calm down.

>> you need to calm down.

>> you need to calm down. >> I do need to calm down. I really do.

>> I do need to calm down. I really do.

>> I do need to calm down. I really do. >> You're cute.

>> You're cute.

>> You're cute. >> Thank you.

>> Thank you.

>> Thank you. >> Come on.

with like the whole online dating thing.

with like the whole online dating thing.

with like the whole online dating thing. When did you when did you give up on

When did you when did you give up on

When did you when did you give up on meeting people in real life?

meeting people in real life?

meeting people in real life? >> Hasn't the whole planet given up on

>> Hasn't the whole planet given up on

>> Hasn't the whole planet given up on meeting people in real life?

meeting people in real life?

meeting people in real life? >> I mean, it is kind of just it's just

>> I mean, it is kind of just it's just

>> I mean, it is kind of just it's just easier.

easier.

easier. >> Yeah. And then you can find out a few

>> Yeah. And then you can find out a few

>> Yeah. And then you can find out a few things about people before you actually

things about people before you actually

things about people before you actually have to sit and talk to them for hours

have to sit and talk to them for hours

have to sit and talk to them for hours on end and work out they're a dick.

on end and work out they're a dick.

on end and work out they're a dick. >> As long as there's a glass of wine, you

>> As long as there's a glass of wine, you

>> As long as there's a glass of wine, you know, I don't mind. M.

know, I don't mind. M.

know, I don't mind. M. >> But I mean, it's nice. It's It's good

>> But I mean, it's nice. It's It's good

>> But I mean, it's nice. It's It's good that like the 3 weeks I've been

that like the 3 weeks I've been

that like the 3 weeks I've been messaging you, I mean, you know, because

messaging you, I mean, you know, because

messaging you, I mean, you know, because I've been replying so fast. But

I've been replying so fast. But

I've been replying so fast. But >> it's been really fun.

>> it's been really fun.

>> it's been really fun. >> What made you click on my profile?

>> What made you click on my profile?

>> What made you click on my profile? >> Um,

>> Um,

>> Um, I guess I just started scraping the

I guess I just started scraping the

I guess I just started scraping the bottom of the barrel.

bottom of the barrel.

bottom of the barrel. >> Yeah.

>> Yeah.

>> Yeah. No, you just um

No, you just um

No, you just um I mean your pictures at first and then

I mean your pictures at first and then

I mean your pictures at first and then something I can't remember what it was

something I can't remember what it was

something I can't remember what it was you said but something

you said but something

you said but something it just felt kind of honest.

it just felt kind of honest.

it just felt kind of honest. >> It's cuz I'm really debtree and I

>> It's cuz I'm really debtree and I

>> It's cuz I'm really debtree and I discuss discuss topics you know that are

discuss discuss topics you know that are

discuss discuss topics you know that are just blown your mind.

just blown your mind.

just blown your mind. >> Oh really?

>> Oh really?

>> Oh really? >> Really? I think so. You

>> Really? I think so. You

>> Really? I think so. You >> going to start talking about philosophy,

>> going to start talking about philosophy,

>> going to start talking about philosophy, psychology? Is that what we're going to

psychology? Is that what we're going to

psychology? Is that what we're going to get on to tonight?

get on to tonight?

get on to tonight? >> You know me.

>> You know me.

>> You know me. All right.

All right.

All right. >> Why did you end up on there?

>> Why did you end up on there?

>> Why did you end up on there? >> Why did I end on there? Um, a series of

>> Why did I end on there? Um, a series of

>> Why did I end on there? Um, a series of bad decisions,

bad decisions,

bad decisions, >> running out of options, boredom.

>> running out of options, boredom.

>> running out of options, boredom. >> Ah, thank usual, the sort of dating app

>> Ah, thank usual, the sort of dating app

>> Ah, thank usual, the sort of dating app triumphant, you know,

triumphant, you know,

triumphant, you know, but I think I just

but I think I just

but I think I just I actually wanted to meet something who

I actually wanted to meet something who

I actually wanted to meet something who wanted

someone who wanted something that wasn't

someone who wanted something that wasn't

someone who wanted something that wasn't just, hey, let's go back to mine,

just, hey, let's go back to mine,

just, hey, let's go back to mine, you know.

you know.

you know. >> And what is it I want?

>> And what is it I want?

>> And what is it I want? >> Well, you know, we're we're here. We're

>> Well, you know, we're we're here. We're

>> Well, you know, we're we're here. We're here for a weekend and we're talking and

here for a weekend and we're talking and

here for a weekend and we're talking and it's not

it's not

it's not it's not all, you know what I mean?

>> I had a boyfriend.

>> I had a boyfriend.

>> I had a boyfriend. >> I've had a boyfriend. [snorts]

>> I've had a boyfriend. [snorts]

>> I've had a boyfriend. [snorts] >> I mean, I've I've been with guys, but I

>> I mean, I've I've been with guys, but I

>> I mean, I've I've been with guys, but I haven't like had like there's been guys

haven't like had like there's been guys

haven't like had like there's been guys for a couple of weeks at a time, but I

for a couple of weeks at a time, but I

for a couple of weeks at a time, but I wouldn't say a boyfriend.

wouldn't say a boyfriend.

wouldn't say a boyfriend. >> Is that I mean, is that okay? And not

>> Is that I mean, is that okay? And not

>> Is that I mean, is that okay? And not that. Sorry. Not that like it's not

that. Sorry. Not that like it's not

that. Sorry. Not that like it's not okay. But

okay. But

okay. But >> we we've all had relationships before.

>> we we've all had relationships before.

>> we we've all had relationships before. >> It's fine.

>> It's fine.

>> It's fine. >> No, I mean, but is it okay that I've

>> No, I mean, but is it okay that I've

>> No, I mean, but is it okay that I've never had like a serious relationship?

never had like a serious relationship?

never had like a serious relationship? Is that weird?

Is that weird?

Is that weird? >> I don't know. Is it weird?

>> I don't know. Is it weird?

>> I don't know. Is it weird? >> I mean, I think it's a little weird. I

>> I mean, I think it's a little weird. I

>> I mean, I think it's a little weird. I mean, have you had a serious How long's

mean, have you had a serious How long's

mean, have you had a serious How long's your longest relationship been?

your longest relationship been?

your longest relationship been? >> Probably about 6 months.

>> Probably about 6 months.

>> Probably about 6 months. >> Six? See, there you go. That's like

>> Six? See, there you go. That's like

>> Six? See, there you go. That's like >> It's not a longterm relationship,

>> It's not a longterm relationship,

>> It's not a longterm relationship, >> but it's 10 times the length I've had.

>> but it's 10 times the length I've had.

>> but it's 10 times the length I've had. And I mean, you must have

And I mean, you must have

And I mean, you must have you must have loved him.

you must have loved him.

you must have loved him. >> No.

>> No.

>> No. >> No. 6 months.

>> No. 6 months.

>> No. 6 months. >> Love is a pretty strong word.

>> Love is a pretty strong word.

>> Love is a pretty strong word. >> Have you ever loved anyone?

>> Have you ever loved anyone?

>> Have you ever loved anyone? >> No, I don't think so.

>> No, I don't think so.

>> No, I don't think so. >> Well, okay.

>> Well, okay.

>> Well, okay. I mean, is that a thing you think

I mean, is that a thing you think

I mean, is that a thing you think you think you're looking for?

you think you're looking for?

you think you're looking for? >> [clears throat]

>> [clears throat]

>> [clears throat] >> I think when you haven't been in love,

>> I think when you haven't been in love,

>> I think when you haven't been in love, you don't know what it feels like. So, I

you don't know what it feels like. So, I

you don't know what it feels like. So, I suppose like everybody, you don't know

suppose like everybody, you don't know

suppose like everybody, you don't know until you get there.

>> Okay.

>> [sighs]

>> Thank you.

>> Thank you.

>> Thank you. Make a lovely house.

Make a lovely house.

Make a lovely house. >> You going to get me an apron? No.

>> You going to get me an apron? No.

>> You going to get me an apron? No. >> Yeah. You never know. Beautiful present.

>> Yeah. You never know. Beautiful present.

>> Yeah. You never know. Beautiful present. Well, two bottles of wine down. At least

Well, two bottles of wine down. At least

Well, two bottles of wine down. At least I know you can keep up.

I know you can keep up.

I know you can keep up. >> I am in danger of shattering one of

>> I am in danger of shattering one of

>> I am in danger of shattering one of these glasses. Actually,

these glasses. Actually,

these glasses. Actually, >> yeah. Well, I think it's definitely time

>> yeah. Well, I think it's definitely time

>> yeah. Well, I think it's definitely time for bed. So,

for bed. So,

for bed. So, >> I'll definitely have you um settled on

>> I'll definitely have you um settled on

>> I'll definitely have you um settled on sleeping on the slightly too soft bed.

sleeping on the slightly too soft bed.

sleeping on the slightly too soft bed. >> Yeah, why not?

>> Yeah, why not?

>> Yeah, why not? >> So, go tell me something about yourself

>> So, go tell me something about yourself

>> So, go tell me something about yourself that I didn't know.

that I didn't know.

that I didn't know. >> Something about a fun fact,

>> Something about a fun fact,

>> Something about a fun fact, >> if you will. Okay. Um,

>> if you will. Okay. Um,

>> if you will. Okay. Um, I am really into heavy metal music.

I am really into heavy metal music.

I am really into heavy metal music. >> Good taste.

>> Good taste.

>> Good taste. >> Good taste. Would you guess that looking

>> Good taste. Would you guess that looking

>> Good taste. Would you guess that looking at me?

at me?

at me? >> Definitely not.

>> Definitely not.

>> Definitely not. >> There you go.

>> There you go.

>> There you go. >> You look more like a science geek to me.

>> You look more like a science geek to me.

>> You look more like a science geek to me. >> A science geek. And what does that mean?

>> A science geek. And what does that mean?

>> A science geek. And what does that mean? I like classical music. I like

I like classical music. I like

I like classical music. I like Beethoven.

Beethoven.

Beethoven. >> Probably. I saw you wiring up the piano

>> Probably. I saw you wiring up the piano

>> Probably. I saw you wiring up the piano earlier.

earlier.

earlier. >> Hey, I can I will play you a mean tune

>> Hey, I can I will play you a mean tune

>> Hey, I can I will play you a mean tune on the piano. I swear to God. What about

on the piano. I swear to God. What about

on the piano. I swear to God. What about you? Music taste.

you? Music taste.

you? Music taste. quite like you. Maybe not always heavy

quite like you. Maybe not always heavy

quite like you. Maybe not always heavy metal, but rock music for sure.

metal, but rock music for sure.

metal, but rock music for sure. >> Rock music.

>> Rock music.

>> Rock music. >> Mhm.

>> Mhm.

>> Mhm. >> Man of good taste. J music.

>> Man of good taste. J music.

>> Man of good taste. J music. >> Bollocks.

>> Bollocks.

>> Bollocks. >> There you go.

>> There you go.

>> There you go. >> That's what I like to hear.

>> That's what I like to hear.

>> That's what I like to hear. >> I think it's kind of weird how uh you

>> I think it's kind of weird how uh you

>> I think it's kind of weird how uh you know 3 weeks ago we were [clears throat]

know 3 weeks ago we were [clears throat]

know 3 weeks ago we were [clears throat] two strangers in the world and here we

two strangers in the world and here we

two strangers in the world and here we are still barely knowing anything about

are still barely knowing anything about

are still barely knowing anything about each other and uh sharing a cottage for

each other and uh sharing a cottage for

each other and uh sharing a cottage for the weekend.

the weekend.

the weekend. >> I don't know. I think it's kind of

>> I don't know. I think it's kind of

>> I don't know. I think it's kind of beautiful actually.

beautiful actually.

beautiful actually. poet as well.

poet as well.

poet as well. >> Well, you know what I mean? Like

>> Well, you know what I mean? Like

>> Well, you know what I mean? Like they couldn't have done this. They

they couldn't have done this. They

they couldn't have done this. They couldn't have done this like decades

couldn't have done this like decades

couldn't have done this like decades ago. This is this is like a 21st century

ago. This is this is like a 21st century

ago. This is this is like a 21st century thing, these kind of things. And kind of

thing, these kind of things. And kind of

thing, these kind of things. And kind of makes me happy to live now.

makes me happy to live now.

makes me happy to live now. >> So, you had no reservations?

>> So, you had no reservations?

>> So, you had no reservations? >> Are you kidding? I had loads. I mean,

>> Are you kidding? I had loads. I mean,

>> Are you kidding? I had loads. I mean, you could have been a murderer. You

you could have been a murderer. You

you could have been a murderer. You could I am.

could I am.

could I am. >> You are a murderer.

>> You are a murderer.

>> You are a murderer. >> Oh, is that was that going to be your

>> Oh, is that was that going to be your

>> Oh, is that was that going to be your fun fact?

fun fact?

fun fact? >> I'm planning to slice you up later in

>> I'm planning to slice you up later in

>> I'm planning to slice you up later in the night.

the night.

the night. >> Oh, really? In the bag, you got a load

>> Oh, really? In the bag, you got a load

>> Oh, really? In the bag, you got a load of knives. Butcher's knives.

of knives. Butcher's knives.

of knives. Butcher's knives. >> Anything else that could have been?

>> Anything else that could have been?

>> Anything else that could have been? >> I don't know. A fiend. A sexual deviant.

>> I don't know. A fiend. A sexual deviant.

>> I don't know. A fiend. A sexual deviant. >> I mean, are you

>> Would you like me to have been?

>> Would you like me to have been?

>> Would you like me to have been? >> I mean,

I'll tell you what I'm into if you maybe

I'll tell you what I'm into if you maybe

I'll tell you what I'm into if you maybe say what you're into. That's a fun fact.

say what you're into. That's a fun fact.

say what you're into. That's a fun fact. >> You get shy, don't you?

You know, I think it is time to go to

You know, I think it is time to go to

You know, I think it is time to go to bed.

Deviant.

Deviant.

Deviant. >> Deviant. Yeah, that was Yeah, a little

>> Deviant. Yeah, that was Yeah, a little

>> Deviant. Yeah, that was Yeah, a little bit too much tongue. That was very

bit too much tongue. That was very

bit too much tongue. That was very deviant in the tongue. I could feel

deviant in the tongue. I could feel

deviant in the tongue. I could feel that.

that.

that. >> I can feel that. [clears throat]

>> I can feel that. [clears throat]

>> I can feel that. [clears throat] >> Now you're just making me.

>> Now you're just making me.

>> Now you're just making me. >> So,

>> So,

>> So, >> hold on. One more fact.

>> hold on. One more fact.

>> hold on. One more fact. >> One more fact.

>> One more fact.

>> One more fact. >> One more fun fact.

>> One more fun fact.

>> One more fun fact. Okay, you tell me.

Okay, you tell me.

Okay, you tell me. >> Well, you know how on my profile it says

>> Well, you know how on my profile it says

>> Well, you know how on my profile it says I'm 5' 10?

I'm 5' 10?

I'm 5' 10? >> You are.

>> You are.

>> You are. >> Look, it's nice. It's nice to be taller

>> Look, it's nice. It's nice to be taller

>> Look, it's nice. It's nice to be taller than someone for a change. You're right

than someone for a change. You're right

than someone for a change. You're right down there.

down there.

down there. >> I am right down here.

>> I am right down here.

>> I am right down here. Mhm. Bed. Bed.

>> [sighs and gasps]

>> [sighs and gasps]

>> [sighs and gasps] >> [\h__\h] it. Shouldn't said it. Shouldn't

>> [\h__\h] it. Shouldn't said it. Shouldn't

>> [\h__\h] it. Shouldn't said it. Shouldn't have said it.

have said it.

have said it. Just be cool. Just be cool.

Just be cool. Just be cool.

Just be cool. Just be cool. Hi. Hi. Come in.

The bedroom. Welcome back.

The bedroom. Welcome back.

The bedroom. Welcome back. >> Yeah, maybe this place is growing.

>> Yeah, maybe this place is growing.

>> Yeah, maybe this place is growing. Do you want to get comfortable on our

Do you want to get comfortable on our

Do you want to get comfortable on our lovely a bit too soft bed?

lovely a bit too soft bed?

lovely a bit too soft bed? >> It's nice, isn't it?

>> It's nice, isn't it?

>> It's nice, isn't it? >> So bad.

>> So bad.

>> So bad. >> I mean, it's better than what you can

>> I mean, it's better than what you can

>> I mean, it's better than what you can get in the city.

>> I didn't think I'd maybe uh be sharing a

>> I didn't think I'd maybe uh be sharing a

>> I didn't think I'd maybe uh be sharing a bed with a perfect stranger.

bed with a perfect stranger.

bed with a perfect stranger. >> You think of me as a perfect stranger

>> You think of me as a perfect stranger

>> You think of me as a perfect stranger even after tonight? Well,

even after tonight? Well,

even after tonight? Well, >> still don't know that I know that much

>> still don't know that I know that much

>> still don't know that I know that much about you.

about you.

about you. >> You know loads about me after tonight.

>> You know loads about me after tonight.

>> You know loads about me after tonight. >> Maybe I'm exceptionally nosy.

>> Maybe I'm exceptionally nosy.

>> Maybe I'm exceptionally nosy. >> Okay, ask away. Anything.

>> Well,

>> Well,

>> Well, >> what was it that made you want to go on

>> what was it that made you want to go on

>> what was it that made you want to go on this crazy adventure?

this crazy adventure?

this crazy adventure? >> Didn't anyone ever tell you it's

>> Didn't anyone ever tell you it's

>> Didn't anyone ever tell you it's dangerous to meet people on apps?

dangerous to meet people on apps?

dangerous to meet people on apps? Everyone told me it was dangerous to

Everyone told me it was dangerous to

Everyone told me it was dangerous to meet people on apps and they know you're

meet people on apps and they know you're

meet people on apps and they know you're here.

here.

here. >> Yes, actually.

>> Yes, actually.

>> Yes, actually. >> So, if you do murder me, there's going

>> So, if you do murder me, there's going

>> So, if you do murder me, there's going to be a lot of people looking for you.

to be a lot of people looking for you.

to be a lot of people looking for you. >> And I am planning to

>> And I am planning to

>> And I am planning to >> Well, they've got your name.

>> Well, they've got your name.

>> Well, they've got your name. >> Well, they don't have your name. They

>> Well, they don't have your name. They

>> Well, they don't have your name. They have your initials. JD.

have your initials. JD.

have your initials. JD. >> Go on. What's your name?

>> Go on. What's your name?

>> Go on. What's your name? >> Everyone calls me J. Don't do this to

>> Everyone calls me J. Don't do this to

>> Everyone calls me J. Don't do this to me.

me.

me. >> No, no, no. J and D. What do they stand

>> No, no, no. J and D. What do they stand

>> No, no, no. J and D. What do they stand for?

for?

for? >> I hate my name.

>> I hate my name.

>> I hate my name. >> Why? Because it's Jacob.

>> Why? Because it's Jacob.

>> Why? Because it's Jacob. >> It's okay. So, Jacob. That's not so bad.

>> It's okay. So, Jacob. That's not so bad.

>> It's okay. So, Jacob. That's not so bad. Jacob. Jake. You can go Jake. Jakey.

Jacob. Jake. You can go Jake. Jakey.

Jacob. Jake. You can go Jake. Jakey. >> Okay.

>> Okay.

>> Okay. >> J D.

>> J D.

>> J D. >> JD.

>> JD.

>> JD. >> Yeah.

>> Yeah.

>> Yeah. >> And the D.

>> And the D.

>> And the D. >> Ah. Well, if I did tell you that, I

>> Ah. Well, if I did tell you that, I

>> Ah. Well, if I did tell you that, I would have to kill you.

would have to kill you.

would have to kill you. >> Oh god. This again.

>> Oh god. This again.

>> Oh god. This again. Okay. [sighs and gasps]

So, tell me something else if you're not

So, tell me something else if you're not

So, tell me something else if you're not going to tell me about the D.

I used to have a big fat drug addiction.

I used to have a big fat drug addiction.

I used to have a big fat drug addiction. [laughter]

[laughter]

[laughter] >> How's that funny?

>> How's that funny?

>> How's that funny? >> You don't have a big fat drug addiction?

>> You don't have a big fat drug addiction?

>> You don't have a big fat drug addiction? >> No, I did.

>> No, I did.

>> No, I did. >> You did?

>> You did?

>> You did? >> Seriously?

>> Seriously?

>> Seriously? >> Mhm.

>> Mhm.

>> Mhm. >> No. Like,

>> No. Like,

>> No. Like, no. Like, seriously?

no. Like, seriously?

no. Like, seriously? >> Yes. Why I look like [\h__\h] now? I've had

>> Yes. Why I look like [\h__\h] now? I've had

>> Yes. Why I look like [\h__\h] now? I've had a drone, too.

a drone, too.

a drone, too. >> You don't look like [\h__\h]

>> You don't look like [\h__\h]

>> You don't look like [\h__\h] [clears throat]

[clears throat]

[clears throat] >> You look amazing.

>> You look amazing.

>> You look amazing. Are you actually being serious? You were

Are you actually being serious? You were

Are you actually being serious? You were a drug addict.

>> I feel like you're [\h__\h] with me on

>> I feel like you're [\h__\h] with me on

>> I feel like you're [\h__\h] with me on some level here, but I'm not sure where.

some level here, but I'm not sure where.

some level here, but I'm not sure where. >> You better believe it.

>> You better believe it.

>> You better believe it. >> What drug?

>> What drug?

>> What drug? >> It was a passing comment, not something

>> It was a passing comment, not something

>> It was a passing comment, not something I wanted to go into.

I wanted to go into.

I wanted to go into. >> You start talking about you having a

>> You start talking about you having a

>> You start talking about you having a drug addiction. It's not a passing

drug addiction. It's not a passing

drug addiction. It's not a passing comment.

comment.

comment. >> Does it change anything?

>> Does it change anything?

>> Does it change anything? I mean, I I feel like I've got to ask. I

I mean, I I feel like I've got to ask. I

I mean, I I feel like I've got to ask. I feel like I got to know what's

feel like I got to know what's

feel like I got to know what's Do you want to talk about it?

Do you want to talk about it?

Do you want to talk about it? >> Not to know.

>> Not to know.

>> Not to know. >> I don't even know why I brought it up

>> I don't even know why I brought it up

>> I don't even know why I brought it up cuz, you know, we have a night and then

cuz, you know, we have a night and then

cuz, you know, we have a night and then uh I go and mention something like that,

uh I go and mention something like that,

uh I go and mention something like that, but that's just me.

but that's just me.

but that's just me. >> No, no, no, no, no, no, no. It's not

>> No, no, no, no, no, no, no. It's not

>> No, no, no, no, no, no, no. It's not your fault. It's not your fault. Okay,

your fault. It's not your fault. Okay,

your fault. It's not your fault. Okay, look. Um I reacted weirdly. I was the

look. Um I reacted weirdly. I was the

look. Um I reacted weirdly. I was the one being weird. Okay. I was the one

one being weird. Okay. I was the one

one being weird. Okay. I was the one being weird. Let's There you go. Let's

being weird. Let's There you go. Let's

being weird. Let's There you go. Let's reset. Okay. So,

reset. Okay. So,

reset. Okay. So, ignore it. Last 30 seconds gone. Okay.

ignore it. Last 30 seconds gone. Okay.

ignore it. Last 30 seconds gone. Okay. Okay.

Okay.

Okay. >> Your turn.

>> Your turn.

>> Your turn. >> My turn. What?

>> My turn. What?

>> My turn. What? >> Tell me a dark little secret about

>> Tell me a dark little secret about

>> Tell me a dark little secret about yourself.

yourself.

yourself. >> I

>> I

>> I My dark secret is that I have no dark

My dark secret is that I have no dark

My dark secret is that I have no dark secrets. A

secrets. A

secrets. A >> good boy.

>> good boy.

>> good boy. >> No, just

>> No, just

>> No, just someone who's never had the chance to be

someone who's never had the chance to be

someone who's never had the chance to be bad.

bad.

bad. >> Maybe. Got red wine lips.

>> I'm good. I'm good.

>> I'm good. I'm good.

>> I'm good. I'm good. >> You're good? Yeah. You You keep an eye

>> You're good? Yeah. You You keep an eye

>> You're good? Yeah. You You keep an eye on it.

on it.

on it. >> See, you know what you're doing. I like

>> See, you know what you're doing. I like

>> See, you know what you're doing. I like that.

How do you like this? [sighs]

How do you like this? [sighs]

How do you like this? [sighs] What? Like, what do you like to do?

What? Like, what do you like to do?

What? Like, what do you like to do? >> I'm hacked.

>> I'm hacked.

>> I'm hacked. >> Wait, what? What are you taking me for?

>> No.

Turn the [\h__\h] lights out.

>> [snorts]

>> [snorts]

>> [snorts] [panting]

[snorts]

[snorts]

[snorts] [panting]

>> Just go

>> Just go

>> Just go just go just go to sleep. Just go to

just go just go to sleep. Just go to

just go just go to sleep. Just go to sleep. It's fine. It's fine. No, I'm

sleep. It's fine. It's fine. No, I'm

sleep. It's fine. It's fine. No, I'm fine. Fine. I'm [snorts]

fine. Fine. I'm [snorts]

fine. Fine. I'm [snorts] No, I'm fine. I'm fine. I'm fine. Just

No, I'm fine. I'm fine. I'm fine. Just

No, I'm fine. I'm fine. I'm fine. Just go to sleep. Just go to sleep. Just go

go to sleep. Just go to sleep. Just go

go to sleep. Just go to sleep. Just go to sleep. Just go to sleep. Just go to

to sleep. Just go to sleep. Just go to

to sleep. Just go to sleep. Just go to sleep, please. Just go to sleep.

I'm okay. I'm okay. I promise. I'm

I'm okay. I'm okay. I promise. I'm

I'm okay. I'm okay. I promise. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry.

sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry.

sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry.

I'm sorry. I'm sorry.

I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry.

I'm sorry.

I'm sorry. I'm sorry. Sorry. [panting]

Sorry. [gasps] I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm

Sorry. [gasps] I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm

Sorry. [gasps] I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. No, I'm not. I'm not.

sorry. I'm sorry. No, I'm not. I'm not.

sorry. I'm sorry. No, I'm not. I'm not. I'm not. I'm not. [panting]

I'm not. I'm not. [panting]

I'm not. I'm not. [panting] [gasps]

I can't breathe. I need to breathe. I

I can't breathe. I need to breathe. I

I can't breathe. I need to breathe. I can't breathe. I can't breathe. [snorts]

can't breathe. I can't breathe. [snorts]

can't breathe. I can't breathe. [snorts] I can't breathe. I can't breathe.

I can't breathe. I can't breathe.

I can't breathe. I can't breathe. I can't breathe. [laughter]

I can't breathe. [laughter]

I can't breathe. [laughter] [gasps]

[gasps]

[gasps] I can't breathe. I can't breathe.

I can't breathe. I can't breathe.

I can't breathe. I can't breathe. I can't breathe. You're just [\h__\h]

I can't breathe. You're just [\h__\h]

I can't breathe. You're just [\h__\h] freaking out. I'm sorry. I promise. I

freaking out. I'm sorry. I promise. I

freaking out. I'm sorry. I promise. I promise I'm normal. I'm pros. I promise

promise I'm normal. I'm pros. I promise

promise I'm normal. I'm pros. I promise I'm normal. Okay. I'm not

I'm normal. Okay. I'm not

I'm normal. Okay. I'm not >> No. No one's saying

>> No. No one's saying

>> No. No one's saying >> I'm not like this. [laughter] I'm not

>> I'm not like this. [laughter] I'm not

>> I'm not like this. [laughter] I'm not like

like

like [panting]

[panting]

[panting] [gasps]

[\h__\h] [gasps and panting]

[\h__\h] [gasps and panting]

[\h__\h] [gasps and panting] [snorts] breathe.

[snorts] breathe.

[snorts] breathe. [sighs]

[crying]

[crying]

[crying] [clears throat]

>> [laughter]

>> [laughter]

>> [laughter] >> Stop this [\h__\h]

I'm sorry.

I'm sorry.

I'm sorry. [laughter]

[snorts]

[snorts]

[snorts] [gasps]

[gasps]

[gasps] [crying]

Just breathe.

[snorts]

>> [gasps]

>> [gasps]

>> [gasps] [snorts]

[sighs and gasps]

[sighs and gasps]

[sighs and gasps] >> You're okay.

Nothing's going back. Nothing's going.

Nothing's going back. Nothing's going.

Nothing's going back. Nothing's going. [sighs and panting]

[gasps] It's all in your mind. It's just

[gasps] It's all in your mind. It's just

[gasps] It's all in your mind. It's just [\h__\h] mind playing tricks on you.

Don't do I'm not like this. Come here.

Don't do I'm not like this. Come here.

Don't do I'm not like this. Come here. I'm not like this.

[sighs]

[sighs]

[sighs] What are you talking about? Normal.

What are you talking about? Normal.

What are you talking about? Normal. >> Just I'm normal. I'm not What the [\h__\h]

>> Just I'm normal. I'm not What the [\h__\h]

>> Just I'm normal. I'm not What the [\h__\h] is normal? [sighs and gasps]

is normal? [sighs and gasps]

is normal? [sighs and gasps] [\h__\h] Loads of people out there stranger

[\h__\h] Loads of people out there stranger

[\h__\h] Loads of people out there stranger than us.

>> I like you, too. I love you, too.

[sighs]

My chest. My chest is [\h__\h] It hurts.

My chest. My chest is [\h__\h] It hurts.

My chest. My chest is [\h__\h] It hurts. It hurts.

It hurts.

It hurts. >> I touch it.

>> I touch it.

>> I touch it. >> Okay.

>> Okay.

>> Okay. >> Okay.

>> Okay.

>> Okay. your [sighs and gasps] heart.

your [sighs and gasps] heart.

your [sighs and gasps] heart. >> I feel like I feel like I'm [\h__\h]

>> I feel like I feel like I'm [\h__\h]

>> I feel like I feel like I'm [\h__\h] going to die.

going to die.

going to die. >> Feel my hand against your chest.

[gasps]

[gasps]

[gasps] >> It's not normal. It's not normal. It's

>> It's not normal. It's not normal. It's

>> It's not normal. It's not normal. It's not normal.

not normal.

not normal. >> It's not normal.

>> It's not normal.

>> It's not normal. >> There's no such thing. It's

>> There's no such thing. It's

>> There's no such thing. It's >> not [clears throat] normal.

[sighs and gasps]

You thought we'd be here 3 weeks ago.

You thought we'd be here 3 weeks ago.

You thought we'd be here 3 weeks ago. [sighs and gasps]

[sighs and gasps]

[sighs and gasps] >> You thought we'd be meeting

>> You thought we'd be meeting

>> You thought we'd be meeting drinking together all night, [sighs]

drinking together all night, [sighs]

drinking together all night, [sighs] sitting on the fire,

sitting on the fire,

sitting on the fire, laying together like this.

laying together like this.

laying together like this. I just feel I don't feel don't feel

I just feel I don't feel don't feel

I just feel I don't feel don't feel right. I don't feel right. Okay. I just

right. I don't feel right. Okay. I just

right. I don't feel right. Okay. I just feel

feel

feel I'm [\h__\h] everything up. I'm [\h__\h]

I'm [\h__\h] everything up. I'm [\h__\h]

I'm [\h__\h] everything up. I'm [\h__\h] everything up. Okay. Just

everything up. Okay. Just

everything up. Okay. Just >> What are you [\h__\h] up?

>> What are you [\h__\h] up?

>> What are you [\h__\h] up? >> I'm sorry. I'm I'm sorry. Okay. I'm

>> I'm sorry. I'm I'm sorry. Okay. I'm

>> I'm sorry. I'm I'm sorry. Okay. I'm sorry. I'm sorry.

sorry. I'm sorry.

sorry. I'm sorry. >> No, it's my fault. I'm sorry.

>> No, it's my fault. I'm sorry.

>> No, it's my fault. I'm sorry. >> I'm not I'm not amazing. Okay.

>> I'm not I'm not amazing. Okay.

>> I'm not I'm not amazing. Okay. >> Listen to me.

>> There's nowhere else in the world I'd

>> There's nowhere else in the world I'd

>> There's nowhere else in the world I'd rather be right now.

>> Even [snorts] if you are

You're fine. Look, you already calmed

You're fine. Look, you already calmed

You're fine. Look, you already calmed down so much to what you were a minute

down so much to what you were a minute

down so much to what you were a minute ago.

ago.

ago. [sighs and gasps]

I'm just shaking out. I'm going to look

I'm just shaking out. I'm going to look

I'm just shaking out. I'm going to look after you. Don't Don't [\h__\h] say that.

after you. Don't Don't [\h__\h] say that.

after you. Don't Don't [\h__\h] say that. Don't [\h__\h] say things like that

cuz you don't mean them.

cuz you don't mean them.

cuz you don't mean them. >> [gasps]

>> It's a shame you wouldn't give me the

>> It's a shame you wouldn't give me the

>> It's a shame you wouldn't give me the chance then.

[gasps and sighs]

Rest your head on there.

Rest your head on there.

Rest your head on there. [sighs and gasps]

[sighs and gasps]

[sighs and gasps] You know what? When I was growing up, I

You know what? When I was growing up, I

You know what? When I was growing up, I knew the pain. I really [\h__\h] know the

knew the pain. I really [\h__\h] know the

knew the pain. I really [\h__\h] know the pain.

pain.

pain. I always lived on my own.

I always lived on my own.

I always lived on my own. [sighs and gasps]

[sighs and gasps]

[sighs and gasps] And I'd wake up just like you in the

And I'd wake up just like you in the

And I'd wake up just like you in the night,

night,

night, worrying about everything I'd done,

worrying about everything I'd done,

worrying about everything I'd done, everything I'd [snorts] said.

You never got me anywhere.

You have to believe in yourself. Believe

You have to believe in yourself. Believe

You have to believe in yourself. Believe in the fact that you're amazing,

gentle,

gentle,

gentle, kind,

kind,

kind, beautiful eyes. Can you

beautiful eyes. Can you

beautiful eyes. Can you [sighs]

[sighs]

[sighs] Can you st my hair? Can you just st my

Can you st my hair? Can you just st my

Can you st my hair? Can you just st my hair for just like for a bit?

hair for just like for a bit?

hair for just like for a bit? >> Is that okay?

>> Is that okay?

>> Is that okay? >> I'm doing

>> I'm doing

>> I'm doing >> No, I'm sorry. I'm I don't mean to.

>> No, I'm sorry. I'm I don't mean to.

>> No, I'm sorry. I'm I don't mean to. >> Stop saying sorry.

>> Stop saying sorry.

>> Stop saying sorry. Look, [snorts]

[sighs]

[sighs]

[sighs] >> I'm sorry.

>> I'm sorry.

>> I'm sorry. >> You don't have anything to be sorry for,

>> You don't have anything to be sorry for,

>> You don't have anything to be sorry for, >> don't I?

>> don't I?

>> don't I? >> No. It's my fault. It's my fault.

>> No. It's my fault. It's my fault.

>> No. It's my fault. It's my fault. I'm sorry for turning over when I should

I'm sorry for turning over when I should

I'm sorry for turning over when I should have been hugging you before we went to

have been hugging you before we went to

have been hugging you before we went to sleep.

sleep.

sleep. I do stupid things sometimes. I say

I do stupid things sometimes. I say

I do stupid things sometimes. I say stupid things. I do [\h__\h] stupid

stupid things. I do [\h__\h] stupid

stupid things. I do [\h__\h] stupid things. [snorts]

things. [snorts]

things. [snorts] I do really like you.

I do really like you.

I do really like you. [\h__\h] me.

>> I knew I wanted to meet you.

>> I knew I wanted to meet you.

>> I knew I wanted to meet you. >> I like you, too. I know. I wanted to be

>> I like you, too. I know. I wanted to be

>> I like you, too. I know. I wanted to be close to you.

We just stay here for a bit.

We just stay here for a bit.

We just stay here for a bit. I'll stay here for as long as you

I'll stay here for as long as you

I'll stay here for as long as you [sighs and gasps]

do it again.

You're doing just [\h__\h] fine.

You're doing good.

We were talking earlier about

We were talking earlier about

We were talking earlier about those little feelings we never felt

those little feelings we never felt

those little feelings we never felt before. [snorts]

before. [snorts]

before. [snorts] They've got some pretty weird ones going

They've got some pretty weird ones going

They've got some pretty weird ones going on.

>> What are they?

>> What are they?

>> What are they? >> I don't know yet, but they're weird.

Can you sleep? Sleep.

Can you sleep? Sleep.

Can you sleep? Sleep. I'll stay without you.

Sleep.

Sleep.

Sleep. >> Thank you.

>> Thank you.

>> Thank you. Thank you. [sighs and gasps]

Yeah, a little bit.

Yeah, a little bit.

Yeah, a little bit. >> Well, thank you. That's really sweet.

a fire in the middle of the countryside

a fire in the middle of the countryside

a fire in the middle of the countryside with a glass of red wine.

with a glass of red wine.

with a glass of red wine. >> It is just the perfect way to spend the

>> It is just the perfect way to spend the

>> It is just the perfect way to spend the weekend.

weekend.

weekend. >> Thank you.

>> Thank you.

>> Thank you. >> So, what did you think of the bay?

>> So, what did you think of the bay?

>> So, what did you think of the bay? >> The bay? Oh, it's gorgeous.

>> The bay? Oh, it's gorgeous.

>> The bay? Oh, it's gorgeous. beach, the sea. What was your favorite

beach, the sea. What was your favorite

beach, the sea. What was your favorite part to do?

part to do?

part to do? >> I didn't tell you this. I used to go

>> I didn't tell you this. I used to go

>> I didn't tell you this. I used to go there as a kid and that's why I knew

there as a kid and that's why I knew

there as a kid and that's why I knew exactly where to take you. I like it.

exactly where to take you. I like it.

exactly where to take you. I like it. There's like a little ghost town and

There's like a little ghost town and

There's like a little ghost town and then we we'd always go in the winter cuz

then we we'd always go in the winter cuz

then we we'd always go in the winter cuz everything was [\h__\h] cheaper in the

everything was [\h__\h] cheaper in the

everything was [\h__\h] cheaper in the winter. And um

winter. And um

winter. And um used to make up my own little ghost

used to make up my own little ghost

used to make up my own little ghost stories and go running around in the

stories and go running around in the

stories and go running around in the twilight.

twilight.

twilight. >> You're a dangerous little kid, weren't

>> You're a dangerous little kid, weren't

>> You're a dangerous little kid, weren't you? Adventurous.

you? Adventurous.

you? Adventurous. >> Adventurous. Yeah.

>> Adventurous. Yeah.

>> Adventurous. Yeah. >> Imaginative.

>> Imaginative.

>> Imaginative. >> I guess

>> ghosts have names.

[sighs]

[sighs]

[sighs] >> It was so long ago. I can't even

>> It was so long ago. I can't even

>> It was so long ago. I can't even remember a damn story. If I remembered

remember a damn story. If I remembered

remember a damn story. If I remembered one, I would have waited till dark and

one, I would have waited till dark and

one, I would have waited till dark and scared the [\h__\h] out of you with it. But

scared the [\h__\h] out of you with it. But

scared the [\h__\h] out of you with it. But then I suppose my 10-year-old ghost

then I suppose my 10-year-old ghost

then I suppose my 10-year-old ghost stories were probably not very scary.

>> I don't think I could ever find you

>> I don't think I could ever find you

>> I don't think I could ever find you scary. Honestly,

>> home tomorrow though.

>> home tomorrow though.

>> home tomorrow though. Don't talk about that. Don't talk about

Don't talk about that. Don't talk about

Don't talk about that. Don't talk about home, please.

>> What do you do when you go home? Where

>> What do you do when you go home? Where

>> What do you do when you go home? Where do you go home?

do you go home?

do you go home? >> To who?

>> To who?

>> To who? >> I go home

>> I go home

>> I go home to my flat. To my job. Back to my flat.

to my flat. To my job. Back to my flat.

to my flat. To my job. Back to my flat. Back to my job. That's my week.

>> Yeah.

>> Well,

I'm always on to some sort of uh, you

I'm always on to some sort of uh, you

I'm always on to some sort of uh, you know, latest deal or something because I

know, latest deal or something because I

know, latest deal or something because I think what's the [\h__\h] point in living

think what's the [\h__\h] point in living

think what's the [\h__\h] point in living a life where all you do is get up to go

a life where all you do is get up to go

a life where all you do is get up to go to work every day and pay bills and get

to work every day and pay bills and get

to work every day and pay bills and get up to go to work every day and pay

up to go to work every day and pay

up to go to work every day and pay bills. I mean, who's the one that tells

bills. I mean, who's the one that tells

bills. I mean, who's the one that tells us we have to do that? Money is just

us we have to do that? Money is just

us we have to do that? Money is just printed pieces of [\h__\h] paper.

printed pieces of [\h__\h] paper.

printed pieces of [\h__\h] paper. >> I know, but you

>> I know, but you

>> I know, but you you just got to do something that

you just got to do something that

you just got to do something that I'm doing all right. I'm surviving.

I'm doing all right. I'm surviving.

I'm doing all right. I'm surviving. >> But it's all I know how to do. Okay.

>> But it's all I know how to do. Okay.

>> But it's all I know how to do. Okay. It's just

Well, you went on an adventure this

Well, you went on an adventure this

Well, you went on an adventure this weekend, so maybe you just need to

weekend, so maybe you just need to

weekend, so maybe you just need to incorporate a little more adventure into

incorporate a little more adventure into

incorporate a little more adventure into your general daily life.

your general daily life.

your general daily life. >> Listen, if I could do this weekend

>> Listen, if I could do this weekend

>> Listen, if I could do this weekend every day for the rest of my life, I

every day for the rest of my life, I

every day for the rest of my life, I would. You can do whatever you want. You

would. You can do whatever you want. You

would. You can do whatever you want. You get one go.

get one go.

get one go. >> It's not that easy. It is not that easy.

>> It's not that easy. It is not that easy.

>> It's not that easy. It is not that easy. You know, it's not that easy.

You know, it's not that easy.

You know, it's not that easy. >> One go on the merry go round. It's all

>> One go on the merry go round. It's all

>> One go on the merry go round. It's all you get.

you get.

you get. >> All right. Well, if I can do everything

>> All right. Well, if I can do everything

>> All right. Well, if I can do everything I want, I want to do this.

This weekend has been the best weekend

This weekend has been the best weekend

This weekend has been the best weekend of my life.

And I like you.

And I like you.

And I like you. And I know you think we're just

And I know you think we're just

And I know you think we're just strangers, but it feels so much more

strangers, but it feels so much more

strangers, but it feels so much more than that to me.

And I want you.

And I want you.

And I want you. I want you tonight.

I want you tonight.

I want you tonight. I do.

I know you want me. I can see it. I can

I know you want me. I can see it. I can

I know you want me. I can see it. I can see it in your eyes right now.

see it in your eyes right now.

see it in your eyes right now. >> Because I'm that cheap. If I sleep with

>> Because I'm that cheap. If I sleep with

>> Because I'm that cheap. If I sleep with someone on the second night,

someone on the second night,

someone on the second night, >> this is not No, this is not No, this is

>> this is not No, this is not No, this is

>> this is not No, this is not No, this is not cheap. No, this is not cheap. This

not cheap. No, this is not cheap. This

not cheap. No, this is not cheap. This is

is

is >> This is special.

>> This is special.

>> This is special. >> This is not some motel in the middle of

>> This is not some motel in the middle of

>> This is not some motel in the middle of this is a cottage. This is

this is a cottage. This is

this is a cottage. This is >> Oh, yeah. Cuz this is the first time

>> Oh, yeah. Cuz this is the first time

>> Oh, yeah. Cuz this is the first time I've ever heard this [\h__\h] one, isn't

I've ever heard this [\h__\h] one, isn't

I've ever heard this [\h__\h] one, isn't it?

it?

it? >> No, this is

>> No, this is

>> No, this is >> Oh, it's so special. I'll jump into my

>> Oh, it's so special. I'll jump into my

>> Oh, it's so special. I'll jump into my bed on the second night. We can do it

bed on the second night. We can do it

bed on the second night. We can do it and then we'll be together forever more.

and then we'll be together forever more.

and then we'll be together forever more. >> I have never done this with anyone.

>> I have never done this with anyone.

>> I have never done this with anyone. >> Now I see you in a completely different

>> Now I see you in a completely different

>> Now I see you in a completely different light. Do you know that? [\h__\h] up a

light. Do you know that? [\h__\h] up a

light. Do you know that? [\h__\h] up a minute.

minute.

minute. >> Okay.

>> Okay.

>> Okay. >> Like, I thought you were sweet. just

>> Like, I thought you were sweet. just

>> Like, I thought you were sweet. just some kind of [\h__\h] innocent anxious

some kind of [\h__\h] innocent anxious

some kind of [\h__\h] innocent anxious lad that wanted to go off and do a big

lad that wanted to go off and do a big

lad that wanted to go off and do a big adventure for the weekend to prove

adventure for the weekend to prove

adventure for the weekend to prove something to himself.

something to himself.

something to himself. >> But you're just like the others, aren't

>> But you're just like the others, aren't

>> But you're just like the others, aren't you? Just on your app sitting away

you? Just on your app sitting away

you? Just on your app sitting away trying to [\h__\h] some [\h__\h] anyone.

trying to [\h__\h] some [\h__\h] anyone.

trying to [\h__\h] some [\h__\h] anyone. >> No, you don't ever call yourself anyone.

>> No, you don't ever call yourself anyone.

>> No, you don't ever call yourself anyone. Don't call yourself anyone. You are more

Don't call yourself anyone. You are more

Don't call yourself anyone. You are more than anyone.

than anyone.

than anyone. >> I am [\h__\h] nobody. And you don't know

>> I am [\h__\h] nobody. And you don't know

>> I am [\h__\h] nobody. And you don't know me.

me.

me. >> I do though.

>> I do though.

>> I do though. >> So don't tell me I am [\h__\h] somebody.

>> So don't tell me I am [\h__\h] somebody.

>> So don't tell me I am [\h__\h] somebody. Up until 3 weeks ago, I was nobody to

Up until 3 weeks ago, I was nobody to

Up until 3 weeks ago, I was nobody to you.

you.

you. >> Don't talk like that.

>> Don't talk like that.

>> Don't talk like that. >> And and and who's around if I get hit by

>> And and and who's around if I get hit by

>> And and and who's around if I get hit by a bus tomorrow and goes, "Oh my god,

a bus tomorrow and goes, "Oh my god,

a bus tomorrow and goes, "Oh my god, where did JD go?"

where did JD go?"

where did JD go?" >> I would go I would go, "Where did JD

>> I would go I would go, "Where did JD

>> I would go I would go, "Where did JD go?"

go?"

go?" >> Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Cuz you want to get

>> Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Cuz you want to get

>> Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Cuz you want to get your dick. So

your dick. So

your dick. So >> No, it's not just that. It's not just

>> No, it's not just that. It's not just

>> No, it's not just that. It's not just that. You have to know that. You have to

that. You have to know that. You have to

that. You have to know that. You have to believe me that it's not that.

believe me that it's not that.

believe me that it's not that. >> You want a condom?

>> No.

>> No.

>> No. >> Oh, wow. So, not only did you want to

>> Oh, wow. So, not only did you want to

>> Oh, wow. So, not only did you want to rump me tonight, you wanted me to assume

rump me tonight, you wanted me to assume

rump me tonight, you wanted me to assume that everything was fine.

that everything was fine.

that everything was fine. >> I

>> I

>> I I promise everything is fine. We just

I promise everything is fine. We just

I promise everything is fine. We just going to go and wank each other off,

going to go and wank each other off,

going to go and wank each other off, weren't we?

weren't we?

weren't we? >> If you tell me that everything's fine, I

>> If you tell me that everything's fine, I

>> If you tell me that everything's fine, I will believe you and I promise that

will believe you and I promise that

will believe you and I promise that everything is fine with me. I promise.

everything is fine with me. I promise.

everything is fine with me. I promise. >> Yeah. And the reason people have got

>> Yeah. And the reason people have got

>> Yeah. And the reason people have got problems out in the world is because of

problems out in the world is because of

problems out in the world is because of exactly what you just said to me. I'll

exactly what you just said to me. I'll

exactly what you just said to me. I'll tell you I'm fine and then you tell me

tell you I'm fine and then you tell me

tell you I'm fine and then you tell me you're fine and we'll trust each other

you're fine and we'll trust each other

you're fine and we'll trust each other even though we don't know each other.

even though we don't know each other.

even though we don't know each other. THIS IS NOT SOME ONE night bathroom

THIS IS NOT SOME ONE night bathroom

THIS IS NOT SOME ONE night bathroom [\h__\h] Okay.

[\h__\h] Okay.

[\h__\h] Okay. That's not what this is to me.

That's not what this is to me.

That's not what this is to me. >> You're good. You're good.

>> You're good. You're good.

>> You're good. You're good. >> This is not a game. This is not a trick.

>> This is not a game. This is not a trick.

>> This is not a game. This is not a trick. You know, I was trying to be playful

You know, I was trying to be playful

You know, I was trying to be playful last night

last night

last night because I can just see how desperate you

because I can just see how desperate you

because I can just see how desperate you are. And desperation is not a good thing

are. And desperation is not a good thing

are. And desperation is not a good thing because it leads you to make mistakes.

because it leads you to make mistakes.

because it leads you to make mistakes. It leads you to trust people you

It leads you to trust people you

It leads you to trust people you shouldn't trust. So, I was being playful

shouldn't trust. So, I was being playful

shouldn't trust. So, I was being playful with you last night. A little bit of

with you last night. A little bit of

with you last night. A little bit of tease because I know this meeting up

tease because I know this meeting up

tease because I know this meeting up with strangers in the night is new to

with strangers in the night is new to

with strangers in the night is new to you. All right? But ultimately, I was

you. All right? But ultimately, I was

you. All right? But ultimately, I was trying to protect you from yourself and

trying to protect you from yourself and

trying to protect you from yourself and your own desperation to get anybody.

your own desperation to get anybody.

your own desperation to get anybody. Just somebody who will love you. And

Just somebody who will love you. And

Just somebody who will love you. And trust me, I've been there. And I know

trust me, I've been there. And I know

trust me, I've been there. And I know just getting anybody to try and love you

just getting anybody to try and love you

just getting anybody to try and love you does not [\h__\h] work.

does not [\h__\h] work.

does not [\h__\h] work. >> I don't want anybody. I want you. I want

>> I don't want anybody. I want you. I want

>> I don't want anybody. I want you. I want you.

you.

you. >> Oh, cuz you spent one night with me. You

>> Oh, cuz you spent one night with me. You

>> Oh, cuz you spent one night with me. You What do you know about me?

What do you know about me?

What do you know about me? I know.

I know.

I know. >> And you were going to clamber into bed

>> And you were going to clamber into bed

>> And you were going to clamber into bed with me after knowing nothing. Okay. Cuz

with me after knowing nothing. Okay. Cuz

with me after knowing nothing. Okay. Cuz that makes you look really good.

that makes you look really good.

that makes you look really good. >> Why are you saying this? Why are you

>> Why are you saying this? Why are you

>> Why are you saying this? Why are you doing this?

doing this?

doing this? >> Cuz I'm fed up of being messed around by

>> Cuz I'm fed up of being messed around by

>> Cuz I'm fed up of being messed around by people like you spent my whole life mess

people like you spent my whole life mess

people like you spent my whole life mess you around.

you around.

you around. >> And what the hell is someone like you

>> And what the hell is someone like you

>> And what the hell is someone like you interested in me for anyway? I'm 5 years

interested in me for anyway? I'm 5 years

interested in me for anyway? I'm 5 years older than you. I [\h__\h] look like

older than you. I [\h__\h] look like

older than you. I [\h__\h] look like this. I've seen better [\h__\h] days and

this. I've seen better [\h__\h] days and

this. I've seen better [\h__\h] days and then I went and got smacked up off of my

then I went and got smacked up off of my

then I went and got smacked up off of my head for years and that's why I end up

head for years and that's why I end up

head for years and that's why I end up looking [laughter] like this. And look

looking [laughter] like this. And look

looking [laughter] like this. And look at you. All cute. I don't care how old

at you. All cute. I don't care how old

at you. All cute. I don't care how old you are. I don't care.

you are. I don't care.

you are. I don't care. >> Shut up, your little fresh face. All

>> Shut up, your little fresh face. All

>> Shut up, your little fresh face. All right. What was it? You wanted to go and

right. What was it? You wanted to go and

right. What was it? You wanted to go and bang an older guy, too.

bang an older guy, too.

bang an older guy, too. >> No, it's not that. It's not that. I want

>> No, it's not that. It's not that. I want

>> No, it's not that. It's not that. I want I don't want to just bang you. I want to

I don't want to just bang you. I want to

I don't want to just bang you. I want to make love to you. I want you to make

make love to you. I want you to make

make love to you. I want you to make love to me.

love to me.

love to me. JD, please.

JD, please.

JD, please. >> You

>> You

>> You must think I'm [\h__\h] stupid.

must think I'm [\h__\h] stupid.

must think I'm [\h__\h] stupid. >> I don't I don't think you're stupid.

>> I don't I don't think you're stupid.

>> I don't I don't think you're stupid. >> Kate,

>> Kate,

>> Kate, >> get out of my face.

>> get out of my face.

>> get out of my face. >> No. No, no, no.

>> No. No, no, no.

>> No. No, no, no. >> You got to pop her back.

[sighs and gasps]

[sighs]

JD,

JD,

JD, are you okay?

Look, I'm sorry. Okay, I didn't mean to

Look, I'm sorry. Okay, I didn't mean to

Look, I'm sorry. Okay, I didn't mean to put any pressure on you at all. I just

put any pressure on you at all. I just

put any pressure on you at all. I just want to know if you're okay.

Look, please, just just say something to

Look, please, just just say something to

Look, please, just just say something to me, okay?

We can reset this whole thing. We can

We can reset this whole thing. We can

We can reset this whole thing. We can talk about what happened. It doesn't

talk about what happened. It doesn't

talk about what happened. It doesn't have to be

have to be

have to be all this. We can just talk.

all this. We can just talk.

all this. We can just talk. >> Please.

>> Please.

>> Please. >> Reset what? We can't reset something

>> Reset what? We can't reset something

>> Reset what? We can't reset something when nothing started.

when nothing started.

when nothing started. >> Don't say that.

>> Don't say that.

>> Don't say that. >> Don't say what?

>> Don't say what?

>> Don't say what? >> Don't say the truth. Don't say nothing

>> Don't say the truth. Don't say nothing

>> Don't say the truth. Don't say nothing started because you know something was

started because you know something was

started because you know something was there cuz I felt something and I know

there cuz I felt something and I know

there cuz I felt something and I know you felt something.

you felt something.

you felt something. What about last night?

What about last night?

What about last night? >> What about it? You had a panic attack

>> What about it? You had a panic attack

>> What about it? You had a panic attack probably because you didn't get me to

probably because you didn't get me to

probably because you didn't get me to [\h__\h] you.

[\h__\h] you.

[\h__\h] you. >> No, that was that was not the reason.

>> No, that was that was not the reason.

>> No, that was that was not the reason. Okay, I

Okay, I

Okay, I sometimes that just happens. Okay, maybe

sometimes that just happens. Okay, maybe

sometimes that just happens. Okay, maybe I'm not perfect,

I'm not perfect,

I'm not perfect, but the way you held me last night, no

but the way you held me last night, no

but the way you held me last night, no one has ever done anything like that for

one has ever done anything like that for

one has ever done anything like that for me.

me.

me. Okay. Okay. We can just talk. We can

Okay. Okay. We can just talk. We can

Okay. Okay. We can just talk. We can just talk. Okay. Why are

just talk. Okay. Why are

just talk. Okay. Why are >> you in my face?

Just

Just

Just >> Why don't you just get back on your app

>> Why don't you just get back on your app

>> Why don't you just get back on your app and go and find someone who's an easier

and go and find someone who's an easier

and go and find someone who's an easier screw than

screw than

screw than >> No, this is not about that for me.

>> No, this is not about that for me.

>> No, this is not about that for me. >> You guys are all the same little gay

>> You guys are all the same little gay

>> You guys are all the same little gay boys on your little [\h__\h] apps just

boys on your little [\h__\h] apps just

boys on your little [\h__\h] apps just thinking we're all a bit of meat that

thinking we're all a bit of meat that

thinking we're all a bit of meat that you can pick up and down when you want

you can pick up and down when you want

you can pick up and down when you want it. Yes, it is. You just went on the app

it. Yes, it is. You just went on the app

it. Yes, it is. You just went on the app and you thought, "Oh, he looks like a

and you thought, "Oh, he looks like a

and you thought, "Oh, he looks like a dumb enough [\h__\h] to sleep with." Well,

dumb enough [\h__\h] to sleep with." Well,

dumb enough [\h__\h] to sleep with." Well, there's a million others of them on

there's a million others of them on

there's a million others of them on there.

there.

there. >> I did not think that.

>> I did not think that.

>> I did not think that. >> Lucky me.

>> Lucky me.

>> Lucky me. >> There were people saying, "Do you want

>> There were people saying, "Do you want

>> There were people saying, "Do you want to [clears throat] [\h__\h] Do you want to

to [clears throat] [\h__\h] Do you want to

to [clears throat] [\h__\h] Do you want to [\h__\h] Do you want to fuck?" And you were

[\h__\h] Do you want to fuck?" And you were

[\h__\h] Do you want to fuck?" And you were the only guy. You said, "Do you want to

the only guy. You said, "Do you want to

the only guy. You said, "Do you want to come to the beach?" And I did. I wanted

come to the beach?" And I did. I wanted

come to the beach?" And I did. I wanted to go with someone nice for once.

to go with someone nice for once.

to go with someone nice for once. Someone nice.

Someone nice.

Someone nice. >> A bit more of a challenge for you.

>> A bit more of a challenge for you.

>> A bit more of a challenge for you. >> No, not a challenge. This isn't about

>> No, not a challenge. This isn't about

>> No, not a challenge. This isn't about sex.

sex.

sex. Even now, you just you give it the face

Even now, you just you give it the face

Even now, you just you give it the face and the the high emotion in your voice,

and the the high emotion in your voice,

and the the high emotion in your voice, thinking I'm dumb enough to fall for all

thinking I'm dumb enough to fall for all

thinking I'm dumb enough to fall for all of it. I've had a million guys tell me

of it. I've had a million guys tell me

of it. I've had a million guys tell me lies like you before. You are nothing

lies like you before. You are nothing

lies like you before. You are nothing new.

new.

new. >> This is not a lie. Okay, this is not a

>> This is not a lie. Okay, this is not a

>> This is not a lie. Okay, this is not a lie. I really like you. I really like

lie. I really like you. I really like

lie. I really like you. I really like you.

you.

you. I know this could be something. Please

I know this could be something. Please

I know this could be something. Please just

just

just >> Why? Why don't you go?

>> Why? Why don't you go?

>> Why? Why don't you go? >> I don't want to go.

>> I don't want to go.

>> I don't want to go. >> I want to be here with you.

>> I want to be here with you.

>> I want to be here with you. >> Do you?

>> Do you?

>> Do you? >> Yes. Should I make you not want to be

>> Yes. Should I make you not want to be

>> Yes. Should I make you not want to be here? What do

here? What do

here? What do >> you mean? But there's nothing.

>> you mean? But there's nothing.

>> you mean? But there's nothing. >> Shall I help you?

>> Shall I help you?

>> Shall I help you? >> There is nothing you could do. There is

>> There is nothing you could do. There is

>> There is nothing you could do. There is nothing you could do.

nothing you could do.

nothing you could do. >> Shall I help you?

>> Shall I help you?

>> Shall I help you? >> There's nothing you could do. I want to

>> There's nothing you could do. I want to

>> There's nothing you could do. I want to be here with you. Yes.

be here with you. Yes.

be here with you. Yes. >> Okay. Okay.

>> Okay. Okay.

>> Okay. Okay. >> Yeah. Okay.

>> Yeah. Okay.

>> Yeah. Okay. >> I've got a hepatitis.

>> What? What?

>> What? What?

>> What? What? >> I think you heard me.

>> I think you heard me.

>> I think you heard me. >> You still want to be here with me, do

>> You still want to be here with me, do

>> You still want to be here with me, do you? Are you Are you serious?

you? Are you Are you serious?

you? Are you Are you serious? >> You worried about me breathing on you,

>> You worried about me breathing on you,

>> You worried about me breathing on you, the walking disease that I am?

the walking disease that I am?

the walking disease that I am? >> No.

>> No.

>> No. >> No. I I I didn't mean anything. I'm just

>> No. I I I didn't mean anything. I'm just

>> No. I I I didn't mean anything. I'm just >> Just go on then. We can make up, can't

>> Just go on then. We can make up, can't

>> Just go on then. We can make up, can't we? Because we've got one awkward night

we? Because we've got one awkward night

we? Because we've got one awkward night together. And you can stand rather than

together. And you can stand rather than

together. And you can stand rather than this close to me by later. You can stand

this close to me by later. You can stand

this close to me by later. You can stand the other side of the kitchen and you

the other side of the kitchen and you

the other side of the kitchen and you can play nicy nice to hope that you

can play nicy nice to hope that you

can play nicy nice to hope that you don't escape. You know, that you don't

don't escape. You know, that you don't

don't escape. You know, that you don't leave here having caught something.

leave here having caught something.

leave here having caught something. So you just be nice to me till tomorrow.

So you just be nice to me till tomorrow.

So you just be nice to me till tomorrow. Be understanding. Pull that sympathetic

Be understanding. Pull that sympathetic

Be understanding. Pull that sympathetic face that you do.

face that you do.

face that you do. And then tomorrow

And then tomorrow

And then tomorrow you'll [\h__\h] off like all the rest. I I

you'll [\h__\h] off like all the rest. I I

you'll [\h__\h] off like all the rest. I I don't I don't

don't I don't

don't I don't know.

know.

know. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm

I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm

I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I didn't mean No, it's not that.

sorry. I didn't mean No, it's not that.

sorry. I didn't mean No, it's not that. It's not that. It's not that. I'm sorry.

It's not that. It's not that. I'm sorry.

It's not that. It's not that. I'm sorry. It's I need like a second. Okay. I keep

It's I need like a second. Okay. I keep

It's I need like a second. Okay. I keep saying to you that you don't know

saying to you that you don't know

saying to you that you don't know anything about me. And now the one

anything about me. And now the one

anything about me. And now the one proper thing you do know about me, you

proper thing you do know about me, you

proper thing you do know about me, you don't accept. And you want to run like

don't accept. And you want to run like

don't accept. And you want to run like the [\h__\h] wind. And I knew that.

the [\h__\h] wind. And I knew that.

the [\h__\h] wind. And I knew that. And it would have been so easy for me to

And it would have been so easy for me to

And it would have been so easy for me to sleep with you yesterday. It would have

sleep with you yesterday. It would have

sleep with you yesterday. It would have been so [\h__\h] easy.

been so [\h__\h] easy.

been so [\h__\h] easy. I'm sorry.

I'm sorry.

I'm sorry. >> But I didn't. Did I?

>> But I didn't. Did I?

>> But I didn't. Did I? Sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. Sorry.

Sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. Sorry.

Sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. Sorry. Look, can we just

Look, can we just

Look, can we just >> I'm a disease.

>> I'm a disease.

>> I'm a disease. >> No, you're not. You're not. You're a

>> No, you're not. You're not. You're a

>> No, you're not. You're not. You're a good person. You're a good

I need a minute. Like, okay, just this

I need a minute. Like, okay, just this

I need a minute. Like, okay, just this is just I just need a minute. I just

is just I just need a minute. I just

is just I just need a minute. I just need a minute. I'm sorry. I just need a

need a minute. I'm sorry. I just need a

need a minute. I'm sorry. I just need a minute. Okay. Okay.

minute. Okay. Okay.

minute. Okay. Okay. >> You [\h__\h] off then.

[snorts]

>> [sighs]

>> [sighs]

>> [sighs] [snorts]

>> Heat. Heat.

Don't worry, you can't catch it from

Don't worry, you can't catch it from

Don't worry, you can't catch it from that.

I'm sorry. Okay.

I didn't know.

I didn't know.

I didn't know. I just I wish you told me that. No, no,

I just I wish you told me that. No, no,

I just I wish you told me that. No, no, no.

no.

no. I want to know. Okay. I want to know

I want to know. Okay. I want to know

I want to know. Okay. I want to know everything about you.

everything about you.

everything about you. [clears throat]

But have I got it? I believe I know

I was doing stuff I shouldn't have been

I was doing stuff I shouldn't have been

I was doing stuff I shouldn't have been doing.

I'm going to be 30 years old next year.

I'm going to be 30 years old next year.

I'm going to be 30 years old next year. I haven't got an awful lot to show for

I haven't got an awful lot to show for

I haven't got an awful lot to show for that.

that.

that. And I've already had this [\h__\h] going on

And I've already had this [\h__\h] going on

And I've already had this [\h__\h] going on for far too long. That's not how someone

for far too long. That's not how someone

for far too long. That's not how someone should spend their 20s.

Well,

>> maybe you don't have to spend your life

>> maybe you don't have to spend your life

>> maybe you don't have to spend your life like that anymore.

>> I'll always have to spend a lot. No.

>> I'll always have to spend a lot. No.

>> I'll always have to spend a lot. No. and I'll always know who I am.

and I'll always know who I am.

and I'll always know who I am. >> I want to know who you are. I want you

>> I want to know who you are. I want you

>> I want to know who you are. I want you to tell me things. I want to be here for

to tell me things. I want to be here for

to tell me things. I want to be here for you. Okay.

you. Okay.

you. Okay. >> You say that you'll be gone.

>> You say that you'll be gone.

>> You say that you'll be gone. Everyone goes in the end.

Everyone goes in the end.

Everyone goes in the end. >> I won't go.

>> I won't go.

>> I won't go. >> You were just trying to make it through

>> You were just trying to make it through

>> You were just trying to make it through tonight.

tonight.

tonight. >> No. No. No.

>> No. No. No.

>> No. No. No. Please. I just

Please. I just

Please. I just I want you to talk to me. I want you to

I want you to talk to me. I want you to

I want you to talk to me. I want you to open up to me and I want you to trust

open up to me and I want you to trust

open up to me and I want you to trust me.

me.

me. >> What?

Just tell me everything. Tell me what

Just tell me everything. Tell me what

Just tell me everything. Tell me what happened. Tell me what's going on inside

happened. Tell me what's going on inside

happened. Tell me what's going on inside your head now. Please.

I can be here for you the way you were

I can be here for you the way you were

I can be here for you the way you were there for me.

there for me.

there for me. I was taking money for things I

I was taking money for things I

I was taking money for things I shouldn't have been doing, taking far

shouldn't have been doing, taking far

shouldn't have been doing, taking far too many risks. I don't think I need to

too many risks. I don't think I need to

too many risks. I don't think I need to spell that out.

spell that out.

spell that out. >> It's okay.

>> It's okay.

>> It's okay. >> And I had a drug addiction to food.

>> And I had a drug addiction to food.

>> And I had a drug addiction to food. That [\h__\h] gets so far inside your head.

That [\h__\h] gets so far inside your head.

That [\h__\h] gets so far inside your head. Eats away every part of you. You can

Eats away every part of you. You can

Eats away every part of you. You can feel it oozing through your [\h__\h]

feel it oozing through your [\h__\h]

feel it oozing through your [\h__\h] veins every time you go without.

veins every time you go without.

veins every time you go without. It takes a hold of you and it takes over

It takes a hold of you and it takes over

It takes a hold of you and it takes over you. And you will do anything.

you. And you will do anything.

you. And you will do anything. Even if that means [\h__\h] somebody

Even if that means [\h__\h] somebody

Even if that means [\h__\h] somebody because you want it.

It's not okay because everything I've

It's not okay because everything I've

It's not okay because everything I've ever done has been a complete [\h__\h]

ever done has been a complete [\h__\h]

ever done has been a complete [\h__\h] And my recklessness led me to where I am

And my recklessness led me to where I am

And my recklessness led me to where I am now.

now.

now. >> Yeah, but you're here now.

>> Yeah, but you're here now.

>> Yeah, but you're here now. >> I didn't even want to meet you.

>> I didn't even want to meet you.

>> I didn't even want to meet you. >> You're here.

>> You're here.

>> You're here. >> You didn't want to meet me.

>> You didn't want to meet me.

>> You didn't want to meet me. >> No.

>> No.

>> No. >> But you did.

>> But you did.

>> But you did. >> Yeah.

>> Yeah.

>> Yeah. >> But you came

>> But you came

>> But you came >> because you were nice to me.

>> because you were nice to me.

>> because you were nice to me. >> And I knew one day you'd have to find

>> And I knew one day you'd have to find

>> And I knew one day you'd have to find out. It was my worst [\h__\h] fear that I

out. It was my worst [\h__\h] fear that I

out. It was my worst [\h__\h] fear that I would meet you this weekend. And you'd

would meet you this weekend. And you'd

would meet you this weekend. And you'd want to do what normal people do, like

want to do what normal people do, like

want to do what normal people do, like go upstairs to the bedroom

and enjoy each other. And normal people

and enjoy each other. And normal people

and enjoy each other. And normal people get to do that and they don't have to

get to do that and they don't have to

get to do that and they don't have to worry about it.

worry about it.

worry about it. And most of the time, people don't even

And most of the time, people don't even

And most of the time, people don't even have to wear protection. They don't even

have to wear protection. They don't even

have to wear protection. They don't even have to worry

have to worry

have to worry about hurting somebody they're with.

about hurting somebody they're with.

about hurting somebody they're with. But I'm not that person. And I may be a

But I'm not that person. And I may be a

But I'm not that person. And I may be a lot of things, but I'm not that person.

lot of things, but I'm not that person.

lot of things, but I'm not that person. I'm not that person that could walk away

I'm not that person that could walk away

I'm not that person that could walk away from here knowing for my own selfish

from here knowing for my own selfish

from here knowing for my own selfish reasons, I took advantage of you

reasons, I took advantage of you

reasons, I took advantage of you and gave you this. It's cuz you're a

and gave you this. It's cuz you're a

and gave you this. It's cuz you're a good person. But

good person. But

good person. But >> it doesn't matter because I'm still

>> it doesn't matter because I'm still

>> it doesn't matter because I'm still this.

this.

this. >> I don't care. I don't care if you're

>> I don't care. I don't care if you're

>> I don't care. I don't care if you're this.

this.

this. >> I want to do normal things that normal

>> I want to do normal things that normal

>> I want to do normal things that normal people would do.

I don't care about being normal. You

I don't care about being normal. You

I don't care about being normal. You shouldn't care about being normal.

shouldn't care about being normal.

shouldn't care about being normal. Okay. What is normal? What does that

Okay. What is normal? What does that

Okay. What is normal? What does that mean?

mean?

mean? You're special.

You're special.

You're special. >> I don't want to be a disease on [\h__\h]

>> I don't want to be a disease on [\h__\h]

>> I don't want to be a disease on [\h__\h] >> [\h__\h] disease.

>> [\h__\h] disease.

>> [\h__\h] disease. You're you.

You're you.

You're you. You're you.

You're you.

You're you. Okay.

Okay.

Okay. >> And I give it I give it all the time.

>> And I give it I give it all the time.

>> And I give it I give it all the time. You know, I come in and oh, I don't give

You know, I come in and oh, I don't give

You know, I come in and oh, I don't give a [\h__\h] about anything and oh, I'm so

a [\h__\h] about anything and oh, I'm so

a [\h__\h] about anything and oh, I'm so larger than life and I make a joke of

larger than life and I make a joke of

larger than life and I make a joke of everything. I'm so funny.

everything. I'm so funny.

everything. I'm so funny. >> You know that's [\h__\h]

>> You know that's [\h__\h]

>> You know that's [\h__\h] because of what you've got inside you.

because of what you've got inside you.

because of what you've got inside you. You know that's [\h__\h] And underneath

You know that's [\h__\h] And underneath

You know that's [\h__\h] And underneath you're so much more than that. I can see

you're so much more than that. I can see

you're so much more than that. I can see that. You've let me see that.

that. You've let me see that.

that. You've let me see that. An exerimental

An exerimental

An exerimental gay boy

gay boy

gay boy with filth running through his veins.

with filth running through his veins.

with filth running through his veins. You know, the best thing I ever did in

You know, the best thing I ever did in

You know, the best thing I ever did in my life, the only thing I can say I ever

my life, the only thing I can say I ever

my life, the only thing I can say I ever achieved was not being a junkie. I was

achieved was not being a junkie. I was

achieved was not being a junkie. I was one and then I worked hard to not be

one and then I worked hard to not be

one and then I worked hard to not be one. Isn't it a [\h__\h] achievement?

one. Isn't it a [\h__\h] achievement?

one. Isn't it a [\h__\h] achievement? >> That's such

>> That's such

>> That's such >> It's not an achievement.

>> It's not an achievement.

>> It's not an achievement. >> It is an achievement

>> It is an achievement

>> It is an achievement >> because I shouldn't have been it in the

>> because I shouldn't have been it in the

>> because I shouldn't have been it in the first place.

first place.

first place. >> You wake so much more than you think

>> You wake so much more than you think

>> You wake so much more than you think you're worth. You are worth something.

you're worth. You are worth something.

you're worth. You are worth something. And you have to see that. And I want to

And you have to see that. And I want to

And you have to see that. And I want to make you see that. That you have

make you see that. That you have

make you see that. That you have something.

something.

something. That you are something. You're something

That you are something. You're something

That you are something. You're something to me. Okay.

And even watching you last night as you

And even watching you last night as you

And even watching you last night as you panned for breath in bed, I have felt

panned for breath in bed, I have felt

panned for breath in bed, I have felt that so many times.

Always wondering if I was going to get

Always wondering if I was going to get

Always wondering if I was going to get sicker and sicker and not understanding

sicker and sicker and not understanding

sicker and sicker and not understanding anything about what was happening in my

anything about what was happening in my

anything about what was happening in my body. And I felt so alone because I

body. And I felt so alone because I

body. And I felt so alone because I didn't have family and I didn't have

didn't have family and I didn't have

didn't have family and I didn't have friends. They'd all come and gone. When

friends. They'd all come and gone. When

friends. They'd all come and gone. When the good time was over, they were

the good time was over, they were

the good time was over, they were nowhere to be seen. And I was so scared.

so alone.

so alone.

so alone. Then let me be here for you. Let

Then let me be here for you. Let

Then let me be here for you. Let let me be the person who makes you not

let me be the person who makes you not

let me be the person who makes you not alone. Okay.

Okay.

Okay.

Okay. It's going to be okay,

J. It's going to be okay.

J. It's going to be okay.

J. It's going to be okay. You're okay.

You're okay.

>> I don't want to be me.

It's okay.

It's okay.

It's okay. I want you to be you. I want you.

I want you to be you. I want you.

I want you to be you. I want you. [snorts]

Don't want to [\h__\h] be me anymore.

Don't want to [\h__\h] be me anymore.

Don't want to [\h__\h] be me anymore. It's okay.

[snorts]

It's okay.

It's okay.

It's okay. [groaning]

[groaning]

[groaning] You're okay. [panting]

[snorts]

Sorry. Never have to be sorry. You never

Sorry. Never have to be sorry. You never

Sorry. Never have to be sorry. You never have to be sorry for doing this. You

have to be sorry for doing this. You

have to be sorry for doing this. You never have to be sorry for anything you

never have to be sorry for anything you

never have to be sorry for anything you say to me.

It's okay.

It's okay.

So, what's next?

So, what's next?

So, what's next? >> Go for a walk. See if a shop's open.

>> Go for a walk. See if a shop's open.

>> Go for a walk. See if a shop's open. >> And then what's next for us?

>> And then what's next for us?

>> And then what's next for us? >> I know.

I want to be with you.

I want to be with you.

I want to be with you. Do you want to be with me?

Do you want to be with me?

Do you want to be with me? >> Yes.

>> Yes.

>> Yes. just want to start living again. I want

just want to start living again. I want

just want to start living again. I want my life back. I want something