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♫ For whom will the summer slow down ♫

♫ Loud cicadas chirp complicated feelings ♫

♫ I wonder what kind of scenery awaits us ♫

♫ For whom will the movie change its story ♫

♫ A sudden storm, blurred vision ♫

♫ I wonder if it's going to be a starry night ♫

♫ As the last spark from the fireworks fade ♫

♫ It reminds me something's better to be said earlier than later ♫

♫ Just like that I've never stopped loving you ♫

♫ In the sleepless winter night ♫

♫ A season to say goodbye ♫

♫ I try my best to be brave ♫

♫ We will keep on going like this ♫

♫ The secret of the answer ♫

♫ An insoluble question ♫

♫ All comes down to a simple thank you ♫

[Our Secret]

[Episode 18: I Have to Make My Own Choices]

President, is Xing Lufei here yet? They are asking for costumes again.

Hold on.

I'll call her.

Okay.

What's the hurry? Here I am.

Great.

Are the costumes ready?

Almost ready. We only need two more.

Take a look at the chart.

See how far you are behind the schedule.

Lufei, where did you get the chocolate?

Zhou Siyue gave it to me.

Song Ziqi,

didn't you say you'd rather die than eat the food I bring?

Zhou Siyue.

Why did you give the chocolate to her?

Xing Lufei took it herself.

No more excuses.

Just tell me if you don't like me.

Why did you do this to me?

Let me ask you.

You don't think I should join the scientific research group, do you?

I don't.

You don't care at all.

You know that I chose the Computer Science Department.

and joined the scientific research group for you,

so we can be together all the time.

I tried so hard to get close to you, and I don't care at all if this field fits me or if I'm good at it.

But as it turns out,

you don't even care to do anything to respond to my confession.

Because all I care about is if it's the right choice for you.

Ding Xian,

I told you the day when you came to the group for an interview

that I hoped you could think about yourself before making a choice,

instead of thinking about me first.

Think about what?

I don't understand. I really don't.

You keep saying this is about my choice. Then what's yours?

Do you not have any feelings for me?

Do the three years mean nothing to you?

I get it.

I won't bother you anymore.

Ding Xian!

Hey.

Aren't you going to explain?

Maybe she'll finally start...

to think about herself more after leaving me.

You are only hurting yourself.

[It's time to end all this.]

Please cancel my meeting with the client at 8:00 p.m.

Something's up.

That's it.

Xianxian, what a coincidence.

Senior Brother?

What are you doing here?

I came here to meet with a client. Where are you going? I can give you a ride.

What are you doing outside this late?

I feel bored.

I wanted to take a bus, but I didn't know where to go.

Senior Brother, why are you wearing a suit?

I hardly recognized you.

I'm with a startup company now.

But I still have meetings with my clients every now and then.

So, it's safer to dress formally.

Since you are that busy,

you probably don't have time for dating. Right?

What's wrong?

Nothing. Red light.

I don't have a girlfriend.

So there's no need to worry about whether I have time for dating or not.

Xianxian,

the art exhibition you like has opened.

Would you like to go?

Now?

Yes.

You are so fascinated.

Feels like I can only relax myself

when I appreciate art.

I remember you were quite good at drawing.

Do you still draw?

Yes.

I joined the Anime & Comics Club in school.

I'll draw when there are activities.

I think you should stick to drawing. Don't waste your talent.

But...

I'm feeling lost.

Did something happen today?

You look upset.

It's okay.

You don't have to talk about it if you don't feel like it.

Everybody has their time of confusion.

Either feeling lost or making changes in life,

you can always find a path that suits you the best.

But most importantly, never forget why you started.

Besides,

you don't need to follow in anyone's footsteps.

[Huaqing University]

Where's Ding Xian?

She asked for a day off. She said she was not feeling well.

Why does Ding Xian ask for leave so often lately?

At this rate, Professor Ye may make her quit.

You talk too much.

Hello? Dad.

Hello? Xianxian.

How have you been doing?

You haven't called home for a long time.

I've been caught up with studying.

What's wrong with your voice? Do you have a cold?

What? She got a cold?

Let her drink more water.

Is she wearing less? Trying to show off how pretty she is?

Let her go to see a doctor if it's serious.

Did you hear what your mom said?

I didn't.

I'm all fine. Don't worry.

Is there anything wrong?

Tell me if something happened.

You wouldn't understand anyway.

Xianxian, listen to me.

The season is changing. You need to stay warm.

Make sure to put more layers on.

When you come back, I'll cook you something nice.

Mom, I'm doing very well.

Don't worry about me.

I'm a little busy here.

I've got to go.

Either Arts or Science, don't mind what others say,

just go ahead and choose the subject that you like and are good at.

No matter what, I'll have your back.

Then what if I tell you he's the one who told Professor Ye

that you aren't suitable for scientific research?

I hope you can think about yourself

before making a choice,

instead of thinking about me first.

You keep saying this is about my choice. Then what's yours?

Do you not have any feelings for me?

Did I wake you up?

Sorry, Senior Brother. I fell asleep.

It's okay. You look tired. You can sleep a little longer.

I don't have much to do today.

No, thanks. Please go back to work.

I'll go back to school.

Thank you.

Okay.

I won't let you get hurt anymore.

[Huaqing University]

You got up so early today.

Yep.

You looked upset before.

I thought something happened to you.

Nothing happened.

Sorry I made you worry.

Never mind.

It's the weekend. Shall we go and have hotpot today?

No.

I'm going to do my own business now.

Hey!

You are still sleeping? I've bought you breakfast.

Be quiet. I've got a headache.

I want to sleep more.

The second set of Radio Exercises for high school students.

A new era is calling.

What's wrong with you? I've got a headache. Let me sleep a little more.

Don't you need to help me clean up when you live here?

Clean up what?

We are both failures in love. Just let me sleep more.

Don't call me a failure.

You've become a drunkard now.

- Hello?
- Zhou Siyue, it's me.

Kong Shadi?

What's up?

Tell me. Is Song Ziqi with you?

No, he's not.

I don't believe you.

I want you to tell me in person.

I'm at the gate of your school right now. Come out.

- But...
- You must come out.

Listen! If you don't, I'll wait for you here until you do.

Hanging up.

Why did you come to...

What should I do?

President, this is my portfolio for the competition of the press.

But the deadline has passed.

Then...

do you have the contact information of the Chief Editor?

Excuse me.

I'm here to see Ms. Sun Yuanxiang, the Chief Editor.

Do you have an appointment?

No.

Then let me make a phone call.

Okay. Thanks.

Shadi.

Where is Song Ziqi?

I really have no idea.

How's that possible?

You are his best friend, aren't you?

If you came just to ask me this,

then I'm leaving.

We've known each other for more than 10 years now.

Are you that repulsed by me?

Shadi, don't get me wrong.

Zhou Siyue,

I'm asking you seriously.

Was Song Ziqi expelled by the school?

I know it already.

I've gone to his school.

He just got a disciplinary punishment and a one-year suspension.

So, you do know everything.

I've always seen you as my close friend.

How could you do this to me?

Shadi,

you've always followed Song Ziqi everywhere.

Ever since kindergarten,

you've been doing everything that he does.

But have you ever thought

that you should control your own life.

Why do you have to take him as your goal and benchmark?

You men are all the same, claiming it's for our own good,

yet acting so pretentious and condescending.

Why do you get to decide everything?

You have no idea how much Song Ziqi means to me.

He broke up with me all of a sudden.

Has he ever thought about my feelings?

Zhou Siyue, you don't understand.

I can't let Song Ziqi disappear from my life.

Have you ever thought about what will happen to you

if Ding Xian disappears from your life one day?

- Wait a moment.
- Okay.

Go ahead.

Thanks.

Have a seat.

Ms. Sun, nice to meet you.

I'm Ding Xian from the Anime & Comics Club of Huaqing University.

I remember you.

How can I help you?

I'd like you to take a look at my drawings.

So, what do you want me to do?

I want to participate in your drawing competition.

But the deadline has passed.

I know.

That's why I'm here to ask

if there's another way to take part in it.

I'll tell you what...

You may leave your portfolio here.

If I don't get back to you by tomorrow,

I'm afraid you'll miss it this time.

Okay. Thank you, Ms. Sun.

I'll wait for your call.

Thanks.

- Xianxian!
- Shadi!

What brings you here?

I've been busy at school.

Could you stay here with me tonight?

But there'll be a roll-call at 11:00 p.m. in my dorm.

I have to go back.

We haven't seen each other for a long time.

Don't you want a besties' night with me?

Fine. You win.

I went to the hospital and checked on Zhou a few days ago.

So, just focus on your research.

I can help you financially.

It's okay. I can support myself.

Don't wear yourself out.

Here's a heads-up for you.

The selection of exchange students has begun.

When you finish this project,

I'm sure you'll be in.

Okay.

One more thing.

Ding Xian came to me a few days ago

and told me she's found something she's more interested in.

She wanted to leave the scientific research group. I agreed.

Good to know.

I had no idea

so many things happened between you and Zhou Siyue.

So, what's the name of that senior girl?

Which department is she from? Do you want me to talk to her?

You missed my point.

What's happened has happened.

I don't want to think of him anymore.

You know what?

I've always thought

that you'd be the one who'd end up with Zhou Siyue.

And now?

I'm not sure anymore.

I think ever since we grew up,

relationship have become much more complicated.

What shall we have for lunch?

What's on your mind?

Actually, I've been thinking about...

What?

Mr. Charming!

What's so interesting about your phone?

You didn't even look at him.

I'm waiting for a call from the press.

Then you and Zhou Siyue...

Don't mention him.

You broke up with him?

Yes. I have a Zen mind now.

I only want to focus on my hobbies.

You'd better.

Ding Xian!

There you are.

President, what's up?

Ms. Sun of Dream Journey Comics Press called to look for you.

I can participate in the competition?

No. She wants to sign you directly.

Sign me?

Really?

Yes.

I told you.

Then, why didn't she call me herself?

She said you left in a hurry, and you didn't leave her your phone number.

How could she contact you?

Oh, right.

Isn't this the popular novel The Shadow

published on the Lijiang Literary website?

You want me to adapt it into a comic?

What do you think?

Do you have confidence?

We've drafted a contract.

Please have a look.

If there's no problem with the payment,

we can proceed to the next step.

May I take this contract back and read it through?

Of course.

But...

we do have quite a few candidates for this project.

I'm worried that someone may beat you to it.

Ms. Sun, since you trust me this much,

I should also trust you.

Mr. Su, this is the sponsoring proposal

of the Anime & Comics Club of Huaqing University you asked.

The contact information is on the last page.

Okay. Thank you.

Hello? Is that Xing Lufei?

Yes, it's me.

I'm not sure if you still remember me.

I'm Su Bocong of Red Horse Technology.

I wonder if you have time for a meal today.

By the way, a few high school classmates of mine also study in Huaqing.

We are talking about a get-together.

You may know them, too.

You've been silent since you came back. It's not like you, Master Zhou.

Did I overreact that day?

Which day?

Don't play dumb.

Not only did you overreact, you also acted like a jerk.

But I only wanted her to do the things that she was interested in...

instead of sacrificing herself for me.

Do you regret it now?

She might ignore you if you went to find her right now.

You deserve it. You brought it on yourself.

[A schoolmate from Shenhai High School asked us to have a meal. Would you join us?]

I thought you didn't like dinner parties.

I have to be there for this one.

Brother Bocong, sorry to have kept you waiting.

Here you are.

Hi. I'm Ji Hang, President of the Anime & Comics Club.

I'm Su Bocong. Nice to meet you.

Take a seat, please.

Xianxian, sit here.

Senior Brother,

so, you are the sponsor of our club.

Ding Xian,

if we'd known you two were this close,

we should've sent you to talk to him about the sponsorship.

Where's Zhou Siyue?

He's on his way over.

Good timing. We've also just arrived. Sit down.

Zhou Siyue, long time no see.

Likewise.

Looks like we all know each other.

Then there's no need for an introduction.

Now, let's start to order.

See what you like to eat.

Xianxian, order whatever you want.

Zhou Siyue, this is for you.

It's my fault that I took your chocolate last time.

I bought one exactly like that for you.

Don't be angry with me anymore.

Now, dig in.

Brother Bocong, you are young and talented.

You are only two years older than us, and you've already become our investor.

You guys are excellent.

I just got lucky

and met someone who appreciates me.

You are too modest.

Xianxian,

this sour soup fish tastes similar to that in our hometown Keshan.

Have a taste.

Ding Xian doesn't like sour stuff.

You don't like it anymore?

Let me give it a try.

How is it?

Well, Brother Bocong,

I'm curious about something.

What is it?

What's your relationship with Sister Ding Xian?

My parents are friends with his family. So, we've known each other since childhood.

You grew up together. So, you are like childhood sweethearts.

I mean Brother Bocong seems to like you a lot.

I do like her.

And I want to hire her after she graduates.

By the way, if you guys want to join us, it'll be my pleasure to have you.

Brother Bocong, you are so nice to Xianxian.

I'll go to the bathroom.

Excuse me for a sec. You guys enjoy it.

Zhou Siyue.

So, what do you want to talk about?

I like Ding Xian.

So what?

I've liked her since childhood.

You hurt Ding Xian badly, and I'll make it up for her.

I'm capable enough to give her a better life.

So, please stay away from her.

What happened between her and me

is none of your business.

Put my relationship with Xianxian aside,

Xianxian's parents asked me to take good care of her.

So, her business is also mine.

What do you mean by your relationship with her?

I'd like to know what kind of...

relationship you were talking about.

Then, what's your relationship with her?

No matter what relationship I have with her now,

Ding Xian will only be with me for the rest of her life.

Xianxia?

Ding Xian.

Ding Xian.

Zhou Siyue, what else do you want?

I was too harsh that day.

I'm sorry.

Since when did you learn to apologize?

Actually, I've been thinking since that day.

I can't imagine

what my life will be like without you in it.

Don't flatter yourself, Zhou Siyue.

Who gave you the right to decide our relationship?

Who gave you the right to make a choice for me?

I told you that I wouldn't let my life revolve around you anymore.

You don't have to explain anything.

Ding Xian.

Please calm down.

- As a matter of fact...
- Calm down?

Do you really think I can't live without you, Zhou Siyue?

Or is it fun for you to play me like a fool?

You just got used to having me around.

But I'm tired of it now.

It's time to end it.

♫ It has been a long day, a long day,
I haven't found you ♫

♫ You got to stay in the light, all right ♫

♫ I'm going to be another side ♫

♫ It has been a long day, a long day,
I haven't heard from you ♫

♫ And I've been waiting too ♫

Xianxian.

Get in. I'll drive you back.

Xianxian.

I saw that you didn't like the dishes today.

Would you like me to take you to eat something else?

Thank you, Senior Brother,

but I'm not hungry.

You heard my conversation with Zhou Siyue, didn't you?

Just part of it.

But it's enough already for me.

It's over now.

I won't feel upset for him anymore.

Let me go back to Shenhai with you during the New Year's holiday.

You can take some time to relax.

I can't. I still need to go to Huai City for an anime expo.

Kong Shadi.

It's me.

You know what?

I just had a nightmare,

in which Kong Shadi and I were stuck in a rainforest.

We were on a tree, and under it were a bunch of crocodiles.

She said to me,

"Song Ziqi, jump off and let the crocodiles eat you." And then "Bang," she pushed me off.

So horrible.

Song Ziqi.

I have a question for you.

If one day Kong Shadi disappeared,

what would you do?

Why do you ask such a ridiculous question?

I've thought carefully about it.

I think it's completely over between us.

I suggest you give up, too.

If Song Ziqi wanted to see you,

he would've come to find you already.

Please don't put your love curse on me. Okay?

I will find Song Ziqi no matter where he is.

Even if it's over, I must find out why.

Actually, why is not that important.

You are just forcing yourself to believe that it's not important.

Are you sure you can give up this easily?

I can't.

I know it won't be easy for me to give up.

And my heart beats fast every time I see him.

But I have to tell myself...

to control my feelings as long as possible.

All right.

I'll have your back whatever decision you make.

- Bye-bye.
- Bye-bye.

Zhou Siyue, how have I become the one

who understands you the least?

Why can't you just be honest with me?

Zhou Siyue, it's been four years now.

You think I've never confirmed it myself?

I've asked myself countless times if I really like you

or just an illusion in puberty.

If there's only one thing in this world I'm sure about,

it's my feelings for you.

♫ How many days and nights do I have to wait? ♫

You just got used to having me around.

But I'm tired of it now.

It's time to end it.

♫ It may take a lifetime to reach it ♫

♫ Your name has long been engraved in my heart ♫

[To Xian: Congratulations on getting your first job.]

- Hello? Xian.
- Hello? Senior Brother.

I saw the gift you gave me.

It's too valuable. I can't take it.

You must keep it.

I knew you wouldn't take it if I gave it to you in person,

so I asked someone to put it in your room.

If you really think it's too valuable to accept,

just use it to draw more and better works.

Consider it an investment from me.

Thank you.

Then I'll start to save money. When your birthday...

Excuse me, Xianxian.

I've got another line waiting. I have to go now.

Okay.

All right. Bye.

Bye-bye.

Song Ziqi.

Hello?

- Where are you?
- Since Kong Shadi is here,

I'm worried that she'll stalk you and find me,

so I'm in hiding now.

Good for you.

I'm hanging up.

Song Ziqi?

Miss, you've got the wrong person.

Who is Song Ziqi?

Song Ziqi.

Song Ziqi, stop!

Wait for me.

Hello? Shadi.

Hello? Ding Xian.

Zhou Siyue is such a liar.

What did he do to you?

He told me he didn't know where Song Ziqi was.

Song Ziqi is right here.

How do you know?

I just saw him.

It really pissed me off.

I'm going to your school to see you. Come out.

Okay, wait for me. I'll be there.

Why are you dragging me here?

I'm going to stalk Siyue.

I bet he knows where Song Ziqi is.

I don't believe that I can't find that jerk Song Ziqi by following him.

Then you can do it alone. Why do you bring me here?

Are you my bestie or not?

I need your company.

Wait! How did she find you?

How would I know that she'd go to the bookstore, bro?

Bookstore?

I didn't expect you'd go to a bookstore either.

You two are indeed a perfect match.

Stop joking with me.

Tell me what I should do.

Where are you right now?

I'm in the basement.

Please come back. I...

I'm afraid.

Fine. Don't be afraid.

I'm on my way.

"Don't be afraid"?

"On my way"?

Come on. Hurry.

He's looking over here.

It's okay.

- Did he see us?
- I don't think so.

Take a look.

Let me see.

He's gone.

She wasn't stalking you, was she?

She was.

Ding Xian was with her.

Take it easy.

I just checked.

They won't come here.

Is it here?

Are you sure you got rid of them?

Are you really sure...

I think I heard Song Ziqi's voice.

This thing is not a joke.

If she shows up at the door, I'll be dead, I'm telling you. Seriously.

Listen! I haven't slept well for days.

I have nightmares every night.

It should be here.

Zhou Siyue.

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♫ The night breeze sweeps over your hair ♫

♫ Seeing your smile ♫

♫ It makes me want to jump in your arms ♫

♫ You make me smile unknowingly ♫

♫ That wonderful taste is the chemistry of love ♫

♫ Lean on your shoulder ♫

♫ My longing for you has left a beam of light in my heart ♫

♫ Reminding me of the love you gave me ♫

♫ I want to go somewhere far away with you ♫

♫ Finding each other's sea ♫

♫ Let the light of love heal the pain ♫

♫ Make a wish under the starry sky ♫

♫ After a long journey ♫

♫ Our dreams have come true ♫

♫ I want to go somewhere far away with you ♫

♫ Finding each other's sea ♫

♫ Let the light of love heal the pain ♫

♫ Make a wish under the starry sky ♫

♫ After a long journey ♫

♫ Our dreams have come true ♫