All language subtitles for Crossing.Jordan.2001.S02E17.1080p.PCOK.WEB-DL.AAC2.0.H264-Vialle

(female newscaster)
the family
of roland winton is suing

The state of north carolina

For cruel
And unusual punishment

after his execution
by lethal injection--

Some case, huh?

Bastard rapes
And kills three women,

And his family looks
To his death for a jackpot.

Just glad we're not
A death penalty state.

You would be.

It's barbaric and arbitrary.

It's just and effective.

And even if it worked
As a deterrent,

Which it doesn't,

Men shouldn't make
Those decisions.

Punishment should fit the crime.

Then what did I do
To have to sit

Through
This conversation?

I'm here to tell you

That the north carolina d.A.
Is asking you

To perform the autopsy
On roland winton.

Why me?

M.E.'s office
Put winton away.

They want an outsider,

Someone who goes
Above and beyond,

Someone whose reputation
Is spotless.

Mm-hmm.
When?

Right away. We're booked
On an 11:00 flight.

What do you mean "We"?

Winton killed a woman
In Boston.

I gave them the case
For a shot at the death penalty,

But this was my guy.

I'll be damned if his family
Profits off his death.

You and me in north carolina.

Talk about cruel
And unusual punishment.

Jordan, I've got a female o.D.

Wanna supervise Peter
On his first house call?

Yeah, no problem.

You look grim,
Even for you.

I gotta go to north carolina

To do the autopsy
On roland winton.

Oh, the guy the state
Just fried?
Yeah.

Last I looked,
They had their own chief m.E.

They want an outsider
To do it.

So while I'm gone,
You're in charge.

Me? All of a sudden,
I have leadership abilities?

I flipped a coin.

Now, don't sign anything
And don't make any decisions.

Thanks for the vote
Of confidence.

No problem.

Can I sit in your chair?

No.

[police radio]

Okay, so what's
Your first move?

Uh, you're quizzing me.

I have to justify
My existence somehow.

As long as I don't
Have to call you sir.

Um...

Okay, your first move
Is to check in

With the catching detective.

and the bedroom
is second door on the right.

What, did you scout
The place already?
Of course not.

How'd you know
Where the bedroom is?

I don't know.

This apartment seems
Kind of familiar.

you know what,
you go out on too many cases.

No, actually I think
I've been here before.

is that anyone you know?

No.

(man)
Jordan?

what are you doing here?

(Peter)
you guys know each other?

Uh, tom crane.
Peter.

Tom and I used to--

Why don't you check in
With the detective?

Yeah, okay.

What the hell's
Going on here?

I don't know.
I don't know.

There was pills.

Uh, they're saying
That she killed herself.

Okay, who's she?

Does your wife even know
About this?

She is my wife.

[suspenseful rock music]

* *

(lily)
Mrs. Sullivan?

Hi.

I'm lily lebowski.

I am so sorry
About your son.

Thank you.

I'm here to talk,
If you want...

About anything.

I feel...

Bad.

I was angry with my son.

He said things.

Here.

Something wrong?

I'm not going to talk to you.

Uh, it's really hard,
I know--

Is there somebody else
That I could talk to?

Mrs. Sullivan,
Did I do something wrong?

I need to leave now.

We were just getting started.

I can't.

I can't talk to you.

(Jordan)
had she been upset?

Depressed?

I don't know.

We've been separated.

Oh, I see.

Yeah, almost a year now.

I was just tryin'
To figure out

How I felt about that
And now this.

Tom, I'm sorry.

How long
You been back in Boston?

A little while.

I meant to call.

But you didn't.

Yeah, it's a long story.

Listen, I need to, uh,
Fill out some paperwork.

But, uh, we should talk.

Sure.

Yeah, I'll give you a call.

Yeah, do that.

Wow.
oh, you hate it.

Look at this--no!

it's too Romantic.

It's great.
liar.

[laughs]

It's just that you don't
Have to get me things.

Well, it didn't feel like
An obligation.

You know, speaking of which,

I'm available
To stay the night tonight.

You know what,
Don't take this the wrong way,

But I don't think you should.

You might want to steer me
In the right way to take that.

Aren't things
Good the way they are?

Just casual,
No strings.

I thought it'd be nice
To wake up next to you.

Oh, that's only
Because you never have.

I snore, I'm grumpy.

Aren't you at all curious
As to why I'm available to stay?

Definitely not.

How come you never
Ask about her, my wife?

Aren't you glad that I don't?

I thought there'd be some
Natural curiosity, you know.

It's none of my business.

Look, I'm gonna put
My keys on this.

And I'm gonna open the door,
And we're gonna go upstairs.

And you are not gonna say
Another word.

Lily?
Hey.

Did you see his mother?
I sent her in to you.

She wouldn't talk to me.

Oh, I feel terrible.

Maybe she isn't ready.
How is that your fault?

It's because of my tattoo.

Oh, you don't know that.

She was staring at it,
And then she split.

You have a better explanation?

Well, no, but--

Her son died of AIDS.

He got it from a tattoo needle.

And the first person
She goes to for help is me.

Come on, one thing
Doesn't have anything

To do with the other.

Maybe not.

But I sure didn't help her.

You're saying
Jordan knows her?

No, her husband,
But she tried to hide it.

Look, I don't know how much
You know about Jordan, but--

(Jordan)
She's an enormous pain
In the ass.

Mm-hmm, you took the words
Right out of my mouth.

That the tox screen?

Yeah, found lethal quantities
Of alprazolam and alcohol.

Sleeping pills.

Was the script
In her name?

Yes, which is why
I'm testing the hair.

See if she was in the market
For a few winks

And bought herself
A lifetime nap.

So you think it was
Just an accident.

Use sleeping pills long enough,
You build up a tolerance.

and easier to o.D.

Yeah, except there
Was a previous attempt.

What? Really?

Yeah, I found these
On her wrists.

scars.

Horizontal.
She meant business.

Yeah, I checked
Her medical records.

She tried to slash them
Six years ago.

When?

Six years ago.
I just told you.

No, I mean the exact date.

Uh, September 20, 1997.

(lily)
I know this is a bad time,

but could you please ask
mrs. Sullivan to call me?

Thank you.

Jordan, hi.

You're busy.

Oh, I just screwed up
On a case.

You okay, Jordan?

I'm fine.

Ugh.

Will you stop?

I've got a body
Waiting on me.

He's dead. I don't think
He's counting the seconds.

I have better things
To do with my time

Than kiss some d.A.'s ring.

Well, I'm glad to know

That what you lack
In political savvy,

You make up for
With a bad attitude.

That's very clever.

Renee, so good to see you.

Dr. Macy,

Very grateful to have someone
Of your expertise.

No problem.

This is
A very important case.

The wrong verdict here
Could set the death penalty

Back 50 years.

And here I thought
It was the death penalty

That set the justice system
Back 500 years.

Meet Melissa,
Stacy, and robin.

young, beautiful,
and deprived of futures

by roland winton.

You might feel differently

If one of them
Was your daughter.

I'm here as a medical examiner,
Not a father.

Renee and I,
We got the right guy,

And we put him away
The right way.

No one doubts
That he was a murderer

or that you went after him
the right way.

but none of that matters

If you decide
The needle went in too rough.

Please don't presume
To tell--

We better get
To the morgue now, hmm?

Of course, I just wanted
To welcome dr. Macy to the team.

Listen, I wanna be
Absolutely clear.

I'm not on anyone's team.

I'm here to find out
What happened.

Nothing happened.

Family's just looking
For an easy payday.

If someone screwed up,
You better tell me right now.

Nothing happened.

We're counting on you
To prove that.

What the hell was that?

I don't work for him.

You can't talk to the d.A.
The way you talk to me.

The hell I can't.

Excuse me,
Are you dr. Macy?

Yes.

My name's Anthony winton.
This is my wife leslie.

Roland winton
Was our son.

I'm sorry, sir.
We really can't talk to you.

I remember you
From the trial.

I have nothing
To say to you.

We should go.

I would like to hear
What they have to say.

Then I'll go.

We wanted to tell you
About roland.

Well, I'm not sure
That would be appropriate.

He was a monster.

Tony.

The man should know
The truth.

He was just born bad.

I was afraid of him
Since he was two years old.

A grown man afraid
Of a little boy.

That's the kind
Of evil he was.

Did you get him help?

(leslie)
we tried,
but nothing worked.

I prayed every night
He wouldn't hurt anybody.

But he did.

Three women.

He deserved to die.

Everybody's better off
For it.

Well, if that's the way
You feel,

Why are you suing the state
Over his death?

'cause they were supposed
To put him asleep,

And instead they butchered him.

nobody deserves
to die like that.

I can promise you my results
Will be thorough and objective.

Dr. Macy, you just make sure
That this doesn't happen

To anyone else's son.

Jordan, whoa,
I haven't died, have I?

No, Howard.
I need your help.

what's the matter?
what happened?

I think I may have
Killed someone.

[slow rock music]

* *

Most of the time
I'm just pretending.

Pretending what?

To be me.

It's like my life
Is a role

That I'm being forced to play,

But it never feels
Quite right...

Until I'm with you.

Then what happens?

I know who I am.

What about you?
You pretend?

If I do, the act is so good
That even I can't tell.

Like really wanting me
To stay tonight,

But just not being able
To admit it.

Time for you to go.

So you had an affair.

(Jordan)
yes.

Then six years later,

The guy's wife
Ends up in the morgue,

And somehow that's
Your fault?

She has these scars
On her wrist

From a previous attempt,

An attempt that occurred

Two nights after I had ended
My relationship with him.

So, wracked with despair

Because you stopped
Seeing her husband,

She tried to off herself?

You don't understand.

I understand
You feel guilty.

Yes.

And I understand
Why he appealed to you.

Because he had a built-in
No-getting-close clause.

Tell me something
I don't know.

Do you remember how
Your parents were together?

What the hell does that
Have to do with anything?

Well,
Relationships are patterns.

And sometimes we repeat
What we saw

Or what we felt.

You're repeating something

That makes you afraid
To get close.

I remember my parents
Being happy.

Why does that make you sad?

Because it can't be right.

why not?

It just can't.

[knock on door]

Just a minute.

Hi.

Hi.

How are you?

Fine.

I was just wondering if--

What the parents
Wanted to tell me?

Actually no.

They just wanted me to know

That their son,
Who they hated, by the way,

Was tortured to death
By the state.

Hmm. Well, I just came by
To see if you wanted

To get a bite.

But looks like
You got plenty to chew on.

You're quiet tonight.

Long day.

And monosyllabic.

You okay?

Don't take this
The wrong way,

But were you ever
A yankees fan?

What?
Dad, don't get hysterical.

When were we ever
Not red sox fans?

I know. I was just
Thinking about--

What's going on, Jordan?

Well, it's not your
Favorite topic.

Oh, jeez, Jordan,
Not again.

Look, in my memories,

You and MoM always seemed
To really get along well.

Of course we did.

But those are my memories.

And I don't know
If I can trust them.

I loved your mother,
And she loved me.

Whatever she did
Out of sickness

Doesn't change that.

Was there ever anyone else?

Not on my part.

Her you know about.

But did you know about it,
At the time?

Why are you asking, Jordan?

Why now?

You know what,
Just forget it.

Good.

Just forget it.

Garret, good to have you.

Seymour, grateful
For the hospitality.

Listen, uh, I hope there
Are no hard feelings about this.

No, I'm glad to be off
The hook on this one.

Good.

Winton was a sick bastard.

If he did suffer,
Personally, I'm tickled.

Pretty deep puncture wounds.

they definitely
poked and prodded him.

They probably
Couldn't find a vein.

It's common in the chamber
With so many drug addicts.

nasty restraint bruises
on his wrists and ankles.

he got the barbiturate.

Why was he struggling?

I'm running a tox screen.

I want to know what drugs he got
And in what order.

That's a tough call.

Cruel and unusual?

Seems more like
A question for god than an m.E.

Guess god was busy.

They're ready for us
At the prison.

All right,
Be right there.

Pretty lady.

Prettier than our d.A.

Jenetta is a schmuck,

And he'll steamroll you
To get what he wants.

That sounds like a warning.

Just a friendly piece
Of advice.

Macy told me
Not to sign anything.

I'll take
Full responsibility.

But I'm in charge.

Yeah, that's
What macy thinks too.

(nigel)
got the hair test back.

Oh, accidental overdose?

No previous use
Of alprazolam.

Did find some
Divalproex sodium, though,

That she used on and off.

Okay, that's
An anticonvulsant.

Maybe she was epileptic
Or had a brain disorder.

I'll have Peter check it out.

Yeah, do that.

Rumor has it you were in tight
With this lady's husband?

I gotta go.

The place doesn't run
Itself, nige.

Nigel, have you got
A minute?

Hours for you, love.

You sort of have
A wild side, don't you?

It's been said
I'm all wild side.

Well, have you ever done
Anything too wild in your past

That's hurt you professionally?

Well, there was
That one thing

With the sword swallower
And the bubble bath.

Never mind.

Besides, even if I wanted to,
You can't undo the past, right?

What if you could?

What if there was something
Hurting you from your past,

And you could
Just make it go away?

Well, that doesn't sound
Wise to me.
Why?

Because nothing's
That simple.

(man)
before you watch the tapes,

It's important to know
The ropes.

This is how
It's supposed to go.

After last meal,

The prisoner is brought
Into the chamber

And strapped to the gurney.

cardiac monitor leads
are attached,

and an I.V. Is started in
each arm with a saline drip.

we use separate I.V.S

So the executioner's identity
Is anonymous.

Then we open the curtain.

Usually there's
Family watching,

both his and the victim's.

the prisoner is then asked
for his last words.

the execution team
is behind the curtain.

they have eight syringes.

first is sodium pentothal,

a barbiturate
that causes the prisoner

to lose consciousness.

this is flushed with saline,

and potassium chloride
is administered

to induce a heart attack.

the last drug is
pancuronium bromide.

this stops his heart beating
once and for all.

That's what's supposed
To happen...

In a perfect world.

But this was
Not a perfect world.

no.

What went wrong?

I set the tapes up here
For you to see.

The district attorney and I

Would like to know
What happened.

You watch the tapes.
You tell me.

I just got your message.

How you doin'?

Aw, you know, I'm doin'
What needs to be done.

How are you?

Good.

For a second there,
You almost had me convinced.

Well, same old me.

What does that mean?

Perpetual malcontent.

Oh, come on.

That's not how
I remember you.

Maybe I was different
Back then.

I'm glad you called.

It's a hard time.

Seeing you somehow
Is a comfort.

Do you think
She killed herself?

No.

Would she have any reason to?

What, now you're
Interested in my wife?

Well, I need to know
What happened to her.

You know, you left

Without a word, a note.

I looked for you,
You know, for a long time.

So finally, you know,

I just assumed you didn't
Want to be found.

You assumed right.

It would've
Been nice, though.

A postcard or something
To say, "Hey, I'm not dead."

I left the way I had to.

And I don't expect you
To understand.

I might understand, if you had
Any interest in making me.

Do you have any idea

Why your wife
Would kill herself?

I was wrong.
You haven't changed a bit.

Everything's
Just a case to you.

(walcott)
Why the delay?

He was supposed to be
Executed at 7:00.

They're probably looking
For a vein.

what the hell is that?

They use the neck

When they can't find a vein
In the arms or legs.

Do you have any last words?

No.

What's wrong with him?

He's having some kind
Of reaction.

To the drugs?

I don't know.

Hi.

Hi.

Come on in.

So did you get
Something to eat?

Uh, I just came
To ask you if--

We could,
If you wanted to.

I'm not hungry
In the least.
Me either, yeah.

I'd kill for a cigarette.

[laughs]

I don't have
Any cigarettes.

Listen, today was--
Was horrible.

So if you don't want
To be alone,

I mean, that--that
Would only be human.

Thanks, but I've been
Quantifying

My own emotions
Since I was six.

Excuse me for trying
To show compassion

To a block of ice.

If you had any compassion,
You'd offer me a freakin' drink.

Fine.

No ice?
Don't push it.

Don't you usually
Gulp and run?

Usually.

But tonight I don't have
Anywhere to go.

You know, I really
Don't like you.

Right back at you.

I mean not at all.

I get it.

Just kiss me.

Have I told you

That I make
A great Greek omelet?

Get out.

It's great.

[laughs]
I'm sure it is.

Get out.

Feta cheese.

[phone ringing]

Can't go a minute
Without me.

(woman)
is this Jordan cavanaugh?

Who is this?

is my husband there?

Who is this?

this is eve crane.

I'd like to know what
you're doing with my husband.

I'm not--
I don't--

[phone ringing]

[phone ringing]

(stiles)
you didn't tell me
you got a promotion.

[phone ringing]

Although, if you can't
Answer a phone,

It might not last.

Um, there was something
I didn't tell you.

You're kidding.

His wife knew.

Did she, now?

She called me once.

One night
Right after he'd left.

What did she say?

She asked me what I was doing
With her husband.

What was your answer?

I hung up.

Packed my bags
And ran.

From him?

From him, this place,
From everything.

That was the night
That I left Boston.

You left because of him?

Um...

I couldn't face it,
What I'd done.

And then hearing her voice
On the phone.

There's something
You're not telling me.

I was supposed to be asleep.

When?

When she called?

Oh, god, I must've
Missed something.

There must be something else.

Uh, I need to look
At the body.

The answers you're looking for
Are not in that body.

Trust me, the answers are
Always in the body.

(woman)
lily lebowski.

Haven't opened
Him up yet, huh?

No, I'm just going over
The tox screen.

I see.

I see.

Look, renee...

I just--I wanted to say
That last night

Was a real comfort,
You know.

Really?

Where I come from,
They call it sex.

I was--I was trying
To be discreet.

Back to being
A stick in the mud, I see.

Well, see, now,
I'm at work, so...

[clears throat]

MS. Walcott, garret.

Seymour.

Dr. Martin.

I'll be back in a bit.

I'll see you then.

Did you notice anything
On this?

I notice a lack
Of sodium pentothal.

See, they thought that's
What made him sick,

So they didn't
Give him any more.

But as you can see, he hardly
Got any the first time.

Well, without the pentothal,
He felt everything.

He was totally
Mentally alert.

He slowly
Suffocated to death.

(garret)
some would call
that suffering.

if the pentothal didn't give
him that reaction, what did?

That's the question,
Isn't it?

Time to open him up.

Yeah.

Sorry you got dragged
Into this.

It's not your fault.

Actually, it is.

A year ago, I got tight
With a lady a.D.A.

Ever since then,
High-profile cases skip my desk.

Is this another warning?

[laughs]

No.

I'm just telling a story.

(Peter)
you can't just take my case.
Watch me.

I did everything
That you asked.

I checked for epilepsy,
I checked for seizure disorder,

And it all came back
Negative, Jordan.

I'm allowed to question
Your findings.

It's one of the little perks
Of working here forever.

What's really going on here?

Does this have to do
With her husband?

Stop asking me that.

Does it have something
To do with your mother?

What the hell do you know
About my mother?

Nothing.
Nothing.

I heard...Nothing.

Look, why don't you want
Anyone to know

Anything about you?

No, uh, no, this has nothing
To do with my mother.

(Jordan)
divalproex is for seizures,

and seizures
are caused by brain tumors.

and...

Nothing.

Perfectly normal.

Why can't she just be
A healthy woman

Who chased
Some sleeping pills

With a bottle
Of scotch, Jordan?

Because--because she can't.

What did you do?

I got rid of it.

And now I hate myself
And this job and everything.

What are you
Talking about?

You love your job.

Well, I didn't think
I would have to change.

It was one woman, lily.

You didn't have
To get rid of it.

I have to be somebody that
People feel they can talk to.

I have to be...

Ordinary.

Why did you get the tattoo?

I found something
That said, "This is who I am."

And you think you've lost that?

I don't know who I am anymore.

I don't even know
Who I want to be.

You wanted to be someone
Who could help that woman.

So...

help her with the part of you
that isn't ordinary.

As bad as you thought?

Worse.

I didn't find anything.

I have no idea
What happened to this man.

No need to panic.

You don't have to testify
Till tomorrow.

Brought you some dinner.

Smells like Thai.

You like it?

Actually I'm allergic
To peanuts.

they put peanut oil
in everything. I can't.

What happens to you
If you eat it?

It's not pretty.

my throat closes up.
I can't breathe. I get--

Hit those lights,
Would you, please?

What'd you have in mind?
Just hit the lights.

(garret)
look at that.

he had leprosy?

hives.

It's an allergic reaction.

Well, we knew he had
A reaction to something.

This is an allergic
Reaction to food.

I found nuts
In his stomach contents.

What was his last meal?

Let's take a look.

Short ribs, French fries,
Chocolate shake.

I don't see any nuts.

You think someone
Tried to poison him?

Who would try to poison him
When he's about to die?

Unless...

Unless?

Unless they weren't
Trying to poison him.

They were trying
To save him.

[alana Davis' remake
Of "Can't find my way home"]

* *

* come down off your throne *

* and leave your body alone *

* somebody must change *

* you are the reason *

* I've been waiting so long *

* somebody holds the key *

* well, I'm near the end *

* and I just ain't got
The time *

* well, I'm wasted *

* and I can't find
My way home *

* *

* can't find my way home *

* can't find my way home *

* well, I can't find
My way home * *

(Jordan)
you said the truth
was inside me.

It is.

How do I find it?

Start by telling me
Why you ran away.

I was breaking up
A marriage.

and what happened
when you got the phone call?

I heard her voice.

She became real.

I didn't want to hurt her.

If that was true,

You would've broken off
With him.

But you left your job,
Your father,

your home.

now, why?

I was scared.

why were you scared?

I don't know.

You do.

Somewhere inside you,
You do know.

I loved him.

And that terrified you.

Yeah.

why?

I was supposed to be asleep.

When were you
Supposed to be asleep?

In my bedroom.

I heard the door.

Daddy's home.

So I went down the stairs,

And that's when I saw
The hat on the table...

The yankees cap.

It wasn't him.
It wasn't daddy.

That's when I heard
The noises.

what noises?

My MoM and that man.

Two of them together.

what did you do?

I ran up to my room
And shut the door.

It wasn't safe.

what wasn't safe?

It wasn't safe
To love anyone.

I promised myself
I never ever would.

And with tom,
You broke that promise.

Will I ever escape her?

It's up to you.

We're not taking a deal.

So if that's why we're here,
You can forget it.

REST easy.
We're not offering any deal.

(garret)
MR. Winton.

Did you see your son
Before he died?

(MR. Winton)
no, we agreed
it was best not to.

But someone had
A change of heart,

Didn't you, mrs. Winton?

I didn't see the harm.

(MR. Winton)
leslie?

I didn't see the harm
In saying good-bye.

(walcott)
but you brought him
something, didn't you?

I brought him a cake.

They said that I could.

Cake with a file in it.

You be quiet.

(MR. Winton)
What's--what's he implying?

That cake had nuts in it,
Didn't it, mrs. Winton?

you knew he was allergic,

and figured
if he got sick enough,

they'd postpone
the execution.

That's crazy.

I have a child.

I know what a parent might do.

Leslie?

They didn't have
To kill him.

He was my boy.

I thought I could save him.

(garret)
roland's reaction
was to the cake you brought.

The adrenalin in his system

Staved off the reaction
Until the last minute.

The state isn't responsible
For what happened to him.

Oh, my god.

He was my boy.

What are you doing here?

I came to finish our session.

Don't bother.

What did you do?

I, um, had a minor surgery.

I was hoping to tell you
A few things about your son.

You know something about dean?

Did you know
That bats use echo location?

They use it because
They can't see.

The bat on dean's back was
To help him find unseen things.

The dog on his chest
Was next to the word "MoM."

Dogs are a symbol of loyalty,
Devotion, and protection.

Is that so?

The bird on his arm
With the human head

Meant that he believed his soul
Would fly away after death.

Thank you.

(walcott)
D.A. Jenetta can't stop
Singing your praises.

That's great.
Just the outcome I wanted.

What are you so upset about?
We won.

If there's one thing
I'm sure of, nobody won.

what does that say
for us?

I don't know.

Dr. Martin's
In the penalty box,

Because he looked
The wrong way at an a.D.A.

Ahh, so that's
What you're worried about,

Your illustrious career.

You are an elected official.
Doesn't that concern you?

A little bit, I guess.

But I didn't get this far
In my career to lose my life.

Really?

You know, it's not gonna be easy
On our home turf.

Nothing worth anything
Ever is.

I still don't like you.

You keep on
Telling yourself that.

(tom)
I came here a lot
When you were gone.

Sometimes I'd think I'd see you
Coming down the street.

(Jordan)
I'm really sorry
How I left.

[sighs]

Can you tell me why?

Uh, I've been afraid
My whole life.

I've carried
This fear around with me

Until it didn't even
Feel like fear anymore.

I tricked myself
Into believing

That it was a companion,
A friend

That would always
Keep me safe.

It's that fear
That made me leave that night.

I don't understand that.

I fell in love with you.

I never told you this,

But the night that I left,
Your wife called me.

And that's what made me realize
How I really felt about you,

And I ran from my life.

I had no idea
she called you.

I-I-I didn't even know
She knew.

Did she slash her wrists
Because of us?

No, no, no.

She--she stopped taking
Her pills.

Her pills?

she was bipolar.

she hated taking the pills.

she probably tried
to wean herself off again.

Why didn't you--

No, sorry, just forget it.

Uh, let's put it
In the past.

I loved you, Jordan.

I know you did.

Maybe when a decent
Interval has passed--

I-I don't think so.

There's too much blood
Under the bridge.

Could I just sit here
And hold your hand for awhile?

Yeah.

Yeah, I'd really like that.