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Yo?

Oh, shit! My bad!

Sorry!

Alicia?!

Yo!

Oops, sorry.

Fuck.

My bad! Alicia?

Wakey, wakey!

Hey!

I brought you a prezzy.

Hey!

Senorita?!

Hello?

I got you a present!

Senorita?

Alicia?

What the fuck?

It's alicia.

Leave a message, and I'll call you back.

Hey. It's me. I'm at the gym.

Where you at?

You go out?

You're, uh... You're probably somewhere.

Uh...

Call me.

I'll wait for a little bit.

Oh!

Come on. Come on!

Yeah.

Oh.

Oh.

Oh, my god.

Ah. Jesus.

Ah.

Was that good?

What? What do you think?

I don't know. I think it was good.

I don't know.

Oh, no.

I'm good. I'm really, really good.

Okay.

Your turn now. You can do whatever you want.

Anything I want? Yeah.

I like some fucked-up weird shit.

Maybe you should be fucked and punished.

Ah. I guess I'll get what I deserve.

Yeah? You're not gonna sue me, are you?

Huh?

♪

Woman: Are you currently experiencing.

Any thoughts of homicide or suicide?

No.

What led you to seek counseling?

My dad died, and I'm having...

And I'm having a hard time, uh...

Just controlling myself.

I'm, uh...

I'm angry.

When did your symptoms start,

And for how long have you had them?

The anger?

I guess I've always had it, but recently, it's, uh...

Been worse.

Have you had.

Any previous psychological or psychiatric treatment?

Um...

Mnh-mnh.

Any family history of emotional illness?

Not that I know of.

Do you drink alcohol or take any illegal drugs?

Yes, sometimes.

To which?

Both, but only... Only sometimes.

What's your relationship like with your family?

None. We don't talk.

Describe your friends, your social life.

Who do you turn to for emotional support?

My teammates and my coach.

I have a roommate.

I mostly keep my own counsel.

What's the highest level of education that you've completed?

College.

And your current profession?

I'm a professional fighter.

Have you ever been convicted of any crimes?

Yes.

I, uh...

Assaulted my father and served time in prison for it.

How many traffic violations have you had.

In the last five years?

Zero. I'm an excellent driver.

What do you hope to achieve through counseling?

I don't want to go back to the way I was.

Good morning, ava.

Good morning. Have you seen my sunglasses?

They're on your head.

Geez.

Would you like some breakfast?

No, thanks.

You sure? Yep.

You've been here four days.

I haven't seen you eat a bite of food.

Jay, neither.

We eat. I-I'm just not hungry.

Good morning. Good morning.

So what are you two doing today?

We're just gonna be here, relaxing by the pool.

Again?

Yeah.

I thought you'd be back in the gym by now.

Well...

My body's a temple. I'm taking some time off.

All right. Well...

I'm gonna be volunteering at the needle exchange all day,

So I won't be in your way.

Ava: You're not in the way.

That's very nice of you to say, ava.

Thank you.

You guys need anything while I'm out?

Um, we're... we're good. Thanks, mom.

And I'm gonna clean up the kitchen later,

So don't worry about it.

Have a good day.

- All right, be careful. - I will.

You know, a lot of fucked-up people.

Go to that needle exchange.

I know, jay. I was one of them.

They need help.

I'll be fine.

She's a lot of work.

Alvey: Fucking kill me.

Okay.

You want an open casket, or can I have some fun with it?

No, go crazy. I want to be unrecognizable.

They'll need dental records.

Oh, well, that won't help,

Because they won't be able to find your teeth.

What's in here?

Stop! Come on.

You know what?

I can't because I have court, and I'm really late.

Oh.

I'll see you later?

Really?

What? Four nights in a row?

I mean, we can take a... We can take a night off.

Well, how about we do dinner and no sleep-over?

So I spend all my money and I don't get any...

Well, I'm fine to eat alone, too, so either way.

Wow!

All right. Fine. I'll take what I can get.

All right, good.

You have to get out of here, 'cause I'm late.

I was going anyway, all right? Because...

I'm a business owner. I have things to do myself.

- See you later. - See you later.

♪ Everything will be all righ♪

♪ You're in the party mood with a litt... ♪

♪ You can be the queen tonigh♪

♪ Dressed in white ♪

♪ You will blow their minds ♪

♪ All I can do when you dance tonight ♪

♪ Looking bright ♪

Oh. Uh...

Who the fuck are you?

Hi. Um...

I'm... I'm looking for, uh, christina?

Is she... Jay?

Yeah?

Somebody's here to see your mom.

You're here to see my mother?

No. I'm sorry. I made a mistake.

No, he said he's here to see christina.

- Are you the guy? - No.

No, no, no, are you the guy who put your hand on my fucking mother?

I don't know, I...

Holy shit.

I'm gonna need you to spend the day with your sister.

I admire your beard.

Oh. I had to trim it up a little bit.

Yeah, looks good.

Just be careful.

About my beard?

Yeah, you come to rely on it, you know?

Pretty soon, you won't look good without it.

Maybe you guys should fuck each other.

I keep asking, but, you know...

Where's jay, man? How long do we have to wait?

I don't know. He's not answering his phone.

Probably pissed about mario's article.

Gonna shit all over his win.

He twisted my words. I didn't say it like that.

That's not how I said it.

All right, all right, you know what?

Let's... let's... Let's sort ryan out,

And then we'll deal with jay later. Guys...

I want a rematch.

I'm in. I want it.

Hold on. Hold on.

How much?

What do you mean, how much?

I mean how much are you gonna pay him?

The same as last time.

I want you to do better.

Alvey, we had a deal.

Six fights, he has four left.

A deal? Of course.

You sell fucking rugs with that deal.

First of all, that's racist, okay? We don't sell rugs.

That's not what my people are known for.

Guys, with love in my heart, ryan lost the fight.

I'm not gonna give him a raise.

If you win the fight, if you knock him out,

Then I'll give you a nice bonus.

I promise.

That's fine. I just want the fight.

Fantastic. You?

Okay. Let's do it.

Ha ha! Makes me very happy.

Always a pleasure, my friend.

Tell me about jay, I'll set it up.

In the meantime, my friend, take care of your knee.

Careful.

You have a girl named alicia?

Alicia mendez, I do.

I keep hearing her name.

Can I take a look?

Fuck me.

Yeah, well, she doesn't know what the fuck she's doing yet,

But everything's there.

She in shape?

Yeah, she's in fucking shape.

What did you have in mind?

- I have a show in pasadena. - I thought that's full.

It is, but I don't like one of the fighters.

Her manager cheated on my cousin's daughter, so...

I'll bump her. I'll put alicia in, no problem.

All right. I'll talk to her.

Cheers. Sure you don't want anything?

I'm good.

You on the wagon or something?

I have a fight coming up.

Oh, yeah? Whereabouts?

Downtown.

Nate, relax.

Just two guys having lunch, no big deal.

You're safe.

I'm glad you called.

To be honest, I didn't think you would.

Me neither.

So why did you?

I had some questions.

Go on, then.

Why did he put in my drink?

Probably rohypnol.

But I wasn't there, so I can't be sure.

Bob's life is in compartments... Like a terrorist cell.

Is this shit funny to you?

No. No, not at all, mate.

I think it's fucking horrifying.

I'm just always amazed.

At what money and shame can buy you in this town.

Excuse me. One more, please. Thanks.

Here's the thing with bob.

If you go back at him,

He's just gonna give you more money,

And you'll take it.

And then... Then he'll own you.

How the fuck do you think I got here?

♪ Every morning, 9:00 she's okay ♪

♪ She's warmed up for her daily treat ♪

♪ She stretches out and bends over gently ♪

♪ She's getting ready for a cycle spin ♪

Yeah. This is you, right?

Jason ferris, head treatment counselor.

Yeah. I paid you a lot of money.

For services that included group therapy,

Meditation, acupuncture, and... And it goes on.

But...

No.

I don't see anything here that includes rape therapy.

How about you tell me about that?

Look, I-I understand that you...

You may have heard some things...

Yeah, I have, but not enough.

Now, fucking you up, that was a reflex.

And if I've got all this wrong, I apologize in advance.

But I'm in a...

I'm in a fog of war right now...

So how about you telling me.

Exactly what happened with you and my mom?

Yeah.

Hmm? I'm gonna tell you everything, okay?

Um...

I pretty quickly developed...

Inappropriate feelings for christina.

My mother. Christina's my mother.

That's why I'm asking you about all this.

Yes, your mother. Y-your mother.

Um, uh...

It... it started off as just an emotional connection.

Mm-hmm.

Um, but rehab is... It's...

Um...

There... there's an...

There's an outpouring of feelings.

When the drugs are gone,

And it can lead to a...

Uh, an accelerated...

Intimacy.

"Accelerated intimacy."

Hmm.

Were you fucking my mother?

It's okay. Answer the question.

You can answer the question.

I wouldn't put it that way, but, um...

Yes, we were physical, and it was consensual.

But it was a...

It was a horrible lapse in judgment for me.

It was more a betrayal.

When did it start?

Since, like, about a week into her stay.

"A week into her stay."

I don't know why it happened that night.

Week into her... I was...

I mean, I was drunk, and she was...

Deceptive.

How was she deceptive?

How was she deceptive?

I-I-I realized that she had no feelings for me at all.

That she was just...

She was manipulating me. Mm-hmm.

And it overwhelmed me.

It was overwhelming.

Yeah?

Um, why exactly did you come here?

I came to apologize.

I swear.

What are you gonna do to me?

I don't know, jason. I don't know.

I don't know. I don't know.

It's just lot of shit for me to process,

All this information,

So I don't have an answer for you.

Hey, stranger.

Haven't seen you in a couple nights.

Just been trying to stay healthy, you know?

I get fucked up, sleep...

Ah.

That's funny.

That's really funny.

Why is that funny?

Because, um...

Because I came by late last night,

And you weren't here.

Yeah, I was staying at alvey's.

Come on, dude, it's not like that.

Look, he hasn't even been there the last few nights.

That's fine, yeah.

Well, if you needed a place to stay,

Why don't you stay with me?

'Cause I don't want to.

Look, I feel comfortable there.

All right. That's it.

- It's your business. - Hi.

- Hi. - Hey.

These are for you.

Why?

I don't know. They're pretty.

You can put them in the lounge.

Here. Thank you.

Be safe.

Hi, sweetie. What do you need?

Needles and some condoms, please.

How's your day going?

Fine.

I'm sorry. Is your name chelsea?

Yeah.

I'm christina.

Well, we never met,

But I came into casa rosa the last week you were there.

I got to go.

Hey, chelsea?

Where are you staying?

With friends.

Okay, if that falls through or if you need anything...

Call me.

That's my cell.

Be safe.

Hey, coach. Hey.

You got a sec?

Why? What?

I've been at this a while.

Somebody asks me if I got a second,

Usually means we're gonna have a shitty conversation.

It doesn't have to be.

What's on your mind?

Well, have you given any more thought about what I said?

About what?

Coaching me, not splitting your time between me and jay.

Oh, yeah, I have. Mm-hmm.

Well, what do you think?

What I think is.

That you should give me five fucking minutes.

To figure it out, man.

I haven't even seen jay since the fight.

Okay, 'cause I just need to know.

If I need to find a new place to train.

Okay, you'll be the first to know. Okay.

Hey, and, alvey?

Yeah?

You really think it's a good idea.

To have alicia staying at your house?

Are you fucking kidding me, dude? What?

You know nothing's going on with me and alicia.

Don't fuck with me. I know.

I'm just saying it doesn't look good.

Thank you.

You're welcome. Okay.

Ahh.

I'm gonna get another one.

As my father used to say,

You get one buzz a day, you best keep it going.

Hey, I don't get many days off, all right?

Go for it.

You don't have to stay.

I'm good.

So, tell me,

What's the day in the life of a pro mma fighter?

I wake up, train,

Teach a class maybe, and...

Deal with whatever's going on at the gym.

And do it all over again... Every day.

Have I fucked up your routine?

No, I'll train tonight, so...

I like it better when the gym's empty anyway.

I used to do a bit of muay thai, actually, back in manchester.

You know, just to keep fit.

I liked it.

Love to see you fight sometime.

Fuck's sake, man.

What?

It's like talking to a brick wall.

No, I'm serious. Do you ever speak?

Yeah, when I have something to say.

And does that ever happen?

Right now, I'm just listening.

I like it.

It's good to sit with a man who can handle silence.

These days, everyone wants to fill the space.

It's like, "shut up for two fucking seconds, please."

For example?

Oh, that... that was a joke, was it?

Look, jay's a good guy. And?

And don't fuck with him.

Fuck you. I'm not.

Where you guys been, anyways?

His house. Doing what?

Nothing. He's taking some time off.

Why is everyone freaking out?

Because jay's done a lot of work to get to where he's at, ava,

And he could lose it fast.

I... I really like him.

We fit together.

Hey...

I don't want to fight.

Please? Can we stop?

Yeah, I don't want to fight, either.

Are you mad at me?

No, I just... I thought you came here to see me.

I did.

Yeah, well, I haven't seen you.

Because you're always here,

And you don't ever want to go out,

And I'm just trying to stay out of your way.

I'm sorry if I hurt your feelings.

Hey...

I'm sorry.

I know.

I just wish I would be able to hang out with you.

While you're here, you know?

Hey. You seen jay?

He's at his house.

Can you tell him to pick up his phone, please?

Can I talk to you?

Yeah.

All right.

♪ I got a crooked face, girl

♪ and a twisted smile

♪ I like to let the woman lead, girl ♪

♪ And sit in silence a while

What are you doing with that?

♪ Don't tell me to smile

We have got a very special guest.

Come here. He's right back here.

♪ Just wait a little while

What the fuck is going on? Who is that?!

Jason came by to see you.

Here she is.

Why don't you look up there and say hello, huh?

Huh?

Hmm? Jay. Jay!

Why don't you state the purpose of your visit?

Jay?

Oh, oh, fuck!

I'm fucking this all up for you, maybe. Maybe...

Did you not come here to talk?

Did you come here to hurt her maybe?

No, no! No, no, no!

Open your fucking eyes and look at her.

Jay. Jay, stop it! Look at her.

What the fuck exactly do you want to say to my mother, hmm?

Huh?

Jay, stop this now!

Did you not come here to talk?

Jason, hmm?

What exactly is it.

That you wanted the fuck to say to my mother?! Oh, god. Jay, stop this now!

Jay, stop it!

Yeah!

Hey!

Ah!

Put the gun away now!

Put the gun away.

Please.

♪ I got a crooked face, girl

Garo wants you on the card.

In fact, he's bumping another girl,

He's giving you her spot.

It's short notice, but it's a good match-up for you.

Okay? I got tape on her.

I'll break it down. I'll get you ready.

Awesome.

Thank you, coach. You've very welcome.

This... this is good. People are talking about you.

You're getting around.

How much am I getting paid?

You're getting paid 1,100 bucks.

It is what it is.

You are what you are.

Win the fights, the money comes.

Okay?

Got it. Okay.

Oh, I, uh...

I'm gonna need you to move back into the gym.

Why? Did I do something wrong?

No, I can't have you living in my house.

It doesn't look right.

Did ryan say something?

You and ryan have a thing, okay?

I don't know. I don't care. I don't want to hear about it.

I just don't want any drama in this place, that's all.

You understand?

Yeah. I'll get my stuff out tonight.

You can stay here as long as you'd like.

Hope that wasn't too painful, me talking at you all day.

Yeah, I got through it.

Good enough. I'll take it.

Well, this is my ride for the day.

What? I might as well use it.

It's just sat in his driveway.

What do you think? Look like an asshole, right?

Yep, you do, actually.

Yeah, I know. But it's fucking fun to drive.

Anyway...

Had fun.

Yeah. I did, too.

Be nice to do this again sometime.

Nate, I know you're not out.

Okay? It's fine.

Otherwise, we wouldn't be way the fuck out in studio city.

Yeah, it's complicated.

You know, with my family and what I do...

Hey, I had to move all the way to l.A.

To get my head around it.

I know where you're at.

Yeah.

I just want to see you again.

Let me get through this fight, and I'll give you a call.

Good luck.

Hope you win.

Yeah, me too.

Bye.

Double. Double and jab.

Double and jab, right.

♪ Ain't got no hands, but I'll give you my heart ♪

Sprawl, sprawl, sprawl, sprawl!

Nice, get out. Get out.

Hey. I'm sorry.

About what?

About, you know...

You know, pressuring you about making a decision.

It's... he's your son, I know it's fucking complicated.

It is complicated.

I know.

It's important to me,

But, I mean, I can give you some space.

Look, man, I understand where you're coming from.

I do.

We'll figure this out.

We should grab a drink or something.

You want to drab a drink, get some fruit?

I got plans tonight.

We'll do it next time, all right?

Yeah, yeah. All right?

Yeah.

Good, good, good. Come on, come on, come on!

Sprawl!

Pressure, pressure, pressure.

♪ Give it a shot

♪ I need your love

Jay: But I can't.

Christina: You can. He's not gonna say anything.

It's not about him, mom. It's about me.

But he's got to feel real fucking pain.

Shh. Hey, mom, stop.

Jay, jay, look at me.

I know you're high right now.

It's okay. I'm not mad.

Baby? Yeah.

I know you love me.

And I know you want to punish him for what he did.

But I need you to stop.

Because if you do something that will ruin your life,

I will never forgive myself.

Look at what you have.

Look how hard you've worked.

Look at everything you've done for me.

I'm finally healthy because of you.

We've come so far, I can hardly even believe it.

Do you love me?

Yeah.

Then let him go.

He's nothing. He's not worth our time.

Let's look forward, okay?

All I care about is looking forward.

We're finally good.

We need to hear what he has to say.

Well... Here we are.

This is not the day that any of us expected.

I'll be honest.

I am bushed.

This is not the place I want to be.

But here we are.

Jason...

Why are you here?

I came to apologize to your mother.

Good. Okay, well, then why don't we do that?

- Now, on your fucking knees. - Okay.

And... and... And do it properly, hmm?

Say you're sorry.

Oh.

I...

I can't imagine the ways in which, um...

You've been mistreated.

Yes, you can.

I told you all about it when I was under your care.

I know.

I meant that...

I'm not like these other men that took advantage of you.

I fell in love with you.

You have... Such a pure heart.

And there's such a wound.

And I wanted to heal you.

I wanted to show you how incredible you are.

God, you are so pretty.

And smart.

And there is no excuse for what I did.

But...

My feelings for you just... Exploded.

And I acted out.

And that was so bad.

I'm so sorry. I am so sorry.

I'm so sorry.

You're right, jason.

You're not like all those other men.

You're worse.

Um, you want me to hit him? Or do you want to hit him?

You want to hit him, mom?

No.

Get him out of our house.

♪ Hey, smile for you

♪ hold my horses

You know, sometimes my life feels like shit,

And I just want to blow the whole fucking thing up.

And I don't know what to do about it.

Don't bother my family again.

I won't.

Promise.

I swear to god. Promise.

I swear to god.

I swear to god.

♪ Every time the sun comes up

♪ I'm in trouble

♪ every time the sun comes up

♪ I'm in trouble

♪ even when the sun comes up

♪ I'm in trouble

♪ even when the sun comes up

♪ I'm in trouble

♪ even when the sun comes up

♪ I'm in trouble

♪ even when the sun comes up

♪ I'm in trouble

♪ every time the sun comes up

♪ I'm in trouble

Hi. Sorry.

Hey, no worries.

Oh.

All right?

Yeah.

I got you a martini. Yes, please.

Rough day?

Oh. You know, I just wish sometimes.

People would shut the fuck up.

And do what they're supposed to do.

People fucking up is your bread and butter.

That's how you found me.

True.

Speaking of...

Any news on my case?

Actually, yeah, there is.

So they want to settle.

I'm not settling. I'm not settling.

I'm never settling. It's my word against his.

No, it's not.

There was a witness.

Apparently, there was a guy across the street.

Watering his lawn, and he saw the whole thing.

So, yeah, you're gonna have to pay.

What do they want?

Well, they want a half million.

I went back at a hundred, and they came back at 150.

$150,000?

Yeah.

I have to advise you to take it.

Because, honestly, that's the best we're gonna do.

I don't have $150,000.

I-I didn't even touch this fucking guy.

People suck.

I'm allergic to money. That's what it is.

No. You're not.

You just have to be a little bit more careful.

You know, next time, you just have to...

Look both ways.

Oh, that's...

That is just stellar advice, counselor, really.

You gonna bill me for that?

No. That's for free.

Now, what are we gonna do?

Are we just gonna, like, sit around here and cry about it?

Or do you want to try and salvage the evening?

What'd you have in mind?

I think we should get a little drunk and mess around.

As long as you pay for the drinks,

'cause I don't have any money now.

This has to stop.

He... he tried to rape you.

No, I'm talking about you.

Yeah, mom...

I cannot be around you if you're gonna get high.

I'm not strong enough.

And I don't like ava.

I don't think she's good for you.

I'm sorry, but that's the way I feel.

It's fine, mom.

Sweetie, I don't know what to do.

Maybe I need to leave.

And live alone?

I've done it before.

What would have happened if he found you?

Hmm? No.

You should stay here with nate, and I'll go.

No, I don't want you to go. I don't want you to leave. It's okay.

I want you to stop getting fucked up! I'll be fine.

I will, just not right now.

It's okay. You know, it's fine.

Jay!

I just need a break, mom. That's what I need.

And then I'll be back.

So...

You just tell nate that...

I'll be home soon, okay?

Okay.

Oh.

This means that you're...

You're over that taking the night off bullshit, yeah?

No.

What if I don't want to?

Well, then, that's a sad story.

Because we're not gonna do it tonight.

Why? Why?

Why?

Because I...

I just don't know you well enough.

I don't know you well enough.

To sleep with you four nights in a row.

Really? Really.

What do you want to fucking know?

I'll tell you anything. Ask.

Why did you get divorced?

She was fucking crazy, and I was fucking nuts.

We were too young. Why'd you get divorced?

Because I didn't love him.

Why'd you marry him?

Because I was 30 and stupid and scared.

Hmm.

You still in touch with her?

Not unless I have to be.

You still hung up on her?

Christina?

Mm-hmm. Fuck no.

No? No.

'Cause her name is on your chest.

Oh, yeah. In case you forgot.

It's 'cause I'm fucking lazy.

I'm gonna get it... I'm gonna get rid of it.

I just haven't figured out what to get on top of it, that's all.

Okay.

No, we've been over a long time.

She's not in my life.

One of your fighters?

Yeah. No fucking boundaries.

Well, you can answer it if you want.

I'm off the clock. You want another drink?

Yeah, I have room for one more.

Hey, coach, it's me. Um...

I, uh... I was just calling to see.

If you had a chance to break down the tape yet.

And, uh... Also...

I had some ideas, too. So, uh...

If... just call me back if you get this.

And, uh...

I'll be up for a while, okay?

All right, thanks, coach.

♪ Hope they never come down

♪ unless you're coming with it

♪ it's better with you around

♪

♪ I could drink myself to death tonight ♪

♪ Or I could stand and give a toast ♪

♪ To those who made it out alive ♪

♪ Well, it's you I'll miss the most ♪

♪ From a tiny room up on smith hill ♪

♪ It's easy to disappear

♪ it's easier to run off hiding ♪

♪ Than tell you I don't want you here ♪

♪ I can't stand to face the facts ♪

♪ To only leave you hurt

♪ but I don't care much for what you have to say ♪

♪ But I'd like to know what you heard ♪

♪ Oh, love

♪ it's hard to hide it

♪ true love

♪ I was once beside it

♪ I've fallen

♪ far behind it

♪

♪