Original subtitles

- [Brian] Do you think there's really a Heaven?

- [Jason] I think there's a something.

- [Brian] With everyone who ever lived?

- [Jason] Maybe.

- [Brian] Well it'd have to be pretty big.

How would we find each other? - Cell phones.

(laughing)

- [Brian] Then we'd better switch

to Verizon 'cause AT&T sucks.

(relaxed guitar music)

(birds chirping)

(bicycle bell ringing)

- This is the bike lane, people.

- [Brian] He learned that from you.

- Well, he's right.

The pedestrian lane is right over there.

- Look at me, Brian.

- Hands on the handlebars, Riley.

- I'm fine.

- I'm fine.

But

maybe it was those mussels I had at Cafe Zodiac.

We are never going back there.

- Good.

I don't know what you like about

that place anyway except the cute waiters.

- Isn't that enough?

Hands on the handlebars, Riley.

I don't want to have to explain to

your dads how you broke your neck.

- Brian.

- I mean it or we're done riding.

You all right?

- Do you miss Jason?

- Yeah.

I do.

- Me too.

Remember the day you two took

the training wheels off my bike?

- Yeah.

- I love my dads but they're not very good

at those things and they get so nervous.

- Well,

they worry about you because they love you.

- No coffee?

Three mornings in a row?

- So? - So, you

love coffee, you usually drink almost a whole pot.

Is your stomach still bothering you?

- Maybe I'm just losing my taste for it.

- [Riley] Race you to those trees down there.

- Hmm, what?

- And I get a headstart 'cause I'm a kid.

- Okay.

(grunting) (laughing)

- Did you let me win?

- No, of course not.

But next time,

no headstart.

- That's not fair, I won't be able to keep up with you.

- [Brian] What's going on?

- I don't know.

I just can't seem to keep up with you today.

- Again?

I wasn't going that fast.

- No I know, it's me.

I don't know why but,

can we turn around?

I don't think I'll make it back

to the apartment if we go much further.

- Okay.

Hey, Monday morning, you're going to the doctor.

- Stage four?

- I wish I had better news.

- Well that's not good.

- No, it's not.

- You were right, I should have paid

more attention to all the indigestion.

- Don't go there.

- Yeah.

Sometimes you have to take

responsibility for your actions.

Or inactions.

- It wouldn't have mattered.

At 48, no one would have jumped to stomach cancer.

It would have been treated for months as a

minor set of GI ailments.

And only when it finally failed would we have

realized what we were really dealing with.

And by then, we'd be right where we are now.

- So it's in my

stomach,

my liver, my

bones and my lungs.

What do we do?

- Because of how much it has metastasized,

surgery is not an option.

We can do a combination of aggressive chemo

and radiation for as long as you can take it

and that might buy you a few months.

But the odds of remission,

and I have to be honest with you Jason,

are slim to none

and the chemo would be hell.

- So you're just saying we don't do anything?

That we just let him die?

- I'm saying whether we do anything or not,

you're going to die.

The question is quality of life.

We can prescribe drugs that will keep you comfortable

or

what are you willing to put yourself

through for the possibility of another

three or four or eight or nine months?

(sobbing)

- You're supposed to fight this.

You're supposed to do the chemo and the radiation

and whatever else they can give you so you can

try and stay alive as long as you possibly can.

- I've made up my mind, Brian.

It's my life.

- It's our lives, ours.

I can't believe how fucking selfish you're being.

- I'm being selfish? - Yes.

- You want me to let them pump me full of poison

that'll make me feel weaker and sicker than I already do?

Poison that'll have me puking my guts out

every day I've got left, probably wishing

to be dead just to make the agony stop?

That'll

rob me of whatever dignity I might be able

to muster until I die just so you can put off

saying goodbye for another couple months.

That's what's fucking selfish, Brian.

- Baby,

I just,

I don't want you to die.

- I know, I know.

But I'm going to.

It's gotta be my way.

(sobbing) (somber guitar tones)

- [Riley] You think you can make it to the seaport?

- Sure, why couldn't I?

- Because you're old. - Oh.

- Excuse me, can I borrow your mustard?

- What?

Oh.

- We've been running into each other all afternoon.

- I guess we have.

- I'm Ron, you have a cute son.

- Oh he's not my son, he's more like a nephew.

His dads are really good friends of mine.

- Brian gets to borrow me sometimes.

- That's sweet, Brian?

- Yeah.

Here, the mustard.

- Nice to meet you.

- [Brian] Yeah.

- That guy is into you.

- What? No, he's not.

- So is.

- [Jason] So is.

- And you're into him.

- No, I'm not.

- Yes, you are.

- All right, let's get going.

- If you fall in love with someone and get married again,

what happens when you and your new husband die?

- What do you mean?

- Well, when you go to Heaven and Jason's there already,

will all three of you hang out together?

- I don't think that's how it works.

- Well however it works, I think you should go for it.

- So do I.

- All right, let's go.

(relaxed guitar music)

♪ You'll always be my forever ♪

♪ Down deep inside of me ♪

♪ You'll always be my forever ♪

♪ You're all I'll ever need ♪