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Well.

Where do I begin?

Anne? -Wow, Lil. Hey!

Hey. how are you? -Fine, fine. You?

Me too. This is Doris. -Hi, Anne.

So, you just did your groceries for this week? -Yes, since I ran out of sand paper again...

...No, I just moved here actually. -Really? In this neighborhood?

Yes, just there, around the corner. -Doris lives there too!

Really? -We're practically neighbors.

Really? What a coincidence.

Right. I have to go. It was nice seeing you. See you soon?

Yes, See you soon.

Bye, Bye Doris.

That’s just great, running into your ex looking like you haven't left the house in a week...

...while she looks amazing.

So that was my first girlfriend. Lily. My very first true love.

Gross!

I’m not going to wear these pants ever again. -I'm borrowing this shirt, okay?

You're already wearing it, so... -Yes, that's right.

Lil, no, no, no.

...I’ve got no time.

We were one of those annoying cute couples.

And of course we both moved to Amsterdam to study.

No!

Shit! Come, I'll drop you off.

We were inseparable. -You're nowhere without me babe.

That much is clear. -At least, that's what we thought.

No, but seriously Why would you compare something that is supposed to be...

...seen to something that is supposed to be read?

You already sound like a true Dutch Language student. Don't you think adaptations are cool?

I mean, don't you think it's interesting to see what they did with eh-

…Okay, yes. That's a good example. -Adaptation. Did you see that movie?

No, why? -You should watch that one.

Hey. -Hey.

What are we talking about? -Adaptations.

Anne thinks you shouldn't compare books to films. -Oh, I'm not much of a reader.

I prefer series. -Which ones?

Orphan Black. You know that one? -No.

That's... a cool show. -Yeah?

Well, we weren’t completely the same.

I can't do this. -Anne...

...Come on.

You just need to find your breath.

Well, I found your breath.

You’re breathing very fast now.

Hey! I want this one.

I started reading it, but I lost it on vacation.

Anna Blaman. -Blah-man. But that's not her real name...

...Blaman stands for "I'd rather be a man". -Cool.

It's this letter exchange between Anna Blaman and her good friend Marie-Louise.

They denied it, but I'm sure they were together because...

...they were so fucking gay.

You're a book nerd. -So what. Let me be.

I'll let you be. -Here...

...“How often has it occurred that you actually loved love, even though you thought...

...you loved your loved one?”

So basically she's talking about being in love with the idea of love. Isn't that beautiful?

Being in love with the idea of love? -Yeah.

How can you know? How can you know whether you're in love with the person...

...or with the idea of love? Isn't that connected?

Well, I think you'll know...

...when it turns out that you liked the idea of being in love rather than you were actually in love.

That seems like a huge grey area to me. -Oh, well. Maybe.

I mean, seriously, how can you know?

The differences between us became increasingly clear.

I started to doubt.

We already have to choose our internship.

No, they're just saying that to scare you. -No really, I've received...

...all these forms about it. -They just don’t want you to start late-

Hey.

Do you want to go? -Yes.

Really? -Yes. I'm tired, I want to go home.

Okay. -Yeah?

I think I want to stay a bit longer. Is that okay?

Sure. Of course. -You sure?

Yes, totally. Stay! -Okay.

Okay, bye.

Are you leaving? -Yes, I'm tired.

Bummer! -Have fun.

Goodnight! -Bye, Have fun!

Goodnight.

Beer?

It might sound harsh, but I noticed that I didn't really...

...miss Lily when I wasn't with her. It felt nice to break free for a bit.

Hey baby. Did you have a nice evening? I did. I'm on my way to you right now...

And... I love you. That’s it.

And I did love her.

Really, a lot.

But something changed.

And I think we both realized that.

How did your exam go? -Okay. I think I passed.

Nice. Relieved? -Yeah.

But I have another one next week.

Right.

Lily...

Okay...

MESSAGE Anne, nice to see you. Curious about your new house. Coffee? Good luck with moving, X

MESSAGE Yes! How about Sunday? X

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