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Open it!

I can't.

Oh, sure you can!

I'm so nervous.

Let's just see what it says.

Go on!

Who's winning?

- I am.
- I am.

Ma! Sully! Brian!

Colorado Seminary College --
I got accepted!

Oh!

- That's wonderful!
- Congratulations!

I knew they'd take me!

I still can't believe it.

I keep reading it
over and over again.

Oh, this is a most exciting
time for you, Colleen.

You're gonna meet bright
young people from all over.

We're gonna have to find
a place for you to stay.

They sent a list of rooming
houses near the college.

Hey, this says you have to be
in Denver next week.

That soon?

"Please arrive on the 14th
to complete matriculation.

Classes begin on the 17th."

That's a week from Friday.

Oh, my gosh!
I'm not ready!

Oh, don't worry.
We'll get you ready.

Come on.
Let's go have some supper,

unless you're
too excited to eat.

I'm going to college!

Mmm.

You smell good.

Are you sleeping?

Hmm.

Almost.

I love your skin.

Sully...

Hmm?

I just can't quite grasp it --

she's actually leaving.

Denver ain't so far.

I suppose that's true.

Mmm.

I fed her an hour ago.

Maybe she'll go back to sleep.

She never has.

She might. Just wait.

Oh!

Oh, sweetheart.

Are you hungry again?

I'm sorry.

Hi.

I can finish the coat
and two dresses, maybe three.

By Friday? Are you sure?

Well, I don't have
any other work.

The fact is, you're my first
customers to order a dress.

'Bout time, too.

Well, I'm glad to be the first.

Once people see your work,
you'll have plenty of business.

It's not gonna be cheap,
all you're orderin'.

Luckily, her grandmother
gave her a generous gift.

Elizabeth.

There's a lady with style.

Here, here, here.
These are your size.

Oh, I like the ones
that come up higher.

Well, that's all I got.

I guess I'll take them.

Well, you could buy
some boots in Denver.

They have lovely shops there
and the latest styles.

- I won't have time for shopping.
- Of course she won't!

Yes, you will.
You don't have to spend all your time in your books.

But that's what you did.

And I regret it.

There's a good theater
in Denver and concerts,

and you'll want to spend time

with your friends
having dinners.

Well, that's part
of your education also.

Part of me wishes

that I was going off
to college again.

I feel bad
leaving you right now.

Oh, don't even give it
a thought!

But with Katie so young --

We'll be fine.

I could wait till next year.

Colleen, it never seems to be
the right moment to leave.

There's always
something pressing --

some good reason
to put things off.

So what you have to do is
just take a deep breath...

and go.

Morning, Andrew.

Oh, no, that's all right.

I-I was just checking
the dosage of Mr. Ford.

The Digitalis.

Is he coming in today?

Yes.

Well, we'll see
how he's doing...

and adjust it if necessary.

Are you going to be staying
a full day?

Till about 2:00.

I'd appreciate it

if you'd take over for me
after that.

Certainly.

Well, this morning...

um, if you have any other
business to attend to --

Oh, actually, I was going to
clean the instruments.

But you just did that
the other day.

I think they need it...
if you don't mind.

No, no, that's fine.

Dr. Quinn,
Meg's feelin' poorly.

She's real warm,
and her head's been hurtin'.

Could you take a look?

Of course.

Meg, let's have you sit
over here.

Is this your baby?

Oh, she's real pretty!

Thank you.

Now, let's listen to your heart.

Where's -- Oh!

Meg, did you ever have
chickenpox when you were little?

I don't know.

No, she never has.

Well, she has them now.

Oh, no.

Is it bad?

Oh! No, no, you'll be fine.

You just need to, uh,
stay quiet

and get lots of rest
and try not to scratch.

A warm bath with oatmeal
will soothe the itching.

- Andrew, could you, please?
- Certainly.

What was I thinking?

Take it easy.

She's gonna get
the chickenpox sometime.

But I'd rather it be when she's
older and stronger.

She might not get it anyway.
It was only a few minutes.

Oh, it's highly contagious.

This can happen anywhere.

She could get it at the store
or at the café.

I never know who's
gonna come into my clinic with something serious --

typhus, influenza.

I can't possibly have her
in the room.

How about we move her
upstairs

to one
of the recovery rooms, hmm?

Go to sleep,
my sweet little girl.

How's Katie doing?

All right.

But as you know,
there's no way to tell yet.

The incubation period
is two weeks.

Oh, I wouldn't worry.

Babies her age --
even younger --

come through just fine.

Colleen's watching her
at home

until I can convert one of the
recovery rooms into a nursery.

I had a thought.

Hmm?

Have you considered trying
one of those prepared infant foods?

- Oh, heavens, no.
- Well, you could keep her at home.

You wouldn't have to rush
back to nurse.

Excuse me.

Good morning, Loren.
Please, take a seat.

Michaela...

some of the most eminent
doctors in Boston

recommend prepared infant food
for women who can't produce breast milk.

Which is not the case here.

Well, they've had
excellent results.

Are you talkin'
about that Liebig's food?

I could order some for ya.

Thank you, but my father
believed very strongly

that breast milk is essential
for all babies.

In fact,
he told all his patients

to avoid all varieties
of so-called "infant foods."

So, Loren, how are you doing?

Whoa.

Mornin', Sully.

Morning, Miss Dorothy.

Thank you.

I brought you some stew.

Oh.

Thank you!

I figured you could use it.

How are you all doin'?

Good.

Well, I bet you're tired.

No, not really.

Well, it's a big change.

I mean, you don't get
a night's rest,

it's a lot more work,
you lose your privacy...

Yeah.

...and your wife's got
a lot less time

for everybody else.

That is true.

Let me tell you somethin',
Sully.

This is gonna sound crazy,
but...

sometimes...

a father even finds himself

feeling...jealous of the baby.

You're not the first man
to feel that way,

but there's certain things

that only a husband can provide.

After you were married...

I-I-I know...

M-Michaela t--

It meant a lot to her.

Yeah, well --

Sully, listen to me.

When a woman gives birth,

her attention...shifts.

She's feedin' the baby,

and her mind's just fixed
on that baby

every hour of the day.

So...

you just gotta help her
a little.

I...didn't wanna press her...

Course not, but...

you can court her.

You do remember how to do that.

Oh, that's it!
Just relax.

And don't hold him so tight.

Whoa!

Oh!

Everybody takes a fall
now and then.

Even Colleen!

I told him that.

You just gotta get back on.

We'll take it slow

until you get
your confidence back.

I never had it
to begin with.

Well, just pretend, then.

Walk around by yourself.

Wait, wait, wait, wait!

haven't we had enough for today?

I mean, don't you have
a lot of things to do?

- You're leaving in a week.
- That's all right.

Colleen, I-I-I haven't had
a chance to tell you

how happy I am for you.

It's admirable --

women going to college
and entering the professions.

Thanks.

But I feel kind of strange.

I'm gonna miss my family...

my friends...

working with Dr. Mike...

and you.

We'll have a lot of
opportunities to work together.

In fact, why don't we go
back over to the clinic right now?

Oh, no, not until you ride
around by yourself.

All right.

All right.

Whoa. Whoa, whoa, whoa.
I'd feel a lot more comfortable

if I had somebody
up here with me.

Can't ride very far that way.

I'll ride with ya.

All right.

Whoa.

Come on, Becky.

You better behave.

- Michaela...
- Hmm?

Oh, what?
Is it time for supper?

Just about.

I made something.

What is this?

It's for the baby.

Some of the Indian women
carry their babies like this

when they're cooking
or gathering wood,

and the babies don't cry.

Oh, thank you.
Let's see if she likes it.

Supper's ready.

Good. I'm starving.

Would you excuse me?
I've got a stomachache.

You do?

It's nothing, really.
I just wanna lie down.

All right.

Well, this is wonderful, Sully.

I can eat with two hands again.

The stew looks good.

- Not bad.
- Hmm.

Zeke?

Evenin', folks.
Sorry to disturb ya.

Evening, Zeke.
Would you like to sit down?

Uh, thank you kindly,
but i-it's my boy.

He fell off the barn roof.

He's all right,

but he's got some cuts --
might need a few stitches.

I'll take her.

I shouldn't be too long.

I'll be back
before Katie's next feeding.

I'm gonna cut open your bandages
and take a look.

Oh!

You're a brave young man, Sam.

Hmm.

He has a deep cut here
from his cheek to his ear.

He'll need a lot of stitches.

I'm gonna use some of this
to put you to sleep.

And when you wake up...

It will all be over.

She likes that music.

Someday when you get older,

we'll get you your own flute.

Then we can play duets.

You like having
a little sister?

Yeah. I'm glad
I ain't the baby anymore.

I'm the big brother.

I'm gonna use the finest thread
and the smallest needle.

Why's that?

Because it's his face, I want
to make very small sutures.

It'll take more time,

but there'll be
less chance of scars.

Look, here comes the bunny.

Hop, hop, hop, hop.

Hop, hop, hop, hop.

Hang on, Katie.

Ma will be home real soon.

Shh.

What time is it?

10 past midnight.

Oh, dear.
I should never have left her.

Left who?

I still have to suture the ear.

Can't we give her something --

milk from our cow?

Nope.

I feel so bad.

So do I, Brian,
but there's nothing we can do.

Shh. It's okay.

Sorry.

I'm sorry, Katie.

Oh!

Oh!

Just a moment.

Just a moment.

How's this?

She'll be comfortable...
and out of harm's way.

Oh! Let's see.

There you go, Katie.

Hi.

Hello.

She's smiling.

- Oh, she is.
- Yeah, look.

You're right!

I better get goin'.

Preston's got a shipment of
silver comin' in on the train.

Talk to you later.

You all set now?

Yes.

But what happens
when I wanna go downstairs?

Well, you can leave
the door open.

I'll be able to hear her.

But what if you don't?

She could get caught
in a blanket,

choke herself, and --

And not be able to cry.

Maybe somebody
ought to stay with her.

Colleen's at the store
fitting her new coat,

and -- and Brian's working
with Dorothy.

I'll watch her.

You don't mind?

Just for a day.

Why not?

I can't help
at the reservation anymore.

Trapping's no good.

you gotta travel too far
to find anything.

I really don't feel
like doing that right now.

I understand.

I gotta find
some other kind of work.

You will.

Hmm.

You're lucky.

Lucky?

Your course is set.

Everything's clear.

Sully, I'm not sure
of that at all.

Sometimes what seems clear
can...turn very cloudy.

Oh.

It ain't never been
this bad before.

I can't even breathe at night.

Well, the best cure
for hay asthma

is to remove yourself
from all vegetation.

How?

Go to the ocean
or high in the mountains.

The ocean?
I can't just up and leave.

Well, the next best thing
is stramonium.

Have you tried that?

If you smoke dried leaves
in a pipe

or...in cigarette form.

Try this.

If that doesn't work,
let me know.

That cover it?

Yes. Thank you.

Sure.

Forgive my temerity,
Michaela.

I thought
you might like to read this.

Baron von Liebig is a chemist.

After analyzing
the composition of human milk,

he devised a preparation
that can be fed to infants.

- Andrew --
- It's a combination of wheat flour, malt flour,

cow's milk,
and bicarbonate of potash --

to reduce the acidity.

At least take a look...

in the interest of science.

You're doing so much better.

That's because I have
you two young ladies

on either side of me.

Pretty soon you'll be galloping
across the meadow.

You gotta stay in
Colorado Springs till you can do that.

I'd like to stay.

Dr. Mike may not say it,
but...she needs you here.

Oh, don't worry.

I'm not leaving
till they boot me out.

And you, Becky,
what are your plans

now that
you've finished school?

I ain't sure.

- She wants to get married.
- Colleen!

Have lots of children.

I think it's admirable.

You do?

But...I thought you said...

you liked to see women
go off to college.

Well, I admire women
with talent and ambition.

Your mother, for example.

She's an outstanding doctor.

I've learned a great deal
from her.

But...personally --

Let's ride over
to that big tree.

You were saying?

Well, I might be a bit traditional in this respect,

but when a man comes home
from his job,

I think he likes to find
his wife there

with a pleasant supper
and his children all around.

Come on. Let's race!

Oh, I can't race.

All right, come on!

That's fast enough.

A boil, you say?

Um, can you get your father
to put a hot compress on it?

We've been doin' that.
It just gets bigger.

Oh, dear. I don't know
how I'm gonna do all this.

Oh, why don't you go
over to the boardinghouse,

speak to Dr. Cook?

I can't. He's out ridin'
with Colleen.

It's all right.
We're going home now.

Uh...use some hot towels
and tincture of iodine.

If he's still uncomfortable
in the morning,

I'll ride out to your place.

Here's a photograph
of the family.

Katie's not in it.

Oh, that's true!

Well, we'll have to have
a new one taken.

And you'll want this.

This is the best
medical reference I found.

Don't you need it?

I have others.
I want you to take this.

Thanks.

Is something the matter?

Are you --

Are you a little bit nervous?

I understand.
I was the same way myself.

I kept wondering
if I was prepared enough,

if I was gonna be able
to keep up.

It's not that.

I mean, I know
I have to work hard.

What if I wanna get married
and have a family?

Of course you'll want that.
Most people do.

Some men might not want
their wives to go off to a job.

Sully never objected.

Sully's different.

Colleen,
a man who doesn't respect

your dreams and your talents

wouldn't be
the right partner for you.

You've wanted to study
medicine for a long time.

You're not thinking
of giving it all up?

No.

But I see
how hard it is for you.

Yes...it's a challenge.

But women have always worked
and raised a family.

Well, look at Grace in her café.

And Dorothy's worked
on the farm,

milking cows
and breeding chickens

while she raised
four children,

and now she has the paper.

You think there's other men
who feel like Sully?

I'm certain of it.

Colleen...

You can be a doctor
and a wife and a mother.

You can help others and --
and raise your own family.

You can do it,

and you mustn't let
anyone ever persuade you

that you can't.

She had a good feeding.
I think she'll sleep.

What's this?

And the roses.
What's the occasion?

Well, you've been
so busy lately,

and things have been
awful hectic.

I haven't had
a chance to say that I...

I love you.

Oh, Sully.

Mmm.

Open the box.

You didn't have to.

Oh!

Thank you. It's beautiful.

I haven't thought
about perfume in a while.

Have I told you lately...

how beautiful you are?

I'm afraid I haven't felt
very beautiful lately.

Well, you are.

I don't know what it is.

I'm just --

I-I'm tired, and --

And it's
a different sort of tired.

I'm sorry.

Shh.

Hey, there's nothing
to be sorry about.

Oh, Sully...

I love you so much.
I'm sorry.

Everything's gonna be
all right.

Alice, what is it?

Oh!

Why didn't you send for me?

- Oh
- There was no time.

I saw a man die very rapidly
from a carbuncle

once it turned gangrenous.

A carbuncle?
I thought this was a boil.

Thank goodness you're here.
This is not my line of work.

I think I'll go sit with Alice.

I think I was able to extirpate
all the affected tissue.

Oh, I had no idea
it was so large.

It's a good thing
Alice brought him here.

Another few hours or so,
and we would have lost him for sure.

I think
he's going to be all right.

He's woken up,
and his fever's down.

That's a very good sign.

Can I see him?

I'll take you up.

You didn't know.

I wasn't paying attention.

Alice didn't know herself.

Well, Katie was tired,

and I didn't want to subject
her to a long ride,

and I let that color
my judgment.

If Andrew hadn't been here --

But he was.

You're always telling me
to do my best.

That's all that you can do.

Hey, Colleen, Dr. Mike.

Hey, Becky.

I can take her now.

Oh, that's all right.
I'll go later.

Go where?

I was gonna have a fitting
for the dresses.

Becky was gonna watch Katie,
but I don't have to go.

No, please,
I want you to go.

I'll take good care of her.

It's late.
Why don't you get to sleep?

It's so comforting when all
the research and statistics

lead to a clear conclusion...

which is not the case here.

Dr. Buchan says,

"Every mother
ought to nurse her child

"if she's fit to do so.

"It is a noble
and holy office

to which
she is appointed by God."

That sounds pretty clear.

But Dr. Cutler says
that cow's milk

mixed with water and sugar
is an acceptable substitute.

But Baron von Liebig
disagrees.

He says that cow's milk
is too acidic,

and that's why he adds
potash to his formula.

Well, what do
your instincts tell you?

Well, I know in my heart
what's best for Katie,

and I'm only considering
infant food

because it's convenient for me.

Well, that must mean
something, doesn't it?

what's good for the mother...

Well, they also say
that emotion and strain

can affect your milk,

that if you're weak and tired,
your milk won't contain

the nourishment
your baby needs.

I'm certainly tired.

Why does it have to be
one or the other?

Why can't we stick to nursing,

and once in a while,
in an emergency,

we'll try the food?

It sounds so simple.

Well, what's wrong with that?

Well, why didn't I think
of it?

Come on.

"How do you do?
I'm Colleen Cooper."

So, you see, you can
actually wear the cape...

separately.

"Pleased to meet you.

"I'm preparing to study
medicine.

Yes, I know that's unusual."

You're gonna knock
their eyes out.

Thank you, Emma.
I just love everything.

My pleasure.

I wish I was going with you.

Well, why don't you come?

You could apply for
a scholarship next term.

I-I don't know.

Why not?

Well, I don't have
the grades that you do.

Oh, they don't matter,
as long as you do well on the exams.

We could live
in the same boardinghouse,

have rooms
right next to each other.

I don't think so.

Oh, come on, Becky.
It would be so much fun.

I...kinda feel
like staying here.

I'm gonna miss you.

Well, you'll have to come
visit me,

and I'll be coming home a lot.

I bet you won't.

You'll be making new friends

and learning
all kinds of new things.

You won't be interested
in the folks back here.

That's not true.

You'll always be
my best friend.

Think so?

I know so.

You gotta promise that
you'll always be my best friend

and I'll always be yours,
no matter what.

Promise?

Promise.

Hey. I had a good day.

Oh, Sully,
I'm so glad you're here.

What's wrong?

It's Katie.

I tried giving her some --
some of the infant food --

just a small amount --
and it disagreed with her.

She spit it all up
and started crying.

And I just got her settled down.

Is she gonna be all right?

Yes, I think so.

Maybe we'll just try
a different kind of food.

I can't do it, Sully.

All right.

Forget about the baby food

and come and sit down.

I went into this blind --
willfully blind.

I just didn't want to think
about what would happen

if a patient sent for me
at night,

and I had to feed the baby.

I just went ahead
with blind faith

that everything
would work out.

And now Katie's suffering,
my patients are suffering --

I almost cost a man his life,

and -- and you --

Don't worry about me.

I can't be the wife
that I want to be.

Michaela, we haven't had
that much time yet.

We've still gotta get used
to things.

And I don't wanna leave Katie.

Look at Colleen.

it seems like it was yesterday

that I was just quizzing her
on her spelling bee,

and I turn around,

and she's going
off to college.

What are you saying?

I'm saying...

that I'm thinking of turning
my practice over to Andrew.

No Katie today?

She's at home.

There's something
i-I wanna discuss with you.

Oh, I'm sorry.
I forgot to tell you --

Mrs. Darcy came by with Meg.

She's completely well.

I'm...thinking of making
a change.

Yes?

Well, I-I won't be coming
in quite as often --

just a few hours every day.

Could you be available
the other times?

Well, of course.

Is that just this week, or --

Well, this week, yes,
and then, uh --

Look at this.

My eye is swollen shut,
my nose is runnin' like a river,

and I keep sneezin'.

Did you take the belladonna
I gave you yesterday?

Yeah, I took that.

I kept takin' them leaves
like you told me,

just in case
they decided to work,

but they didn't.
I'm worse.

We could try strychnine,
but we'd have to be cautious.

I have something
that'll help you.

What's that?

Stinging nettles.

You brew them into a tea

and drink it every few hours.

It'll give you
immediate relief.

Stinging nettles?

Oh, it's something I learned
from the Cheyenne.

You're using
an Indi remedy?

Well, I use what's effective.

I was skeptical
when I first came here.

But I've used
many of their herbs

on myself and my family,
and they worked.

Thanks.

I'll try anything
if it'll help me breathe.

Oh.

Wanna go for a ride?

♪ Clickety-clop, clickety-clop,
clickety-clop, clickety-clop ♪

Jumping!

Jumping!

Giddyap, giddyap, giddyap.

Uh-oh.

Whoa.

Hey, Michaela.

Hi, cutie.

You're feeling better?

Yeah, them Indian nettles
worked.

After two days,
I can breathe again.

Well, that's wonderful.

Did you come all the way out
here just to tell me that?

I, uh --

I had to ride
out in this direction.

I couldn't even ride before
without collapsin'.

You know, breathin' --

it's one of them things
you don't even think about

till you can't do it.

I appreciate it.

Well, I'm glad
I was able to help you.

Well, you're the only one
that could.

Thank you, Hank.

I, um --

I heard you ain't comin'
in to work so much?

Yes, that's true.

I was thinking,

If you wanna bring her
with you to the clinic,

I can have my girls
look after her for you

when things are slow.

Well --

well, that's very kind of you.

I'll, uh, keep that in mind.

Um...

the folks in town's
gonna miss you.

Does this fit you?

It looks a little small.

Colleen?

Hmm?

Do you wanna take this dress?

Oh. Sure.

Is something the matter?

I had a stomachache
again last night.

I couldn't sleep.

Maybe it's something
you've been eating.

My stomach seems to hurt
more and more

the closer it gets to Friday.

Hmm.

How can I leave when
everything I love is here?

If I go...

It's gonna change
my whole life.

I got a feeling

I'll never be sitting
here on my bed again.

I know what you mean.

But I wanna go so badly!

But --

You're frightened.

That's because you're
stepping into the unknown.

But the unknown can also be
a great adventure.

You just have to follow
your heart, and trust.

Nothing's gonna be the same.

Well, you're right.

Nothing will ever be
the same, Colleen.

Everything changes, but...

change can be good.

I remember
the first time you did this.

You do?

I was telling you about
a problem I was having,

and you picked up the brush --

I love you.

I love you, too...

very much.

What's this?

A surprise.

Angel food cake -- my favorite.

I baked it this afternoon.

Katie helped me stir.

Oh!

You look happy, Ma.

I am happy.

I feel like I've been
in a fog or underwater

and I couldn't see
a foot in front of me.

But now it's clearing.

Lookin' after Katie
agrees with you.

Yes.
So does practicing medicine.

I mean, it comes
as naturally to me

as -- as breathing.

And when I'm looking after
Katie,

I find myself thinking
about my patients

and how they're doing.

And when I'm at the clinic,
I find myself thinking about Katie.

What are you gonna do?

Well, as you said,

it doesn't have to be
one or the other.

I've been looking
for an answer -- a solution.

There is no perfect solution.

So I'm just gonna have to
muddle through

one day at a time...

If you'll all help me.

Of course we'll help you.

Oh!

Here you are, folks.

Loadin' up.

We're runnin' late. No!

Get that other one for me,
would ya?

Denver's a big place.

It ain't like it is here.

I know that.

There's lots of folks
passin' by.

You don't know 'em,
and they don't know you.

Matthew, please don't worry.

If you need anything...

or anything happens...

you wire me,

and I'm gonna be there
on the next train.

Thanks.

You're the best big brother.

Don't forget your promise.

I won't.

Don't you forget.

Good luck.

Thanks.

I'll be back soon.

I'm not leaving you.

You have yourself a good time.

If you wanna come back
and visit,

we'll be waiting here
for you.

Thanks, Sully.

This is for you.

What is it?

Open it.

A pen!

It's beautiful.

My father gave it to me
when I went away to school.

He would have been proud
to have seen his granddaughter

starting college.

Thank you.

Thank you for everything.

Bye.

Bye.

Don't work too hard!

Remember to buy yourself
some boots.

Bye, everyone.

- Bye, Colleen!
- Bye, Colleen! - Bye, Colleen!

Goodbye!

Bye!

Bye, Colleen!

Bye, Colleen!

Mmm.

- Oh!
- She'll go back to sleep.

She never has before.

Well, I had a little talk
with her.

You did?

I told her her mother
and her father

needed a little time
to rest, too.

She understood that?

Mm-hmm.