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No. Right now, I'm doing odd jobs so...

I could take an assignment whenever.

Yes. I just took a two-day job
somewhere in the sticks.

I'd go to the ends of the world.

Ex-- Excuse me. Excuse me, one moment.

I'm sorry, could you stop the bus, please?
I feel really sick.

Maybe you should open the door now.

So? What do the tests say?

They're negative,
and the levels are stable.

I told you all, I'm fine.
I'm sorry I had you worry like this.

"I'm sorry" is not enough.

You have to face the psychological
implications of the situation

before you can say you're fine.

Excuse me.

I have to go. We'll talk again.

I'm the one who's sorry. I assumed
you'd have come to me if you needed help.

No.

No, it's not your fault.
It's me. I couldn't. It's--

It's complicated.

Gab, we know why you did it.

We know about Natsinet.

Why didn't you tell me?
I would've been okay.

I was an idiot.

We have a new admission.
One Milena Bianchi.

Kidane, you want to take her?

I'm kidding.
But hurry and get back on your feet.

What is it?

You don't remember this, but every three
years there's an international convention

for Internal Medicine chiefs
in a fancy hotel outside Milan.

I'm not a chief anymore.
Maybe they haven't updated their database.

I know, but you never got to enjoy it.

You only went for the conferences,

and left the pool, the dinners, caviar
and champagne to everyone else.

Now you can make up for it.

Don't leave all the champagne
to Dr. Tedeschi

Think about it. But first,
let's take care of the admission.

Let's talk when you feel like it.

"Kidane, we know you never had COVID."

Is that so hard to say?
You want to keep the secret too?

I want him to say it.

This note proves that Lazzarini
was patient zero.

-Where did Cesconi find it?
-He won't say.

But we'll say that we found it by chance
in Fanti's personal belongings.

It's a bit of a stretch, I know,

but we agree that
he's the one who took it, correct?

Of course, it was him.

I caught him in the archives, one day.

I didn't see him take the note,
but Lazzarini's binder was out of place.

-It couldn't be a coincidence.
-You'll have to testify to the committee.

Listen, we wasted too much time on Fanti.
If it hadn't been for him,

we would've already put in the order
for the electromedical equipment.

Maybe, now, it's time.

By the way,
we've received three estimates.

I think this
by PNS Diagnostica is the best one.

Take a look. Think about it.

Causes And Consequences

Good morning, ma'am.
How are we doing?

Bad. As usual.

You don't have blinds here?
This light is unbearable.

Even with those glasses?

That's why I wear them.

-Are you a doctor?
-I'm not exactly a doctor, but--

Can you bring me some water, then?

Even better, some juice.

The vending machine is down the hall.

Now we have to try to figure out
why you're vomiting blood.

Gastrointestinal hemorrhage.
Here are the results of her endoscopy.

Stupid cough.

Do you take a lot of medicine?
For the cough

or your joints. I see your wrists hurt.

No, not the wrists, everything,
all the time, constantly.

The cough is nothing. If I don't take
my medicine, I can't get out of bed.

-What are you taking? You have them?
-Yes.

Ketoprofen. The hemorrhage
is due to the abuse of Fans.

But we should figure out the origin
of the pain, not just take drugs for it.

Oh, yeah?

And you're going to do it?

Because they always tell me
it's tendinitis and send me home.

Excuse me. Does the vending machine
have mints, too? I'm almost out.

Ma'am, from 1 to 10,

how do you rate the pain you usually feel?

I know what you're saying.

That I take too many drugs,
and needlessly.

But it's not true. The pain
took everything from me. Even my son.

He's with another family, because
I can't take care of him like this.

We'll investigate further.

-But I'll have someone get you some water.
-Thanks.

And the mints.

I'll take these.

I'm sorry about your son.
You haven't seen him in a while?

I see him now end then. When I'm able.

Manuel is used to it. He's been with
different families for six years, now.

Now? There's nobody else?

Fine, I'm coming.

I can't take him.

Of course,
Davide is always available, right?

-Please, no arguments.
-There's no argument. It's the truth.

I've been doing it all for over a year.
And you don't even realize it.

You do your things, with your head down,
you don't see what I'm doing!

I'm sorry if I'm being investigated,
and if there was a pandemic!

I can't wait to be done either,
but what can I do?

I'll help you out.
I'll help you out. Manuel?

Manuel?

Come.

-Fibromyalgia.
-What about the cough?

It's of nervous origin. Not even
the patient thinks it's relevant.

-Rheumatoid arthritis, then.
-Sorry for the interruption.

But she may help us get the big picture.
This is Milena Bianchi's social worker.

Good morning. If you're wondering
about the origin of her pain,

other doctors found
that she exaggerates it.

Other doctors can be wrong.

But I can tell you, they started
with post-partum depression.

Milena had a child on her own.

Her financial situation is precarious,

and since Manuel was born,
it's gotten worse.

She doesn't have a steady job,

and she often loses the odd jobs
she gets because of physical issues.

Fibromyalgia seems the most likely.

But Milena is in pain,
she's not faking it.

Well, I think--

Even if it has a mental element
tied to stress and depression,

fibromyalgia is still a serious syndrome.

Thank you. But this is not your patient,
so try to do one thing at a time.

The point is
that it's a chronic condition,

and there's no cure.
There is nothing we can do.

But we can't even exclude other diseases
because a social worker told us,

with all due respect.

Okay. We'll test for rheumatoid arthritis

-and C-reactive protein, then we'll see.
-Good. You got it?

I'll finish my round,
and check on Gabriel.

-Alright.
-I'll help you.

I'm doing one thing at a time.
I'll finish this later.

Maybe, I can talk to her?

It could be a good idea. Let's try.

Hi, Milena.
I'm sorry to see you're not well.

This is Agnese. Manuel's foster mom.
You spoke over the phone.

A doctor? I didn't know.

At least, this time Manuel
won't complain about the food.

-We're not here to argue.
-I know why you're here.

Because she has to see
what the loser mom looks like.

It's easy being a mother
with a doctor's salary.

It's even easier getting joint pain
to avoid being a mother.

I thought she was a struggling single mom,
but she's just an irresponsible bitch.

Depression my ass.

Okay, she has a bad attitude.

But maybe it's because something's
been ruining her life for years.

I think she's milking it.
This is the fourth home for Manuel,

-and I'm about to fail him, too.
-Agnese, you're too involved.

We shouldn't diagnose her
in five minutes, like everyone else did.

Now, we have to try to listen to her
and cure her. Hm?

What are you two up to now?

We just admitted Manuel's mom.

Doc? Caruso is looking for you.

Maybe he decided the date
for your oral exam.

Or maybe he found out
about the invite to the convention.

No more champagne.

Honey? I have an admission for you.

I'll send you Bonvegna, if I find him.

He's like a pinball lately,
he can never be found.

We know what this means.

And we also know that you took this
from Lazzarini's file.

-If you say so.
-No, Fanti. The board of inquiry will.

They've already received a copy of it.

They'll verify everything, and evaluate.

Good morning. Sorry, I'm late.

-Nice to meet you, Riccardo.
-You're residents, right?

-Yes.
-Sabrina is suffering from cyclic vomiting

that won't go away with any drug,
always uncontrollable and violent.

I shouldn't be here,

but I had an episode during a test
and they were about to call an exorcist.

Then, luckily they called an ambulance.

Well, it's a good thing
you came here then,

so we can try to figure out
the origin of these episodes.

A lot have tried, but, hey,
maybe you have the magic wand.

ANXIOUS MATER

"Anxious Mater".

Sorry, I have to take this,
she'll call the cops.

Mom? Yes. Who told you?

Yes. I'm at the hospital.
No, no need to come.

Don't worry. I'm going home.
I'll call you. Don't worry. Really. Bye.

-Where are you going?
-I said that to calm her down.

She'd come all the way from Brescia.

It's unnecessary.

Sometimes, I think I have these vomiting
episodes because she stresses me out.

Well...

Sabrina?

I've checked the previous tests.

They've looked at all possibilities
and came up with nothing.

Are the episodes
occurring during her cycle?

No. No, we asked. It's not hormonal.

Okay. Give her this new antiemetic.

And run a tox screen,
maybe it's some kind of poisoning.

What if it's not spontaneous,
and it's induced?

She threw up on my feet.
It was very spontaneous.

Maybe she takes something.
If she's bulimic she won't admit it.

Eating disorders are very common
with young women, right?

-What if it's porphyria?
-Yes.

Doesn't explain it all, but it could be
some abnormal form of it. Check it out.

Why did you give it to him?

-And why did you guys hide it?
-I have my reasons.

And I'm sure you have yours.
But is what they gave you really worth it?

Even more than Giulia?

I think we got off on the wrong foot.
Me, first. I shouldn't have said that.

A lot of people
lose their patience with me.

I was thinking about Manuel.

What he must've gone through,

but I didn't think about how hard
it must've been for you as a mother.

And I should know that well.

Years ago, I lost a son.

I'm sorry, I...

Manuel... Do you miss him?

Yes. Of course.

But I don't even have time
to think about it.

I'm either sick or looking for work.

When I decided to keep him,
I didn't think it'd be like this.

I thought he was given to me by destiny,
since when I first married,

it had taken away my husband.

The first year was tough,

but we were getting the hang of it,
then I got sick and...

Once, when he was 2...

I didn't change him for 24 hours.

I only fed him a banana.

Because I couldn't get up.

I think that when they took him away...

it was the best thing for him.

I'll ask the social worker
if I can come with Manuel tomorrow.

-If you'd like.
-Thank you.

With the sun light
we can see if it's porphyria.

While with this, we'll check
if pharmaceutics have made any progress.

I doubt it, but... it can't hurt.

Listen, did you notice if these episodes
happen at a particular time of day?

After eating? Or if you ate too much?

I'm not bulimic,
if that's where you're going with that.

They've already asked me.
In a better way, to be honest.

Doc wants to see us in the
Residents' Room. Sabrina, excuse us.

Caruso's been trying for weeks
to get rid of me and he finally did it.

All this,
thanks to Cesconi, that rat. I told you.

Guys, the point is
you can't get involved.

You'd only create
more issues for the department.

Actions have consequences.

We only have to worry about
Lorenzo's sister.

She didn't do anything,
and is the only one risking something.

Damiano?

Listen, I know it's not easy
to understand, but I had to do it.

And nobody knows I got it at your place.

Yeah, they're blaming Andrea.
And Lorenzo's sister will be in trouble.

What does she have to do with it?

Don't worry about it.

I don't know what you're talking about,
but trust me...

I don't want to get anyone in trouble,
much less Andrea.

Well, guess what,
Caruso will use that note against him.

It's a bit late to ask me to trust you.

Giulia?

Hey.

Enrico told me about the note.

We'll have to see what the board says.

I just hope that the consequences
will only be focused on me.

Listen, I had a thought about Milena.

And I'm ashamed of having this thought,
but I have to tell you about it.

If it's how you say,

that Milena has a disease
that nobody's figured out...

and you guys cure her...

she could have her son back.

Right?

Manuel will be happier with his real mom.

And I could talk to Davide.

I have to say that I took it.

If I had destroyed it,
none of this would've happened.

-Giulia.
-They'll understand. I was emotional.

They want me. They don't want you.

Cecilia will say that she saw me in the
archives, and they'll believe her.

It's the truth, I took it.

We have Milena's results.
It's not rheumatoid arthritis.

The rest of the levels
aren't exactly in the norm,

but there are no real anomalies.

The C-reactive protein is high.
It could be another autoimmune disease.

-Lupus?
-She has zero rashes.

No need to look far, when we have
the easiest solution in front of us.

It's fibromyalgia.

Give her some painkillers
and keep her under observation.

It's not fibromyalgia.

When tomorrow things will be worse,
you'll see I'm right.

I told you, drugs are useless.

Unfortunately, it's not porphyria either.
The result is negative.

Have a seat. Take it easy. Okay.

I'm sorry.

-Is that a burn?
-Yes.

-How did that happen?
-Under a hot shower.

-What do you mean?
-It's the only thing that makes it better.

It has to be hot,
almost to the point of burning.

Anyway, don't worry.
Nobody can figure it out.

Much less two residents,
with all due respect.

Everything will be reviewed by the
referring physician, so don't worry.

I'm not talking to Cesconi.
He betrayed us.

You and I can totally
do this on our own. Okay?

Dr. Tedeschi will release you tomorrow.

But first, she said your therapist
needs to see if you're eligible to leave.

If you still want to do that.

Gab, I'm saying this for you.

Natsinet family's there, and I can
understand the pressure you feel.

Yes, but...

I'm better, now.

Actually, I'd like to thank Massimo.

He seems like a good guy.
I'm happy for you.

I thanked him.

The truth is that there's nothing there.

There never was.
You won't hear his name again.

-But--
-No, don't say anything. It's my problem.

See you tomorrow.

Bye, Doc.

Do you know what happened with Massimo?
He seemed like a good person.

That's for sure. Let's just say that
he wasn't who he appeared to be.

Do you feel like talking now?

Yes, but not about me.
Let's talk about you instead.

Looks like there's more to life
than Medicine.

Life's unpredictable.

Of course, hiding Lorenzo's note
will have some heavy consequences.

But at least,
I talked to you guys about it.

Keeping secrets to oneself...
it gets heavy.

DAD

-Dad?
-Damiano, listen.

During the hearing, at one point...

the president of the most important

Italian association of anesthesiologists
showed up unexpectedly,

and testified in my favor.

They're dropping the charges against me.

But now you have to tell me
how you did it.

Because it was you, right?

I wish I had all that power.

-You must've deserved it, Dad.
-Huh?

I said, "You must've deserved it."

Okay. I'll come visit soon,
so we can celebrate. Okay? Bye.

Apparently, it was worth it.

Just now that I feel sick.

Come, Manuel. Come here.
Let me look at you.

How are you? I can tell you're eating.
Wait, wait. Look what I have.

Mints. The last ones. I'll get some more.

Oh, I knew it! I knew it! I can't move!

-Calm down, Milena.
-No, I won't! I want my medicine!

Manuel, tell them how sick I am.
No! No, Tylenol doesn't work.

You abused the stronger stuff.
I can't give it to you.

Then let me die, I can't take it anymore!

I was wrong bringing you here.
I didn't want you to see her like this.

She always screams when she's sick.
Sometimes she's fine.

But when the sick comes,
it's best not to be around.

-Or it's best to be quiet.
-Does she tell you to be quiet?

No, I just know.

The dad where I was before, he screamed,
too, when he didn't want plain pasta.

Adults scream if you bother them,
and they don't want you anymore.

Do you want them? I don't like them.

Listen, Manuel.

Adults sometimes scream...

because they don't feel well.

Or because they're irritable
and don't know how to control themselves.

Or because they're fighting with
each other. But it's not your fault.

There's still time
until Davide comes to pick you up.

If you have to work, I can wait here.

No, I meant that we still have time
to do something together.

I know a fun place. Do you wanna go?

Good job!

Now we can make a wish. What do you want?

I want to keep taking swimming lessons.

Mom. You're not answering your phone.

Davide's been calling for 20 minutes,
so he called me.

I lost track of time.

-Hey, champ. See you at the pool, huh?
-I'll walk you.

Whatever you're doing,
think about him first.

RICCARDO
SABRINA'S RESULTS ARE READY

Do we have the results for the girl?

No. And her name is Sabrina.

Not even the tox screen?
It's usually fast.

Guys, I have nothing against you.
I have nothing against anyone.

You have a strange way of showing it.

I didn't throw up all night.

Of course, I'm around Saturday.

Mom, I have to go,
class is about to start.

I'll call you back. Bye.

The episode seems to be over.
Did you find anything?

Yes. That you use cannabis.

You have THC in your blood.

It's important
that you tell us everything.

-It's for personal use. Is it relevant?
-Secrets are always relevant.

There's a reason why we keep them.

You don't have to be a genius to know
that with an extremely anxious mom...

She'd probably send me to rehab
if she found out.

She wouldn't understand
that it's not addicting.

Actually, it can be addicting,
not only psychologically.

Can you excuse us?

Come here.

I recognize that look. Tell me.

I just thought of a research I read
for an exam, I think.

I'm gonna try to look for it. Let's go.

Come on.

I'm sorry.

I transferred Natsinet's issue
on my relationship with Elisa

and made you think it was resolved.

No, I made a mistake.
But I won't do it again.

Now you're transferring something else,
something deep, on Natsinet.

There's something that shook
your foundation as a doctor. And as a man.

That made you lose confidence in yourself.

Am I right?

Gabriel, you're not here to do me a favor.
Or your chief.

You're here to get your life back.

I won't try to kill myself,
if that's what you mean.

And if you give me the okay
to go back to Ethiopia,

I won't cause you any more problems.

Let's do this.

Now go home and rest for a few days.
And then we'll talk about it.

My life can't depend on what you decide.

I'm here to help you.

Your body says one thing, and your
head denies it. And everything gets stuck.

You have to have the courage
to face that agony again.

But if you don't put your head
and body back together, it won't happen.

And me going to Ethiopia won't happen.
That's for sure.

Oh, sorry. I didn't know.

May I speak with you,
when you have a moment?

Come. Come on in. We're done here.

Who's that?

The chairman of the hospital's
Family Solidarity Fund.

Did something happen?

What happened is that since Lorenzo died,

his sister Susanna, who's disabled,
has gotten assistance from that fund.

But, if with that note, they decide
that Lorenzo died of his own negligence,

they could take it away.

But don't worry.
We'll take care of Susanna.

We've decided to put some money away.
Maybe not mine, since I'll be fired.

We were able to have her take the Tylenol
with a sedative. But she still has pain.

We either release her,
or stuff her with cortisone.

The results didn't show anything.
I'd confirm the fibromyalgia.

We're her only hope to heal,
but no, let's do the one thing

everyone's been doing for years,
which is absolutely nothing.

-A mild rash showed up on her arm.
-It's lupus, see?

A mild isolated rash
could be due to the medicine.

It could be the beginning
of a more serious rash.

-Andrea...
-I want to cure this woman.

I'll do everything I can.

Give me a valid theory.
Or are you being stubborn?

Calm down, please.

Let's check for lupus,
and remove any doubt.

Levels of C3 and C4,
and anti-double-stranded DNA antibodies.

It's not the first time
you get stubborn on a diagnosis.

No, this time is different because

finding the diagnosis could mean
getting Agnese back.

It's a terrible thought. Am I doing it
for the patient or for myself?

We all have terrible thoughts sometimes.

The important thing
is that we don't act on them.

So, never mind what Andrea thinks,
answer me as Doc. Do you think it's lupus?

It's not likely.

-But it's not impossible.
-Well, then...

You have to check,
and there's nothing terrible about that.

Now, answer as Andrea.

Do you really think
that your chances with Agnese

depend on this woman's illness?

And if Agnese is getting there,
she'll get there regardless.

Weather Milena is sick or not.

You were right. I've never heard of it.

Alba, check this out.
It's really interesting.

Gabriel, how are you doing?

Hey. Take it easy.
We all have a ton of problems.

Should we go?

Rick, can I talk to you for a moment?

Yes, it's just we have to
give the patient her diagnosis.

-It's an urgent case.
-Urgent?

-You go?
-Of course.

Go ahead.

The urgent case is you.

I've been trying to understand the issue.
I've talked about it with the therapist.

I think you're a workaholic.

You're addicted to work.
You weren't like this before COVID.

You bury yourself in work like no other.

When you don't work, you're agitated,
you only settle down when you're here.

And because you're always working,
you're emaciated.

What are you talking about?
I don't have a problem.

We all have problems.

But only who wants to solve them
makes a difference.

Maybe the problem is
that you don't have my same passion.

And the difference is that
I don't expect you to be like me.

Now I'm going to talk
to this genius of a therapist.

It's called cannabinoid
hyperemesis syndrome.

There's a percentage of people
who have this reaction

-with the prolonged use of cannabis.
-That's absurd.

They use it as a remedy against nausea.

That's true.

But in some cases, it's been shown
to have the opposite effect.

It's a new condition.
First seen in Australia in 2004.

Carolina must've read that study
very well. She was the best in her class.

They did further studies in the States.

All the same symptoms
and only one palliative: Very hot showers.

And right now, one only known remedy:

To stop smoking it.

If you think about it,
when you don't smoke it for a while,

like now, you feel better, right?

It'd be ironic.

The only time I could have for myself.

Away from the exams, my mom, my job.

Anyway, I promise that I'll try,
and will let you know. In the end,

I know I've said a lot of things,
but you're the only one who diagnosed me.

So...

Thank you.

Carolina?

I won't tell anyone
that you guys hid a test result.

Because I know you won't do again.

Good.
Having clarified that, I wanted to say...

I'm sorry.

-For my dad, I know.
-No, actually...

I wanted to apologize
for the bulimia comments.

I didn't know and...

I only figured it out later. I'm sorry.

Thanks.

There's nobody here.
We're closed due to the weather.

Come on, professor, no news?
You said it wouldn't be long.

It went as I said. The board's decision
has just been revealed.

You think you only get things done
in Milan?

We're not kicking
the can down the road, here.

Good.

Now, score a goal with that can. Bye.

Oh, finally.
I've been waiting for an hour.

-Did we have an appointment?
- No.

Why did you tell Alba all that nonsense?

She was talking about you, then.
She didn't tell me.

She described a situation
and asked an opinion.

But for a real diagnosis,
I'd need to see the patient,

-and the patient needs to agree to it.
-Yes, okay. So?

So, I have a half hour
to talk about it, if you want.

You don't understand.

I have nothing to talk about. Nothing.
I've told Alba and I'm telling you.

I hope that this time it's clear.
Good day.

Gabriel.

It's true.

There's something else. The thing is
that everyone has problems, right?

But you also need the courage
to solve them.

And maybe I didn't have it.

-Hey.
-Maybe what I need...

-Maybe I...
-Hey, hey. Wait.

I'm scared, Lucia.

-Breathe. Breathe.
- I'm scared.

We knew it was gonna be tough.

But we'll solve everything.

We'll get through it.

Okay.

The test results came back and...

you don't have lupus.

I knew it. Nobody can help me.
I swear that I'm not imagining the pain.

The fact that you don't have
an organic illness

doesn't mean that you're not suffering.
You have every right to feel better.

But you have to go to the right place.

We can... recommend a specialist.

I brought you these.

Manuel doesn't like them, but he doesn't
say anything to spare your feelings.

Thank you. I know he spits them out, but
it's the only thing I always have with me.

My mouth is often dry, but I can't
drink water all the time, so I take these.

You hadn't told me this.

-What?
-About the dry mouth.

Well, compared to the pain,
it's not a big deal. I just take these.

Can I check something?

-Yes.
-Open your mouth, stick out your tongue.

How did I not think about it?
Her tongue is fissured.

And her light sensitivity is real.

-No, no, no.
-One second. Wait.

Okay.

Conjunctivitis.

Okay.

This is called the Schirmer test.
It's used to measure your tear secretion.

You could really have
an autoimmune disease.

We didn't know which,
but maybe now we have an idea.

-Okay. Can you stay here for five minutes?
-Yes.

I'll go let Giulia know
and cancel the release.

If Andrea is right,

due to this illness
your white blood cells,

infiltrate the glands that secrete fluids,
and damage them.

-And it has to do with the pain?
-Yes. Of course.

One cases out of three
shows serious joint inflammation.

-And you can heal?
-Yes.

It's treatable. You can alleviate
the symptoms and lead a normal life.

"A normal life."

Manuel doesn't even remember
what I'm like when I'm normal.

I don't either.

Don't cry.
Otherwise your test will be void.

I noticed the lacrimal
and saliva secretion,

and Sjögren syndrome explains it all.

We only focused on the pain.

Milena did also.
She was obsessed with it for years.

So? Did we get it wrong?

No, the test is positive.

I'll ask for a biopsy
of the salivary glands

to confirm and evaluate
the stage of the disease.

By the way, I'm sorry for what happened
with Lorenzo's sister.

Maybe there was another way to help her,
but you acted impulsively.

And by doing that,
you often make mistakes.

Or you save lives.

-Which you can't save anymore, now.
-It doesn't matter. I took a risk, I lost.

I can accept
that I won't be a doctor anymore.

Because maybe there's something
even more important for us.

I don't remember,
but I think it should be fun.

It's an invite for a convention.
Do you want to go?

Thanks.

Agnese? Hey. Wait.

I've been feeling that way too.

How?

As if I was using a patient's health
for my own benefit.

However, we really helped a woman
feel better, and would've done it anyway.

It so happens that there are
positive consequences for everyone.

Manuel will finally have a relationship
with his mother, and you and I...

It's not that.

I know that foster care is there
to help families who are struggling.

And I know that it's often temporary.

At least, you hope it is, because it means
that those families are doing better.

I just...
didn't expect it to be this hard.

Yeah, well, you've been really brave.
Being a foster mom is extremely hard.

I didn't do it alone.

-Of course, I know.
-I'll talk to Davide.

But now, I have to tell Manuel.

You already knew, right?

I'm a coward.

A traitor.

That day I had the chance...

But I already
couldn't take it anymore for a while.

-You should've told someone.
-Exactly.

Exactly. I'm a coward.

COVID TESTING ROOM

The nurse who gave me the test...

She forgot to write the test result.

So, I took it, and I wrote...

"positive."

When Teresa sent me home,
I was only thinking about that.

Can you believe it?

I understand that kind of pain.

-I've felt that fear.
-No. You didn't run.

You didn't cheat your colleagues.

I cheated much more than you think,
but I'd do it again, if I had to.

-You do it for others, not for yourself.
-Often, it's the same thing.

Not for me! Not for me, Andrea!
Stop trying to console me! Enough.

I know the others won't forgive me.

I did something terrible.

I didn't accept my responsibilities.

At least, I'm able to say it.

You were right.

The secrets we carry inside,
they kill you.

I have to be able to live...

with this shame.

What you did is human.

Taking your own life for it,
would've been inhuman.

And I would've never forgiven myself.

I'm sorry I wasn't there.

And I'm sorry I didn't notice anything.

It's not that you weren't there.

It's that I'm too smart

-and fooled everyone.
-Fuck off.

Fooled you too.

-How did you figure it out?
-I put some clues together.

Like with a diagnosis.

After all, we're always doctors.

-What's happening?
-Nothing.

Just craving a bit of normality.

-Where's Manuel? I have to talk to him.
-First, I have to tell you something.

Today Manuel told me
what you guys did together.

He was like any kid who tells his dad
what he did with his mom.

I know we're not his parents.
And I never thought it'd be easy,

but I was counting on you.
You were the expert.

You were a mother already.

But you weren't there.

And this made me very angry.
I know it's not your fault, but I felt...

inadequate, stupid.

So I became an asshole.

Because I couldn't forgive you.

Until today.

Agnese, I should've been there for you
more than anyone else.

Instead, I made things hard for you.

I'm sorry.

I'm not the expert.

But you're definitely the one
who can make us a family!

-Manuel's mom is doing better.
-Of course.

I said "a family."

Your tickets, please.

What...?

Your favorite movie.
Your favorite junk to eat.

I wasn't on board with the carrots and
cucumbers, but Davide said you love them.

What is that? Mozzar-- No!

-Nutrition education was never my thing.
-How is it?

Thank you, yes. Thank you.
You won't regret it. Thanks.

I have a job.
And this time I won't let it go.

I'm happy for you.

And for Manuel.

Even if it won't be easy for me.
I haven't been able to tell him yet.

You know, I had some issues at first.

But it wasn't him, it was me.

He's an easy kid. Doesn't make a fuss.

Maybe he doesn't talk much but...

He never makes problems.

He'd rather keep inside
the things that hurt him.

That's why
he needs so much love and attention.

I'm sorry,
I shouldn't be telling you this.

No, please. You know him better than I do.

I didn't even think
how much he'd be hurting.

-He also had a hard life.
-Yes, but he's doing well.

He was able to keep being special
regardless. You're lucky to be his mom.

Thank you.

Good morning. Ready for the biopsy?

-Yes.
-Good luck.

-Surprise!
-Hey.

-Susie, what are you doing here?
-We wanted to show you this.

Management confirmed that Susanna

will keep benefitting from the hospital's
Family Solidarity Fund.

The chairman
must've understood the situation.

No, he just followed the rules,
based on the documents.

The results of the investigation on how
hospitals in Rome handled COVID are out.

They're already done, there,

because of the fewer deaths,
so they're setting a precedent.

They found that it'd be misleading

and impossible to establish
a patient zero

because the virus was already
in circulation for months.

Therefore,
Lorenzo's responsibility is excluded.

And the solidarity fund's chairman
ruled in Susanna's favor.

-Susie. Susie! Susie!
-Yes!

Yes, yes.

The hospitals in Rome...

Did you know
that Damiano's dad is a nurse?

Yes, I know. He ended up in trouble
for some accusations during COVID.

He's not in trouble anymore.

Looks like the final hearing took place
and thanks to a surprise testimony,

he was acquitted.

At least, now we know
the good reason why he did it.

You say that
as if you want to forgive him.

You don't get it, do you?
He already knew the results from Rome.

He fooled Caruso.

He gave him Lorenzo's note knowing that
it wouldn't have made a difference,

and got a favor for his dad.

And you think this will save you?

Caruso will have you fired anyway.

It's possible.

Yes, but Damiano couldn't have known that.

Damiano?

See that you should've trusted me?

So, it's true that you screwed Caruso?

Why didn't you tell me?

Because if he noticed that nobody was
worried, he would've known I was bluffing.

You used me to save your dad.

I solved everyone's problems.

And before I used that note, I made sure
that it wouldn't damage anyone.

You don't even have to worry
about keeping the secret anymore.

What if things here
didn't end like in Rome?

-It would've been unlikely.
-But not impossible.

So, not only you used me,

-you also gambled with our lives.
-What are you talking about?

Actions have consequences.

But don't worry. It's not war.

You got lucky that everything went well.
We can be colleagues.

I wanted to thank you.
The biopsy confirmed the...

Whatever the name is.

They're sending me home
with a treatment I have to follow.

Listen, I've thought about it.

The job they've offered me
is as a waitress on a cruise ship.

It pays well, but that's not the point.

This is my last chance to...

see the world, travel. Maybe meet someone.

If I take Manuel back now...

I won't be able to leave. And I'm afraid
that I'd never forgive him for it.

It's also your last chance to be a mother.
He deserves it.

Or he deserves someone like you.

Who's able to make
the right choice for him without fear.

So, I-- If you agree.

I'm willing to give him up for adoption.

So nobody can take him from you.

As long as you let me
come see him once in a while.

So maybe I can finally get him
some real presents.

What's going on?
Milena wants to talk to you...

And you want to talk...

to me.

You decided to keep Manuel, right?

I'm happy, Andrea.

I want it more than anything.

And the relationship that's not working?
The issues with Davide? Us?

I ask you to forgive me.

I was scared of my problems...

and I dumped them on you, because
you're able to make them disappear.

You made me fall for you
for a second time.

But Davide made me fall in love deeply
little by little.

We were a family already.

I just didn't notice.

For what is worth,
I wanted to say thank you.

I realized that I was there
for this patient, for better or worse.

And it's thanks to you.

Excuse me.

So, now, champ, take your backpack off...

Hey. What are you doing here?

I'll take you to swim class today.

We're really happy that there weren't
any consequences for Susanna Lazzarini.

However, it's clear that...

regardless of the significance
of that note,

the fact that it was taken and hidden,

well, it's illegal.

Do you know who did it?

At the end of the day, Doc was right.

But Andrea lost anyway.

Management...

decided to send you both
to the convention.

Not Doc and Andrea, but you and Cecilia.

What are you talking about?
I'm not going anywhere.

Well, I think you will.

I won't even be a doctor anymore.

I won't be anything. I lost it all.

Listen, I'm sorry about Agnese.

But for the rest,
you're still in the game.

Thanks to Cecilia.
She didn't testify against you.

I think you'll have to find a way
to show your gratitude.

Maybe during the convention.

Not after, obviously.
Since you'll be taking her place as chief.

-Are you serious?
-Pretty much. Yes!

Maybe Andrea lost,

but Doc always wins.

What were you thinking, doctor?

Fanti did something illegal,
everything was perfect to get rid of him.

Not at all.

Because I never really saw him take
that note. Maybe it was just out of place.

During that time,
a lot of documents got lost.

Don't bullshit me, doctor.

I don't know why,
but you wanted to protect him.

He manipulated you, too.

Oh, Fanti. It's you.

We were just saying how happy we are
about how things turned out.

I'm sure. I know how much
you want me to be chief.

We'll see each other again
for the final test.

No.

There's been a change of plans.

Since you passed your tests with reserve.

The examining board decided that before
the test you'll have to run a simulation.

What kind of simulation?

You'll be chief for a day.
And your performance will be reviewed.

I'll let you know soon.

Why do you think he hates me like this?

He doesn't believe in your method.

How about you?

Did you change your mind?

You could've gotten rid of me but...

I don't like your method either.

But I understood your motivations.

Anyway, thank you.

How did it go with Agnese?

I know that...

-you were trying to help the mom--
-It's over.

Agnese and I are over.

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-Give me some good news.
-No.

I can't, unfortunately.

Things haven't gone as we hoped,
Fanti is still in the running.

But he can't take that last test,

otherwise he'll easily pass.

You say that as if you have a solution.

I do, actually.

I already have something in mind.

But this time, I'll need your help.

Names, events, characters are fictitious.
Any similarity is coincidental.

Subtitles Translated by:
Andrea Coppola